Chapter 588 real thing 第588章真物 Works as. 啪当。 Bumps into the gate gently, isolates the picture in inside. 轻轻碰上门,将画面隔绝在里面。 Katou Yusuke deeply inspires, making the ice-cold air current enter the nasal cavity deep place. 加藤悠介深吸一口气,让冰冷的气流进入鼻腔深处。 The lonely outside does not see the person's shadow, empty adds the chill in the air, but he actually thinks little slightly. 冷清的室外不见人影,空荡荡的更添寒意,但他却丝毫不以为意。 From started a moment ago, his blood flow speed then rises suddenly, in within the body dryness and heat. 从刚才开始,他的血流速度便急剧升高,体内一片燥热。 Cold night in strikes that side the wind sound/rumor and station of window bubbling like a caldron sounds of people, like in another end of sky. 寒夜里敲打窗户的风声、车站那边的鼎沸人声,如同远在天空的另一端。 He is making the deep breath constantly repeatedly, other sounds all cannot pass on the ear. 他一味地反复做着深呼吸,其余声音皆传不进耳朵。 The body is heavy seems not itself. 身体沉重得仿佛不属于自己。 In the thirsty mouth becomes mounts dá dá. 干渴的嘴巴里面变得黏哒哒的。 He wishes one could to escape to go home immediately, where also or runs to be stewed to the gills. Oneself will send into exile in the pitch-dark night deep place, for the mood of escaping the reality and being at a loss. 他恨不得想要立刻逃回家,又或者跑去什么地方大醉一场。将自己放逐在伸手不见五指的黑夜深处,借以逃避现实和惘然若失的心情。 However, the situation became different...... 但是,情况变得不同了…… Thinks of these when he wallows in degeneration still accompanies in person, he is unable in disappointing their intention situation indulges himself again. 一想到那些在他自甘堕落时依然陪伴在身边的人,他就无法在辜负她们心意的情况下再放纵自己。 Katou Yusuke extends the hand that shivers, puts out the cell phone from the pocket. 加藤悠介伸出颤抖的手,从口袋里拿出手机。 Becoming by the hand that the cold wind assails ice-cold. 饱受寒风吹袭的手变得冰冷。 " Benefit " 「惠」 " Eriri " 「英梨梨」 " Utaha-senpai " 「诗羽学姐」 " Small good is " 「小佳乃」 " Gaoban alizarin red " 「高坂茜」 ...... …… In changes in many contact person lists unknowingly, he dialed slightly good is number. 在不知不觉变多的联络人名单里,他拨通了小佳乃的号码。 Honk ~ 嘟~ After short busy signal, the litigant gentle voice of conveys from the receiver. 短暂的忙音过后,当事人温温柔柔的声音从听筒中传来。 „Katou-kun?” “加藤君？” Katou Yusuke reorganized a mood, said with the relaxed tone as far as possible: „...... The evening is good, the moonlight is very beautiful.” 加藤悠介整理了一下心情,尽量用轻松的口吻说道:“……晚上好,月色很美呢。” Ka, telephone that hair had/left some weak knocking. 咔嗒,电话那头发出了某种微弱的敲击声。 The slow racket, the female gives the response with the light voice. 慢一拍的,女子用轻一些的嗓音给出回应。 „Un, wind also gentle ~” “嗯,风也温柔~” „You in busy?” “你在忙吗？” „Fortunately, I reorganize the material at home.” “还好,我在家里整理资料。” „Reorganizes the material......?” “整理资料……？” „Ehm, I looked at several outsourcing companies, attained some cases and offers of reference from their side, is thinking after reorganized, takes to you looks.” “嗯啊,我看了几家外包公司,从他们那边拿到了一些参考的案子和报价,想着等整理好以后就拿给你看。” „Late, leaving was too laborious.” “这么晚了,别太辛苦。” „Fortunately, has nothing laboriously ~” “还好啦,也没什么辛苦的~” The lotus sees good is child said: „I after going home to take a comfortable bath also to have the dinner, started to work. When this intensity with before prepared a lesson compares to the incoming messenger to be many.” 莲见佳乃子笑着说:“我是在回家泡了一个舒服的澡并且吃过晚饭之后,才开始工作的。