„Durning, you are actually not suitable to be engaged in this work.” “柯德宁,其实你不适合从事这份工作。” In the gloomy alley, Durning squats to sit in the corner, the breathing rapidly, in his opposite, David depends on the wall not to worry or care about at all. 阴暗的小巷内,柯德宁蹲坐在墙角,呼吸急促,在他的对面,戴维满不在意地靠着墙壁。 „My I” “我我” Durning is looking at the blood in hand, it so bright, above also transmits the intermittent warm feeling. 柯德宁看着手中的鲜血,它是如此地鲜艳,其上还传来阵阵温热感。 In the field of vision has anything to wriggle, Durning looks panic-stricken to an corner/horn, the man exudes the sobbing sound, crawls toward oneself. 视野里有什么东西在蠕动,柯德宁惊恐地看向一角,男人发出呜咽声,朝着自己爬来。 His damn was right, in the abdomen the number blade, but driven by to live, he still crawled tenaciously, earnestly seeks anything to hope that is. 他本该死了才对,腹部中了数刀,但在求生意志的驱动下,他仍固执地爬行,渴求什么希望所在。 „Although is the line that you lead me to enter, but I must say, sometimes your attainment suppresses.” “虽然是你带我入的行,但我还是要说,有时候你的心得狠起来。” David is holding appreciatively the short sword in hand, above is also dropping the blood, lifts the foot to step the man layer on layer/heavily, like stepping in rotten tomato, makes an effort then to squeeze out more blood from the body of man slightly. 戴维把玩着手中的短刀,上面还滴着血,抬脚重重地踩住男人,就像踩在一颗烂番茄上,微微用力便从男人的身体里挤出更多的血。 „ Is stingy, rather than becomes numb, numb was only your anything could not feel, but under the grayish white outer covering, your heart was spiritless. “是心狠,而不是说变得麻木,麻木只是你什么都感受不到了,但灰白的外壳下,你的心还是懦弱的。 You want to be vicious, Durning, you cannot say that made all these, you need for yourself, for yourself, you can be ruthless like this enough, only then this can go on living.. ” 你要狠毒起来,柯德宁,你不能说是为了基妮做了这一切,你需要为了你自己,为了你自己与基妮,这样你才能足够狠,也只有这样才能活下去。。” David is teaching Durning, although said that he has not killed several people, but the experience since childhood made him then have a vicious heart very much early. 戴维教导着柯德宁,虽然说他也没杀过几次人,但从小的经历让他很早便有了颗狠毒的心。 „I have not seen my father, my mother then had passed away very much early, my childhood overwhelming majority time passed in the orphanage, in many story books, the author described a warm place there, the pitiful child warmed up mutually.” “我没见过我的父亲,我母亲又很早便去世了,我的童年绝大部分时光是在孤儿院度过的,在很多故事书里,作者把那里描绘成了一个温馨的地方,可怜的孩子互相取暖。” David squatted, said that while looks at the man who was on the verge of death, looks at his gradually the muddy vision, fear that the deep place wailed. 戴维蹲了下来,一边讲,一边看着濒死的男人,看着他那逐渐浑浊的目光,还有深处哀嚎的恐惧。 „ Regrettable story eventually is the story, there is not warm, children usually for the only thing, will fight to fight. “遗憾的故事终究是故事,那里并不温馨,孩子们通常会为了仅有的东西、争抢打架。 Mentioned, my character you also know, at that time some people provoked me, I punched them ruthlessly, even if could not be victorious must punch, gradually, I started respected, they respected my fist, knows that I was not affable, was a big unprincipled person. 说来,我的性格你也知道,当时有人来挑衅我,我就把他们狠狠地揍一顿,哪怕打不过也要揍,久而久之,我开始受人尊敬了,他们尊敬我的拳头,知道我不好惹,是个大坏人。 But the time was long, my some do not want like this, I also to want the friend, but everyone fears me, I start to send out some good intentions, had time me to divide several candies, I apportioned others him, I think that this was a good beginning. 可时间久了,我有些不想这样,我也想要朋友,但每個人都怕我,我开始散发些善意,有次我多分到了几块糖果,我就把他分给了其他人,我以为这是个好的开端。 