SWR :: Volume #8

#757: Lu Xin mind/energetic essence( two)


Perhaps is Lu Xin said these words the time, the attitude is extremely firm. 兴许是陆辛说出了这些话的时候,态度太过坚定。 In the entire small restaurant, the air/Qi became constrained. 以至于整个小饭馆里,气都变得压抑了起来。 Lu Xin has not deliberately threatened or suppresses through mental strength, but his opposite Eight, actually the hands and feet starts to tremble. 陆辛并没有刻意去威胁或是通过精神力量压制,但他对面的八号,却手脚都开始发抖。 Can look, Eight seems like wants to make oneself stabilize strongly, but his look, has actually started to flutter. 看得出来,八号似乎是想竭力的让自己稳定,但他的眼神,却已经开始飘乎。 He before the firmness and pride of that nonstop innermost feelings, at this time, turned into the empty powerless feeling...... 他之前那种直通内心的坚定与骄傲,在这时,变成了空洞的无力感…… Asked you?” “问你?” Eight under this pressure, is enduring suffering beyond description. 八号在这种压力下,忍受着难以形容的折磨。 When this pressure, almost must crash him, as if there is mood of desperate deep place, finally erupted in this moment, suddenly he makes an effort pounds on the table, stood the body, in the eye full is the capillaries, stubbornly is staring Lu Xin: 当这种压力,几乎要将他压垮的时候,仿佛有种绝望深处的情绪,终于在这一刻爆发了出来,他忽然用力的一拍桌子,站直了身体,眼睛里满满都是血丝,死死的瞪着陆辛: Nine, you had all initiatives, therefore bestows your good intentions?” 九号,你是掌握了所有的主动权,所以来施舍你的善意吗?” You are because just exposed to let the strength that this world can be afraid, therefore thinks that I don't dare to look for you?” “你是因为刚刚展露出了让这个世界都会害怕的力量,所以认为我不敢找你了吗?” I......” “我……” He is saying loudly, while cannot control own shivering, the sound becomes fluctuates, but is saying diligently: I now, am very truly chaotic, I do not know how accurate distinguishes to wrong, but, but something do not need to talk clearly, I also know that anything is right, anything is wrong, Nine, your great strength makes me be afraid, I real, some of my really fears......” 他一边大声说着,一边控制不住自身的颤抖,声音变得起伏,但还是努力的说着:“我现在,确实很乱,我也不知道怎么精准的去分辨对错,但是,但是有些事不用说得清楚,我也知道什么是对,什么是错,九号,你的强大让我害怕,我真的,我真的有些害怕啊……” But, I really should, because fears you, therefore gives up?” “但是,我真的应该因为怕你,所以放弃吗?” „......” “……” He said is very loud, is very ominous, attitude exceptionally intense, but in the eye actually full is the desperate and weak facial expression. 他说的很大声,也很凶,态度异常的激烈,但眼睛里面却满是绝望与无力的神情。 The atmosphere in small restaurant, immediately becomes exceptionally depressing. 小饭馆里的气氛,顿时变得异常压抑。 Nearby old security, slightly becomes somewhat anxious with worrying, looks at their two, actually does not know how should speak. 旁边的老保安,也微微变得有些紧张与担忧,看着他们两个,却不知道该怎么说话。 Yo yo......” “哦哟哟……” Also at this moment, in the behind kitchen, the boss of stir-fried dish stretched out: Eats meal well, do not fight......” 也就在这时,后面厨房里,炒菜的老板伸出了头来:“好好吃饭,不要打架哦……” Oneself brothers, what words can't say well?” “自家兄弟,什么话不能好好说?” Destroyed the thing to compensate......” “打坏了东西要赔的……” „......” “……” „......” “……” Passed through interrupting of boss, the atmosphere faintly seemed to be moderate, Eight supports the arm of table also to shiver slightly. 经过了老板的打岔,气氛似乎隐隐缓和了一些,八号撑着桌子的手臂也在微微颤抖。 He seemed like by the draw off the energy in body is been common, suddenly from angry, turned dejectedly.. 他像是被抽去了身体里的底气一般,忽然就从愤怒,变成了沮丧。。 Nine......” 九号……” In the Eight sound, brings shivering slightly: I left orphanage many years, still remembered at that time the unemotional appearance, I doing nightmares, dream by that time you, died dreams to our these in the orphanage child at that time, actually, I also know that the source was not you, but, that time you, were really fearful......” 