Tidies up the field ridge, after rows of haunch up, Zhao Hua beats the waist to put down the hoe, rests to the one side. 把田垄收拾一下,一排排拱起之后,赵华就捶着腰放下锄头,到一旁去歇息。 Backs on the front door, sits on the threshold, he calmly looks far is being lost in thought spatially. 背靠大门,坐在门槛上,他静静地望着远空出神。 From started hopefully? 从什么时候开始有希望了呢？ Zhao Hua cannot record, at that time prepared dead, lives for day to gain for day, afterward unknowingly, thought the life had the hope, probably after having Little Jinli, probably early. 赵华自己也记不起来,那时都准备好要死了,活一天赚一天,后来不知不觉,就觉得生活有了希望,好像是有了小锦鲤之后,又好像是更早一点。 „You said Lu An, which did he go? On a blink, then the big person suddenly went away.” Chen Zhirong collects saying that regarding this issue, he could not think through. “你说陆安,他到底去哪了？就一眨眼,那么大一个人说没就没了。”陈志荣凑过来道,对于这个问题,他一直想不通。 If died, or got sick, that can accept, but such vanishes, does not leave a trace, the bouillon that even carries is hot. 如果是死了,或者病了,那都能接受,但是就那样消失,不留一丝痕迹,甚至端出去的肉汤还是热乎的。 If not he from the space station, said that was seized him possibly to believe several points by ufo. 如果不是他从空间站下来,说是被ufo抓走了他可能都会信几分。 „Who knows.” “谁知道呢。” Zhao Hua said like this. 赵华这样说。 „Perhaps he is a Bodhisattva, is crosses our.” Zhao Hua thought that this guess is quite reasonable, the Bodhisattva incarnation ten million/countless, universal restoration, turns into the Lu An appearance also possibly to have. “也许他才是菩萨,是来渡我们的。”赵华觉得这个猜测比较合理,菩萨化身千万,普渡众生,变成陆安的模样也不是没可能。 This and his belief does not conflict, since there is a Bodhisattva, explained brightly, most was not an administrative area, perhaps his god will also save him in some day. 这和他的信仰并不冲突,既然有菩萨,就说明有神,最多不是一个行政区的,也许他的神也会在某天来救他。 „Therefore is salutes the Lu An Bodhisattva?” “所以是南无陆安菩萨？” Chen Zhirong feels their very mental illness, but in the innermost feelings actually favors believing. 陈志荣觉得他们很神经病,但内心里竟然更倾向于相信。 Went bad, oneself also had the problem. 坏了,自己也有毛病了。 Chen Zhirong sad discovery this matter. 陈志荣悲伤的发现这件事。 Actually is very normal, he is at the final stage of the civilization has experienced most people, wants many compared with the present anybody, although short over 30 years old, the experience is very complex. 其实很正常,他算是文明终期经历过最多的人,比眼下任何人都要多虽然才短短三十多岁,经历却无比复杂。 Has seen the happiness of old Age. 见过旧时代的美好。 Experienced disaster initial period that turmoil. 经历了灾难初期那一段动乱。 Returned the space station to pass 20 years old to over 30 years old of this golden ages. 还上空间站度过二十岁到三十多岁这段黄金年龄。 When thinks that this whole life this, an accident/surprise, the space station crashed, he returned to the land of this sores all over the eye. 在以为这辈子就这样的时候,一次意外,空间站坠毁了,他又回到了这满目疮痍的大地。 And mixes up with this crowd of monsters. 并且和这群怪物混在一起。 If wrote the novel more than 30 years of first half of life experiences, certainly changes, mammoth. 如果把这三十多年的前半生经历写成小说,一定跌宕起伏,波澜壮阔。 Before age 20, he cannot think Apocalyptic World will come such quickly, after age 30, he cannot think the space station will fall. 在20岁之前,他怎么也想不到末世会来得这么快,在30岁之后,他怎么也想不到空间站会掉下来。 Also can maintain does not go crazy sanely, is very powerful performance, Chen Zhirong sees many states of mind to be not quite good, even was insane. Yes, the person in ground will not only collapse in this disaster, in the space station many old Age people are also the same, they are unable to accept Earth to be destroyed, reality that human can only escape. 还能保持理智而不发疯,已经是非常强大的表现了,陈志荣见过很多精神状态不太好,甚至疯了的。是的,不仅地面的人会在这灾难中崩溃,空间站里很多旧时代的人也一样,他们无法接受地球会被毁灭,人类只能逃亡的现实。 At that time some people also had the family member to stay in the ground, because has not reached the standard, can only leave, this/should staying behind stayed in the ground, rising sky that should walk. 