Firecrackers sound bidding farewell to an old year, after crossing midnight, transmitted the fireworks and firecrackers sound in all directions, is especially lively, is particularly crowded, the merely sparse sound had the stance of blotting out the sky in this time. 爆竹声声辞旧岁,过了零点后,四面八方都传来了烟花爆竹的声响,格外热闹,也分外密集,原本只是稀稀拉拉的动静在此时产生了铺天盖地的架势。 Zhou Ze blows the nail, outside noise, does not have the big relations with him, he does not have the family/home, although now nominal, „family/home”, but he does not want to go back. 周泽吹了吹指甲,外面的喧嚣,与他没有多大的关系,他没有家,虽然现在名义上,是有一个“家”,但他不想回去。 Many people when live have had a thought that that is, if can the rebirth return, how must. 很多人在活着的时候都有过一个念头,那就是自己如果可以重生归来,要如何如何。 Spirited writing, bold side unyielding, muck in the past lord of ten thousand households. 激昂文字,挥斥方遒,粪土当年万户侯。 But comes back from underworld truly, you will suddenly discover, before oneself when that pursue, that idea, that expectation, looks like on the kindergarten the teacher asked: After the children grow up, wants to do? 但真正从地狱回来,你会忽然发现,自己以前的那种追求,那种想法,那种憧憬,就像是上幼儿园时老师问:小朋友们长大后想干什么？ Then the children replied together: Scientists, doctors, astronaut and serviceman ............ 然后小朋友们一起回答:科学家、医生、航天员、军人………… The dream, is always plentiful. 梦想,总是丰满的。 But is realistic, is far from the multi- bone feeling, but a chicken blood of person, being doomed is limited. 而现实,谈不上多骨感,但一个人的鸡血,注定是有限的。 Sometimes, can breathe, can hear the sound, can sit rubs here slacks off on the job, idly spends a next time, 有时候,能呼吸,能听见声音,能坐在这里磨一磨洋工,虚度一下光阴, This, is the real years is perhaps static. 这或许,才是真的岁月静好。 Xu Qinglang rests tonight as in the shop, Zhou Ze hears him to close the sound of door. 许清朗今晚依旧睡在店里,周泽听到他关闭店门的声音。 He said that he has more than 20 apartments, but Zhou Ze is clear, his parents in shop. 他说他有二十几套房,但周泽清楚,他爹妈就在店里。 The whole families, are neatly. 一家人,就是要整整齐齐。 This year celebrates the new year, is naturally more important. 今年过年,自然更重要。 Outside the room, starts to rain, a moisture starts to infiltrate, making people think somewhat depressing. 屋外,开始下起了雨,点点湿气开始渗透进来,让人觉得有些压抑。 Zhou Ze’s cellphone made a sound, is the telephone of young married woman. 周泽的手机响了,是自家婆姨的电话。 „Hey.” Zhou Ze answered the telephone. “喂。”周泽接了电话。 „Rested?” Dr. Lin asked. “睡了么？”林医生问道。 Zhou Ze thought that this saying asked the idiot very much, 周泽觉得这话问得很白痴, Who did I fall asleep to answer your telephone? 我睡着了谁接你的电话？ Is the deceased person...... oh no, is the dead ghost? 难道是死人……哦不,是死鬼么？ It is not right, has probably what issue. 不对,好像有什么问题。 The caster of Zhou Ze body on the chair, in the mind appeared Dr. Lin to poke own chest with the finger slightly gently, called: „Your this dead ghost ............” 周泽身子在椅子上微微后倾,脑海中浮现出林医生拿手指轻轻戳了戳自己的胸口,叫自己一声:“你这死鬼…………” The first feeling, telling the facts, why can so probably dazzling and intoxicating. 第一次感觉,实话实说,缘何能如此得让人目眩神迷。 Perhaps was too bored, possibly purely was idle, 或许是太无聊了,也可能纯粹是闲, Zhou Ze discovered some own present train of thought radiations, 周泽发现自己现在的思绪有些发散, To result , is a much less. 想得,有点多。 „No.” Zhou Ze replied. “没呢。”周泽回答。 „Creak ............” “吱呀…………” Dr. Lin shoved open the door to walk, she held a red umbrella, the lower part of the body is wearing the chaps, the upper body was the white woolen sweater, the hair hangs loose in the shoulder. 林医生推开店门走了进来,她撑着一把红色的伞,下身穿着皮裤,上身是白色的毛衣,头发披散在肩部。 