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#417: Lunar New Year's Eve (First Part)

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On January 21 , 2004, Austrian capital, Vienna. 2004年一月21日,奥地利首都,维也纳。 Has a dream, waking up time, the ice-cold feeling pricks the marrow. 做了个梦,醒来的时候,冰冷的感觉刺入骨髓。 Probably is the summer of junior middle school time, she and Shasha attended some Martial Arts competition, Jiaming follows, Cao Dongfeng also still, roves like only the fly all day, three people show no external differences, play the role of very intimate appearance to look to him, in fact is very also intimate, during that time kissed Jiaming for the first time, works for one's own interests under the guise of working for the public, heart Pū-tōng Pū-tōng jumps madly, that is also gripping young of very lovable braid...... 大概是初中时候的夏天吧,她和沙沙参加某个武术大赛,家明跟着,曹东峰也还在,整天像只苍蝇转来转去,三个人就一致对外,扮成很亲密的样子给他看,实际上也真的很亲密,那段时间自己第一次亲了家明,假公济私,心底噗通噗通乱跳的,那个还扎着很可爱的辫子的小小的自己…… Obviously little child, evening's time actually rests on together a bed, three people push in together, covers a bed light blanket, the body touches in the same place, very cool summer night, each other is also the neat feeling, but three people no one is willing to close the eye to sleep, without the sleepiness, lies on the bed looks toward out of the window, moon of treetop good beautiful. Shasha crawls, said that is goes out to take playing thing to play cards together, in the corridor passes on sound of footsteps in broken bits, after coming back, took several strings of cotton candies, three people sit on the bed lick lick, the cotton candy soon started to melt, stuck in her hand, she lowered the head to eat, hair that therefore, dangled together with her face on moistened together, Jiaming and Shasha are laughing at her, she tried hard to want the cotton candy that opened these to stick, wanted to open the eye, then...... really opened. 明明都还是小小的孩子,晚上的时候却睡在一同张床上,三个人挤在一块儿,盖一床薄薄的毯子,身体触碰在一起,很清凉的夏夜,彼此也是清爽的感觉,但三个人谁也不肯闭上眼睛睡觉,没有睡意,趴在床上往窗外看出去,树梢上好美的月亮啊。沙沙爬起来,说是出去拿玩的东西一起打牌,走廊里传回来细细碎碎的脚步声,回来之后,却是拿了几串棉花糖,三个人坐在床上舔啊舔啊,棉花糖很快就开始化了,粘在她的手上,她低头去吃,于是连同她脸上、垂下的发丝都一块沾了上去,家明和沙沙都在笑她,她努力想要弄开那些黏黏的棉花糖,想要睁开眼睛,然后……就真的睁开了。 Therefore sad...... 于是悲伤…… The ray passes from the white window curtains, before she was used to the evening to sleep, switches off the warm air, just now felt in blurry coldly, when wants looked for a warmer body toward side, gradually sobers, she looked at the ceiling, the tip of the nose is welling up could hardly be removed grieved., This body was maintaining the initial memory over more than past three years as before, just like the maggot of tarsal bone moved, is resisting the time stubbornly. 光芒从白色的窗帘外透进来,她习惯了晚上睡觉之前关掉暖气,方才在迷迷糊糊中感觉到寒冷,想往旁边找更温暖的身体时,才渐渐清醒过来,她望着天花板,鼻头涌上的酸楚挥之不去。过去三年多了,这具身体依旧保持着当初的记忆,伤感犹如跗骨之蛆,顽固地对抗着时间。 Has trimmed off like the childhood such long hair, now hair arrives at the shoulder reluctantly, in the female schoolmates of music department few people does, what only if walks is the individuality route. But she is not, her aesthetic sense always gentle tradition beautiful, such hair is similar some shape various tenacious and independent symbol outside. Having the person said her to be individualistic, the not how many person understands. Every day here, she clenches the teeth. 像小时候那样长的头发早已剪掉了,如今地发丝勉强到肩膀,音乐系的女同学中很少有人这样干,除非走的是个性路线。但她不是,她的美感总是柔和的传统美,这样的头发仿佛某种形诸于外的坚韧与独立象征。有地人说她特立独行,没有多少人明白。在这里的每一天,她都是咬紧了牙关过来的。 