Bolt from the blue. 晴天霹雳。 To two older and younger brothers, this is true bolt from the blue. 对两兄弟来说,这就是真正的晴天霹雳。 The sunlight of hot sun according to the Xu Guang face, his expression twists under the illumination gradually, stares wide-eyed, opening mouth, intently is looking at Qin Ze. 烈日的阳光照在许光脸上,他的表情在光照下渐渐扭曲,瞪大眼睛,张大嘴巴,直愣愣的望着秦泽。 How does he know? 他怎么知道？ How he knows!! 他怎么会知道！！ A heart seemed entrained ruthlessly tightly by the invisible hand. 一颗心仿佛被无形的手狠狠拽紧。 Has a father to raise mistress after outside mother discovered, the family arrives at the despair of collapse edge. 有种父亲在外面养小三被母亲发现后,家庭走到崩溃边缘的绝望。 This analogy is not quite appropriate, but is very appropriate. 这个比喻不太恰当,但很贴切。 If Qin Ze really knows the past matter, the elder sister Xu Lan family, cannot collapse. 如果秦泽真的知道了当年的事,姐姐许岚的家庭,不就得崩溃了么。 Xu Guang was hurried. 许光慌了。 He feels himself to be able hardly absolve, when no matter Qin Ze knows that this confessing, he has lasting achievements, after elder sister knows, will not forgive him for a lifetime. 他觉得自己难辞其咎,不管秦泽什么时候知道的,这次坦白,他功不可没,姐姐知道后,一辈子都不会原谅他。 „You ..... you know many.” Xu Yao trembling sound said. “你.....你知道多少。”许耀颤声道。 This usually enforced, the man who the happy anger does not show, in the seaside business circle for the man who is famous rigorously, at this moment, is unable to restrain the body that oneself shiver, the glib lips of shivering. 这个素来严肃,喜怒不形于色的男人,在临海商业圈里以严谨著称的男人,此刻,无法克制自己颤抖的身躯,颤抖的嘴皮子。 The expression on his face takes turn at the extremely quick speed, surprised, excited and guilty, feels sad ....... the mood sea to raise the crazy wolf. 他脸上的表情以极快的速度交替,惊讶、激动、愧疚,心酸.......情绪的海洋掀起狂狼。 „She is my mother.” Qin Ze turns the head to look at the tombstone, „, but I do not know that who my father is.” “她是我亲生母亲。”秦泽转头看着墓碑,“但我不知道我的亲生父亲是谁。” Said these words time, his vision is staring at Xu Yao. 说这句话的时候,他的目光盯着许耀。 Xu Yao: „.......” 许耀:“.......” Xu Guang: „........” 许光:“........” Xu Guang is pale. 许光脸色发白。 conceals the secret of half a lifetime , was easily said by Qin Ze. 藏了半辈子的秘密,就这么轻易的,被秦泽说出来了。 „How you possibly know, is impossible, impossible......” Xu Guang muttered. “你怎么可能知道,不可能的,不可能的......”许光喃喃道。 Qin Ze looked at his one eyes, the heart said that although I IQ occasionally not online, but actually I had various types to compel the number. 秦泽看他一眼,心说,我虽然智商偶尔不在线,但其实我心里有各种逼数。 „Today leads you to come, is confesses, I hope that do not conceal me, talks clearly the matter. Because conceals does not have the significance.” Qin Ze said. “今天带你们过来,是来坦白的,我希望你们不要隐瞒我,把事情说清楚。因为隐瞒已经没有意义。”秦泽道。 „Yes, she is your mother.” Xu Yao heavy nod. “是,她就是你亲生母亲。”许耀沉沉点头。 Qin Ze Time-Space is at heart natural, disconsolately and turns sadly wells up. 秦泽心里顿时空落落的,惆怅和悲伤翻涌。 I really am the sufficient phone bill deliver. 我果然是充话费送的。 „Son, you are mother( father) pick in the trash can.” “儿子,你是妈妈(爸爸)在垃圾桶里捡来的。” The 100 percent people had played with by the parents in the childhood like this, but 99 percent people one's own. 百分之百的人都在儿童时期被父母这样玩弄过,但百分之九十九的人都是亲生的。 I am that 1 percent. 我是那个百分之一。 Old Iron that life present drifting along, your touch somebody's sore spot incessantly. 生活不止眼前的苟且,还有你们这些扎心的老铁。 