„-!” “啊-！” „Do not come, do not come!” “别过来,别过来！” Zi Di is running away distressedly. 紫蒂狼狈地逃窜着。 But Zhen Jin closely is pursuing the young girl. 而针金紧紧地追着少女。 „Quite hungry, I am quite hungry!” Zhen Jin thorough different turned into silver Spear Scorpion, had been routed hungrily, the brain is the idea of feed. “好饿,我好饿！”针金彻底异变成了白银枪蝎,已经被饥饿击溃,满脑子都是进食的想法。 Zi Di was compelled the hole bottom finally, was tripped on the ground by the stone. 紫蒂终于被逼到洞底,被石头绊倒在地上。 Zhen Jin throws ruthlessly, throws to her body, the giant pincers and sharp scorpion tail start ruthlessly. 针金狠狠一扑,扑到她的身上,巨大的螯足和锋利的蝎尾狠狠发动。 Tittering. 噗嗤。 Zi Di was dismembered instantaneously, blood splash, incarnadine hole bottom, incarnadine Zhen Jin complete field of vision. 紫蒂在瞬间被肢解,鲜血飞溅,染红了洞底,也染红了针金的全部视野。 next moment, Zhen Jin opens the eyes fiercely. 下一刻,针金猛地睁开双眼。 He saw the jet black nighttime sky. 他看到了漆黑的夜空。 His big mouth is panting for breath, chilly air instills into the chest lung, his pupil gradually expands to the normal size, the mood returns to normal gradually. 他大口喘息着,清冷的空气灌输胸肺,他的瞳孔逐渐扩张到正常大小,心情渐渐平复下来。 Nightmare. 噩梦。 He had a nightmare. 他做了一场噩梦。 In this nightmare, he turned into Spear Scorpion, starts to Zi Di, regarded the young girl food that appeases hunger the life. 在这噩梦中,他变成了枪蝎,对紫蒂下手,将少女当成了充饥活命的食物。 Zhen Jin sits quietly. 针金悄悄坐起来。 He had/left cold sweat. 他出了一身的冷汗。 Sizes up all around, Zi Di is sleeping peacefully in his side, Bai Ya and Lan Zao are lying down in not far away respectively. 打量四周,紫蒂正在他身边安睡,白芽和蓝藻分别在不远处躺着。 After hearing the Cang Xu words, Zhen Jin then stunned Lan Zao, places it. 听到苍须的一番话后,针金便打昏了蓝藻,将其安置起来。 As for Cang Xu, he is responsible for defending after midnight. 至于苍须,他负责守下半夜。 The bonfire calmly is still burning, the flame wanted slightly half compared with before, but was still providing continuously warm. 篝火还在静静地燃烧着,火焰比之前要小了一半,但仍旧源源不断地提供着温暖。 The flame shines on the face of Zhen Jin, the Young Knight look appears the light and shade to be uncertain. 火光映照在针金的脸上,少年骑士的神色显得明暗不定。 „Why will I have such nightmare?” “我为什么会做这样的噩梦？” „Is because I actually in worrying about and being afraid magic crystal in this heart?” “是因为我其实一直在担忧和害怕这颗心中的魔晶吗？” This is very normal psychological response. 这是很正常的心理反应。 Imagine, a normal person grew the corner suddenly, or gave birth to the tail, either the whole body skin blows up lumps, can not worry and be afraid? 设想一下,一个正常人忽然长出了犄角,或者生出了尾巴,亦或者浑身皮肤鼓起一个个的瘤,能不担忧和害怕吗？ No one will have magic core, but Zhen Jin grew. 没有人会有魔核,但针金偏偏生长出了一颗。 And this magic core is very mystical, strange and powerful, can make Zhen Jin turn into the monster, can attract absorbs bloodline of life body. 并且这颗魔核十分神秘、诡异和强大,能让针金变成怪物,能吸摄生命体的血脉。 „Does not have the means to use battle energy, encounters the danger, I can only use it.” “没办法动用斗气,遇到危险,我只能用它。” „Oh...... the future can not use, try not to use.” “唉……今后能不动用,还是尽量不要用了。” „Who knows that what serious consequence will have?” “谁知道会有什么严重的后果呢？” Zhen Jin touches own chest subconsciously. 针金下意识地抚摸自己的心口。 He is afraid himself, if abuses magic core, some day will turn into the wild beast monster, again also no longer human form. 他害怕自己如果滥用魔核,有朝一日会变成野兽怪物,再也不复人形。 Zhen Jin felt: This magic crystal has started to tempt him, seduces him to slaughter the common people, the sacrifice was innocent, obtains a more powerful strength and power. 