In 3 : 00 pm, the general contractor that two people look for visits. 在下午 3 点的时候,两人找的建筑公司上门来。 Wears the two workers of blue uniform/subdue, grasps the line tape as well as some makes one not determine that the use the tool, cave entrance on threshold to buddhism wall surveyed carefully. 身穿蓝色制服的两名工人,手持卷尺以及一些让人不确定用途的工具,在玄关墙壁上的洞口仔细测量了一番。 Said that must go back to discuss the plan, therefore quick then said goodbye. 说是要回去商讨方案,于是很快便告辞了。 Katou Yusuke with going called some food, Sayu was uses these food cooking to have the ingredients of dinner. 加藤悠介用外卖叫了一些食材,沙优则是利用这些食材烹饪起了晚餐的料理。 Because arrives at the relations of Hokkaidou rarely, somebody called the crab, therefore the range of dinner basically decides is being primarily the crab to attend. 因为难得来到北海道的关系,某人叫了螃蟹,于是晚餐的范围基本就定在以蟹料理为主了。 During this period, that mother has not trod the room half step. 在这期间,那位母亲始终未曾踏出房间半步。 Taking the opportunity of supplying water, Yusuke went to observe one time, food that in the morning put down was also placed before the gate as before, did not have passively trace. 借着送水的机会,悠介前去察看了一次,早晨所放下的食物依旧还摆在门前,没有被动过的痕迹。 Then to five point more than half times, Ogiwara one went home. 然后到了五点过半的时候,荻原一飒回家了。 Perhaps is surprised to the action that Sayu goes to the kitchen to prepare food, he shows the expression that was astonished in a flash, but covered quickly. 或许是对沙优下厨做饭的举动感到吃惊,他一瞬间露出了非常讶异的表情,不过又很快掩了下去。 Steps the slow step not to walk to come to the kitchen quickly. 迈着不快不也慢的步子走来厨房。 „Was laborious you, today how?” “辛苦你们了,今天怎么样？” „If you see, should not compare now condition to be worse, that mother the cocoon has occupied.” “如你所见,应该不会比现下的状况更糟糕了,那位母亲已经茧居了。” It seems like dissatisfied regarding the Katou Yusuke words, Ogiwara one does not frown quickly, but actually pretends not to hear, but is asking to Sayu: 似乎是对于加藤悠介的话感到不满,荻原一飒不快地皱起眉头,不过却装作没听见,而是对着沙优问道: „Good fragrant flavor, what ingredients did you make?” “好香的味道,你做了什么料理？” „Elder Brother.” “哥哥。” Wears Sayu of apron is the nod has first greeted, then opens the mouth to answer: „Made the crab law salad and potato cake, the bowl steams.” 身穿围裙的沙优先是点头打过招呼,然后才开口作答:“做了蟹律沙拉、土豆饼,还有茶碗蒸。” „Hey, is very great, mother she also happy.” “嘿诶,很了不起啊,想必妈妈她也会高兴的吧。” Sayu does not speak immediately, turned away silently. 沙优顿时就不说话了,默默移开了视线。 Sees that one hesitated a meeting. 见状,一飒沉吟了一会。 „...... I first look at mother there, you are first busy.” “……我先去看一下妈妈那里,你们先忙吧。” Said that he then turns around to walk toward two buildings, the kitchen only has a Yusuke and Yusuke liangs person. 说完他便转身向二楼走去,厨房又只剩下悠介个人。 Soon, above the top of the head resounded creak the plank sound. 不多时,头顶上方就响起了咯吱咯吱的木板声。 Middle slightly silence, but the sound of footsteps continued quickly for several seconds, then just now stops. 中间稍有一段沉默,不过脚步声很快又延续了几秒,而后方才停止。 According to the patterns of 12 buildings, kitchen above should be the home master bedroom. 按照一二楼的格局来看,厨房上面应该就是这个家的主卧了。 Although cannot see the picture in building, but can through the sound cognition, this time Ogiwara one should enter that room. 