Qin Ze responded that is tranquil, in separate many years of the close relatives without the ethical family play cries on each other's shoulders, or holds to shout: Don't I listen, this whole life will not forgive you, yīng yīng yīng ~ 秦泽反应还算平静,没有家庭伦理剧里失散多年的至亲们抱头痛哭,或者抱头大喊:我不听不听,这辈子都不会原谅你们,嘤嘤嘤~ After all was the known matter, in childhood felt, oneself was the Qin Family only adult male, how possibly not one's own, definitely elder sister was picks. 毕竟是早就知道的事情了,小时候觉得,自己是秦家唯一的男丁,怎么可能不是亲生的,肯定姐姐是捡来的呀。 She is so attractive, getting what one deserves picks. 她这么漂亮,活该是捡来的。 I one's own, therefore old gentleman may the vigor punch me. 我是亲生的,所以老爷子可劲儿揍我。 The cake punches me to be sorer, loving me is deeper. 粑粑揍我越疼,爱我越深。 All especially is the misconception. 全特么是错觉。 Afterward was old, something must face, Qin Ze started to check this matter. 后来年纪大了,有些事情必须要面对了,秦泽开始查这件事。 „Is you suggests his, is you!!” “是不是你暗示他的,是不是你！！” Xu Guang seems like only the violent anger lion, throws to Xu Yao in front, tightens his neckband ruthlessly, roared: „Xu Yao, in the past because of anyone, was who was selfish for own future, damn!” 许光像是只暴怒的狮子,扑到许耀面前,狠狠勒紧他的领口,咆哮道:“许耀,当年是因为谁,是谁自私的为了自己的前程,操！” Fights with the fists on the Xu Yao face. 一拳打在许耀脸上。 Xu Yao after staggers several steps, falls in the place. 许耀朝后踉跄几步,跌坐在地。 Qin Ze: „......” 秦泽:“......” , Really does not think with me is the same? 不是吧,真和我想的一样？ Su Yu entire journey dumbfounded, she was shocked. 苏钰全程懵逼,她惊呆了。 Isn't the Qin Ze's mother, Auntie Qin? 秦泽的亲生母亲,不是秦阿姨？ He is Qin Uncle and this Auntie Xu fresh? 那他是秦叔叔和这个许阿姨生的吗？ Is he radically an adopted son?! 或者,他根本是养子？！ He and Qin Baobao were not own elder sister and younger brother. 那他和秦宝宝就不是亲姐弟了。 Why does not know, the Su Yu heart is quite hurried. 不知道为什么,苏钰心好慌。 She deeply is loving Qin Ze, the hope understands his all, his fondness, his dislike, his family member, his relatives and friends...... at present, but this comes is too sudden, like making the soap opera, making one be caught off guard. 她深深爱着秦泽,渴望的去了解他的一切,他的喜好,他的厌恶,他的家人,他的亲朋好友......但眼前这一幕来的太突然,就像在拍电视剧,让人措手不及。 Su Yu discovered when except that oneself eat the melon, anything could not do, what words did not facilitate to say. 苏钰发现自己除了当一个吃瓜,什么事都做不了,什么话都不方便说。 „Uncle, is not he.” Qin Ze said: „When I am very young, once hears my mother to telephone, listened to her saying that personally, I and in elder sister, not one's own. If I have not guessed that wrong, should telephone with you, therefore I while this opportunity, bring to lay cards on the table to here you. Why knows I am not one's own...... the reason were too many, if between I and elder sister, not one's own, definitely is I. She is so attractive, how to see that is you looks like. But my long is not graceful.” “舅舅,不是他。”秦泽道:“在我很小的时候,有一次听见我妈打电话,亲口听她说的,我和姐姐之中,有一个不是亲生的。如果我没猜错的话,应该是在和你打电话,所以我趁着这个机会,把你俩带到这里来摊牌。为什么知道我不是亲生的......原因太多了,如果我和姐姐之间,有一个不是亲生的,肯定是我啊。她那么漂亮,怎么看都是和你更像。而我长的一点都不帅。” Although touches somebody's sore spot very much, but only looks at face value, elder sister obviously inherited old Xu Family part of fine genes. 虽然很扎心,但只看颜值,姐姐明显是继承了老许家一部分的优良基因。 The words saying that I have the old Xu Family gene, but why amn't I graceful? 话说我也有老许家的基因吧,可为什么我一点都不帅？ Su Yu is auditing, the big opinion, you lie at heart, is very obviously graceful. 苏钰在一旁听着,心里好大的意见,你说谎,明明很帅的。 „Auntie Xu was good to me too, good not unfair, is unreasonable. Even if she relates again well with my mother, similarly becomes mother, how possibly to be partial to the child of others family/home? One possibility, I am she live, moreover she is very guilty about me. But my mother must come back every year, the grandfather carried out Xu Family Town many years, her hometown here, but her maternal home in Shanghai. Why does she come back every year? Actually is leads me to come back to look her.” “许阿姨对我太好了,好到不合情,也不合理。她纵使和我妈关系再好,同样当妈的,怎么可能更偏爱别人家的孩子？只有一个可能,我是她生的,而且她对我很愧疚。而我妈每年都要回来,外公搬出许家镇很多年了,她的故乡在这里,可她的娘家在沪市啊。她何必每年回来？其实是带我回来看她的吧。” She, refers to Xu Ru. 她,指的是许茹。 „Last matter, in October of last year, I saw my mother and Xu Yao in Hongqiao Airport in the same place, at that time I did not know him, sent people to check, knows that had his such individual, knew him and Auntie Xu relations.” “最后一件事,去年十月份,我在虹桥机场看到我妈和许耀在一起,当时我并不认识他,派人查了一下,才知道有他这么个人,知道他和许阿姨的关系。” Pei Nanman helps him check, on that day, Qin Ze determined the status of oneself sufficient phone bill truly. 裴南曼帮他查的,那天,秦泽才真正确定了自己充话费的身份。 The mentality collapsed for a long time, almost the pā elder sister. 心态崩了好久,差点啪姐。 Xu Yao gawked staring, last year he had truly gone to Shanghai, at that time only related Little Lan, originally, on that day Qin Ze also. 许耀愣了愣,去年他确实去过沪市,当时只联系了小岚,原来,那天秦泽也在。 Xu Guang stands there, the whole face is dejected, like a having no way out defeat dog. 许光站在那里,满脸颓然,像一条走投无路的败狗。 „That, who my father is.” Qin Ze is staring at Xu Yao stubbornly. “那么,我的亲生父亲是谁。”秦泽死死盯着许耀。 Xu Guang silent looks at Xu Yao. 许光无声的看着许耀。 In a flash, as if the vision of the world falls on oneself. 一瞬间,仿佛全世界的目光都落在自己身上。 Xu Yao looks sad, opens mouth, astringent sound said: „Does not know.” 许耀神情哀伤,张了张嘴,涩声道:“不知道。” Qin Ze: „???” 秦泽:“？？？” Doesn't know? 不知道？ How you possibly do not know. 你怎么可能不知道。 Deceived people. 骗人的吧。 Xu Yao said: „I am your uncle, but I truly do not know that who your father is.” 许耀说:“我是你舅舅,但我确实不知道你亲生父亲是谁。” „I do not believe.” Qin Ze said. “我不信。”秦泽道。 Why does not know, is at heart good to lose, as if glittering examples collapsed. 不知道为什么,心里好失落,仿佛有一个金光闪闪的榜样坍塌了。 But thinks that mother's result, thinks present Xu Yao, he relaxes, the example of failure does not want. 但想到亲生母亲的结局,想到现在的许耀,他又松口气,失败的榜样不要也罢。 But is unreasonable. 可是不合理啊。 Uncle's words, his many performance is unreasonable. 只是舅舅的话,他的很多表现就不合理了。 Your heart knot what's the matter. 你的心结是怎么回事。 Your obsession what's the matter. 你的执念是怎么回事。 You look for my mother from afar what's the matter. 你千里迢迢的找我妈又是怎么回事。 You are only an uncle, you are not 你只是舅舅而已,你又不是我爸。 Is so impatient is making me find roots? 这么心急着让我认祖归宗么？ The uncle and Xu Yao these days petty action small look, Qin Ze watched, treats as does not know. 舅舅和许耀这几天的小动作小眼神,秦泽都看在眼里,当做不知道罢了。 Xu Yao with all one's heart wants to lay cards on the table with him, wants to make him know that who is own mother. 许耀一门心思的想和他摊牌,想让他知道谁才是自己的亲生母亲。 Various uncle types prevent, various look threats. 舅舅各种阻止,各种眼神威胁。 