„Am Iveryuseless? Am I a waste? Or am I a coward?”
“我是不是很没用?我是不是一个废物?或者说,我是一个懦夫?”Heard the Huang Quanwords, Chen Yecleans the Jingwei Swordcotton fabricto stopon the sword blade, after 12seconds, thatpuresuch as the beginningcotton fabriccontinuedto skidon the sword blade.
听到黄泉的话,陈叶擦拭着精卫剑的棉布在剑身上停了下来,12秒之后那块洁净如初的棉布继续在剑身上滑动起来。„Hehe, Iknow,Iam a waste, a waste of thinking oneself infallible, look, your characterdoes not wantto saytome,Iam not the waste? Whois?”
“呵呵,我就知道,我是一个废物,一个自以为是的废物,看吧,你连一个字都不想对我说,我不是废物?谁是?”Because of the desolateness of Chen Ye, Huang Quanagitatedgets up, hewas howlingloudly, the blue vein in volume revealed that the bonfire in fire of high-piled firewoodshotin his eyes, makinghimstareroundboth eyesto be ordinaryin the combustion.
因为陈叶的冷淡,黄泉的情绪激动起来,他大声吼叫着,额上的青筋都露了出来,火堆上的篝火射在他的眼中,让他瞪圆的双眼似在燃烧一般。Hearshowling of Huang Quanhysteria, the cotton fabric in Chen Yehandstopsonce more, after thistimestops, againhad not moved, shelooks that the flamingbonfiredoes not knowis thinkinganythingagain.
听到黄泉歇斯底里的吼叫,陈叶手中的棉布再次停下,这次停下后就再没动过,她看着熊熊地篝火不知道再想着什么。„Iunderstand,youhave knownIam the waste, butdid not say,Iunderstand, youare not why manylook atmyoneeyes, the waste, has somethingto look? Haha, waste? Waste!”
“我明白,你们一直都知道我是废物,只是不说,我明白,为什么你不多看我一眼,废物么,有什么可看的?哈哈,废物?废物!”Huang QuaninmanaginghisChen Ye, startsto think aloud, the right handactuallystartsto shiver, the right hand of shiveringdials the snap fastener that opened fireto put on, heavy92 gunwas graspedbyhimin the hand.黄泉没在管他身边的陈叶,开始自言自语,右手却开始颤抖起来,颤抖的右手拨开了枪套上的按扣,沉甸甸的92式手枪被他握在手中。„ka ca”insures the triggerto be openedbyhim, heis looking in the handcrazily the pitch-blackpistol, discussing that the mouthgodgodtalked on endlessly:
“卡擦”保险扳机被他打开,他痴痴地看着手中乌黑地手枪,嘴里神神叨叨的念道:„Waste, the waste, youare the waste, the coward of thinking oneself infallible, yourwhatis not, youdo not have the faceto be the Huang Familyperson, youdo not have a faceto go on living, un? Do youhave a face?”
“废物,废物,你就是废物,自以为是的懦夫,你什么都不是,你没脸做黄家人,你有什么脸活下去,嗯?你有脸么?”
The sound that the mouthtalked overwas getting more and more light, was almost inaudible, hiseye socketonewet, twolines of tearshave slipped intoon the chinfollowing the cheeks, the tearsformedteardropson the chin, glitteredunder the enchantingflamelight, halfsound, the teardropsdropped.