针金觉得:这颗魔晶已经开始引诱他,诱惑他屠戮苍生,牺牲无辜,来获得更加强大的力量和权力。 „On the other hand, I am also afraid myself to become Lan Zao.” Zhen Jin shoots a look at to Lan Zao of distant place. “另外一方面,我也害怕自己成为蓝藻吧。”针金瞥向远处的蓝藻。 Spoke the heart words, he can understand Lan Zao. 说心底话,他能理解蓝藻。 And this understanding very profound. 并且这种理解非常的深刻。 Because Zhen Jin was once facing with the Lan Zao same choice. 因为针金曾经面临着和蓝藻一样的选择。 The hunger can compel the insane person, the hunger to make Zhen Jin turn into Spear Scorpion to steal food golden granite, can make Zi Di think that the lava of cooling bakes the chocolate bread that sticks probably, can make Cang Xu grab a sand to eat. Can make them not let off the thing that any can eat, can think that the jumping rat meat and lizard meat are the unsurpassed delicacies. 饥饿能逼疯人,饥饿能让针金变成枪蝎去偷吃金麻石,能让紫蒂觉得冷却的熔岩像是烤糊的巧克力面包,能让苍须抓着一把沙子都想吃。能让他们不放过任何一个能吃的东西,能觉得跳鼠肉、蜥蜴肉是无上的美味。 Besides the understanding, in the Zhen Jin heart also has the fear and lingering fear. 除了理解,针金心中还有恐惧、后怕。 „If I chose Bai Ya at that time treat as food, then the Lan Zao present appearance, can be my fate?” “如果我当时选择将白芽当做食物,那么蓝藻现在的样子,会不会就是我的下场？” „Although Bai Ya is not my blood younger brother, but I can fully suffer in the heart frequently the suffering and interrogating and torturing of charitable disposition, moral and Knight glory.” “虽然白芽不是我的亲弟弟,但我会时刻饱受心中善念、道德、骑士荣耀的折磨和拷问。” „I will live to might as well die like Lan Zao!” “我会像蓝藻一样生不如死！” Zhen Jin is sad. 针金的心情非常沉重。 Because he very natural and thinks: „In the future, I can turn into such person?” 因为他很自然地又想到:“在将来,我会不会变成这样的人？” In returning to the volcano cavern, carries Bai Ya the time, Young Knight told itself- I have not degenerated. 在回到火山洞窟,背起白芽的时候,少年骑士告诉自己-我没有堕落。 However, he is clear: Oneself have had many ideas. In these ideas selfish and evil, shameless and despicable, making Zhen Jin in face itself afterward almost impossible. 然而,他非常清楚:自己有过许多想法。那些想法里的自私、邪恶、无耻、卑鄙,让针金在事后几乎无法面对自己。 Understanding and fear, heavy beside, Zhen Jin also has arising spontaneously pitying to Lan Zao. 理解、恐惧、沉重之外,针金对蓝藻又有一股油然而生的怜悯。 „To seek livehood, he became wild beast.” “为了求生,他成了一头野兽。” „He killed oneself blood younger brother.” “他杀死了自己的亲弟弟。” „Afterward, he actually arrives at this oasis. Such arrangement, simply is playing jokes upon and ridicule of destiny.” “事后,他却又来到这片绿洲。这样的安排,简直是命运的戏耍和嘲弄。” „Lan Zao regretted, perhaps perhaps morning a discovery oasis, insists again, Huang Zao will not die.” “蓝藻后悔了,或许早一点发现绿洲,或许再坚持一下,黄藻就不会死。” „Extreme regret, keeping him from believing that the death of Huang Zao, overruled the fact that oneself killed the blood younger brother desperately.” “极度的懊悔,让他无法相信黄藻的死亡,拼命地否决自己杀死亲弟弟的事实。” „Even if his vision is normal, he also believes that Huang Zao is also living, saved hope.” “哪怕他视觉都正常,他也坚信黄藻还活着,还有被拯救的希望。” „He deceives himself, goes all-out to deceive itself. He fell into during oneself fantasy, only by doing so, he can escape from the suffering of condemnation and morals of conscience.” “他骗自己,尽全力地骗自己。