Chapter 32 enlightens 第32章开导 This matter instructed by Chief Wang, only then the leader in police authorities interior and school knows the inside story, has not created the propaganda outward. Therefore on the Songjiang City media, does not have the news. 这件事情在王局长的授意下,只有警局内部和学校的领导知道内情,对外并没有作宣传。所以在松江市的媒体上,没有一点儿的消息。 However the Yang Ming's heart is actually very heavy, this is murder Ah! and usual fighting has the essential difference! Person who although in some sense, Yang Ming kills is unpardonably wicked and indeed this person of killing, if not kill him, he has not been possible to do many dishonorable matter! 但是杨明的心却是很沉重的,这可是杀人啊！和平时的打架斗殴有着本质上的区别！虽然在某种意义上来讲,杨明杀的人是十恶不赦而且的确该杀的人,如果不杀他,那他还不一定会干出多少伤天害理的事儿！ Enforces justice on behalf of Heaven, this is how laughable a few words! Yang Ming thinks that is not the cold blood person, but is not the chivalrous person! Hugs to hit does not put down actually, punishes the wicked to eliminate the deceitful this matter to leave the police to do! 替天行道,这是多么可笑的一句话！杨明自认为不是冷血的人,但是也不是大侠！抱打不平倒是可以,惩恶除奸这种事儿还是留给警察来做吧！ Although in the police authorities, he can a moment ago, for own purely calmly and police defend, the air/Qi calmed down said idly one were the justifiable defense, but now, of Yang Ming heart of hearts quickly has seized his entire body scared! 虽然刚才在警局,他可以为了自己的清白镇定地和警察辩护,气定神闲的说自己是正当防卫,而现在,杨明内心深处的那种恐慌迅速的占领了他的整个身体！ Yang Ming thought that own two legs seemed have filled the lead same heaviness, radical not being able to start to walk step. 杨明觉得自己的两条腿好似灌了铅一样的沉重,根本迈不开步子。 „Yang Ming, you how?” Zhao Ying that comes out together looks at the Yang Ming somewhat pale complexion, asking of worry. “杨明,你怎么了？”一起出来的赵莹看着杨明有些苍白的脸色,担心的问道。 „Ah? I...... Was all right......” Yang Ming to look at Zhao Ying to be the same, the forced smile said. The person who has not experienced personally, never knows that feeling of authority, looks like in Zhao Ying and School Head Li, Yang Ming has done a good matter, although killed people, what however kills is an unpardonably wicked big evil person! Like usually watches the movie, the police have killed the criminal, in the eyes of audience that is natural, nobody will sympathize with that criminal, instead thinks that he deserves to be damned! “啊？我……没事儿……”杨明看了赵莹一样,苦笑道。没有亲身经历的人,永远不知道当局者的感受,在赵莹和李校长看来,杨明只是做了一件好事儿,虽然杀了人,但是杀的是一个十恶不赦的大恶人！就像平时看电影一样,警察击毙了罪犯,在观众的眼中那是理所当然的,没有人会去同情那个罪犯,反而认为他死有余辜！ Yang Ming is not police, is not the murder such as the scoundrel of hemp, he is only a student, is impossible to have that good psychological quality. He closes the eye now, at present is Ji Shuisheng that unceasingly braves the blood blister from the nose, pale and fierce face. 杨明不是警察,也不是杀人如麻的歹徒,他只是个学生,不可能有那么好的心理素质。他现在一闭上眼睛,眼前就是姬水生那张不断从鼻子里冒着血泡,惨白而狰狞的脸。 „Yang Ming, you and other!” A sound passed on, originally is Chen Fei: „Yang Ming, you wait a while first, some of my also matters and you said that School Head Li and Teacher Zhao, you go back first, a while I will deliver Yang Ming to go back!” “杨明,你等一下！”身后的一个声音传了过来,原来是陈飞:“杨明,你先等一会儿,我还有事情和你说,李校长、赵老师,你们先回去吧,一会儿我会送杨明回去的！” „Good, Captain Chen, since you have the matter, I and Little Zhao first returned to the school, you also know that I worked am very busy, could not leave the person, but you may probably return in full to owner Ah! School Head Li to say with a smile my student”. “那好吧,陈队长,既然你还有事情,那我和小赵就先回学校了,你也知道我工作很忙,离不开人,不过你可要把我的学生完璧归赵啊！”