one by one four chapters 第一一四章 Mood (First Part) 心情(上) Before dawn, 1 to 3 a.m., Su Tan'er wakes. 凌晨,丑时过后,苏檀儿醒了过来。 Opens the eye time, ray slightly yellow, out of the window was still the silent night, however could not feel peacefully. The mind , various types uncomfortable, move restlessly, anxiously, but actually cannot grasp that uncomfortable direction suddenly. Why is uncomfortable? The shatter picture after the mind, after first does not have the way, has the pursuing troops, something at the avalanche...... in such chaotic feeling, broadcast the voice of family member. 睁开眼睛的时候,光芒微黄,窗外仍是寂静的夜,然而感受不到安宁。脑海、身上,各种难受、躁动、不安,但一时间却把握不住那难受的方向。为什么要难受呢？许多破碎的画面经过脑海,前无去路后有追兵,有些东西在崩塌……这样混乱的感觉中,传来了家人的声音。 „Young Lady woke up.” “小姐醒来了呢。” This is the Little Chan sound, does not need to ponder and identifies also be able the earliest possible time to respond, she closes the eye to recall one difficultly, when makes an effort to want, was drawn the quilt to press her by Little Chan. The little maidservant useless many strengths, are mainly she did not have many strengths, in the vision, the visible eye socket is red. 这是小婵的声音,无需思考与辨认也能第一时间反应过来,她闭上眼睛艰难地回忆一阵,用力地想要起来时,被小婵拉着被子将她按下去了。小丫鬟没用多少力气,主要是她没有了多少的力量,目光之中,看见的眼眶红红的。 „When?” She opens the mouth to ask, sound somewhat hoarse, sounds simply does not seem like her. “什么时候了？”她开口问道,声音有些嘶哑,听起来简直不像是她的。 „1 to 3 a.m. is quick.” “丑时快过了。” „Young Lady do not get up......” “小姐别起来……” „I go to the warming tonics......” “我去热药……” Resounds the sound near ear, has Chan'er, Juan'er, Xing'er, said nevertheless Liheng of time, he also stayed here, in brain uncomfortable, but the heart was somewhat warm, she is recalling the beforehand matter: „Storekeeper Liao they......” 响起在耳边的声音,有婵儿的、娟儿的、杏儿的,说出时间的却是立恒,他也留在了这里,脑中还是难受,可心底有些温暖,她回忆着之前的事情:“廖掌柜他们……” „Young Lady do not think that these matters were good Ah…...” Juan'er of bedside choked. Su Tan'er is sorry shakes the head, opens the mouth weakly: „Not good Ah…...” “小姐你别想这些事了好不好啊……”床边的娟儿哽咽出来了。苏檀儿抱歉地摇了摇头,虚弱地开口:“不行啊……” „Storekeeper Liao their already went back to rest.” The Ning Yi sound resounds in side, soon after he said to Chan'er Juan'er in a soft voice, „I came to say with her, you first went out to help Xing'er.” “廖掌柜他们已经回去休息了。”宁毅的声音响起在旁边,随后他对婵儿娟儿轻声道,“我来跟她说说,你们先出去帮杏儿。” Two maidservant nods went out, arrive in the room in next door to decoct medicinal herbs. When is peaceful, the Su Tan'er vision and spirit condensed slightly, such as in the daytime wears that azure long gown as her husband man generally, moved a stool to sit down to visit her. In the manner and ordinary day when above 2nd floor chatted similar, at will head, indifference and calm of some scholarly air, although young person appearance by no means seems very experienced, but this indeed was she once in the mind has thought the talent appearance. 两个丫鬟点头出门,到隔壁的房间里煎药去了。安静下来时,苏檀儿的视力和精神才稍稍凝聚了一些,作为她相公的男人如白日里一般穿着那身青色的袍服,搬了张凳子过来坐下看着她。神态与平日里在二楼之上聊天时相似,随意地偏着头,有些书生气的淡然与沉稳,虽然年轻人的样貌并不会显得很老成持重,但这的确是她曾经在心目中想过的才子模样。 His scholarship is fiercer than many people, but by no means makes widely known, embodiment deep and peaceful actually has very big strength. In the past Su Tan'er has not thought in this aspect. Properly speaking 1st talent this matter should would very fierce feeling is, however within the home, including her, Chan'er Juan'er Xing'er has not as if felt when this aspect is too deep, from beginning to end is relaxed naturally communicates, others mentioned may be proud, knows suddenly Eh jumped, however...... they as if only saw this person from beginning to end. If from afar, what others see is the 1st talent light halo, the person but who the vicinity looks, as if can only see this simple person nothing more. 