Serena passes through the gate, probe head cautiously comes, sees Li He to sit on the chair motionless, pressed the throat to shout the sound, „elder brother.” 小威进门来,小心翼翼的探头进来,看到李和坐在椅子上一动不动,压着嗓子喊了声,“哥。” Sees him quite a while not to have the sound, greatly courage softly approaches toward, will frighten him will jump in the future. 见他半天没动静,才大着胆子轻手轻脚的往跟前靠近,啪嗒一声,把他吓得往后一跳。 „Go away.” He opened the mouth finally. “滚。”他终于开口了。 „Elder Brother, you are all right.” Nearby Serena looked has put one's foot down the fragment, this was the sand-fired pot that Li He most loved, tight that usually hugged, for fear that carefully does not knock, cannot think that today this all of a sudden gives to fall. “哥,你没事吧。”小威看了下脚跟前的碎片,这是李和最爱的紫砂壶,平常搂的紧,生怕一个不小心磕着碰着,想不到今天就这样一下子给摔了。 „I make you roll!” His all-out effort has roared full power this throat. “我让你滚啊！”他拼劲全力吼了这一嗓子。 Slightly threatened to run immediately the room. 小威吓得立马就跑出了屋子。 Started to diverge from each alley, street burning hot slowly, started lightly or ding-dong the rainy season, the rain one no longer stood still. The glazed tile on roof was more luminous, the tree leaf was also brighter, the dust in ground also disappears. 炎热从每一条胡同里、马路上开始慢慢散去,开始了淅淅沥沥或者咣咣当当的雨季,雨一下起来就不再停歇。房顶上的琉璃瓦更加的光亮了,树叶子也更加的鲜艳了,地面上的尘埃也不见了。 Li He sits on the chair motionless, is thinking own concern. His repeatedly is thinking own family/home, with her family/home. He sits on the threshold is hugging the son, is listening to his crisp shouting father, is thinking the unmarried girl does not want to go to school, acting like a spoiled brat shouted the father, his heart must melt. Many of but now more thinking, his heart stops up fiercely, air/Qi is airtight, who was covering his nose and mouth? 李和还是坐在椅子上一动不动,想着自己的心事。他一遍遍的想着自己的家,和她的家。他坐在门槛上抱着儿子,听着他脆生生的喊爸爸,想着闺女不想去上学,一个劲的撒娇喊爸爸,他的心要化了。可是现在越想的多,他的心就堵得越厉害,一点气都不透,谁捂着了他的鼻子和嘴巴？ Where he made a mistake, did thinking that he also keeping, blame him not to look for her? 他哪里错了呢,他还在不停的想,难道怪他不去找她嘛？ He is thinking him, so long as comes back, this family/home on entire. She should know that he is loving her. Each letter/believes, he takes great pains was telling her, he was thinking her. Feared that she endures hardship to suffer hardship, the money order in his hand is also piles, he does not have one year in the six years is to break! 他只是想着他只要一回来,这个家就全了。她应该知道他是爱着她的啊。每一封信,他都不厌其烦的在告诉她,他在想她啊。怕她吃苦受罪,他手里的汇款单也是一摞摞的啊,这六年来他没有一年是断过的啊！ He thinks that she is understands her, more than 30 years, how do not understand her together. She is also understood that his, you looked, she often said you will love dearly the woman. 他想她是了解她的,一起30多年,怎么不了解她呢。她也是了解他的啊,你看,她就经常说你都会心疼女人了。 He does not do the housework, visits her to do the housework, juggles, naturally loves dearly, „resting meeting.” 他是不做家务的,看着她做家务,忙里忙外,自然心疼,“歇会吧。” But she happily smiled, „you know loved dearly me to be good, again tired was not tired.” 可是她高兴地笑起来说,“你知道心疼我就好,再累都是不累。” Saw that her hand was rough, he will say, „we invited an aunt.” 