Often in the profound silent night, she can see the look that mother gazes, is miserable the haze that like the mist fluctuates, pale, but deathly stillness. That look one day one day place is gazing at her, the brand mark made her feel that generally just like heart tight gripped suffocation and pain. 每每在深邃寂静的夜里,她能看见母亲注视的眼神,如同薄雾凄凉间浮动的阴霾,苍白而死寂。那眼神一日一日地注视着她,烙印一般的令她感觉到犹如心脏被紧紧握住的窒息和痛楚。 „Strengthen...... strengthen......, only then you become have prospects, can......” “变强……变强……只有你变得更有出息,才能……” Very small time, she had listened to mother that desperate weeping and wailing and weeping with grief, before front door that stands tall and erect, draws her to entreat to everyone. 很小的时候,她曾经听过母亲那绝望的哭喊与悲泣,在那高耸的大门前,拉着她向每一个人哀求。 „...... Does not have the relations, you not to acknowledge that my status are not related, but......, but she is innocent, she is second son's daughter, is why the biological daughter...... does not make us go in...... to ask you, at least makes child following her father...... the child be able do without the father......” “……没关系、你们不承认我的身份没关系,可是……可是她是无辜的啊,她是二公子的女儿,是亲生女儿……为什么不让我们进去……求求你们,至少让孩子跟着她的父亲……孩子不能没有父亲的啊……” That weeps blood the pain weeps bitterly deeply engraves in her mind as before somewhere, once the consciousness passed over gently and swiftly, comes, is sorrow and despair as always, for example that deep night, for example that dies the blue sea, once were surrounded, it of person, by little oppression corrosion. 那泣血般的痛苦悲号依旧深深镌刻于她心灵的某处,一旦意识掠过,紧接而来的,是一如既往的悲哀与绝望,譬如那深沉的黑夜,譬如那死蓝的大海,一旦被包围其中,就连人的本身,也会被一点点的压迫侵蚀。 „...... Present such situation, he will be will certainly not want you...... to make the child go, can look touch him......, once accepted the child, he is not then able to neglect you truly, one day can...... you not say yourself again, remember, for child, you how, so long as they will accept the child......” “……现在这样的情况,他是肯定不会要你了……让孩子去,看看能不能打动他……一旦接受了孩子,他便无法真正的忽略你,总有一天能够……你千万别再说你自己,记住,为了孩子,你怎么样都可以,只要他们接受孩子……” The mother does not know, when the members of the same family in these darkness brief personally to her, the child under the thick curtain package, silent sobs...... 母亲并不知道,当那些黑暗中的亲族向她面授机宜时,孩子在厚厚的帷幔包裹下,无声地哭泣…… That is the time that she is unable to forget forever, like beggar kneeling on the avenue, pinches the weeping sound that pinches to send out the ache in mother's doom. How long during that time continued? A month? Two months? Has forgotten, the person but who finally, these as if deity keeps aloof generally walked. 那是她永远无法忘记的时光,如同乞丐般的跪在大街上,在母亲的死命掐捏下发出疼痛的哭声。那段时间持续了多久呢？一个月？两个月？已经忘记了,但终于,那些仿佛天神一般高高在上的人走了出来。 „...... Does not think the hand...... had killed you dirty......” “……要不是不想脏了手……早就杀了你们……” „...... Woll family/home will not accept the aptitude mediocre child......” “……沃尔家不会接受资质平庸的孩子……” „......, This young dirty ghost is timid, the physique is bad, is long ugly, will not have prospects......” “……哼,这小脏鬼胆子小,体质差,长得又丑,不会有出息……” It is not able to put behind that the incomparable imposing manner is covering the feeling of whole body the long sword strap, that time she, even was frightened wet urinates the pants, withstands the people to ridicule recklessly. Only genial, is that frowning young girl, is in the heart preserves, last ray. 无法忘却的,还有那把长刀带着无比的气势笼罩住全身的感觉,那时的她,甚至被吓得尿湿了裤子,承受着众人肆意的嘲笑。唯一和善的,是那个皱着眉头的少女,也是心中留存的,最后一丝光芒。 „To without child of strength brandishes a sword, is what skill! This child is only five -year-old, how you know her certainly unpromising......” “向没有力量的孩子挥刀,算什么本事！这孩子才五岁,你又怎么知道她一定没出息……” Because of that a few words, she obtained a commitment...... 