这点强度跟以前备课时比起来差多了。” Listens to jumping for joy in opposite party words, Katou Yusuke not to sweep her being popular, hit the spirit to say downward. 听出对方话里的雀跃,加藤悠介也不想扫她的兴,强打着精神往下说。 „This! What did you eat in the evening?” “这样啊！那你晚上吃了什么？” „Salad and curried rice, in addition has the miso. When the previous everyone gets together the small evening said that you like this very much, I consulted the skill to her, next time will boil to you drinks ~” “沙拉和咖喱饭,另外还有味噌汤。上次大家聚会时小夕说你很喜欢这个,我就向她请教了技巧,下次煮给你喝吧~” „...... The small evening she has in the special school has studied, the difficulty will be very perhaps high.” “……小夕她有在专门的学校学习过,难度也许会很高。” „, You do not look down on one to contribute money woman, but long-term prepare food?” “唔,你是不是太小瞧一个为了攒钱而长期自己做饭的女人了呢？” „No matter, I also the ingredients that likes slightly good is to make personally.” “没有的事,我也很喜欢小佳乃亲手做的料理。” Perhaps is he develops also well, the lotus sees good is child giggle is smiling very much happily. 也许是他演得还不错,莲见佳乃子很是开心地咯咯笑着。 „When right, I and Teacher Maria window-shopped yesterday sees a winter clothing. Because thought that was very suitable you to buy, I later with or you took to you.” “对了,我和玛丽亚老师昨天逛街时看到一身冬装。因为觉得很适合你就买下来了,我之后拿给你或者等你有空时来拿吧。” „Un, good. Sorry, has not given you to prepare the Christmas present.” “嗯,好。抱歉,没给你准备圣诞礼物。” „All right, you had this intention I to be very happy, said again you must attend the bow say/way competition, good work.” “没事的,你有这份心意我已经很开心了,再说你还要参加弓道比赛,辛苦了。” „Thanks......” “谢谢……” „............” “…………” Suddenly, their dialogues stopped. 忽然之间,他们的对话停了下来。 „...... Katou-kun?” “……加藤君？” The lotus sees good is child asked: „You how?” 莲见佳乃子问:“你怎么了？” „No, anything does not have.” “不,什么也没有。” „Lies.” “说谎。” A few words right in the face made the Katou Yusuke heart one startled, was silent. 劈头盖脸的一句话令加藤悠介不禁心头一惊,沉默下来。 ‚Until also concealed obviously a moment ago well......’ ‘明明直到刚才还掩饰得不错……’ He so thought, simultaneously responds. 他如此心想,同时做出回应。 „......, I just attended the competition to be a little tired.” “……嗯,我只是刚参加完比赛有点累。” „Is this......?” “是这样吗……？” The lotus sees good is child asked halfly believing and half doubting: „What matter do you telephone to have?” 莲见佳乃子将信将疑地问:“那你打电话来是有什么事吗？” After short silence, Katou Yusuke replied her with the open tone as far as possible. 短暂的沉默过后,加藤悠介尽可能用开朗的语气回答她。 „It‘s nothing, but has a look at you to make anything, other did not have. In brief matter of work do not boil is too late, remembers that earlier rests.” “没什么,只是看看你在做什么,其他就没有了。总之工作的事情别熬太晚,记得早点休息。” „Un ~ I knew, you are also.” “嗯~我知道了,那你也是。” The lotus saw good is child, said low voice: „...... Also has, I have to think you.” 莲见佳乃子顿了顿,小声说:“……还有,我也有想你。” ...... …… Two people have said good night mutually, then ended the telephone conversation. 两人互相道过晚安,然后结束通话。 Katou Yusuke looks at the cell phone screen, suddenly silent speechless. 加藤悠介看着手机荧幕,一时间静默无言。 He wants to look slightly good is chats, since knew that opposite party in busy, he is unable to run to disturb selfishly. 他本想去找小佳乃聊天,不过既然得知对方在忙,他也无法自私地跑去打扰。 Let alone, takes to person own negativity arbitrarily, as if is not quite appropriate. 更何况,擅自将自己的负面情绪带给身边的人,似乎也不太妥当。 In the open area before apartment is fluttering lonelily some. 公寓前的空地上飘荡着些许寂寥。 