SRR :: Volume #12

#1157: Province my heart

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„If Jenkin were too good because of here, after we can plan, which city lives, can discuss must raise several children, can discuss him whether must in our families/home, alone to the Chocolate stroke a lounge.” “如果詹金斯在这儿就太好了,我们可以计划以后住在哪座城市,可以谈论要养几个孩子,也可以谈一谈他是否要在我们的家,单独给巧克力划出一间休息室。” Girls' talk continued long time, their interest high, are planning very much excitedly about the future all. But when two people talked was to tacitly approve Jenkin not here, but spoke at the same time, girls shooting a look at of eye actually strange to sitting man on table. 姑娘们的谈话持续了很长时间,她们的兴致都很高,兴奋的规划着关于未来的一切。而两人谈话时是默认詹金斯不在这里的,但说话的同时,女孩们的眼睛却都诡异的瞥向坐在餐桌上的男人。 The sound that Jenkin studies stopped to continue, on face unemotional. Is familiar with his cat to know, Jenkin unemotional usually is to cover the oneself true mood. 詹金斯读书的声音停顿了一下继续进行,脸上面无表情。熟悉他的猫知道,詹金斯的面无表情通常都是想要掩盖自己真正的心情。 „Really is bored.” “真是无聊。” He said to oneself in the heart, increases the own sound to attempt with the sound to cover the red hair and voice of blond hair miss. But this is very difficult to achieve, because Hathaway and Blayney sound always exactly is louder than the Jenkin sound, will let these by the future of giving free reign to the imagination, can just right spread to the ear of Jenkin. 他在心中对自己说道,加大自己的声音企图用声音盖住红发和金发姑娘的声音。但这很难做到,因为海瑟薇和布莱妮的声音总是恰好的比詹金斯的声音大一些,让那些被畅想的未来,都能够恰到好处的传入詹金斯的耳朵。 „Useless, this is to me useless. What this lonely is, present lonely for the future happiness, so long as I can achieve the own goal, what future I won't be able to obtain?” “没用的,这对我来说是没用的。这点孤独算什么,现在的孤独是为了未来的幸福,只要我能够实现自己的目标,什么样的未来我得不到呢？” Girls' talk continued for a half hour, when all these finished, the gloomy and cold moist basement reappeared in the surroundings. Jenkin subconscious relaxing, although his unceasing convinced oneself that is only false, was only a test, but this feeling was very uncomfortable. 姑娘们的谈话持续了半个小时,当这一切结束,阴冷潮湿的地下室重新出现在了周围。詹金斯下意识的松了口气,虽然他不断的说服自己那只是假的,只是一种考验,但这种感受真的很不舒服。 He was understood, obtained 【Stranger】 The ceremony is lets him radically firmly to oneself 【Stranger】 Cultural identity. There is no danger, is only regarding the injury of mental and mood is quite big. 他算是明白了,获得【异乡人】的仪式根本就是让他坚定对自己【异乡人】身份认同。这本身没有什么危险,只是对于精神和心情的伤害比较大。 „I do not have the issue, without issue...... probably.” “我没问题的,没问题的......大概吧。” The fire shone the face of Jenkin sparklingly, made the cat see his puzzled expression. 火光映亮了詹金斯的脸,也让猫看到了他纠结的表情。 Jenkin did not understand that actually this type tests can have what kind of significance, but regardless of his idea how, the scene in flame still in unceasing change. 詹金斯不理解这种考验究竟能有怎样的意义,但不论他的想法如何,火焰中的场景依然在不断的变化。 This book as if can read these to make the Jenkin very uncomfortable past, shows most scenes in flame, is Jenkin single handles some difficult things, but at the same time he may obtain a happier instance. 这本书似乎能够读到那些令詹金斯很不舒服的过去,展现在火焰中的大多数的场景,是詹金斯独身做一些艰难的事情,而与此同时他本可获得更加幸福的瞬间。 