因为那一句话,她获得了一个承诺…… „Obstructs......” “碍……” Eyes that opens from that sorrowful deep dream, but brings light wound clear/pain, does not have any fluctuation. Under the body is the dry meadow, the body top head the thick waterproof cloth, on the naked body, had worn the clothes by that person for oneself, but...... that person has left...... 从那悲哀深沉的梦中张开的双眼,只是带着淡淡的伤楚,没有任何波动。身下是干燥的草甸,身上盖着厚厚的雨布,原本赤裸的身体上,已经由那人为自己穿好了衣服,只是……那人已经离开了…… The fire of high-piled firewood ignites the final careful large flame in the side not far place, flashes several, only remained the final ash fire. The dark-red light piles in the darkness sends out the final light and heat, the stormy noise of the rain as if transmits from the remote place. The belly is very hungry, actually and might as well suffer three days were like that unendurable, perhaps in oneself lethargic sleep past time, he fed himself to eat something. She absent-minded sits, both hands kneecap cast, calmly sits there. The soul seems going to leave the main body, consciousness rocks in the body slightly. 火堆在身旁不远的地方燃起最后的细细火舌,扑闪几下,只剩了最后的余烬。暗红色的光堆在黑暗中发出最后的光和热,密集的雨声仿佛从遥远的地方传来。肚子很饿,却并不如捱了三天那般难以忍受,恐怕是在自己昏睡过去的时间里,他喂自己吃了些东西吧。她失神地坐起来,双手抱膝,静静地坐在那儿。灵魂仿佛将要离开本体,意识在身躯中微微晃动。 The fire of high-piled firewood has the dry firewood, she has not actually gone. Crossed one, that body sway stands, during submerging one piece is jet black. For a very long time, the distant place hears the human body falls on the ground „plop” sound. 火堆边有干柴,她却没有去动。过了一阵,那身体摇摇晃晃地站起来,没入一片漆黑之中。久久的,远处传来人体摔在地上的“扑通”声。 Swayed to crawl, she put out a hand to touch the forehead subconsciously, stuck sticky and greasy greasy, feared that bled. Then looks, the red light pile appears in the field of vision distant place, just like a jet black say/way sign. She takes back the vision, wants to continue, the slight rustling sound also spread to the ear. 摇晃着爬了起来,她下意识伸手摸了摸额头,粘粘腻腻的,怕是流血了吧。回头望去,红色的光堆出现在视野的远方,犹如一片漆黑中的道标。她收回目光,想要继续走,细微的沙沙声也传入了耳中。 That is the direction that the noise of the rain transmits, the sound of footsteps mixes the sound that the chinaware is colliding, gradually becomes clear. The person's shadow appears in side of fire of high-piled firewood, is dragging the long waterproof cloth, several firewood throw into the fire of high-piled firewood, something were placed underground, empty, another world that probably only then the watcher and had by the watcher. 那是雨声传来的方向,足音混合着瓷器碰撞的声音,逐渐变得清晰。人影出现在火堆的旁边,拖着长长的雨布,几根柴枝扔进火堆之中,一些东西被放在地下,空空荡荡的,像是只有注视者和被注视者存在的另一个世界。 He came back...... 他回来了…… The flame is throwing into fuel/thin branch the next quarter then to start bright, that person turns round, at once looks at dumbly in the Huo radical, after looking over a wide area looks in all directions, the shout transmits. 火光在扔入柴枝的下一刻便开始明朗,那人回身,旋即呆立在火旁,游目四顾后,喊声传来。 „-” “芙尔娜-” The sound spreads in the darkness, transmitted the echo from afar. She stands there has not moved, looks from afar that person tried to find out the waterproof cloth, held a flare, is seeking in the darkness. 声音在黑暗中传开,远远的传来了回音。她站在那里没有动,远远看着那人摸索了雨布,执起了一根火把,在黑暗中寻找着。 „-” “芙尔娜-” „Makes noise-” “出声啊-” „In-” “在吗-” „...... I know that you hate me, but to be how good, your present body has the wound, first gets better us to chat the line again well not?” “……我知道你恨我,但是怎样都好,你现在身体有伤,先把身体养好我们再好好聊聊行不？” „...... I know that you here, come out!” “……我知道你就在这里,出来啊！” „...... In any event, first recovers your, you are still having a fever, first comes back!” “……无论如何,先养好你的伤,你还在发烧,先回来！” „...... Sorry, I am the sincerity apologize, if mad at me, comes to me, do not make fun of oneself.” “……对不起,我是真心道歉的,假如生我的气,就冲着我来,别拿自己开玩笑。” „...... Your this is what's the matter! Maltreating you were good? You think that like this I will be guilty?” “……你这样算是怎么回事！