LISIL :: Volume #5 盛宴

#456: Emotion issue (Last Part)

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In the room the air is warm, the snowscape of winter reflects bright room inside and outside! With in the reading sound, the Jin'er association/will remembers that autumn end the matter. 房间里空气温暖,冬日的雪景将房间内外映得亮堂堂的!和的读书声中,锦儿总会想起那个秋末的事情。 Night that naturally firefly already no longer presents, the flame by the cover of lantern, will ripple red-oranges in the courtyard, in botanical garden rock with courtyards. That autumn end scenery, regarding Jin'er, is always covering an ambiguous smoke screen probably. Falling ill of Sister Yunzhu, regarding her regarding Ning Yi, was a being caught off guard matter. 那是萤火虫已经不再出现的夜晚,火焰透过灯笼的罩子,会在院落里漾成一片的橘红色,衬着院落间的园林山石。那个秋末的风景,对于锦儿来说,总像是笼罩着一层暧昧的烟幕。云竹姐的病倒,对于她对于宁毅来说,都是一件措手不及的事情。 During this period, person who Ning Yi or first responded. Soon , a matter of each article from the Yunzhu nearby peeling, mostly about Zhu's, regarding these things, body weak Yunzhu also has some was actually guilty at that time, but accompanied to smile bitterly to take on the responsibility in Ning Yi of bedside. 在这期间,宁毅或是首先反应过来的人。不久之后,一件件的事情从云竹身边剥离,其实大都是关于竹记的,对于这些事情,当时身体虚弱的云竹还有些内疚,但是陪在床边的宁毅则苦笑着担下了责任。 „Still remembers that initially in front of small building to the words that your you spoke. The been able to grip sand, raised it conveniently. Actually I hope you open a shop will find it fun. Originally also truly, after Su Family matter, wants with Zhu's, when the carrier expands the business, is actually my mistake. The same mistake, I started to violate......” “还记得当初在小楼前面跟你你说的话吧。握不住的沙,随手扬了它。其实・・・・・・我原本希望你们开个店会觉得好玩。本来也确实可以的,苏家的事情之后,想要用竹记当载体扩大生意,其实是我的错。同样的错误,我又开始犯了……” During the forced smile of Ning Yi, regarding the same mistake that he said that Jin'er and Yunzhu do not understand the one who referred to the generation was anything. When Ning Yi realized that the issue is, solves issue method, perhaps cannot be regarded extraordinarily. 在宁毅的苦笑之中,对于他所说的同样的错误,锦儿与云竹都不明白指代的是什么。但是当宁毅意识到问题所在,解决问题的手段,或许算不得出奇。 After unloading Zhu's matter, he looked for in Capital City the most famous musician professional musician, accompanied Yunzhu to visit to the past, used reason actually did not exchange, but wants to listen to person one merely, these were counted in the matter that relaxed, occasionally came to chat the speech with Yunzhu, studied on story to her. Thus and such and such, Yunzhu gradually is relaxed, unexpectedly Ning Yi, ran to understand for this reason massive knowledge about qin tune temperament, occasionally can also ask an issue to inquire Yunzhu, even if were much weaker, but always can also to relax. 卸下竹记的事情后,他去找了京城里最出名的琴师乐户,陪着云竹过去造访,用的理由倒也不是互相交流,而仅仅是想听人一曲,这些算作散心的事情中,偶尔过来与云竹聊天说话,给她念书上的故事。如此这般,云竹的心情才逐渐放松下来,倒是宁毅,为此跑去了解了大量关于琴曲音律的知识,偶尔还能提个问题来询问云竹,纵然幼稚得可笑,但总也能让人放松心情。 When the worry comes such as mountain when goes actually resembles is the continuous spring rain. The autumn, in the soon after Bianliang city had the heavy snow last winter, Yunzhu gradually changes for the better. Relations between unexpectedly and Jin'er, in such day put aside. 心病来时如山・去时倒像是绵绵春雨。秋去冬来,随后汴梁城中又下起大雪,云竹逐渐好转起来。倒是与锦儿之间的关系,在这样的日子里・就此搁置下来了。 