Returns to the yard, sat had reflected on under the tree three days three nights, Ning Que thought own spirit has replied completely, sets out to walk outward, Sang Sang said: „If not do clearly, why suffers hardships?” 回到小院,坐在树下静思了三天三夜,宁缺觉得自己的精神已经完全回复,起身向外走去,桑桑说道:“如果搞不明白,何必去受苦？” Ning Que does not have to turn round, said: „Received these many, naturally must painstakingly ravel.” 宁缺没有回头,说道:“已经受了这么多苦,当然要弄明白。” Arrives at White Pagoda Temple, calmly reads the Buddhist literature and first for the eminent monk note, when the twilight at the appointed time, he lit the candlelight on table, these degrees he was very familiar, does is very natural. 来到白塔寺,静阅佛经和前代高僧笔记,待暮色至时,他点燃了桌上的烛火,这些程度他已经很熟悉,做的很自然。 Candlelight micro bright, the shadow reappears on the wall. 烛火微亮,影子重新出现在墙上。 Before he arrives at the wall, sits cross-legged to sit down, thinks, pulls out the iron blade to place in ground, simultaneously takes out several paper talisman from the sleeve, the preparation later uses. 他走到墙前,盘膝坐下,想了想,又抽出铁刀放在身旁的地面上,同时从袖中取出几张符纸,准备稍后使用。 Actually he is very clear, the iron blade or Divine Talisman, on the shadow and that two great axe to wall, do not have any significance, because this is a disaster of non- ordinary significance. 其实他很清楚,无论是铁刀还是神符,对墙上的影子和那两道巨斧,都没有任何意义,因为这是一场非普通意义的劫难。 But by doing so, can make him slightly more relieved. 但这样做,能够让他稍微安心一些。 How long, in White Pagoda Temple ding has not begun, the Buddhist priest in temple has still not heard, can hear this ding has Ning Que. 没有过多长时间,白塔寺里钟声再起,寺里的僧人依然没有听到,能够听到这道钟声的只有宁缺。 He looks at the shadow on wall, said: „Come.” 他看着墙上的影子,说道:“来吧。” The shadow stands up, starts silent to whoosh wild, starts to struggle. 影子站起身来,开始狂暴地无声嘶吼,开始挣扎。 Then wields in the Ning Que mind the great axe once more crazily. 那把巨斧再次在宁缺的脑海里疯狂地挥动。 The Ning Que complexion is suddenly pale, frontal eminence blue vein keeps reappearing along with the rhythm that the axe falls, the tooth that bites tightly starts the oozing of blood, but he is always maintaining the attitude of sitting cross-legged, is not willing to surrender. 宁缺脸色骤然苍白,额角青筋随着斧落的节奏不停浮现,紧咬的牙齿开始渗血,但他始终保持着盘膝的姿式,不肯投降。 Now he was clear, the shadow on wall is own, is Lian Sheng, in the head that the great axe, is the Lian Sheng consciousness fragment is launching actually then an attack. 现在他已经非常清楚,墙上的影子是自己的,也是莲生的,脑袋里那把巨斧,其实便是莲生的意识碎片在发难。 Three days ago, he cannot bear pain time, wants with Psyche Power the consciousness fragment suppression of Lian Sheng, but at that time, in the sky that fell the axe. 三天前,他承受不住痛苦的时候,想要用念力把莲生的意识碎片镇压,但就在那时,天空里那把斧子落了下来。 That night of most starting. Although he does not have the truth of ravelling matter, but in consciousness to be fuzzy, in the instinct wants to ruin the Lian Sheng consciousness fragment, was at that time, the sky resounded the ding. 最开始的那个夜晚。他虽然没有弄明白事情的真相,但于意识模糊间,本能里想要把莲生的意识碎片毁掉,也是那时,天空响起钟声。 He does not have the ability simultaneously to resist two great axes, he wants to try, can resist in the head this axe. 