old security guard deep fell into during the recollection, on the face did not have that deep fear finally. 老保安深深的陷入了回忆之中,脸上终于没有了那种深深的恐惧。 If must describe, this time he, seem like because of recollection during, change of Lu Xin, but were many gratified. 如果非要形容,此时的他,倒像是因为回忆之中,陆辛的变化,而多了点欣慰。 As if very much understands is listening to the Lu Xin words, nods, had not said that again meets the later detail, but looked up to Lu Xin, summary say/way: „In brief, from the beginning, I somewhat fear you, but does not dare to catch up with you to walk, but I have been observing, actually discovered that you probably really changed, becomes specially mediocre, specially ordinary, has the goodness of average person.” 似乎很理解的听着陆辛的话,点了点头,没有再说重新遇到之后的细节,而是抬头看向了陆辛,总结似的道:“总之,一开始,我还是有些怕你,只是不敢赶你走,但我一直观察着,却发现你好像真的变了,变得特别的平庸,特别的平凡,又有着普通人的善良。” „If must make me describe to your feeling......” “如果非要让我形容对你的感觉……” old security guard silent a meeting, looked to Lu Xin, said: „I have seen you under three different condition.” 老保安沉默了一会,才看向了陆辛,道:“我见到过三个不同状态下的你。” „Other ability holder, will frequently be presented by stably, to condition of out-of-control.” “别的能力者,经常会出现由稳定,到失控的状态。” „However you, was counter- this condition, from the out-of-control of pinnacle, little became normal......” “而你,则是反着走完了这个状态,从极致的失控,一点点变得正常了……” „......” “……” old security guard said matter that he wants saying that the atmosphere in restaurant again becomes peaceful. 老保安说完了他想说的事情,饭馆里的气氛再度变得安静。 The hospitable young restaurant boss, is having the yawn, when they finished eating, in this period also raised one's head to look at one, saw them not to have that type of at daggers drawn atmosphere, satisfied nod, and expressed the applause to their behaviors. 热情好客的小饭馆老板,正打着哈欠,等他们吃完,期间还伸头出来看了一眼,见他们已经没有了那种剑拔弩张的气氛,满意的点了点头,并对他们三个人的行为表示了赞许。 „Precisely, three big masters, what words had unable to say?” “就是嘛,三个大老爷们,有什么话说不开的呢？” „......” “……” „......” “……” Lu Xin silent was very long, but is thinking words that old security guard spoke. 陆辛沉默了很久,只是在想着老保安说的话。 First-generation researcher, since they meet oneself to leave, meets Teacher Xiaolu to oneself again, altogether passed for three years. 第一代研究员,从他们接自己离开,再到自己再次遇到小鹿老师,一共过去了三年。 Said accurately, not too to three years.. 准确的说,是不太到三年的时间。。 But before meeting Teacher Xiaolu, although the oneself memory, still tended to the confusion, but in fact, oneself many have the little memory, remembers that oneself has studied in the high school, remembers that oneself entered the company, lived alone many years...... 而在遇到小鹿老师之前,虽然自己的记忆,仍然趋于混乱,但事实上,自己多少还是有一点点的记忆,记得自己在高中读过书,记得自己进了公司,独自生活了很多年…… oneself memory, from that blank, to meeting Teacher Xiaolu, thoroughly becomes clear, is a gradation process. 自己的记忆,从那片空白,到遇到了小鹿老师,彻底变得清晰,是一个渐变过程。 But from this angle analysis, the oneself true blank time, is actually more than one year. 而从这种角度分析,自己真正的空白时间,其实是一年多一点。 Then, actually to have what in this year? 那么,这一年究竟发生了什么呢？ Initially when oneself went to Research Institute, truly listened to Doctor An to mention, these people who now in Research Institute lead the research, strict was the second generation, the first-generation researcher, is belongs to Red Moon Event the beforehand person, can believe, they were then Red Moon Research Institute earliest establish the person, in the former civilized time, then established Red Moon Research Institute. 当初自己前往研究院时,确实听安博士说起过,如今研究院里主导研究的那些人,严格来说都是第二代,第一代研究员,都已经是属于红月亮事件发生之前的人了,也可以认为,他们便是当时的红月研究院最早的成立人,早在前文明时代,便建立了红月研究院。 