———— 『Death』. ————「死亡」。 This regarding Sinon, is not how strange thing. 这对于诗乃来说,并不是多么陌生的东西。 Did not say that Sinon has experienced the death, but was death actually always accompanied in her side. 不是说诗乃经历过死亡,而是死亡其实常伴在她的身边。 Initial time is the father. 最初的时候是父亲。 Sinon has not seen father's face. 诗乃没有见过父亲的脸庞。 When Sinon two years old, her father because the traffic accident passed away. 在诗乃两岁的时候,她的父亲就因为交通事故去世了。 On that day, the father and mother brought Sinon, the family of three to go to the native place new year's celebration of mother, thus drove to go in the northeast some district boundary, but vehicle in the way of the old single track path that in extended along the hillside incline went, went to come from opposite traffic lane, and truck of curve hit without enough time directly. 那天,父亲和母亲就带着诗乃,一家三口前往母亲的老家过年,从而驾车行驶于东北的某县境上,可车子在沿着山坡斜面延伸的旧单线道路上行驶途中,从对面车道行驶而来,并来不及转弯的大卡车直接撞了上来。 At that time, the truck operator broke through the windshield to fall in the road surface, immediately died. 当时,卡车司机冲破挡风玻璃掉在路面上,立刻死亡。 But the compact car that right side encounters the truck to hit Sinon that rides to cross the guard rail, falls to the hillside, finally was blocked by two trees stops falling. 而右侧面遭到卡车撞击的诗乃所坐的小型车则越过护栏,掉落到山坡下,最后被两根树木挡住才停止下跌。 At this time, drove the father of automobile, although carried the consciousness unclear severe wound, but also was insufficient vertical instant death to perish, mother only left thigh simple fracture on assistant seat, young Sinon because the seat belt of back seat baby safety seat almost returned safe and sound, not despaired. 这时,驾驶汽车的父亲虽然身负意识不明的重伤,但还不至于立即死亡,在助手席上的母亲只是左大腿单纯骨折,年幼的诗乃则因为后座婴儿安全座位的安全带几乎毫发无伤,并不算绝望。 What misfortune is, in that not often on used path, particularly late at night, the habitation rarely, even/including Chenei the telephone because of hitting to damage, until noticed to have the accident to happen after the car(riage) of this old path next day in the morning is discovered. 不幸的是,在那条不常被使用的道路上,尤其是深夜,人烟罕至,连车内的电话都因为撞击而破损了,直到隔天早上经过这条旧道路的车注意到有事故发生才被发现。 But that is the six hours later things. 但那已经是六个小时之后的事情了。 In these six hours, Sinon's mother can only look in side because of the internal hemorrhage, but body gradually ice-cold, finally therefore the father of death, mental breakdown, the mental age returned to be acquainted finally about more than ten years old before the father. 在这六个小时里,诗乃的母亲只能在旁边看着因为内出血而身体逐渐冰冷,最后更因此而死亡的父亲,最终精神崩溃,心智年龄回到与父亲相识之前的十几岁左右。 At that time, Sinon experienced in the life to leave the recent first death. 那个时候,诗乃经历了人生中离自己最近的第一次死亡。 Happened to the Sinon recent death five years ago for the second time. 第二次离诗乃最近的死亡则是发生在五年前。 At that time, mother and Sinon had left Tokyo, returning to mother's maternal home to go, is living the thrifty life of countryside. 那时,母亲与诗乃早已离开了东京,回到母亲的娘家去住,过着乡下的俭朴生活。 That accident to the present already crosses for 15 years, perhaps insane mother only is regarded as Little Sister Sinon, what lucky is she or deeply is loving Sinon, at night will read the picture book, sang the lullaby to listen to her, therefore Sinon remembers that an appearance of mother always easy injured vulnerable young girl, making Sinon from start then often to tell itself to want sensibly strongly, must protect own mother to be good. 那次事故到现在已经过了十五年的时间,精神失常的母亲则或许只是将诗乃当做是妹妹,但幸运的是她还是深爱着诗乃,每到夜晚都会读绘本,唱摇篮曲给她听,所以诗乃记忆里的母亲总是一副容易受伤的脆弱少女的模样,让诗乃从懂事开始便时常告诉自己一定要坚强一点,要保护自己的妈妈才行。 To that time Sinon, outside world filled various essential factors that disturbs mother calm life, making in her head always think must protect mother. 对那时的诗乃来说,外面的世界充满了打扰母亲平静生活的各种要素,让她的脑袋里总是想着自己一定要保护妈妈。 However, this idea, accomplished present Sinon finally. 然而,这个想法,最终造就了现在的诗乃。 On the day of Sinon will never forget. 诗乃永远都不会忘记那一天。 On that day, Sinon and oneself mother went to the post office together, actually encountered the robber of rushing in the post office. 