Before going to Shandong (mountain east), two people unexpectedly reaches an agreement, when comes back after Ning Yi, will then give a Jin'er confession. What a pity after coming back, Yunzhu fell ill, two people are taking care of her, when lives alone also has the joke to create a disturbance, but regarding these things, Jin'er knows that he seems somewhat guilty, even in one day two people when the corridors chatted listens to him to mention oneself „the will of the people a little insufficient”. 在去山东之前,两人倒是说好,待到宁毅回来之后,便会给锦儿一个交代。可惜回来之后,云竹病倒,两人照顾着她,独处之时也有玩笑打闹・但对于这些事情,锦儿知道他显得有些内疚,甚至在某一天两人在走廊间聊天时・听他说起过自己有点“人心不足”。 „Sometimes, will think that the lots are very good, after feeling are very good, wants. Yunzhu is also good, you are also good, I did not think that before oneself is the unfaithful/stamen, now possibly considers as finished, only then these things, I do not know how should solve. Before has promised you now suddenly cannot achieve......” “有时候,会觉得很多东西都很好,觉得很好以后,就都想要。云竹也好,你也好,我以前不觉得自己是花心,现在可能算了,只有这些事情,我不知道该怎么解决。之前答应过你的・现在一时间也做不到了……” Ning Yi sat under the lights tangerine parapet at that time, said that somewhat seems like the apology. Jin'er stands snort/hum conducted the back to kick a foot in him, after that two people unexpectedly has not chatted this matter. Regarding the silence of Jin'er, Ning Yi is actually somewhat accidental/surprised is good after that matter, Jin'er had not expressed to him the mood that anything repels comes, when with Yunzhu is together, she still followed in the one side, sometimes or bickers with him, creates a disturbance. 宁毅当时坐在灯火橘红的栏杆下,说的时候,有些像是道歉。锦儿站起来・哼的在他背上踢了一脚,此后两人倒是没怎么聊过这事。对于锦儿的沉默,宁毅其实是有些意外的・好在那件事之后,锦儿也没有对他表示出什么排斥的情绪来,与云竹相处时,她仍旧跟在一旁,或是有时候与他斗嘴,打打闹闹。 In November, Ning Yi finds the idle time to visit the musician and musician visited some artisans, by early December gives a Yunzhu guqin. The zither | Jean does manually, but selected materials manual rough, seems like to stretch some good strings on a wood/blockhead, although above drew some pictures to be artistic, but —— in the eyes of Yunzhu Jin'er these people perhaps in anybody's eyes, this zither | Jean was very shoddy hand labor. 十一月里,宁毅抽出空闲时间拜访乐师、琴师・又去拜访了一些匠人,到得十二月初・过来送给云竹一架古琴。琴是手工做的,用料上乘但手工粗糙,看起来只是为了将一些上好的琴弦绷在一块木头上,虽然上面画了些画还算美观,但在云竹锦儿这些人的眼中——或许在任何人的眼中,这只琴都算是一件十分拙劣的手工品。 zither | Jean that unexpectedly this sound does not permit, made Yunzhu is smiles is crying was moved some little time 倒是这架音都不准的琴,令得云竹又是笑又是哭的感动了好一会 When unexpectedly that evening Ning Yi left, kicked his foot with Jin'er that he comes out. When Ning Yi doubts turn head sees her to lower the head. 倒是那天傍晚宁毅离开时,跟着他出来的锦儿踢了他一脚。宁毅疑惑地回头时看见她低着头。 „Ning Yi, I am very stupid, does not understand that you are thinking anything. However I and Sister Yunzhu are in the brothel come out, when the person concubine or was raised outside, is very normally also very this/should happy matter, the man is good to us, naturally extra matter, if same, calculates a home to return. You said that thought the lots are very good, wants, the man is not this appearance? Sees woman who likes, takes in home. I who how your actually thinks do not know, but how to be living, is our things. Sister Yunzhu will fall ill, many people will fall ill, but the sickness association/will is good, I with Sister Yunzhu did not think that this is your matter, always do not want to result in so many.” “宁毅,我是很笨,不明白你都在想些什么。但是我和云竹姐都是青楼里出来的,当人小妾或者被人养在外面,都是很正常也很该开心的事情,男人对我们好,那是额外的事情了,如果一般般,也算有个归宿。你说觉得很多东西很好,就想要,男人不都是这个样子的吗？见到喜欢的女人,收进家里。你到底怎么想的我不知道,但是怎么活着,也是我们的事情。