虐待你自己就好了吗？你以为这样子我就会内疚吗？” „...... Comes out! My several three, did not come out I to be really angry!” “……出来啊！我数三声,再不出来我真的生气了！” „...... Comes out! Was not on your one time! Is worth using to harm itself to retaliate me? If makes me catch you, I rape...... me again , is sorry......” “……出来！不就是上了你一次吗！值得你用伤害自己来报复我？要是让我逮到你,我就再强奸……我、唉,抱歉……” „...... Really, you do not come out I really to pull out...... you......” “……真的,你再不出来我真的要抽……你……” That sparking flare runs in the darkness back and forth, is seeking diligently, shouting is been gradually small by the loud revolutions, to finally, then turns into oneself thought aloud low nan. She such is looking at that form, flustered and anxious...... original, regarding oneself, he will also reveal the sound that such manner...... the flare sways to be even more resounding, finally, person who after the hand holds the flare sends out the quite cruel-hearted curse, before that group of flames passed over gently and swiftly oneself the body, after the moment, folded, illuminated that pale face. 那闪亮的火把在黑暗中来回奔跑,努力地寻找着,呼喊由大声渐渐转小,到最后,便变成了自己自言自语般的低喃。她就那样地望着那道身影,慌张、焦急……原来,对于自己,他也会露出这样的神态吗……火把摇晃的声音愈加响亮,终于,当手执火把的人发出颇为狠心的诅咒之后,那团火光掠过自己了身前,片刻后又折了回来,照亮了那张苍白的脸庞。 Appears in oneself at present, is the breathing rapidly youngster, the slightly bow the body, he is deleting head beads of sweat, holds the flare to take a look at itself. 出现在自己眼前的,是呼吸急促的少年,微躬着身体,他擦去头上的汗珠,举着火把打量自己。 „...... Hū...... really in this, did I...... you trip and fall? Why......” “……呼……果然在这,我……你摔跤了？为什么……” As if suddenly realized two people relate at this moment, on his face lightens a forced smile: „...... In is very black, the words that must take a walk, take the flare......” 似乎突然意识到两人此刻的关系,他的脸上闪出一丝苦笑:“呵……里面很黑,要走动的话,带上火把吧……” Adjusted to breathe, the youngster set out, is looking at opposite female, the pale and thin and pale complexion, two eyes actually looked at him, later, saw only her to open the opens the mouth slightly: „You...... must hit me......” 调整了一下呼吸,少年直起身来,望着对面的女子,苍白而憔悴的脸色,两只眼睛却直直地望定了他,随后,只见她微微张了张口:“你……要打我吗……” That sound brings hoarsely, has like the glass disruption clear sense of reality. Tang Yiwang she, was staying one dull, later in the eye shows the complex look. Walks gently, embraces her shoulder single-handedly, enters her leg to be curved single-handedly, held that delicate weak body gently. 那声音带着沙哑,却有着如同玻璃碎裂般的晶莹质感。唐忆望着她,呆了一呆,随后眼中露出复杂的神色。轻轻地走过去,一手揽住她的肩膀,一手伸入她的腿弯,将那具柔弱无力的身躯轻轻抱了起来。 „Right...... I will hit you......” “没错……我会打你……” **************************************************************************** **************************************************************************** Slings the leaf pot, to boil water, clean, applies medicine and wraps up, she closely grasps his waist, when like yesterday was nakedly naked generally rolls up in his side, whatever the opposite party drew out the thick white bandage in her forehead pierced, the look is somewhat looking at some delicate face of that blurredly regarding the man, static listened to him to speak. 吊起树叶锅、烧水、清洗、上药、包扎,她紧紧抱住他的腰,如同昨日赤身裸身时一般蜷缩在他的身边,任由对方在她的额头上扎起厚厚的白色绷带,眼神有些迷离地望着那张对于男子来说有些过于柔弱的脸,静静的听他说话。 „...... Just arrived here time, boils water with such leaf, altogether used more than one year of appearance, must control the good fire intensity, must control the good water, is actually not very convenient, at that time but can do also only then this......” “……刚到这里的时候,就是用这样的树叶烧水的,一共用了一年多的样子,要控制好火势,又要控制好水,其实很不方便,但当时能做的也只有这样……” „...... In forest actually many good things, but people barely use generally. If there are chooses, I or hope oneself then live since childhood here, because only by doing so, or I can understand here truly,......” gazed at her one like the flurry, discovered her look too many changes, just now from not bringing in the earthenware jar uses the small bowl to be abundant the rice gruel, one spoon of one spoon of places feed her mouth. “……森林里其实有很多好东西,只是人们一般很少去用而已。