Zhou Ze forgets to put down the telephone for a while, 周泽一时忘记放下电话, This woman, 这个女人, It is indeed beautiful. 的确很美。 Especially her makings, can always to you a life the feeling, if only such as initially seeing, in an instant, the innermost feelings of stabbing man. 尤其是她的气质,总能给你一种人生若只如初见的感觉,刹那间,刺中男人的内心。 „Feared that I alone am lonely?” Zhou Ze stands up, to Dr. Lin but actually one cup of water. “怕我一个人寂寞冷清？”周泽站起身,给林医生倒了一杯水。 She is here mistress, 她是这里的女主人, Un, 嗯, Exactly said, Xu Le opens the money of this bookstore, her family/home takes. 确切的说,徐乐开这家书店的钱,还是她家拿的。 Dr. Lin received the water, shakes the head, without speech. 林医生接过水,摇摇头,没说话。 Two people, are the conjugal relations, but in fact, is actually similar to the most familiar stranger, in one type compared with a blue face best friend more awkward position. 两个人,是夫妻关系,但实际上,却类似于最熟悉的陌生人,处于一种比蓝颜闺蜜更尴尬的位置。 To go a step further, difficult ; 想进一步,难; To retrocede one step, is more difficult. 想后退一步,更难。 „Goes out for a walk.” Zhou Ze thought that in the room is somewhat sad, moreover he is impossible to invite Dr. Lin the place that goes to second floor to sleep. “出去走走吧。”周泽觉得屋子里有些沉闷,而且他不可能邀请林医生去自己二楼睡觉的地方。 Even if Dr. Lin takes the wrong medicine today, planned that raises the tiger by the body, but sees second floor freezer, it is estimated that will dial itself the familiar psychiatric hospital number delivering to transform immediately well. 哪怕林医生今天吃错药了,打算以身饲虎,但看见自己二楼的冰柜,估计会马上拨通熟知的精神病医院号码把自己给送进去好好改造。 „Rains.” Dr. Lin said. “下雨呢。”林医生说道。 „Light rain, all right.” Zhou Ze beckons with the hand, comfortable relaxed. “小雨,没事。”周泽摆摆手,闲适轻松。 .................. ……………… „Crash-bang ............” “哗啦啦啦啦…………” The rain got down in a big way, moreover was very big. 雨下大了,而且是很大。 Before even umbrella with not thinking Zhou Ze that experienced spring rain expensively such as the oil was almost drenched the drenched chicken, Dr. Lin was opening an umbrella, stands in the , Zhou Ze refuses it to support a proposition of umbrella. 之前连伞都没拿想着体验一把春雨贵如油的周泽几乎被淋成了落汤鸡,林医生还是撑着伞,站在边上,周泽拒绝了其共撑一把伞的提议。 Compelling that oneself install, with tears, must install. 自己装的逼,含着泪,也得装完。 Patted the wet hair, Zhou Ze hit one to tremble, he was not sensitive to cold very much, his actually very resistant to feeling the cold, merely his woman, even if opening an umbrella has not dripped wet, is actually trembling as before slightly. 拍了拍湿漉漉的头发,周泽打了一个哆嗦,他不是很怕冷,他其实很抗冻,只是其身边的女人哪怕撑着伞没怎么淋湿,却依旧在略微地发抖。 The public transportation platform can cover most rainwater, 公交站台可以遮挡住大部分的雨水, But this evening's cold wind, can actually be unscrupulous as before. 但这晚上的寒风,却依旧可以肆无忌惮。 Bourgeoise affective tone, 小资情调, The men and women coexist, 男女共处, Rainy night wet body, 雨夜湿身, The beautiful women still pity, 佳人犹怜, This should be both sides has built up the sentimental the good opportunity, good turning point, even, sparks a conflict accidentally to add in the mistake last artillery that Hwajonri violates is the possible matters, but two people relatively speechless. 这本该是一个双方培养感情的好机会,好契机,甚至,擦枪走火加花田里犯的错最后一炮中把都是可能的事儿,但二人相对无言。 Zhou Ze lit cigarette, Dr. Lin just stood on the side. 周泽点了一根烟,林医生就站在旁边。 To evade, a it resists, naturally to does not go together. 一个想逃避,一个本身就抗拒,自然就对不上一起去。 Melon that wrenches, the melon and vine, are irritable. 强扭的瓜,瓜和蔓,都别扭。 