But in the evening I according to was hit on the bed, they thought that I sent out the well-meaning behavior to admit defeat, I started to be afraid them, after firing off me, their eldest children stood in my bedside, is speaking the aggressive statement to me, the surroundings all were his little brother, I know that I began to be hit again. ” 但晚上我被人按在床上打了一顿,他们觉得我散发善意的行为是服软了,我开始害怕他们了,打完我后,他们的老大就站在我的床边,对我说着狠话,周围全是他的小弟,我知道我动手就是再被打一顿。” David's voice, looks at the bloodstained hand. 戴维的声音顿了顿,看着染血的手。 „ At that time I was young, the strength is not very big, the fist is not very hard, but I released a stone when the pillow, above uses the pastel drawing the laughable design, whenever others asked that I said that this was my stone friend. “当时我还小,力气不够大,拳头也远不够硬,但我在枕头下放了一块石头,上面用蜡笔画着可笑的图案,每当别人问起时,我就说这是我的石头朋友。 My stone friend protected me, I took up him to smash the face of that fellow. ” 我的石头朋友保护了我,我拿起他砸烂了那个家伙的脸。” David was saying smiled. 戴维说着笑了起来。 „Where these kids have seen such weaponry, the blood and tooth flutter about, the fellow even painful directness urinated the pants.” “那些小屁孩哪见过这样的阵仗,鲜血与牙齿纷飞,那家伙甚至痛的直接尿了裤子。” The laughter stopped, he is unemotional. 笑声停了下来,他面无表情。 „But after winning, I am unhappy.” “但赢了之后,我并不开心。” Durning is silent, he knew that David were also many year, but never listened to and David has told these, sometimes asked from others mouth, everyone also knows that David often mingled among the street. 柯德宁沉默,他认识戴维也很多年了,但从未听及戴维讲述过这些,有时从别人口中问起,大家也只是知道戴维常混迹于街头而已。 „I with you were not telling that the roughness of childhood, what I am saying to be an example.” “我不是在和你讲述童年的坎坷,我在讲的是一个例子。” David handed over the bloodstained short sword to Durning. 戴维将染血的短刀递向了柯德宁。 „ Therefore you did understand? Durning, you do not have the opportunity to mediate, has a look blood that your hand dyes, be not thinking any so-called good intentions, that being suspended in midair feeling, will only harm you. “所以你明白了吗？柯德宁,你已经没机会去做个好人了,看看你手染的鲜血,也别想着什么所谓的善意,那种不上不下的感觉,只会害了你。 You are an evil person, we are the evil people, from head to tail evil person, without the evil person of escape route. ” 你是恶人,我们是恶人,彻头彻尾的恶人,没有退路的恶人。” Durning got hold of the short sword slowly, looks at the man under body, the man vision pray for rescue looks at itself, man very clear David is a from head to tail lunatic, Durning has several points of human nature to survive on the contrary, wants to go on living can only depend upon Durning's pitying. 柯德宁慢慢地握紧了短刀,看着身下的男人,男人目光求救似地看着自己,男人很清楚戴维是个彻头彻尾的疯子,柯德宁反倒有着几分人性残存,想要活下去只能依靠柯德宁的怜悯。 Pities regarding the evil person, most does not need is the insignificant good intentions with pitying. 怜悯对于恶人而言,最不需要的便是无意义的善意与怜悯。 In the man panic-stricken vision, Durning decided what determination like below, wielded the short sword to cut open his throat. 男人惊恐的目光中,柯德宁就像下定了什么决心般,挥起短刀割开了他的喉咙。 The blood the overflow, the man fell down died thoroughly. 鲜血汩汩地溢出,男人倒在地上彻底死去了。 „Also good,” David looks at all these satisfied, the vision falls on Durning's face, „only hopes that you were really cruel-hearted, rather than sealed up own innermost feelings, could not be felt by oneself anything.” “还不错,”戴维满意地看着这一切,目光落在柯德宁的脸上,“只希望你是真的狠下心来了,而不是封闭了自己的内心,让自己什么都感受不到。” Durning has not spoken, is maintaining the absolute silence. 柯德宁没有说话,保持着绝对的沉默。 „Durning, Durning.” “柯德宁,柯德宁。” The familiar sound is summoning, she puts out a hand, strokes own face gently, scatters the gloomy and cold chill in the air. 