Chapter 586 dream and proof 第586章梦与求证 Passed after the long time . 过了半晌以后。 Katou Yusuke moves out of the way the line of sight, responded: „...... Was sorry, I did not understand you to say anything.” 加藤悠介挪开视线,回应道:“……抱歉,我不懂你在说什么。” The Sayu innermost feelings thump, in the foreheads brings losing unclearly, somewhat hangs the low eye pupil cautious, pondered to contemplate a while. 沙优的内心咯噔一下,眉宇间隐然带着失落,有些拘谨地垂低眼眸,就那么沉思冥想了一会儿。 „That...... do you know rock wave schoolmate name?” “那……你知道岩波同学这个名字吗？” „You have what words might as well to speak frankly.” Katou Yusuke said straightforwardly, the vision is looking in the shop aimless. “你有什么话不妨直说。”加藤悠介直截了当地说道,目光漫无目的地望着店内。 Gurgle...... 咕嘟…… Sayu swallowed a saliva, both hands gripped the skirt swayed on tight thigh, raised the head cautiously. 沙优咽了口口水,双手攥紧大腿上的裙摆,小心翼翼地抬起头。 „...... I said suddenly possibly somewhat takes the liberty, but......” “……我突然这么说可能有些冒昧,不过……” She inspires, said in a soft voice: „I seem like, has seen you in the dream......” 她浅浅地吸一口气,轻声说:“我好像,在梦里见过伱……” As the words say, she felt that she as if suddenly becomes transparent, like feather light. 随着话一说出口,她感觉自己仿佛突然变得透明,就像羽毛一样轻。 The youngster maintain total silence, look seem somewhat careless. 少年不发一语,看着像是有些漫不经心。 Sayu is hard to judge anything from that profile, has to continue to tell. 沙优难以从那张侧脸上判断出什么,只好继续讲述。 „The words that under me must deliver perhaps you do not believe, perhaps will also bring the difficulty to you, even I not too clear reason...... but, in my head suddenly are many strange matter.” “我下面要讲的话你也许不相信,说不定也会给你带来困扰,甚至就连我自己也不太明白其中的理由……可是,我的脑袋里突然多出许多奇怪的事情。” „In my dreamland, a male student named rock wave accompanied me to pass the summer of 10 th grade......” “在我的梦境里面,一名叫做岩波的男生陪我度过了高中二年级的夏天……” „He has a black short hair, is very tall, has with your same splendid semblance, was welcome by everyone very much.” “他留着一头黑色的短发,个子很高,有着和你一样的出色外表,很受大家欢迎。” „Then, he changed my life......” “然后,他改变了我的人生……” The girl so makes the prologue, in the pupil is surging the recollection color. 女孩子如此做出开场白,眸子里涌动着回忆的色彩。 Stopped for several seconds, she said slowly downward. 停顿了数秒钟,她缓缓往下说。 „...... Most starts, I do not know him. Although is the class schoolmate, but we have usually not spoken a few words.” “……最开始的时候,我并不认识他。虽然是班里的同学,但我们平时连一句话都没讲过。” „I have not paid attention to him, he has not paid attention to my talent to be right. Be that as it may, because his appearance is good-looking, should also many people pay attention to him.” “我没有注意过他,想必他也没有注意过我这个人才对。话虽如此,因为他的长相俊俏,应该也有很多人关注他。” „In then class had several small groups, I have not been in any. Rather, I at that time is completely a borderline person.” “当时的班上有几个小团体,我没有在任何一个里面。不如说,我那时完全就是一个边缘人物。” „Does not interfere with others, was not interfered. Every day is passing the steady day, like air.” “既不干涉别人,也不受人干涉。每天都过着平稳的日子,就像空气一样。” „Because of family's relations, I am not able to integrate the campus to live, but this matter also has no influence, I can also accept.” “因为家庭的关系,我始终无法融入校园生活,不过这种事也没什么影响,我也能接受。” „ Matter has been very smooth before...... “事情在以前一直都很顺利…… But is such I, because actually rejected one time confession that is in the class the favorite male student, but female student who was liked that male student staring, thus is isloated. 