Atmosphere of difficult word covers in the people top of the head, silent, constrains and feels sad, was been heavy the heart. 一股难言的气氛笼罩在众人头顶,沉默、压抑、心酸,叫人心头沉甸甸的。 Xu Guang most can understand Xu Yao, the past matter, he was also one of the participants, the Xu Ru bitter experience, making him sob incomparably. 许光是最能理解许耀的,当年的事,他也是参与者之一,许茹的遭遇,让他唏嘘无比。 Su Yu vision tender looks at Qin Ze, she has thought oneself life experience was miserable enough, the grandmother does not love the uncle not to love, mother does not love the father not to love, they had a child to replace her position respectively, Su Yu felt oneself wandered in shadow that in two families' lights could not illuminate. 苏钰目光怜惜的看着秦泽,她一直觉得自己的身世够惨了,姥姥不疼舅舅不爱,妈妈不疼爸爸不爱,他们各自生了一个孩子取代她的位置,苏钰感觉自己徘徊在两个家庭的灯光照不到的阴影里。 Is incompatible with they harmonious atmosphere, said that the parents are the world's most own person, she also thinks that but the parents do not kiss her, perhaps also regards her for the life in the faulty stroke in handwriting of that failure marriage. 与他们一家和睦的气氛格格不入,都说父母是世上最亲的人,她也想啊,可父母不亲她,或许还视她为人生中那段失败婚姻的败笔。 May compare with Qin Ze, oneself are also very as if lucky, although he has a content family, there is a severe father and gentle mother, and beautiful slut elder sister. 可和秦泽比起来,自己似乎又很幸运,虽然他有一个美满的家庭,有一个严厉的父亲和温柔的母亲,以及一个妖艳jian货的姐姐。 But he and mother meets is not acquainted, until after she dies, knows the truth. But who the father is, no one knows. 可他和亲生母亲相见不相识,直到她死后才知道真相。而亲生父亲是谁,没人知道。 Encounters so similar...... me and A'Ze, is really pimp looks at mung bean, inborn pair. 遭遇如此相似......我和阿泽,果然是王八看绿豆,天生一对。 Su Yu happy thinking. 苏钰幸福的想。 ....... ....... The men have not appeared, from beginning to end has not appeared. 男人没有出现,至始至终都没有出现。 The elder sister belly was gradually big, while summer vacation, elder sister and younger brother two chapters Xu Family Town. 姐姐肚子渐渐大了,趁着暑假,姐弟俩回了许家镇。 The woman who 90s, unmarried is first pregnant, in this remote and impoverished small town, must receive the big censure. 九十年代,一个未婚先孕的女人,在这个偏远而贫困的小镇,得受多大的非议啊。 time, the rumor rises from all directions. 一时间,流言四起。 Some people said that Xu Ru made others' mistress outside, therefore rich studies for younger brother. 有人说许茹在外面做了别人的小三,所以才有钱供弟弟读书。 Some people said that Xu Ru in an outside object, had thoughtless sex at first and abandonment later by others finally. 有人说许茹在外面处对象,结果被人家始乱终弃。 Said in any case what/anything has. 反正说什么的都有。 „Bad woman” and „casual” and „does not know that examines” various types of labels to hit on her. “坏女人”、“随便”、“不知检点”各种标签打在她身上。 When summer vacation, the sunlight is burning the land burningly. 正值暑假,阳光火辣辣的烧灼着大地。 In the retail shop in small town, one group of aunts gather round chat, in the hand is wielding the fan. 小镇的小卖店里,一群大妈围着聊天,手里挥着扇子。 „Actually in the Xu Lan belly that bastard is whose, this soon lived.” “许岚肚子里那个野种究竟是谁的嘞,这都快要生了吧。” „Outside lover so many, she did not say how you know is whose.” “外面野汉子这么多,她自己不说,你怎么知道是谁的。” „This did not have parents' kid since childhood, is be easily swindled, in a few words coaxing comes up to the bed.” “这从小就没了爸妈的娃,就是好骗呐,三言两语给哄到床上去。” „Then who also wants her.” “这下谁还要她啊。” „A'Rong that boy tested into university, hey, you said that and other Xu Lan had the kid, which rich supplied on him again university.” “阿荣那小子是不是考上大学了,嘿,你说等许岚生了娃,哪有钱再供他上大学。” The boss mother suddenly complexion of retail shop changes, fiercely attacks the meaningful glance to several aunts. 