Raised the head to look up to unknowingly. 不经意间抬头仰望。 Floats just like glazed frost moon in the remote sky. 宛如薄冰般的月亮漂浮在遥远的天空。 Basically. 基本上。 Yesterday, today and tomorrow will be the day after tomorrow, the inevitab tragedy time performed in the world. 不论是昨天、今天、明天甚至是后天,无可奈何的悲剧时刻都在世上上演。 It is a pity that the indicator of clock not for people pauses sadly. 遗憾的是,时钟的指针并不会为了人们的哀伤而停步。 Even after going home, washes hair to take a bath, eats the food the tasteless meal, the nest is entering in the quilt to weep bitterly again, night that pass was hard to go to sleep, the world still revolved as usual. 即使回家后洗头洗澡,吃着食之无味的饭菜,窝进被子里再一次痛哭,度过难以入眠的夜晚,世界依然照常运转。 Therefore people continue to wash the face and clean the teeth, launch new every day. 所以人们继续洗脸、刷牙,展开新的每一天。 He also such. 他也这么挺过来了。 No one can share with him. 没人能跟他共享。 But in fact- 可事实上- Since sees since Sayu that moment, in the heart of Katou Yusuke raised a tsunami. He calmly stands there, has not made anybody know. 自从见到沙优的那一刻起,加藤悠介的心中就掀起了一场海啸。他静静地站在那里,没有让任何人知道。 No matter but how to show off power to conceal again, the heart deep place still has the wound of main road to split, flows out the bright red blood from there. 可不管再怎么逞强掩饰,内心深处依然有大道的伤口裂开,从那里汩汩流出鲜红的血液。 It looks like rare book of a preserved in memory. 就像是一本保存于记忆里的孤本。 His innermost feelings start to vacillate, whether should continue to read, sees the result of story. 他的内心开始动摇,是否该继续读下去,看到故事的结局。 Especially saw that the opposite party pours down the expression that wants to sob, he then thought that the chest was closely seized, not being able to bear want to put aside the eyes, actually wants to approach. 尤其是见到对方泫然欲泣的表情,他便觉得胸口被紧紧揪住,忍不住想移开双眼,却又想要靠近。 After all- 毕竟- That was he once regarded, if the girl of life. 那是他曾经视若生命的女孩。 However, he is unable to become the rock wave schoolmate who Sayu likes eventually. 然而,他终究无法成为沙优喜欢的岩波同学。 In the final analysis. 归根究底。 That is the out-and-out false thing, rather than he tracks down the real thing that earnestly seeks. 那不过是不折不扣的伪物,而非他所追寻渴求的真物。 Had anything to twist, moreover was twisted by him personally. This is the result that he himself chooses, has to digest that bitter fruit alone. 有什么东西扭曲了,而且是被他亲手扭曲的。这是他自己选择的结果,只得独自消化那份苦果。 The present Sayu all are good, does not need again is a nihility passing worries. 现在的沙优一切都好,不需要再为一段虚无的过往而烦恼。 Even if that is to his important real thing. 哪怕那是对他至关重要的真物。 Therefore. 所以。 His anything has not forgotten, but something only suit collect. 他什么也没忘,可有些事只适合收藏。 Cannot say, is unthinkable, actually unable to forget. 不能说,不能想,却也不能忘。 Thinks of here, Katou Yusuke heavy puts out the one breath. 想到这里,加藤悠介沉沉地吐出一口气。 Has anything to engage in factional strife the tumbling in his chest, area the stomach is also having some convulsion ache, making his facial features turn white. 有什么东西在他的胸口倾轧翻滚,连带着胃部一带也产生某种痉挛般的疼痛,让他的面容不禁发白。 At this time, girl's voice was called him from the rear area suddenly. 这时,女孩子的声音忽然从后方叫了他。 „...... Association president?” “……会长？” Speech at the same time, the litigant is dá dá ran. 说话的同时,当事人已是啪哒啪哒地跑了上来。 Katou Yusuke looks askance to look. 加藤悠介侧目望去。 Under the light gray casual coat non-stop fluttering, reveals the same color loose trousers, on the foot wears pair of furry snowy area boots, looks very warm. 