李校长笑道。 Returns in full to owner? Zhao Ying at heart one tight, oneself surnamed Zhao, did the principal see what? These days being together, she and Yang Ming's related early have gone beyond teachers'and students' relations, was the sister and brother? Although one are bigger than such several years old Yang Ming, but is Yang Ming is protecting itself each time, a oneself instead likely younger sister resembles. Said is the friend, seems more appropriate, but are two people's relations merely the friends? Zhao Ying does not make clear. But she heard School Head Li to speak these words, had an indescribable feeling at heart. 完璧归赵？赵莹的心里一紧,自己姓赵,难道校长看出点儿什么了么？这些天的相处,她和杨明的关系早已经超越了师生的关系,是姐弟？自己虽然比杨明大那么几岁,但是每次都是杨明保护着自己,自己反而像个妹妹似的。说是朋友,似乎更贴切一些,但是两个人的关系仅仅是朋友么？赵莹也搞不清楚。可她听到李校长说了这句话,心里就是有一种难以言喻的感觉。 When Zhao Ying sees School Head Li that calm facial expression, knows one were wants. 当赵莹看到李校长那淡定的神情,知道自己是想多了。 „School Head Li, you felt relieved that you and Chief Wang are the old schoolmates, how if I your student, Chief Wang opening Ah! Chen Fei said with a smile my bone”. “李校长,您就放心吧,您和王局是老同学,我要是把您的学生怎么样了,王局还不把我的骨头给拆了啊！”陈飞笑道。 On after School Head Li and Zhao Ying the car(riage) of school, Chen Fei has patted the Yang Ming's shoulder: „Young fellow, is not very at heart happy, comes, we chat.” 李校长和赵莹上了学校的车以后,陈飞才拍了拍杨明的肩膀:“小伙子,心里很不痛快吧,过来,咱们聊聊。” „I......” Yang Ming do not know how Chen Fei saw own thoughts, in the police authorities, own performance may a moment ago continuously very calm Ah! “我……”杨明不知道陈飞怎么看出了自己的心思,刚才在警局的时候,自己的表现可一直很镇静啊！ „He He, does not have anything to lose face, come, we pass to sit!” Chen Fei points at a bench in police station yard to say. “呵呵,没什么丢人的,来,咱们过去坐！”陈飞指着警察局大院里的一张长椅说道。 Yang Ming looked at Chen Fei one, nodded, followed silently in him. Right, Yang Ming indeed also very much wants to find a person to pour out now, a moment ago, he wants to tell Zhao Ying his mood, but he has not said finally, on the one hand is feared that Zhao Ying was worried for oneself, main is actually, staying out Zhao Ying forever will not understand Yang Ming this fear the mood. 杨明看了陈飞一眼,点了点头,默默地跟在了他的身后。没错,杨明现在的确也很想找个人来倾诉,刚才,他就想把自己的心情告诉赵莹,但他最终还是没有说出口,一方面是怕赵莹替自己担心,最主要的却是,置身事外的赵莹永远也不会理解杨明这种后怕的心情。 „Young fellow, what kind, is afraid very much?” Chen Fei by the bench, lit a cigarette, has given Yang Ming one. “小伙子,怎么样,是不是很害怕？”陈飞靠在长椅上,点燃了一根香烟,又递给了杨明一根。 Yang Ming does not know why Chen Fei thinks he also smokes, but honestly immodestly receives, the ignition, deeply has attracted one, then said slowly: „Starts feared very much that now was much better.” Yang Ming does not want to make him think of as worthless itself. 杨明不知道陈飞为什么会认为他也吸烟,不过还是老实不客气地接了过来,点燃,深吸了一口,然后才缓缓地说道:“开始的时候很怕,现在已经好多了。”杨明不想让他看扁自己。 „Oh? he he, you have prospects very much, said does not fear you to laugh, remembers that I just started the work from the police academy graduation, when carried out the task after first time shotted dead the scoundrel, I have spat one fully! Moreover one week in the fear, in the evening also has the nightmare!” Chen Fei said while has patted the Yang Ming's shoulder. “哦？呵呵,你很有出息么,说出来不怕你笑话,记得我刚从警校毕业参加工作,执行任务时第一次开枪击毙了歹徒之后,我整整吐了一宿！而且一个星期都在后怕,晚上还做噩梦！”陈飞边说边拍了拍杨明的肩膀。 „Captain Chen...... I......” Yang Ming hear Chen Fei am police, still so, finally again could not hold in constraining in heart: „I am quite afraid! That night picture, flashed in my mind, although I controlled myself not to go to think, but these pictures cannot help but appeared, looked like carves is the same in my brain!” “陈队长……我……”杨明听到陈飞身为警察,也依然如此,终于再也憋不住心中的压抑了:“我好害怕！那天晚上的画面,不停的在我脑海中闪现,虽然我控制自己不去想,但那些画面却还是不由自主地出现,就像是刻在我的脑子里一样！” After Chen Fei hear, laughs: „Young fellow, you were good, unexpectedly endured patiently such long time, at least you have not shown one's ignorance in the police authorities, otherwise the image of your this big hero, but must be ridiculed! You do not need to think disgraced, anyone, the first murder time would this feeling. However you remember, the person who you kill is an unprincipled person, therefore you do not need any psychological burden, do not think that on the conscience cannot pass! You think, Ji Shuisheng such person, if not except that as soon as possible, will bring the big harm to the society?” 陈飞听后哈哈一笑:“小伙子,你已经不错了,居然忍耐了这么长的时间,至少你在警局的时候并没有露怯,不然你这大英雄的形象,可就要被嘲笑了！你也不用觉得丢人,无论是谁,第一次杀人的时候总会有这种感觉的。但是你记住,你杀的人是坏人,所以你根本就不必有什么心理负担,也不要觉得良心上面过不去！你想想,姬水生这样的人,如果不尽早除去,对社会将带来多大的危害呢？” „But...... Captain Chen...... Although that said that but these matter police do are not better, if I can choose, I rather let off that Ji Shuisheng!” Yang Ming shakes the head to say. “可是……陈队长……虽然话是这么说,但是这些事情警察去做不是更好么,如果我能够选择,我宁愿放过那个姬水生！”杨明摇头道。 „Young fellow, your this idea is not right! The man real man, did has done, how can regret! Looking from an angle of police, this matter indeed should be we are done, but you change an angle to think, if you chose to flinch on that day, then Ji Shuisheng will continue to do evil . Moreover the object who he commits a crime possibly is your friend, schoolmate and teacher, even the family member! Once your person were injured, you will also feel the regret?” Chen Fei continues to say. “小伙子,你这种想法就不对了！男子汉大丈夫,做了就是做了,怎么能后悔呢！从一名警察的角度看,这种事情的确应该是我们做的,但是你换个角度想想,如果那天你选择退缩了,那么姬水生就会继续作恶,而且他作案的对象就可能是你的朋友、同学、老师、甚至家人！一旦你身边的人受到了伤害,你还会觉得后悔么？”陈飞继续说道。 Is Ah! Yang Ming nodded, if flinched, then Ji Shuisheng will be more rampant, once makes him continue to commit a crime in Songjiang, the consequence is really inconceivable! If own family member or were Zhao Ying and Chen Mengyan has run into him, that Yang Ming really died cannot apologize! 是啊！杨明点了点头,如果自己退缩了,那么姬水生就会更加嚣张,一旦让他在松江继续作案,后果真是不堪设想！假如自己的家人或者是赵莹、陈梦妍遇到了他,那杨明真是死都不能谢罪了！ Thinks of here, Yang Ming suddenly sees the light, the corners of the mouth also had a smiling face: „Thank you, Captain Chen! I thought through!” 想到这里,杨明豁然开朗起来,嘴角也有了一丝笑容:“谢谢您,陈队长！我想通了！” „Yes, has thought through well, I do not encourage you to kill people, but is the hope, when some people need to help, you can stand bravely!” Chen Fei pinched out the cigarette in hand to say to Yang Ming: „Young fellow, you is a student, smoke thing occasionally attract two, are many have injured the body!” “是啊,想通了就好,我并不是鼓励你去杀人,而是希望,当有人需要帮助的时候,你能勇敢的站出来！”陈飞掐灭了手中的香烟对杨明说道:“小伙子,你还是个学生,烟这东西偶尔吸两支可以,多了就伤身体了！” „Knew, Captain Chen! Thank you!” Yang Ming sincere nod. “知道了,陈队长！谢谢您！”杨明真诚的点了点头。 „Walks, I deliver you to go back, in the evening goes home to rest to be good to think, tomorrow relaxed goes to school!” Chen Fei stands up, walks like a police vehicle. “走吧,我送你回去,晚上回家睡个好觉,明天轻轻松松的上学去！”陈飞站起身来,像一辆警车走去。