Third 11 chapters 第三11章 Condition 病情 Passed the long time, Liu Qian has then stopped the tears. 过了半晌,刘倩这才止住眼泪。 She pointed at small stream to say to Zhang Xiaohua: „Xiaohua, you look at this river water, starts from its place of origin, it is only wisp of careful water, flows following the river bed, has many current of water to collect, it gets bigger and bigger, slowly, it will turn into the river, the great river, finally inflow sea, just like person, is its process of growth, the sea is its end point. If, the creek is not mobile, what then it will turn into? The pond, the sewer, the creek is not mobile, lost the significance of survival, it will die. The people are also same, must after the birth, the growth, the process of death, this be the complete life. Person who these can Chan Sheng / longevity not die, we do not know, as long as the ordinary people like us, the birth and death is in the life must, be some notes in life song.” 她指着小溪对张小花说:“小花,你看这河水,从它的发源地开始,它只是一缕细细的水,顺着河床流淌,有更多的水流汇集过来,它就越长越大,慢慢的,它会变成大河,大江,最后流入大海,跟人一样,也是它的生长的过程,大海就是它的终点。如果,小河不流动了,那它会变成什么呢？池塘,臭水沟,小河不流动了,就失去了生存的意义,它就会死去。人也一样啊,必须经过出生,成长,死亡的过程,这才是完整的人生。那些能长生不死的人,我们不知道,但凡是像我们这样的平常人,生老病死是生命中的必须,是生命歌曲中的一些音符。” Zhang Xiaohua strange say/way: „Why can't we Chan Sheng / longevity not die?” 张小花奇怪道:“为什么我们不能长生不死呢？” Liu Qian said: „Because we do not know how can Chan Sheng / longevity not die.” 刘倩说:“因为我们不知道如何才能长生不死啊。” Then she also then said: „Like the grandmother, she more than 80, experienced these many wind Wind & Rain rain, oneself from babbling, to the long Great Accomplishment person, to running into your grandfather, have formed the family, then had your mother, suffers great hardships gets by laboriously, fosters your mother adult, saw that your mother gets married with your father, lives together, but also looks oneself lived spouse for a lifetime to pass suddenly, Present saw outside your the grandson, the birth, grew up, her life was very complete, she did not have too many disappointment, you should for the grandmother this complete felt entire life happy, more than 80 years of life, can. Several people have.” 然后她又接着说:“像外婆,她老人家80多,经历了这么多的风风雨雨,自己从牙牙学语,到长大成人,到遇到你外公,组成了家庭,然后有了你娘亲,又含辛茹苦辛苦度日,抚养你娘亲成人,又看到你娘亲跟你爹爹成亲,生活在一起,还看着自己生活了一辈子的老伴儿溘然而逝,现在又眼看你们这些外孙儿,出生,长大,她的一生已经很圆满了,她没有太多的缺憾,你应该为外婆这完整的一生感到高兴,80多年的一生,能。有几个人拥有啊。” Zhang Xiaohua raised the head to ask: „How should I do?” 张小花抬头问:“那我该怎么做呢？” Liu Qian touched the head of Xiaohua saying: „Your Present must do, tidies up own mood, well is accompanying the grandmother, lets the grandmother in final Time, can look at times own beloved outside grandson, does not stay behind any is unhappy, relieved departure.” 刘倩抚摸小花的脑袋说:“你现在要做的,就是收拾自己的心情,好好的陪着外婆,让外婆在最后的一段时间里,能时时看着自己心爱的外孙儿,不留下任何的不开心,安心的离去。” In Zhang Xiaohua heart gloomy at this time just divergence, the somewhat happy small face also splits a smiling face, said: „Liu Elder Sister, you understand really many, said me to understand, these words I, if told mother, she definitely will hit me, said that I do not think toward the advantage.” 