浅灰色的休闲外套不停翻飞,露出底下的同色宽松长裤,脚上穿着一双毛茸茸的雪地靴,看着十分温暖。 Needless saying that the come person is the new strip fragrance. 不消说,来的人是新条香。 „Good evening, Association president ~ the thing do I prepare......?” “晚上好呀,会长~东西我都准备好……呃？” Sees on his face the residual bitterness and astringency, the words that the young girl told only half stops suddenly, suddenly settled down there, wondered not to dare to approach. 看到他脸上残留的苦涩,少女说到一半的话戛然而止,一时间驻足在那里,纳闷着没敢靠近。 „......” “……” Katou Yusuke grips the clothes of tight abdomen, the vision focus is taking in her hands on paper bag, is panting for breath asking: „What...... in has?” 加藤悠介攥紧腹部的衣服,目光聚焦在她手中提着的纸袋上面,喘息着问道:“……里面都有什么？” „Un, one set of new pajamas and disposable underwears and shampoo gel, toothbrush toothpaste and towel bath towel . Moreover the cleanser I also took one newly...... is almost this.” “嗯,有一套新的睡衣和一次性内衣、洗发水沐浴露、牙刷牙膏、毛巾浴巾,另外洗面奶我也拿了一支新的……差不多就是这样吧。” „...... Knew, you go. If she has what need, you look after as far as possible.” “……知道了,你去吧。如果她有什么需要,你尽量照顾一下。” „Un ~ I understood.” “嗯~我明白了。” The new strip fragrance nods to comply happily, but does not have first to act, but somewhat worried is looking at him. 新条香痛快地点头答应,不过却没有第一时间行动,而是有些担忧地望着他。 „Words said that the association president you are all right? Your complexion seems like misses, where has is not uncomfortable?” “话说会长你没事吗？你的脸色看起来好差啊,是有哪里不舒服吗？” „It‘s nothing, does you should the matter of doing.” “没什么,去做你该做的事。” The Katou Yusuke voice is low and deep, the complexion is pale. 加藤悠介的嗓音低沉,脸色铁青。 The new strip fragrance hesitated, also asked: „Association president you? Where then does the plan go to?” 新条香迟疑了下,又问:“那会长你呢？接下来打算去哪里？” „...... I go home, have the words of anything to remember to tell me, this.” “……我回家,有什么事的话记得告诉我,就这样。” Katou Yusuke beckons with the hand saying that then drags the heavy body, the preparation to leave. 加藤悠介摆了摆手说道,而后便拖着沉重的身体,准备离开。 „Under, you first wait, Association president.” “啊,你先等下啦,会长。” The new strip fragrant half step runs to block before him. 新条香快步跑上来拦在他面前。 „Was said that outside is still snowing, moreover even the cable car suspended shipment, should you not plan on such walk home??” “是说外面还在下雪耶,而且连电车都停运了,你该不会打算就这样走回家吧？？” Katou Yusuke did not speak, waits for her as follows. 加藤悠介不语,等待她的下文。 „Although this is only my suggestion, but the association president you lives tonight, Room 202 " is also emptying in any case " .” “虽然这只是我的建议,不过会长你今晚还是住下来吧,反正「202室」也还空着。” , The new strip fragrance supplemented one: „Moreover, if that girl has any sudden outbreak, I also inform the association president well you.” 顿了顿,新条香又补充一句:“况且,万一要是那个女孩子有什么突发状况的话,我也好通知会长你。” „......” “……” Katou Yusuke looked at the eye rear apartment, is thinking deeply about asking: „Small evening her person......” 加藤悠介看了眼后方的公寓,思索着问道:“小夕她人呢……” „The child rested long time ago, after all she is not good at staying up late very much.” “那孩子早早就睡了,毕竟她很不擅长熬夜呢。” New strip fragrance said fishes out a key from the pocket, hands over in his hand. 新条香边说边从口袋里摸出一把钥匙,交到他手中。 „While convenient, this is " 202 " the key, provided against contingencies I to take. The association president do not stand suffer to freeze here, quickly comes up to take a hot bath is quite comfortable ~” “顺带,这是「202」的钥匙,以防万一我就拿下来了。