看到她手都粗糙了,他会说,“我们请个阿姨吧。” But she said, „poor point does not have anything, the tired point does not have anything, so long as lives happily, the happiness was good. So long as the whole family in the same place, did not seek any good fortune.” 可是她说,“穷点没什么,累点没什么,只要活得开心,开心就好了。只要一家人在一起,就不求什么福分了。” She said is very right. 她说的很对。 More than 30 years, what but also there is not to understand? 30多年了,还有什么不了解的呢？ On his evening class, is early morning comes back frequently, she waits for him to get off work, gives back to him to make the midnight snack. She also frequently waits for him. 他经常上晚班,都是凌晨回来,她就等着他下班,还给他做夜宵。她也经常等他呢。 They were not the children, needs deep love between man and woman? Goes, what he wait/etc. does she have? 他们不是小孩子了,需要儿女情长吗？去就去吧,他等等她又有什么呢？ It is not good, is not good, he is thinking this is not definitely good, he must look for her, they have to quarrel, quarrel are very normal, before usually was she lowers the head, now he turns head and has anything lowly, the man real man, was adaptable to the situation! 不行,不行,他想着这样肯定不行,他还是要去找她,他们不是没有吵过架,吵个架很正常啊,以前通常都是她低头,现在他低回头又有什么呢,男子汉大丈夫,能屈能伸啊！ The darkness, she has gotten off work. He gave old Zhao to telephone, shivers was saying, „old Zhao, you definitely knows where she lived, was?” 天黑了,她已经下班了。他还是给老赵打电话,颤抖着说,“老赵,你一定知道她住哪里的,是不是？” old Zhao said, „the certainty of your his mother was insane!” 老赵说,“你他娘的一定疯了！” „old Zhao.” His little while has cried suddenly, how this little while will cry, „I have not asked you.” “老赵。”他这会儿突然哭了,这会儿怎么会哭呢,“我没求过你。” He has not striven for excellently, two lifetime except for fifth child's matter, he never strove for a lifetime excellently. 他没求过人呢,两辈子除了为老五的事情,他一辈子何尝求过人。 „In that I.” “在那等我。” old Zhao took taxi, Liu Bo also came. 老赵打车来了,刘波也来了。 Liu Bo complained about old Zhao, „you were tenderhearted.” 刘波埋怨老赵,“就你心软。” Li He asked Liu Bo, „you already knew.” 李和问刘波,“你早就知道了。” Liu Bo geng the head was saying, „father for hello/you good.” 刘波梗着脑袋道,“老子为了你好。” „Your Mahler desert.” A Li He fist has pounded, he must kill this bastard. “你马勒戈壁。”李和一拳头就砸了过去,他要打死这个王八蛋。 „Does your Mahler desert also reason with.” Liu Bo hurries to hide Zhao Yongqi behind. “你马勒戈壁还讲不讲理。”刘波慌忙躲到赵永奇身后。 old Zhao tears Li He. 老赵扯开李和。 „Liu Bo inquired her time, Liu Bo who she looks, previous time ran into me, looked for me, making us convey a message. Do we convey a message? Also is not I with Liu Bo discussed that I called you say.” “刘波打听她的时候,她去找的刘波,上次遇到我了,也来找了我,让我们传话。我们咋么传话？还不是我跟刘波商量的,我打电话给你说的。” Liu Bo dao, „to hello/you good, you know?” 刘波道,“为了你好,你知道不知道？” Zhao Yongqi shoves open him, „hurries to go through the formalities, grumble.” 赵永奇把他推开,“赶紧去办手续,不要磨叽了。” Here is family member yard, the pass that Liu Bo manages, leading two people to go. 这里是家属大院,刘波办的通行证,带着两个人进去了。 Outside the dormitory ground floor, Liu Bo dao, „we go to you, you knock on a door, inquired clearly, in two buildings.” 宿舍楼底下,刘波道,“我们去外面等你,你自己去敲门,打听清楚了,就在二楼。” Li He said that „thanks.” 李和道,“谢谢。” „Calculates that you spoke the conscience.” Liu Bo together followed Zhao Yongqi. “算你讲良心。”