ED :: Volume #1

#111: Leaving the stage

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This is the place bad city, Ou Bosi the rainy night wants Bicchi to experience di any rainy night to be cold, each raindrop is flooding the biting cold chill in the air, sprinkles from the dark clouds of sticking out. As if there is cold winter to contain to be one of them snow that people toward this mortal world sprinkles liquid. Raised the head, puts out a hand slowly, is feeling that raindrop in broken bits. Rains, another rainy night. This season rains, obviously does not conform to the common sense, but common sense word, placing on Ou Bosi was not suitable, everyone raised the head, can see that numerous haze that overflow from the big crevice, they just like since a support the fog column of the world, is standing tall and erect. Once for a while the haze in big crevice will also overflow, forms the toxic haze grey tide, is attacking the neighboring region, which point the above these regardless, place in a city, can be exceptionally, but they gathered in one, complete overlay above Ou Bosi. Therefore the life residents here, have fostered the heart big quality, regarding Ou Bosi many „exceptionally” already „becoming accustomed to”, even if such stranger is no exception, here lives in previous, she was also used to all these. Bound tightly the clothes, she resists these diligently the chill in the air, after falling ill, always thought that oneself is very weak, often feels cold, but also always feels the hunger, oneself had many food obviously, but is being able to fill belly. Durning said that this is the good sign, said that own body in digestion food, transforms the energy to cure itself, eats are more, explained that she more must be restored to health. He is such person, the association/will in a piece is gloomy, found the method of encouraging the person, regarding, Durning like warm Yang. Thinks of this, looks to the front, Durning is taking the baggage, is arguing anything in the platform in station. Has not gone to disturb Durning, coming out that she can feel, Durning is very tired, oneself do not affect him. Speaking of the baggage, moved to the bench under keeping the rain off awning on, why some curious David have not come. David and Durning are very good friends, when oneself and Durning marry, at wedding a David also face hidden bitterness looks at itself, the mouth said anything, she robbed oneself good brothers, words so forth. Durning also joked, if David later did not have the place to live, he can consider that left David to live the garret. Was not clear why Durning worries to leave Ou Bosi, but his time leaves does not take David unexpectedly, this makes feel very accidental/surprised. Has not continued to get down, her train of thought is somewhat murky, by the bench, consciousness between the sobriety and lethargic sleep. Since falling ill, she this, Durning said often this