Xie Yun words although said polite, but the tone is actually passing the full disaffection, this lets the taxi driver very surprise. 谢芸的话虽然说的客气、但语气却透着十足的不满,这让出租车司机很是诧异。 The driver has not switched off the broadcasting station, is only small of very sound tonality, but also said one politely: „Quarrelled you, was really embarrassed.” 司机并没有关掉电台,只是将声音调的很小,还礼貌的说了一句:“吵到您了吧,真是不好意思。” At this time, Diantaili was still saying that about the Li Mu's matter, Xie Yun especially is at heart agitated, then said to the driver again: „Switches off the broadcasting station troublesome, I do not want to listen to these contents.” 此时,电台里还在说关于李牧的事情,谢芸心里格外烦躁,便再次对司机说:“麻烦把电台关掉吧,我不想听这些内容。” The driver surprise, has to switch off the broadcasting station, but felt like the request that Xie Yun set was somewhat unreasonable, the silent moment, the driver could not bear ask one: „You are outside area come?” 司机心里诧异,只好将电台关掉,但心里却觉得谢芸提出的要求有些无理,沉默片刻,司机忍不住问了一句:“您是外地来的吧？” Xie Yun knits the brows: „Did I just under the airplane, you say?” 谢芸皱了皱眉:“我刚下飞机,你说呢？” The taxi driver said with a smile: „Just the next airplane might also be the native, or has lived in the Yanjing people from other place, but I look at these two people, you are not.” 出租车司机笑道:“刚下飞机也有可能是本地人,或者是一直生活在燕京的外地人,但我看这两种人,您都不是。” Xie Yun cannot bear ask him: „What's wrong? Doesn't want to listen to the passengers of broadcasting station is not for a long time in the person of Yanjing life?” 谢芸忍不住问他:“怎么？不想听电台的乘客就不是长期在燕京生活的人了？” „That actually not.” The taxi driver said: „Now which also how many people like listening to the broadcasting station, what the key must look at Diantaili to broadcast is what, you should know Li Mu that Diantaili broadcast a moment ago who is?” “那倒不是。”出租车司机说:“现在哪还有多少人喜欢听电台,关键得看电台里播放的是什么,您应该知道刚才电台里播的李牧是谁吧？” Xie Yun hear of he mentioned Li Mu, snort/hum smiled one, said: „I know certainly that who he is, Internet Spoiled Child, what relations but this has with me in the Yanjing life for a long time?” 谢芸听他提及李牧,哼笑一声,说:“我当然知道他是谁,互联网骄子嘛,可这跟我是不是长期在燕京生活有什么关系？” The driver said: „In the person of Yanjing life, has a sense of pride to Li Mu for a long time, like you, will not spare a glance to him.” 司机说:“长期在燕京生活的人,对李牧都有一种自豪感,不会像您这样,对他不屑一顾。” Xie Yun didn't expect Li Mu really has such strong influence in Yanjing, stunned moment, later then gave up arguing with the taxi driver, a person sat on the back row seat, penting up anger silently. 谢芸没想到李牧在燕京竟然有这么强大的影响力,错愕了片刻,随后便放弃了与出租车司机争辩,一个人坐在后排座椅上,默默的生着闷气。 Since knows that Li Mu also has a girlfriend in Renmin, Xie Yun has been suppressing one share hot tempered anger at heart. 自从知道李牧在人大还有个女朋友,谢芸心里一直憋着一股子暴躁的怒火。 To a birth scholarly family, moreover once taught to gradually influence many years of Xie Yun in university, she had almost not realized this anger, Li Mu this time achieved. 对一个出生书香门第,而且又曾在大学里任教熏陶多年的谢芸来说,她几乎从来没有体会过这种愤怒的情绪,偏偏李牧这次做到了。 Xie Yun although seems like gentle, and has the culture, to have the training, but in the bone actually is also a person who has the full arrogance, but compares with most people, her arrogance is not arrogant, but concerns the principle and dignity. 谢芸虽然看起来非常温柔、且有文化、有修养,但骨子里却也是一个有十足傲气的人,只是跟大多数人比起来,她的傲气并不凌人,而是关乎原则与尊严。 She to the Li Mu's attitude is, regardless of Li Mu whether has the ability, regardless of he whether has the family circumstances, so long as the daughter likes him, so long as he is wholehearted to the daughter, she will approve him, and hopes that he and daughter can be getting better and better, afterward knew the Li Mu's ability, outstanding, this is really the unexpected benefit. 