„Is the rainy day, the joint is somewhat sore, person was really old. In family/home very cold and dreary, weeping sound that hears the neighbor family/home children, I thought of Little Fan in childhood.” “又是阴雨天,关节有些疼,人的真的老了。家中很凄冷,听到邻居家孩子的哭声,我又想到了小凡小时候。” „Old man anything did not say, but I know that he thinks of Little Fan compared with me, in the evening sleeps often shouted that his name, turn on the light several times, sees on his face to have the tears of pollution, we were really old.” “老头子什么都不说,可我知道他比我更想念小凡,晚上睡觉时常喊他的名字,几次开灯,都见到他脸上有浑浊的泪,我们真的老了。” ...... …… The diary the yellowing, Ye Fan has turned one page to have the tears to tumble every time, above wrote all over to his and missing, the carrying/sustaining their loves. 日记本已经泛黄,叶凡每翻一页都有泪水滚落,上面写满了对他的与思念,承载了他们的爱。 „Father, mother!” Ye Fan cannot bear the sob, experiences so many difficultly in Big Dipper, encountered so many tribulations he not to cry, but comes back at the present, he actually could not bear again, the tears tumbled unceasingly. “爸,妈！”叶凡忍不住哭泣,在北斗经历那么多艰辛,遭遇了那么多磨难他都从来没有落泪,可是而今回来了,他却再也忍不住,泪水不断滚落。 Falls the diary of full dust, probably heavy over extremely heavy, making his both hands keep shaking. In his heart turns sour, the old parents, the miserable old age, the sleep talking are calling his name, after is waking up, actually icy cold tears. 落满灰尘的日记本,像是重逾万钧,让他的双手抖个不停。他心中发酸,年迈的父母,凄凉的晚年,梦呓都在唤他的名字,可是醒来后却只有冰凉的泪。 „For the new year, as usual, only then both of us, Little Fan, if comes back suddenly, appears in the side, that would be nice.” “过年了,同以往一样,还是只有我们两人,小凡要是突然回来,出现在身边,那该多好啊。” „15, the Lantern Festival arrived, should reunite, is in the family/home is very lonely. We rested early, but has actually lost sleep dawn, the waist and leg are very sore, the body is not good, does not know can also and other Little Fan several years.” “十五了,元宵节到了,本该团团圆圆,可是家里却很冷清。我们早早的睡了,可却一直失眠到天亮,腰和腿都很疼,身子骨不行了,不知道还能等小凡几年。” ...... …… Ye Fan cries, kneels on the ground, the hand holds this diary that condenses the tear stains and missing, his body is shivering, the character character heartrending, making him love dearly. 叶凡大哭,跪在地上,手捧着这本凝聚泪痕与思念的日记本,他的身体在颤抖,字字钻心,让他心疼。 How two old person these years come, the tears blurred his eyes, paper that turns yellow page after page, the carrying/sustaining were too many, is heavier than the mountain. 两个老人这些年是怎么过来的,泪水模糊了他的双眼,一页一页发黄的纸,承载了太多,比山还重。 Last page of diaries, stop in ten years ago, above only then several words, their bodies are not good, thinks that he was distracted, both old person several days were hard to speak several words, melancholy turned into sickness. 最后一页日记,止于十年前,上面只有几句话,他们的身体不行了,想他都精神恍惚了,两个老人几天都难以说上几句话,忧郁成疾。 The Ye Fan's heart with the same pain that the blade shears, made an effort to hold the hair, painful kneeling on the ground, wished one could to reverse the time, returned to that moment, only to let them showed the smile. 叶凡的心跟刀割的一样痛,用力抓住了头发,痛苦的跪在在地上,恨不得逆转时光,回到那一刻,只为让他们露出笑容。 This is ten years ago diaries, what at the present does here have? Only has the dust, no point vitality/angry. The Ye Fan brain bang makes noise, the entire portrait lost the soul. 这是十年前的日记,而今这里还剩下了什么？只有灰尘,没有一点生气。叶凡脑子轰隆作响,整个人像是失去了灵魂。 He knows, something are doomed unable to change the result, but is unwilling, probably a wild animal same shouted, sends out was injured same sad howl. 他知道,有些事注定无法更改结局,但还是不甘,像是一只野兽一样嘶吼,发出了受伤一样的悲嚎。 „Father, mother!” “爸,妈！” He face upwards to yell, weeps copiously, makes an effort to grasp to Void, wants to recall anything, but his actually anything cannot achieve. 