Chapter 136 not I 第136章非我 The scene of old lady godchild stops suddenly, Aunt Wu opens the eye, as if must in that child the present Xu Xian same memory superpose. 老娘教子的场面陡然停止,吴婶睁大眼睛,似乎要将眼前的许仙同记忆中那个孩子进行重合。 „permits...... immortal!” “许……仙！” The window of street both sides confinement opens suddenly, finds out many heads to look around, mostly is the Xu Xian familiar face. 街道两旁的禁闭的窗户忽然打开,探出许多脑袋四下张望,大多是许仙熟悉的面孔。 The chilly street lived it up suddenly, the fellow villager goes out of the gate to come to Xu Xian to congratulate in abundance, some expressed that when Xu Xian is small saw that his natural talent is intelligent, if became the macroclimate. 原本清寂的街道忽然热闹起来,乡邻纷纷走出门来向许仙道贺,有的表示在许仙小的时候就看出他天资聪颖,如果果真成了大气候。 The Xu Xian heart said: That young fool what's the matter! 许仙心道:那小傻子是怎么回事！ Some said Xu Xian birth time, sees the golden light to drop from the clouds together, guaranteeing is Star of the Culture Song is born. 有的则说许仙出生的时候,就见一道金光从天而降,保准是文曲星降世。 Xu Xian: You saw the legend light of crossing over. 许仙:您难道见到了传说中的穿越之光。 During the crowding around of crowd, before Xu Xian returns to the main house gate, the former days house now has renovated, has a meteorology. 在人群的簇拥之中,许仙回到家门前,旧日的屋宇如今已翻新过一遍,已经颇有一番气象。 „Thump thump thump” knocks the door, permits Jiaorong of opening the door, sees so many people to visit, first has a scare, when to the seeing clearly middle that young people, expresses an exclamation, „Scholar!?” “咚咚咚”叩开家门,开门的正是许娇容,见这么多人登门,先是吓了一跳,待到看清中间那年轻人,发出一声惊叹,“汉文！？” Xu Xian said with a smile: „Elder sister, I came back.” 许仙笑道:“姐姐,我回来了。” permits Jiaorong is busy at welcoming them crosses the threshold, apologized to fellow villager, closed the door, high and low is sizing up Xu Xian, gushed out the tears gradually. 许娇容忙将他们迎入门中,谢过诸位乡邻,才将房门合上,上下打量着许仙,渐渐也涌出泪来。 Bai Suzhen urged hand in hand: „Elder sister, Scholar he comes back, this is the great happiness day, how you cried!” 白素贞携手劝道:“姐姐,汉文他回来,这是大喜的日子,你怎么哭了！” „What sister-in-law said that I pull him with great difficulty such in a big way, now saw his prospect, this tears, could not bear!” “弟妹说的是,我好不容易把他拉扯这么大,如今看到他出息了,这眼泪啊,就忍不住！” When Xu Xian leaves home these days, the Bai Suzhen cultivation, often must pay a visit, two people have known extremely well extremely. 在许仙离家这段时间里,白素贞修炼之余,常要登门拜访,二人已是极为熟稔。 The happiness of reunion, goes without saying. 重逢之喜,自不待言。 But is the real trouble. 但而后才是真正的麻烦。 First must do then worships the ancestor, illuminated permits Jiaorong saying that Xu Xian can the successful candidate, that be the ancestor accumulated the good deeds done in secret, naturally must worship well. 首先要做的便是祭拜祖先,照许娇容所说,许仙能够中得进士,那是祖上积下了阴德,当然要好好祭拜。 Xu Xian thought: Then to might as well worship Yun Yan, comes compared with the ancestors, is her merit is bigger. 许仙心想:那到不如去祭拜祭拜云嫣,比起先人来,还是她的功劳大些。 However naturally, this words cannot say that even if knows in the tomb, only remains one pile of bleached bones, the true ancestors do not know in the samsara transferred several revolutions. At this time cannot disobey elder sister's meaning, with presenting another's regards respect several did obeisance. 不过当然,这种话是不能说的,纵然知道坟茔之内,只剩一堆枯骨,真正先人早已不知在轮回里转了几转。这时候也不能违了姐姐的意思,跟着拜上几拜。 