嘴里念叨的声音越来越轻,几乎不可闻,他眼眶一湿,两行眼泪顺着脸颊滑到了下巴上,泪水在下巴上结成一颗泪珠儿,在妖娆的焰光下闪烁,半响,泪珠滴落。
The pitch-blackpistolholds upslowly, the pitch-darkmuzzleaimed atowntemples, Huang Quanhas closed the eye, the view the tearsroom partition, hisraising the headdeep breath, the mouth was also just likingtalking over of hypnosis:
乌黑的手枪慢慢地举起,黑洞洞的枪口对准了自己的太阳穴,黄泉闭上了眼睛,眼帘将泪水隔断,他抬起头深呼吸,嘴里还在犹如催眠的念叨:„Huang Familydoes not have the waste, the wifenot to want the waste, soldier unable to work as the waste, the death, died, lived is also beingwastes···”
“黄家没有废物,媳妇不要废物,军人不能当废物,死吧,死了吧,活着也是浪费···”Huang Quanspoke ofhere, the jawwas critical, the fingerbuckledruthlesslyon the trigger, the firing pin of 92 gun„ka” a firing.黄泉说到这里,牙关紧要,手指狠狠地扣在扳机上,92式手枪的击针“咔哒”一声击发。Does not have the sound of gunfire, Huang Quannot dead, hecloses one's eyes, waits forthatninemillimetersbulletto sneak inoneselftemples, waited forhalfsound, thatdamnbullethas not explodedownhead.
没有枪声,黄泉也没有死,他闭着眼睛,等着那颗九毫米子弹钻进自己的太阳穴,等了半响,那颗该死的子弹还没将自己的脑袋爆开。Hecannot help butmoves out of the wayfrom the head the guns, closelyis going against the muzzleslightlyloosen of temples, grasped the right hand of spear/gunlightlyon a bigtruncation, a heavythingfellto pound a dull thumping soundin the side.
他不由得将枪支从头上挪开,紧紧顶着太阳穴的枪口稍微一松,握枪的右手就轻了一大截,一支沉甸甸的东西掉在身边砸出一声闷响。Opens eyes, thensees the long sword that 92 gun in ownhandshort the half, Chen Yewill have wieldedtakes back, pure whitecotton fabric on left handonce moreinthatdoes not haveon the glosslong swordto clean, as ifsheforeveralsoscratchesinsufficiently.
睁眼,便看到自己手中的92式手枪短了半截,陈叶将挥出去的长剑收回,左手上的纯白棉布又再次在那毫无光泽的长剑上擦拭,似乎她永远也擦不够。„Why? Whydoesn't makemedie? Alsodislikesmenot veryto lose face? Why····”
“为什么?为什么不让我死?还嫌我不够丢人?为什么····”Huang Quanafterexperiencinglife and deathone, the personalitychanges, herushes toChen Yeheld the Chen Yecollar, pressed for an answertoher, in pressing for an answer, the tears of dissipationhadfill up the eye socketagain, the tearslingeredin the eye socketthroughouthave not actually dropped.黄泉在经历了生死一线之后,性情大变,他冲到陈叶的身边一把抓住了陈叶的衣领,不停的向她逼问,在逼问中,消逝的泪水有重新将眼眶填满,泪水在眼眶中萦绕却始终没有滴落。Today'sChen Yesomewhatis also unusual, so long asin those daysHuang Quanbumped itselfslightly, sheHuang Quanthrowing, butHuang Quangrabshercollarwithboth handstoday, shehas not actually moved, shewas only looking atcrazy and sadness on Huang Quanfacewith the chillylook.
今天的陈叶也有些反常,往日只要黄泉稍微一碰自己,她就会将黄泉给扔了出去,可今天黄泉用双手抓着她的衣领,她却没有丝毫动弹,她只用清冷的眼神望着黄泉脸上的疯狂与忧伤。„Are you waste, yousaidwas not···Isaidwas not the ······bossdecides.”
“你是不是废物,你说了不算···我说了不算······头儿说了算。”Huang Quanopens the blood redeyelidto lookbyChen Ye that hecarries, Chen Yehas not moved, appointheis carrying himself, seesChen Yethatchillylook, hisloudpantingsubsidesgradually, gentlyloosened the Chen Yeslightlyfoldcollar, heturns aroundto arrivesits downsame place.黄泉睁着血红的眼睑望着被他拎住的陈叶,陈叶没有动弹任他拎着自己,看到陈叶那清冷的眼神,他粗重的喘息逐渐平息,轻轻地松开了陈叶微微褶皱的衣领,他转身就到原地坐下。„Actually·····”
“其实·····”
The Chen Yeunprecedentedinitiative that does not likespeakingopened the mouth, althoughonly thentwocharacters, actuallychanged to from the bonfire the Huang QuanattentionChen Ye.