Qin Ze punctures this window paper time, the expression of this man is very excited. 秦泽戳破这层窗户纸的时候,这个男人的表情特别激动。 Uncle's words, cannot be justified. 只是舅舅的话,说不过去啊。 „Who your father is, if A'Rong does not know, that truly was no one knows. Sister Ru has not said that initially when she was pregnant, A'Rong throws a fit, who pressing for an answer her man is, but she had not said. Your mother has also asked that two people discussed one whole evening, may regarding the status of that man, Sister Ru be never willing to reveal half a word.” Xu Guang looks to the tombstone, said: „Even if this will destroy her, even if she simply did not have the ability to support you at that time, even if she cries being swollen eye.” “你的亲生父亲是谁,如果阿荣不知道的话,那确实是没人知道了。茹姐从来没有说过,当初她怀孕时,阿荣大发脾气,逼问她那个男人是谁,可她没说。你妈也问过,两人谈了一整晚,可对于那个男人的身份,茹姐始终不肯吐露半句。”许光看向墓碑,说:“哪怕这样会毁了她,哪怕她当时根本没能力养活你,哪怕她哭肿了眼睛。” Xu Yao clenches jaws. 许耀咬牙切齿。 Qin Ze hearing this, silent. 秦泽闻言,沉默。 He stands in fiercely Yang, in the point cigarette, is staring at mother's tombstone, very long time has not spoken. 他站在烈阳之下,点上一根烟,凝视着亲生母亲的墓碑,很长时间没有说话。 The recollection tumbles in the mind, brings to be able copiously not the governing strength, such as sea tide, such as landslide. 回忆在脑海中翻滚,带着沛莫能御的力量,如海潮,如山崩。 The mother said, Xu Family Town is a very beautiful place, beautiful scenery, the nature always has to produce not the delicacy and beautiful scene. 母亲说,许家镇是个很美的地方,山清水秀,大自然总有产不尽的美味和美景。 In there, has her to grow up together good elder and younger sister. 在那里,有她从小一起长大的好姐妹。 Every year summer vacation, mother can bring Qin Ze to return to Xu Family Town to take vacation, the obsolete public transportation travel on the bumpy anchoring oil duct, raises a piece of dust. 每年暑假,母亲会带秦泽回许家镇度假,老旧的公交车行驶在坑坑洼洼的泊油路上,扬起一片灰尘。 Qin Ze sits on mother's leg, looks out from the window, the fierce Yanggao photo, the road both sides greenery covers, the continuous field was divided square shapes, in the field the crops are green and luxuriant. 秦泽坐在妈妈的腿上,从窗户往外看,烈阳高照,公路两侧绿树茂密,连绵的田野被划分成一块块方形,田里庄稼郁郁葱葱。 Here does not have the air conditioning, without the street light, does not have the big store, without tall buildings. 这里没空调,没路灯,没大卖场,没高楼大厦。 But here has the mountain, has the field, has the bird, has flower, has the limpid mountain spring and rippling blue waters of reservoir. 但这里有山,有田,有鸟,有花,有清澈的山泉和碧波荡漾的水库。 The he and town little friend in dash about wildly on the black boundary ridge between fields, catches the frog, pulls out the bird's egg, night slides to the field in steals the watermelon, falls the eel, during the daytime crossed the hill to swim to the reservoir. 他和镇子里的小伙伴狂奔在黑色的田埂上,抓青蛙,掏鸟蛋,夜里溜到田里偷西瓜,掉黄鳝,白天翻过小山到水库游泳。 In the Qin Ze's memory, Auntie Xu will wear a long broken flowers skirt on that day, stood was only setting upright near a public transportation station of sign, is hoping attentively. 秦泽的记忆中,许阿姨那天都会穿一条长长的碎花裙,站在只竖了一块牌的公交站边,殷勤的期盼着。 Her looks aren't beautiful, because the laborious practical training wore down her beauty, the sunlight blacked her flesh. 她长的并不漂亮,因为辛苦的劳作消磨了她的美丽,阳光染黑了她的肌肤。 She only compared with mother greatly is two years old, but seems like actually old rough many. 她只比妈妈大两岁,但看起来却苍老粗糙的多。 