„I went out.” “我出门了。” „On road careful......” “路上小心……” The leather shoes step on the voice of ground gradually to go far away, in the apartment suddenly becomes silence reigns. Sits with is supporting the door in ground Sayu single-handed, stands up slowly. 皮鞋踩踏地面的声音逐渐远去,公寓内忽然变得万籁俱寂。坐在地上的沙优用单手撑着门扉,缓缓站起身来。 „...... Good.” “……好。” She twittering, was returning to the living room from the threshold to buddhism in a soft voice, since starts to reorganize puts the breakfast thing on table, the preparation taking away kitchen cleans. 她轻声呢喃着,从玄关回到了起居室,开始整理起摆在桌上的早餐餐具,准备拿去厨房清洗。 After the breakfast, clear washing dishes plate. 早餐后清洗碗盘。 Goes out from Katou Yusuke starts, this is her daily first work. 自加藤悠介出门开始,这是她每天的第一件工作。 The water current gushes out from the pipeline, then to, brings some icy coldly, making the Ogiwara Sayu train of thought gradually clear. 水流从管道中涌出,然后冲到手上,带着些许冰凉,让荻原沙优的思绪逐渐清晰。 „Dingdong” the sound resounds in the basin, the clear bowl plate touches the sound biography to hear, the command lives alone to feel that the lonely innermost feelings obtained several points to alleviate. “叮叮当当”的声音在水池内响起,清脆的碗盘触碰声传入耳中,令独处而感到寂寞的内心得到了几分缓解。 Because in the family/home may not for drying in the shade space, therefore after washing bowl plate, Sayu wipes to go to the above water drop immediately. 由于家里没有可供阴干的空间,所以在洗好碗盘后,沙优会立刻拭去上面水珠。 Waits to complete these matters time, has crossed for about ten minutes. 等做完这些事的时候,已经过了大约十分钟左右。 Arrived at the recent station probably ten minutes of distances from here, Yusuke has caught the cable car? So long as such words sat stand can go to the school. 从这儿走到最近的车站大概有十分钟的距离,悠介是否已经搭上电车了呢？那样的话只要坐一站地就能到学校了。 Is thinking such matter, Sayu feels immediately somewhat funnily. 想着这样的事,沙优随即感到有些好笑。 " How even rides the cable car? " 「就算坐上电车又怎么样呢？」 ( Regardless how I thought aloud again, no one is listening, no one will respond. Whenever Yusuke at home, the frequency of my alone language will not promote sharply, will also follow to grow lonely doubled and re-doubled.) (无论我再怎么自言自语,都没有人在听,也无人会回应。每当悠介不在家的时候,我独语的频率就会大幅提升,就连寂寞也会跟着成倍增长。) „On the other hand, Yusuke had said outside we can go to eat meal together, is this appointment......?” “话说回来,悠介说过我们可以一起去外面吃饭,这算是约会……吗？” Sayu is muttering, the cheeks become blushes at the same time, heartbeat also some speed up slightly. 沙优喃喃着,脸颊变得羞红的同时,心跳也有些微微加快。 „......” “啊……” She called one in a soft voice, movement slightly on hand. 她轻声叫了一声,手上的动作微微一顿。 Here we go again. 又来了。 „I am thinking the Yusuke matter.” “我又在想悠介的事情了。” Sayu lags behind whispers low voice, the tray that will dry takes in the cabinet. Then by nose snort/hum one breath. 沙优后知后觉地小声低语道,将擦干的盘子收进柜中。而后由鼻子哼了一口气。 Until now left home to have 20 days, takes money that the Elder Brother is giving, is hugging " , so long as can leave that family/home far point " such idea, unceasing passed in each hotel alone, went through many places is coming to Tokyo from Hokkaidou. 迄今为止离家已经有二十来天了,拿着哥哥给的钱,抱着「只要能离那个家远一点」这样的想法,不断的在各个酒店独自度过,一路辗转着从北海道来到东京。 Until all spent final one cent. 直到花完了身上的最后一分钱。 That can of coffee in memory are still clearly discernible, thinks indistinctly also has that being drunk middle-aged man. 记忆中的那罐咖啡依旧清晰可见,隐约想起来的还有那个喝醉酒的中年男人。 The face has become slurred, only remembers that person said something to smooth things over probably with oneself. 