刘波就跟赵永奇一起走了。 Li He moves the footsteps to go upstairs slowly, before gate, looked gently two, had not responded, he deeply inspires, layer on layer/heavily patted two, the gate opened, was really she. 李和慢慢地挪着脚步上楼,到了门前,轻轻的瞧了两下,没有反应,他才深吸一口气,重重的拍了两下,门开了,果然是她。 She looked that his whole body is wet, had a scare, „such big rain, do you do.” 她看他浑身湿漉漉的,吓了一跳,“这么大的雨,你来干嘛。” His anxious saying, „sorry.” 他紧张的说道,“对不起。” She purses the lips, then sighed, the helpless say/way, „came.” 她抿着嘴,然后叹口气,才无奈的道,“进来吧。” The room is very small, is actually very clean, he looks the watermark that the ground he steps on, the helpless say/way, „swab, I drag the place.” 屋子很小,却是很干净,他看着地上他踩出来的水印,手足无措的道,“拖把呢,我把地拖下。” She took a towel to him, „scratches the hair, otherwise can catch cold.” 她拿了一个毛巾给他,“擦下头发吧,不然等会感冒了。” „, Thanks.” “哦,谢谢。” „You sit.” She gave him to pour. the hot water cup “你坐着啊。”她又给他倒了杯热水。 „Does not use, the sofa got wet to you were not good.” “不用,沙发给你弄湿了不好。” She has provoked under the hair, sat in his opposite, sighed, „Er He, did not use this . Are you make me feel sorry for you?” 她拨弄了下头发,坐在了他的对面,叹口气道,“二和,真的不用这样。你这是让我可怜你吗？” „I am not this meaning, I am apologize, I should not annoy you to be angry.” Li He hurries to put out paper-insulated from the bosom, puts on the table saying that „this money you fell on my where.” “我不是这个意思,我是来道歉的,我不该惹你生气的。”李和慌忙从怀里拿出一个纸包,放到桌子上道,“这钱你落在我哪里了。” Mabel Cheung shakes the head, „this money is your years sends for my. Is your, you take.” 张婉婷摇摇头,“这钱都是你这些年寄给我的。本来就是你的,你拿回去吧。” „I am rich, do not hate to use. I have dozens hundred million dollars, suffices us to use for a lifetime.” “我有钱,你不要舍不得用。我有好几十个亿美金呢,够咱们用一辈子的。” Mabel Cheung smiles bitterly saying that „was good. Er He., I thanked you really very much, thanked you, if I have not met you, my life can be what kind, I could not imagine. But the life had not supposed, does not have, if. I want to tell you, anything could not go back. Therefore I do not want to injure you, I have hoped you can meet are better, will have truly is willing to contain you, likes your person appearing truly. But this coming back, I see you am a person, I am very uncomfortable, do you know? I am more uncomfortable than you, do you know? I hope hello/you good.” 张婉婷苦笑道,“好了。二和。真的,我很感谢你,非常的感谢你,如果我没遇见你,我的人生会是怎么样,我自己都想象不到。可是人生没有假设,也没有如果。我只是想告诉你,什么都回不去了。所以我不想伤害你,我一直希望你能遇到更好的,会有真正的愿意包容你,真正爱你的人出现。可是这次回来,我看到你还是一个人,我心里很难受,你知道吗？我比你难受,你知道吗？我希望你好,真的。” The Li He earnest say/way, „I have promised you, I can wait your.” 李和认真的道,“我答应过你,我会等你的。” „Are you such childish? Er He, you should grow up, you understand that we are impossible. Is impossible, do you understand? Can you understand?” She more said is more excited, deeply inspires, helpless has closed the eye, „I know that like this said that will injure a little you, but I do not want to lie, the lie is to you biggest injury. I hope everybody to be able many sane, even if I complied, everybody forced in together, what significance can have? I am unhappy, you will be unhappy.” “你怎么还是这么孩子气呢？