那一天,诗乃和自己的母亲一起前往邮局,却在邮局中遭遇了闯进来的强盗。 At that time, the robber grasped a black star. 当时,强盗手持一把黑星。 That is in 1932, formally is used 《Tokarev TT-33》 imitation that by the Soviet army, uses 30 calibers, is 7.62 millimeters steel core ball, the gunpowder quantity are many, the initial speed of bullet can exceed the speed of sound, has in the middle of the pistol the strongest penetrability, because the recoil force is oversized, to be used the pistol that a miniaturized 9 millimeters ball 《Makarov》 replaces when 1950 by Soviet Union, full name ———— 《Type 54 - Black Star Pistol》. 那是在1932年时,由苏维埃陆军正式采用的〈托卡列夫TT33〉的模仿品,使用30口径,也就是7.62毫米的钢芯弹,火药量很多,子弹的初速可以超越音速,拥有手枪当中最强大的贯穿力,但因为后座力过大,在1950年代时被苏联以使用小型化九毫米弹的〈马卡洛夫〉取代的手枪,全名————〈五四式·黑星手枪〉。 The criminals then grasped such a spear/gun, shooting a postal bureau member labor that attempted to report to the police, and venting anger surroundings, aimed at others the spear/gun. 犯人便手持这样的一把枪,射击了一名企图报警的邮局员工,并迁怒周围,将枪指向了别人。 , Sinon's mother in the one side, was given to crash very much unfortunately frightened, finally uncontrolled scream. 很不巧的,诗乃的母亲就在一旁,被恐惧给压垮,最终不受控制的尖叫。 Hears mother's scream, Sinon is almost subconscious rushing, bit the arm of criminal, has seized the pistol of opposite party in the fight, and in finally ———— 『killed the opposite party』. 听到妈妈的尖叫,诗乃几乎是下意识的冲上去,咬住了犯人的手臂,在搏斗中夺过了对方的手枪,并在最后————「射杀了对方」。 Yes. 是的。 This is the death that is accomplished by Sinon personally. 这是由诗乃亲手造就的死亡。 Even at that time, Sinon when the head blanked condition, brought to protect mother's desire completely intensely, just now caused such action, but Sinon indeed when the criminal fired into himself angrily, to the opposite party, and a time, was deducting the trigger once again. 即便当时,诗乃完全是在脑袋一片空白的状况下,带着强烈的保护母亲的愿望,方才导致了那样的行动,可诗乃的的确确在犯人愤怒的冲向自己时,对着对方,一次、一次、又一次的扣下了扳机。 Afterward, reported on said that criminal because of gun premature burst, therefore died. 事后,报导上称,犯人是因为枪支膛炸,所以才死亡。 As for Sinon, the whole person besides broke off two teeth and two wrists/skills to sprain, back to damage and right shoulder dislocation, without other flesh wounds. 至于诗乃,整个人除了被弄断两颗牙齿、两只手腕扭伤、背部撞伤以及右肩脱臼之外,没有其它的外伤了。 These wounds, quick were then cured. 这些伤,很快便是被治好。 However, there is a wound that had no way to cure to appear. 然而,也有没法治好的伤出现了。 From then on, so long as Sinon sees the spear/gun then to vomit or faint, sees in the television, manga and even the hand with the pistol that imitates continually, that is not good. 从那以后,诗乃只要看见枪便会呕吐或者昏倒,连看见电视中、漫画里乃至用手模仿出来的手枪,那都不行。 Sees the spear/gun, Sinon just like to see when that man by it kills the face, saw the opposite party leads by forehead that the bullet passes through, the whole body blood is smiling toward oneself, and is opening the scene of eye. 一看见枪,诗乃就宛如能够看到那个男人被其杀害时的脸,看到对方带着被子弹贯穿的眉心,满身鲜血的向着自己笑着,并睁大着眼睛的场景。 in other words, Sinon suffered from mental illness. 也就是说,诗乃患上了心理疾病。 post-traumatic stress disorder. 创伤后压力症候群。 The wound of Sinon contracts this is unable to cure. 这就是诗乃所患的无法治好的伤。 Sinon did not regret to choose to open fire at that time. 诗乃并不后悔那个时候选择开枪。 But, her body, innermost feelings as well as mind/energetic were actually not controlled to be the same by her, saw that the guns as well as will unable to bear with its related thing. 可是,她的身体、内心以及精神却不受她控制一样,看到枪支以及与其相关的事物就会受不了。 This made Sinon have to plant 『no regrets』 only in mouth saying that the pompous fine words, oneself has in fact regretted very much, should not to protect own mother turned into such feeling. 这让诗乃有种自己口中的「不后悔」只是在说冠冕堂皇的漂亮话,实际上自己一直都很后悔,根本不应该为了保护自己的母亲变成这样的感觉。 But psychologist will only be saying 『we understand you』 such words, are actually not able to make Sinon be able to get over an emotion. 而心理医生们只会说着「我们理解你」这样的话,却无法让诗乃得以释怀。 