Arrives at the Vienna three -and-a-half years, she grew two centimeters, thin four kilograms, if looks at the data merely. In fact the multi- land have not changed. But in fact she becomes slender frail, more beautiful mature, initial two years have many pursuers, various ways emerge one after another incessantly, have have implicitly boldly, once had the self-sensation good Chauvinism male student her the method that refuses to regard to release in order to catch. The year before last 1 st personality wildly fellow while speaking several words must raise a rumpus to her, the corridor outside classroom was swindled the surface of many people to twist and break the hand by her forcefully, even if the person of this playing art were seemingly strong, still appeared in the face of the joint technique of Jiaming choice collapses at the first blow specially, one group of people looked to stay, no one knows that seemingly delicate refined such as water she had such side unexpectedly, from now. Similar trouble was short. 来到维也纳三年半,她长高了两公分,瘦了四公斤,若仅仅看着数据。实际上并没有多大地变化。但实际上她变得更加纤细单薄,也更加美丽成熟,最初的两年有很多追求者,各种方式层出不穷,有含蓄地也有奔放的,也曾经有自我感觉良好的沙文主义男生将她的拒绝当成欲擒故纵的手段。前年初一个性格狂放地家伙趁着说了几句话要对她动手动脚,被她在教室外的走廊上当着许多人的面硬生生的拧断了手,这种玩艺术的人就算看起来强壮,在家明专门挑选的关节技面前也显得不堪一击,一群人看得都呆掉了,没有人知道看起来柔柔弱弱温雅如水地她居然有这样的一面,从此以后。类似的麻烦就少了许多。 Not only pursues. For these years, she rejected many thing. The rejection rich university human relations, renounce many recollections, refuses to go home even to refuse to hear the related Jianghai news, she consistently was being maintained some hope by oneself, hope once bidding good-bye was because certain specially reasons ---- She understands Jiaming, even if at the present, she also recognized this understanding is not unreal, this is self-confident, is necessary, otherwise, will establish in the past recalls all happy will disintegrate inevitably, the intravenous drip not saved. 不仅仅是追求。这几年来,她拒绝了很多东西。拒绝过于丰富的大学交际,决绝过多的回忆,拒绝回家甚至拒绝听到有关江海的消息,她始终让自己保持着某种希冀,希望曾经的分手是因为某些特殊地原因----她了解家明,哪怕在现在,她也认定这种了解并非虚幻,这是自信,也是必要,否则,建立于过去回忆中地一切美好势必土崩瓦解,点滴无存。 If Jiaming already and another woman had more than one year of relations, will not say suddenly, regardless of genuine and fake, has other reason surely. 如果家明已经和另一个女人有了一年多的关系,就绝不会突然说出来,无论真假,其中必定有其它地理由。 She hopes that Jiaming encountered the threat, hopes that he meets unable to understand matter that suddenly and not agrees said that even hopes--- Even if the dog blood romance soap opera is probably same ---- His real reason is because had the pressure, for does not delay her future to make her go abroad to study to pursue advanced studies intentionally, therefore chose bidding good-bye. What kind of reason, also has a half year, when she completes all these, completed him to anticipate that by matter that oneself handled, she will go back Jianghai, fell these thing in his front, told him: „You misread my Ye Lingjing, you hurt my heart......” 她希望家明是遇到了威胁,希望他是突然遇上了解决不了而又不肯说的事情,甚至希望---哪怕像是狗血言情电视剧一样呢----他的真实理由是因为有了压力,为了不耽误她的前途而故意让她出国留学深造,于是选择了分手。无论是怎样的理由呢,还有半年,当她完成这一切,完成了他期待让自己做的事情,她就会回去江海,将这些东西都摔在他的面前,跟他说:“你看错了我叶灵静,你伤了我的心……” In any event, she can only expect like this, after bidding good-bye, the recollection and hope, are thing that her only can hold...... 无论如何,她只能这样期待了,分手之后,回忆与希冀,是她唯一能抓住的东西…… During this, Dongfang Lu has looked for her one time, two people chatted a while, in fact did not have too many topics to say, as if detected her mood was ordinary, the opposite party has not mentioned related Jiaming or Jianghai anything. Every year and family's relation is to make several phone calls, the parents seems to be also avoiding related Jiaming and Shasha's topic. Her by such wooden thoughts avoid all, what only is sad was does not relate Shasha, the previous telephone could not have made a connection, Jiaming with her in the same place, went to Beijing to go to college, or Jiaming also separated with her, otherwise she will definitely telephone to look for itself. But made a connection with the telephone, two people should say anything, until now she cannot think...... 