Beirrogo moved moving toward side, leapt a position to come out, two people sat in the tailstock, is swinging the leg like the child, looks that the train threw into the sand and crushed stone mist and dust behind, vanished does not see. 伯洛戈往旁边挪了挪,给艾缪腾了个位置出来,两人坐在车尾,像孩子一样荡着腿,看着火车将砂石烟尘抛到身后,消失不见。 Since seeing the astronaut, Beirrogo is certain, „the previous generation” does not have such simply, own crossing over and devil who certainly think have the complicated relations. 自从见到宇航员后,伯洛戈可以肯定,“前世”绝没有自己想的那样简单,自己的穿越与魔鬼有着千丝万缕的关系。 Under the Beirrogo angle of view, he „the previous generation” will regard as another world, oneself spanned the wall barrier of the world in the devil strength doubtful, arrived in the present world, and in this place rebirth. 在伯洛戈视角下,他将“前世”视作另一个世界,自己疑似在魔鬼力量跨越了世界的壁障,抵达了如今的世界,并于此地重生。 „Most starts, my life is very ordinary, ordinary is like all living things.” “最开始,我的人生很普通,普通的就和芸芸众生一样。” Beirrogo hidden went to about oneself „the previous generation” the part, this also do not the clear matter, do not say, then he told the Beirrogo Lazarus life for from the beginning. 伯洛戈隐去了关于自己“前世”的部分,这种自己也搞不明白的事,还是别和人说了,然后他为艾缪从头讲述起伯洛戈·拉撒路的一生。 „ According to the current geography division, I was born in coming the cushion union, in a common remote small town. “按照目前的地理划分,我生于来茵同盟境内,一个不起眼的偏远小镇上。 That small town is very common, on many maps has not labelled its position, the child of leaving home can only by the road that the recollection found to go home. ” 那座小镇真的很不起眼,许多地图上都没有标注它的位置,离家的孩子只能靠回忆找到归家的路。” Chatted these, Beirrogo sound light, the body went lower, both hands leaned in the ground, partly is raising head. 聊起这些,伯洛戈的声音轻了起来,身体靠后,双手拄在地上,半仰着头。 „ By the small town, has a forest, inside was covered with the red Pine, they press together densely and numerously, the leaf of cover blocked from all light, even during the daytime, in forest deep place, as before black resembles at night. “在小镇旁,有着一片森林,里面长满了红杉树,它们密密麻麻地挤在一起,茂密的树叶遮住了所有的光,即便是白天,在森林的深处,依旧黑的像夜晚。 That small town itself/Ben does not have the name, because of this Chinese larch forest, gradually, people then called it by the Chinese larch town/subdues, the Chinese larch town/subdues was very small, how long usually unable to get away, can circle small town. 那座小镇本没有名字,因这片红杉森林,久而久之,人们便以红杉镇称呼它,红杉镇很小,通常走不了多久,就能绕完小镇一圈。 Before depending on forest, in the small town most people's work, is a lumberjack, cuts the trees with effort, then waits for the merchant to come, ships out the small town them, to receive in exchange wealth. ” 临靠着森林,小镇上绝大部分人的工作,都是伐木工,费力地砍下树木,然后等商人来,将它们运出小镇,以换取钱财。” Took back the both legs, the kneecap cast sat side Beirrogo, cocked the ears to listen respectfully. 艾缪收回了双腿,抱膝坐在伯洛戈身旁,侧耳聆听着。 „In others with small town is the same, my father is also a lumberjack, he goes out in the morning, in the evening will come back, every day tired is not good.” “就和小镇里的其他人一样,我的父亲也是一位伐木工,他清晨出门,傍晚才会回来,每天都累的不行。” When raised these, Beirrogo thought that some memory mold lakes, following was the strangeness that was hard to diverge. 提起这些时,伯洛戈觉得记忆有些模湖,随之而来的便是难以散去的陌生感。 „ Do not visit him is a lumberjack, but he is not vigorous and healthy, seeming like somewhat is even emaciated, but is such fragile body, can actually wield the heavy axe, but actually giant Chinese larch, people said, he like the iron bar that hammers together. “别看他是位伐木工,但他并不健壮,看起来甚至有些瘦弱,可就是这样瘦弱的身体,却能挥起沉重的斧,噼倒巨大的红杉,人们都说,他就像一块锻打的铁条。 