可就是这样的我,却因为有一次拒绝了属于班上红人男生的告白,而被喜欢那个男生的女生给盯上,从而遭到孤立。 Moreover, friend of mine seed because also my relations receive to bully...... ” 不仅如此,我的朋友结子还因为我的关系受到欺负……” Probably remembers not the good matter, in pupil Reamon of young girl a shadow. 像是想起不好的事情,少女的眸子里蒙上一层阴影。 At this time, the service person walked exactly. 这时,服务员恰好走来。 „Disturbed, this is the American coffee of two sites and wipes the tea with the iron, please take your time ~” “打扰了,这是两位点的美式咖啡和抹茶拿铁,请慢用~” Opposite party is saying, while puts in front of the hot drinks two people gracefully, then turns around to leave. 对方一边这么说着,一边优雅地将热饮置于两人面前,而后转身离开。 „......” “……” Was broken mood Sayu both hands to hold the mug, drank one, the facial expression relaxed slightly, did not whisper voluntarily: „Good sweet to drink well......” 被打断情绪的沙优双手捧起马克杯,喝了一口,神情稍稍放松下来,不自觉低语一句:“好甜好好喝……” The Katou Yusuke pupil light rocks, lowers the head to drink the coffee. 加藤悠介的眸光晃动一下,也低下头喝起咖啡。 The talk was still continuing. 谈话仍在继续。 „...... At that time, the rock wave schoolmate he talked to us.” “……就在那时,岩波同学他向我们搭话了。” On the face of young girl appears to wipe disappointed. 少女的脸上浮现出一抹怅然。 Half fondly remember, half are strange. 一半是怀念,一半是古怪。 „That person is very bewildered. The look that not only ignores all difference runs to contact me and seed, but also probably installs to be omniscient, making me confused.” “那个人真的很莫名其妙。不仅不顾全班异样的眼神跑来接触我和结子,还装得自己好像无所不知,让我心烦意乱。” „ Obviously he and we are completely not a kind of person. “明明他和我们完全不是一类人。 He does not need to worry others, can laugh heartily and deliberately create trouble heartily, even if argues occasionally, can still become reconciled quickly. 他不需要顾虑别人,可以尽情欢笑、胡闹,就算偶尔和人发生争执,也很快就能和好。 People like him are impossible to understand, we have thought the mood of ordinary life. ” 他那种人根本不可能理解,我们想过普通生活的心情。” In the tone has one to be depressed and angry. 语气里带着一股郁闷和恼怒。 „Especially that person did not understand that maintains the distance, steps into others' outpost zone arbitrarily, is pest who does not have the politeness.” “特别是那个人根本不懂得跟人保持距离,就这么擅自踏入别人的警戒地带,是个没礼貌的讨厌鬼。” „I so long as each time speaks to him will be burning with anger, moreover he also always handles the matter that some impulsive acts unreasonably, does not care about others' feeling.” “我每次只要跟他讲话就会怒火中烧,而且他还总是做些冲动又乱来的事情,一点也不顾及别人的感受。” „Even if I explicitly expressed must draw a line, finally him by a deprecating appearance, has the matter to be all right runs to ask me to speak.” “就算我明确表示了要划清界限,结果他还是会以一副不以为意的样子,有事没事地跑来找我讲话。” Sayu said. 沙优如此说道。 ...... …… For example, one day. 比如说,有一天。 " Actually I want to become the friend with Schoolmate Ogiwara, Ok? " 「其实我想跟荻原同学成为朋友,可以吗？」 " Why? Contacting us should not have the advantage to be right to you. " 「为什么？接触我们对你应该没有好处才对。」 " This saying to be not right. 「这话不对。 To me here not again compared with you more important matter, therefore you are willing to comply with my request? " 对我来说这里没有再比你更重要的事情了,所以你愿意答应我的请求吗？」 " Anomaly! " 「变态！」 Obviously the friends are not, he really did not have the politeness, moreover ate own lunch impolitely. 明明他们连朋友都不是,他实在太没礼貌了,而且还无礼地吃了自己的便当。 Facing his frivolous attitude, she cannot restrain the acrid tone, becomes quite stubborn. 面对他轻浮的态度,她就是克制不住尖酸的语气,变得相当固执。 After that day, she is maintaining oneself indifference, keeps at a respectful distance to that person. 自那一天之后,她维持着自己的冷淡态度,对那个人敬而远之。 For example, one day. 比如说,有一天。 " Two years 3 classes of Schoolmate Ogiwara, I likes you! You are willing to take associating as the premise, becomes the friend with me? " 「二年三班的荻原同学,我喜欢你！请问你愿意以交往为前提,跟我成为朋友吗？」 Even if wants completely to break off the relations, the opposite party does not fold not flexure to approach as before, even is also in front of school teachers and students blatantly to her confession. 即使想要彻底断绝关系,对方依旧不折不挠地靠近,甚至还当着全校师生的面公然向她告白。 Why her not too clear opposite party must in her, the object who that person can choose obviously too be rigid many. 她不太明白对方为什么要执着于她,明明那个人能够选择的对象实在太多。 However, she does not plan to comply and that's the end. 不过,她也不打算答应就是了。 For example, one day. 比如说,有一天。 " Did you stare by the long-drawn-out moon/month? " 「你被悠月盯上了吗？」 " So should not be anxious, has been all right. " 「别这么紧张,已经没事了。」 " Is...... this? " 「是……这样吗？」 " I said you, is showing this expression, can't to my a little confidence? I said that is all right will certainly be all right. " 「我说你啊,又在露出这种表情了,就不能对我有点信心吗？我说没事就一定会没事的。」 Really cannot comprehend that person. 真搞不懂那个人。 Had stared obviously by the troublesome character, still was so careless. 明明已经被麻烦的人物盯上了,却仍然那么吊儿郎当。 Because does not understand, she so will be agitated. 因为不懂,她才会这么烦躁。 Before never some people used that approach she. 以前从未有人用那种态度对待过她。 Probably attempts the strength that tears down her to support, and makes her rely on him conceitedly. 像是试图撕下她强撑出来的坚强,并自以为是地让她去依赖他。 ...... He does not understand her until now, actually holds what kind of mood to protect the friend. ……他根本不懂她一直以来,究竟是抱着怎样的心情在保护朋友。 Exasperating, was exasperating. 气死人了,气死人了。 Her really most repugnant people like him. 她果然最讨厌他这种人了。 This thinks discarded the exciting emotion to others, urging her heart plop plop to jump. 本以为早就舍弃的对他人的激动情感,促使她的心脏扑通扑通直跳。 For example, one day. 比如说,有一天。 " Is you make these people of soccer society contact the seed? " 「是你让足球社的那些人去接触结子的吗？」 " Is, after all wants to be accepted by a circle, is first set the guidance and model by these position high people, will favor the seed being acknowledged by others. " 「算是吧,毕竟想要被一个圈子接受,由那些地位较高的人来优先做出引导和表率,会更利于结子被其他人承认。」 " ...... Have you from the beginning, thought like this? " 「……你从一开始,就已经这样想了吗？」 " Has depended on you to protect her with it alone, did not think that helps her establish the confidence like, is the environmental enhancement the proper way? " 「与其一直靠你独自保护她,不觉得像这样帮她建立起信心,改善环境才是正途吗？」 " I also have not denied this matter......, but...... " 「我又没有否认这种事情……但是……」 " But this does not have thing that the means achieve from your angles, what therefore can only choose the fight...... you to say is this? " 「但这是以你们的角度没办法做到的事,所以只能选择战斗……你想说的是这样吗？」 