云竹姐会生病,很多人都会生病,但是病总会好起来的,我跟云竹姐都不觉得这是你的事,你不要总是想得那么多了。” Ning Yi was this saying faint was gawking staring, when he put out a hand to touch the head of Jin'er, Jin'er approaches one step to grasp him, Ning Yi can feel the fragrance and soft of her body, the chest pastes with him in the same place. Ning Yi is hugging her. 宁毅为着这话微微愣了愣,他伸手去摸锦儿的头时,锦儿走近了一步抱住他,宁毅能够感受到她身体的馨香与柔软,胸部与他贴在一起。宁毅抱着她。 „I know that you do not listen to my words, yes?” “我知道你听不进我的话的,是吧？” Jin'er in he bosom is speaking, language gas channel/angrily said not enmity. Ning Yi smiled, even if usually is seemingly mindless, but present female, intelligent seven orifices exquisite heart, when she uses that on oneself gently, the own concern and personality, actually cannot hide the truth from her is too many. 锦儿在他怀中说着话,语气道并无怨怼。宁毅笑了笑,纵然平日里看起来没心没肺的,但眼前的女子,也是有一颗聪慧的七窍玲珑心的,当她将那份温柔用在自己身上,自己的心事、性情,其实也瞒不过她太多。 „I I can understand, but I felt, oneself has responsibility” “我・・・・・・我能听懂的,只是我觉得,自己有责任・・・・・・” „Um.” Jin'er nods low voice, arched the arch in his arms, „actually I know with Sister Yunzhu, we are also very happy, although you me told that these words that night, my some want to cry...... I to feel, your will be very uncomfortable.” “嗯。”锦儿小声地点头,在他怀里拱了拱,“其实我跟云竹姐都知道,我们也都很开心的,虽然你跟我说那些话的那天晚上,我有些想哭……我只是觉得,你这样会很难受。” „Man is to oneself ruthlessly, I but who you said remember.” “男人就是要对自己狠一点,不过你说的我都记住啦。” „That is good......” “那就好……” Since this period of time, Ning Yi has recorded that evening feeling, in the bosom the limbs of female, has spoken words. Even if he is still not able to solve the problem a little unable to get over an emotion to oneself, but mood after all was more relaxed. 这段时日以来,宁毅一直记着那天傍晚的感觉,怀中女子的肢体,说过的话。纵然他仍旧对自己无法解决问题有点不能释怀,但心情毕竟是轻松多了。 On this day accompanies Yunzhu and Jin'er to study and chat, listened to that guqin that Yunzhu took him to make to play the first song, although the quality of zither | Jean was extremely bad, but was still exquisite at the Yunzhu fingertip intonation. How Yunzhu said with a smile she to use the rotten zither | Jean to spring the sound to come the comp book book, the words, although said like this, regarding hand! The rotten zither | Jean, her nevertheless treasure tightly.! 这天陪着云竹、锦儿念书、聊天,又听云竹拿着他做的那只古琴弹了首曲子,虽然琴的质量极差,但在云竹的指尖依旧声调优美。云竹笑道她要就如何用烂琴弹出好声音来写本书,话虽然是这样说,对于手!中的这盏烂琴,她却是宝贝得紧的。! Later Ning Yi took ham to go home, to present already is „Ning Family” when courtyard, Su Wenyu and other things of artificial this period of time is chatting with Tan'er. After having had the dinner, Ning Yi and Su Wenyu chatted one on the matter of Shandong (mountain east) that camp. When courtyard that returns to live, lights peaceful and fragrant, Tan'er is holding Ning Xi, there the window looked snowman that in the courtyard stacks. 之后宁毅取了一只火腿回家,到得如今已经算是“宁家”的院子时,苏文昱正与檀儿等人为这段时间发生的事情在聊天。吃过晚饭后,宁毅与苏文昱就山东那个营地的事情聊了一阵。回到居住的院落中时,灯火馨宁,檀儿抱着宁曦,在窗户那儿看院子里堆起的雪人。 Ning Yi returns to the room, teased a while wife and child, Su Tan'er holds Ning Yi to sit on him said in a low voice: „You in Lane Shandong (mountain east) anything, tossed about the article sunshine such...” 宁毅回到房中,逗弄了一会儿妻子和孩子,苏檀儿抱着宁毅坐在他身上・低声道:“你在山东了些什么,把文昱折腾成那样了・・・…” „What's wrong?” “怎么了？” „After he comes back, wants to hold sunlight, seems like very temperate, but cried to Eh sunlight. The article sunshine somewhat is awkward, I can look, he was not quite the same as before, I have not seen for several months has anything to be able wealthy family Young Master to make into such, if serves a term in jail, could to change some personalities, but is not this appearance” “他回来之后,想要抱曦儿,看起来很温和・但是把曦儿给吓哭了。