她原本对李牧的态度是,无论李牧是否有能耐、无论他是否有家境,只要女儿喜欢他,只要他对女儿真心实意,她就会认可他,并且希望他和女儿能越来越好,后来得知李牧的能力、实力超群,这实属是意外收获。 However, her didn't expect, Li Mu on own daughter the dual purpose, these triggered the arrogance in her bone unexpectedly undecidedly and wholeheartedly, because in her opinion, oneself daughter inside and outside superior in both aspects, but oneself and husband also gave the daughter the favorable material basis and social level foundation, therefore she felt, in this world no one has the qualifications to be fickle to own daughter, Li Mu outstandingly is not again good, the Zhao Ziqiu miss and Zhao Ziqiu beloved daughter, where should be a beloved daughter. 但是,她怎么也没想到,李牧竟然在自己女儿身上三心二意、一心两用,这一下就触发了她骨子里的傲气,因为在她看来,自己女儿内外兼优,而自己与老公也给了女儿优厚的物质基础、社会层次基础,所以她觉得,这世界上没有任何人有资格对自己的女儿薄情,李牧再优秀也不行,赵家的姑娘、赵家的掌上明珠,理应在哪里都是掌上明珠。 Has this mood, Xie Yun at heart to Li Mu naturally is extremely discontented. 带着这种情绪,谢芸心里对李牧自然是极其不满的。 ...... …… At this moment, waits for the Xie Yun Zhao Ziqiu mood especially is also disturbed in Yanjing. 此时此刻,在燕大等着谢芸的赵子秋心情也格外忐忑。 She last night one had not rested, continuously after thinking Mother comes today, how should explain to her. 她昨晚就一宿没睡,一直在想今天妈妈来了之后,到底该怎么跟她解释。 Thinks it over, she has not found out an appropriate solution. 想来想去,她都没有想出一个合适的解决办法。 In the strict sense said, oneself truly is not the Li Mu's name brand girlfriend, even is not the girlfriend who Li Mu openly acknowledged that if was straightforwarder, oneself were between Li Mu and Su Yingxue small three, were his sweetheart, was how this by oneself with the Mother opens the mouth? She does not know the multi- vitality/angry when the time comes, does not know disappointedly to oneself. 严格意义上说,自己确实不是李牧的正牌女友,甚至都不是李牧公开承认的女友,如果说的直白一些,自己就是李牧和苏映雪之间的小三、是他的情人,可是这让自己怎么跟妈妈开口？她到时候不知道会多生气,也不知道会对自己多失望。 But this is also not the worst issue, what is worst, Zhao Ziqiu cannot think of the appropriate solution. 但这还不是最糟糕的问题,最糟糕的是,赵子秋根本想不到合适的解决办法。 Mother this time, the attitude is very clear, is to solve this matter, this explained, Mother will be will definitely not allow itself to continue with Li Mu to maintain this sweetheart relations, but, what can her solution be? 妈妈这次来,态度十分明确,就是要解决这件事情的,这就说明,妈妈是肯定不会允许自己继续跟李牧保持这种情人关系,可是,她的解决办法会是什么？ If she compels herself to leave Li Mu, oneself will certainly not comply, because oneself love Li Mu, even if his sweetheart, is not willing to draw a line with him, if oneself can achieve with Li Mu draws a line, oneself will step onto the situation on own initiative devoting to? 如果她逼自己离开李牧,自己一定不会答应,因为自己太爱李牧,哪怕是做他的情人,也绝不愿与他划清界限,如果自己能做到和李牧划清界限,自己又怎么会走上主动献身的地步？ If she compels Li Mu and Su Yingxue makes the choice between oneself, oneself are also very difficult to accept, because this to oneself, was really contradictory, on the one hand does not want to stand in the immoral standpoint competes publicly with Su Yingxue, on the other hand will be worried that Li Mu has not finally chosen itself. 如果她逼李牧在自己和苏映雪之间做出选择,自己也很难接受,因为这对自己来说,实在是太矛盾了,一方面不想公开的站在不道德的立场上与苏映雪竞争,另一方面会担心李牧最终没有选择自己。 But, Zhao Ziqiu also is very at heart clear, if follows oneself these two if, were only basically left over to continue to maintain a present situation practical solution, but this had the huge conflict with the demand of Mother, because she wanted, nothing but was one of the two results: Either oneself leave Li Mu, either lets Li Mu to oneself an explicit girlfriend status. 可是,赵子秋心里也很清楚,如果遵循自己这两个如果,基本上就只剩下继续保持现状这一种可行之道了,但这又与妈妈的诉求产生了巨大的冲突,因为她心里想要的,无非就是这两个结果之一:要么自己离开李牧,要么让李牧给自己一个明确的女友身份。 