八号的声音里,已经带了微微的颤抖:“我离开孤儿院很多年了,都还记得那时你面无表情的样子,我一次次的做噩梦,梦到那时的你,也一次次梦到当时我们那些死在了孤儿院里的孩子,其实,我也知道的,源头并不是你,但是,那时候的你,实在是太可怕了……” Therefore I have wanted to ask, has wanted to come back to ask you, you......” “所以我一直想问,一直想回来问问你,你……” „...... Have you regretted?” “……你后悔过吗?” „......” “……” „......” “……” When the Eight ignition, Lu Xin is only static sitting there, without speech. 八号发火的时候,陆辛一直都只是静静的坐在那里,没有说话。 He can look at the Eight fear and confusedness, therefore the Eight anger, has not enraged him, instead makes him feel that faint sad, asked until Eight this final issue, and somewhat desperate, looked toward oneself, lowers sighs lowly. 他能看出来八号的恐惧与迷茫,因此八号的怒火,并没有激怒他,反而让他感觉隐隐的难过,直到八号问出了这最后的问题,并有些绝望的,向着自己看了过来,才低低叹了口气。 No.” “没有。” He is lowering the head, reply slowly: Because of then me, but also without that mood.” 他垂着头,慢慢的回答:“因为当时的我,还没有那种情绪。” But......” “但是……” Crossed some little time, he raised the head slowly, looks to Eight, said in a soft voice: „But after I had the mood......” 过了好一会,他才慢慢抬头,看向了八号,轻声道:“但当我有了情绪之后……” „...... Eight, I always, was not regretting!” “……八号,我无时无刻,不在后悔!” „......” “……” „......” “……” Always was regretting. 无时无刻不在后悔。 When Lu Xin said these words, not too strong feeling, even light to the extreme. 陆辛说出这句话时,并没有太强烈的感觉,甚至平淡到了极点。 As if in a very calm description fact. 似乎只是在很冷静的描述一个事实。 Eight has 10,000 reasons to believe that Lu Xin is perfunctory oneself, but he was actually hit by these words suddenly. 八号有一万个理由相信陆辛只是在敷衍自己,但是他却忽然被这句话击中。 Because of entire Qinggang, perhaps only then the certain secrets of his clearest midnight court. 因为整个青港,或许只有他最明白午夜法庭的某些秘密。 Also only then he is clearer, sheltered in the entire Qinggang situation in by one's effort, ultimate Sword Bearer will strike to kill on wilderness, and was perfect, the mood returned to the city stably, looks Lu Xin that oneself had a night-time snack fearfully. 也只有他更明白,在以一己之力庇护住了整个青港的情况下,将终极之一的执剑人击杀在了荒野上,并且还完好无损,情绪稳定的返回了城中,找自己吃宵夜的陆辛有多可怕。 The person needing string of this level. 这个层次的人是没有必要说谎话的。 Some needs the place of his string, he has more methods to solve. 一些需要他说谎话的地方,他有更多的方法去解决。 Even to him, toward somebody string, that instead represented his respect to somebody. 甚至对他来说,向着某人说谎话,那反而代表了他对某个人的尊重。 ...... …… Eight, I want to ask you to help me do a matter.” 八号,我想请你帮我做件事。” But Lu Xin, after saying these words, suddenly felt an unprecedented relaxedness. 陆辛,在说出了这句话后,忽然感觉到了一种前所未有的轻松。 looks at silent, falls into deeply confused in Eight with pain, he sighed gently, the slow sound said. 看着沉默了下来,陷入深深的迷茫与痛苦中的八号,他轻轻叹了口气,缓声说道。 Asked me?” “求我?” Eight raising the head slowly, in the look brought inconceivable some. 八号慢慢的抬头,眼神里带了些不可思议。 Yes.” “是的。” Lu Xin say/way slowly: I want to ask you , helping me find these children in orphanage, I know that some people lived, knows some people forever...... died, this walks, I have met Teacher Xiaolu, Little Nineteen, Seven, Two, you, continuously with me in side Little Seventeen, but I was still worrying about others, always......” 陆辛慢慢的道:“我想求你,去帮我找到孤儿院里的那些孩子,我知道有些人活了过来,也知道有些人永远的……死去了,这一路走来,我已经遇到了小鹿老师,小十九,七号,二号,还有你,还有一直跟我在身边的小十七,但我仍然记挂着其他人,无时无刻……” You once followed side Old Dean, therefore, you should know some about them......” “你曾经跟在老院长身边,所以,你应该对他们更了解一些吧……” I hope that you can find them......” “我希望你可以找到他们……” „......” “……” This......” “这……” Eight has not thought, Lu Xin will set this request. 八号万万没想到,陆辛会提出这个要求。 His expression, had the exceptionally complex change, wants to question, but does not know where starts. 他的表情,出现了异常复杂的变化,想要质疑,但又不知从哪里开始。 The whole person went haywire, crossed for a long time, said: Why?” 整个人都陷入了混乱,过了好久,才道:“为什么?” Because of......” “因为……” Lu Xin opens the mouth, but the speed put, how as if he should also say in the consideration. 