熟悉的声音呼唤着,她伸出手,温柔地抚摸自己的脸庞,驱散走阴冷的寒意。 Durning opened the eye slowly, although all around ray is dim, but he can still see clearly oneself woman, she by oneself side, strokes oneself forehead gently, wipes the sweat with the handkerchief. 柯德宁缓缓地睁开了眼,虽然四周的光线昏暗,但他仍能看清自己身旁的女人,她靠在自己身旁,轻柔地抚摸自己的额头,用手帕擦去汗水。 „Were you have the nightmare?” Asked. “你是做噩梦了吗？”基妮问道。 Durning is recalling just dreamland, the facial expression is somewhat complex, but he nods, the response said. 柯德宁回忆着刚刚的梦境,神情有些复杂,但他还是点了点头,回应道。 „Almost, a nightmare, bad nightmare.” “差不多吧,一个噩梦,糟糕的噩梦。” „Do not be afraid, all right, I side you.” “别害怕,没事的,我在你身边。” Was saying the head that grasped Durning, in the flesh transmits the real touch, lets the dreamland diverged illusory much. 基妮说着抱住了柯德宁的头,肌肤之间传来真实的触感,让梦境的虚幻散去了不少。 „It‘s nothing, is only a dream.” “没什么的,只是个梦而已。” Durning racket hand, sat from the bed gently. 柯德宁轻轻地拍拍基妮的手,从床上坐了起来。 Here is not the familiar family/home, but is a strange room, before a Durning is very early, then for the safe house that oneself prepare. 这里并不是熟悉的家,而是一处陌生的房间,一个柯德宁很早之前便为自己准备的安全屋。 In the mind transmitted the sharp pain, Durning expression fierce, lifted the hand to cover the head, made an effort to rub to pinch. 脑海里传来尖锐的痛楚,柯德宁表情狰狞了一下,抬起手捂住头,用力地揉捏着。 Probably this is the world should have the appearance that all are changing rapidly, actor who yesterday Durning focused attention on, today is the mouse of fleeing in panic. 大概这才是世界本该有的样子,一切都在飞速变化着,昨天柯德宁还是瞩目的演员,今日便是仓皇逃窜的老鼠。 He unclear is the theater how leaves, then mood was also unknown. 他已经记不清自己是怎么离开的剧场了,就连当时的心情也不得而知。 Like an absent-minded shatter dreamland, when Durning from when awakens, he has stayed here. 就像一段恍惚破碎的梦境,当柯德宁从其中惊醒时,他就已经呆在这里了。 Looks at Durning, she very much clearly what happened, but Durning did not say, her anything did not ask. 基妮看着柯德宁,她很清楚发生了什么事,只是柯德宁不说,她也什么都不问。 She still remembers that last night scene, oneself rarely sober, is waiting for Durning's return, told the success of performance with , when the door was opened, appears in eyes was not Durning, but was a scared mouse. 她还记得昨夜的情景,自己难得地清醒,等待着柯德宁的归来,和自己讲述演出的成功,可当房门被打开时,出现在基妮眼中的不是柯德宁,而是一只失魂落魄的老鼠。 Durning has not changed the clothing with enough time, wears a performance clothing/taking, on the face is drawing the heavy powder, grasped, after brief idle time, then leads to leave. 柯德宁连衣装都没来得及换,穿着一身演出服,脸上画着浓妆,一把抱住了基妮,短暂的停歇后,便是带着基妮离开。 Had any bad matter to happen, but does not want to suspect Durning, Durning for were many enough, but oneself who oneself did besides the trust, anything could not give Durning. 有什么糟糕的事情发生了,但基妮并不想怀疑柯德宁,柯德宁为自己做的够多了,而自己除了信任外,什么也给不了柯德宁。 „What had to say?” “有什么想说的吗？” After Durning is quiet, asked in a soft voice. 待柯德宁平静下来后,基妮轻声问道。 First is silent, shortly after Durning's voice resounds. 先是沉默,不久后柯德宁的声音响起。 „Sometimes I could not distinguish clearly, enters the play too deep person like one, sometimes I could not distinguish clearly anything am realistic or illusory, probably all were the realities, all were illusory.” “我有时候分不清了,就像一个入戏太深的人,我有时候分不清什么是现实还是虚幻了,又好像一切都是现实,一切又都是虚幻。” Durning said unemotionally. 柯德宁面无表情地说道。 When „is addicted to person” was established, he is ready that passes away dies, when has seriously the nearby person died, Durning is also sorrowful extremely. 