面孔已经变得模糊不清,只记得那个人好像跟自己搭讪来的。 In the world does not have good intentions with no reason at all, does not have evil intention with no reason at all. 世上没有无缘无故的善意,也没有无缘无故的恶意。 In clear(ly) knows oneself are one " female high-school student " in situation, that middle-aged person is actually still thinking invited the indefinite tense bomb on my society to the family/home, should fully enjoy JK this status. 在明知道自己是一名「女高中生」的情况下,那个中年人却仍想着邀请我这个社会上的不定时炸弹到家里去,应该是充分享受着JK这个身份吧。 Sayu is thinking indifferently: „My then mood is what is coming......?” 沙优漠然思索着:“我当时的心情是什么样来着……？” Anxious, no use and weak, as if almost must comply. 不安、无助、犹豫不定,似乎差一点就要答应了。 Then mysterious met that youngster. 然后便神奇的遇上了那个少年。 „Really is an inconceivable person...... also takes small two years old compared with me obviously, makes people feel both mature and reliable.” “真是个不可思议的人……明明比我还要小两岁,却让人感觉既成熟又可靠。” „On this easily takes me to bring back to the home, as staying for temporary lodging condition, given does housework at help/gang merely " " this casual excessive reason......” “就这样轻易的把我带回家中,作为借住的条件,给出的仅仅是以「帮做家务」这种随便过头的理由……” „Really cannot comprehend......” “真搞不懂……” ( I am a full of vigor and vitality female high-school student . Moreover, although is not quite probably right by oneself, but I think that my beauty is very good. This did not boast, is only an objective fact.) (我可是一名朝气蓬勃的女高中生啊,而且,虽然由自己来说好像不太对劲,但我认为自己的姿色算是很棒的。这并非自夸,只是一件客观的事实罢了。) „At least a little...... that thought......?” “最起码会有一点……那种念头吧……？” After words exit|to speak, the Sayu mood becomes inexplicable depressed. 话出口之后,沙优的心情变得莫名郁闷。 ( Why?) (为什么呢？) She does not do clearly. 她搞不明白。 Had never before felt this anxiety. 先前从未感受过此种不安。 Katou Yusuke not in the time made her feel that extremely long, housework assignment completed immediately, remaining waited, waits for a person to go home. 加藤悠介不在的时间令她感到极度的漫长,家务这种差事马上就做完了,剩下的就是等待,等一个人回家。 He for the comic magazine that she buys, although looks is very slow, actually was also several days looks. When reads, compared with the content, " Katou Yusuke deliberately this instead makes her feel happy for book that she buys " . 他为她买回来的漫画杂志,虽然看的很慢,却也是几天就看完了。看书时,比起内容,「加藤悠介刻意为了她而买的书」这点反而更让她感到开心。 The time that these and Katou Yusuke spent together, making her think that was relieved and satisfied. 那些和加藤悠介一同所度过的时光,令她觉得安心而惬意。 However after relief, some of her instead fears. 不过在安心过后,她反而有些害怕。 How( can I place oneself in the so happy environment? What advantage do I have to provide to Yusuke? Does not think completely clearly.) (我何以能置身在如此幸福的环境当中呢？我有提供给悠介什么样的好处吗？完全想不明白。) Every day lives, in this type of unknown origin in the day of anxiously pestering, Sayu is even thinking. 每天都活在这种被来历不明的不安所纠缠的日子里,沙优甚至心想着。 " If Yusuke can simple started to be good to me. " 「如果悠介能干脆的对我下手就好了。」 Such she can also be more relaxed. 那样她也能轻松许多。 Was being needed by by this concise easy to understand way, she also thought that can bump to Katou Yusuke are not related, even also has one to hope in the heart deep place. 被以这种简明易懂的方式所需要着,她也觉得可以给加藤悠介碰没关系,甚至在内心深处还有着一丝期许。 Ogiwara Sayu do not understand why will have such idea, but is finally obvious, Katou Yusuke has never had any overflight behavior. 荻原沙优自己也不明白为什么会有这样的想法,但是结果却是显然的,加藤悠介至今从未有过任何的越线行为。 „Oh...... felt relieved obviously, actually becomes anxious. Obviously anxious, the innermost feelings feel warm.” “唉……明明放心,却又变得不安。