小卖店的老板娘忽然脸色一变,给几个大妈猛打眼色。 The entrance, beyond the eave shadow, Xu Yao stands there, unemotional, his hand grips tightly the fist. 门口,房檐阴影之外,许耀站在那里,面无表情,他的手紧紧握成拳头。 „A'Rong takes the admission notice, this morning just arrived.” The boss mother squeezes out one awkward and does not lose the polite the smiling face. “阿荣来拿录取通知书的吧,今早刚到的。”老板娘挤出一个尴尬而不失礼貌的笑容。 Xu Yao took the admission notice to walk, it was sealed in a yellow envelope. 许耀拿了录取通知书就走,它被封在一份黄色的信封里。 In the time that summer vacation comes back, he has listened to the baseless rumor were too many, some said in the back, some said face to face. He who never fights, summer vacation in frequent does the frame. 暑假回来的这段时间里,他听过的风言风语太多了,有的背地里说,有的当面说。从来不打架的他,暑假里频繁和人干架。 Xu Yao hates elder sister, hating her to lack self-respect, hating her to destroy her future. 许耀恨姐姐,恨她不自爱,恨她毁了她的未来。 That expecting too much going wild suffers him daily. 那种恨铁不成钢的抓狂日日折磨他。 He hates that man who raises the pants not to recognize people, although does not know that who he is, elder sister never said. 他更恨那个提裤子不认人的男人,尽管不知道他是谁,姐姐始终不说。 No wonder the Gossip on town. 怪不得镇子上的流言蜚语了。 The obsolete public transportation drives slowly, just spread well organized that on the good anchoring oil duct goes in the year before last, finally stops near the public transportation station. 老旧的公交车缓缓驶来,在前年刚铺好的泊油路上行驶的四平八稳,最后停在公交站边。 On the vehicle a youngster and is supporting the young woman of big belly. 车上下来一个少年和挺着大肚子的年轻女人。 That is exiles home many years of Xu Guang and Xu Lan elder sister and younger brother two. 那是离乡多年的许光和许岚姐弟俩。 „Hi, hi, A'Rong.” Beckoning that Xu Guang makes an effort, smiles. “嗨,嗨,阿荣。”许光使劲的招手,满脸笑容。 The aunts in retail shop poke head in outward open/stretch brain. 小卖店的大妈们朝外探头张脑。 Xu Yao deep is looking at Xu Lan. 许耀深深的望着许岚。 Several years later, finally saw her, present Xu Lan, removed shy of young girl, changed clarity and plentiful, in the foreheads has composed of young married woman. 时隔多年,终于又见到她了,如今的许岚,褪去了少女的青涩,变的圆润、丰满,眉宇间有着少妇的婉约。 „How you in the town, did not say that you and Sister Ru moved to the county.” “你怎么在镇子上,不是说你和茹姐搬到县城了吗。” „, My elder sister was pregnant, comes back to hide, birth control agency that all living things son does not have py, catches my elder sister to deliver toward the hospital, must have an abortion. You looked that her belly was so big, can have an abortion, one crowd does not have the humane domestic animal.” “哦,我姐怀孕了,回来躲着,计生办那群生儿子没py的,逮着我姐就往医院送,要打胎。你看她肚子都这么大了,能打胎吗,一群没人性的畜生。” „My brother-in-law has not come, I deliver my elder sister to come back, my father said in any case I do go to work do not matter, knows to catch a fish by hand, might as well comes back with the elder sister, has to take care.” “我姐夫没来,我送我姐回来的,反正我爸说我上不上班都无所谓,就知道摸鱼,还不如和姐一起回来,有个照应。” Xu Guang bracelet as is always lively, talked endlessly all the way. 许光一如既往的跳脱活泼,一路上喋喋不休。 „You little said several.” Xu Lan reproved younger brother, subsequently looked to Xu Yao, said in a soft voice: „How A'Rong?” “你少说几句。”许岚训斥弟弟,继而看向许耀,柔声道:“怎么了阿荣？” She is so always gentle, is intimate, dreariness of detection easily to oneself eyes. 她始终这么温柔,那么贴心,轻易的察觉到自己眼中的阴郁。 In an instant, red the eye socket, Xu Yao said: „My elder sister was pregnant.” 刹那间,红了眼眶,许耀说:“我姐怀孕了。” ....... ....... That night, Xu Lan and Xu Ru talked about the night, two pregnant women, two bosom friend, left for many years, got married to give birth, happy. Unmarried is first pregnant, by censure. 当天晚上,许岚和许茹谈到深夜,两个孕妇,两个闺蜜,离别多年,一个嫁人生子,幸福美满。一个未婚先孕,饱受非议。 Just like the bitter experience of their childhood, the day left badly. 正如她们儿时的遭遇,天差地别。 Xu Ru looks at Xu Lan, always like selling the little miss of matches is away from the window to look in the room the Christmas dinner of warm stove and delicacy. 许茹看许岚,始终就像卖火柴的小姑娘隔着窗户看房间里温暖的火炉和美味的圣诞晚餐。 Two world. 两个世界。 „Who is child's father?” “孩子的父亲是谁啊？” In the pale yellow light, lies on the same bed, Xu Lan said in a soft voice. 昏黄的灯光中,躺在同一张床上,许岚轻声道。 Xu Ru long time, had not said hesitant. 许茹犹豫半晌,没说。 Xu Lan is touching the belly of bosom friend gently, compared with her big, the expected date of childbirth is also definitely earlier. 许岚轻轻抚摸着闺蜜的肚子,比她的更大,预产期肯定也更早。 „Child was just born, can not have the father, if by any chance he did grow up? The children of others family/home have the father, he does not have.” Xu Lan said: „My family Baobao (darling) may like the father, with her father greasily in the same place, single-parent family's child, is very day bitter, you are a seasoned person, you should have several.” “孩子刚出生,可以没有父亲,但等他长大了呢？别人家的孩子都有爸爸,他没有。”许岚道:“我家宝宝可喜欢爸爸了,整天和她爸爸腻在一起,单亲家庭的孩子,很苦的,你是过来人,你应该有数。” Seeing her is silent, Xu Lan does best to convince saying: „What shoulders, is tired? Even he does not want you, does not want the child, at least can take a compensation, your day has met is better.” 见她还是沉默,许岚苦口婆心道:“什么都自己扛,累不累？就算他不要你,不要孩子,至少可以要一笔补偿,你的日子会过的更好。” „A'Rong what to do? He was enrolled by Zhe Uni, do your laborious so many years, see the hope finally, give up halfway like this? You have said that studies the change destiny, on difference last, didn't walk? Also, your future, you were old, leads a child, how to get married.” “阿荣怎么办？他被浙大录取了,你辛苦这么多年,总算看到希望,就这样半途而废么？你说过,读书改变命运,就差最后一步了,不走了？还有,你的将来呢,你年纪不小了,带着个孩子,怎么嫁人啊。” How to get married, this age, who can the woman who takes one not to get married to have the kid. 怎么嫁人啊,这年代,谁会要一个没嫁人就生娃的女人。 Who can want. 谁会要啊。 For a long time, Xu Ru said: „He had the matter to leave.” 好久,许茹说:“他只是有事离开了。” „Do you believe?” Xu Lan asked back. “你信？”许岚反问。 Also is silent. 又是沉默。 „Did not say that this good,” Xu Ru said with a smile: „How you cherished, now grasps was so strict, I heard that in the town had five months of excess birth, grasping to wipe out, almost two lives walked together.” “不说这个好吧,”许茹强笑道:“你怎么又怀了,现在抓的这么严,我听说镇子上有五个月的超生,都给抓去打掉了,差点两条命一起走。” Xu Lan helplessly said: „My family that wants a son, his father also thinks, always thought did not have the son, his Old Qin brought up the rear. Do not look that he hurts specially sore unmarried young woman now, after knowing I am pregnant, that happiness, usually the person of old-fashioned person, jumps and jumps, with child.” 