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#26: Ideal

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what Fang reverses to ask suddenly, „Li He, your ideal is anything” 何芳突然扭转头问,“李和,你的理想是什么” Li He under the street light of dark night, looks at what Fang the serious complexion, suddenly was silent, is shaking the corona head a little god. 李和在黑夜的路灯下,看着何芳一本正经的脸色,突然沉默了,晃着晕乎的脑袋有点愣神。 Li He vainly hoped for that has probably, after the rebirth , the first matter fills the belly, calm and steady good brothers and sisters. 李和梦想大约是有的,重生后第一件事就是填饱肚子,安稳好兄弟姐妹。 After entering the school , the stage has thought calm and steady waiting policy, boils several years, goes to market Bo Lang again. 进校后,也有一阶段想过安安稳稳等待政策,熬个几年,再去商海博浪。 Also has thought is the same with previous life, the obedient assignment, sees always to work together, the gather capital goes to sea again. 也想过跟上辈子一样,服从分配,去见见老同事,积累资本再下海。 But the mentality of this whole life can be the same with previous life, he currently more and more has the sense of urgency, thought more and more stays in the school is the suffering, thinks to do not wait for us more and more. 可这辈子的心态能跟上辈子一样吗,他现在越来越有紧迫感,越来越觉得呆在学校是煎熬,越来越觉得时不我待。 Chen Chunxian's plasma learned must brave from Zhongguancun this year, the enterprise that Stone, Nobumichi, Jinghai and Kehai these like thunder reverberating in one's ears also several years must establish, Li He fully realized that in the wave crest of time, he cannot stand, must be patted. 陈春先的等离子体学会在今年就要从中关村冒出来,四通、信通、京海、科海这些如雷贯耳的企业也等不了几年就要成立,李和深知在时代的潮头,他立不起来,就要被拍死。 As for going abroad, Li He will not consider, takes the J-1 student visa to be the black labor, carries the bowl to rinse the tray, he could not raise the least bit interest. 至于出国,李和是不会考虑了,拿着J-1学生签证做黑劳工,端碗涮盘子,他是提不起半点兴趣。 In the 80's, everything a little idea, a little condition, wants to change a way of living, does not want to accept fate, was extremely disappointed to the organization and not the law-abiding people chooses the abroad study many. 80年代,凡是有点想法,有点条件,想换个活法的,不想认命的,对组织极度失望和不安分的人们选择留学的很多。 At that time Li He in a class basically went abroad has the larger part, remaining studies to set the base like Li He, cannot attain the stipend and government expense qualifications. 李和当时一个班里基本上出国的有一大半,剩下的就是像李和这样学习垫底的,根本拿不到助学金和公费资格。 The Li He two lifetime what mortal world has not seen, the capitalist country very does not have the attraction, went, no matter the so-called undertaking brushes the tray is the black labor. 李和两辈子什么样的花花世界没见过,资本主义世界也忒没吸引力,去了不管所谓的创业还是刷盘子都是黑劳工。 If does to go to the entire anything to invent to make money again, an ammunition clip gave to knock down, ahead of time died, simply has not created the way of stars sea to elect. 万一作死再去整个啥发明赚钱,一梭子就给撂倒了,提前见马克思,根本没有创造星辰大海的路径可选。 Only if with Wang An or white/shell Lvming, Yang true peaceful, Li true said that these people are the same, is resigned to make the screw bolt, spends in distress the doctorate, only then the total involvement upward crawls in the US work place such a road, otherwise any spray cannot turn. 除非跟王安或者贝绿铭,杨真宁,李真道这些人一样,甘心做螺丝钉,苦熬到博士学位,只有全身心在美国职场上往上爬这么一条路,不然什么浪花都翻不出来。 Perhaps extremely in conspiracy theory, but the fact is so. 也许太过于阴谋论,可是事实吧就是如此。 