When the book in hand was read the last page, the last picture appeared in the flame finally. Jenkin deep inspiration of then looks up, actually reappearing of discovery this not passing memory, but is never has had the scene, scene that he most is afraid. 当手中的书被读到最后一页,最后一幅画面终于出现在了火焰中。詹金斯深深的吸了一口气然后抬头去看,却发现这一次并不是过去记忆的重现,而是一副从未发生过的场景,他最害怕的场景。 In the flame, Zhan Jin of black becoming dark pupil sits down exhausted on the sofa of oneself, in the entrance hall Old Man, Robert and Mary, Hathaway and Blayney...... these Jenkin love and loves the Jenkin person, stands there completely looks at him indifferently. 火焰中,黑发黑瞳的詹金瘫坐在自己家的沙发上,门厅中老爹、罗伯特和玛丽、海瑟薇、布莱妮......那些詹金斯所爱和爱詹金斯的人,全部站在那里冷眼看着他。 But among them, blond hair Jenkin falls down face up, seemed like died. 而在他们中间,金发的詹金斯仰面倒在地上,看上去是死掉了。 Studying breath of Jenkin one rapid, he spent very big spirit to control the frequency of oneself breath reluctantly, and warned that oneself this was not fearful, matter that does not need to be worried about. 读书的詹金斯的呼吸一下就急促了起来,他费了很大的精神才勉强控制住自己呼吸的频率,并警告自己这并不可怕,没有需要担心的事情。 The dragged flame makes the field of vision fuzzy, the surroundings gloomy and cold basement gradually becomes the fearsome color block. These color block inter-combinations, are putting together the shape in living room finally. 摇曳的火焰让视野模糊,周围阴冷的地下室逐渐变为可怖的色块。这些色块相互组合着,最终拼成了客厅的形状。 Jenkin handful of writes books to sit on the sofa, raised the head then saw that in the entrance hall is looking at his group of people. 詹金斯捧着书坐在沙发上,抬头便看到门厅中望着他的那群人。 „Actually are you who?” Of men and women asked that the sound probably was tidal surging forward imposing manner to be astonishing. Everyone is visiting him, in their eyes has Jenkin not familiar indifferent and is hostile. “你究竟是谁？”男男女女的一起质问道,声音像是潮水般汹涌澎湃气势惊人。所有人都在看着他,他们眼中有着詹金斯不熟悉的冷漠和敌视。 „I am Zhan Jin, is Jenkin Williams.” “我是詹金,也是詹金斯・威廉姆特。” Because must study, therefore is unable to open the mouth, he can only answer in the heart. But the people in entrance hall actually heard the sound in this heart: 因为要读书所以无法开口,他只能在心中作答。但门厅中的人们却听到了这心中的声音: „No, you are not Jenkin, you are swindler who replaces others status. Your this despicable outsider, you stole my pitiful Jenkin status, had the present all these!” “不,你不是詹金斯,你是个顶替别人身份的骗子。你这个卑鄙的外乡人,你窃取了我可怜的詹金斯的身份,才拥有了现在的这一切！” The Mary hysteric accusation said, Jenkin does not have the means to refute, the studying rhythm was nearly disrupted. 玛丽歇斯底里的指责道,詹金斯没办法反驳,读书的节奏险些被打乱。 „I am not complete Jenkin Williams, but at least Jenkin Williams has part is I.” “我不是完全的詹金斯・威廉姆特,但至少詹金斯・威廉姆特有一部分是我。” He said in the heart. 他在心中说道。 Zhan Jin is not the person who will be broken through the psychological defense line very much easily, on the contrary, he thinks the oneself goal is clear, even facing the worst situation, can still find the solution with a clear conscience. 詹金并不是一个很容易就会被人攻破心理防线的人,相反,他自认为自己目标明确,即使面对最糟糕的情况,也能问心无愧的找到解决办法。 „You are not Jenkin......” “你不是詹金斯......” „Is the outcome that I love who?” “我爱的究竟是谁？” „You is a swindler!” “你是个骗子！” „Shameless outsider!” “无耻的外乡人！” „You are going against others' face life!” “你在顶着别人的脸生活！” „You stole away the small Jenkin life!” “你偷走了小詹金斯的人生！” People are accusing, is getting more and more heavy to the Jenkin hostility. Until Jenkin reads the book in hand thoroughly, these accused and rail still had not finished, but read the book, as if cannot make Jenkin go out of this time illusion. 人们你一言我一语的指责着,对詹金斯的敌意越来越重。直到詹金斯彻底读完手中的书,那些指责和谩骂依然没有结束,而读完书,似乎也没能让詹金斯走出这次的幻境。 Closes to place on the own leg the books, Jenkin stops the monotonous studying sound that as if will never stop, is feeling the thirst of throat, looks up crowded people to the entrance hall. 将书本合上放在自己的腿上,詹金斯停下了那仿佛永不停止的单调读书声音,感受着喉咙的干渴,抬起头望向门厅中拥挤的人们。 „After I arrive at this world, using Jenkin the Williams status has indeed handled many things, but......” “我来到这个世界后,利用詹金斯・威廉姆特的身份的确做过很多的事情,但......” He looks to the girls, their angers twisted that beautiful facial features: 他望向姑娘们,她们的愤怒扭曲了那姣好的面容: „I know you, and falls in love with you, is choice and decision that my oneself makes ; But you like and fall in love, is this I. These and former days Jenkin had no relations, you fell in love was I at this moment, this was without a doubt. Therefore actually you are questioning what, rather, actually you love my handsome body, is my radiant soul?” “我认识你们,并与你们相爱,是我自己做出的选择和决定;而你们喜欢并爱上的,也是这个我。这些都和旧日的詹金斯没有任何关系,你们爱上的就是此刻的我,这是毫无疑问的。所以你们究竟在质疑什么,不如说,你们究竟是爱我英俊的躯壳,还是我璀璨的灵魂？” He is frowning to send out such interrogation, the girls who were still cursing loudly shut up immediately. They look at each other one mutually, showed the smile of getting over an emotion to Jenkin. 他皱着眉头发出了这样的质问,原本还在大声咒骂的女孩们立刻闭上了嘴。她们互相对视一眼,冲着詹金斯露出了释怀的微笑。 The attractive girls wave to him, said good-bye the husband who must go out the work to be the same probably, then accompanied to turn around to open the door to walk. 漂亮的姑娘们冲他挥挥手,就好像辞别要出门工作的丈夫一样,然后结伴转身打开房门走了出去。 Although the entrance hall does not have therefore to become no longer crowded, but at least spacious many. 门厅虽然没有因此变得不再拥挤,但至少宽敞了不少。 Jenkin relaxes, he replaces the Jenkin status very is not indeed right, but at least faces the own spouses, their sentiments and past Jenkin had no relations. The girls like him, with the Jenkin background and status irrelevant, with the fetters of girls, is the Zhan Jin soul facilitates. 詹金斯松了一口气,他顶替詹金斯的身份的确很不对,但至少面对自己的爱人们,她们的感情和过去的詹金斯没有任何关系。姑娘们喜欢他,和詹金斯的背景、身份无关,和姑娘们的羁绊,都是詹金的灵魂促成的。 Therefore, Jenkin has a clear conscience to the own sentiment. 所以,詹金斯对自己的感情问心无愧。 Others are still cursing with the responsibility, was only the sound was lower. Jenkin looks to colleagues of oneself in church as well as these respects Sister own, Priest, father, stands in the forefront is Chief Binsey and Bishop Parod. 其余人还在咒骂和职责,只是声音低了一些。詹金斯又望向自己在教堂的同僚们以及那些尊敬自己的修女、教士、神父,其中站在最前面是宾西队长和帕罗德主教。 PS: The previous chapter of chapter name changed, renovates obviously. With 【Studies】 As the chapter name, the feeling was too careless. PS:上一章的章节名更改了,刷新可见。用【读书】作为章节名,感觉太草率了。
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