许岚无奈道:“我家那个想要个儿子呗,他爸也想,总觉得没了儿子,他老秦家就断后了。你别看他现在疼特别疼闺女,知道我怀孕后,那个高兴,平时老古板的一个人,又蹦又跳,跟个孩子似的。” Xu Lan blame helpless tone, but on her face is the happy appearance, deep stabbing pain heart of Xu Ru. 许岚责怪又无奈的语气,可她脸上全是幸福的神采,深深刺痛了许茹的心。 „Actually, the A'Rong school expense I can try to find the solution, is really not good, I asked my father to want, how saying that A'Rong also called him a great uncle.” Xu Lan sighed: „But you......” “其实,阿荣的学费我能想办法的,实在不行,我问我爸要,怎么说阿荣也叫他一声叔公。”许岚叹口气:“可你自己......” Actually that little while, is Xu Lan and maternal home contradiction maximum time, the Xu Family old gentleman good and evil is the cadre leadership, the daughter who the cadre leads, actually must be reincarnated. 其实那会儿,正是许岚和娘家矛盾最大的时候,许家老爷子好歹是干部领导,干部领导的女儿,却要超生。 But Xu Family cannot have a liking for Qin Family , because Qin Family is shabby, without money. 而许家之所以看不上秦家,就是因为秦家寒碜,没钱。 „No, what money can your my wife have? Poorly is the teaching person, right.” Xu Ru said: „The A'Rong school expense, I will try to find the solution. My this makes elder sister's, looks after younger brother, should. Little Lan, this was elder sister's final dignity.” “别,你那口子能有什么钱？最穷就是教书人,对吧。”许茹说:“阿荣的学费,我会想办法。我这个做姐姐的,照顾弟弟,应该的。小岚,这是姐最后的尊严了。” Yes, this is her final dignity. 是的,这是她最后的尊严。 Yes, the long elder sister stepmother, should. 是的,长姐如母,应该的。 ....... ....... Hears here, Qin Ze at heart both disconsolate and moved. 听到此处,秦泽心里既惆怅又伤感。 No matter Auntie Xu whether to that man with the hope, the result was still doomed, that man has not come, but she, helpless and this biological son separated, married others. 不管许阿姨是否仍然对那个男人怀着希冀,结局依然注定,那个男人并没有来,而她,无奈的和自己这个亲生儿子分开,嫁给了别人。 Actually the life of her tragedy, has been doomed from the beginning. 其实她悲剧的人生,从一开始就已经注定。 In the mind, appears he to write to elder sister's that song: 脑海里,不由的浮现他写给姐姐的那首歌: I had loved such a man, 我曾经爱过这样一个男人, He said that I am the world's most beautiful woman. 他说我是世上最美的女人。 I am retaining that naive for him, 我为他保留着那一份天真, Closes to love others' gate. 关上爱别人的门。 Also is this by my deeply love man, 也是这个被我深爱的男人, Turns into me the world the stupidest woman ..... 把我变成世上最笨的女人..... You were also once loving a man like this, is having the hope to him, has the expectation to him, was actually turned into the stupidest that woman. 你是不是也曾这样爱着一个男人,对他抱着希望,对他带着憧憬,却被变成了最笨的那个女人。 Auntie Xu? 许阿姨？ „Who my mother's fresh that child is.” Qin Ze asked. “那我妈生的那个孩子是谁。”秦泽问道。 , This matter stops from the bottom of the heart, he knows oneself life experience, finished a worry. 从心底来说,这件事就到此为止,他知道了自己身世,了却一块心病。 The thing that he wants obtained, the past events find it unbearable to recall, makes it disperse with the wind in the time. 他要的东西都得到了,往事不堪回首,就让它随风散在时光中。 But Qin Ze could not bear curiously, asked one. 可秦泽没忍住好奇,多问了一句。 Xu Guang very exaggerating shook the body, entire photograph cross. 许光很夸张的抖了抖身子,整个人像是跨了。 According to them said that I should compared with my earlier birth, October be my birthday, but is not truly my birthday. 按照他们说的,我应该比我更早出生,十月份是我的生日,但又不是真正我的生日。 Where I went, was eaten by the broad winter person. 我哪里去了,被广冬人吃了吗。