明明不安,内心又感到温暖。” She uses to twist the good cleaning rag to clean the desktop, the sigh of mouth is falling in torrents. 她用拧好的抹布擦拭着桌面,嘴里的叹息倾泻而出。 „When can I treat here?” “我能够在这里待到什么时候呢？” She is muttering, sits on the bed, as soft buttocks a mattress vibration. 她喃喃着,一屁股坐在床上,柔软的臀部随着床垫一阵抖动。 ( Once not convenient time, Yusuke will choose me drives out?) (一旦不方便的时候,悠介会选择把我赶出去吗？) For example hands over the girlfriend and so on...... 比如说交到女朋友之类的…… Well-remembered, she remembered in last night washer, that Katou Yusuke blue shirt. 茫茫然的,她又想起了昨晚的洗衣机中,那件加藤悠介的蓝色衬衫。 And that light flower fragrance on shirt. 以及衬衫上的那丝淡淡花香。 Such a thinks, Sayu then felt the heart seems is seized the same pain to be inexplicable. 这么一想,沙优便感受到心脏好似被揪住了一样的痛苦莫名。 „After all Yusuke that gentle.” “毕竟悠介是那么地温柔嘛。” Therefore regarding will have the girl to like on his, Sayu is not sceptical. 所以对于会有女孩子喜欢上他这一点,沙优一点都不感到怀疑。 If had some girl to conduct the confession to Yusuke, Yusuke also happen to complied...... 而倘若有某个女孩子对悠介进行了告白,悠介也正好答应下来的话…… At the appointed time, own existence will turn into the barrier without a doubt. 届时毫无疑问的,自己的存在就会变成障碍。 Sayu so thinks. 沙优如此想到。 Even if in her mind, the high-school student, the lover in contact will run up to frequently to Fang Family plays, especially the groom's family lived alone, invites in the family/home still naturally. 在她的印象里,即使是高中生,交往中的情侣都会常常跑到对方家去玩,特别是男方还是独居,邀请到家中也就自然而然了吧。 ( Words in that case, are impossible to have space to hold I.) (那样一来的话,根本不可能有空间容得下我。) Own boyfriend and a female student who do not have the blood relationship live together under frequently eaves, perhaps regardless of how the magnanimous female student is unable to accept this point again. 自己的男朋友和一名没有血缘关系的女生时时刻刻的同住一个屋檐下,无论再怎么大度的女生恐怕都无法接受这一点吧。 „Haha, if he hands over the girlfriend, how to say again I also can only leave.” “哈哈,如果他交到女朋友的话,再怎么说我也只能离开了呢。” The Sayu mouth exudes the awkward laughter, the negativity chain-react in head, making her unable to bear think of the unnecessary matter. 沙优嘴里发出尴尬的笑声,脑袋里的负面情绪产生连锁反应,让她忍不住想到了多余的事情。 The picture in delusion flashed in the brain unceasingly, making the internal organs of Sayu closely shrink probably got up to be the same. 妄想中的画面在脑中不断闪现,令沙优的内脏像是紧紧地缩了起来一样。 " The female student who Yusuke and I do not know is shifty. " 「悠介和我不认识的女生翻云覆雨。」 So long as thinks that scene, Ogiwara Sayu then feels very repugnant. 只要一想到那个景象,荻原沙优便觉得非常讨厌。 „There is no relations with me.” “这跟我没有任何的关系。” „Even if Yusuke really made the girlfriend, that is still his own choice.” “即便悠介真的交了女朋友,那也是他自己的选择。” „After the contact, will have that condition is very normal.” “交往后会有那种状况也很正常。” She attempts to convince itself with various reasons. 她尝试着用各种理由说服自己。 But more is imagines, the innermost feelings more feel extremely disgruntledly. 可是越是去想象,内心就越是感到极度不悦。 „How oh...... this is......” “唉唉……这是怎样呀……” Her dejected lying down on the bed, the uncomfortableness that the stomach transmitted makes her body roll up. 她颓然的躺在床上,胃部传来的不适感令她身体蜷缩了起来。 Has never experienced the loneliness and negativity compose an vortex, almost must swallow her. 至今从未体验过的孤独感和负面情绪组成一个漩涡,几乎要将她吞噬。 „Yusuke...... you come back quickly.” “悠介……你快回来呀。” Seek help is reciting the name of that person in a soft voice, Sayu gradually goes off. 求助般地轻声吟咏着那个人的名字,沙优就这么逐渐睡去。