二和,你该长大了,你心里明白的,我们不可能了。不可能了,你明白吗？你能明白吗？”她越说越激动,深吸一口气,无奈的闭上了眼睛,“我知道这样说会有点伤害你,可是我不想说谎,谎言才是对你最大的伤害。我希望大家能多一点理智,即使我答应了,大家勉强在一起了,能有什么意义？我不开心,你也不会开心的。” Squatting that Li He is smiling said before her body, „good wife, I to change to be good, I should not annoy you to be angry, should not be angry to be good.” 李和嬉皮笑脸的蹲在她身前道,“好老婆,我改行不行,我不该惹你生气的,你不要生气好不好。” She is hand-held the forehead, shakes the head saying that „an a little matter, your this appearance, I said these many, you are not clear. Li Er He, I was not small girl, I have also grown up, I did not need you to coax me, like this was meaningful? I acknowledged that I am very grateful you, but the gratitude is not the love, it is not the love. The mistake that we start lay in pitying and gratitude has treated as the love, has treated as the marriage. Can you awake?” 她手扶着额头,摇摇头道,“一有点事情,你就这副样子,我说了这么多,你还是不明白。李二和,我不是小姑娘了,我也长大了,我真的不需要你来哄我,这样子有意义吗？我承认我很感激你,可是感激不是爱情,它不是爱情。我们开始的错误就在于把怜悯和感激当做了爱情,当做了婚姻。你能醒醒吗？” „I love dearly you, loves dearly, I do not think that you are wronged. Does not want you to be wronged for a lifetime.” How she cannot understand that suddenly he, her each few words gripped like the needle on his pit of the stomach. “我是心疼你,心疼啊,我就是不想你受委屈。一辈子不要你受委屈。”她怎么突然不能理解他了呢,她的每一句话都像针一样扎在他的心窝子上。 Her each sounds to make him feel very strange, this is not Mabel Cheung who he knows. His Mabel Cheung will never speak the words of this touching somebody's sore spot nest. 她的每一句听起来都让他觉得很陌生,这已经不是他认识的张婉婷了。他的张婉婷从来不会说这种扎心窝子的话。 „I asked you. Er He, looks for well, you will meet are better.” “我求你了。二和,找个更好的吧,你会遇到更好的。” „I” “我” Her earnest saying, „, let alone, Er He, if you love me, please drop.” 她认真的说道,“别说了,二和,如果你真的爱我,请放手。” „This joke is not funny.” He looks that in her memory has presented the innumerable faces, unconscious wants to trace, he even also wants to hug her in the bosom, he wants to make her know that he has thinks her, has loves her. “这个玩笑一点都不好笑。”他看着她那张记忆里出现过无数次的脸,不自觉的想去摸一摸,他甚至还想把她搂在怀里,他想让她知道他有多想她,有多爱她。 „Day late, you went back.” She hurries to avoid, sees him does not have the sound in that continues saying that „, or you in this, I go to my dormitory to rest. The rain is also in any case big, you.” “天晚了,你回去吧。”她慌忙躲开,见他在那还是没有动静,就继续道,“要不你在这吧,我去我宿舍睡。反正雨也大,你别回了。” Said that takes the umbrella to go out. 说完拿着雨伞就要出门。 „No. You in this, I walk.” “别。你在这,我走。” He went out, stands in the rain, a sound does not have, the body shakes, the scratching eye that but keeping, does not know where should toward go. 他出了门,站在雨中,一点声音也没有,身体一抖一抖,只是在不停的擦眼睛,不知道该往哪里去。 Zhao Yongqi and Liu Bo were busy at him holding the umbrella, saw this, no one has spoken. 赵永奇和刘波过来忙他撑了伞,看到他这样子,谁也没有说话。 The rain gets bigger and bigger. 只是雨越下越大。 Ngawang was calling to Serena's delighted straight, it already hungry a day of belly, the chicken duck in courtyard also wanted the rebellion, cluck calling. 阿旺对着小威欢喜的直叫,它已经饿了一天的肚子了,院子里的鸡鸭也要暴动了,一阵咕咕喳喳的叫。 Serena enters to the porch, has wiped rainwater on the face ruthlessly. 小威进到门廊底下,狠狠的抹了一下脸上的雨水。 