那时有些人还有亲人留在地面,因为没有达到标准,只能离别,该留下的留在地面,该走的升上天空。 Beginning Apocalyptic World that several years, many people like looking up to the horizon, is this reason, that above has their family members and children. 末世初的那几年,很多人喜欢仰望天边,就是这个原因,那上面有他们的亲人和孩子。 Is good is alone in the world because of him. 好在他孑然一身。 Chen Zhirong somewhat rejoiced, he does not have any to worry now, living for a day is one day. 陈志荣有些庆幸,他现在没有什么牵挂,活一天是一天。 If must say a desire, he hopes before dying, can look that a brilliant fireworks human will not have the future, can see finally end, was a very good matter. 如果非要说一个愿望的话,他希望在死之前,能看一场绚烂的烟花人类没有未来,能看到终末,也是非常棒的一件事了。 „On the other hand, if really bright, all these won't happen?” Chen Zhirong leaned to say. “话说回来,要是真有神的话,这一切都不会发生了吧？”陈志荣侧了侧头道。 „Is uncertain, perhaps this is the test, does not believe in the god will die finally, leaves behind our devout people to wait for the new student/life.” “也不一定,也许这是考验,不信神的终将死去,留下我们虔诚的人等待新生。” Zhao Hua assured say/way. 赵华笃定道。 The Chen Zhirong flexure flexure arm, a little did not agree to us who he said, said: „But I am irreverent.” 陈志荣挠挠手臂,对他说的我们有点不同意,道:“可是我不虔诚啊。” „Therefore you were bare, was dying.” Zhao Hua takes a look at his one eyes. “所以你秃了,也快死了。”赵华瞅他一眼。 „......” “……” Chen Zhirong clutched a hair, has a look at the distant place riverside Little Jinli and He Qingqing, has not made noise. 陈志荣揪了根头发,看看远处河边的小锦鲤和何清清,没出声了。 He and Zhao Hua sits together, under this Apocalyptic World, peaceful like two old dogs, calmly looks at the setting sun old age. 他和赵华坐在一起,在这末世下,安静的如同两只老狗,静静看夕阳垂暮。 These days, the temperature has been rising again, the surroundings green crawls quietly fully, plant all over seemed like by the sorceress got down the spell, at night as if can hear the plant growth the slight jointing sound, nature to turn by a black-and-white photo colored, had/left the bright and beautiful brilliance. 这段时间,气温一直在回升,周围绿色悄悄爬满,漫山遍野的植物像是被女巫下了魔咒,夜晚仿佛能听见植物生长的细微拔节声,大自然由一张黑白照片变成了彩色,多出了亮丽的光彩。 Is the life vigorous aura. 是生命蓬勃的气息。 „Which did few that people go?” “少的那个人去哪了？” „How I know.” Fei Qiang said, this first time was not the companion asked that previous changing shifts time has asked that however his answer was this. “我怎么知道。”费强说道,这不是同伴第一次问了,上次换班的时候就问过,但是他的答案一直都是这个。 He looks helplessly that man disappears, at that time shocked extremely, then oneself do not know that stemming from what psychology, hid the truth from this matter. 他眼睁睁看着那个男人消失,当时是极度震撼的,然后自己都不知道出于什么心理,把这件事瞒了下去。 Said also no one to believe that a person disappeared, he even suspected own vertigo. 说出来也没人信,一个人就那么消失了,他甚至怀疑自己眼花了。 So long as drank water at that time, or suddenly a god, either looks to elsewhere, looks at He Qingqing to hunt, will not discover how Lu An does not have. 只要当时喝口水,或者恍一下神,又或者看向别处,看何清清捕猎,都不会发现陆安是怎样没的。 The ground scattered several people, are not really able to attach great importance, perhaps which day met several wild animals to extinguish on the group, the companion was also curious. 地面零零散散几个人,实在无法被重视,说不定哪天遇到几个野兽就团灭了,同伴也只是好奇。 The personnel losses are the common matter, in recent years, he does not know how many Distorted Species sees to wither away in the ground, this is the normal matter, human evolves again also compared with the wild animal, the wild animal will often die, let alone person? 减员是常有的事,这些年来,他不知道见过多少畸变种在地面消亡,这是再正常不过的事,人类再进化也比不过野兽,野兽都会常死,更何况人？ After rain, the insect in field comes out much, squeak squeak squeak called at the night, greatly became lively, no longer died general silent. 一场雨后,田里的虫子都多出来不少,在夜晚吱吱吱叫,大地变得热闹起来,不再死一般寂静。 The after wing of Zhao Jinli launches, already and both arms are almost long, the feather of ashes is no longer gentle, becomes a little hard, she said after twice is uncomfortable, Zhao Hua her clothes changed behind, keeps two cavities to facilitate her to stretch. 