不喜欢说话的陈叶破天荒的主动开了口,虽然只有两个字,却将黄泉的注意力从篝火上转到了陈叶身上。„ActuallyIamcoward········”
“其实我才是个懦夫········”Past eventlong-timeconstraining in trade unionin the heart of Chen Ye, the girl who thesedied, the lastmissinggirl, presseslikethousandjin (0.5 kg)giant stonetogetherinherheart, shewill awake with a startby the look that in the dreamthesegirlswill die with injustice unredressedwhen the night.
工会里的旧事长久的压抑在陈叶的心头,那些死去的女孩子,还有最后一个失踪的女孩子,像一块千斤巨石压在她的心头,每到夜里她都会被梦中那些女孩儿们死不瞑目的眼神吓醒。Shehates, shehates herselfis a coward, saying that ifinitiallyshesawoneself, the lastgirlwill not perhaps be missing, ownsistersnotby how manyanimalnight and daydevastations, how manyanimalseven ifdid killthat to be what kind of?
她恨,她恨自己是个懦夫,要是当初她把自己看到的说出来,最后一个女孩儿说不定就不会失踪,自己的姐妹们就不会被那几个禽兽日以继夜的摧残,就算自己杀了那几个禽兽又能怎么样?Sisters'body and mindcannotlikeformersuch, the missinggirlnot come back again, shehates, shehates herself, butshewill not goto settlelikeHuang Quan, shemustgo on living, shemustdefendsidethesegirls, shemustthinkthemto marry, gives birth, obtainsoneselfhappiness, she, has protected.
姐妹们的身心不会再如从前那样,失踪的女孩儿也不会再回来,她恨,她恨自己,可她不会像黄泉那样去自我了结,她要活下去,她要守在那些女孩儿身边,她要看着她们结婚,生子,获得自己的幸福,她,将会一直守护。Chen Yerecountedon and on,Huang Quancalmlylistens attentively, underthisbonfire, twopeopleby the flameillumination of bonfiregraduallyelongatesextendsfar, but the hearts of twopeopleactually the fire of high-piled firewoodunderthisnighttime skyclose up.陈叶娓娓述说,黄泉静静地倾听,在这篝火下,两个人被篝火的火光照射的逐渐拉长伸远,可是两个人的心却在这夜空下的火堆边靠拢。Hideswatchesall theseinMiao Miao of distant place, afterhedetermined the Huang Quanpistolturned into the scrap iron, hisdisappointedround tripwalks, thisishissecondslip.
躲在远处的喵喵将这一切看在眼里,当他确定黄泉的手枪已经变成废铁之后,他失望的往回走去,这是他第二次失手。In the tentis quietly, Zhang Xiaoqiangtheyhave rested, Miao Miaocarefulcrawlingtoownsmallbedon, will put out a handto packcloth sack of bulletto hugin the bosom, gentlyhas had a yawn, has rested, indreamhecankillinnumerablezombiewith the innumerablebullets.
帐篷里悄无声息,张小强他们都睡了,喵喵小心的爬到自己的小床上,伸手将装满子弹的布袋子抱在怀里,轻轻地打了一个哈欠,睡了过去,在梦里他能用无数的子弹去杀无数的丧尸。Zhang Xiaoqiang in sleepsits upfiercely, inhoodsilentsilent, severalwomenhave slept soundlywithMiao Miao, outsidebonfirewas givenfirewoodsobviously, the flame of flamingcombustionwhistlingmakes noise, the orangeflame that the midnightwindtearsshinesby the opens the mouth of hoodin the tent, under the faintlybrilliantray, Zhang Xiaoqiangplaces the water surface in makeshift bed on the groundnearbydrinking glassto swingslightlyroundslike the annual ringsamewave.