他的才学比许许多多人都厉害,但并不张扬,内蕴的深沉、安静其实有着很大的力量。以往苏檀儿未曾在这方面多想。照理说第一才子这种事情应该总会给人很厉害的感觉才是,可是在家中,包括她在内,婵儿娟儿杏儿似乎都没有在这方面感受太深,从头到尾都是轻松自然地来往,旁人说起时或许会觉得自豪,陡然知道的时候吓了一跳,可是……她们从头到尾似乎都只看见了这个人。如果从远处看,旁人看到的是第一才子的光圈,可近处看的人,似乎就只能看见这个简单的人而已。 Why does not know, sees him at this time, remembered that 1st talent halo suddenly. He has also waited the present not to have the rest from the evening, even if said that is own husband, but oneself affected him eventually, husband eventually was Scholar, should not be involved by these trading, but...... she therefore is sorry smiled at present, when wanted to open the mouth, on Ning Yi took cakes and pastries to hand over. 可不知道为什么,此时看见他,就陡然想起了那第一才子的光环。他也是从晚上一直待到了现在也未有休息吧,纵然说起来是自己的相公,可自己终究还是影响到他了,相公终究是个文人,不该被这些商事牵扯进来的,可眼下……她于是抱歉地笑了笑,想要开口时,宁毅手上拿了块糕点递过来。 Probably chatted the feeling when 2nd floor, Su Tan'er almost wants to meet subconsciously, but in the hand did not have the strength, that cakes and pastries from the sky turn circle, was swallowed the mouth by him, chewed one, then rumble drinks tea, swallows, the male expression was indifferent. 像是在二楼上聊天时的感觉,苏檀儿几乎下意识地想要去接了,可手上并没有力气,那糕点在空中转了个圈,被他吃进嘴里,嘴嚼一阵,然后咕噜噜地喝了口茶,咽下去,男子表情淡然。 „These things I can eat, you are not good, you can only drink the medicine.” “这些东西我可以吃,你不行,你只能喝药。” To smile, the mood that soon after this surges brings a dizzy and weary feeling, in the heart is somewhat helpless: This person, why must tease her to smile. 想要笑出来,随后这涌起的情绪带来一阵晕眩与疲倦感,心中有些无奈:这人,干嘛要逗她笑呢。 Then she hears Ning Yi saying: „Then...... something must chat with you.” 然后她听见宁毅说道:“然后……有些事情要跟你谈谈。” „Um?” On the bed the weak female opened the eye again wearily. “嗯？”床上虚弱的女子再度疲倦地睁开了眼睛。 ****************** ****************** The coal burns down, in the tile jar, the medicine air/Qi starts to ascend, three maidservant defended in side, occasionally turned head to visit nearby wall, in the look actually has the anxiety. 炭火烧起来,瓦瓮之中,药气开始升腾起来,三个丫鬟守在了旁边,偶尔扭头望望旁边的墙壁,眼神之中其实都有忧虑。 Little Chan is slightly good, Juan'er and Xing'er are worried, Young Lady woke up finally, may still get a high fever, this long night, actually starts at present. Young Lady fell ill, the main branch matter was difficult, they are follow Young Lady to grow up since childhood, knows that Young Lady painstaking care and price of payout, her does not agree draws back certainly, does not know that Young Master can convince Young Lady. May even convinced Young Lady, main branch matter what's to be done? Let Young Lady look at these painstaking care escapes helplessly? 小婵稍微好一点,娟儿与杏儿则是心事重重,小姐终于醒来了,可仍旧发着高烧,这长长的夜里,眼下其实只是开始。小姐病倒,大房的事情就难了,她们都是跟着小姐从小长大的,知道小姐在这其中付出的心血与代价,她是绝不肯退的,不知道姑爷能不能说服小姐。可即便说服了小姐,大房的事情又怎么办呢？让小姐眼睁睁地看着那些心血流走吗？ „...... Young Master called these that we make a moment ago, is to do?” “……姑爷刚才叫我们做的那些,是要干什么呢？” „Cannot understand Ah…...” “看不懂啊……” „Young Master makes the place of experiment also to have such......” “姑爷做实验的地方也有那样的……” „however can be useful......” “可是能有什么用呢……” „Does not know......” “不知道……” Decocts medicinal herbs, three maidservant while each other were saying the doubts of in the heart, previously Ning Yi made them take the line to pull some checks on the xuan paper horizontally in any case vertically, then takes three years ago the account book starts to symbolize something above, some are the geographic name and Su Family store name, what are more is the strange crooked symbol, simple sets upright, a circle and half circle and so on, cannot understand completely, Young Master remembers unexpectedly to be quick, but will knit the brows to think occasionally, there is twice three people called the past, asked that there revenue and expenditure had problems is because what reason, then indicated to come out near the symbol. 一边煎药,三个丫鬟一边彼此说着心中的疑惑,先前宁毅让她们拿墨线在宣纸上横横竖竖地扯了些格子,然后就拿着三年前得账本开始在上面标志些东西,有些是地名、苏家的商铺名,更多的是古古怪怪歪歪扭扭的符号,简单的一竖、一个圈、半个圈之类,完全看不懂,姑爷记得倒是快,只是偶尔会皱眉想想,有两次将三人叫过去,问那里收支出问题是因为什么缘故,然后在符号边注明出来。 Young Master wants to understand that the Su Family situation, what matter can arrive at like this? No one can think through. One year, Young Master gives their feeling is very kindly is very profound, but after all not trading. At this time entire Su Family felt the crisis, so many did business dozens years of Storekeeper Manager to bustle about, Young Master after all is Scholar(egghead), even if wanted to help, perhaps was still only the scholarly air outbreak of making a last-ditch effort , without —— profession of big use to study, definitely was this. 姑爷想要了解苏家的情况,可这样能抵什么事呢？谁也想不通。一年的时间以来,姑爷给她们的感觉都是很亲切很渊博,但毕竟不涉商事。这时候整个苏家都感到了危机,这么多经商几十年的掌柜管事们都在忙碌,姑爷毕竟是个书生,就算想要帮忙,恐怕也只是临时抱佛脚的书生气发作,没有多大用处的——术业有专攻,肯定是这样。 „Young Master he......” lowered the head to say with Ning Yi most intimate Little Chan, „Young Master he very fierce......” “姑爷他……”与宁毅最为亲近的小婵低头说着,“姑爷他很厉害的……” She also knows that in the past Ning Yi is very fierce, since had own of flesh after Ning Yi, this feeling naturally strengthens, but that also limited. In the past she wanted to call Young Master to help Young Lady share something, mainly for being intimate with between Young Master and Young Lady, some people helped Young Lady share, some such feelings will be certainly happier in Young Lady. however Young Master in doing business, definitely could not replace Young Lady, Young Master at these things, even in Little Chan, was still at heart fiercer than the average person, this already was very fierce, but must say that the Young Master anything matter was fiercer than everyone, what's the big deal, Little Chan is possibly impossible to feel like this. 她以往也知道宁毅很厉害,自从与宁毅有了肌肤之亲之后,这种感觉自然更有加强,可那也是有限度的。以往她想要叫姑爷帮忙小姐分担些事情,主要还是为了姑爷跟小姐之间的亲近,有人帮小姐分担,有这样的感觉在小姐当然会更加高兴。可是姑爷在经商上,肯定也代替不了小姐,姑爷在这些事情上,即便在小婵的心里,也是比一般人厉害很多,这就已经很厉害了,可要说姑爷什么事情都比所有人厉害,那又怎么可能了,小婵也是不可能这样觉得的。 „We also know that Young Master is very fierce, is very intelligent, but his not possible anything matter fierce Ah… like composing a poem...” Juan'er said in a low voice. “我们也知道姑爷很厉害,很聪明,但他不可能什么事情都像写诗那样厉害啊……”娟儿低声道。 „Young Master complies with the means that will not deceive people.” Little Chan also can only believe this matter at this time obstinately, side Xing'er looked at that charcoal fire silent for a long time, was putting out a hand to wipe the corner of the eye finally. “姑爷答应有办法,不会骗人的。”小婵此时也只能执拗地相信这事,旁边杏儿望着那炭火沉默了许久,终于又伸手抹了抹眼角。 „I know the Young Lady temperament, but this Young Master, so long as can convince Young Lady to convalesce well, then on line.” Perhaps is because in the heart presses has the matter, this evening, usually in temper strongest Xing'er instead flowed backwards many time tears, the sound of talking choked, „, so long as Young Lady well, even if could not become Patriarch, Young Lady still Young Lady, Young Master or Young Master, we in...... will want this together, that was good......” “我知道小姐的脾气,可这次姑爷只要能说服小姐好好静养,那就行了。”或许是因为心中压着有事,这个晚上,平日里性子最强的杏儿反倒流了许多次的眼泪,语声哽咽,“只要小姐好好的,就算成不了家主,小姐也还是小姐,姑爷还是姑爷,我们还是会在一起……只要这样,那就行了……” Her mood infected nearby Juan'er and Chan'er, the soon after moved grey covered, when Juan'er choked, Chan'er is saying in side low voice: „Young Master will have the means......” 她的情绪感染了旁边的娟儿与婵儿,随后伤感的灰色又笼罩了过来,娟儿哽咽起来时,婵儿在旁边小声地说着:“姑爷会有办法的……” „Um.” Xing'er and Juan'er nod in side, actually also no one really letter/believes probably. “嗯。”杏儿与娟儿在旁边点头,其实大概也没什么人真信。 So long as Young Lady can be all right, that was best, as for other, can only make in the family/home others go diligently, Old gentleman, Storekeeper Liao, Storekeeper Xi, Second Old Master and Third Old Master that side...... the such big family, always some people can shoulder...... 只要小姐能没事,那就最好了,至于其它的,只能让家中其他人去努力了,老太公、廖掌柜、席掌柜、二老爷、三老爷那边……这么大的家子,总有人能扛得住的…… ******************* ******************* maidservant pass decocts medicinal herbs, in the bedroom, the oil lamp was still dragging the flame, Ning Yi is sitting before the bed, drank tea, passed on to the diagnosis of Doctor Sun slowly. 丫鬟们过去煎药的时候,卧室之中,油灯仍旧在摇曳着火光,宁毅坐在床前,喝了一口茶,缓缓地转告了孙大夫的诊断。 „It is not the cold, is the cold, you yourself is also incessantly clear. I know that you now are very uncomfortable, but the mood cannot stabilize, solving the problem you do not have the means to be relieved, without the means is relieved, could not solve the problem, soon became the dead end...... I to know you who I talked incessantly like this were also tired of me......” “不是风寒,不止是风寒,你自己也清楚。我知道你现在很难受,但心情安定不下来,解决不掉问题你没办法安心,没办法安心,就更加解决不了问题,快要成死局了……我知道我这样唠唠叨叨的你也烦我……” His paused, Su Tan'er shakes the head there faint slightly, soon after opens the mouth, the voice is light seems like must break wisp of smoke in wind momentarily: „husband, I understand how...... may I put Ah…...” The look is somewhat mournful. 他稍稍顿了顿,苏檀儿在那儿微微摇了摇头,随后开了口,语音轻得像是随时都要断在风中的一缕烟:“相公,我明白……可我怎么放啊……”神色有些凄然。 „Puts, as you like.” Ning Yi turns round the palm on her forehead, „you now this, no means discussion are too many, therefore my simple confession, I just looked for three years ago main branch several accounts.” “放不放的,都随你。”宁毅将手掌覆在她额头上,“你现在这样,没办法讨论太多,所以我简单的交代一下,我刚刚看完了三年前大房的几本帐。” „Um?” Su Tan'er somewhat confuses. “嗯？”苏檀儿有些迷惑。 „I just looked for three years ago main branch several accounts.” Ning Yi is looking at her peacefully, repeated, „father-in-law has not been out of the danger now, you are also this. Grandpa may consider to send people to take over, but you are not willing, but from now on, you cannot get out of bed, all things put at present, therefore I will then help you, Chan'er Juan'er Xing'er also here, but something, can only I act for you, this was the only means......” “我刚刚看完了三年前大房的几本帐。”宁毅安静地望着她,重复了一遍,“岳父现在还没脱离危险,你也是这样。爷爷可能会考虑派人接手,不过你不会肯,但从现在开始,你不能下床,所有事情都摆在眼前,所以接下来我会帮你,婵儿娟儿杏儿也都在这里,不过有些事情,只能我代你出面,这是唯一的办法了……” „I know all questions, but does not need to say now too, tomorrow and day after tomorrow, your sober point time discussed again slowly, I also somewhat want to discuss with you. However now, only has several points: We knew for more than one year, I want you to know a matter now, I said the matter that can achieve, can achieve, this point I was earnest, present's matter, I will help you achieve......” “我知道所有的疑问,但现在没必要说太多,明天、后天,你清醒一点的时候再慢慢谈吧,我也有些想要跟你谈的。