当“嗜人”成立之时,他就做好过身死的准备,可当真的有身边人死去时,柯德宁又悲痛万分。 Actually he somewhat does not make clear himself is the cold blood evil person, is a falling into error average person? 他有些搞不清楚自己究竟是个冷血的恶人,还是个误入歧途的普通人呢？ But quick, Durning no longer thought. 但很快,柯德宁不再想了。 „It‘s nothing, I will process all, here waits for me to come back.” “没什么,我会处理好一切,在这里等我回来。” Durning kissed forehead gently, reorganized under own clothes, pushes the door to depart. 柯德宁轻轻地亲吻了基妮的额头,起来整理了下自己的衣服,推门离去。 The sky of out of the window dawn, how long Durning simply has not rested, in the eye pupil brings the blood threads, actually he wants to hug to pour out anything, but the words to the mouth, Durning actually anything said. 窗外的天空蒙蒙亮,柯德宁根本没睡多久,眼瞳里带着血丝,其实他很想抱着基妮倾诉什么,可话到了嘴边,柯德宁却什么都说不出口。 He cannot with say that you are a hungry devil, medicine that you use every day, inside contains the soul, he cannot say oneself are both hands bloodstained murderer, for all these offered the lives of many people. 他不能和基妮说你是头饥饿的恶魔,你每天使用的药物,里面都蕴含着灵魂,他也不能说自己是个双手染血的杀人犯,为了这一切献上了许多人的生命。 Could not say to Durning a few words finally. 到最后柯德宁一句话也说不出来。 Does not need to say. 也没必要说。 The telephone was dialed, Durning said beyond the shadow. 电话被拨通,柯德宁开门见山地说道。 „I need two tickets to leave Ou Bosi, tonight leaves, cannot bring to anybody's attention, the price is not the issue.” “我需要两张车票离开欧泊斯,今夜就离开,不能引起任何人的注意,价钱不是问题。” After short silence, in the telephone resounds the sound. 短暂的沉默后,电话里响起声音。 „Sure, we make this line,” the opposite party full mouth complied, „please explain the address, before midnight, I will send people to meet you.” “当然可以,我们就是做这行的,”对方满口答应了下来,“请说明一下地址,午夜之前我会派人来接你们。” Durning moves the line of sight to out of the window, looks at the metal data plate on opposite construction wall, stemming from vigilant, he sent out another address. 柯德宁将视线挪向窗外,看着对面建筑墙壁上的金属铭牌,出于警惕,他报出了另一个地址。 After completing all these, Durning is pondering the plan, he cannot pin the hope on these criminal syndicates completely, they and Durning have no essential difference, Durning understood them, just like understood oneself are the same. 做完这一切后,柯德宁思考着计划,他不能把希望完全寄托于这些黑帮身上,他们和柯德宁没有什么本质的区别,柯德宁了解他们正如了解自己一样。 Durning is planning the later journey of escape, has another sound to resound by the ear. 柯德宁计划着之后的逃亡之旅,恍惚间有另一个声音在耳旁响起。 „Durning, you must go on living by some status, did you think?” “柯德宁,你总要以某个身份活下去,你想好了吗？” That person does not know when appeared side Durning, Durning recognized the makeup on that face to accommodate, was Baht. 那人不知何时出现在了柯德宁身边,柯德宁认出了那人脸上的妆容,是巴特。 Some are not quite not right. 不有些不太对。 Durning has not waited to say anything, at present strange vision vanish, anything does not have, his expression delay, probably just all were only his conjecture. 柯德宁还不等说些什么,眼前诡异的幻觉消失,什么都没有了,他表情呆滞,好像刚刚的一切只是他的臆想。 The headache wants to crack, like the sharp nail card in the brain, is good because of the pain is quite short, after flickering, Durning then slow. 头疼欲裂,就像把尖锐的钉子卡在脑子里,好在痛楚较为短暂,一瞬之后柯德宁便缓了过来。 „You cannot make the good person, could not work as a pure evil person, how you actually thought? Durning.” “你做不成好人,又当不了一个纯粹的恶人,你到底是怎么想的呢？柯德宁。” „My I” “我我” Cannot give the answer. 始终是没能给出答案。 „This pitiful” “这可怜啊” The men seem like thinking aloud, is talking with anyone probably, falls into crazily in the quietness. 男人好像是在自言自语,又好像是在和什么人对话,在静谧之中陷入疯狂。