Therefore, Sinon will want getting stronger, wants to obtain to mention the 『under that kind of situation, I can naturally take action』 this words courage. 因此,诗乃才会想要变强,想要获得能讲出「那种情况之下，我那么做也是理所当然」这种话的勇气。 In such a case, Sinon meets Kyouji accidentally, and enters in GGO under Kyouji's introduction, can contact the guns again. 在这样的情况下,诗乃偶然遇到恭二,并在恭二的介绍下进入ggo中,得以再次接触到枪支。 What is mysterious, perhaps body when Virtual World virtual, or is touches gun feeling in the end still unable to reappear completely, when this world, Sinon touches the guns, not only will not manifest suddenly, but also on liking several models of firearms. 神奇的是,也许在假想世界里的身体是虚拟的,亦或者是触碰枪支时的感觉终究还是无法完全重现,在这个世界里,诗乃触碰枪支时,不但不会发作,还喜欢上好几款的枪械。 Starting from that time, Sinon felt, so long as becomes this world's strongest player, in real world can also certainly getting stronger. 从那个时候开始,诗乃就觉得,只要成为这个世界最强的玩家,现实世界的自己一定也能变强。 „So long as overthrows compared with that robber stronger enemy unceasingly, contacts compared with that a black star fiercer spear/gun, is familiar with them, exceeds them, I experience absolutely will in this world turn into the innermost feelings and mind/energetic reinforcement, letting me in real world also to dominate above them, becomes powerful.” “只要不断打倒比那个强盗更强的敌人,接触到比那把黑星更厉害的枪,去习惯他们,去超越他们,那我在这个世界里的经历一定会变成内心以及精神的强化剂,让现实世界里的我也能凌驾于他们之上,变得强大。” Is holding such idea, Sinon nearly the pursue of obsessive the powerful enemy, is using anti-materiel sniper rifle this ultimate weapon, becomes by own innermost feelings and mind/energetic more powerful, will happen one day, affects to real world. 抱着这样的想法,诗乃才会近乎偏执的追求着强敌,使用着反器材狙击枪这种大杀器,让自己的内心和精神变得更加强大,终有一天,影响到现实世界里的自己。 But now... 但现在... „dōng dōng —— dōng dōng —— dōng dōng ——” “咚咚——咚咚——咚咚——” Sinon's heartbeat unlimited as is speeding up, making her breathing rapidly, cold sweat directing current, the whole body twitch, head blank space, definitely is unable. 诗乃的心跳无限制似的加快着,令得她呼吸急促,冷汗直流,全身抽搐,脑袋空白,完全无法自己。 This feeling, with contacts the guns when the real world, exactly the same. 这种感觉,和在现实世界里接触到枪支时,一模一样。 only, this time, Sinon not because of contacts the spear/gun, because felt arrival that died for the third time. 只是,这一次,诗乃不是因为接触到枪,而是因为感觉到了第三次死亡的到来。 could it be that, oneself must again facing it? 难道,自己还要再一次的面对它吗？ could it be that, after former two times, oneself did in the end still welcome the death again? 难道,继前两次以后,自己终究还是得再次迎来死亡吗？ But the first time, her luckily has not died, died by own father, the second time, she kills others with all might and main, was lived by oneself, this time, who sacrificed? 可第一次的时候,她侥幸未死,让自己的父亲死去了,第二次的时候,她竭尽全力的杀死别人,让自己活了下来,这一次,又得谁牺牲？ Oneself? 自己吗？ This does come to save own youngster? 还是,这个前来拯救自己的少年？ If oneself can escape the death of this time, that was this youngster must die at present? 如果自己能够逃过这一次的死亡,那是不是眼前这个少年就得死了？ Was killed by oneself? 被自己害死？ „No! Not!” “不！绝不！” Therefore, the fear rises the heart, making Sinon weep and wail makes noise. 于是,恐惧升上心头,让诗乃哭喊出声。 „You... you walk quickly...! Walks quickly...!” “你...你快走...！快走...！” What a pity, Rozen actually turns a deaf ear, when Durability only has 12 points, high held up dagger in hand, burst out time compared with previously any big power, divided resolutely. 可惜,罗真却充耳不闻,在耐久度仅剩下十二点的时候,高高的举起了手中的匕首,迸发出比先前任何一次都大的力量,毅然劈下。 „Pā!” “啪！” In the clear sound, dagger cut off the chains. 清脆的响声中,匕首斩断了锁链。 „Bang!” “砰！” Durability thorough return to zero of cut off chains, changes to the polygon fragments to explode the powder, vanishes. 被斩断的锁链的耐久度彻底归零,化作多边形碎片爆散,消失。 „Beep!” “滴！” But at this time, the countdown was ———— 『0:02』. 而这个时候,倒计时为————「0:02」。 Rozen without any hesitation, grasped Sinon directly. 罗真没有任何的犹豫,直接抱住了诗乃。 In a while... 没过多久... „BOOM————!” “轰隆————！” In Warehouse Street, the explosive sound resounds through, making fire wave soar to the heavens, prolonged. 仓库街里,爆炸声响彻而起,让火浪冲天,经久不息。