赵锦鲤的翅膀展开后已经和双臂差不多长,灰灰的羽毛不再轻柔,变得有点硬,她说了两次难受之后,赵华把她的衣服背后改了一下,留出来两个空洞方便她舒展。 A'Xia touched the wing to ask that her anything felt, she said felt some people are tracing my wing. 阿夏摸了摸翅膀问她什么感觉,她说感觉有人在摸我翅膀。 As a human, A'Xia is unable to imagine has the wing is anything felt, making her try to fly, actually can only throw the corner blindly, the appearance that the least bit flies does not have. 作为一个人类,阿夏无法想象拥有翅膀是什么感觉,让她试着飞一下,却只能瞎扑棱,半点飞起来的模样都没有。 A'Xia even more was these days silent, frequently looks at the riverside to be lost in thought. 阿夏在这些日子里愈发沉默,常常望着河边出神。 Always the mood is for no reason low, probably the heart is pressing anything, haze near feeling. 总是无端端心情低落,像是心头压着什么东西,阴霾将近的感觉。 „What are you thinking?” He Qingqing lies, in the riverside twists a feather to stroke to whisk off on the face, this is Little Jinli gives to her. “你在想什么？”何清清趴在河边捻着一根羽毛在脸上拂来拂去,这是小锦鲤送给她的。 Very fun. 很好玩。 „It‘s nothing.” “没什么。” A'Xia shakes the head, silent for a long time, opens the mouth saying: „I thought that...... I could walk.” 阿夏摇头,沉默许久,又开口道:“我觉得……我可能要走了。” He Qingqing is startled, raised the head fiercely, does not know that she is what meaning. 何清清吃了一惊,猛地抬起头,不知道她是什么意思。 „Do you crack a joke?!” “你开什么玩笑？！” „Is felt that...... here is not suitable to treat.” “就是感觉……这里不适合待着。” „Why is inappropriate?” “为什么不合适？” „I cannot say.” A'Xia was somewhat agitated, gets hold of the hatchet to visit the distant place. “我说不上来。”阿夏有些烦躁,握紧了柴刀望望远处。 „Instinct.” “本能。” „You want to look for Lu An.” He Qingqing said. “你想去找陆安。”何清清道。 „It is not, I could not find him.” A'Xia shakes the head, „he does not have here.” “不是,我找不到他。”阿夏摇头,“他没在这里。” „Because does not have here, therefore you look for him.” He Qingqing thought that is a bit like the idle talk. “正是因为没在这里,所以你才找他。”何清清觉得有点像废话。 A'Xia has not made noise, He Qingqing will not understand that here is what meaning. 阿夏没出声,何清清不会理解这里是什么意思。 Lu An in the future, not at the present. 陆安在未来,不在现在。 „When?” He Qingqing also asked. “什么时候？”何清清又问。 „Does not know.” “不知道。” A'Xia stands up, the expression tranquil and brings exhausted. 阿夏站起身,表情平静而又带着一丝疲惫。 „I and you are different, Lu An said possibly real.” She said. “我和你们不一样,陆安说的可能是真的。”她说。 Under the gaze of He Qingqing, she puts the back of the hand the hatchet, gently a stroke. 在何清清的注视下,她把柴刀放到手背,轻轻一划。 The blood instant soaked, in the look of He Qingqing surprise, the blood stops quickly, then scab. 鲜血瞬时浸了出来,在何清清诧异的眼神中,血很快止住,而后结痂。 „Your body......” He Qingqing is startled. “你的身体……”何清清吃惊。 „With body irrelevant, is here.” A'Xia selected the brain side with the finger. “和身体无关,是这里。”阿夏用手指点了点脑侧。 It is not the physique reason, but control to body. 不是体质原因,而是对身体的控制。 If before were to wait for the body automatic repair, the external skin regenerated, many day of natures healed, she can conduct this process now on own initiative. 如果说以前是等待身体自动修复,表皮再生,过很多天自然愈合,那她现在则是可以主动进行这一过程。 Is the brain. 是大脑。 The brain instinct is evolving, if this had continued, she can have a premonition, waits for the instinct to suppress the consciousness the time, the brain will degenerate the unnecessary thing, even revises the gene. 大脑本能地在进化,如果再这样下去,她能预感到,等本能压住意识的时候,大脑会把不必要的东西退化掉,甚至修改基因。 Because the body is unable to provide the adequate energy support, represents now is the wrong direction. 因为身体无法提供足够的能量支持,就代表现在是错误的方向。 Now just starts, although does not know how long this process wants, but she knows that must find the way to intervene. 现在才刚刚开始,虽然不知道这个过程要多久,但她知道必须要想办法干预。 Cell in hunger and thirst. 细胞在饥渴。 The brain is summoning. 大脑在呼唤。 This process is accelerating unceasingly. 这一过程在不断加速。