假如有得选择,我或者会希望自己从小便生活在这里,因为只有那样,或者我才能真正的理解这里,就像小雪一样……”注视了她一阵,发现她的眼神并没有太多的变化,方才从带来的瓦罐中用小碗盛出米粥,一勺一勺地喂进她的嘴里。 „After...... contacted too many things, or people then lost intelligence. The forest is sometimes very beautiful, but more often, actually can only make me feel the oppression and fear. Probably tall wall surrounding your great tree, omnipresent danger, almost solidification darkness, scarce why similar...... the person will need the friend, needs the companion, needs the space, needs the house, I think that is only because we need the space that can breathe, many thing assimilation, will gain the partial freedom, otherwise, we will certainly frightened and swallow dark. If not this, I do not want to make the flurry has slightly unhappy, will not try with the outside world to exchange again, naturally will not meet you, harmed you......” “……接触了太多外界的东西之后,或者人们便失去了本身的灵性。森林有时候很美,但更多的时候,其实只能令我感觉到压迫和恐惧。像是高墙般包围着你的巨树,无所不在的危险,几乎凝固的黑暗,稀少的同类……人为什么会需要朋友,需要伴侣,需要空间,需要房屋,我想那只是因为我们需要可以呼吸的空间,将更多的东西同化,获得局部的自由,否则,我们必将被恐惧和黑暗所吞噬。如果不是这样,我不会想让小雪有丝毫的不开心,不会再试图与外界交流,当然也不会遇上你们,也伤害了你……” At this point, he felt that surrounds the hand of waist slightly one tightly, cannot help but reveals a forced smile. 说到这里,他感觉芙尔娜环抱住自己腰间的手微微一紧,不由得露出一丝苦笑。 „...... Actually I not like you suspect, from some educated aristocratic family. Naturally my original family/home has not had inferior compared with the present aristocrat, but I had not actually cared about money. My parents are very outstanding people, or was too splendid. They have the respective life respectively, has the respective friend respectively, each one also has the respective family, but for them a total of I, because seems hard to classify, instead was neglected......, in brief, I felt harmed, therefore left the home, under the function of some strength, arrived here......” “……其实我并不像你们猜想的那样,来自某个有教养的贵族家庭。当然我原本的家比之现在的贵族也未有逊色,但其实我一直都没在乎过钱。我的父母都是很出色的人,或者太出色了。他们各自有各自的生活,各自有各自的朋友,各自也有着各自的家庭,而为他们所共有的我,似乎因为难以归类,反而被忽略了过去……呵,总之,我感到受到了伤害,所以离开了家,在某种力量的作用下,来到了这里……” „...... On us has similar thing, when Madame Sophia requested when I attempt unties your heart to tie, I complied, however in fact, I do not know how should diligently...... on the other hand, I once the friend and you were more similar, I once tried to reach out her, but similarly failure. I decide to leave first two months of family/home, because she accidental/surprised and passed away, however I was not clear whether in her heart has been anticipating this accident/surprise, whether has been anticipating leaves that world, but your present mental state, really very similar......” he embraced tightly her with her miserably, „...... I am afraid very much, do you know?” “……我们身上有着类似的东西,所以当索菲亚夫人请求我试图解开你的心结时,我答应了下来,然而事实上,我并不知道该如何努力……相对来说,我曾经有一位朋友与你更为类似一些,我曾经试图向她伸出手来,但是同样失败了。我决定离开家的前两个月,她因为一场意外而去世,然而我并不清楚她的心中是否一直都在期待着这场意外,是否一直在期待着离开那个世界,但是你现在的精神状况,与她真的很相似……”他不无凄凉地搂紧了她,“……我很害怕,你知道吗？” Has not spoken, but begins supinely calmly is looking at him, puts out a hand slowly, caresses mo his cheeks, as if in the confirmation present scene is whether real, Tang Yiqing grips her hand, among two people fills the silent atmosphere. Because almost sticks to his second half shen to roll up one group, just now when with guilty speech has not felt anything, at this time Tang Yicai discovers two people posture dim daylight mei. The property of pink fruit has passed, oneself also rested enough, is looking at she delicate weak appearance, cannot help but, the physiological reaction rose. 