My mother was not healthy, therefore she has not gone out the work, but in being responsible for place manages family affairs the thing, when rest she likes weaving the clothes, is half tailor, family's clothing is she does. ” 我的母亲身体一直不好,所以她没有出门工作,而是负责处理家里的事物,休息时她喜欢织衣,算是半个裁缝,家里的衣物都是她做的。” Beirrogo is recalling unemotionally. 伯洛戈面无表情地回忆着。 „ I was born in such family. “我出生在这样的家庭里。 I am somewhat precocious, in childhood and contemporaries difference was very big, the contemporaries when the chase created a disturbance, I was literate when the learn/study, they basic writing is unable to write, I have ability that read most books. ” 我有些早熟,小时候和同龄人差别还很大的,同龄人在追逐打闹的时候,我在学习识字,他们连基本的文字都无法书写时,我已经具备了阅读大部分书籍的能力。” Beirrogo does not have the means is not precocious, he has „the previous generation” since birth the memory, that serious burden made Beirrogo and all of Chinese larch town/subdues is incompatible. 伯洛戈没办法不早熟,他生来就具备着“前世”的记忆,那沉重的负担令伯洛戈与红杉镇的一切都格格不入。 In order to clarify all these, Beirrogo of childhood, studies diligently with this world related knowledge, attempted to find some clues. 为了搞清这一切,幼年的伯洛戈,努力学习与这个世界有关的知识,企图找到些许的线索。 „ Also possibly is my precocious relations, my family member is not good at being together with me, in their words...... my not likely child. “也可能是我早熟的关系,我的家人都不怎么擅长与我相处,用他们的话说……我不像个孩子。 Similarly, the child on town/subdues also fears me, said that I am a anomaly. ” 同样,镇上的孩子也怕我,说我是个怪胎。” Beirrogo silent, self-ridicules saying that „I perhaps really am a anomaly.” 伯洛戈沉默了一阵,自嘲道,“我或许真的是个怪胎。” „In them some people depend the body to be stronger than to bully me me, sometimes I can escape, but sometimes I will be stopped up, comes under attack.” “他们中有人仗着身体比我壮来欺负我,有时候我能逃掉,但有时候我会被堵住,挨一顿打。” Is surprised, she has not thought completely Beirrogo will have such past, just wants to comfort Beirrogo several, Beirrogo says made her feel the shocking words. 艾缪惊讶,她完全没想到伯洛戈会有这样的过去,刚想安慰伯洛戈几句,伯洛戈却说出了更令她感到震惊的话。 „ I have no idea, is regarded as the stubbornnness of child, I have no interest and one group of children haggle over, appears is so inappropriate. “我对此没什么想法的,就当做是小孩子的顽劣,我没兴趣和一群孩子计较,那样显得太不得体了。 But the patience of person is limited, they bullied my number of times to be many, I realized that should select the lesson to them. 但人的耐心是有限的,他们欺负我的次数多了,我意识到是该给他们点教训了。 Days of as usual, they pursue me, I introduced the forest deep place them intentionally, on the same day was when completely jet black, they started the fear. ” 有一天就和往常一样,他们来追我,我故意将他们引进了森林的深处,当天完全漆黑下来时,他们开始恐惧了。” The Beirrogo expression is subtle, seems enjoying in own recollection, „even the strong physical body, is still inferior to the stone to be hard, I grasp a stone, badly beaten that they pound.” 伯洛戈表情微妙,仿佛正享受于自己的回忆,“即便再强壮的肉体,也不如石头坚硬,我抓起一块石头,把他们砸的头破血流。” „Naturally, unavoidably was afterward troublesome, is good does not dare to annoy me because of them, the person on town/subdues also feared me.” “当然,事后免不了许多麻烦,好在他们再也不敢惹我了,镇上的人也更怕我了。” Beirrogo smiles reluctantly, „, but my parents love my, knows that I like reading, my father will often hold the merchant who the outside world comes, brings all kinds of books, although said that he and my mother is not literate.” 伯洛戈无奈地笑了笑,“但我父母还是爱我的,知道我喜欢看书,我父亲经常会托外界来的商人,带来各种各样的书,虽然说他和我母亲都不识字。” When mentioned these, Beirrogo remembered the interesting matter, „my father was also deceived several times by the merchant, the merchant said that these books were the history are related, but in fact was some cuts in the together publication.” 