他仰天大叫,泪如雨下,用力抓向虚空,想挽回什么,可是他却什么也做不到。 His crazy seeking, searches through each corner, but each thing can make him moved, the bedroom that is affected with damp mildewy, the simple furniture, the instant noodles of deterioration, all these explained that the twilight years of two old people are not very ample. 他疯狂的寻找,寻遍每一个角落,可是每一件东西都会让他更加伤感,发霉受潮的卧室,简单的家具,变质的泡面,这一切都说明两个老人的晚年生活很不宽裕。 Finally, he saw in new closet a relatively good that the neat clothes that folds, each preserves, that...... belongs his! 最后,他在一个相对较新的衣柜中看到了很多叠的整整齐齐的衣服,每一件都保存的很好,那……都是属于他的！ Ye Fan sobbed, shivers is stroking gently with the hand, hit the head on the ground, knelt there, did not hope, thump place that he made an effort. 叶凡哽咽,颤抖着用手摩挲,将头撞在地上,跪在那里,不愿起来,他用力的捶地。 Although is controlling vigorously, was the crack propagation, this was an unacceptable result, he wants to bellow loudly. 虽然在极力控制,还是有一条条裂缝蔓延了出去,这是一个让人无法接受的结局,他想放声大吼。 Reckless, since Big Dip­per Star Domain starts off, can only have a reunion for today, appears in old person's side, was eventually late. 不顾一切,从北斗星域上路,只为今天能重逢,出现在老人的身边,可是终究是晚了。 Ye Fan cries, unceasing sad cry, the summon parents, a child is probably same, the tears long class/flow, felt like lost the whole world. 叶凡大哭,不断的悲呼,呼唤父母,像是一个孩子一样,泪水长流,感觉像是失去了整个世界。 If the Big Dip­per Star Domain's enemy the knowledge, will be very certainly puzzled, this heart is harder than the iron, will the take action brutal person have such side? 北斗星域的敌人若知,一定会很不解,这个心比铁硬、出手无情的人怎么会有这样的一面？ Also does not know how long, the Ye Fan's heart is empty, his eyes is atheistic, holding the knee is sitting there is motionless. 也不知道过去了多久,叶凡的心空空荡荡,他双眼无神,抱着膝坐在那里一动不动。 Reads off the diary, looks at all in family/home, he has been able to infer, ten years ago parents' bodies were weak, can guess correctly the result. 读完日记,看完家中的一切,他已经能够推断出,十年前父母的身体就不支了,可以猜到结局。 Ye Fan such as an injured child, rolls up in a corner, one day and one night has not moved, in the eye the cavity, looks at each goods in room dull. 叶凡如一个受伤的孩子,蜷缩在一个角落里,一天一夜都没有动一下,眼中空洞,呆呆看着屋中的每一件物品。 Until the next day, he stands up, must expose the final mind scabs, faces directly the grief of brutally bleeding. 直到第二天,他才站起身来,要去揭开最后的心灵伤疤,直面残酷流血的伤痛。 He walked slowly, looks to the sky, thought that all were gloomy, even Sun lost the brilliance, all are so depressing. 他慢慢的走了出来,望向天空,觉得一切都灰暗了,连太阳都失去了光彩,一切都如此压抑。 Looks at the ancient central courtyard, in his heart silent, in the past he left behind a lot of money to the parents, since Mount Tai vanishes, the house, car(riage), deposit should be two old people, why aren't their life good? 看着古旧的四合院,他心中默然,当年他给父母留下了不少钱,自泰山消失后,房子、车、存款等都该属于两位老人,为什么他们的生活并不好？ According to then level of living, these that he left behind, the enough ordinary person moistened on several lifetime. 按照当时的生活水平来说,他留下的那些,足够普通的人滋润的过上几辈子了。 The price rises, inflation? 10 years of ten dollars and 90's money purchasing power are similar. Even but if passed for twenty years, the price is odd, the inflation was fiercer, these property still enough they enjoy old age in peace are right. 物价上涨,通货膨胀吗？一零年的十块钱与九十年代的一块钱购买力差不多。可是即便过去了二十几年,物价离谱,通胀更厉害了,那些财产也够他们安享晚年才对。 Ye Fan shakes the head, person not, but also investigated that these make anything, he nearly desperate must go to face the final result. 叶凡摇了摇头,人都不在了,还追究这些做什么,他近乎绝望的要去面对最后的结果。 