Only with a few words, that person steps into the she soft place. 只用一句话,那个人就踏进她内心柔软的地方。 Especially opposite party also each matter said that made her indignant. 尤其对方还每件事都说中了,就更让她气愤。 She thought that the own passing life encountered the total repudiation. 她觉得自己过往的人生遭到了全盘否定。 But same, her innermost feelings also jump for joy somewhere for this reason. 可同样的,她的内心某处也不禁为此而雀跃。 Originally some people noticed. 原来有人注意到了。 Is the opposite party makes her discover, actually she does not like such. 是对方让她发现,其实她并不喜欢这样的自己。 Because father's unfaithful/stamen was hated the powerless feeling of room and black by mother, wants the pain of changing is actually at wit's end, forever was treated as lonely of transparent person. 因为父亲的花心被母亲恨屋及乌的无力感,想要改变却无计可施的痛苦,永远被当作透明人的孤独。 In the day of gloomy no light. 暗淡无光的日子里。 That boy would choosing her steadfastly, stands this side her. 那个男孩子总会坚定不移地选择她,站在她这一边。 Because her vigilance is excessively strong, does not want to rely on others, does not want to know. 因为她的戒心过强,不想依赖别人,不想让人知道。 But, that person seemed like saw her depression from the beginning. 可是,那个人像是从一开始就看出了她的苦闷。 Therefore she so will be anxious, tries to maintain the distance with him, cannot bear care about him. 所以她才会那么焦躁,试图和他保持距离,又忍不住在意他。 Even she is so indifferent about his attitude, moreover ominous does not care about his idea. 就算她对他的态度那么冷漠,而且还凶巴巴的根本不在乎他的想法。 But that conceited male student really carried out oneself commitment. 可那个自以为是的男生真的实现了自己的承诺。 She who not only to has fought single-handedly puts out a hand, but also always accompanies never-ending side her, even must care about own matter compared with her own. 不仅向一直孤军奋战的她伸出了手,还始终不离不弃地陪伴在她身边,甚至比她自己还要在意自己的事。 It looks like insufflates the warm wind of air-conditioned room, harms her chest boiling hot serious. 就像是吹进冷气房的熏风,害她的胸口滚烫得不得了。 When does not know from, she changed to his name. 不知从什么时候起,她对他的称呼变了。 From " rock wave schoolmate " to " Yusuke " . 从「岩波同学」到「悠介」。 Although helpless coordination at opposite party request. 尽管是在对方要求下的无奈配合。 However- 然而- However gradually changes the name way, made her have the closeness arbitrarily. 不过是稍微改变称呼方式,就让她擅自产生了亲近感。 For obviously she was not involved in the unnecessary trouble, until now and matter is indifferent about anybody, is passing the day of coming and going freely. 明明她为了不被卷入不必要的麻烦,一直以来对任何人和事都漠不关心,过着独来独往的日子。 Had the object who wants to trust for the first time. 却第一次有了想要信赖的对象。 She also wants the concerned family ties dense friend. 她也想要有关系亲密的朋友。 Every day everyone amusement, creates a disturbance together, occasionally quarrelled then becomes reconciled. 每天大家一起玩乐,打打闹闹,偶尔吵架然后和好。 Loudly talked about the topic of male student liked with the good friend jubilantly, or with them discussed that oneself liked on the matter of male student. 和好朋友兴高采烈地大聊喜欢的男生的话题,或是与他们商量自己喜欢上的男生的事。 This is she after running into the present person, the emotion of the first time noticing. 这是她在遇到眼前的人后,首度注意到的情感。 She does not want the original life. 她根本不想要原本的人生。 She was imprisoned there. 她只是被囚禁在那里。 Actually she also imagines him the same as march forward courageously, wants to laugh happily. 