How to relax, mediate and solves the present issue, became in the Zhao Ziqiu life the biggest difficult problem. 如何缓和、斡旋、解决眼下的问题,成了赵子秋人生中遇到的最大难题。 ...... …… The taxi that Xie Yun takes stops before the body of Zhao Ziqiu, when Zhao Ziqiu sees Mother that in the car(riage) gets angry, at heart anxious no to attach. 谢芸乘坐的出租车在赵子秋的身前停下,当赵子秋看见车里黑着脸的妈妈时,心里紧张的无以附加。 Xie Yun sees a Zhao Ziqiu face startled stupidly stands outside the car(riage), is being away from window looks at, pulls out at heart all of a sudden hurts. 谢芸见赵子秋一脸惊慌的在车外傻站着、隔着窗户看着自己,心里一下子就抽得一疼。 Zhao Ziqiu long is so big, has not shown such expression before oneself, looked that her panic appearance, looked at the eye socket that she became dark again, the Xie Yun anger has most to transfer loving dearly instantaneously. 赵子秋长这么大,还从来没有在自己面前展现出这样的表情,看她惊慌失措的样子、再看她发黑的眼圈,谢芸的怒气瞬间有大半转成了心疼。 Xie Yun opens the vehicle door, said to Zhao Ziqiu: „Boards, the servant goes home.” 谢芸推开车门,对门外的赵子秋说:“上车吧,跟妈回家。” Zhao Ziqiu stares, has not caught the car(riage), but asked one flurriedly: „Mother, which family/home Ah? returns to” 赵子秋一愣,没赶上车,而是慌乱的问了一句:“妈,回哪个家啊？” This moment Zhao Ziqiu, for fear that Mother, because to oneself disappointed, but meets itself Hangzhou from Yanjing. 这一刻的赵子秋,生怕妈妈因为对自己失望,而把自己从燕京接回杭城。 The thoughts that Xie Yun saw through Zhao Ziqiu, helpless sighing, said: „Goes to Ziyun Mountain Villa, over the two days your anything do not do, accompanies mother to treat.” 谢芸一眼看穿了赵子秋的心思,无奈的叹了口气,说:“去紫云山庄,这两天你就什么都别干了,陪妈待着。” Zhao Ziqiu is hanging the heart instantaneous loosen most probably, the hastily nod boarded. 赵子秋悬着的心瞬间松了大半,急忙点头上车。 Sits with Mother in the back row, Zhao Ziqiu especially is at heart disturbed, several times want to speak, actually does not know that should say anything, can only sit on the seat lowers the head, motionless thinking matter. 和妈妈一起坐在后排,赵子秋心里格外忐忑,几次想说话,却又不知道该说什么,只能坐在座椅上低着头,一动不动的想事情。 Xie Yun also planned to see Zhao Ziqiu first to her the singing black face, didn't expect is done is not ruthless under the heart by her miserable appearance, a lot of indignant this time does not know how should vent. 谢芸本来还计划着见了赵子秋先给她唱歌黑脸,没想到被她那楚楚可怜的模样搞得自己怎么也狠不下心来,一肚子的气愤此时也不知道该如何发泄。 Therefore, Xie Yun has to ask her: „Recently were the school studies busy?” 于是,谢芸只好问她:“最近学校学业忙吗？” Zhao Ziqiu shakes the head, said: „Our schoolwork arrangements have been very just right, the relaxation has.” 赵子秋摇摇头,说:“我们的课业安排一直挺恰到好处的,张弛有度。” Xie Yun nods gently, sighed: „Can grasp is very rare, everything most fears is ‚’ does not grasp well.” 谢芸轻轻点头,感叹道:“能把握好度就很难得了,凡事最怕的就是‘度’把握不好。” Zhao Ziqiu hastily said: „Mother you said to......” 赵子秋急忙说:“妈你说的对……” Xie Yun sighed gently, without said again, this awkward dialogue, making her very uncomfortable, she felt, in any event, oneself should not does such awkwardly and relations between oneself daughters, what mistake regardless of she made, or received how big grievance, she was oneself flesh and blood, oneself must make her understand, oneself with her stood forever. 谢芸轻轻叹气,没再多说,这种尴尬的对话,让她心里特别不舒服,她觉得,无论如何,自己不该把跟自己女儿之间的关系搞得这么尴尬,无论她犯了什么样的错误,或者受了多么大的委屈,她都是自己的骨肉,自己得让她明白,自己永远和她站在一起。 After short silence, the taxi stopped in the Ziyun Mountain Villa entrance, Xie Yun brought Zhao Ziqiu to get out, after two people entered oneself villa, sat Xie Yun the gentle voice on sofa said to Zhao Ziqiu: „Ziqiu, sits down to accompany mother to chat the little while.” 