他陷入了自己的幻想当中,只有这样,他才能逃脱良心的谴责和道德的折磨。” „This oasis real, but he actually fell into oneself mirage.” “这片绿洲是真的,但他却陷入了自己的海市蜃楼之中了。” „However all eventually are only the fantasies.” “然而一切终究只是幻想。” „Our appearances and attitudes, punctured the bubble of fantasy, the brutal reality and truth are placed in Lan Zao again at present.” “我们的出现和态度,戳破了幻想的泡沫,无情的现实和真相再次摆在蓝藻的眼前。” „However this time, he does not have the means to avoid again, without the means deceived itself.” “而这一次,他再也没有办法回避,没有办法骗自己了。” „Said like former Cang Xu, the person who the desert seeks livehood will collapse because of the mirage. Lan Zao is so, and situation is worse.” “就像之前苍须所说,沙漠求生的人会因为海市蜃楼而崩溃。蓝藻正是如此,并且情境更加恶劣。” confessed that if Zhen Jin has not experienced the life and death, he to despise, loathe and hates to the present Lan Zao also bulletin, will very probably adopt the suggestion of Zi Di. 坦白来说,如果针金没有经历生死,他对现在的蓝藻也会报以鄙视、厌恶、憎恨,很可能会采取紫蒂的建议。 However, personally after experiencing so many, the Young Knight body and mind had the huge change. 但是,亲身经历了这么多之后,少年骑士的身心都发生了巨大的变化。 „He is our companions, I had said that must go all-out to save everyone, therefore, I will help him.” Before this is, by bonfire, Zhen Jin after Cang Xu and Cang Xu liangs plants the entirely different suggestion, made decision. “他是我们的同伴,我曾经说过,要尽全力拯救所有人,所以,我会帮助他。”这是之前篝火旁,针金面对苍须种截然不同的建议之后,做出的决定。 Afterward, he sets out, and roasts the dried meat to deliver to front of Lan Zao half bowl of coconut milk. 随后,他就起身,将半碗椰水和烤肉干送到蓝藻面前。 A Lan Zao response, still had not been staring at the Huang Zao corpse dull. 蓝藻没有一点反应,仍旧呆呆地盯着黄藻的尸体。 Finally, Zhen Jin can only stonker Lan Zao. 最终,针金只能将蓝藻击昏。 Why will make such decision , helping Lan Zao? 为什么会做出这样的决定,去帮助蓝藻？ Zhen Jin also found it strange at that time. 针金当时也觉得奇怪。 But now, he was a little clear: „Perhaps because of the one hope of heart. I hope, if one day, I fall to the Lan Zao position, hopes that has outsider to help itself.” 但现在,他有点明白了:“或许是因为自己心底的一种渴望吧。我希望如果有一天,我落到蓝藻的境地,也希望有外人能够帮助自己。” But Zhen Jin is also very clear, he does not have the means really to help Lan Zao. 但针金又很清楚,他没办法真的帮助到蓝藻。 The Lan Zao issue does not lie in external, but lies in his innermost feelings. 蓝藻的问题不在于外在,而在于他的内心。 Zhen Jin was even also suspecting, was also asking Oneself Lan Zao should such person help. 针金甚至也在怀疑,也在问自己-蓝藻这样的人应不应该去帮助。 The human society has the ethics and morals, then ethics and morals of Templar Knight certainly above the standard of populace. Lan Zao such behavior, without doubt is the counter- morals, counter- ethics. 人类社会拥有伦理和道德,那么圣殿骑士的伦理和道德一定更在大众的标准之上。蓝藻这样的行为,无疑是反道德,反伦理的。 „I rescue Lan Zao such person, is actually right?” “我救助蓝藻这样的人,究竟对不对？” „I rescue him , because I did see me on his body?” “我救助他,是不是因为我在他的身上看到了我自己？” „Do I look to give a pretext for oneself possible degeneration?” “我是不是为自己可能的堕落而找借口？” At this moment, looks at the flame of swing, Zhen Jin was feeling oneself are pacing back and forth, is vacillating. 此时此刻,望着摇摆的火苗,针金感到自己在彷徨,在动摇。 He controlled in the heart initially magic crystal, becomes very powerful. He had sufficient food and water, broke out of the crisis in this aspect. 他初步掌控了心中魔晶,变得很强大。他有了充足的食物和水,摆脱了这方面的危机。 But Young Knight felt oneself are weak. 但少年骑士却感到自己虚弱。 He inquired himself in the heart. 他在心底询问自己。 „Actually am I what person?” “我究竟是一个什么样人？” „I was afraid about the death very much, whether I can continue to grasp the Knight spirit, whether to take on to shoulder family's responsibility?” “我对死亡很害怕,我能否能继续秉持骑士的精神,能否担负起家族的责任？” „I whether is a selfish person?” “我是否是一个自私自利的人？” „If I fall to the Lan Zao beforehand situation, how I should choose?” “如果我落到蓝藻之前的处境,我该如何选择？” „If the choice does not eat, I lose life, cannot arrive at the oasis. If the choice eats, I must live to might as well die.” “如果选择不吃,那我就丧失生命,走不到绿洲。