Initially when sees, on that day, Qin Ze first time arrived at Xu Family Town, too did not adapt to the countryside the dust that sultry and flew upwards, the small brow is wrinkling tightly. 初见时,那天,秦泽第一次来到许家镇,不太适应乡下的闷热和飞扬的尘土,小眉头紧皱着。 The vehicle is setting upright the public transportation station of sign to stop, Mother Qin pulls Qin Ze's hand to get out. 车子在竖牌子的公交站停下来,秦妈牵着秦泽的手下车。 The Xu Ru vision frames on the Qin Ze face, cannot move again. 许茹的目光在秦泽脸上定格,再也移不开。 „You are A'Ze, the aunt can hug you.” “你就是阿泽吧,阿姨能抱抱你吗。” When this is sees initially, Xu Ru to first words that he spoke. 这是初见时,许茹对他说的第一句话。 Qin Ze is raising head, looks at the dimple such as the strange aunt of flower, a broken flowers long skirt, in the foreheads has the gentleness of being able to melt. 秦泽仰着头,看着笑靥如花的陌生阿姨,一身碎花长裙,眉宇间有化不开的温柔。 The sunlight is too big, Auntie Xu perspiration, she was under the hot sun to stand for a half hour, hair wet is pasting the forehead and temple. 阳光太大,许阿姨一头的汗,她顶着烈日站了半个小时,头发湿漉漉的贴着额头和鬓角。 She may be really dirty. 她可真脏。 Shaking the head of therefore small Qin Ze acts with constraint. 所以小秦泽矜持的摇了摇头。 „A'Ze, called the aunt.” “阿泽,叫阿姨。” „Aunt.” “阿姨。” „Yeah, A'Ze is clever, the aunt...... buys the popsicle eating to be good.” “哎,阿泽乖,阿姨......买棒冰给吃好不好。” On the Xu Ru face blooms the eye-catching smiling face, but the look deep place, is the deep sadness. 许茹脸上绽放出夺目的笑容,但眼神更深处,是深深的哀伤。 Then Qin Ze could not understand. 只是当时的秦泽看不懂。 Summer vacation finished, before going back that night quickly, Auntie Xu comes to the room to visit him secretly, sits in the bedside, feels his head, cries again. 暑假很快结束,回去前的那天晚上,许阿姨偷偷来房间看他,坐在床边,摸着他的头,再哭。 The low sobbing sound awakens by noise Qin Ze, he has a scare. 低低的哽咽声把秦泽吵醒,他吓了一跳。 „You awake!” Xu Ru wipes the tears on face hastily. “你醒啦！”许茹连忙抹去脸上的泪水。 Small Qin Ze subconscious shouting mother, but mother has not rested in the side. 小秦泽下意识的喊妈妈,但妈妈没睡在身边。 He shrinks in the quilt, reveals a head, timid looks at her. 他缩在被子里,露出一颗脑袋,怯怯的看她。 „Aunt is thinks that you must go back, did not hate...... Xu Ru to say at heart”. “阿姨就是想到你要回去了,心里舍不得......”许茹解释说。 Qin Ze has not spoken. 秦泽没说话。 „Will A'Ze be again good next year.” “阿泽明年再来好不好。” Qin Ze has not replied her. 秦泽还是没回答她。 „You rest, the aunt walked.” “那你睡,阿姨走了。” Looks the back that she leaves, the door closes, Qin Ze relaxes. 看着她离开的背影,房门关上,秦泽松了口气。 next day, goes to the public transportation of county. 第二天,前往县城的公交车上。 „Auntie Xu is the mental illness.” “许阿姨是神经病。” Sits Qin Ze on mother leg complains. 坐在妈妈腿上的秦泽告状。 „Why.” “为什么。” „She comes to our room to cry in the evening secretly.” “她晚上偷偷来我们房间哭。” Mother Qin dull is looking at outside the glass, the facial expression is complex. 秦妈呆呆的望着车窗外,神情复杂。 ....... ....... The fingertip painful, Qin Ze shook suddenly, the cigarette butt burning through falls to the ground. 指尖突然痛了一下,秦泽手一抖,燃尽的烟头落地。 „What in the past had?” Qin Ze looks to Xu Yao: „Can say with me?” “当年发生了什么？”秦泽望向许耀:“能和我说说吗？” Xu Yao nods: „Good.” 许耀点头:“好。” Falls along with his voice, the time reverses in this instantaneously, flashing through of chaotic past events galloping-horse lantern. 伴随着他的话音落下,时光在这个瞬间逆转,纷乱的往事走马灯似的闪过。 Recently fell in love with the fixed time issue. 最近爱上了定时发布。