这期间,东方路来找过她一次,两人聊了一会儿,实际上也没有太多的话题可说,仿佛察觉到她的心情一般,对方没有说起有关家明或者江海的任何事情。每年与家里的联系就是打几个电话,父母似乎也在避开有关家明、沙沙的话题。她就以这样木然的心思回避开一切,唯一难过的是联系不到沙沙了,以前的电话都已经打不通,家明跟她在一起么,去北京上大学了吧,或者家明也跟她分开了,否则她肯定会打电话过来找自己吧。但打通了电话,两人该说些什么呢,直到现在她都想不出来…… „The man who we like together flung...... „ him us” is a bastard ”...... Shasha likes Jiaming, she definitely could not bear...... “我们一块喜欢的男人把我们甩了……”还是“他是个混蛋……”沙沙比自己更喜欢家明,她肯定受不了的…… She takes the remote control was turning on the air conditioning, after the moment, to sit from the bed, hair is scattered in disorder, on the bedding put a photo album, last night looks that fell asleep, puts on the nightstand conveniently, she looked at the alarm clock, at noon 12 points, she had rested a lie-in rarely. 她拿着遥控器开了空调,片刻后才从床上坐起来,发丝散乱着,被褥上放了一本相册,昨晚看着看着就睡着了,顺手放到床头柜上,她看了看闹钟,中午过了已经十二点,她罕见地睡了个懒觉。 Today eve of the Lunar New Year, because of the relations of time difference, in the family/home should be around 7 : 00 pm, she sat on the bed dialed family's telephone, spoke more than ten minutes of words to the parents, on red eye socket. For these years, that side the parents as if somewhat regretted that made her come the decision of Vienna, in the telephone not the words that dared multi- raising to make her go home, but in fact, she felt oneself were unfair to them, did not see for Jiaming them, was too willful. The love is not the entirety of life, this words who knows, when we are young frivolous, who can suppress such sentiment truly? 今天大年三十,因为时差的关系,家里应该是晚上 7 点多了,她坐在床上拨通了家里的电话,跟父母说了十多分钟的话,不禁就红了眼眶。这几年来,父母那边似乎有些后悔让她来维也纳的决定,电话里也不敢多提让她回家的话,但实际上,她是觉得自己对不起他们,为了家明连他们都不见,太任性了。爱情不是生命的全部,这种话谁都知道,但我们年少轻狂时,谁又能真正抑制住这样的感情呢？ After the transoceanic telephone gruel praised, from the bed, the knocking on a door sound, she is arriving at the cat eye place to look at one outward, out of the door put on the man of white suit probably is about 30 years old. The light blue eye pupil, silver thin frame glasses, the blonde shawl, seems quite charming, both hands hug in the chest front, is clamping a dispatch case, sees with own eyes no one to speak. According to a doorbell. 越洋电话粥褒完之后,正从床上下来,敲门声响了起来,她走到猫眼处往外看了一眼,门外穿白色西装的男人大概三十岁左右。浅蓝色的眼眸,银色细框眼镜,金发披肩,显得相当帅气,双手抱在胸前,夹着一个文件袋,眼见没人说话。又按了一下门铃。 „Teacher Julian, gives me five minutes.” “朱利安老师,给我五分钟。” These words have said that after several minutes, she opens the door again. Has worn the neat winter clothing, has washed the face. Also reorganized the hair, but in the hand takes a toothbrush: „I must clean the teeth, come.” 这句话说过,几分钟后她再来打开门。已经穿好了整齐的冬装,洗过了脸。也整理好了头发,只是手上拿着一支牙刷:“我还要刷牙,请进。” „Wú, I am thinking that...... actually makes the appearance that I saw you just to get out of bed time have nothing, not? Like this I do not need to stand for several minutes outside......” “唔,我在想……其实让我看见一次你刚起床的样子也没什么,不是吗？这样我就不必在外面站上好几分钟了……” „Sorry.” “抱歉。” Replied one lightly. Lingjing closed the washroom threshold, after the moment , when comes out, is completely the neat condition: „Teacher Julian, I think that...... I had asked for leave yesterday......” 淡淡地回答一句。灵静关上了洗手间地门,片刻后再出来时,已经完全是整洁的状态了:“朱利安老师,我想……我昨天请过假了……” „Not for this matter.” Julian is maintaining the charming smile, „I know that today is China is most traditional is also the most important new year, in fact. Had a friend to introduce to me a very good Chinese restaurant, will have a meeting tonight, I think that you can pass to participate.” “不是为了这件事。”