But had a look in the 80's in the memoirs of foreign student, was the full relying on one's own effort to revive moods, usually was brushes the tray also to be scolded this to move own struggle story to the night. 可是看看八十年代留学生的回忆录里,都是满满的自力更生情怀,通常都是刷盘子到深夜还被人骂这种自己感动自己的奋斗故事。 The story ended has been somebody's turn graduation, took the green card, starts the life counterattack, was an engineer and programmer has achieved the middle class, had the room to have the car(riage), the upstairs and downstairs electric lamp telephone. 故事结束都是挨到了毕业,拿了绿卡,开始人生逆袭,也就是个工程师、程序员做到了中产阶级,有房有车,楼上楼下电灯电话。 However is also return of a group of people, has made the indelible contributions for the domestic technological progress. Effort and sacrifice that makes for the country and this nation, how to praise not to be overrated, but their life had respectively differently 但是也正是其中的一批人的回归,为国内科技发展做出了不可磨灭的贡献。为国家和这个民族做出的努力与牺牲,怎么夸都不为过的,只是他们的生活有各不同罢了 what Fang looked that Li He had not responded, has kicked his foot, ” you is a very intelligent person, why cannot diligently, be well careless daily. If you earnest, no matter later assigns goes abroad, your future will not miss „ 何芳看李和没有反应,踢了他一脚,”你是个挺聪明的人,为什么不能好好努力呢,天天吊儿郎当。你要是认真点,以后不管分配还是出国,你的前程都不会差“ Li He knows that what Fang cares about itself, asked that ” you want to go abroad „ 李和知道何芳是关心自己,就反问道,”你想出国吗“ what Fang firm shaking the head, „my father , the family/home did not have the old lady, a younger brother, I, if walked, messed up. My dream was my several years has stabilized, met to care for the aged the old lady. However I hope you to exit actually, you are only 18 -year-old, you have the happy future to wait for you, every year exits, only then most of our school and magnificence clear university, if you are diligently little, the going abroad qualifications do not have issue”. 何芳坚定的摇摇头,“我父亲不在了,家里还有老娘,还有一个弟弟,我要是走了,就乱套了。我的梦想就是等我几年安定了,把老娘接来养老。不过我倒是希望你出去,你才18岁,你还有美好的前程等着你,每年出去的只有我们学校和华清大学的最多,你要是努力一点点,出国资格根本没问题”。 This conforms to Li He to remember actually, this old Big Sister graduated assigns to the next door University of Science and Technology teaching physics teacher, afterward was suitable, finally adjusted the University of Science and Technology to be the principal, retired on. 这倒是符合李和记忆,这老大姐毕业就是分配到隔壁理工大学任教物理学老师了,后来一路顺,最终调到理工大学做校长,也就等退休了。 Li He firm shaking the head, „I will not exit, exits also works as a second-rate person, I believe that this country, this nationality will be getting better and better, everyone will have a better opportunity”. 李和也坚定的摇摇头,“我也不会出去,出去也是当个二等人,我相信这个国家,这个民族会越来越好,每个人都会有更好的机会”。 what Fang perhaps is suddenly very excited shouting, „ you do not understand, Li He, I once also thought. But I used the youth to trade anything, I 25, I went to the country to stay the entire seven years, seven years, the person several seven years, I once used the jolliest youth for a lifetime, fullest fervor, deeply loves all. One batch 3 girls, only then I alone come back, only then I alone come back. I went all out to gain admission to the university, I did not come back for a lifetime. „ 何芳也许是突然很激动的喊,“你不懂,李和,我曾经也这么想的。可是我用青春换来了什么呢,我已经25了,我下乡呆了整整七年,七年,人一辈子有几个七年,我曾用最美好的青春,最饱满的激情,去热爱一切。一批去了3个女孩子,只有我一个人回来,只有我一个人回来。我要不是拼命考了大学,我一辈子都回不来了。