芙尔娜没有说话,只是仰起头静静地望着他,缓缓地伸出手来,抚mo着他的脸颊,似乎在确认眼前的景象是否真实,唐忆轻握住她的手,两人之间弥漫起沉默的气氛。由于芙尔娜几乎紧贴着他的下半shen蜷缩成一团,方才怀着内疚说话时还不觉得什么,此时唐忆才发现两人姿势的暧mei。粉红色果实的药性已经过去,自己也休息得够了,望着她柔弱无力的样子,不由自主的,生理反应又升了上来。 It seems like continued to hug him not to change the posture is also indifferent for one day and one night, but Tang Yi felt more and more uncomfortable, has drawn that leaf pot calmly, searched the surplus water temperatures, immediately twisted a towel to scratch cleanly the cheeks and both hands for her, later said: „...... On you are some sores very painful? Do oneself spread? I ensure does not look......” 芙尔娜看来继续抱着他一天一夜不换姿势也无所谓,但唐忆却感到越来越难受,不动声色地拉过那树叶锅,探了探剩余的水温,当下拧了一块毛巾为她擦干净了脸颊和双手,随后说道:“呃……你身上还有些伤处很痛吧？自己敷一下好么？我保证不看……” Such a saying, he thought immediately dim daylight mei, the place of opposite party this moment injury most serious need hot compress, wasn't being devastated the fierce place by oneself? Yesterday even if spread one, but the extravasated blood has not actually diverged, wants to come still to swell at this moment. Such thinks, he does not dare to say again, transfers to body the dry/does meadow, sets out to want, actually perceived that suddenly is not right. 这样一说,他顿时觉得更为暧mei了,对方身上此刻伤势最严重需要热敷的地方,不正是被自己摧残得厉害的似处么？昨天纵然敷了一阵但淤血却未散去,想来此刻仍旧肿着。这样一想,他不敢再多说,将芙尔娜的身体移到干草甸上,起身欲走,却忽然觉察出不对。 Lies down in the meadow at this moment, does not have the appearance that must move slightly, but two hands hold oneself trouser legs coverings as before weak, vision sad tragic, gazes at place that she holds at this moment. Just now when oneself put down her, unties her both hands, however she grips oneself front piece immediately, with own standing, the place that two hands can grasp also even more downward, she at this moment so frail, wants to come itself, if takes a step to walk, her hand then loses the thing that grasps grasps immediately. Like this maintained posture good one of the taking a step, he sighed in a soft voice, squatted to sit, hugged the bosom her again. The face drew close to his chest, hand surrounds his waist. 芙尔娜此刻躺在草甸上,却没有丝毫要动的样子,只是两只手依旧无力地抓住自己的裤腿,目光哀伤凄楚,注视着她此刻抓住的地方。方才自己放下她时,将她的双手解开,然而她立刻握住了自己的衣襟,随着自己的站立,那两只手能抓的地方也愈加往下,此刻的她是如此的脆弱,想来自己若是举步要走,她的手便会立刻失去抓握的东西了吧。就这样保持了举步的姿势好一阵,他轻声一叹,又蹲坐了回去,将她重抱进怀里。脸一贴近他的胸口,芙尔娜的手又环抱住了他的腰。 Without the speech, is looking at this time facial expression, Tang Yi does not know that what kind of idea in the heart is. Drew silently had given that dry/does waterproof cloth, he bound two people bodies. In the temperature to waterproof cloth rises gradually, he puts out a hand, starts knot on solution Diaofu the clothes. 没有说话,望着她此时的神情,唐忆也不知道心中是怎样的想法。默默地拉过了原本给芙尔娜盖的那张干雨布,他将两人的身体裹了起来。待到雨布中的温度渐渐升高,他伸出手来,开始解掉芙尔娜衣服上的扣子。 And Two and three...... treat to takes off the clothes for her, he like treating the child hugged her generally, then takes off the trousers of her lower part of the body, becomes to that clear graceful body stark naked...... 一层、两层、三层……待到为她脱去衣服,他如同对待孩子一般将她抱了起来,接着脱去她下身的长裤,一直到那具晶莹曼妙的身体变得一丝不挂…… No the meaning of resistance, is only calmly shrinks during his bosom, whatever he used the towel to clean each of body for her...... 没有任何抗拒的意思,芙尔娜只是静静地缩在他的怀抱之中,任由他用毛巾为她擦拭了身体的每一处…… „You want...... to hit me......” “你要……打我吗……” Like talking during sleep general, when Tang Yi with towel for his hot compress the sores between both legs, she gently and said these words...... 如同呓语一般,当唐忆用毛巾为他热敷着双腿间的伤处时,她轻轻地又说出了这句话……