张小花心中的阴郁这时才刚刚的散去,有些开心的小脸也绽出一丝笑颜,说:“刘姐姐,你懂得真多,说得我也明白,这些话我要是跟娘亲讲,她肯定会打我,说我不往好处想。” Liu Qian said: „Everyone some expressed the method of thought that your mother such also told you to you with oneself way, do not think, I told you with the different ways. If my such method you can understand, later had any matter you to come with me to reach an agreement freely.” 刘倩说:“每个人都有自己表达思想的方法,你娘亲那样对你也是用自己的方式告诉你,不要多想,我只是用不同的方式告诉你罢了。如果我这样的方法你能听懂,以后有什么事情你尽管来跟我说好了。” Zhang Xiaohua said mischievously: „That is natural, later must have must say to Elder Sister well.” 张小花调皮的说:“那是当然,以后少不了要跟姐姐好好说得。” Liu Qian said: „Mischievous little devil, quickly carries water, Sun rose old tall. A while the mother must say you.” 刘倩说:“调皮的小鬼头,还是赶快去挑水吧,太阳都升老高了。一会儿你娘亲又要说你了。” Zhang Xiaohua stuck out one's tongue saying: „We quickly go, but, comes out with Elder Sister, mother will definitely not blame me to go back late.” 张小花吐吐舌头说:“那我们还是赶快去吧,不过,跟姐姐出来,娘亲肯定不会怪我回去晚的。” That said that but Zhang Xiaohua hurriedly fetched water, because the grandmother as if also very much likes drinking this spring water. 话是这么说,但张小花还是急忙去打水了,因为外婆似乎也很喜欢喝这山泉水的。 Following several days, grandmother's condition was even more awful, actually coughed the blood threads, such as Zhang Xiaohua said , the grandmother resulted was not the ordinary sickness. Then, Guo Sufei worried, she cannot attend to complaining about veterinarian old Chen, cannot attend to taking care of several injured family members, hurried to look for a donkey cart, must draw the grandmother to go to the town to see a doctor. Zhang Xiaohua must with, but was kept the home by mother, Zhang Family head of household Zhang Cai must go, although his leg wound also not completely good, happen to makes the doctor have a look while this opportunity, Space of donkey cart is limited, only then made the grandchild who this grandmother most loved keep the home. 接下来的数日,外婆的境况愈发的糟糕了,竟然咳出了血丝,真的如张小花所言,外婆得的不是普通的病。这下,郭素菲真的着急了,她也顾不得埋怨兽医老陈,也顾不得照顾几个受伤的家人,赶紧找了辆驴车,要拉着外婆去镇上看病。张小花死活要跟着去,但还是被娘亲留在了家,张家的当家人张才是要去的,虽然他的腿伤还没有完全好,也正好趁这个机会让大夫看看,驴车的空间有限,也只有让这个外婆最疼爱的外孙留在了家。 The donkey vehicle-borne one line are being the morning, Zhang Xiaohua helps Liu Qian look after two injured Elder Brother, lends a hand to do the housework, what a pity his thoughts keep thinking about the grandmother, often stealing a glance looks toward outside. Although Liu Qian wants him to tell that extremely the grandmother came back to obtain the darkness, but saw Zhang Xiaohua as well as Zhang Xiaolong and Zhang Xiaohu three brothers' absent-minded appearances and anxious facial expressions, has borne, she very much sympathized was making family's trivial matters, has not spoken any comfort words. 驴车载着一行人是早上就出发的,张小花帮着刘倩照顾两个受伤的哥哥,搭把手做着家务,可惜他的心思还是惦记外婆,不时的偷眼往外边看。虽然刘倩极想跟他说外婆回来得到天黑了,可是看到张小花以及张小龙、张小虎三个兄弟心不在焉的样子和焦虑的神情,还是忍住了,她只是很体贴的做着家里的琐事,并没有说任何安慰的话。 