陆辛开口,但速度又放了下来,似乎他也在考虑该怎么说。 The confession, the recovery, makes reparations, perhaps anything has...... 忏悔,补救,赎罪,或许什么都有吧…… But end, he said in a soft voice: Because I have complied, must save them to come out......” 但末了,他却只是轻声道:“因为我答应过,要救他们出来的啊……” ...... …… ...... …… The Eight expression, stretched suddenly. 八号的表情,忽然绷住了。 His unbelievable looked to Lu Xin, in the eye full was confused, with is welling up the complex sentiment numerously. 他难以置信的看向了陆辛,眼睛里满是迷茫,与纷涌着复杂的感情。 Crossing was very long, he said in a low voice: Nine, you really changed many......” 过了很久,他才低声说道:“九号,你真的变了很多……” You......” “你……” „......” “……” As if knows that he wants to ask anything, Lu Xin looked to him, said with a smile: I found oneself the matter that wants to handle......” 仿佛知道他想问什么,陆辛看向了他,笑道:“我找到了自己想要做的事情……” Naturally, you can also understand that is the mind/energetic essence.” “当然,你也可以理解为精神内核。” „......” “……” The Eight look changed, the subconsciousness said: What?” 八号的眼神变了变,下意识道:“什么?” Old security at the same time, is fierce raised the head, as if pays attention to this issue very much. 就连一边的老保安,也猛得抬起头来,似乎对这个问题很关注。 Lu Xin first is somewhat embarrassed, but is facing the oneself old schoolmate, person who oneself holds feeling sorry, aroused the courage, say/way slowly: First half, then yes, I want to help this world, establishes the proper rule, but also orderly......” 陆辛先是有些不好意思,但面对着自己的老同学,自己抱有歉疚的人,还是鼓足了勇气,慢慢的道:“前半部分,便是,我想帮助这个世界,建立起应有的规则,还有秩序……” Eight is listening, cannot help but was startled being startled: Lattern half?” 八号听着,都不由得怔了怔:“后半部分呢?” Lu Xin was more embarrassed, after a while, said: In such a world, is a dignified rich man.” 陆辛更不好意思了,过了一会,才道:“在这么一个世界里,做一个体面的有钱人。” „......” “……” Eight really lived ignorant. 八号是真的懵住了。 Old security at the same time, coughed suddenly layer on layer/heavily, probably was choked by the liquor. 就连一边的老保安,也忽然重重咳了一声,像是被酒呛到。 You......” “你……” The sadness and depressed of Eight, were diluted by these words, some little time, unbelievable say/way: 八号的伤心与沮丧,都被这句话冲淡了,好一会,才难以置信的道: You have been the fantasy level, unexpectedly......” “你已经达到了幻想层次啊,居然……” „......” “……” This saying Lu Xin had the right to speak, said earnestly: Other can fantasize, money?” 这话陆辛就有发言权了,认真道:“别的都可以幻想,钱可以吗?” Eight was choked immediately. 八号顿时被噎了一下。 My Desire is helps this world establish the rule and order, is a rich man in this world.” “我的愿望就是帮这个世界建立规则与秩序,然后在这个世界里做一个有钱人。” Had said in any case, Lu Xin was actually confident, sighs with emotion: 反正已经说了出来,陆辛倒是坦然了,感慨道: Eight, just came back from Tinder City sees your time, I very much envy you.” 八号,刚从火种城回来见到你的时候,我就很羡慕你。” Because I felt that you are very firm, is very pure.” “因为我感觉你很坚定,也很纯粹。” Although , from the this time matter, your probably also is very purely easy to be used, but I envy you.” “虽然,从这一次的事情上看,你的纯粹好像也很容易被人利用,但我还是羡慕你。” Because you know that oneself wants to make anything, really dares to do......” “因为你知道自己想做什么,也真的敢去做……” I think that I could not achieve you is so pure.” “我想我是做不到你这么纯粹了。” He shakes the head slightly, sighed: Originally I have also thought that can become a pure person, but when interrogated oneself, I discovered, I was really only an average person, I have thought the calm and steady life, feeling that also liked making money......” 