“ How Li He possibly does not know beforehand absurd, must comfort, said that ” past on the past, you must open sees the future, faces forward to look „ 李和又怎么可能不知道以前的荒唐呢,只得安慰,道,”过去的就过去了,你要张眼看未来,朝前看“ „Sorry, is a little excited, I thought that your intelligential, why does not have a look very much, why and I equally spiritless drifting along”, nighttime of silent, sighing sound that only then what Fang being depressed. “对不起,有点激动,我只是觉得你很有灵性,为什么不出去看看,何必跟我一样死气沉沉的混日子呢”,寂静无声的黑夜里,只有何芳一声闷闷的叹气声。 „I cannot put down similarly, here also has my dependence, I believe all good”, Li He casts off the glove, puts out the smoke, has handed over one to what Fang, he also squeak ignited the smoke with the matches, the cold air/Qi in nasal cavity was colder. “我同样也有放不下,这里也有我的依恋,我相信一切都会好的”,李和摘掉手套,拿出烟,递了一根给何芳,他自己也用火柴吱的一声点着了烟,鼻腔里的冷气更加冷了。 Li He must return to the bedroom what Fang first, then also went back. 李和只得先把何芳送回了寝室,然后自己也回去了。 Next day Li He does not attend class, still early got up, has bought a sesame seed cake in the school entrance, chews while toward the foreign language school that side. 第二天李和不上课,依然早早的起来了,在校门口买了个烧饼,一边嚼一边朝着外国语学院那边去。 Li He turns circle in the female student dormitory of foreign language school while inquired, was with was the same in the past, does not have his wife's news. 李和在外国语学院的女生宿舍楼一边转圈一边打听,还是跟往常一样,没他媳妇的消息。 Is somebody's turn noon, the belly was also hungry, had the round trip to hurry back to the school to eat meal. 挨到中午,肚子也饿了,只得往回赶回校吃饭了。 Takes a short cut arrives at a alley entrance time, heard a cry also to scold the sound. 抄近路走到一个巷子口的时候,听到了一阵叫声还有骂声。 The Li He start in the sound direction in the past, wears the short and stout person of big felt hat to close right up against the corner to smoke, the lane corner also three people gather round lie down scold and hit in the person of ground. The ground is lying down that person is protecting the ear and head with the hand, but was still trampled by the foot sends out a painful stuffiness to call. 李和起步朝声音的方向过去,一个戴着大毡帽的矮胖子靠着墙角抽烟,巷子墙角还有三个人围着躺在地上的一个人又骂又打。地上躺着的那人用手护着耳朵和头,但依然被脚踹的发出一阵痛苦的闷叫。 The fatty of smoking looks at Li He impatient beckoning with the hand, „hurries, looks at anything to look, otherwise including you to punch together”. 抽烟的胖子看着李和不耐烦的摆摆手,“赶紧走,看什么看,不然连你一块揍”。 Li He was mad is not smooth, does not know how, to see this group of child people to return the pole to while away the time comfortably oneself, where can be happy, but can also fear these next three groups of old hoodlums. 李和本来气就不怎么溜,正不知道怎么顺气呢,见这帮子人还上杆子来消遣自己,哪能高兴,还能怕这些下三路的老流氓。 Li He, no matter also to wrong, a foot on tramples to the fatty stomach pit of the stomach, a fatty back of the body is supine, the direct lying down ground is covering the belly. Although the fat people wear the greatly thick cotton-wadded jacket, could not support Li He to use the big foot vigor. 李和二话没说,也不管对错,一脚就上去踹到胖子肚心窝子,胖子一个后心仰,直接躺地上捂着肚子。胖子虽然穿着大厚棉袄,也架不住李和用了大脚劲。 Another three people have not responded, Li He directly tramples toward the left that person, opposite party falls flat on one's face greatly. The remaining two people with were simple, directing one to hide one, tramples, after arm the neck, the waste motion does not have, all put the ground. 