Time such bit by bit passed, weather getting dark of gradually, finally, saw the long in coming donkey cart in the Zhang Xiaohua eye. Zhang Xiaohua jumped down from the chair immediately, has not greeted two Elder Brother, flushed from the room, hurries, side the foot stumbles to visit unexpectedly a small stool, staggers almost throws down, does not attend to was kicked by him in small stool at the same time, went out. 时间就这么一点一点的过去了,天色渐渐的黑了下来,终于,在张小花的眼中看到了姗姗来迟的驴车。张小花立马从椅子上跳了下来,也没招呼两个哥哥,就从屋里冲了出去,慌忙间,脚竟绊上门边的一个小凳子,一个踉跄差点摔倒,也不顾的被他踢在一边的小凳子,就出了门。 When he runs the small fence gate, the donkey cart was also near, sees the person who drives a cart, jumps down from the donkey cart, pulls the reins of small donkey to proceed to walk again several steps, arrived at Zhang Xiaohua, then entrained the reins, stopped the car(riage) in front of Zhang Family yard. 等他跑出小栅栏门时,驴车也近了,就见赶车的人,从驴车上跳下,牵着小毛驴的缰绳往前再走几步,就到了张小花的跟前,然后拽住了缰绳,将车停在张家小院的门前。 The three people of wear thick clothes behind the car(riage) sits, in the twilight cannot see clearly the complexion. Has not waited for the donkey cart stop, Zhang Xiaohua hears a person serious cough sound , before arriving donkey cart that he loves dearly, clever calling: „Grandmother ~”, what a pity grandmother difficultly is coughing, not having the means to comply with oneself grandchild's greeting. 车后面坐的穿着厚厚衣服的三个人,暮色中也看不清脸色。还没等驴车停稳,张小花就听得其中一个人沉重的咳嗽声,他心疼的走到驴车前,乖巧的叫:“外婆~”,可惜外婆正在艰难的咳嗽,没有办法答应自己外孙的招呼。 Guo Sufei got out first, under Zhang Xiaohu that greeting had caught up at this time supports by the arm Zhang Cai first, this with Liu Qian and Zhang Xiaohua, cautiously supports by the arm under the grandmother who just coughed. 郭素菲先下了车,招呼这时已经赶过来的张小虎把张才先搀扶下来,这才跟刘倩和张小花,小心翼翼的把刚咳嗽完的外婆搀扶下来。 Zhang Cai has tied money with the person of driving a cart, that donkey cart walked directly, abandons Zhang Family one line to stand in the twilight. 张才跟赶车的人结了钱,那驴车径直走了,扔下张家一行人站在暮色里。 Liu Qian and Zhang Xiaohua are supporting by the arm the grandmother, coughs is going to grandmother's hut, listening to that cough, the heart of Zhang Xiaohua somewhat to break to pieces. But walked half, the grandmother said difficultly: „First goes to the main room, with your staying little while.” 刘倩和张小花搀扶着外婆,一路咳嗽着去外婆的小屋,听着那咳嗽,张小花的心都有些碎了。可是走了一半,外婆艰难的说:“先去堂屋吧,跟你们多呆会儿。” They held the grandmother to enter the main room according to the word. 两人依言扶着外婆进了堂屋。 Guo Sufei confusedly with coming , is Zhang Xiaohu is holding also lamely, on face facial expression dim Zhang Cai, what finally enters the room is the arm also hangs in chest Zhang Xiaolong. 郭素菲神不守舍地跟着进来,然后是张小虎扶着还一瘸一拐、脸上神情黯淡的张才,最后进屋的是胳膊还吊在胸前的张小龙。 The main room was not big, the person come, sitting that did not speak there, the air in room also resembled to coagulate. 堂屋本就不大,人都进来,不说话的坐在那里,屋里的空气也似凝固了。 At this time, the grandmother started to cough, Liu Qian hurried. the lukewarm water has drunk to the grandmother but actually, this gradually has stopped the cough cup 这时,外婆又开始咳嗽,刘倩赶紧过去,给外婆倒了杯温水喝了,这才渐渐的止住了咳嗽。 