朱利安保持着迷人的笑容,“我知道今天是中国最传统也是最重要的新年,事实上。有位朋友给我介绍了一家很好的中国餐馆,今天晚上会有一个聚会,我认为你可以过去参加一下。” The room is not big, Julian sat on the sofa, Lingjing sat in the sides of the bed thinks, later raised the head smiles: „In fact, I do not want to participate in such activity today......” 房间不大,朱利安坐在了沙发上,灵静坐在床沿想了想,随后抬头一笑:“事实上,我今天不是很想参加这样的活动……” „OK. If I wants to participate. Experiences the custom of China, hopes that you can accompany...... you to know. I did not know about China very much, Chinese also has the barrier.” “OK。如果说是我想去参加。体验一下中国的风俗,希望你能陪同呢……你知道。我对中国不是很了解,中文也有障碍。” The silent moment, Lingjing nods: „If Teacher you hope this, I will go.” 沉默片刻,灵静点点头:“如果老师你希望这样,我会去地。” Arrived at Vienna for these years, said that teacher Julian was a she familiar also recent person, this Teacher was young, moreover had the talent, not only has participated in the new year music performance of golden hall, even the Austrian royal family honorary piano teacher, helping her not few be busy, introduced that her the opera house worked and studied, the fame was an exception, the wages at least making satisfied her life sufficiently and study the need, outside this condition position quite good room situated in school, was his introduction rented. When Jiaming with she bids good-bye to her bankcard and contact person anything, she receives well there, some day she must throw constantly these, wants him to give itself to apologize the place. 来到维也纳这几年,说起来导师朱利安算是她最熟悉也最近的一个人,这位老师年轻而且有才华,不仅参与过金色大厅的新年音乐演出,甚至还是奥地利王室地名誉钢琴导师,帮过她不少忙,将她介绍到歌剧院勤工俭学,名气除外,至少赚来的工资足以满足她地生活和学习需要,位于学校外这间条件位置都相当不错的房间,也是他的介绍才租了下来。家明跟她分手时给她的银行卡、联系人什么的,她都好好地收在那儿,有一天她要将这些原封不动地扔回去,要他给自己道歉地。 Julian looked at her several eyes, later shakes the head actually with a smile: „Cracks a joke, but thought that you should also have more normal social activities, since does not like, I do not force, in fact today comes to give you these documents.” He shook the dispatch case on hand, „last year once discussed you have graduated the matter after you, at that time was speaks thoughtlessly, you also spoke thoughtlessly to reject, but I hope that you can consider again, you currently have a big fame, several companies have revealed the intention, hopes that you continued to develop in Europe, I have also contacted some friends, this was for a series of plans that you made, I will hold the post of your Manager, until you stepped that day of golden hall performance stage.” 朱利安望了她几眼,随后倒是笑着摇了摇头:“开玩笑的,只是觉得你也应该有更正常的社交活动而已,既然不喜欢,我也不勉强,事实上今天过来是要给你这些文件。”他晃了晃手上的文件袋,“去年就曾经跟你谈论过你毕业后事情,当时是随口说,你也随口拒绝了,不过我希望你能够再考虑一下,你目前已经有了不小的名气,有好几个公司都已经表露出意向,希望你继续在欧洲发展,我也跟一些朋友联系过,这是为你做的一系列计划,我将会担任你地经纪人,直到你踏上金色大厅演出台的那一天。” „Teacher, this......” “老师,这……” Julian waves: „You have the talent, intelligential, so long as develops, will certainly obtain the enormous success, because of many things, I have lost the intelligence, without the means concentrates on the piano again, therefore hopes that can put down it some time, could look for again this feeling, these thing, are you earns.” 朱利安挥了挥手:“你有才华,有灵性,只要发展下去,必将会获得巨大的成功,因为很多的事情,我已经失去灵性了,没有办法再专注于钢琴,所以希望能够放下它一段时间,或许能够将这种感觉再找回来,这些东西,是你应得的。” He holds up the hand of Lingjing, puts the dispatch case, before the opposite party has the response of repel lets loose calmly. Lingjing knits the brows: „Teacher, I will not stay in Europe......” 他拉起灵静的手,将文件袋放上去,在对方生出排斥的反应前不动声色地放开。灵静皱了皱眉:“老师,我不会留在欧洲地……” „Does not need such to answer me quickly, can consider for several days, my also has matter, first walked.” “不用这么快答复我,可以多考虑几天,我还有事,先走了。” Julian looked at the watch, waves to leave, Lingjing delivers him to the entrance, looks that form goes downstairs, later closes, admits the drawer the dispatch case. 