虽然看不到楼上的画面,不过还是能通过声音认知到,此时的荻原一飒应该已经进了那间房间。 Katou Yusuke looks in an instant to Sayu, sees to the expression that the upright face heavyhearted, restlesses, obviously cares about the above matter. 加藤悠介转眼看向沙优,就见对方正一脸忧心忡忡、心神不宁的表情,明显十分在意上面的事情。 ...... …… In the dim room, the window curtains shuts tightly. 昏暗的房间里,窗帘紧闭。 The pillow and quilt were lost violent on the ground. 枕头和被子被暴力地丢在地上。 The air is filling a depressing flavor, one such as Ogiwara one this time mood. 空气弥漫着一股压抑的味道,一如荻原一飒此时的心情。 Then in such environment, together the thin and small form both hands kneecap cast by sitting in the bedhead, and chin buries in two tunes the knee on. 便是在这样的环境下,一道纤瘦的身影正双手抱膝地靠坐在床头,并把下巴埋在两条曲起的膝盖上。 The weak ray entered from out of the door photo, illuminates one to be full of the thin and pale pale facial features, not only both eyes were empty, the lip also because of dry and was slightly rough. 微弱的光线从门外照入,照亮了一张充满憔悴的苍白面容,不仅双目空洞无神,嘴唇也因为干燥而略显粗糙。 Sees such mother, Ogiwara one cannot live in the picture contrast in same memory very much hard to endure. 看着这样的母亲,荻原一飒很难忍住不去同记忆里的画面对比。 Recollection passing, once before father, but frank mother with a smile, even young he, can still see own mother is a great beauty. 回忆过往,曾经在父亲面前而爽朗笑着的母亲,即便是年幼的他,也能看出自己妈妈是一个大美人。 In comparison, now sat the person on bed probably is old dozens years to be the same, on the face covered entirely the trace of years. 相比之下,现在坐在床上的人却像是老了数十岁一样的,脸上布满了岁月的痕迹。 That is not the female of this age should have the normal state that but by year and year out worry suffering weary condition. 那并非是这个年纪的女性该有的常态,而是被经年累月的心病给折磨出的疲态。 Even so , can also see former several points of pretty vaguely. 即便如此,也依稀还能看出从前的几分貌美。 Even by her condition, even if asks a gentleman to get married, may be still not infrequent for the outstanding object of choice certainly. 甚至以她的条件来说,就算重新找一个男士结婚,可供挑选的优秀对象也绝不在少数。 However is such a person, actually forcefully by a person destroying. 然而就是这样一个人,却硬生生地被一个人给毁了。 Everyone can have the happy smile to live obviously, but existence of named father makes all mess up. 明明每个人都能带着幸福的笑容生活下去,可名为父亲的存在让一切都乱了套。 Why cannot forget the father simply, does such family of three live happily? 为什么不能干脆忘掉父亲,就这么一家三口开开心心地生活下去呢？ His more than once like this has thought that even had also once had the thought that wants to persuade. 他不止一次的这样想过,甚至也曾动过想要劝说的念头。 May with the growth of age, after his obviously mother's love to father actually some are gradually deep, how this words saying. 可随着年龄的增长,当他渐渐明明母亲对父亲的爱究竟有多深以后,这种话就怎样都说不出口了。 „One......?” “一飒吗……？” The female on bed to do the mute voice to make noise to break silent, making him recover from the past matter. 床上的女性以干哑的嗓音出声打破沉默,让他从过去的事情里回过神来。 „Un, is I.” “嗯,是我。” Ogiwara one is saying in a soft voice, bends the waist from the ground picks up the pillow, while walks to the bedside. 荻原一飒轻声说着,一边弯腰从地上捡起枕头,一边向床边走来。 „I came back, mother, drinks a water.” “我回来了,妈,喝点水吧。” He in the mineral water twist-off closure that the entrance attains, put out a hand to hand over, the opposite party received the PET, drank one after another. 