Where he must check the day parents after diary interrupt to go, he must see their final all. Therefore he decides not to hesitate manifest divine ability, enters some relevant government departments, does not attend to shocking everybody, pulls and reads all. 他要查日记中断后的日子父母去了哪里,他要见到他们最后的一切。为此他决定不惜显化神通,进一些相关部门,不顾惊世骇俗,调阅一切。 First, he emits powerful Divine Consciousness, searched the memories of this piece of central courtyard some people, seeks earnestly, then erased oneself take action trace. 首先,他放出强大的神识,搜索了这片四合院一些人的记忆,认真寻找,而后又抹除了自己出手的痕迹。 He has not thought, really obtained an extremely valuable clue unexpectedly, some people incorrect the parents have picked his body in ten years ago, is a female. 他未曾想到,竟真的得到了一条极其有价值的线索,有人在十年前将他那身体已经不行的了父母接走,是一个女子。 These people do not know that who that female is, only knows her to be surnamed Xu, when near boarding, his parents once called her for little permits. 这些人并不知那个女子是谁,只知道她姓许,因为临上车时,他的父母曾叫她为小许。 A Xu female, in the Ye Fan heart moves, in his life, in person who knows, has had happening together with him, and person of parental such name also only then she. 一个许姓女子,叶凡心中一动,在他的生命中,所认识的人中,与他有过交集,且父母那样称呼的人也只有她了。 Thinks that this female, Ye Fan stares blankly, then sighed lightly, twenty years passed by, but how can also, the time it so brutal, changed a lot. 想到这个女子,叶凡一阵发怔,而后一声轻叹,二十几年过去了,还能怎样,时光它是如此的无情,更改了很多事情。 Xu Qiong, stays behind strong in his life has wiped the color female, leaves for twenty years, does not know how meets to be a scene again. 许琼,一个在他生命中留下过浓重一抹色彩的女子,一别二十几年,不知再次相见会是怎样一番情景。 Leaves in the suburbs of this piece, he launches divine ability, enters some relevant government departments, consults the file, searched some important things, learned where Xu Qiong lives. 离开这片郊区,他展开神通,进入一些相关部门,查阅档案等,搜索到了一些重要的东西,得悉了许琼住在哪里。 After college, he and Li Xiaoman also arrived at the end, after more than one year, knew a female, named Xu Qiong, intersected for two years. 大学毕业后,他与李小曼也到了尽头,一年多后,认识了一个女子,名为许琼,相交了两年。 From lightly like water, to knowing for two years, becomes very good friend, then...... then did not have then, because has not started, finished. 从平淡如水,到认识两年,成为很好的朋友,而后……便没有而后了,因为还没有开始,就又都结束了。 Without that meeting, without going to Mount Tai, if he has not disappeared from this world, perhaps behind will have many stories. 如果没有那场聚会,如果没有去泰山,如果他没有从这个世界消失,也许后面会有很多故事吧。 In the B city of this inch of land worth an inch of gold, can have a villa that is the dream that many people are his entire life impossible to realize, particularly here- Xishan. 在这寸土寸金的b市,能够拥有一栋别墅那是许多人一生都不可能实现的梦想,尤其是在这里-西山。 Xishan is west the B city various mountain the general name, the geographical position is superior, is scenic, is well-known by the ancient temple especially, the neighboring scenic area, is in the scenic area, has the name of Imperial Family plate. 西山是b市西部诸山的总称,地理位置优越,风光秀丽,尤其以古刹闻名,相邻景区,身在景区,有皇家板块之称。 Ye Fan arrives at an alone villa not far away, static looks, the weather is very cold, the leaf of trees has fallen the light, can see that this place is very tasteful, looking at the scenery, lives is the good position. 叶凡来到一个独栋别墅不远处,静静的看着,天气很冷,树木的叶子早已落光,可以看到这个地方很讲究,观景、居住都是较好的位置。 Does not have any mighty waves, without the accident/surprise happen, he sought the Xu Qiong residence very much smoothly, was the front alone villa. 没有什么波澜,更没有意外发生,他很顺利寻到了许琼的居所,就是前面的独栋别墅。 The distant place, a car(riage) drives slowly, graceful a female from vehicle, she so familiar, making in the Ye Fan heart shake immediately, that is Xu Qiong. 远处,一辆车缓缓驶来,从车上下来一个风姿绰约的女子,她是如此的熟悉,让叶凡心中顿时一震,那是许琼。 