Liu Qian wants to speak, breaks this silence, actually does not know how to open the mouth. 刘倩想说话,打破这个寂静,却不知如何开口。 Finally, the grandmother spoke: „The doctor on this town also is really not common expensive, the element poor, we will not go next time, looked that one time gets sick takes a money silver(money), that wants our whole families to spend long Time.” 终于,外婆说话了:“这镇上的大夫还真不是一般的贵啊,素菲啊,下次咱们可不去了,看一次病就要一钱的银子,那要咱们一家人花多长时间啊。” Guo Sufei forced a smile saying: „Mother, looked at you saying that was sick must look, in the family/home was poor, may unable to delay this sickness.” 郭素菲强笑说:“娘亲,看您说的,有病就得去看,家里就算是穷,可也不能耽搁这个病啊。” The grandmother also said: „My this gets sick I to have the spectrum, is not the doctor can favor, I said that you are not bent on having white bloom money silver(money).” 外婆又说:“我这病我自己心里有谱的,不是医生能看好的,我就说不去不去吧,你还偏要白花这一钱的银子。” The Guo Sufei eye was somewhat red at this time, said: „Mother, should not be worried about us, Zhang Cai do not see a doctor, you go are on the way.” 郭素菲眼睛这时有些红了,说:“娘亲,您就不要担心我们啦,张才不是也要看病嘛,您去不过是顺路罢了。” The grandmother sighed, no longer spoke. Also has drunk water, the cough seemed to be light, this made Xiaohua hold is returning to the room to rest. 外婆叹口气,不再说话。又喝了一点水,咳嗽似乎轻了,这才让小花扶着回屋休息了。 Zhang Xiaohua delivers to the grandmother the bed, covers the quilt to her, the grandmother seemed to be tired, quick fell asleep. Zhang Xiaohua is then soundless comes out from the hut. 张小花把外婆送到炕上,给她盖上被子,外婆似乎累了,很快就睡着了。张小花这才蹑手蹑脚的从小屋出来。 Returns to the main room, the room mother sobbing in a low voice, wiping tears. The father is cloudy the face to smoke the tobacco smoked dry in low spirits, the Big Brother and Second Brother as well as Liu Qian complexion is not very attractive. 回到堂屋,屋里的娘亲正低声的抽泣,不停的抹眼泪。爹爹阴沉着脸闷头抽着旱烟,大哥和二哥以及刘倩也都脸色不很好看。 Zhang Xiaohua knows that grandmother's situation is not good, has not stemmed from own anticipation, does not have the thoughts to ask the concrete condition, but looks for a small backless stool silently, sits in the wall shadow. 张小花知道外婆的情况不好,并没有出乎自己的意料,就没心思问具体的病情,只是默默找个小板凳,坐在墙边的阴影里。 Passed the long time, Guo Sufei slightly restored a little tranquil, stopped sobbing, as if at this time saw Xiaohua to come back, her asking in a soft voice: „Xiaohua, did your grandmother rest?” 过了半晌,郭素菲才稍稍恢复一点儿平静,停止了抽泣,似乎这时才看到小花回来,她轻声的问:“小花,你外婆睡了？” Zhang Xiaohua nods said: „Yes, mother, grandmother estimated that was tired, did not have long Time to fall asleep on the bed.” 张小花点头说:“是的,娘亲,外婆估计是累了,趟在炕上没多长时间就睡着了。” Guo Sufei turns the head, asked Zhang Cai: „Did kid's dad, what to do you say us should? Goes to big point city to look for a better doctor again?” 郭素菲又转头来,问张才:“孩子他爹,你说咱到底该怎么办呢？