他将在门口拿到的矿泉水拧开瓶盖,伸手递了过去,对方接过宝特瓶,一口一口地喝了起来。 gu and gu, gurgle. 咕、咕、咕嘟。 Seemed like extremely thirsty, after bottle in underwater half , the female put down the bottle. 似乎是极渴了,直到瓶中的水下了一半以后,女性才放下了瓶子。 „...... Sayu?” “……沙优呢？” „In downstairs.” “在楼下。” „That person also in......?” “那个人也在……？” Ogiwara one is silent nod. 荻原一飒沉默着点点头。 The female breath flash becomes rapid, stares him saying: „Why must that to remain at home......!” 女性的呼吸一瞬间就变得急促,瞪着他说道:“为什么要让那个人留在家里啊……！” „This is the choice of Sayu.” “这是沙优的选择。” „What......” female body shivers, a hand grabs his wrist/skill stubbornly, vibrates the lip to ask: „Even do you also want, to betray me......?” “什么啊……”女性的身体颤抖起来,一只手死死地抓着他的手腕,抖动着嘴唇问道:“连你也要,背叛我吗……？” Feels one of the strength to shake the head slowly, places in own hand her hand, comforting said: „I do not have this meaning, mother.” 感受到手上力道的一飒缓缓摇头,将自己的手放在她手上,安抚说:“我没有这个意思,妈。” „- Why that does not drive out him!” “-那为什么不把他赶出去！” „Because the Sayu behavior is uncertain, if she if makes what danger the matter...... I to think that mother you are not willing to see that matter.” “因为沙优的行为不可预测,万一她要是做出什么危险的事情……我想妈你也不愿意看到那种事情吧。” hears word, the female look vacillated immediately, subsequently pulled out from his hand the hand, grasped oneself calf. 闻言,女性的眼神顿时动摇了一下,继而将手从他手中抽出,抱住了自己小腿。 „Why, I must by the fellow of unknown origin...... by the fellow who anything does not understand, such treats......” her to mutter by the emaciated voice, and closely bit the lip. “为什么,我要被来历不明的家伙……被什么都不懂的家伙,那样对待啊……”她以孱弱的嗓音喃喃道,并紧紧咬住了下嘴唇。 Was different from the strength, this time she similarly seemed very small and weak. 不同于刚才的强硬,这时的她同样显得十分弱小。 „...... You also believe, making him carry off Sayu is a good deed?” “……你也认为,让他带走沙优是一件好事吗？” The body or the sound, are shivering slightly. 不论是身体还是声音,都在微微颤抖着。 Looks at mother thin and small body, Ogiwara one several degrees opens the mouth actually to close, in the eye reveals to struggle, how actually never the knowledge should open the mouth. 看着母亲瘦小的身体,荻原一飒几度张开嘴巴却又闭上,眼中流露出挣扎,却始终不知该如何开口。 Different from standpoint bright Katou Yusuke, no one can realize the dispute and pain of Ogiwara family/home compared with him, no one compared with his clearer mother's mood. 不同于立场鲜明的加藤悠介,没有人会比他更能体会荻原家的纠葛和痛苦,也没有人比他更明白母亲的心情。 After being separated several patted, he probably is determined to be the same, makes an effort deeply to inspire. 间隔了几拍以后,他才像是下定决心一样的,用力深吸了一口气。 „Mother...... I wants to help you obtain the happiness, that is all......” “妈……我只是想让你们都获得幸福,仅此而已……” „Happy......” in mouth is muttering this glossary, the female look somewhat is slightly absent-minded, later lowers the head, falls into silent. “幸福……”口中喃喃着这个词汇,女性眼神微微有些恍惚,随后又低下头去,陷入寂静。 „But...... that wants......” “但是……那要……” Her body shivers again, and void reverberates in the room. 她的身体再次颤抖起来,并空虚的在房间里回荡开来。 „How that must do is good......” “那要怎么做才好啊……” In an instant, Ogiwara one several wants to cry. 刹那间,荻原一飒几欲落泪。 