会长你别站在这里挨冻了,赶快上去泡个热水澡会比较舒服喔~” „, I first have a look at that female student. Waits to see ~” “那么,我先去看看那个女生。等下见啦~” A words saying ended, she then slightly ran speedily is going toward " Room 101 " . 话一说完,她便一溜烟小跑着往「101室」而去。 ...... …… Because of this, Katou Yusuke took the key to arrive at the rooms in two buildings. 因为这样,加藤悠介还是拿着钥匙来到了二楼的房间。 Is escaped by the shoes that the melted snow gets wet in the entrance. 将被雪水沾湿的鞋子脱在门口。 Started to walk such as fills the lead both legs to enter the living room. 迈开如灌了铅似的双腿走进起居室。 The lamp does not start, he sits down on the floor. 灯也不开,他就这么在地板上坐下。 In the slightly lonely room, the pattern basically differs not much with other rooms. 略显冷清的屋子内,格局基本上与其他房间相差不多。 The indoor was covered by the silence, only has outside north wind to blow the window click to make noise, the indoor temperature falls very lowly. 室内被寂静所笼罩,唯有外面的北风吹得窗户喀哒作响,室内温度降得很低。 Once is peaceful, the train of thought then such as the vine in deep forest same starts to grow willfully, making him worry about downstairs matter inevitably. 一旦安静下来,思绪便如深林里的藤蔓一样开始恣意生长,让他不可避免地牵挂着楼下的事情。 When he sits here, Sayu she- 在他坐在这里的时候,沙优她- Does she have is crying? 她还有在哭吗？ Does the new strip fragrance have is comforting her? 新条香有在安慰她吗？ Can his just attitude offend somebody? 他刚刚的态度会不会太伤人吗？ Matter that wants to confirm one after another. 想要确认的事情一件接着一件。 Although he is unable to do that actually cannot bear care about the opposite party. 尽管他无法这么做,却还是忍不住去在意对方。 Past events places playback in the mind, along with the indescribable feeling of guilty and grief, is castigating his innermost feelings. 往事一幕幕地在脑海里回放,伴随着难以言喻的罪恶感与悲怆,苛责着他的内心。 The rationality and perception collide mutually, making the internal organs like receiving the cauterization are ordinary. 理性与感性互相碰撞,让内脏有如受到烧灼一般。 The emotion in order to suppress running away, Katou Yusuke struggles is standing up from the ground, decided that taking a bath makes itself calm. 为了抑制住脱缰的情感,加藤悠介挣扎着从地上站起,决定去洗个澡让自己冷静。 Lifts the foot to enter the bathroom, closes the door. 抬脚走进浴室,关上门。 Takes off has become the wet cold clothes, arrives under seed case of lotus flower. 脱下已然变得湿冷的衣服,来到莲蓬头下。 Turns on the faucet. 打开水龙头。 Fixes sprinkles to sprinkle the cold water in the flower of high place immediately. 固定在高处的花洒随即洒下冷水。 Katou Yusuke resists the wall surface both hands, whatever the cold water sprinkles in the top of the head, cold air bone to inter the body. 加藤悠介将双手抵住墙面,任由冷水泼在头顶,寒气入骨。 „...... Wú.” “……唔。” Wells up the throats in sobbing that in front of Sayu restrains with great difficulty again. 在沙优面前好不容易克制住的呜咽再次涌上喉间。 Flows the mouth along the water that the cheeks flow off, the tip of tongue feels strong salt taste immediately. 沿着脸颊流下的水流淌进嘴里,舌尖顿时感受到一股浓烈的咸味。 Even so- 即使如此- He must bring the decision that feeling of guilty as well as rejection that hurts to Sayu, will welcome to tomorrow. 他也必须要带着伤害到沙优的罪恶感以及拒绝的决定,迎向明天。 Even if only then a half step is also good, he must to proceed. 纵然只有一小步也好,他都得要往前走。 If there is bogged down, rather is unfair to these to support him, has saved his girl. 若是一直停滞不前,未免太对不起那些一直支撑着他,拯救过他的女孩子。 