Finally shoved open the door of foothold hut, Rogge and Palmer good of very room processing, in the close situation, here had not been infiltrated by the flesh unexpectedly, appearance that all such as they left at that time. 最终艾缪推开了据点小屋的房门,伯洛戈和帕尔默把房间处理的很好,封闭情况下,这里居然没被血肉渗透,一切都如他们当时离开的模样。 Fastening door, sits down on the Rogge's single bed slowly, then the kneecap cast, rolls one group. 艾缪关紧房门,在伯洛戈的单人床上缓缓坐下,然后抱膝、团成一团。 She returned to here finally, gets the answer of issue from the mouth of Taida, makes to mediate, after may estimate the relaxedness, but is a bitterness and astringency of difficult word. 她终于回到了这里,从泰达的口中得到问题的答案,就此做个了断,可预想中的轻松后,而是一阵难言的苦涩。 „ You looked, I said can be this? He never cares about you, even if you play the role to miss homeland absurdly, coordinating him to do so many matters, even sacrificed itself, resurrecting Ellis, he will not look at your one eyes. “你看,我就说会是这样吧？他从来就不在乎你,哪怕你扮成妄想家,配合他做了这么多的事,甚至牺牲自己,复活爱丽丝,他也不会多看你一眼的。 Pitiful, you are also having some improper anticipation unexpectedly, you thought that your offering sacrifices, will make him cares about you? ” 可怜的艾缪,你居然还抱着某种不该有的期待,你觉得你的自我献祭,会让他变得在乎你吗？” Ellis sits on Palmer's single bed, the provocation said. 爱丽丝坐在帕尔默的单人床上,挑衅道。 „Tool is a tool, you is never a his daughter.” “工具就是工具,你从不是他的女儿。” Burying was lower. 艾缪把头埋的更低了。 „Mentioning, you also are really an easy satisfied fellow.” “说来,你还真是个容易满足的家伙啊。” Ellis smiled, arrives by the table, manipulates Rogge they to keep here thing at will. 爱丽丝笑了起来,来到桌子旁,随意地摆弄着伯洛戈他们留在这里的东西。 The Rogge's personal belonging is some hammers and knives, this fellow like the cold weapons collector, in the drawer is the fatal weapon, Palmer is fantasy one after another. 伯洛戈的私人物品都是一些锤子与刀子,这家伙就像个冷兵器收藏家,抽屉里全是致命的武器,帕尔默则是一堆又一堆的幻想。 Two people only something in common, prepared many recording magnetic tapes. 两人唯一的共同之处,就是都准备了不少的唱片磁带。 „ Even if and you most intimate Rogge, without guessing right your desire, what incarnation adult, in fact you wants so-called...... father love? “哪怕是和你最亲近的伯洛戈,也没有猜对你的愿望,什么化身成人,实际上你只是想要所谓的……父爱？ Said, some type chosen identity? ” 还是说,某种被人选择的认同感？” Ellis manipulated the recording, lost to discard like the dart them, some pounded, she was also unresponsive. 爱丽丝摆弄起了唱片,将它们像飞镖一样丢来丢去,有的砸到了艾缪,她也毫无反应。 „ Actually you can definitely, pays respects Li be good to you, even these things took, you can definitely win the concern and approval from her. “其实你完全可以不回来的,拜莉对你蛮好的,连这些东西都拿了出来,你完全可以从她身上博得关爱与认同。 Rogge, I sees the violence that feared to be crazy, by running around in circles that you play, swindles some affections from his hand, should be relaxed? ” 伯洛戈也可以的,一个我见了都怕的暴力狂,都被你耍的团团转,从他手里骗取些爱心,应该再轻松不过了吧？” Ellis was saying looked at a time, „should he fall asleep now? Does about your dream?” 爱丽丝说着看了眼时间,“他现在应该已经睡着了吧？做关于你的梦？” In the unceasing ridicule sound, Ellis placed the recording a recording on the airplane, under rotation slowly, the intermittent lithe singing sound resounds. 不断的嘲笑声中,爱丽丝将一张唱片放在了唱片机上,缓缓的转动下,阵阵轻盈的歌声响起。 „You look, your choice so many, if you treat honestly in the sublimation furnace core, perhaps tomorrow Taida will die, all finished.” “你看,你的选择这么多,如果你老老实实待在升华炉芯的话,说不定明天泰达就死了,一切就都结束了。” „If I do not come back, I did not know the answer.” Has responded finally. “如果我不回来,我就再也不知道答案了。”艾缪终于有所回应。 „Un? Why do you want the approval of Taida?” Ellis did not understand, „because only he is your creator? Your nominal...... father?” “嗯？为什么你偏想要泰达的认同呢？”爱丽丝不理解,“只因为他是你的创造者？你名义上的……父亲？” Does not reply. 艾缪不做回答。 „Un, you know the answer now, but you do not feel better ,” Ellis walked toward, „actually you think that very early in the morning can be such result?” “嗯,你现在知道答案了,可你并不好过,艾缪,”爱丽丝朝艾缪走了过来,“其实你一早就想到会是这样的结局了吧？” „You the option will give Taida, reason that but Taida has not chosen you...... conceals to Rogge, is for this purpose, right?” “你将选择权交给了泰达,但泰达并没有选择你……之所以对伯洛戈隐瞒,也是出于这个目的,对吗？” Ellis rips open wound and being relentless. 爱丽丝撕开艾缪的伤口、毫不留情。 „ Even if your father will not choose you, do not say Rogge. “哪怕是你的父亲都不会选择你,更不要说伯洛戈了。 You do not dare to test Rogge, if Rogge does not choose you, your final anticipation will also annihilate. 你不敢去考验伯洛戈,如果伯洛戈也不选择你的话,你最后的一点期待也将湮灭。 Like this, the short life was also too failed. ” 这样来看,艾缪的短暂人生也太失败了啊。” Has not responded, was tighter, crossed good one that oneself shrank, her voice is shivering. 没有回应,艾缪把自己缩的更紧了,过了好一阵,她声音颤抖着。 „Why won't the parents love his child?” “为什么父母不会爱他的孩子呢？” „Amn't I why good?” “为什么我就不行呢？” „Because only I am the gold metallurgy person occasionally?” “只因为我是炼金人偶吗？” „But I felt, I and human is no different, I and they have the same consciousness, I even compared with being better that also their most people make.” “可我觉得,我和人类没什么不同,我和他们有着一样的意识,我甚至比他们绝大部分人做的还要好。” „Therefore why?” “所以为什么呢？” „Why do I want to take somebody's substitute since birth?” “为什么我生来就要作为某人的替代品呢？” Peaceful, she tries to recall some happy matters. 艾缪安静了下来,她试着回忆些美好的事。 Her semblance association/will makes one have the misconception in age, in fact is also only a child, in her short life, the fine thing are not many. 她的外表总会让人产生年龄上的错觉,实际上艾缪也只是个小孩子而已,在她短暂的一生里,美好的东西并不多。 She remembers the pledge festival, remembers to taste the cake for the first time, remembers the first movie that oneself see, remembers that spy and hunting dog...... 她想起誓言节,想起第一次品尝蛋糕,想起自己看到的第一部电影,想起那名侦探与猎犬…… Grants the gold metallurgy person occasionally by the wisdom, and told her to be doomed by the replace destiny. 赐予炼金人偶以智慧,并告诉她注定被替代的命运。 This was too bad. 这太糟糕了。 Before Ellis arrived at body, slowly squatted, ponders looks at distressed. 爱丽丝来到了艾缪的身前,慢慢地蹲了下来,玩味地看着狼狈的艾缪。 „The option do not give others again , your destiny should decide by oneself, rather than for that laughable desire, pays all.” “别再将选择权交给他人了,艾缪,你的命运应该由自己决定,而不是为了那种可笑的愿望,付出一切。” Ellis makes an effort to sway shoulder, exclaimed to her loudly. 爱丽丝用力地摇晃着艾缪的肩膀,对她大声吼道。 „Now you get the answer that you wanted, he does not love you, even if you sacrificed yourself, this point will also not change.” “现在你已经得到了你想要的答案,他并不爱你,哪怕你牺牲了自己,这一点也是不会变的。” When mentioned these, Ellis kept laughing. 提到这些时,爱丽丝笑个没完。 „ Child is this, the emotion that you long for will not be responded, how regardless of you diligently are so. “小孩子就是这样的,你渴望的情感不会得到回应,无论你怎么努力都是如此。 Therefore you only then that most extreme choice. 因此你只有那最极端的抉择。 Offers sacrifices. 自我献祭。 The death punished Taida, making him repent, approves your existence. ” 以死亡来惩罚泰达,让他悔过,认同你的存在。” But this has not responded even as before, in comparison looks like a person, but Taida is only the machinery of some loyally performance order. 可即便这样依旧没有回应,相比之下艾缪才更像一个人,而泰达只是某种忠诚地执行命令的机械。 „ What now do you want to make? Massacres Taida? I can help your, said ruins Ellis, this point I can also achieve. “现在你想做什么？杀掉泰达吗？我可以帮助你的,还是说毁掉爱丽丝,这一点我也能做到。 I can make Taida lament extremely, making his remaining years of life live, in the pain and rebukes oneself, I can exert world all torture on him! ” 我可以让泰达悔恨万分,让他余生都活在痛苦与自责中,我能将世间所有的酷刑都施加在他身上！” Ellis drew close, said firmly, „, so long as you choose me, I will be omnipotent.” 爱丽丝贴近了艾缪,坚定地说道,“只要你选择我,我将无所不能。” Shakes the head. 艾缪摇了摇头。 „No, I do not want to harm anybody, Ellis died from the beginning, this matter and he has nothing to do, the teacher...... the teacher was also only too rigid......” “不,我不想伤害任何人,爱丽丝一开始就死掉了,这件事和他无关,老师……老师也只是太执着了而已……” Ellis was silent, later she is ridiculing. 爱丽丝沉默了,随后她嘲笑着。 „Look, is really good, you can understand them, who understands you? Also who can love you?” “看啊,艾缪还真是善良啊,你能理解他们,可谁又来理解你呢？又有谁能爱你呢？” Right that „ you said that your desire is very tiny and is not worth mentioning, so long as Taida is willing to bestow the little love to give you, you are willing to offer sacrifices......, even if he is pretends that you can accept. “你说的对,你的愿望真的很渺小、不值一提,只要泰达愿意施舍一点点的爱给你,你就愿意自我献祭……哪怕他是假装的,你都可以接受。 But is this also tiny desire, is unable to realize. ” 但就是这也渺小的愿望,都无法实现。” Ellis angry, „you should be more selfish .” 爱丽丝愤怒了起来,“你该自私一些了,艾缪。” She makes an effort to make a fist, as if must control the destiny to be the same. 她用力地握拳,仿佛要掌握命运一样。 „Should consider yourself! Do not make a vow for others, goes for yourself, promises desire that you long for truly!” “该考虑你自己了！不要为别人许愿,去为你自己,许下你真正渴望的愿望！” Raised the head slightly, reveals the sad look, has that question again, „Ellis had died, are actually you who?” 艾缪微微抬头,露出悲伤的眼神,再次发出那个疑问,“爱丽丝已经死了,你究竟是谁呢？” Ellis shows the smile, her sound is gentle, is not certainly false. 爱丽丝对此露出微笑,她的声音轻柔,绝无虚假。 „Now I am who is important?” “现在我是谁还重要吗？” Shakes the head silently, „, is unimportant.” 艾缪默默地摇头,“是的,不重要了。” The bitter and astringent laughter gets up gradually, will rely on near the wall, thinking aloud. 苦涩的笑声渐起,艾缪将头倚在墙边,自言自语着。 „ I read such a few words in the book, besides the grief and disease, all pain of human came from own ponder. “我在书上读到过这样的一句话,除了伤痛与疾病外,人类的所有痛苦都源自于自身的思考。 But I do not have the grief and disease, all my pain come from my own. ” 可我并不具备伤痛与疾病,我所有的痛苦都源自于我自身。” Closed the eye slowly, no one will choose her firmly, even if took dying as the price, was still so. 艾缪慢慢地闭上了眼,没有人会坚定地选择她,即便以死亡为代价,也是如此。 She does not dare to test others 's intention, with its trusts others, might as well go forward from the beginning lonely. 她不敢去考验他人的意图,与其信任他人,不如一开始就孤独前进。 Understood suddenly why human liked raising the pet, only then the pet was itself absolutely, only then the pet will not depart from itself absolutely. 艾缪突然理解为什么人类喜欢养宠物了,只有宠物是绝对属于自己,也只有宠物绝对不会背离自己。 She understood. 她明白了。 Only then holds the thing that somebody, something and some type can repose the emotion absolutely, human is fearlessly unretentive , does not count the cost to pay own complete emotion...... 只有绝对地占有某个人、某个事物、某种可以寄托情感的东西,人类才毫无保留、无所畏惧、不计成本地付出自己的全部的情感…… Actually has known that who Ellis was, but she did not feel afraid. 其实艾缪已经知道爱丽丝是谁了,但她并不觉得害怕。 Feels somewhat incredible, like the destiny of being doomed, you clearly know that will have anything, is actually incapable of preventing. 艾缪只是觉得有些荒诞,就像注定的命运一样,你明知道会发生什么,却无力阻止。 Had nothing to prevent. 没什么好阻止的了。 Therefore puts out a hand, gripped torn to pieces illusory. 于是艾缪伸出了手,握住了一片支离破碎的虚幻。 Made the desire, a selfish desire. 艾缪许下了愿望,一个自私的愿望。 The intermittent knock resounds, the door knob swayed from side to side, but after the front door pulls open, after that no longer is the familiar corridor, but is one piece is chaos and jet black. 阵阵的敲门声响起,门把手被扭动,可当大门拉开后,其后不再是熟悉的走廊,而是一片混沌与漆黑。 The familiar form went out of the darkness, the aura of insane clamour his body lingers. 熟悉的身影走出了黑暗,他身上萦绕的疯嚣的气息。 „I attained the fantasy to plant...... us two to be like this clear, missed homeland absurdly.” “我拿到空想种了……这样我们两清了,妄想家。” Grey was saying placed the under foot the iron tank, he is not many stops, does not talk too much one, closes the door, vanished in the dim darkness. 格雷说着将铁箱放在了脚下,他不多做停留,也不多言一句,关上房门,消失在了朦胧黑暗里。 Only is left over to roll up lonely in the indoor, the singing sound gets up gradually 只剩下艾缪一人孤独地蜷缩在室内,歌声渐起 „ I want a perfect body, a complete soul. “我想要一具完美的躯壳,一颗完整的灵魂。 I hope that I can such as you be the same, but I strange, am so incompatible. ” 我希望自己能如你一样,可我是如此地古怪、格格不入。” 7017 k 7017k