他没有能力同时抵抗两道巨斧,他想试试,能不能抵抗住脑袋里这把斧。 „You such keep struggling to sway from side to side, the person who knows know that you in uncomfortable, the person who does not know only feared that thinks you were really insane. Actually do you want to make what?” “你这么不停地挣扎扭动,知道的人知道你在难受,不知道的人只怕会以为你真的疯了。你究竟想做什么呢？” Ning Que looks that on the wall the pain in the shadow that struggles, the face whiten is asking: „What you want, you said that you did not say how I know what you do want?” 宁缺看着墙上正在痛苦挣扎的影子,脸色苍白问道:“你想要什么,你就说啊,你不说我怎么知道你想要什么呢？” The shadow has not replied him. 影子还是没有回答他。 The axe keeps chopping in his head, the soybean big beads of sweat flow off following his bridge of the nose. Flows in his mouth, slightly salty, actually does not know that is the perspiration or the blood. 斧子还是在他脑袋里不停地砍着,黄豆大的汗珠顺着他鼻梁流下。流进他的嘴里,有些微咸,却不知道是汗还是血。 He stares the shadow on wall stubbornly, the body is keeping shivering, bears more and more fearful pain, the side that both hands grasp is being tight, the nail gets sucked into the palm. 他死死瞪着墙上的影子,身体不停地颤抖,忍受着越来越可怕的痛苦,双手握的极紧,指甲深陷进掌心。 „You want anything!” But his pain shouts angrily. “你他妈的到底要什么！”他痛苦而愤怒地喊道。 Shadow suddenly static. Turns into a quiet shade, disperses toward all around, finally occupies the entire meditation hall, candlelight. The star light of out of the window, falls in the wall and ground, is dark. 影子忽然静止。变成一片幽影,向着四周散开,最终把整间禅室都占据,无论是烛光。还是窗外的星光,落在墙壁和地面上,都是暗的。 In this dark world, Ning Que saw in the Devil Sect mid-hill these hang in airborne stone bridge. Sees that non- character tablet, sees the mountain of bones of the dead. Sees in the mountain that skinny such as the old monk of ghost. 在这片幽暗的世界里,宁缺看到了魔宗山腹里那些悬于空中石梁。看到那座无字碑,看到白骨的山。看到山里那位干瘦如鬼的老僧。 The old monk is Buddha, old monk is also the demon. 老僧是佛,老僧也是魔。 The old monk said: „To cultivate the demon, first cultivates Buddha.” 老僧说道:“欲修魔,先修佛。” Ning Que said: „I have been repairing Buddha.” 宁缺说道:“我一直在修佛。” The old monk said: „It is not enchanted, does not achieve Buddhahood.” 老僧说道:“不疯魔,不成佛。” Ning Que sobered up, recalled to mind itself to listen to these words, understands that Lian Sheng was was not replying own issue, but died a later wisp of thought that in iteration passing. 宁缺醒过神来,记起自己曾经听过这些话,才明白莲生不是在回答自己的问题,而只是死去之后的一缕意念,在重述过往。 The eye socket of old monk is very deep, inside as if there is ghost flame sparkle, his facial features distortion, appears extremely painful, the hissing shouts: „But these are false! Buddha is false! The demon is also false!” 老僧的眼窝很深,里面仿佛有鬼火闪耀,他的面容扭曲,显得极为痛苦,嘶声喊道:“但这些都是假的！佛是假的！魔也是假的！” Ning Que wakes up, the cold sweat streamings. 宁缺醒来,冷汗涔涔。 , The gate of meditation hall was shoved open, the full room shadow collects suddenly, turns into the shadow that on the wall sits cross-legged to sit. 吱呀一声,禅室的门被人推开,满室阴影骤敛,变成墙上盘膝而坐的影子。 Sang Sang arrives at him behind, calmly looks at that shadow, said: „He is not Lian Sheng.” 