其实她也想像他一样勇往直前,想开心大笑。 Unknowingly, she starts to expect that with opportunity that he spoke, will think can from now in such life. 不知不觉中,她开始期待起和他讲话的机会,以为今后可以过上这样的生活。 Then had behind a series of matter...... 然后就发生了后面一系列的事情…… Being sick that the male student who likes was falsely accused, in class the retaliation and from mother of female students, the best friend commits suicide...... 喜欢的男生被人诬陷、班上女生们的报复、来自妈妈的厌烦、最好的朋友寻短见…… The matter eyes cannot take it all in follows on somebody's heels, having the pressure of blotting out the sky, the meaning thoroughly to destroy. 令人目不暇接的事情接踵而来,带着铺天盖地的压力,意欲将人彻底摧毁。 But has not waited for her to respond, matter then ended...... 可还没等她反应过来,事情便一件一件结束…… „ From school to family/home. “从学校到家里。 The matter of seed, mother's matter...... 结子的事情,妈妈的事情…… That person's commitment cashed in finally completely, he is my hero...... ” 那个人的承诺最后全部兑现了,他是我的英雄……” The voice of young girl choked, is mixing with the strong nasal sound. 少女的声音哽咽,其中夹杂着浓厚的鼻音。 „...... I have been afraid very much, if I and who establish the passion, if I have the person who oneself attached great importance, can one day lose completely?” “……我原本一直都很害怕,如果我和谁建立起感情,如果我有了自己重视的人,会不会有一天又全部失去？” „Can I harm others, is harmed by others ; Can I probably let loose the hand that holds, I am really afraid very much.” “我会不会伤害别人,受到别人的伤害;我会不会必须放开牵住的手,我真的很害怕。” „But......” “可是……” The young girl sorption nose, „gu, hey gu” is hitting the belch gently. 少女轻轻吸着鼻子,“咕、噫咕”地打着嗝。 „ That person was too dazzling...... “那个人实在太耀眼了…… No one will choose me firmly. He always tries to face my innermost feelings, making me not want to rely on him voluntarily. ” 从来没有人会那么坚定地选择我。他总是试图面对我的内心,让我不自觉想要依赖他。” She once stopped at this point, the slender eyelash is shivering, the eyeground fills on mist, is biting the lip, in the sound brings a weeping voice. 她说到这里一度停下,修长的睫毛颤动着,眼底弥漫上一层雾气,咬着嘴唇,声音里带着一丝哭腔。 „...... The result, I actually lost him......” “……结果,我却弄丢了他……” Cannot continue again. 没能再继续下去。 Sayu lowers the head closely closes the eyes, chest erratically high and low fluctuating. 沙优低下头紧紧闭上双眼,胸口不规律地上下起伏。 Handles gently according to above, making an effort to spit the breath several seconds to make itself tranquil. 一只手轻按在上面,用力吐息了数秒钟让自己平静下来。 Then. 然后。 She opens the eye, said with the calm tone that desirably maintains: 她又睁开眼睛,用刻意保持的冷静口吻说道: „ Although that is only a dream, perhaps all these sound very impractical, even no one remembers besides me...... “尽管那只是一个梦,也许这一切听起来非常不切实际,甚至除我以外都没人记得…… However......, if you know that anything, please tell me...... ” 但是……如果你知道些什么的话,请你告诉我……” With voice falls slowly decides. 伴随着话音的缓缓落定。 Probably gets back one's composure from some condition suddenly. 像是从某种状态中恍然回神。 The Katou Yusuke look from absent-minded becomes pure brightness, then the consciousness from the void shift to opposite young girl on. 加藤悠介的眼神从恍惚变得清明,而后把意识从虚空转移至对面的少女身上。 Appears also wants the mature face compared with the memory, in the dim light by shop was illuminated, screens the illusory shadow. 显得比记忆中还要成熟的脸,被店里的朦胧灯光照亮,映出虚幻的阴影。 