Zhou Ze somewhat complained Xu Le in the heart, if that instigated that the goods marriage an overlord braced the bow afterward hardly, did not have the present broken matter, even if Dr. Lin thinks that the person woman or has the pregnancy to have the child, it is estimated that was also the beautiful not local products, even can also add on some scores again. 周泽在心底有些埋怨徐乐,如果那个怂货结婚后来一次霸王硬上弓,也就没现在的破事儿了,哪怕林医生以为人妇或者已有身孕有了孩子,估计也是美艳不可方物,甚至还能再加上一些分数。 Oneself, can push the boat along, where need is so in a dilemma now. 自己,也就能顺水推舟了,哪里需要现在这般进退维谷。 Naturally, this complaint does not support to Xu Le fairly, if that late Zhou Ze brace the bow on the overlord hardly, will be difficult to be inadequate Dr. Lin to go all out to revolt to yell „discourteously”? Then called police officer to send in the police station Zhou Ze? Considers one ** charge? 当然,这种埋怨对徐乐挺不公平的,如果那晚周泽自己就霸王硬上弓,难不成林医生会拼命反抗大叫“非礼”？然后叫来警察将周泽送入公安局？告一个**的罪名？ Rain below, 雨还是在下, Zhou Ze threw the cigarette butt on the ground, 周泽将烟头丢在了地上, „Do you drive?” “你开车来的？” „Takes taxi.” Dr. Lin replied. “打车。”林医生回答道。 „I deliver you to go back.” “我送你回去。” „Un.” “嗯。” How does not need to intertwine this to seem like stupidly very naive New Year’s Eve rainy night to tread the street to start very much, 不用去纠结这场看起来很傻很天真的年三十儿雨夜踏马路是如何开始的, At least, the present two people thought that finished in this time, is most appropriate. 至少,眼下的二人觉得在此时结束,是最合适的。 Hit a net to make the car(riage), Zhou Ze and Dr. Lin seated inside together. 打了一辆网约车,周泽和林医生一起坐进了里面。 a quarter of an hour later , Zhou Ze accompanied Dr. Lin to get out together, the vehicle owner tied the form, drove directly. 一刻钟后,到了,周泽陪着林医生一起下了车,车主结了单子,直接开车走了。 Family/Home, in building, but Zhou Ze and Dr. Lin do not have the choice to come up directly. 家,就在楼上,但周泽和林医生没有选择直接上去。 This scene, a little junior high pupil lover accompanies downstairs the family/home that returns to the girl probably in the evening, below distinction, tangled up, your Nong my Nong. 这个场景,有点像是初中生情侣晚上结伴回到女孩的家楼下,下面该分别了,缠缠绵绵,你侬我侬。 But this time atmosphere, did not have the shy junior high pupil to be rich, has probably not put the bouillon of salt and monosodium glutamate, ate did not have the taste, but sprinkled to be a pity. 但此时的氛围,还没有青涩的初中生浓郁,像是没有放盐和味精的肉汤,吃了没味,但泼掉可惜。 „Don't you come up?” Dr. Lin asked. “你不上去了？”林医生问道。 „doesn’t go, has waited for the time period, said again, our matter, processes.” “不去了,等过阵子,再说吧,咱的事儿,也就处理掉。” Dr. Lin understood the Zhou Ze’s implication, said: „Sorry.” 林医生听懂了周泽的言外之意,道:“对不起。” Zhou Ze smiles, then puts out a hand, wants to pat the Dr. Lin’s shoulder, but after the hand puts, suddenly is somewhat impulsive, supported the opposite party. 周泽笑笑,然后伸手,本想拍拍林医生的肩膀,但手放上去之后,忽然有些冲动,还是将对方拥了过来。 Dr. Lin body stiff, but has not revolted. 林医生身体僵硬了一下,但没反抗。 Two people approached slightly, but is not considered as that how affectionate movement, compares among the status relations in two person, can be said as looks on as an outsider very much. 二人稍微靠近了一些,但也不算是多么亲昵的动作,相较于二人之间的身份联系,已经可以说是很见外的了。 On her, is very fragrant, does not know when takes a bath what uses is which gel, in brief, very nice-smelling. 她身上,挺香的,也不知道洗澡时用的是哪款沐浴露,总之,很好闻。 „Very has been curious a matter, you, is there someone else?” Zhou Ze supplemented, „that some people, can refer to the male also to refer to the female.” “一直很好奇一件事,你心里,是不是有别人？”周泽又补充了一下,“那个别人,可以指男也可以指女。” „Right.” Dr. Lin is very honest, even replied, not hesitant. “对。”林医生很坦诚,甚至回答得,没犹豫。 