However, about their all, that Doctor An does not know. 但是,关于他们的一切,那位安博士也不知道。 Or at that time did she deceive oneself? 或者说,当时她是骗了自己？ But, at that time one generation of researchers, bringing oneself to leave, for what? 可是,当时一代研究员,带自己离开,又是为了什么？ old security guard said that oneself knows them, how does oneself know? 老保安说自己认识他们,自己又是怎么认识的？ Prison...... 监狱…… What concept is also representative? 又代表着什么概念？ ...... …… ...... …… Mind gradual was occupied by these different issues, Lu Xin also silent very long time. 脑海逐渐的被这些不同的问题占据,陆辛也沉默了很长的时间。 Eight and old security guard, silent. 八号与老保安,都沉默着。 They as if in respectively lost the direction by one type thoroughly, or prepared the stance of accepting the penalty sat there. 他们似乎在分别以一种彻底失去了方向,或是准备好了接受惩罚的姿态坐在了那里。 Waits for oneself to give them finally. 等着自己给予他们结果。 However, oneself at this time, is not in no mood to handle these matters. 但是,自己在这时候,又同样没有心情处理这些事。 Therefore, after silent big meeting, his long implored the tone, said: „These matters, then said again.” 于是,在沉默了好大一会之后,他长长的吁了口气,道:“这些事,回头再说吧。” „Today the time early, I somewhat am not tired.” “今天时间不早了,我也有些累了。” „......” “……” Eight and old security guard, somewhat surprised raised the head looks at him. 八号与老保安,都有些惊讶的抬起了头来看他。 On the Eight face is unbelievable, wants to say anything, facial expression that is also in doubt. 八号脸上是难以置信,想说什么,又拿不准的神情。 old security guard is the accident/surprise. 老保安则是意外。 „Life matter, was too complex......” “人生这件事,实在太复杂了……” Lu Xin setting out slowly, is saying with a smile slightly painstakingly: „But I must try hard operates, not?” 陆辛慢慢的起身,微微苦笑着道:“但我总要努力的去经营,不是吗？” „Therefore, we handle the respective matter respectively......” “所以,我们各自处理好各自的事情吧……” „......” “……” Is saying, he while turned the head, to restaurant old plank road: „Pays up!” 一边说着,他一边转过了头,向饭馆老板道:“结账！” paused, said: „Pack that had not finished eating.” 顿了顿,又道:“没吃完的打包。” ...... …… ...... …… Abandoned old security guard and Eight in the restaurant, Lu Xin carried the vegetable/dish of pack to walk from the restaurant alone. 扔下了老保安和八号在饭馆里,陆辛独自拎着打包的菜从饭馆里走了出来。 At this time, on the street in a business area had restored again peacefully. 此时,街面上已经再度恢复了安静。 In the plan on the person of going home, has gone home tonight, person who does not plan to go home, had entered the sleep in the sanctuary, on long and narrow street, the car(riage) that even even/including Liang is turning on the light cannot see, pale yellow light, alone shining. 打算今天晚上就回家的人,已经回到了家里,不打算回家的人,也已经在庇护所里进入了睡眠,狭长的街道上,甚至连辆开着灯的车都看不见,只有昏黄的灯光,独自亮着。 Lu Xin slowly is walking on the street, without planning to make Special Clearing Department send a vehicle to oneself. 陆辛慢慢的在街道上走着,没有打算让特清部给自己派辆车来。 Actually, was facing Eight and old security guard a moment ago, he has many words not saying that can only press at heart. 其实,刚才面对着八号与老保安,他有很多话都没有说出来,只能压在了心里。 With the exchange of Eight and old security guard is very successful. 与八号和老保安的交流还是很成功的。 With Eight, achieved acknowledged that but old security guard, has not concealed, said the beforehand matter. 和八号,做到了坦承,而老保安,也没有隐瞒,把之前的事都说了出来。 This is a successful exchange, Lu Xin also can only express the commendation, but has saying that saw them because of past oneself, but the pain, the frightened appearance, will have at heart unavoidably loses little, past was oneself so really fearful? 这是一次成功的交流,陆辛也只能表示称赞,但不得不说,看到了他们都因为过去的自己而痛苦,恐惧的样子,心里还是难免会有一点点失落的,过去的自己真的这么可怕吗？ Eight, old security guard after repenting, essentially is the good person...... 