桑桑走到他身后,静静看着那个影子,说道:“他不是莲生。” The head of Ning Que still in the severe pain, somewhat absent-minded asked: „Who is that?” 宁缺的脑袋还在剧痛,有些恍惚问道:“那是谁？” Sang Sang visits him, said: „Is you.” 桑桑看着他,说道:“是你。” Ning Que asked: „Why is I? Then ding from sky?” 宁缺问道:“为什么是我？那来自天空的钟声呢？” Sang Sang said: „Does not know that does not know.” 桑桑说道:“不知道,不知道。” She is omniscient Vast Sky, but these two matters, she does not know the answer. 她是无所不知的昊天,但这两件事情,她都不知道答案。 ...... …… ...... …… In the following days, Ning Que will occasionally go to White Pagoda Temple, was inquiring to the wall on shadow pain, the anger gave scolding, still had not actually found the answer. 在随后的日子里,宁缺偶尔还是会去白塔寺,对着墙上的影子痛苦相询,愤怒痛骂,却依然没有找到答案。 Most made him feel what pain was, if he did not go to White Pagoda Temple, that in brain will then not chop him the axe, but where regardless of him, the ding in sky were continuing throughout, then the invisible great axe, kept chopping the spall his body and mind, as if did not hew two sections him, vowed not to rest. 最令他感到痛苦的是,如果他不去白塔寺,脑里的那把斧子便不会砍他,但无论他在哪里,天空里的钟声始终在持续,那把无形的巨斧,不停地砍斫着他的身心,仿佛不把他砍成两截,誓不罢休。 Nobody can hear ding that the sky drops, looks like nobody can hear the White Pagoda Temple night ding, nobody can see that the great axe of dropping from the clouds, Sang Sang cannot see. 没有人能够听到天空落下的钟声,就像是没有人能够听到白塔寺夜晚的钟声,也没有人能看到那把从天而降的巨斧,桑桑也看不到。 Ning Que will sometimes think that these are the illusions, but the incomparably clear pain, was reminding him unceasingly, then had the axe, some people were keeping chopping him. 宁缺有时候甚至会觉得这些都是幻觉,但无比清晰的痛苦,在不断地提醒他,那把斧子真的存在,真的有人在不停地砍他。 Constantly has great axe being near body, that is the what kind type pain, he is unable to withstand, the body becomes more and more weak, the spirit becomes more and more bright powder, sometimes he really cannot withstand, rushes to the courtyard to shout abuse to the sky, the discovery simply does not have any significance. 无时无刻都有巨斧临身,那是何等样的痛苦,他根本无法承受,身体变得越来越虚弱,精神变得越来越焕散,有时他实在承受不住,冲到院子里对着天空破口大骂,却发现根本没有任何意义。 Sang Sang is used to consider him the time, deletes the sweat in volume for him, scatters the nightmare for him the insect musca of shadow and summer, is holding his hand, occasionally looks at the day. 桑桑把时间都用来照顾他,替他擦去额上的汗水,替他驱散恶梦的阴影和夏日的虫蝇,牵着他的手,偶尔看天。 Three years like this passed by, Ning Que had been divided the entire three years by the axe, the time becomes in painful suffering like that long, is like that unendurable, he has even thought committing suicide, actually does not give up Sang Sang. 三年时间就这样过去了,宁缺被斧子劈了整整三年,时间在痛苦的折磨里变得那般漫长,那般难以忍受,他甚至想过自尽,却舍不得桑桑。 Late autumn in some day, Ning Que crawls from the bed, arrives by the table, stretches out finger that shivers, carries the bowl to drink tea, he has used very big strength, has not made the bowl fall. 深秋里的某一天,宁缺从床上爬起来,走到桌旁,伸出颤抖的手指,端起茶碗喝了口茶,他用了很大的力气,才没有让碗落下。 The clear pain, will make the body of person make the response of instinct, does not have time the pain of certainly continuously, to the spirit is enormous suffering, to the body is also an enormous injury. 