提及这些时,伯洛戈想起了有趣的事,“我父亲还被商人骗了几次,商人说那些书是和历史有关的,但实际上是一些剪切在一起的报刊。” „Before I join the army the life probably am this, reads and studies, is all right to help family's busy, the monotonous day is repeating day-by-day.” “我从军前的生活大概就是这样,看书、学习,没事帮帮家里的忙,单调的日子一天天地重复着。” Beirrogo asked that „very bored? Does not seem like me to have the life that completely.” 伯洛戈问道,“很无聊是吧？完全不像是我该有的人生。” „May live is this, monotonous and bored is the theme,” said, „we like this thrillingly layer on layer/heavily, are the true anomalies.” “可生活就是这样,单调与无聊才是主旋律,”艾缪说,“我们这样惊险重重的,才是真正的怪胎。” Beirrogo smiled. 伯洛戈笑了起来。 Deep breath, she somewhat said anxiously, „Beirrogo,...... your childhood is actually very bad, right?” 艾缪深呼吸,她有些紧张地说道,“伯洛戈,其实……你的童年很糟,是吗？” „Why said?” “为什么这么说？” „When you mentioned your parents, you stressed that they loved you very much, but your expression was very stiff, like telling a story of stranger.” “你提及你父母时,你强调他们很爱你,但你的表情却很僵硬,就像在讲一个陌生人的故事。” Said, „I know you will not deceive me, therefore this is not the lie, but is your true mood is so.” 艾缪说,“我知道你不会骗我,所以这不是谎言,而是你真正的情绪就是如此。” Beirrogo silent, the vision looks at the railway rail under body at a loss, it extends unceasingly, until vanishing in field of vision end. 伯洛戈沉默了下来,目光茫然地看着身下的铁轨,它不断地延伸,直到消失在视野尽头。 Like this continued very long one silent, and even felt oneself spoke incorrectly the words, prepares to apologize. 这样的沉默持续了很长一阵,乃至艾缪觉得自己说错了话,准备道歉。 „In my childhood, a long time, I regarding my parents, and even this world, had an intense strangeness and resistance feeling.” “在我的小时候,很长的一段时间里,我对于我的父母,乃至这个世界,都有一股强烈的陌生感与抗拒感。” Beirrogo tries to confess own innermost feelings, „I do not belong to this world.” 伯洛戈试着坦白自己的内心,“我不属于这个世界。” „ What is interesting is that I can also feel the same mood from my parents' body, they love me very much, but they have a strangeness to me, we rarely talked openly, rarely conducted the profound exchange, even shared the same roots, is maintaining a sense of distance as before. “有趣的是,我也能从我父母的身上感受到相同的情绪,他们很爱我,但他们对我同样有着一股陌生感,我们很少谈心,也很少进行深刻的交流,即便血脉相连,依旧保持着一种距离感。 Compared with the family member, we are more like the close friend, but again how intimate, consistently is maintaining the safe distance. ” 比起家人,我们更像是亲密的朋友,可再怎么亲密,始终都保持着安全的距离。” Beirrogo understands, this is own „the previous generation” in influence that time, „the previous generation” is reminding itself unceasingly, this is not own world, regarding this world, oneself is the thorough stranger. 伯洛戈明白,这是自己的“前世”在影响那时的自己,“前世”不断提醒着自己,这不是自己的世界,对于这个世界而言,自己是彻彻底底的异乡人。 As for parents...... 至于父母…… Beirrogo is not willing to penetrate to think these matters...... how, regardless of regard, they are oneself parents. 伯洛戈不愿深入去想那些事……无论自己怎样看待,他们都是自己的父母。 In any event is, this is the inarguable fact. 无论如何都是,这是不容争辩的事实。 „To be honest, I somewhat could not recall their appearances, possibly really passed was too long.” “说实话,我有些记不起他们的样子了,可能真的过去了太久吧。” Beirrogo recalled diligently, in the mind only remained the picture of mold lake, the past memory was also so. 伯洛戈努力地回忆了一下,脑海里只剩模湖的画面,连带当年的记忆也是如此。 „My life some separated, I will even have one type, joins the army I before life, not true I, but is a happy dreamland, confused illusion.” “我的人生有些过于割裂了,我甚至会产生一种,从军生活前的我,并不真正的我,而是一段美好的梦境,错乱的幻觉。” Said, „I have had similar feeling.” 艾缪说,“我有过类似的感觉。” „I would the dream to another me, dreamed of her life...... I to know afterward that was Ellis, under was her soul leaves behind the echo.” “我总会梦到另一个我,梦见她的人生……后来我才知道,那是爱丽丝,是她灵魂遗留下的回响。” „Sounds also really the resembles,” Beirrogo continues saying that „treated in the dark prison cell for a long time, the closed/pass head was not miraculous, said so many with you, in fact was I before joining the army the life complete remembered.” “听起来还真蛮像的,”伯洛戈继续说道,“在黑牢里待久了,关的脑袋也不灵光了,和你说了这么多,事实上就是我对从军生活前的全部记忆了。” The Beirrogo suspicion was the light ignition went bad own brain. 