无论是八号,还是悔过后的老保安,本质上都还是善良的人啊…… That time oneself, only understood that the destruction and slaughtering, take away to others endless frightened and painful...... 只是那时的自己,只懂得破坏、杀戮,给别人带去无尽的恐惧与痛苦…… How can this blame them to be afraid oneself? 这又怎么能怪他们害怕自己呢？ He leaves eagerly, is not willing to express the opinion , because, he felt that oneself really does not have the qualifications to accuse anything...... 他急于离开,不愿多发表意见,就是因为,他感觉自己实在是没有资格指责什么的…… Perhaps, later, can eliminate others' impression diligently? 也许,以后更努力一点,就可以消除别人的这种印象了吧？ ...... …… ...... …… Is thinking these issues, Lu Xin stopped the footsteps in a crossroad. 想着这些问题,陆辛在一个路口停下了脚步。 On the empty street, in the air red moon has been accompanying oneself. 空荡荡的街道上,只有空中的红月一直陪伴着自己。 He realized suddenly, oneself leaves home also more than ten kilometers, by two legs, does not know when can go back. 他忽然意识到,自己离家还有十几公里,靠两条腿,不知道什么时候才能回去。 It seems like, in innermost feelings hopes, seemed very near, does not know how long wants. 就好像,内心里的一些希望,似乎很近了,又不知道要多久。 Stood silently was very long, Lu Xin started to walk again the step. 默默的站了很久,陆辛还是再度迈开了步子。 Although, must always walk, even if on this road, a person does not have...... 虽然远,总是要走回去的,哪怕这条路上,已经一个人也没有了…… The lonely person is ignominious, in the past who made oneself do wasn't good? 孤独的人是可耻的,但谁让自己过去做的不好呢？ „Crash-bang......” “哗啦啦……” Similarly when also in Lu Xin these ideas appear, broadcast the lithe chains collision sound, Lu Xin is slightly surprised, turned the head, sees Doll from in the air falling slowly, the white chains rocked, made the delightful sound...... 同样也在陆辛这些想法出现时,身后传来了轻盈的锁链碰撞声音,陆辛微微惊讶,转过了头,就看到娃娃正在从空中慢慢的落下,白色的锁链晃动,发出了悦耳的声响…… Hasn't she rested unexpectedly? 她居然还没有休息？ Lu Xin looks at she, toward hid the pack bag in hand behind, said with a smile: „This time leftover dish cannot eat to you, I remember that you like eating the color to be attractive, the shape is also attractive, the previous time foie gras is such, I looked at that time thought you definitely like. What this time is only the roadside small restaurant does casually, oil and greasiness, fried blackened piece, you will definitely not like.” 陆辛看着她,把手里的打包袋往身后藏了一下,笑道:“这次的剩菜是不能给你吃的,我记得你喜欢吃颜色漂亮,形状也好看的,上次的鹅肝就是那样的,我当时一看就觉得你肯定喜欢。这次的只是路边小饭馆随便做的,又油又腻,炒的黑糊糊一片,你肯定不会喜欢。” Doll simply has not as if understood Lu Xin to say anything, was only falling slowly in the Lu Xin side. 娃娃似乎根本没有听懂陆辛在说什么,只是慢慢的落在了陆辛的身边。 Lu Xin proceeds, she also following silently, Lu Xin looks at her time, she smiles, does not like speaking. 陆辛往前走,她也就默默的跟着,陆辛看她的时候,她就微笑,还是不喜欢说话。 Resounded „drum toot toot” helicopter sound. 身后,响起了“鼓嘟嘟”的直升机声音。 It seems like discovered Doll lost Nanny Squad, runs Two satellite town to find the person immediately. 似乎是发现娃娃丢了的保姆小队,立刻就跑二号卫星城来找人了。 However, after has observed from afar, the sound of helicopter, fast disappearance, as if not want to disturb them. 但是,远远的观察过之后,直升机的声音,又快速的消失,仿佛不想打扰到他们。 „Is Doll today's performance, somewhat strange?” “娃娃今天的表现,似乎有点奇怪？” Nanny Squad Captain, leads a member, arrived at Two satellite town Guard Hall to fall to the ground. 保姆小队的队长,带着一众成员,来到了二号卫星城警卫厅落地。 One group of people are driving the vehicles, catches up to the region that Lu Xin and Doll are. 一群人驾驶着车辆,向陆辛和娃娃所在的区域赶来。 „Strange?” “奇怪吗？” Say/Way that some people have doubts: „She saw Lone Soldier, isn't continuously this?” 有人疑惑的道:“她见了单兵,不是一直这样吗？” „Is continuously being intimate with performance, but this time , the ratio seems to be intimate with, were many something......” “是一直表现的亲近,但这一次,又似乎比亲近,多了些东西……” The Captain doubts of Nanny Squad are saying, patted the shoulder of front driver, said: „this time do not depend is too near.” 