短暂的沉默过后,出租车停在了紫云山庄的门口,谢芸带着赵子秋下了车,两人进了自家别墅之后,坐在沙发上的谢芸才柔声对赵子秋说道:“子秋,坐下陪妈聊会儿。” Zhao Ziqiu is at heart flustered, but nods immediately, sat side Mother. 赵子秋心里慌张,但还是立刻点了点头,在妈妈身边坐了下来。 After sitting down, Xie Yun then puts out a hand, two wrap up both hands of Zhao Ziqiu tightly, looks at that a face loves dearly she, asked in a soft voice: „Servant said, what silliness you violated, lets Li Mu that boy such to you?” 坐下之后,谢芸便伸出手去,两手紧包住赵子秋的双手,一脸心疼的看着她,轻声问:“跟妈说说,你这是犯了什么傻,让李牧那小子这么对你？” After the Zhao Ziqiu itself/Ben thinks is proficient, first cannot avoid Mother one to reprove, but didn't expect, she comes up to love dearly itself unexpectedly, the pea-sized teardrops flowed copiously, sob were saying: „Mother, I do not play dumb, is likes him......” 赵子秋本以为到家之后,首先免不了妈妈的一顿训斥,但没想到,她一上来竟然这么心疼自己,豆大的泪珠夺眶而出,哽咽着说:“妈,我不是犯傻,就是喜欢他……” Xie Yun most fears is such reply, is sighing the gas channel/angrily said: „You like him being able, but likes him again, must respect itself, you clearly know that he also has the girlfriend of friends from childhood in Renmin, how is also dead set on to follow he?” 谢芸最怕的便是这样的回答,叹着气道:“你喜欢他可以,但就是再喜欢他,也得尊重自己啊,你明知道他在人大还有个青梅竹马的女朋友,怎么还这么死心塌地跟着他？” The Zhao Ziqiu dangling eyelid, said in a low voice: „I thought that likes striving, is to own respect......” 赵子秋垂下眼睑、低声说:“我觉得喜欢就去争取,才是对自己的尊重……” Xie Yun was almost immediately anxious, blurts simply said: „Your this child how......” 谢芸几乎顿时就急了,脱口便道:“你这孩子怎么……” The Xie Yun words have not said, Zhao Ziqiu wiped tears, stuns the world: „Mother, I have actually had long known Li Mu has the girlfriend, in I have no substantial progress before him knows.” 谢芸话还没说完,赵子秋擦了擦眼泪,又语出惊人:“妈,其实我早就知道李牧有女朋友,在我跟他没有任何实质性进展之前就知道。” Xie Yun was more anxious: „You know that she has the girlfriend, how can also let him......” 谢芸更急了:“你知道她有女朋友,怎么还能让他……” Following words Xie Yun said that but the meaning takes shape. 下面的话谢芸说不出口了,但意思已经呼之欲出。 Zhao Ziqiu purses the lips the long time, brings, to bring shamefacedly disturbedly, brings especially earnestly, said: „Mother, you always thought that is how Li Mu me, but the actual situation is not such that you think.” 赵子秋抿嘴半晌,带着羞愧、带着忐忑,又带着格外的认真,说:“妈,你总觉得是李牧把我怎样,可实际情况不是你想的那样。” Xie Yun closely examines: „What's wrong?” 谢芸追问:“怎么？” Zhao Ziqiu lowers the head, said: „At that time I considered how doesn't let him, but how can let him how, because I really like Li Mu, without the means will accept to have no emotion happening together with him in the future, even if my approach will have many improper, I will still have no complain and regret......” 赵子秋低着头,说:“我当时考虑的根本不是让不让他怎样,而是怎么才能让他怎样,因为我实在是太喜欢李牧,没办法接受自己将来跟他没有任何情感交集,所以就算是我的做法有再多的不妥,我也无怨无悔……” Xie Yun only thought that a brain dizziness, can only dull looks at Zhao Ziqiu, half a word words unable to say suddenly. 谢芸只觉得大脑一阵眩晕,一时间只能呆呆的看着赵子秋,半句话都说不出来。 She was really surprised, she felt suddenly, she raised 20 years of daughter, oneself did not understand unexpectedly. 她实在是太惊讶了,她忽然觉得,自己养了二十年的女儿,自己竟然一点都不了解。 She has thought, Zhao Ziqiu is one is like oneself, in the bone leads the arrogance woman, the woman like her, the innermost feelings and will place in own dignity the most important position proudly, almost initiative will never possibly pursue a man but actually, anything will devote to and so on unthinkable matter not to mention on own initiative, but her didn't expect, the daughter and will run counter completely, she will be young, can love unexpectedly crazily crazy to this situation...... 她一直以为,赵子秋是一个跟自己一样,骨子里带着傲气的女人,像她这样的女人,内心会把自己的尊严与骄傲放在最重要的位置上,几乎永远不可能主动去倒追一个男人,更别提什么主动献身之类匪夷所思的事情,但是她没想到,女儿与自己完全背道而驰,她年纪轻轻,竟然能为爱痴狂到这种地步……