睡梦中的张小强猛地坐起,敞篷内悄寂无声,几个女人和喵喵都已经睡熟,外面的篝火显然被人给加过了柴禾,熊熊燃烧的火焰被半夜的风撕扯的呼呼作响,橘黄色的火光透过敞篷的开口照射在帐篷里,隐隐灼灼的光芒下,张小强放在地铺边上的水杯里的水面微微荡着一轮轮如年轮一样的水波。Zhang Xiaoqiangliftedto be stood the groundto wear the shoesbycurlingfiercely, thenhevarioustypes of weaponryon the body, was the clothingmustmomentarilyput on the iron rule of open countrycamping, the weaponmustplace the tentacleto be possibleandplace. Thiscanmaximum limitenhance the time of fight-flight reaction, like the presentthis.张小强猛地掀开了被卷站到了地上穿上鞋子,接着他将各种武器装备在身上,在野外露营的铁则就是衣物要随时穿好,武器要放在触手可及的地方。这样就能最大限度提高应急反应的时间,就像现在这样。Zhang Xiaoqianghas not awakenedotherwomen, hecannotdetermine that midnighthas the thingto movetohere, Zhang Xiaoqiangdoes not know, whenhesets out, Yuan Yihas opened the eye, whenhehangs up the equipmenttohimself, Yuan Yiis gazing athiminthatdarkcorner.张小强没有叫醒其他女人,他不敢确定半夜来是不是真的有东西向这边移动,张小强不知道,在他起身的时候,袁意就睁开了眼睛,当他给自己挂上装备的时候,袁意就在那黑暗的角落里注视着他。Whenhesteps forward the tent, Yuan Yionbelowunder the bed, has placed the military uniform of headto vibrateslightly, innot the vitality/angry, Yuan Yiwears the military uniformquietly, as ifinherposition, thatthickdarknesshas not had an influencetoher, the next moment, Yuan Yitakes the bladeshieldto pursueinZhang Xiaoqiangbehindto runtooutside.
当他跨出帐篷的时候,袁意就下到了床下,放在床头的军装微微抖动,在悄无生气间,袁意就穿好军装,似乎在她所处的位置,那浓浓的黑暗并未对她造成一点影响,下一刻,袁意就提上刀盾追在张小强身后向外面跑去。
The Yuan Yispeedis quick, to/clashesfrom the tentinnermostcorner, almostplunders, because all her attentionplace the body of Zhang Xiaoqiang, whento/clashesoutwardhas not notedZhang Xiaoqiangto place the groundthatonlyto pack the water the metalcup.袁意的速度很快,从帐篷最里边的角落里冲出来,几乎是一掠而过,因为她所有的注意力都放在张小强的身上,在往外冲的时候并没有注意到张小强放在地上的那只装满水的金属杯。
The metalcupisZhang Xiaoqiangplacesnear the makeshift bed on the ground, hismidnighttimesometimesmeets the mouthto do, thisishetoprovide against contingenciesto prepare, right foot of this momentYuan Yistraightfallstowardthatsmallrim, muststep onthatdrinking glassshortlyturns.
金属杯是张小强放在地铺边上的,他半夜的时候有时会口干,这是他为以防万一而准备,此刻袁意的右脚直直的往那小小的杯口落去,眼看就要将那水杯踩翻。Puts onsmall feetgently of small sizemountainous regioncombatshoesin the side of rim, then„whiz”, Yuan Yiplunderedoutside the tent, clear water that only theninthatsmallmetalcupwas only filled withshook the innumerablewaves, thatcupitselfdid not haveanytremor.
穿着小号山地作战鞋的小脚轻轻地点在在杯口的侧边,接着“嗖”地一声,袁意掠到了帐篷外面,只有那只小小金属杯中盛满的清水晃起无数的水波,那杯子本身却没有任何颤动。
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