是不是再去大点的城里找更好的大夫呢？” Zhang Cai deeply has smoked a cigarette, has spat, narrowed the eye saying: „Oh, you have not listened to doctor saying that mother sickness is not the general cough , because was old, the body could not support, coughs, does not have the means to cure. Also, mother's body this, has she been able to go to the big point cities? To our recent Pingyang City heard running that fast horse keeps also takes one day a night, mother feared that cannot endure.” 张才深深吸了口烟,吐了出来,眯着眼睛说:“唉,你没听大夫说,娘亲这个病不是一般的咳嗽,是因为年纪大了,身体支撑不住了,才咳嗽的,是没有办法治好的。再说了,娘亲的身体这样,她能去大点的城镇吗？离咱们最近的平阳城听说快马不停的跑也要一天一夜呢,娘亲怕是吃不消的啊。” Guo Sufei was a little also sad, sound a little weeping voice: „Does that think so body giving way of mother bit by bit? Listens fierce that such mother is coughing every day?” 郭素菲又有点悲伤了,声音有点着哭腔:“那就这么看着娘亲的身体一点一点的垮掉？听着娘亲每天咳嗽的这么厉害？” Zhang Cai smiled bitterly was saying: „This does not have the matter of means that the doctor did not say, like the person of mother such big age, he was very rare . Moreover, regarding the 80-year-old person, mother's body was good, I have thought that should listen to the words of doctor, making mother well will raise, the rest was good, eats, made her satisfactory this Time.” 张才苦笑着说:“这也是没办法的事情啊,那大夫不是也说了么,像娘亲这么大年纪的人,他还是很少见的,而且,对于80多岁的人,娘亲的身体算是好的了,我想应该听大夫的话,让娘亲好好的将养,休息好,吃好,让她顺心的过好这段时间。” Guo Sufei does not have other means that she knows that mother has come to the end of life, but she tries our luck, the long illness goes see a doctor randomly, what tries to hold, is only, in the face of this brutal reality, how many values the point of person hopes the wing to have? 郭素菲也是没有别的办法,她知道娘亲已经走到了人生的尽头,但她还是心存侥幸,久病乱投医,试图想抓住点什么,只是,在这残酷的现实面前,人的一点希翼能有多少价值？ The flame that the Guo Sufei weak gaze on the oil lamp is dragging, seems pondering, suddenly, she asked Zhang Cai: „Was right, the kid's dad, doctor said that what thing that mother eats, I how don't know?” 郭素菲无力的注视着油灯上摇曳的火苗,似乎在沉思,突然,她问张才:“对了,孩子他爹,大夫说娘亲吃的那个什么东西啊,我怎么不知道呢？” Listened to these words, Zhang Cai also to raise the head, doubts looks at Guo Sufei. 听了这句话,张才也抬起头,疑惑的看着郭素菲。 People asking of as if by prior agreement: „What thing?” 众人不约而同的问:“什么东西？” Zhang Cai knocked the tobacco smoked dry saying: „At that time in the hospital, doctor just started to diagnose your grandmother the oil lamp was completely dry, anything is not good to diagnose, moreover this cough is also only superficial one condition, in the body randomly has become complete mess. But, afterward your mother implored urgently, he carefully diagnoses, this discovered that although your grandmother's body already bad to the extreme, but within the body has essence warm and nourish, but, this essence are too few, life that is not enough to maintain your grandmother, the doctor said that thinks was what ginseng your grandmother ate recently and so on reason of good thing?” 张才磕了磕旱烟说:“当时在医馆里,大夫刚开始诊断说你外婆已经油尽灯枯,没什么好诊断的,而且这咳嗽也只是表面的一种病情,身体里面已经乱成一团糟了。可是,后来你娘亲苦苦哀求,他才仔细的诊断一番,这才发现虽然你外婆的身体已经糟的到了极点,可是体内却有股精气温养着,不过,这股精气太少,不足以维系你外婆的生命,大夫说想必是最近你外婆吃什么人参之类好东西的缘故？” Everybody has gawked, ginseng? How in the family/home to buy that thing richly. 大家都楞了,人参？家里怎么会有钱买那个东西呀。