真切的痛苦,会让人的身体做出本能的反应,绵绵无绝期的痛苦,对精神是一种极大的折磨,对身体也是一种极大的伤害。 He pushes the door to go out of the room, looks is preparing the lunch in the kitchen Sang Sang, said: „Does not have the appetite. Eats some casually is.” 他推门走出房间,看着正在厨房里准备午饭的桑桑,说道:“没有胃口。随便吃些就是。” Sang Sang stands up, calmly visits him, suddenly smiled. 桑桑站起身来,静静看着他,忽然笑了笑。 Ning Que thinks that on own face has anything, puts out a hand to trace, actually only discovered one changed thin. 宁缺以为自己的脸上有什么,伸手摸了摸,却只发现自己变瘦了很多。 Suddenly, his facial expression changes, remembered itself to have for a long time does not have much painful. 忽然,他神情微变,想起自己已经有很久没有痛了。 His raise one's head looks to bright and crisp fall days sky, muttered said: „Doesn't chop?” 他抬头望向秋高气爽的天空,喃喃说道:“不砍了吗？” Sang Sang said: „Can go out for a walk?” 桑桑说道:“要不要出去走走？” In the three years, Ning Que few being out of hospital take a walk. He does not want to hold the hand of Sang Sang, arrives under the river bank weeping willow, suddenly looks pale, cannot fall to the ground, such does not have the face very much. 这三年里,宁缺很少出院散步。他不想牵着桑桑的手,走到河畔垂柳下,忽然间就面色苍白,倒地不起,那样很没面子。 But...... Since the sky that does not chop the axe. Can go out for a walk? Why the axe does not divide, oneself thought that somewhat loses? 但……既然天空里那把斧子不砍了。或者可以出去走走？只是,为什么斧子不劈了,自己却觉得有些失落？ „Good.” He said with a smile, is only because of constantly not in the pain, he has not smiled for a long time, therefore the smiling face appears somewhat stiff. “好啊。”他笑着说道,只是因为无时无刻不在的痛苦,他已经很长时间没有笑过,所以笑容显得有些生硬。 Sang Sang dries on the apron the water on hand, asks: „Where goes to?” 桑桑把手上的水在围裙上擦干,问道:“去哪里？” Ning Que thinks. Said: „Goes to White Pagoda Temple.” 宁缺想了想。说道:“还是去白塔寺。” ...... …… ...... …… Enters the monk's room, covers visits, Ning Que sits before the wall. 走进禅房,掩上门,宁缺坐到墙壁前。 Sang Sang outside the monk's room, calmly looks at the sky. 桑桑在禅房外,静静看着天空。 The candle lit. The shadow on wall appears gradually. 蜡烛已经点燃。墙上的影子渐渐浮现。 „For a long time does not see.” “好久不见。” Ning Que looks at the shadow saying: „I do not know that actually you are Lian Sheng, is I, but I think that you should not harm me. Actually then you do want to tell me what?” 宁缺看着影子说道:“我不知道你究竟是莲生,还是我自己,但我想,你应该不会害我。那么你究竟想要告诉我什么？” Like the past three years in such, the shadow did not speak. 就像过去三年里那样,影子还是不说话。 Ning Que said: „No matter. I do not want to endure again, has not dropped the axe while space that I am sober, asks your one time finally.” 宁缺说道:“不管这是怎么回事。我都不想再忍下去了,趁着天上那把斧子没落下,我还清醒,来最后问你一次。” The shadow stands up slowly, looks upwards. 影子缓缓站起身来,望向上方。 „If you are not willing to give me the answer, that...... I or can only die.” “如果你还是不肯给我答案,那么……我或者只能去死了。” The Ning Que mirthless smile said: „I could not withstand.” 宁缺惨笑说道:“我真的顶不住了。” The shadow looks suddenly to him. 影子忽然望向他。 The shadow does not have the eye, but Ning Que knows that he is looking at himself. 影子没有眼睛,但宁缺知道他是在看自己。 Ning Que stares at him saying: „I die, you will also die.” 