Good that very she maintains, although has crossed age in full flower, but does not have the traces of many years, many one type was mature and steady. 她保养的很好,虽然早已过了风华正茂的年纪,但却没有多少岁月的痕迹,多了一种成熟与稳重。 Ye Fan was lost in thought that remembered many past events, past beautiful woman liked saying likes smiling, was very open, the makings are completely at the present different. 叶凡怔怔出神,想起了很多往事,当年的美丽女子爱说爱笑,很是开朗,而今气质完全不同了。 Years that elapses, the youth that elapses, changed, if not for meets by chance here, his some do not dare to recognize each other. 那逝去的岁月,那逝去的青春,改变了很多,若不是在这里相逢,他有些不敢相认。 „Mother.” Another side vehicle door opens, a 16 or 17-year-old girl gets out, jumps, is very lively, is also very beautiful, looks like with twenty years ago Xu Qiong very much. “妈。”另一侧的车门打开,一个十六七岁的女孩下车,蹦蹦跳跳的,很活泼,亦很美丽,与二十几年前的许琼很像。 Distant place, Ye Fan one dull, so many years passed by, once girl is a mother, had such a big daughter, this makes in his heart have mixed emotions, silently stand at the scene. 远处,叶凡一呆,这么多年过去了,曾经的女孩已为人母了,有了这样大的一个女儿,这让他心中百感交集,默立在当场。 „Years.” His putting out such three characters slowly. “岁月啊。”他缓缓的吐出这样三个字。 The distant place, Xu Qiong happen to looks, saw him, the bag fell all of a sudden on the ground, the expression on face solidified all of a sudden, surprised looks here. 远处,许琼正好望来,见到了他,手包一下子掉在了地上,脸上的表情一下子凝固了,吃惊的看着这里。 Then, her look incomparable excitement, extends take action, aims at Ye Fan, in the mouth is muttering: „You...... you...... you are......” 而后,她神色无比的激动,伸出手,指向叶凡,口中喃喃着:“你……你……你是……” „Mother, you how?” The young girls bypass the car(riage) fast, runs up to the near, grasped her arm, shaking of worry, then looks to here following her vision. “妈,你怎么了？”少女快速绕过车,跑到近前,抱住了她的一条手臂,担心的摇动,而后顺着她的目光向这里望来。 So many years pass by, the Ye Fan appearance is invariable, even compared with also took on young young initially, he arrives at the near silently, with her relative. 这么多年过去,叶凡容貌不变,甚至比当初还要年轻上几岁,他默默来到近前,与她相对。 „Really...... is you?” Xu Qiong flutters to ask. “真的……是你吗？”许琼颤声问道。 „Is I.” Ye Fan nods. “是我。”叶凡点头。 Such meeting by chance, many words are hard to export suddenly, two people oppose silently, the state of mind fluctuates. 这样的相逢,许多话一时间难以出口,两人默默对立,心绪起伏。 „Went to say.” After Xu Qiong is slightly tranquil, said. “进去说。”许琼稍微平静后道。 „Mother, who is he?” Nearby girl asked low voice. “妈,他是谁呀？”旁边的女孩小声问道。 After entering the living room, Xu Qiong said: „Xu Ye, goes to your own room, I spoke some words with this uncle.” 进入客厅后,许琼道:“许晔,去你自己的房间,我与这位叔叔说些话。” „Any uncle, compared with me greatly am several years old.” Xu Ye wrinkles the nose to be discontented, the opens the mouth of somewhat smart-alecky and provocation said: „Hey, who the kid are you?” Has the tone of cracking a joke, is not ill-flavored, seems very lively. “什么叔叔,才比我大几岁呀。”许晔皱着鼻子不满,有些俏皮兼挑衅的开口道:“喂,小屁孩你是谁呀？”带着开玩笑的语气,并不让人反感,显得很活泼。 „Goes to own room.” Xu Qiong puts on a serious face. “回自己的房间。”许琼板起脸。 „, Good.” “哦,好吧。” Living room peaceful, both people have not spoken, regarding Xu Qiong, Ye Fan's appears, this extremely shocked everybody. 客厅安静了下来,两个人都没有说话,对于许琼来说,叶凡的出现,这太过惊世骇俗了。 A suffocating silence, is after very long , the Xu Qiong opens the mouth, said: „Actually these years...... did you go to where?” 一阵让人窒息的沉默,很久后许琼开口,道:“这些年……你究竟去了哪里？” „Very, to the effort that I go all out, a narrow escape, until now comes back.” Ye Fan bitter and astringent saying. “很远,远到我拼了命的努力,九死一生,直到现在才回来。”叶凡苦涩的说道。 Xu Qiong sighed lightly, said: „I have not waited for you is too long, intersect for two years, only waited for two years, the person must live is not.” 