Before, oneself husband has shrunk, making her not be cruel enough, 之前,自己的丈夫一直畏畏缩缩,让她不忍心, At present, oneself husband changed a person probably, made her throw some burdens. 眼下,自己的丈夫好像变了一个人,也让她抛去了一些包袱。 „oh.” Zhou Ze complied with one, the vision on shot a look at slightly, wants to have a look at the top of the head to present some specific protective color. “哦。”周泽应了一声,目光微微上瞥,想看看自己头顶到底有没有出现某种特定的保护色。 Somewhat loses, 还是有些失落的, Is far from the love, 谈不上爱, Said no that on likes, 说不上多喜欢, Even familiar reluctantly, 甚至连熟悉都勉强, But she, no matter what, is in name own woman, finally, oneself by cuckold. 但她,不管怎么样,都是在名义上属于自己的女人,结果,自己还是被绿了。 Un, so long as is the man, 嗯,只要是男人, No, 不, so long as is a male, 只要是公的, Experiencing this matter should not be happy at heart. 遇到这种事儿心里应该都不会太愉快吧。 „Sorry.” This second time was said sorry. “对不起。”这是第二次说对不起。 Zhou Ze loosens the hand, two people separate slowly. 周泽松开手,二人缓缓地分开。 „Said that sorry looks on as an outsider.” Zhou Ze depended on nearby stone block to sit, the rain is small, here also had small eaves. “说对不起就见外了。”周泽靠着旁边的石墩儿坐了下来,雨已经小了,这里还有一个小屋檐。 „I will give you again a sum of money, you can go to open a bookstore again.” After Dr. Lin said that also said one: „Sorry.” “我会再给你一笔钱,你可以去再开一家书店。”林医生说完后,又道了一声:“对不起。” Zhou Ze wants to beckon with the hand magnanimously, says one: Money I am not rare. 周泽本想大度地摆摆手,说一声:钱我不稀罕。 However thinks that own freezer, thinks own later life, 但是想想自己的冰柜,想想自己以后的生活, Zhou Ze thought suddenly this saying somewhat says, 周泽忽然觉得这话有些说不出口, If by some chance, 万一, If by some chance, 万一, If by some chance this woman took seriously, thought that insulted itself to money, really didn't give money compensation? 万一这女人当真了,觉得给钱是侮辱了自己,就真的不给钱补偿了呢？ „Several days later will chat again.” Zhou Ze shrugs, „that fellow, what kind of?” “过几天再聊吧。”周泽耸耸肩,“那个家伙,怎么样？” „He is very handsome, in my opinion.” Dr. Lin replied. “他很英俊,在我看来。”林医生回答道。 Is the male, 是男的, Stamp, 戳, Another blade, 又一刀, Is female can also be good to accept ............ 是女的还能好接受一些………… Zhou Ze felt own top of the head seemed the intensity of photosynthesis more powerful. 周泽感觉自己头顶好像光合作用强度更强大了一些。 „Did not have the opportunity, yes?” Zhou Ze asked a very silly issue, asked regretted, but is consoling oneself, my is asks pitiful Xu Le. “没机会了,是吧？”周泽问了一句很傻的问题,问完自己就后悔了,但还是在自我安慰,我这是在可怜的徐乐问的。 Occupied others bodies, now the person wife divided the leg, why can you help ask one? 占据了人家的身体,现在人老婆劈腿了,你总得帮忙问一个为什么吧？ Un, is this appearance. 嗯,就是这个样子。 „Did not have the opportunity.” Dr. Lin replied as before quickly, affirmed very much. “没机会了。”林医生回答得依旧很快,也很肯定。 This woman is also the surgeon, the style of speech, but also is really simply, looking like same as the scalpel, the cut after cut hitting the mark key place, is not loathsome. 这女人也是外科医生,说话的风格,还真是干脆得很,就像是拿手术刀一样,刀刀切中关键部位,绝不拖泥带水。 Otherwise, is the patient is more painful, in the sentiment, as if is also likewise. 否则,是病人更痛苦,在感情上,似乎也是同理。 „Ok the line, could not compare unable to compare, all right, everyone day each one each one, you have gone back to deal with your mother and father well.” Zhou Ze is somewhat annoyed. “行吧行吧,比不了比不了,没事,大家日子各自过各自的,你回去好好应付你爸妈吧。”周泽有些心烦。 Dr. Lin nods, turns around to walk into the corridor. 林医生点点头,转身走入了楼道。 Zhou Ze stands up, prepares to take taxi to leave, actually in this time, a strange telephone hits: 周泽站起身,准备打车离开,却在此时,一个陌生电话打来: „Hey.” “喂。” „Mister, my car(riage) started.” “先生,我车开回来了。” „Such intelligence?” Zhou Ze is somewhat surprised, before he listens to this is , the voice of that driver. “这么智能？”