宁缺盯着他说道:“我死,你也会死。” The shadow bent the waist suddenly, keeps shivering, seems laughing, smiles the tears unable to stop. 影子忽然弯下腰,不停地颤抖,似乎在发笑,笑到眼泪都止不住。 Ning Que was preparing to say anything again, the shadow was suddenly straight the body, a palm racket approached own top of the head! 宁缺正准备再说些什么,影子忽然直起身体,一掌拍向自己的头顶！ The White Pagoda Temple ding begins! 白塔寺钟声再起！ In the Ning Que head that great axe, chops maliciously to his top of the head! 宁缺脑袋里那把巨斧,狠狠地砍向他的头顶！ This is in three years, a heaviest axe! 这是三年里,最重的一斧！ Almost meanwhile, in the sky resounds together the extremely violent sound! 几乎同时,天空上响起一道极为暴烈的声音！ An invisible and sharp great front, from the sky, falls in a flash, falls on the body of Ning Que! 一把无形而锋利至极的巨锋,来自天空,转瞬即落,落在宁缺的身上！ Two axes, meet in the Ning Que top of the head, is only away from the crown. 两把斧子,在宁缺的头顶相会,只隔着天灵盖。 Buzz a bang! 嗡的一声巨响！ Ning Que thought that own body and heart, cleft in two. 宁缺觉得自己的身体与心脏,真的被劈成了两半。 The fierce pain, making his eye pupil shrink suddenly, the root of the tongue tingles with numbness. 剧烈的痛苦,让他眼瞳骤缩,舌根发麻。 He is wants to nip tongue suicide, was unable to achieve. 他便是想要咬舌自杀,都已经无法做到。 The next moment, the ache such as sea water of ebb tide vanishes generally slowly. 下一刻,疼痛如退潮的海水一般缓缓消失。 He thought that his head was broken out a big seam. 他觉得自己的头被劈开了一道大缝。 In that seam has his eye, can regard the thing. 那道缝里有他的眼睛,能够视物。 He looks at the wall, simultaneously actually also looks at the sky. 他看着墙壁,同时却也看着天空。 He thought that the own muddy body is insightful, the picture that before could not see, can see now, clarity that the thing that before could not completely understand, can look , was this Divine Vision? 他觉得自己浑体通透,以前看不到的画面,现在都可以看到,以前看不透的事物,都可以看的清清楚楚,这就是慧眼？ ...... …… ...... …… Earlier, Academy back side of the mountain all Renwei under the pear tree, Sixth Senior Brother was taking the iron hammer, kept pounding that checkerboard, other people were keeping cheering for him. 稍早些时候,书院后山诸人围在梨树下,六师兄拿着铁锤,不停地砸着那张棋盘,其余的人在替他不停加油助威。 They have been pounding this checkerboard, so long as a Ning Que day does not come out, they will then pound for day, they believe that one day can smash this checkerboard. 他们一直在砸这张棋盘,只要宁缺一天不出来,他们便会砸一天,他们相信,总有一天能把这张棋盘砸烂。 The autumn wind micro, First Senior Brother arrives under pear tree, the people go forward to salute. 秋风微起,大师兄来到梨树下,众人纷纷上前行礼。 First Senior Brother received the iron hammer, said: „You rest, I try a hammer.” 大师兄接过铁锤,说道:“你歇歇,我来试一锤。” The iron hammer falls, mist and dust writings, its sound like thunder. 铁锤落下,烟尘大作,其声如雷。 The Ximen Buhuo to praise sighed: „Senior Brother worthily is Senior Brother, this sound loud.” 西门不惑赞叹道:“师兄不愧是师兄,这声音多响。” Beigong Weiyang looks at the checkerboard, said disappointedly: „Different hasn't smashed?” 北宫未央看着棋盘,失望说道:“不一样没砸烂？” First Senior Brother somewhat embarrassed smiled, has handed over the iron hammer. 大师兄有些不好意思地笑了笑,把铁锤交了出去。 ...... …… ...... …… ( The second chapter) （第二章）