Left behind the scar like mother in the Sayu psychology, the father also left behind the huge scar in mother. 如同母亲在沙优心理留下了伤痕一样,父亲也在母亲心里留下了巨大的伤痕。 This makes her not know that should how is enduring the grief, while considers one of the grief origins- own child, goes on living. 这让她不知道该如何一边忍受着伤痛,一边照顾伤痛的来源之一-自己的孩子,活下去。 Mother's sentiment to the Sayu is complex, is not the love is not does not love, product that but twists under a series of tragedies. 母亲对沙优的感情过于复杂,既不是爱也不是不爱,而是在一系列悲剧下所扭曲的产物。 Through weakness and vacant in the words unknowingly revealing, one deeply understood this fact. 通过话语中不经意流露出来的软弱与茫然,一飒深深理解了这一事实。 valley You 谷油 „Mother, chatted with Sayu again, from apologized to start mutually......” “妈,再跟沙优谈谈吧,从互相道歉开始……” „Apology......?” “道歉……？” „Right, forgives each other, understood that each other...... then, ponders matter from now on......” “对,原谅彼此,理解彼此……然后,去思考从今往后的事情……” Ogiwara one said slowly: „If you agree, I call Sayu to come up now.” 荻原一飒缓缓说道:“如果您同意的话,我现在就去叫沙优上来。” The females do not react, had not agreed, also does not reject, but a face is thinking anything confusedly. 女性对此不做回应,既未同意,亦不拒绝,只是一脸迷茫地想着什么。 Sees that one said in a soft voice „I call her to come now”, then sets out to walk toward out of the door. 见状,一飒只是轻声说了一句“我现在去叫她来”,然后就起身向门外走去。 His footsteps are very light are also very slow, as if a slow old man. 他的脚步很轻也很慢,仿佛一个迟缓的老头。 However till arriving at gate, the opposite parties have not opened the mouth to stop by calling out him. 然而直到走到门边为止,对方都没有开口叫住他。 This made Ogiwara one in the heart have the fate immediately, then added the step slightly, went out of the room. 这让荻原一飒心中顿时有了定数,遂稍微加步子,走出房间。 After closing the door, steps on creak the sound to walk on the corridor, toward staircase there vanguard. 关上房门之后,踩着咯吱咯吱的声响行走在走廊上,朝楼梯那里前行。 In is going to pass by the guest room, a hand actually extended from inside suddenly, and entrained the room him. 就在将要路过客房时,一只手却忽然从里面伸了出来,并一把将他拽进了房间。 The slightly desolate voice spread to the ear. 略显冷淡的嗓音就传入了耳中。 „What do you want to make? Uncle elder brother.” “你想做什么？大舅哥。” Drags into Yusuke of room to decide to gaze at him him, has the question. 将他拉入房间的悠介定定注视着他,发出疑问。 Although was done by this sudden condition was startled, but Ogiwara one responded quickly, subsequently smiled was saying: 虽然被这突如其来的状况搞得怔了一下,不过荻原一飒还是很快反应过来,继而微笑着说: „Listening secretly is not the good behavior, Katou-kun.” “偷听可不是什么好行为,加藤君。” Katou Yusuke thinks little, but asked without consulting anybody: „Why can let Sayu and that madame apologizes?” 加藤悠介对此不以为意,只是径自问道:“为什么要让沙优和那位夫人道歉？” „Between mother and Sayu need the mutual understanding, this is one step that they must experience, I think like this.” “母亲和沙优之间需要互相理解,这是她们必须经历的一步,我是这样认为的。” „Do you want to make Sayu stay in Hokkaidou?” “你想让沙优留在北海道？” „Leaves or stays behind, these must be decided by them, at the appointed time what kind of result, I will respect.” “不论是离开还是留下,这些都要由她们自己决定,到时不论是怎样的结果,我都会尊重。” At this point one stops for the time being, lifts the eye slightly, returns to him by the sharp line of sight. 说到这里的一飒暂且停顿,稍稍抬起眼睛,对他回以犀利的视线。 „Said, you hope Sayu doesn't have the kinship to go on living on this for a lifetime?” “还是说,你希望沙优就这样一辈子没有亲情地活下去？” Two seconds and three seconds and four seconds, they stare each other are not putting. 两秒、三秒、四秒,他们盯着彼此不放。 Five seconds and six seconds and seven seconds, they always maintain total silence. 五秒、六秒、七秒,他们始终不发一语。 The one who breaks the deadlock is Katou Yusuke. 打破僵局的是加藤悠介。 What words had not said, deeply looked at him of opposite party to take the lead to go out of the guest room, silent walked on the wooden floor. 什么话也没说,深深看了一眼对方的他率先走出客房,无声地行走在木质地板上。 Ogiwara one also with. 荻原一飒也跟了出去。 Two people return to the kitchen together. 两人一同返回厨房。 Sayu the ingredients from the pot, is leaping on the kitchen stage. 独自一人的沙优正在把料理从锅中,腾到厨台上。 Sees them to walk, is says: „Dinner, has completed.” 见到他们走来,便是开口说道:“晚饭,已经做好了哦。” „Un.” “嗯。” „good work.” “辛苦了。” Yusuke and one one after the other gives the response. 悠介和一飒一先一后的给予回应。 As if was feels unusual of atmosphere, the young girl had doubts slightly the head, the vision switch over in two people, asks: „What's wrong?” 仿佛是感受到了气氛的不同寻常,少女疑惑地微微偏着脑袋,目光在二人之间切换,问道:“怎么了吗？” „Listened to me saying that Sayu.” “听我说,沙优。” Ogiwara one walks up, said calmly: „Mother she wants to chat with you.” 荻原一飒走上前来,平静地说:“妈妈她想要和你谈谈。” „, Chatted with me......?” The Sayu expression immediately becomes intense, subsequently frowns, „why?” “诶,和我谈谈……？”沙优的表情立刻变得紧张,继而又皱起眉头,“为什么？” One nods, as if cannot feel her resistance, still said: „I had just chatted with mother, she also had some new ideas to your matter, therefore goes to chat with her.” 一飒对此点点头,仿佛感受不到她的抗拒,兀自说道:“我刚刚跟妈妈聊过了,对你的事情她也有了一些新的想法,所以去和她谈谈吧。” „But......” “但是……” Sayu hesitates is looking to nearby Yusuke, sees a youngster face to be deep, has not actually opened the mouth. 沙优迟疑着看向一旁的悠介,就见少年正一脸深沉,却并未开口。 „It‘s nothing, but, you were also the time should consider being together way between the parent-children, naturally, I will also accompany you together.” “没什么但是的,你们也是时候该考虑一下亲子间的相处方式了,当然,我也会陪你一起。” „But I did not think that can maintain the relations with her immediately few......” ** sinks the face, muttered one low voice: „After all until now life, is losing heart of......” “可我不觉得能够马上跟她搞好关系……”少**沉下脸来,小声咕哝一句:“毕竟迄今为止的人生,一直都是死了心的……” Made Ogiwara one in the eye flash through from the opinion of bottom of one's heart wipes complex, then implored the one breath slowly. 发自肺腑的言论令荻原一飒眼中闪过一抹复杂,然后缓缓吁出一口气。 „Even for you and Katou-kun are still good, this talk is also very necessary, is trying to each other an opportunity ?” “就算是为了你和加藤君也好,这场谈话也是很有必要的,试着给彼此一个机会吧,好吗？” „That...... wants to let Yusuke also together......” “那……想让悠介也一起……” „- No.” “-不。” Ogiwara one shook the head, interrupted her words, „, if Katou-kun on the scene, matter possibly becomes complex, this time made him wait a while here slightly.” 荻原一飒摇摇头,打断了她的话,“如果加藤君在场的话,事情可能又会变得复杂起来,这次就让他在这里稍微等一会儿吧。” Was saying shifts to Katou Yusuke, „can ask you? Katou-kun.” 说着又转向加藤悠介,“可以拜托你吗？加藤君。” Sayu was also likes a cat on hot bricks to look. 