如果选择吃,那我就要生不如死。” „Actually which choice is right?” “究竟哪个选择是对的？” Zhen Jin facing oneself, he has not treated as to evade the real own excuse heart core bravely. 针金勇敢地面对自己,他没有将心核当做逃避真实自己的借口。 Zhen Jin cannot answer own question. 针金回答不了自己的提问。 Each ponder, every facing these issues, interrogating and torturing of each mind, intense self-confident, will lose part that he had one time before, then loses part. 每一次思考,每一次面对这些问题,每一次心灵的拷问,他以前拥有的强烈自信,就会丧失一部分,然后又丧失一部分。 In the Zhen Jin heart is clear: When he rescues Bai Ya, to oneself said that has not degenerated. This is actually only a subconscious denial. Who doesn't want to be brave? Who doesn't want to be bright? Who does not think open and aboveboard, do does not have any morals have a deficit? 针金心中非常清楚:他救下白芽时,对自己说没有堕落。这其实只是一种下意识的否定。谁不想勇敢？谁不想光明？谁不想堂堂正正,没有任何道德亏欠？ „However, the Cang Xu words...... indeed are not groundless.” “然而,苍须的话……的确不无道理。” Zhen Jin in true ponder. 针金在真正的思考。 This ponder, compelling to face the ugliness and gloom of own humane most deep place, this without doubt is very painful. 这种思考,逼着自己面对自己人性最深处的丑陋和阴暗,这无疑是非常痛苦的。 Lost to own confidence, Zhen Jin falls into during the deep self-doubt simultaneously. 对自己的信心丧失了,针金同时陷入深深的自我怀疑当中。 By the night bonfire, Knight youngster sets out quietly, partly kneels on the ground. 深夜的篝火旁,骑士少年悄然起身,半跪在地上。 He lowers the head, the hand is covering the heart place, to the Holybright Continent direction, started the confession. 他低下头,手捂着心脏处,面向圣明大陆的方向,开始了忏悔。 „Oh, Emperor Holybright, my God and Lord, under your sight, the world brightened and the shadows fled in a flurry. Right now, your believer and knight has fallen into the entrapment of his mind so he is confessing to you. Please let your holy light shine upon me and wash away my corrupt, hideous, vile and filthy shadows. I beg you to forgive my sinful thoughts......” “神啊，圣明大帝，我伟大的主。在祢的目光下，世界一片光明，阴影仓皇逃窜。现在，祢的信徒，祢的骑士向祢忏悔，只因我陷入了心灵的泥沼。求祢的灵光照我，使我的败坏、丑恶、污秽肮脏的阴影消退。恳求祢赦免我在思想意念上的罪……” The long confession ended. 漫长的忏悔结束了。 The gentle night wind sways in the Young Knight ear bank. 轻柔的夜风在少年骑士的耳畔吹拂。 All in the anticipation of Zhen Jin- gods have not responded. 一切在针金的意料当中-神明没有回应。 youngster disappointed sigh. 少年怅然叹息。 Zi Di rests very ripe. 紫蒂睡得很熟。 Bai Ya lies low in the thick patch of grass, but the Lan Zao whole person rolls up, the side lies down on the ground, probably a shrimp. 白芽平躺在草丛中,而蓝藻则整个人蜷缩起来,侧躺在地上,像是一只虾。 Two person brow tight wrinkles, look pain- they are struggling. 两个人都都眉头紧皱,神色痛苦-他们俩都在挣扎。 The time passes, the dim light of night gradually abates, Sun raises, throws down the extremely hot light. 时间流逝,夜色逐渐消退,太阳升起,投下酷热的光。 Before the innumerable days and nights, the nature was still revolving the invariable rule. 如同之前无数的日夜,大自然仍旧运转着不变的规律。 Any worried and sad, pain, confused wait/etc sentiment, in this vast nature, as if seems artificial. 任何的苦恼、悲伤、痛楚、迷茫等等的感情,在这浩瀚的自然中,似乎都显得矫情。 Hugely big, is living in a big way. 天大地大,活着最大。 Before wealth right beauty honor, certainly is food and water. 财富权利美色荣誉之前,一定是食物和水。 No matter is painful, is confused, is sad, the life must continue. 不管多么痛苦,多么迷茫,多么悲伤,生活仍旧要继续。