伯洛戈怀疑是光灼烧坏了自己的脑子。 „The detailed matter, I could not record, after reviving, rapidly in the dreamland that in the mind abated, was only left over some traces, to recall.” “再详细的事情,我也记不起来了,就像苏醒过来后,迅速在脑海里消退的梦境,只剩下了些许的痕迹,供以回忆。” Cracks a joke saying that „perhaps that was really the dreamland?” 艾缪开玩笑道,“或许那真是梦境了呢？” „Why said?” “为什么这么说？” „Because you are Debtor, the Debtor body has what strange matter, is not accidental/surprised, after all this came from the wicked interest of devil,” is giving free reign to the imagination, „you also said that you content of unclear transaction.” “因为你是债务人啊,债务人身上发生什么怪事,都不意外,毕竟这来自于魔鬼的恶趣味,”艾缪畅想着,“你也说了,你记不清交易的内容了。” Beirrogo has not spoken, the slow train of thought rotated rapidly, he continues to get down along joke, has not transferred several, was broken by. 伯洛戈没有说话,迟钝的思绪飞速转动了起来,他沿着艾缪的玩笑话继续想下去,可没转几圈,就被艾缪打断。 Asked, „after leaving prison, do you have to go home to have a look?” 艾缪问,“出狱后,你有回家看看吗？” „No, like me said that the place that I was born is a remote small town, on the map also marks rare, in the official record of cushion union, does not have Chinese larch town/subdues place.” “没有,就像我说的,我出生的地方是一个偏远的小镇,就连地图上也少有标记,在来茵同盟的官方记录里,并没有红杉镇这个地方。” Beirrogo seems like telling a fairy tale, „the child who leaves home can only find the road that goes home by the recollection...... I already unclear these, do not say that 67 years passed by, all changed, perhaps that vast Chinese larch forest, had turned into the reclamation paddies.” 伯洛戈像是在讲述一个童话,“离家的孩子只能靠回忆找到归家的路……我已经记不清这些了,更不要说六十七年过去了,一切都变了,说不定那一望无际的红杉林,早就变成了开垦的田地了。” „As for my parents......” “至于我父母……” Beirrogo stopped slightly, then said, „I tried to think these matters.” 伯洛戈停顿了稍许,然后说道,“我试着不去想这些事。” Is gazing at the Beirrogo expression, he as before is that indifferent cold peaceful appearance, but the eyeground of this Beirrogo is fluctuating sadly. 艾缪注视着伯洛戈的表情,他依旧是那副无所谓的冷澹模样,可这一次伯洛戈的眼底起伏着哀伤。 She understands, 67 years are short regarding the non- dead flicker, may regarding human, this perhaps be their life. 她明白,六十七年对于不死者而言是短暂一瞬,可对于人类而言,这或许就是他们一生了。 Some things do not need to think is too clear. 有些事情没必要想的太明白。 Comforts saying that „I think Lazarus and his wife, will bless your.” 艾缪安慰道,“我想拉撒路夫妇,会祝福你的。” Beirrogo said in a low voice, „Lazarus and his wife?” 伯洛戈低声道,“拉撒路夫妇吗？” „What's wrong?” “怎么了？” „It‘s nothing, my parents' surname is not Lazarus, they do not have the surname.” “没什么,我父母的姓氏并不是拉撒路,他们没有姓氏。” Somewhat has doubts, she knew from the book, because the local culture is different, some people do not have the surname, but is very obvious, Beirrogo has the surname, this strange Lazarus. 艾缪有些疑惑,她从书里得知,因为地区文化不同,有人是没有姓氏的,但很显然,伯洛戈是有姓氏的,这奇怪的拉撒路。 Beirrogo made an effort to pat the cheeks, making oneself more sober. 伯洛戈用力地拍了拍脸颊,让自己清醒一些。 „My parents are the orphans of chaos caused by war, without the family, is not literate, does not have the name.” “我的父母都是战乱的孤儿,没有家庭,不识字,更没有名字。” „When I know these, was accidental/surprised, was curious their, was how for my extraction such name.” “我知道这些时,也意外极了,好奇他们这样,是怎么为我的取出这样的名字。” Beirrogo is recalling that strange days. 伯洛戈回忆着那段陌生的日子。 „My parents said, my name is not they take, but is their friend takes for me.” “我父母所说,我的名字并不是他们取的,而是他们的一位朋友为我而取的。” Beirrogo is talking over own name in a low voice. 伯洛戈低声念叨着自己的名字。 „Beirrogo Lazarus.” “伯洛戈·拉撒路。”