Turns on package, first gave Ngawang's rice container Riga a rice, then gave in the chicken coop to scatter a rough rice. 打开身上的包,先给阿旺的饭盆里加了点米饭,然后给鸡笼里撒了点稻谷。 He entered the room, he held up the Li He thin pale hand in the past, „elder brother, has eaten meal......” 他进屋了,他过去拉起李和瘦苍白的手,“哥,吃饭了……” „.” Li He sits cross-legged on the ground, very natural is selecting the chopsticks, a grain of meter/rice grain of meter/rice delivers toward the mouth. His face does not have the expression, does not have the pain. “哦。”李和盘坐在地上,很自然的挑着筷子,一粒米一粒米的往嘴里送。他的脸没有表情,没有痛苦。 „Elder Brother. Eats to order food, red-roasted pork that you most like.” Serena has cried, he looks with own eyes a big live person cooked down the skin and bones. “哥。吃点菜啊,你最喜欢的红烧肉。”小威哭了,他亲眼看着一个大活人熬成了皮包骨。 Li He has clamped the meat, unemotionally chews, mumbled, „did old.” 李和夹了块肉,面无表情的嚼完,嘟囔道,“做老了。” Serena's happy say/way, „that I make them little add a soy sauce in the evening. You made an effort to eat, finished eating, I made them do.” 小威高兴的道,“那我晚上让他们少放点酱油。你使劲吃,吃完,我让他们做。” Li He has selected several chopsticks actually suddenly Matsushita, by the chair leg, has closed the eye. He does not want to eat, but does not eat his belly not only hungry, but also hurts, he already fears hungrily, fears to hurt. 李和挑了几筷子却突然又松下了,靠在椅子腿上,闭上了眼睛。他不想吃,可是不吃他肚子不但饿,而且还疼,他既怕饿,也怕疼。 Feeling that however he likes closing one's eyes, he must close one's eyes one day, early closes one's eyes to be late to close one's eyes has not distinguished. 不过他喜欢闭眼的感觉,他总有一天要闭上眼的,早闭眼晚点闭眼是没有区别的。 Serena cried to tidy up the tableware, „elder brother, you, if were uncomfortable, smoked.” 小威哭着收拾了碗筷,“哥,你要是不舒服,就抽根烟。” „I stopped smoking, I promised her to stop smoking.” “我戒烟了,我答应她戒烟了。” Serena left the room, has run into Zhao Yongqi and what Fang in entrance. 小威出了屋子,在大门口遇到了赵永奇和何芳。 „Sister He, Zhao elder brother, do not go.” “何姐,赵哥,还是不要进去了吧。” what Fangzhan looked at a while in the courtyard, turned around to walk. 何芳站在院子里看了一会儿,转身就走了。 Zhao Yongqi gives a Serena paper, „this is my telephone, has the matter to make my phone call. Do not disturb him, food you send to him.” 赵永奇递给小威一个纸条,“这是我的电话,有事打我电话。不要去打扰他,饭你给他送去。” Serena nods saying that „Zhao elder brother you felt relieved, my where does not go, I see my brother.” 小威点头道,“赵哥你放心吧,我哪里也不去,我就看着我哥。” Zhao Yongqi pats Serena shoulder, „that gave you.” 赵永奇拍拍小威肩膀,“那交给你了。” Then hurriedly overtakes what Fang, but what Fang already on a rental car. 然后又急匆匆的去追上何芳,可何芳已经上了一辆出租车。 He does not have the means that flustered also has blocked one, confessed that the driver pastes. 他没办法,慌里慌张的也拦了一辆,交代司机贴上去。 The drivers said, „buddy, you could rest assured that one can follow certainly.” 司机说,“哥们,你放心,一准跟得上。” The vehicle started for a half hour, until he noticed that what fragrance got out from the front, he has given money, got out. 车子开了半小时,直到他看到何芳从前方下了车,他才给了钱,跟着下了车。 Goes forward to hold on what Fangdao, „do you do, this is.” 上前拉住何芳道,“你干嘛啊,这是。” what Fangdao, „I ascertains with her.” 何芳道,“我跟她问清楚。” Her long time wants to manifest suddenly. 她久想发作一番。 