is the medicine function, causing unable to rest frequently. His Sanemori applies drugs very much repugnantly, said accurately she goes to sleep repugnantly, once she will go to sleep will have a dream, but the dreamland forever will be an appearance. Like the present. Remembers that is a rainy night, with the present same rainy night. The cold raindrop lightly, dream Rickey sits in main house gate, waits for Durning to return in the evening. At that time they just arrived at Ou Bosi, like many strangers, is seeking livehood here difficultly, that Durning's condition was not very good, he rushed about in each theaters for the livelihood, but these people are only willing to make him play some even lines no small role, pay also low pity. Durning late at night in cannot sleep, he will sometimes suspect himself, oneself is really whether able, own choice whether correct. This confused pain is suffering Durning, he does not have the courage to give up oneself dream like this, is unable to convince itself, oneself are really only a mediocre person. Is suspended in midair, paces back and forth unceasingly. Is helpless, she can only grasp Durning silently, making him feel the warmth of body. Sometimes is Durning is suspecting itself incessantly, is also suspecting itself, facing Durning's pain, she only felt incapable and rebukes oneself, she besides the hug, anything cannot achieve unexpectedly. But...... the favorable turn appeared afterward. Durning's performance profession is even more smooth, they made a lot of money, changed the big house, had the increasing number of people to realize that they, everyone is cheering Durning's name together. Thought that Durning must realize his dream, when but look to Durning, he seems like unhappy, sometimes Durning looked oneself look also has the anxiety. Actually to have what? Felt oneself forgot anything probably, but she could not remember to forget anything, that extremely important thing...... the thunder has delimited the nighttime sky, shone to be black and pale the world, the myriad things stagnation flickered, later flowed again, transmits the dreadful noise. Thought, she could not speak suddenly, can only stare in a big way the eye, gaze all occurrences. The strange fuzzy form such as the viscous tar, struggles to crawl from the profound darkness, it dresses up on a jet black clothes robe, having several points to stand before body illusory. Lightly the light rain pouring on his body, actually penetrated the past strangely, crash-bang pats on the ground. Cannot see clearly his face, but felt familiar aura, is also mixing with some anxiety. „Your desire...... I heard.” In the memory, the man is saying putting out a hand. Heard............ then...... expression gradually to be then panic-stricken, actually she somewhat could not distinguish clearly this recalls or the dreamland, or said the reality. Really and was rubbed to pinch falsely in one, rolls one group crudely, was ripped open again violent. The words of man are very brief, but understood what is heard his complete meaning. Realizes the desire to need the price, do you want to withstand this price? Shiver lifts the hand, myriad mood pounded to put on her heart like the meteor, the alarmed and afraid and anxious and huge terrified filled the air in her hearts, and even she even can hear the scream of soul. Does not want, do not put out a hand, if promised him, certainly will have not the good matter. Also wanted the rotten to the core matter compared with the death. But...... in eyes flashes through Durning's facial features, he stands in the stage is greeting the applause of audience, bows to leave the stage in ten thousand numerous revelries......, if can realize his desire, perhaps such price is not high, at least, is this. Sometimes the person is this, can endure regarding own misery, the misery to others is actually not able to look but not see. Therefore in that cold rainy night, she puts out a hand to the man. Recorded, recalled the beginnings of all these nightmares. „?” The gentle words crushed the actual situation, nightmare awakened, tried to take back extends the hand that but was held by the man stubbornly, is unable to put aside. „!” Sound intense, tries hard to be calm, that strange shadow no longer, what replaces it is Durning. He stands before oneself, grasps the hand that are extending, the actual situation confuses in one. „Are you good?” Durning somewhat worried that asked. „I...... I am good, just probably presented the illusion, probably is the medicine function.” Smiled bitterly two, grasped Durning, two people hug shortly, is separated, in the look brings to be startled and desolate. Durning sat in side, the sound had several points to complain, „train was late, we need to wait later.” Be that as it may, Durning actually raised at heart intermittently anxious, is really late? Said has the secret facts. He tries hard to make itself keep calm, cannot absolutely at present is startled. „All right.” Is saying the head by Durning's shoulder. The raindrop hits on obstructing the canopy, this monotonous sound sounds the accidental/surprised relief at this moment. Holds Durning's hand in the bosom, is feeling the warmth of his flesh diligently, probably is false in the present all, was grasped by her in the hand, was touched really by her, is absolutely real. Under touching, the innermost feelings that Durning that moves restlessly rare horizontal calms down, like this night rain. Durning had another expectation suddenly, he hopes that at this moment can turn eternal, perishes in such world, to him is the rare happiness. But this expected eventually. „Durning...... what happened, right?” Asked low voice. „Un.” This Durning has not continued to conceal time. „Because of me, right?” The warm liquid delimits Durning's arm, has been sobbing silently, she detected all these sources