另外三个人还没反应过来,李和就直接朝着左边的那个人踹过去,对方一个大马趴。剩下的两个人就跟简单了,引着一个躲着一个,还是踹完,胳膊一勒后脖子,多余动作都没有,全放地上了。 Li He slightly looks at the ground has been lying down that young „to get up, but also does the nest ground do” 李和看了地上躺着的那个小年轻“起来吧,还窝地上干嘛” Young people swaying of ground stood to rub under the nosebleed with the snow dumpling, has rubbed the swelling eye, say/way „thanks” 地上的年轻人摇摇晃晃站起来用雪团子搓了下鼻血,又揉了揉肿胀的眼睛,道“谢谢啊” „Where your boy mixes, cannot understand the custom, knew that who I am”, Li He has not spoken, the short and stout person of ground covers the belly to stand to be foul-mouthed to Li He. “你小子混哪里的,懂不懂规矩,晓不晓得我是谁”,李和还没说话,地上的矮胖子捂着肚子站起来对着李和骂骂咧咧。 „vermilion Fatty, grass your old mother, I owes you 5 dollars, you serve a need such ruthlessly „, the young people who just stood were scolding to the short and stout person, just stained the snow dumpling of blood to throw nearby vermilion Fatty,” you had a look at my nose blood stream, when can make up „ “朱胖子,艹你老母,我就欠你5块钱,你用得着这么狠吗“,刚刚站起来的年轻人对着矮胖子骂道,又把刚刚沾上血的雪团子扔到朱胖子跟前,”你看看我鼻子这血流的,什么时候才能补得回来“ Li He listened to this saying to understand, several people were the entering Taiwan surface that mixed, became this for the matter competent frames of 5 dollars, was mixes has not incurred. 李和听了这话就明白了,几个人都是混的不入台面的,为个5块钱的事能干架成这样,也是混的没招了。 Remembers that afterward had shot is this old hoodlum who movie «Old Artillery» said that said was one group of alley charlatans, daily blind B mixed not to have the proper matter to do, has blown for a lifetime flamboyant, will not mix to eat to wait for death to old matter day in day out, nearly could not rescue to the son finally. The movie of this values was too bad. 记得后来拍过一部电影《老炮儿》说的就是这种老流氓,讲的就是一群胡同混子,天天瞎b混没正经事儿干,吹了一辈子牛逼,到老了嘛事儿不会一天到晚混吃等死,到最后自己儿子差点儿救不回来。这种价值观的电影太坏了。 in addition hoodlum in fact he of Capital model/pattern Er mood is a hoodlum, the beforehand local police station called the artillery bureau, always entered the hoodlum in police station, the bludger, called old artillery. Approximately false, fights in groups most lacks prospects, boasts in that does not see the blood, the non- deceased person, this type is Capital model/pattern Er. 加了京范儿情怀的流氓实际上他还是流氓,以前的派出所叫炮局,总进局子的流氓,混混,都叫老炮儿。约假、打群架是最没出息的,在那咋呼不见血,不死人,这种就是京范儿。 Looked down upon regarding this person Li He, naturally does not fear, did not have the word of praise, „, but must compete, what custom don't pull with me, the flickering youth? Or continues to practice, either hurries to get the hell out „. 对于这种人李和本来就瞧不上眼,自然也不怵,就没好话了,“怎么的,还要较劲,别跟我扯什么规矩,忽悠愣头青呢？要不继续练,要么赶紧滚蛋“。 The short and stout people look at each other one with several people, knew that this type calculated the person skilled in martial arts, the group quarrel could not flatter, only obtained enlightenment, ” you planted, next time do not let me seize you, otherwise made you unable to eat to capture walking „. 矮胖子跟几个人对视一眼,晓得这种算练家子了,群架也讨不了好,只得道,”你有种,下次别让我揪住你,不然让你吃不了兜着走“。 Li He responds is disinclined to respond, with a laugh looks that several people walk away. Puts the ruthless words to be useless! The fantasy is just like hopes after oneself died, enters the heaven to be the same. 李和搭理都懒得搭理,笑呵呵的看着几个人走远。放狠话是没用的！幻想就好比希望自己死后进天堂一样。
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