不过现在,只有几点:我们认识一年多了,我现在要你知道一件事,我说可以做到的事情,就可以做到,这一点我非常认真,眼下的这件事,我会帮你做到……” Su Tan'er is grasping his hand, shakes the head difficultly, shows the smile that soon cries: „husband, this matter...... you do not know......” 苏檀儿握着他的手,艰难地摇了摇头,露出一个快要哭出来的笑容:“相公,这件事……你不知道……” Ning Yi stopped her shaking the head, faint to approach, looks at her: „No, I know that the natures of these things, I am know, said these words, I also want to make you know this point. Do you believe me, looked how you see my moral behavior and our friendship, but you remember like this temporarily I said was good, this is most important......” 宁毅制止了她的摇头,微微靠近,看着她:“不,我知道这些事情的性质,我是知道以后才说出这句话的,我也想让你知道这一点。你相不相信我,就看你怎么看我的人品和我们的交情,但暂时你记得我是这样说的就行了,这是最重要的……” „Then, the these days processing matter discussed that matter in your room, you can listen on the bed, can look, wants not to relate, made any decision, I will tell you reason, you nod, we send again. I know that you will not put, not possible to cast aside you in one side, therefore I do not put aside you, I only reduce you to think that the process of matter, do you only with make sense that considering me said...... to be OK like this?” “然后,这几天处理事情商量事情会在你的房间里,你可以在床上听,可以看,想也没关系,做出的任何决定,我会告诉你原因,你点头,我们再发出去。我知道你不会放,不可能把你撇在一边,所以我不撇开你,我只减少你想事情的过程,你只用考虑我说的有没有道理……这样可以了吗？” Su Tan'er closes the eye, good long time, drop of tears slide from the corner of the eye, Ning Yi slowed down the words. 苏檀儿闭上眼睛,好半晌,一滴眼泪从眼角滑下来,宁毅放缓了话语。 „Su Family has not arrived at accident time, that side has not acted, you must prepare to drink the medicine now, little thinks the matter, remembers that I already such said on line, I will say will solve, will certainly solve. Then sleeps well, at least relaxes the heart temporarily, home will not have the matter, because of me in this. Um?” “苏家还没到出事的时候,那边还没有出手,你现在要准备喝药,少想事情,记得我已经那样说了就行,我说会解决,就一定会解决。然后好好睡一觉,至少暂时把心放宽,家里不会有事,因为我在这。嗯？” Su Tan'er closes one's eyes, nods. 苏檀儿闭着眼睛,点了点头。 „Good, we came to an arrangement.” “好,我们谈妥了。” Ning Yi draws back, drinks tea. A moment later, Su Tan'er opens the eye from that side: „husband, I was much better......” 宁毅退回去,喝了口茶。片刻之后,苏檀儿从那边睁开眼睛:“相公,我好多了……” „A persuasive power that your do business does not have.” Ning Yi curls the lip, shakes the head not to believe. “你们这些做生意的一点说服力都没有。”宁毅撇了撇嘴,摇头以示不信。 Su Tan'er faint smiled, in the mind is a dizziness. 苏檀儿微微笑了起来,脑海中又是一阵晕眩。 soon after Xing'er and Juan'er and Chan'er carried the medicine bowl to come, helping up her to drink up the medicine, under gaze that several people cared about, finally heavy went off, just before going to sleep time spoke a few words: „husband also rests......” 随后杏儿与娟儿、婵儿端了药碗进来,扶起她将药喝完了,几人关心的注视下,终于沉沉地睡去,临睡的时候说了一句话:“相公也去休息……” „Knew.” “知道了。” The midway wakes one time, sky faint shone, Little Chan sits on nearby chair naps, that form also sits near the table before window, does not know that is writing anything. She therefore closes the eye, falls asleep again, perhaps because of that back, this time, in the heart probably was tranquil...... 中途醒过来一次,天色微微的亮了,小婵坐在旁边的椅子上打盹,那身影还坐在窗前的桌边,不知道在写着什么。她于是闭上眼睛,再度进入梦乡,或许是因为那道背影,这一次,心中像是平静了一些……