Zhao Yongqi said that „this matter asked clear? Was you looks for her, was the same result, what significance can have? Also this was among them the matter, only then solved by them.” 赵永奇道,“这种事问的清楚嘛？就是你去找她了,还是一样的结果,能有什么意义？再说这是他们两个人之间的事情,只有靠他们自己解决。” Her vacant looked around toward all around, long time muttered, „, was their matters.” 她茫然的朝四周张望了一下,良久才喃喃道,“是啊,是他们自己的事情。” She mixes by any status, thinks a little to be dispirited. 她以什么身份去掺合进去呢,想着想着不禁有点颓废。 She can do takes care of him, what she is helpless was came back, has set up for quite a while in the entry, saw Serena to come, does asking in a low voice, „today eat meal what kind of?” 她能做的就是多照顾他,她无奈的还是回来了,在门洞里立了半天,见小威过来,才低声的问,“今天吃饭怎么样？” Serena shakes the head, „has not eaten many.” 小威摇摇头,“还是没吃多少。” what Fangdao, „you goes back, I was good in this.” 何芳道,“你回去吧,我在这就行了。” „Sister He, you must go to work. I alone can.” “何姐,你要上班呢。我一个人可以的。” what Fangdao, „I asked for leave. You leave alone. You go home to rest, will have the matter I to shout your.” 何芳道,“我请了假。你别管了。你回家歇着吧,有事我会喊你的。” She entered the room, looks at Li He, keeps silent, she knows that oneself responsibility is the consolation, but consoles? 她进了屋,看着李和,也不言不语,她知道自己的责任是劝慰,可是怎么劝慰呢？ „You , to cry to cry. Cries to be good.” “你要是想哭就哭吧。哭出来会好一点。” Li He opens eyes, curious asking, „why I must cry, your mental illness.” 李和睁开眼,好奇的问道,“我为什么要哭,你神经病吧。” what Fangpei said with a smile, „good, good, my mental illness.” 何芳赔笑道,“好,好,我神经病。” „You are the mental illness.” “你就是神经病。” „I heat a water, you take the bath to be good.” what Fangnie his clothes sleeve was smelling, „, whiz. Your several days have not taken a bath, several days have not changed the clothes.” “那我烧个水,你洗下澡好不好。”何芳捏着他衣服袖子闻了闻,“嗯,嗖了哦。你几天没有洗澡了,几天没有换衣服了。” He casts aside excessively, no longer responds her. 他撇过头,不再搭理她。 She did not care quite the same as, heats water, the mister had washed the face to him, then scratched the clean face to her, then has made one cup of tea to him, placed in his hand. 她浑然不在意,烧了水,先生给他洗了脸,然后又给她擦干净脸,然后又给他泡了一杯茶,放在他手里。 He does not meet, „my teapot, my teapot disappears.” 他不接,“我的茶壶呢,我的茶壶不见了。” She softens the sound said, „teapot was dirty, I and others will wash to you, soaks to you again is good?” 她柔声道,“茶壶脏了,我等会给你洗下,再给你泡好不好？” She had not found in the main room bedroom with before has the sand-fired pot of same style. 她在堂屋卧室都没有找到跟之前有相同样式的紫砂壶。 She thinks that the basement should have many teapots, must insert the front door, went to the rockery following basement. In the room the estimate has dozens superior sand-fired pots, she looks right and left, finally had finally found in a box with the sand-fired pot of beforehand similar design, this relaxed. 她想起来地下室应该有不少茶壶,只得把大门插上,去了假山下面的地下室。屋子里估计有好几十把上等的紫砂壶,她左瞧右瞧,终于在一个箱子里终于找到了跟之前差不多款式的一个紫砂壶,这样才松了一口气。 She has washed the teapot carefully, brewed up the tea, said the end to Li He nearby, „you looked, this was not your beforehand teapot, in this. Comes then „” swindler, is the swindlers. „. 她把茶壶仔细的洗了一遍,给重新泡上了茶,端到李和跟前道,“你看,这不是你之前的茶壶嘛,在这呢。来接着“”骗子,都是骗子。“。 A a