文昱都有些尴尬,我看得出来,他跟以前不太一样了,我可没见过几个月的时间有什么事情能把一个富家公子弄成这样的・・・・・・如果是蹲了大狱,或许能让人变些性情,但也不是这个样子・・・・・・” „Did not say.” Ning Yi shakes the head, „was not cannot say that however was no interesting, in the future should, that not be...... can subvert the matter of person outlook on life” “不好说。”宁毅摇了摇头,“不是不能说・但是没什么意思,往后应该就不会了,那个是・……能颠覆人人生观的事・・・・・・” „Then on considers as finished so as to avoid makes the child hear.” Tan'er purses the lips, the cheeks by smiled on the small face of Ning Xi, Ning Yi is also teasing him, teases the child giggle is smiling the rocking body. “那就算了・免得让孩子听到。”檀儿抿了抿嘴,将脸颊靠在宁曦的小脸上笑了笑,宁毅也在逗弄他,将孩子逗得咯咯地笑着晃动身体。 „No matter how said that after there are different experiences, started to become a useful adult finally, no?.” “不管怎么说,有不一样的经历之后,总算是开始成材了,对不对。” „Right.” “没错。” husband and wife two, when warm room mentioned this matter. In Bianliang city lively Right Minister's Residence, is shining in the light study room, Qin Siyuan is also inquiring to Wang Shanyue alone Shandong (mountain east) various things outside courtyard hears the call that the child runs, when speaking of the matter of concerned that camp, Wang Shanyue also faint somewhat hesitates. 夫妻俩在温暖的房间里说起这事的时候。汴梁城热闹的右相府中,亮着灯光的书房里,秦嗣源也正向王山月单独询问着山东的各种事情・外面的院落中传来孩子奔走的呼声,说到有关那个营地的事情时,王山月也微微有些犹豫。 „... Actually this matter did not say. Ning Liheng displays very seriously, I had looked, has seen the Su Family Su Wenyu situation thought that...... is really extremely strange...” “…・・・其实・此事不好说。宁立恒对此表现得非常郑重,我曾经去看过,也见过苏家苏文昱的情况・觉得……实在是太过诡异・・・…” The candlelight shakes, Wang Shanyue stands there, mentioned the detailed process. 烛火摇动,王山月站在那儿,说起详细的过程来。 „... Time from the beginning, probably makes them obey the above order, all day simple training, made them say in the evening before oneself, has done some misdemeanors, let several Monk lecture of stories said what retributive justice, but story actually very simple not deep the entire big process, actually was also so simple, on the one hand in the camp was strict, on the other hand, Ning Liheng acknowledged guilt to regard a reward these people......” “…・・・一开始的时候,好像只是让他们服从上面的命令,整日的简单训练,晚上让他们说自己以前干过的一些坏事,让几个和尚讲故事・说什么因果报应,但故事其实很简单・不怎么深・・・・・・整个大的过程,其实也就是这么简单,只是一方面营地里非常严格,另外一方面,宁立恒将这些人认罪当成了一种奖励……” „... Who said sincerely, who said well, is most reasonable, whom he helps cross well, manages others from the beginning is he personally supervises, chooses person who these acknowledged guilt. At that time, perhaps some people pretended to acknowledge guilt intentionally, fitted out a lecture of story intentionally the appearance, but the time passed by, matter on slowly earth-shaking transformation. Life in that camp is very arid, feels, the day possibly has slowly, one month, he establishes the entire system operation, then majority actually already is to make their oneself manage oneself” “…・・・谁说得最诚恳,谁说得最好,最有道理,他就让谁过得好一点,也去管理其他人・・・・・・一开始是他亲自在其中监督,挑选那些认罪的人。那个时候,也许有人是故意装作认罪,故意装成讲故事的样子,但是时间过去,事情就慢慢地变了。