沙优也是局促不安地望了过去。 Under two people gaze, Yusuke first was silent a while, then returned to the latter by a warm smile, said a good character in a soft voice. 在两人注视下,悠介先是沉默了一会儿,然后对后者回以一个温暖的微笑,轻声说了一个好字。 Sees that one then nods with a sense of relief, said to Sayu again: „The mother she a day has not eaten the thing today, comes up with food to her.” 见状,一飒便是如释重负般地点点头,再次对沙优说道:“说起来妈妈她今天一天都没吃过东西,给她拿点食物上去吧。” „Knew.” Takes back the vision Sayu to nod gently, takes off the apron while begins to reorganize. “知道了。”收回目光的沙优轻轻点头,一边脱下围裙一边动手整理。 Loads separately various types of food alone in the small bowl, puts in the tray again in turn. 将各种食物单独分装在小碗里,再依次放入托盘。 „Then...... Yusuke.” “那么……悠介。” Carries the young girl of tray to tie tight the small face, inspires, „I go to one......” 端起托盘的少女紧绷着小脸,吸了一口气,“我去一趟……” „Good.” “好。” In Ogiwara one under the leadership, two people depart together. 在荻原一飒的带领下,两人一同离去。 Gazes after their form to vanish in the kitchen, quick, above the top of the head resounded creak the sound. 目送着他们的身影消失在厨房,很快的,头顶上方就响起了咯吱咯吱的声音。 Before Katou Yusuke is silent is arriving at the kitchen stage, with ladle that found from the cabinet, carried a bowl to steam to eat. 加藤悠介沉默着来到厨台前,用从柜子里找到的勺子,端着一只茶碗蒸吃了起来。 ...... …… That is one also requires the long time compared with the imagination. 那是一段比想象中还要漫长的时间。 When Sayu returns to the kitchen again, is the 40 minutes later things. 当沙优再次回到厨房的时候,已经是40分钟之后的事情了。 Before departure, the eye socket of young girl becomes red, has obvious has cried trace, a scared witless appearance. 比起离开之前,少女的眼眶变得红红的,有着明显哭过的痕迹,一副魂不守舍的样子。 But her side disappears Ogiwara one, stayed in the building probably. 而她的身边则不见了荻原一飒,大概是留在了楼上。 Does not know is the misconception, Katou Yusuke always thought that her fetter, as if became heavier. 不知是不是错觉,加藤悠介总觉得她身上的束缚,似乎变得更重了一些。 „, Yusuke......” “呐,悠介……” Sayu walks side him slowly, asked in a soft voice: „Can accompany me to go out for a walk?” 沙优缓缓走来他身边,轻声问道:“可以陪我出去走走吗？” Katou Yusuke has not responded immediately, but sized up her by from below. 加藤悠介没有立刻回应,而是由上自下地打量了她一番。 The semblance cannot see what scar, the clothes are also very neat, but the spirit seems somewhat thin and pale. 外表看不出什么伤痕,衣服也十分整齐,只是精神显得有些憔悴。 Then took back the vision, the nod said good. 这才收回目光,点头说了一声好。 „Walks, trades the clothes.” “走吧,去换衣服。” „Un......” “嗯……” Two people change clothes of journey, wears the shoes in the threshold to buddhism, then walks out of the door together. 两人换上一身出行的衣服,在玄关穿上鞋子,然后一同走出家门。 Stands on the street before gate, Katou Yusuke turns the head to ask to the person of side: „Where can go to?” 站在门前的街道上,加藤悠介转头对着身边之人问道:“要去哪里？” Sayu was lowers the head to think deeply about a while, then responded in a soft voice: „This nearby has a park, I went in childhood frequently, goes to there.” 沙优便是低头思索了一会儿,然后才轻声回应说:“这附近有一座公园,我小时候常常去,就去那里吧。” „You guide.” “那你带路。” „Un.” “嗯。” Walks slowly under the colored glaze color sky. 就这么慢慢走在琉璃色的天空下。 Until before arriving in the park, two people have not started talking...... 直到抵达公园之前,两人都没有开口说话……