That beautiful form and lonely facial expression, making his chest flee a ache, but in the surface does not reveal actually. 那美丽的身影与寂寞的神情,使他的胸口窜过一阵疼痛,不过面上倒是不显。 He is looking at the opposite party quietly, said in a low voice: „Thing that...... here you do not look.” 他沉静地望着对方,低声道:“……我这里没有你要找的东西。” Crash-bang, like thrown one bucket of cold water. 哗啦,如同被泼了一桶冷水。 The lengthy speech, looked like a lie. 刚才的长篇大论,就像是一场谎言。 Sayu sobers all of a sudden from the dream. 沙优一下子就从梦里清醒过来。 Lightly, the mood retreats like surging tides. 淅淅沥沥,情绪如潮水般退去。 „You......” “那你……” She opens mouth to try to say anything, was actually broken by the youngster. 她张了张嘴试图说些什么,却被少年打断。 „...... Was sorry that I have no way to help you. No matter what, thank you are willing to tell me these, this story is very interesting, I later may consider to use above the creation.” “……抱歉我没法帮到你。不管怎么样,谢谢你愿意告诉我这些,这个故事很有趣,我以后或许会考虑用在创作上面。” Katou Yusuke looked up clock on a wall, the finger tapped under the table. 加藤悠介抬头看了一眼墙上的时钟,手指轻敲了下桌子。 „As thanks, this coffee, even if I invited . Moreover the time, I almost should not say goodbye early. Knows you very much happily, Miss Ogiwara.” “作为感谢,这顿咖啡就算我请好了,另外时间也不早了,我差不多该告辞了。很高兴认识你,荻原小姐。” Said that then stands up, takes the bill to walk toward the register. 说完便站起身,拿着账单往收银台走去。 Looks the form that he is going to leave, Sayu does not have the origin one, stands up to shout unrestrainedly: „...... Please wait!” 看着他将要离开的身影,沙优没由来一慌,情不自禁地站起身喊道:“……请等一下！” Katou Yusuke stops the footsteps, on the face does not have the unnecessary expression, „what matter...... does Miss Ogiwara have?” 加藤悠介止住脚步,脸上没有多余的表情,“……荻原小姐还有什么事吗？” „......” “……” Sayu is at a loss for words suddenly. 沙优一时间语塞。 Has to think that continues to try to prove from him, however the opposite party has indicated the attitude, her have no reason not to know how should stop. 有心想继续从他身上求证,然而对方已然表明了态度,她没有理由也不知该如何去阻拦。 Thinks of here, she loses hangs the low eye pupil, then shakes the head slowly, on the face shows the somewhat reluctant smile. 想到这里,她不禁失落地垂低眼眸,接着又缓缓摇了摇头,脸上露出有些勉强的微笑。 „...... It‘s nothing, is thank you willing to listen to me to speak these. Sorry, loses your time......” “……没什么,谢谢你肯听我讲这些。对不起,耽误你的时间……” Tick-tock ticktack, the clock is walking gently. 嘀嗒嘀嗒,时钟轻轻走着。 „......” “……” Looks at that expression flesh some soft tender smiling faces of being able to make an effort, Katou Yusuke grabs the finger of account single issue not to grip voluntarily tightly loosens, asked one. 看着那张表情肌有些使不上力的软嫩笑脸,加藤悠介抓着账单本的手指不自觉攥紧又松开,问了一句。 „Where...... you live.” “……你住在哪里。” „?” “诶？” Suddenly hears this issue Sayu to stare, the look flashed slightly, then lowered the head to stare at own tip of the toe to say low voice: 突然听到这个问题的沙优不由一愣,眼神微微闪了下,然后低头盯着自己的脚尖小声说: „...... I come sharply, place that has not found.” “……我来得急,还没有找住的地方。” Short silence. 短暂的沉默。 „...... Under followed I, I send you to nearby hotel.” “……等下跟着我,我送你去附近的旅馆。” Katou Yusuke has no mood saying that then crosses her to move toward the register. 加藤悠介没什么情绪地说道,而后便越过她走向收银台。 The eyeground of young girl flashes through afraid, gently un: „...... Thanks.” 少女的眼底闪过一丝心虚,轻轻嗯了一声:“……谢谢。” ...... ……