周泽有些意外,他听出来这是之前那位司机的声音。 „After you leave behind wrapped, on the hull, I deliver to you.” “你们留下了一个包在后车座上,我给你送回来。” „oh, thanks.” “哦,谢谢。” That car(riage) arrived at downstairs subdistrict, from the glass, the driver delivers a woman’s bag. 那辆车又开到了小区楼下,从车窗里,司机将一个女式包递送出来。 „You select.” “您点点。” „Good.” “好。” Zhou Ze not polite, opened Dr. Lin’s bag, inside on a cell phone and a wallet and data live wire and several packages of paper goods. 周泽没客气,打开了林医生的包,里面就一部手机和一个钱包以及数据充电线和几包纸巾。 Put out the wallet, Zhou Ze just opened was shocked, 拿出钱包,周泽刚翻开就愣住了, His vision stared in the wallet deposited the picture the position, 他的目光盯在了钱包存放相片的位置, There has a picture, 那里有一张照片, The woman in picture seems very young, even some...... immature, wears not the good-fitting white coat. 照片中的女人显得很年轻,甚至有些……稚嫩,穿着不合身的白大褂。 But girl's right side man, Zhou Ze somewhat strange familiarity. 而女孩儿右侧的男人,周泽有些陌生的熟悉感。 Gawked some little time, 愣了好一会儿, Zhou Ze recognizes, 周泽才认出来, This is not oneself. 这不是自己嘛。 This is the picture that cut out, should be the group photo, but actually cut out two people to take a group photo alone. 这是一张被裁剪出来的照片,应该是合影,但却被单独裁剪成二人合影。 „What lacks?” The driver urged. “缺什么没有？”司机催促道。 „All right, thanks the master, you can walk.” “没事儿,谢谢师傅,你可以走了。” The driver drove. 司机开车走了。 Zhou Ze continues to look with the wallet, he has not even thought at this time should call to say to Dr. Lin takes the package. 周泽继续拿着钱包看着,他甚至没想到此时应该给林医生打个电话说一声下来拿包。 Some are not dust-laden, but is the memory of not caring about starts to reappear, 一些不算尘封,但算是不怎么在意的记忆开始浮现, Remembers vaguely, 依稀记得, Oneself in 5~6 years ago, have over one batch probably also the student who the assignment in the school practises, the female student, is probably surnamed Lin . Moreover, in the girl with picture, in the appearance can also superpose probably. 自己在五六年前,好像带过一批还在学校里分配来实习的学生,有一个女生,好像姓林,而且,和照片上的女孩儿,模样上好像也能重合。 A girl undergoes many changes as she grows up, 女大十八变啊, The Zhou Ze corners of the mouth revealed wiped the smile, 周泽嘴角露出了一抹笑容, Dr. Lin also had such adorable in the past time, who knows after 5~6 years, unexpectedly became such beautiful, oneself were has not really noticed this girl's fostering potential. 林医生当年也有这么呆萌的时候,谁知道五六年后居然出落得这么标致了,自己真的是一点都没注意到这个女孩儿的养成潜力。 Moreover, at that time oneself oneself were led the intern to be perfunctory to institute very much, these students in oneself side bring purely, when „medicine dog” uses. 而且,当时自己对院里让自己带实习生很敷衍,这些个学生在自己身边就纯粹拿来当“医学狗”用。 Zhou Ze shook the wallet in hand, 周泽晃了晃手中的钱包, „Mother, before getting what one deserves you, quick 30 also single.” “妈的,活该你之前快三十了还单身。” this time very accidental/surprised did not scold Xu Le, 这次很意外的不是骂徐乐, But is scolding itself, 而是在骂自己, „ Eye, “眼睛, Is really blind ............ ” 是真瞎啊…………” Zhou Ze opens the hand, extended one to stretch, 周泽张开手,伸了一个懒腰, Wears the green hat to oneself, 给自己戴绿帽子的, Unexpectedly, 居然还是自己, After the rain before dawn, lunar New Year's Day, 雨后凌晨,大年初一, Hehe, 嘿嘿, Looks at the day. 望天。 Put out a hand to pat own chest very much gravely, 很庄重地伸手拍了拍自己的胸口, Zhou Ze, 周泽顿了顿, Very serious said/tunnel: 很严肃地道: „ Xu Le, you are really my good brothers! “徐乐,你真是我的好兄弟！ thou wife I am self-supportive it, thou does not worry. ” 汝妻子吾自养之,汝勿虑也。”