那个营地里的生活很枯燥,给人的感觉,日子可能过得很慢,一个月的时间,他把整个体系运作都建立起来,然后大部分其实已经是让他们自己管自己・・・・・・” „Person in that environment, very difficult whole-heartedly to pretend, to lie, everyone starts to listen to the story, rushed to be first saying that the matter of oneself making the mistake, said why oneself made the mistake, even if disguises, still said oneself regretted very much. Was saying to be saying, cannot dominate, because in that the oneself sincerity thinks, admitting mistakes will be one type honorable...... the person will not make oneself live in environment that in oneself will not approve, or the change environment, either...... must change oneself, this was Liheng had said that probably ripped anything's syndrome.” “人在那种环境里面,很难全心全意地去假装、去说谎,大家都开始听故事,争先恐后说自己做错的事情,说自己为什么做错的,就算是假装,也说自己很后悔。说着说着,就把持不住自己真心想的了,因为在那里面,认错就是一种光荣……人不会让自己一直生活在一个自己不认同的环境里,要么改变环境,要么……就得改变自己,这个是立恒曾经说过的,好像是撕得什么的综合症。” „... Said seemed like one group of robbers to kidnap one group of people, from the beginning this group of people were afraid the robber, after the time grew, they were instead easy to have the favorable impression to the robber, the robber to them friendly, they instead thought that easily this group of people were good person...... are not because they really such felt because the person must deceive oneself, cannot make oneself live in a frightened background, they can only give a oneself reason in turn, making oneself think that the environment could also pass” “…・・・说的好像是一群强盗绑架了一帮人,一开始这帮人害怕强盗,时间长了以后,他们反而容易对强盗产生好感,强盗对他们友善一点,他们反而容易觉得这批人是好人……不是因为他们真那样觉得,是因为人都要骗自己,不能让自己活在一个恐惧的背景里,他们只能反过来给自己一个理由,让自己觉得环境还过得去・・・・・・” „Then to the second month, after Liheng leaves, matter becomes more and more intense. The person attitude of acknowledging guilt is getting more and more sincere, but felt these people who danger, started to ask others several times like this, then do not have rebellions secretly. My person and Zhù Family Village person has gone several times, but most movements, were actually pressed by their interior, the person who these acknowledged guilt, felt the person who oneself did the wrong thing prevented others......” “然后到第二个月,立恒离开之后,事情就变得越来越激烈了。认罪的人态度越来越诚恳,但感觉危险的那些人,开始偷偷地叫别人不要这样,然后起了好几次的暴动。我的人、祝家庄的人去过几次,但其实大部分的动作,都是被他们内部压下来的,那些认罪的人,觉得自己做错事的人阻止了其它人……” „At that time Ning Yi the group leader who choose is a team leader, has a team leader, because subordinate wants to kill people to escape and instigate others to rebel, makes a move to prevent. Even after preventing, other not allowed to people begin to act unreasonably, said that subordinate besottedly is own is also wrong, finally was in front of that person to commit suicide......” “当时宁毅在其中选出来的小头目是组长,有其中一个组长因为手下想要杀人逃跑、煽动别人起来作乱,出手阻止。甚至阻止了以后,又不许其他人动手乱来,说那手下执迷不悟也是自己的错,最后当着那个人的面自杀了……” „This entire situation to the third month, sent off more than 100 people, died more than 30, including 12 are the suicides is only three months, the condition in entire camp was everyone thought at that time all day the oneself sin was grave, several months ago the man who is still fencing to kill people cried, everyone wanted to do some good deeds, however seemed like as the bystander, really made people think that...... was terrifying, good Liheng started to stop at this time, delivers more than 300 children, learned/studied the ability with them, was the masters and disciples to inherit......” “这整个事态到了第三个月,被送走了一百多人,死了三十多个,其中有十二个是自杀的・・・・・・只是三个月的时间,当时整个营地里的状况是大家整天觉得自己罪孽深重,有些几个月前还在操刀杀人的汉子以泪洗面,大家都想要做些好事,可是作为外人看起来,真让人觉得……非常恐怖,还好立恒在这个时候开始叫停,送进去了三百多个孩子,跟他们学习本领,做师徒传承……”
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