faintly. „Does not have any disease, does not have any medicine,” said, „I, that man, that ominous fellow...... all things, am since then.” „This did not complain about you.” Durning is rubbing head, wipes tears for her. „Was only the wrong time, the wrong place, the wrong person and matter, accomplished the wrong present situation.” Durning pulled closer several points suitcase, his earnest say/way. „Relax, I will process.” The distant place hears the grating brake sound, has probably a desperado to speed away. Durning guesses that he is a driving fast expert, did not wait for the vehicles to stop then to shove open the vehicle door and fish dive, bringing the whole body sharp weapon with killing intent, the automobile that whatever lost control of battered, the fireworks of explosion surged in him behind, under projection his fierce shadow in ground. The automobile and driver meet are about several hours, actually carries this deicide not to know that cut to turn many gathering places, the broken tire and ground burst out the intermittent flame, on silver white smooth automobile body, covered entirely the innumerable bullet hole. Durning thinks that he will open the vehicle door, in fact drove the side vehicle door not to have, some time ago it tore off by the driver, treated as the shield it, welcomed the hail of bullets to enter another gathering place. Between both can say that had the profound revolutionary friendship, now it is unable to withstand the load finally, under driver's violent driving, detonation combustion. The flaming flame direct impact horizon, the yawp of guards resounds, but sounds of gunfire of after several rupturing, all were also peaceful. Durning takes out the medicament from the suitcase, he is comforting, pours into within the body along the arm the medicament, after several seconds, consciousness then again murky, then sleeps soundly goes off. „Please wait a bit the moment.” Durning is saying, holds body, puts to lie down her on the bench, takes off own coat, covers on body, binds for her. Looks at the tranquil face, Durning kisses her forehead gently, then takes out the pistol and short-sword from the suitcase, has turned around to look at the future in curtain of rain. „Thanks.” Durning expressed gratitude, the radiant pattern climbed up along his nape of the neck, but in another end of curtain of rain, the future also revealed the sheep's horn hammer and jackknife in his hand. Rogge stride forwards, the same light axle shines on both hands, just like grasping to hold the fireworks. 这是座糟糕的城市,欧泊斯的雨夜要比基妮所经历旳任何雨夜都要寒冷,每一颗雨滴都充斥着彻骨的寒意,从隆起的阴云之中洒下。仿佛有寒冬蕴藏在其中,向着尘世的人们洒下液态的雪。基妮抬起头,缓缓地伸出了手,感受着那细碎的雨滴。下雨了,又一个雨夜。这个季节下雨,显然不符合常理,但常理这一词,放在欧泊斯上本就不适合,每个人抬头,都能看到那从大裂隙里溢出的重重雾霾,它们犹如一个支撑起天地的雾柱,就那么高耸着。时不时大裂隙内的雾霾还会溢出,形成有毒的雾霾灰潮,侵袭着周边地区,以上这些无论哪一点,放在一座城市上,都算得上是异常,可它们汇聚在了一起,全部叠加在了欧泊斯之上。为此生活在这里的市民们,早就养成了心大的素质,对于欧泊斯诸多的“异常”早已“习以为常”,哪怕是基妮这样的异乡人也不例外,在这里住上一阵,她也习惯了这一切。裹紧了衣服,她努力地抵御那些袭来的寒意,生病之后,基妮总觉得自己的身体很虚弱,经常感到寒冷,还老是感到饥饿,明明自己吃了很多饭,但就是填不饱肚子。