朱利安看了看手表,挥手离开,灵静送他到门口,看着那身影下楼,随后关上了门,将文件袋放进抽屉。 The nightstand on the surface photo album also fort goes, putting half also hesitated the moment, pulls out to open one page, looked at several then to gather, covered in does not let loose in the knee for a very long time. The rear air conditioning moved the gauze curtain, the white light threw into the entire room, that form sat on the sides of the bed, was desolate seems like must melt in the light...... 床头柜上地相册也要塞进去,放到一半又犹豫了片刻,抽出来翻开一页,看了几眼便又合起来,捂在膝盖在久久不放开。后方的空调吹动了纱帘,白光投进整个房间,那道身影坐在床沿上,落寞得像是要化在了光里…… Julian goes out of the apartment front door, pulled out two Chinese restaurant meeting admission tickets to come to see several from the pocket, later tore up, throws into the trash can. 朱利安走出公寓大门,从口袋里掏出两张中国餐馆地聚会门票来看了几眼,随后撕掉,扔进垃圾桶里。 Not the far place, the vehicle of friend is waiting there, that person by near the vehicle door, sees him, smiled: „Was such came out quickly, only then in front of this girl, you always could not find the topic to chat, I should say that this was the good phenomenon or the bad phenomenon?” 不远的地方,朋友的车子正在那儿等着,那人靠在车门边,看见他,笑了起来:“又是这么快就出来了,只有在这个女孩子面前,你总是找不到话题可聊,我该说这是好现象还是坏现象呢？” „She is too sensitive, I did not want to be disliked by her like this.” “她太敏感,我不希望就这样被她讨厌了。” Entered the vehicle door from both sides, later the vehicles start slowly: „such said, you really do want to arrange for her in the future? Built an Eastern music goddess?” 从两旁进了车门,随后车辆缓缓起步:“这么说,你是真的想要替她安排好未来？打造一个东方音乐女神了？” Julian is smiling: „I should go to China.” 朱利安笑着:“我应该会去中国。” „Uh?” “呃？” „She is very tenacious, will not stay in Europe, therefore I first give her to arrange so many, she will make the concession, making me arrange her in the future of China, moreover...... the East should be able more inspirations to be right to me, I have long ago thought must have a look......” “她很固执,不会留在欧洲,所以我首先给她安排这么多,她才会作出让步,让我安排她在中国的未来,而且……东方应该能给我更多的灵感才对,我很久以前就想过要去看看了……” „Really is diligently, I think that you really do not have the means to concentrate on the piano now......” “真是努力啊,我想你现在真的是没办法专注于钢琴了……” „I now am quite dedicated in her.” “我现在比较专注于她。” „It seems each artist to fall in love with the own work?” “就好像每一个艺术家都会爱上自己的作品？” „Right.” Julian nods, „on...... each artist, will fall in love with the own work probably.” “没错。”朱利安点点头,“就好像……每一个艺术家,都会爱上自己的作品。” When the automobile has transferred the front corner, he remembers to put that photo album on room nightstand, inside picture, he had seen. That is the wedding photo, one male and two female, in these pictures, Lingjing smile or the delightful person, or cunning nimble and resourceful, these are called the happy mood sufficiently, since her teacher three years, he has not seen. 汽车转过前方街角时,他想起摆在房间床头柜上的那本相册,里面的照片,他曾经看见过。那是婚纱照,一男两女,那些照片里,灵静笑得或甜美可人,或狡黠灵动,这些足以被称为幸福的情绪,担任她的导师三年以来,他没有看到过。 Days of will appear again...... 有一天会再出现的…… The vehicles roll by tall and pleasing to the eye constructions, he is thinking like this, stretch/leisurely launches the brow. 车辆驶过一栋栋美轮美奂的建筑,他这样想着,舒展开眉头。 The similar time, Lingjing sits in that ray, the photo album according to the leg, the vision is blurred. Is widely separated by beyond ten thousand li (0.5 km), the deserted unmanned city intersection, the stroller rear man lifted the head, looks to the fireworks that in the nighttime sky explodes, to scatter unceasingly, the ray flickers, exaggerated the face of that recollection...... 同样的时刻,灵静坐那片光芒中,将相册按在腿上,目光迷离。远隔万里之外,空寂无人的城市街口,小推车后方的男子抬起了头,望向夜空中不断爆开、散落的烟花,光芒忽明忽暗的,渲染了那张回忆的脸……
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