许琼一声轻叹,道:“我没有等你太久,相交两年,也只等了两年,人总要生活不是。” Ye Fan nods. The reality is not the novel, the person must survive, the life, anything waits for the life painstakingly, that is not realistic, is only the beautiful story, the person must walk forward. 叶凡点头。现实不是小说,人要生存,生活,什么苦等一生,那不现实,只是美丽的故事,人总要向前走下去。 He does not know how Xu Qiong received here the parents, middle had certainly anything, some stories. 他不知道许琼怎么将父母接到了这里,当中一定发生了什么,有一些故事。 „Xu Qiong, my parents......” Ye Fan trembling sound said. “许琼,我的父母……”叶凡颤声道。 „You, if came back for three years to be good again early.” “你如果再早回来三年就好了。” Ye Fan such as was struck by lightning, whole person weak by the sofa, thought that the dark day is secret, although has expected, when hears such answer with one's own ears, he such as crashes next ten thousand zhang (3.33 m) Abyss, the eye becomes dark a while ago, tears uncontrolled tumbling. 叶凡如遭雷击,整个人无力的靠在了沙发上,觉得昏天暗地,虽然已经料到,但是当亲耳听到这样的答复,他还是如坠落下万丈深渊,眼前一阵发黑,泪水不受控制的滚落。 Xu Qiong sets out, takes into a room him, telling his is two old people have lived finally the place, in three years ago, one after the other, the great distance one month, had not passed away one after another. 许琼起身,将他带进一个房间,告诉他这是两个老人最后生活过的地方,在三年前,一前一后,相隔未过一个月,相继离开了人世。 Ye Fan kneels there, silent crying, stubbornly holds the bed sheet, wants to feel their all, the capture has had aura. 叶凡跪在那里,无声的落泪,死死的抓住床单,想要感受他们的一切,捕捉存在过的气息。 „They truly think you very much, every night in a soft voice snort/hum, was roaring the song that you go to sleep in you in childhood, stroked your childhood picture......” “他们确实很想你,每晚都会轻声的哼着在你小时候、哄你入睡的歌,抚摸你小时候的照片……” „Particularly, when their bodies cannot move good and again, stubbornly is holding the photo album of that turning yellow, for fear that loses.” “尤其是,当他们身体不行、再也动不了时,死死的抱着那本发黄的相册,生怕丢失。” „Final day, they use the rough hand to stroke gently, watches your picture with the muddy eye......” “最后的日子,他们用粗糙的手摩挲,用浑浊的眼怔怔的看着你的照片……” Ye Fan cannot endure again, kneels on the ground, is arriving at the bed by, sorrowful cries to make noise. 叶凡再也忍受不住,跪在地上,以头抵着床,悲恸的大哭出声。 Twenty years, all efforts, the turns into air, cannot see the parents finally eventually, he felt like a knife twisting in the heart, filled sadly with the wound, did not have completely regrettably! 二十几年,所有的努力,最终成空,终究是没有能见到父母,他心如刀绞,充满了悲与伤,还有无尽遗憾！ The rending pain, tears welled up, blurs eyes, the Ye Fan finger gripped quickly, he cannot accept this result. 撕心裂肺的痛,泪如泉涌,模糊了双眼,叶凡指头都快攥断了,他不能接受这个结果。 Xu Qiong drew back, only leaves behind him in the room , Ye Fan induced one type warm and summon. 许琼退了出去,只留下他一个人在房中,恍惚间,叶凡感应到了一种温暖与呼唤。 „Little Fan you came back......” “小凡你回来了吗……” Ye Fan great pain and grief, in the mouth muttered, a character wept blood, reads aloud Scripture of Salvation, has not thought that will read for the parents, each character ironed in Void, brings his moved and sorrow, the brand mark in the room. 叶凡肝肠寸断,口中喃喃,一字一泣血,诵出度人经,从来没有想到会为父母念,每一个字都烙在虚空,带着他的伤感与悲恸,烙印在房间中。 Oh, a sigh, I am not actually willing to write, takes the trouble time-consumingly with effort, makes such late. But thought that a person obtains enlightenment, family member parents, even the chicken dog ascended to heaven is too vulgar. Finished this chapter, I am not feel better. Un, looks that also calculates has the brothers and sisters of feeling, please throw *** under support. 唉,一声叹息,其实我不愿这么写,费时费力费心,弄这么晚。可是觉得一人得道,亲人父母,甚至鸡犬都升天太俗了。写完这章,我心里也不算好受。嗯,看着还算有感觉的兄弟姐妹,请投***支持下吧。