保姆小队的队长疑惑的说着,拍了拍前面司机的肩膀,道:“这一次不要靠的太近。” „Selects the private to them.” “给他们点私人空间。” „......” “……” „......” “……” On peaceful street. 安静的街道上。 Lu Xin and Doll walking silently on unmanned street, two shadows under street light, pulled is very long. 陆辛和娃娃默默的走在了无人的街道上,两条影子在路灯下,被拉扯的很长。 „You are very stupid......” “你是真的很笨啊……” Lu Xin slowly is walking, somewhat helpless say/way: „You do not know before me, is monster?” 陆辛慢慢的走着,才有些无奈的道:“你不知道我以前是个怪物吗？” Doll tilted the head slightly, sized up a Lu Xin expression, then shakes the head gently. 娃娃微微歪头,打量了一下陆辛的表情,然后轻轻摇了摇头。 „I real, too lucky......” “我真的,太幸运了……” Lu Xin turned the head, laid aside the oneself look slightly, trend front silently. 陆辛微微转过了头,藏起了自己的眼神,默默的走向前方。 But Doll, was still only following silently side Lu Xin, accompanied him to walk this long and does not know the end the night road. 而娃娃,也仍然只是默默的跟在陆辛身边,陪着他走这条漫长而不知尽头的夜路。 When occasionally, turned the head to look to Lu Xin, in the mind then presented a remote picture. 只是偶尔,转头看向了陆辛时,脑海里便出现了一个久远的画面。 ...... …… ...... …… In Doll in childhood, arrived at Qinggang very much, she wears the dirty clothes, was stained with many blood, on the small face full is the fear. 在娃娃很小时候,来到了青港,她穿着脏脏的衣服,沾了很多鲜血,小脸上满是恐惧。 She by innumerable crazy crowd surrounding, hiding no use in the corner, she could not be controlled oneself mental strength, does not know that actually these people like oneself, one crowd only wants to eat the oneself devil, the frightened feeling submerged the entire heart...... 她被无数疯狂的人群包围,无助的躲在了墙角,她控制不住自己的精神力量,也不知道这些人究竟是喜欢自己,还是一群只想吃掉自己的恶魔,恐惧的感觉淹没了整个心脏…… How Doll does not know processes, can only hold the small head of oneself, trembling of fear, she has been used to such scene, but, always at times, because the pressure is too big, will cause her mental strength, tends to the collapse edge. 娃娃不知道怎么处理,只能抱着自己的小脑袋,害怕的瑟瑟发抖,她已经习惯了这样的场面,但是,总有一些时候,因为压力太大,会使得她的精神力量,也趋于崩溃边缘。 But also at this moment, another child, confused from distant place street. 但也就在这时,另外一个小孩,迷茫的从远处街道上走了过来。 These to Doll liked achieving the crazy crowd, suddenly frozen was been probably same, one after another stopped the movement. 这些对娃娃的喜欢达到了疯狂的人群,忽然像是被冰封一样,一个个停止了动作。 Doll is very long, revealed an eye carefully, to outside looks at. 娃娃过了很久,才小心的露出了一只眼睛,向外面看着。 Young boy who that distant place walks, the same blood, the body is dirty, but his straight passed through from Doll, looks down Doll one, in the eye full was the black granule, made Doll chaotic mental strength belong to instantaneously tranquilly. 那个远处走来的小男孩,同样一身的鲜血,身上脏兮兮的,但他直挺挺的从娃娃身边走过,低头看了娃娃一眼,眼睛里满是黑色粒子,瞬间使得娃娃混乱的精神力量归于平静。 Doll mental strength, many in some level, became the influence on other party. 娃娃的精神力量,也多少在某个层面,对他造成了影响。 Therefore his footsteps stopped, decided looked at Doll one, two people vision interweave, the world as if stops. 于是他脚步停了下来,定定的看了娃娃一眼,两人的目光交织,世界仿佛停顿。 Long time, he puts out a hand slowly, drew Doll, then continues stand forth. 半晌,他慢慢伸手,将娃娃拉了起来,然后继续向前走去。 ...... …… As if the two ripple on water surface, touch gently, then separates again. 仿佛水面上的两条波纹,轻轻一触,便再次分开。 Only this contact, even is not meaningful. 仅此一次接触,甚至没有任何意义。 After that many years, they do not have to happen together again, even a ripple, does not remember this matter. 此后很多年,他们也再没有过交集,甚至其中一条波纹,根本不记得有这件事。 However, who can say that they haven't collided? 但是,谁能说他们没有碰撞过呢？