他微微摇头,叹道:“本来我也想过,是不是可以成为一个纯粹的人,但在审问自己的时候,我发现,我真的只是一个普通人而已,我想过安稳的生活,也喜欢赚钱的感觉……” Money really good thing......” “钱是真的好东西啊……” Does not need to snatch, does not need to deceive, even does not need to intimidate, the frankness and uprightness can from others hand the thing that brings oneself to want.” “不用抢,也不用骗,甚至不用威逼,光明正大就可以从别人手里拿来自己想要的东西。” Money can make others respect oneself, can bring...... the security sense to oneself!” “钱可以让别人尊重自己,也可以给自己带来……安全感!” Although some people said often, money cannot solve in the world all issues.” “虽然经常有人说,钱不能解决世界上所有的问题。” But can solve most problems money, isn't the world's best thing?” “但能够解决最多问题的钱,不就已经是世界上最好的东西了吗?” Therefore, I want to understand, does not need is so pure, lets live like this well......” “所以,我想明白了,不必那么纯粹,就这样让生活更好一点吧……” „......” “……” Lu Xin that the innermost feelings touch, after publishing a feeling, looked to Eight, said in a soft voice: Clearly recognized oneself, becomes firm, knew the direction. Therefore, the matter of orphanage, I also had the judgment of oneself. Like possibly is absolute fair that you pursue, is also beforehand companion justice, but what I think is only, completed the oneself initial commitment......” 内心触动的陆辛,发表了一通感慨之后,才重新看向了八号,轻声道:“认清了自己,就会变得坚定,也就知道了方向。所以,孤儿院的事情,我也有了自己的判断。就像你追求的可能是绝对的公平,是还之前的同伴一个公道,而我想的只是,完成自己当初的承诺……” Therefore, Eight, I asked you to help me.” “所以,八号,我请你帮我。” „......” “……” Eight is listening to these words, the expression became chaotic. 八号听着这些话,表情都变得混乱了。 Perhaps......” “或许……” He wants to open the mouth, stops, slowly revealed the forced smile: Nine, is very difficult to imagine you to say these words......” 他想要开口,又停下,慢慢露出了苦笑:“九号,真的很难想象你会说出这些话……” Where from studies......” “都是从哪学来的啊……” „......” “……” Lu Xin is listening to his words, could not bear smile slowly: Read a book, you.” 陆辛听着他的话,忍不住慢慢的笑了起来:“多读点书吧,你也可以的。” „Since leaving the orphanage, I have been studying.” “自从离开了孤儿院之后,我就一直在学习。” „When Eight, just met, you said that my beforehand result is not good, but actually I currently have the university diploma......” 八号,刚见面时,你说我之前的成绩不好,但其实我现在已经有大学文凭了……” „......” “……” Although Eight has not complied directly, but can look, his attitude has been flexible. 八号虽然还没有直接答应,但看得出来,他的态度已经松动了。 Also until this time, in the Lu Xin innermost feelings finally was more relaxed. 也直到这时,陆辛内心里才终于轻松了些。 Compared with Sword Bearer, the Eight attitude, is he cares. 执剑人相比,八号的态度,才是他更关心的。 Finally, the oneself attitude and Eight achieved the unification. 总算,自己的态度和八号达成了统一。 At this moment, oneself can finally like true facing the beforehand schoolmate, facing this time Eight. 这一刻,自己终于可以像真正的面对以前的同学一样,面对此时的八号了。 ...... …… ...... …… While Lu Xin and Eight are speaking, old security continuously silent drinks in side. 陆辛八号说着话的同时,老保安一直沉默的在旁边喝酒。 He uses the toothpick, careful selects the protein of salty duck egg to drink, a small mouth, eaten special is careful. 他用牙签,小心的挑着咸鸭蛋的蛋白下酒,一小口一小口的,吃的特别仔细。 Only the long-term hard times person, could be familiar with such drinking method. 只有过过很长时间苦日子的人,才会习惯这样的喝酒方法。 But regarding the dialogue of Lu Xin and Eight, he simply has not cared, except for will look at their one eyes occasionally, more time, he in oneself drinking silently, until the surroundings does not know when peaceful, he detected Lu Xin looks to the oneself vision. 而对于陆辛八号的对话,他也根本没有放在心上,除了偶尔会看他们一眼,更多时间,他只是在自己默默的喝酒,直到周围不知何时安静了下来,他察觉了陆辛看向自己的目光。 He then put down the wine glass slowly, has taken the cleaning rag, scratched a hand of oneself, welcomed to the Lu Xin vision. 他这才慢慢的放下了酒杯,拿过抹布,擦了一下自己的手,迎向了陆辛的目光。 This I?” “该我了是吗?” „......” “……” The Lu Xin static looks at old security, in the mind appeared gradually the familiar image. 陆辛静静的看着老保安,脑海里渐渐浮现出了熟悉的形象。 Yes, Teacher Sun.” “是的,孙老师。” He nods gently, said: One of two assistants Old Dean most trusted initially, Sun bell, Teacher Sun.” 他轻轻点头,道:“老院长当初最信任的两位助手之一,孙钟,孙老师。”
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