He thinks, this definitely is settling that he can achieve. 他想,这肯定就是他能做到的了结。 Until this kind of time, he is unable to face oneself mood. 直到这种时候,他还是无法面对自己的心情。 Raises head to tuck in the hair, gradually changes the hot water to continue to drench on the body. 仰头撩起头发,逐渐变热的水继续淋在身上。 No matter how, he wants to track down that real thing again. 不管再怎么样,他都想要追寻那份真物。 ...... …… Because has not carried the clothing that can change and wash, Katou Yusuke has first to wear a bath towel temporarily. 因为没有携带能够换洗的衣物,加藤悠介只好暂时先围着一条浴巾。 After he goes out of the bathroom, should the jet black room actually turn on a light at this time. 等他走出浴室后,原本应该漆黑一片的房间此时却亮起了灯。 In living room. 起居室里。 New strip fragrance both hands rest one's chin in one's hands kneel to sit before the short table, does not know when comes. 新条香正双手托腮地跪坐在矮桌前,也不知是什么时候来的。 „, Have you washed? Association president.” “啊,你已经洗好了吗？会长。” Sees him to come out, stands up to the convenience naturally, and holds one clothes to walk. 见到他出来,对方便自然而然地站起身,并抱着一套衣服走来。 „Sorry, I came in the false key arbitrarily. I think clothes that the association president should unable to change and wash, this is I buys ahead of time, please put on ~” “抱歉,我擅自用备用钥匙进来了。我想会长应该没有能够换洗的衣服,这是我提前买好的,请穿上吧~” „......” “……” What words had not said, Katou Yusuke lowers the head with the clothes is returning to the bathroom to exchange, then comes to the living room again. 什么话也没说,加藤悠介低头拿着衣服返回浴室换上,然后再次来到起居室。 When he comes back, on the table are many two mugs, is having the curling white clouds to raise from above. 在他回来时,桌上已经多了两个马克杯,正有袅袅白气从上面升起。 „Gives you coffee, Association president.” “给你咖啡,会长。” The new strip fragrance pushes with a smile a cup, „embarrassed, because the small evening she is still sleeping I not to have the means to operate the machine, therefore only soaked the fast thawing, like this Ok?” 新条香笑着将一个杯子推过来,“不好意思,因为小夕她还在睡觉我没办法开机器,所以只泡了速溶的,这样可以吗？” Katou Yusuke nods, puts out a hand to receive the cup, asked: „...... Under how.” 加藤悠介点点头,伸手接过杯子,问道:“……下头怎么样了。” The unusual look of new strip fragrant eyeground flashes, „-” hesitates. 新条香眼底的异色一闪,“嗯-”地沉吟起来。 „About this, I thought that basically does not have the issue ~” “关于这个嘛,我觉得基本上已经没问题了吧~” „Although the female student starts is a little agitated, after seeing the person does not cry immediately.” “尽管那女生开始的时候有点情绪激动,不过在见到人以后立马就不哭了呢。” „I these things give her the time, she also to me said thanking, is quite strong.” “我把那些东西交给她的时候,她还对我说了谢谢,好坚强呀。” She was saying takes up own hot milk, drank one, said calmly: 她说着拿起自己的热牛奶,喝了一口,若无其事道: „, I think that the association president was casual picked a person from the street, has not thought that unexpectedly was previous that female student ei that met in the Chiba prefecture. Frightened me to jump.” “不过啊,我本以为会长是随便从街上捡了一个人,没想到竟然是上次那个在千叶县遇到的女生欸。吓了我一跳。” „......” “……” Katou Yusuke lowers the head to drink own coffee, does not explain. 加藤悠介低头喝着自己的咖啡,不做解释。 Passed the long time, he opens the mouth to express. 过了半晌,他才开口表示。 „......, if your is all right, tomorrow will lead her to look for a security point hotel to stay, until confirming her leaves.” “……如果你这没事,明天就带她去找个安全一点的旅馆住下,直到确认她离开。” ...... …… Thank 【Nobility mark Yuan】 Hitting enjoys. 感谢【爵迹元】的打赏。