柯德宁说这是好的迹象,说自己的身体在消化食物,转化成能量治愈着自己,基妮吃的越多,说明她越要康复了。他就是这样的人,总会在一片灰暗里,找到鼓励人的方法,对于基妮而言,柯德宁就像暖阳。想到这,基妮看向前方,柯德宁正提着行李,在车站的站台上和人争论着什么。基妮没有去打扰柯德宁,她能感觉的出来,柯德宁已经很累了,自己还是不要影响他了。提起行李,挪到挡雨棚下的长椅上,基妮有些好奇戴维为什么没有来。戴维和柯德宁是很好的朋友,自己与柯德宁结婚时,婚礼上戴维还一脸幽怨的看着自己,嘴里说什么,她抢走了自己的好兄弟,诸如此类的话。柯德宁也开玩笑说,如果戴维以后没地方住了,他可以考虑把阁楼留给戴维住。不清楚柯德宁为什么着急离开欧泊斯,但他这次离开居然不带上戴维,这让基妮觉得很意外。基妮没有继续想下去,她的思绪有些昏沉,靠在长椅上,意识处于清醒与昏睡之间。自从生病后她经常这样,柯德宁说这是药物作用,导致基妮经常一睡不起。其实基妮很讨厌用药,准确说她讨厌入睡,她一旦入睡就会做梦,而梦境永远都是一副样子。就像现在。基妮记得那是一个雨夜,与现在一样的雨夜。寒冷的雨滴淅淅沥沥,梦里基妮坐在家门口,等待着柯德宁晚上归来。那时她们刚到欧泊斯,就像很多异乡人一样,在这里艰难求生着,那一阵柯德宁的状态很不好,为了生计他在各个剧场之间奔波,但那些人只愿意让他出演一些连台词都没有的小角色,薪资也低的可怜。柯德宁深夜里睡不着觉,他有时候会怀疑自己,自己真的是否有能力,自己的选择又是否正确。这种迷茫的痛苦折磨着柯德宁,他没有勇气就这样放弃自己的梦想,又无法说服自己,自己真的只是个平庸的人。不上不下,徘徊不断。基妮对此无能为力,她只能默默地抱住柯德宁,让他感受身体的温暖。有时候不止是柯德宁在怀疑自己,基妮也在怀疑自己,面对柯德宁的苦痛,她只感到一阵无力与自责,她除了拥抱外,居然什么也做不到。可后来……转机出现了。柯德宁的表演生涯越发顺利,她们赚到了很多钱,换了大房子,有越来越多的人认识到了她们,大家一起欢呼着柯德宁的名字。基妮觉得柯德宁就要实现他的梦想了,但当自己看向柯德宁时,他看起来却不开心,有时柯德宁看自己的眼神还带着忧虑。究竟发生了什么呢？基妮觉得自己好像忘了什么,可她想不起来自己忘记了什么,那个极为重要的东西……雷霆划过夜空,将世界映照成了黑与惨白,万物静滞了一瞬,随后再次流动,传来滔天的喧嚣。基妮想起来了,她一时间说不出话来,只能瞪大了眼睛,注视一切的发生。诡异模糊的身影如粘稠的焦油般,从深邃的黑暗里挣扎着爬出,它披挂上一身漆黑的衣袍,带着几分虚幻站在了基妮的身前。淅淅沥沥的小雨浇在他的身上,却诡异地穿透了过去,哗啦啦地拍在地上。基妮看不清他的脸,但感到了一股熟悉的气息,其中还夹杂着某种不安。“你的愿望……我听到了。”记忆里,男人说着伸出了手。听到了……然后……然后……基妮的表情逐渐惊恐了起来,她有些分不清这究竟是回忆还是梦境,亦或说现实。真实与虚假被揉捏在了一起,粗暴地团成一团,再被暴力地撕开。男人的话语很简短,但基妮就是听明白了他全部的意思。实现愿望需要代价,你要承受这代价吗？基妮颤抖地抬起手,万千的情绪如流星般砸穿了她的心,惊惧与不安、巨大的惶恐弥漫在她的心间,乃至她甚至能听到自己灵魂的尖叫。不要,不要伸出手,如果答应了他,一定会发生不好的事。远比死亡还要糟糕透顶的事。可是……基妮的眼中闪过柯德宁的面容,他站在舞台上迎接着观众们的掌声,在万众狂欢中鞠躬退场……如果能实现他的愿望,或许这样的代价并不高昂,至少对基妮而言,是这样的。有时候人就是这样,对于自身的苦难可以忍受,却对他人的苦难无法视而不见。于是在那个寒冷的雨夜里,她对男人伸出了手。基妮记了起来,记起了这一切噩梦的开端。“基妮？”温柔的话语击碎了虚实,基妮噩梦惊醒般,试着收回伸出的手,但却被男人死死地抓住,无法移开。“基妮！”声音强烈了起来,基妮努力镇定下来,那诡异的黑影不再,取而代之的是柯德宁。他就站在自己身前,握着自己伸出的手,虚实混淆在了一起。“你还好吗？”柯德宁有些担忧地问道。“我……我还好,刚刚好像出现幻觉了,大概是药物作用吧。”基妮苦笑了两声,紧接着抱住了柯德宁,两人短暂地拥抱,然后分开,眼神里带着惊慌与落寞。柯德宁坐在了基妮的身旁,声音带着几分抱怨道,“火车晚点了,我们需要等待一会了。”话虽如此,柯德宁的心里却升起了阵阵不安,真的只是晚点吗？还是说另有隐情。他努力令自己保持冷静,绝对不能在基妮的眼前惊慌起来。“没事的。”基妮说着把头靠在了柯德宁的肩膀上。雨滴打在遮雨棚上,这单调的声音此刻听起来令人意外的安心。基妮把柯德宁的手抱在怀里,努力地感受着他肌肤的温暖,好像在基妮眼前的一切都是虚假的,只有被她握在手里的,被她真实触摸到的,才是绝对真实的。在基妮的触摸下,柯德宁那躁动的内心难得地平静了下来,就像这场夜雨一样。突然间柯德宁有了另一种奢望,他多么希望这一刻能变成永恒的,在这样的世界里沉沦,对于他而言是难得的幸福。但这终究是奢望。“柯德宁……发生了什么事,对吗？”基妮小声问道。“嗯。”这一次柯德宁没有继续隐瞒。“因为我,对吗？”温热的液体划过柯德宁的手臂,基妮默默地哭泣着,她隐隐察觉到了这一切的源头。“没有什么疾病,也没有什么药物,”基妮说,“我记起来了,那个男人,那个不祥的家伙……所有的事情,都是从那时开始的。”“这不怨你。”柯德宁揉着基妮的头,为她擦干眼泪。“只是错误的时间、错误的地点、错误的人与事、造就了错误的现状。”柯德宁将身旁的手提箱拉近了几分,他认真道。“不过放心,我会处理好的。”远处传来刺耳的刹车声,好像有位亡命之徒疾驰而来。柯德宁猜他是个开快车的好手,不等车辆停下来便推开了车门、鱼跃而出,带着浑身的利器与杀意,任由失控的汽车横冲直撞,爆炸的焰火在他身后涌起,在地面上投射下他那狰狞的影子。汽车与司机相遇不过几小时而已,却载着这位杀神不知道砍翻了多少个场子,破掉的轮胎与地面迸发出阵阵火光,银白光滑的车身上,也布满了数不清的弹孔。柯德宁以为他会推开车门,实际上驾驶侧的车门早就没了,不久前它被司机扯下,把它当做盾牌,迎着枪林弹雨杀入了另一个场子。两者之间可以说结下了深厚的革命友谊,如今它终于不堪重负,在司机的暴力驾驶下,爆炸燃烧了起来。熊熊火光直冲天际,守卫们的叫喊声响起,但几声爆裂的枪声后,一切又安静了下来。柯德宁从手提箱里取出药剂,他安慰着基妮,将药剂沿着手臂注入基妮的体内,几秒后基妮的意识便再次昏沉了起来,而后安眠地睡去。“请稍等片刻。”柯德宁自顾自地说着,抱起基妮的身体,把她放躺在长椅上,脱下自身的大衣,盖在基妮的身体上,为她裹好。看着基妮平静的脸庞,柯德宁轻轻地亲吻她的额头,然后从手提箱里取出手枪与短剑,转过身看着雨幕中的来者。“谢谢。”柯德宁道谢,璀璨的花纹沿着他的脖颈攀爬,而在雨幕的另一端,来者也亮出了他手中的羊角锤与折刀。伯洛戈大步向前,同样的光轨在双手上亮起,宛如握持着焰火。
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