Then must visit the teacher of beginners, Qiantang County county magistrate wait/etc various people, midday is to suppose the banquet banquet guest, in the afternoon must return to Gongtian Academy, how long although he has not in fact stayed in the academy, but where stems from name finally, must speak on invitation newly before these Scholar promote. 紧接着便要拜会蒙师,钱塘县的知县等等诸人,午间更是设下宴席大宴宾客,下午则要回觐天书院,虽然他实际上没在书院中呆过多长时间,但名义上总算是出自哪里,只得应邀在那些新晋秀才面前讲演一番。 Must have paints, the matters of some group of writer people of refined tastes. In this period also some people wanted him to write poetry composing fixed-style verses, he resisted totally, now the academic honor in the body, under the great reputation, no one can demand in him again. In the evening must have banquet. 更少不了挥毫泼墨,行些文人雅客之事。其间也有人要他作诗填词,他一概推拒,如今功名在身,盛名之下,再无人可以强求于他。晚间又是少不了大宴一场。 Xu Xian deals with strongly, when to completing this all sorts of matters concerned, when goes home, is in the evening. 许仙竭力应付,待到完成了这种种事宜,回到家中之时,也已是晚间。 Summer night is spatial, the group is star-studded, a Milky Way of sparkle implements the nighttime sky. 仲夏夜空,群星璀璨,一条闪耀的银河贯彻夜空。 On the seat the tipsy feeling has dispersed, does to the warm braw intoxicant, making one want to pause a view view. Has a thought in the boudoir the beautiful woman, then sped up the footsteps. 席上酒意已散,奈何暖风醉人,使人想要停步一观这景致。只是念起闺中佳人,便不禁加快了脚步。 Along passing the quiet trail, circles the pond rockery, arrives under little building, the candlelight sketch reflects in Xichuang, the beautiful figure, although the lights drag, making one watch movies, but the sentiment moves. 沿通幽小径,绕池塘假山,来到小楼之下,烛光剪影映于西窗,倩影虽灯火摇曳,使人观影而情动。 Xu Xian is wanting to take a step to enter, pauses suddenly, first deeply inspires, then puts out one fully is the white fog of liquor air/Qi, smells the front piece lowly, although is extremely pale, is actually unavoidably wine taste, frowns slightly. 许仙正欲迈步而入,忽又停步,先是深吸一口气,而后吐出一股满是酒气的白雾,又低嗅衣襟,虽然极淡,却是难免有一层酒味,不禁微微皱起眉头。 The door opens quietly, sprinkles the orange ray, Bai Suzhen smiles in that ray together slightly, „gentleman, do not hear that came in quickly!” 门扉悄然开启,洒下一道橘黄色的光芒,白素贞在那光芒之中微微而笑,“官人,别闻了,快进来吧！” Xu Xian smiles, one step enters in that orange world. 许仙笑了一笑,一步跨进那橘黄色的世界中。 On the round table in room, actually also suspended dozens pays respects Tie, Xu Xian was reading at will, or for local gentries honored person, either in the person for the Jiangnan Shilin, was hears him to return, comes to invite immediately. 只是房中的圆桌上,却也摆着几十张拜帖,许仙随意翻看了一下,或为本地士绅贵人,或为江南士林中人,都是听闻他归来,就立刻派人前来邀约。 Solely one 3 d highest place in hanun was also insufficient this, who makes him also hang „great poet” the reputation of such shining person, who does not want to experience the gold medal that in the Saint bestows is what appearance. 原本单单一个探花也不至于此,但谁让他还挂着“诗仙”这样耀人的名头,谁不想见识见识圣上钦赐的金牌是什么模样。 These pays respects Tie repose various mood that the respective master is admiring, admiring, wins over, flatters, envies and refuses to accept, cannot ignore totally, otherwise is successful wild, in ceremony/etiquette does not gather, offended many people for no reason, Xu Xian, although does not care, actually also understands the truth of criticisms should be feared. 这些拜帖就寄托着各自主人艳羡、钦佩、拉拢、巴结、嫉妒、不服的各种情绪,不能够一概置之不理,不然就是得志猖狂、于礼不合,无端的得罪了许多人,许仙虽不在意,却也明白人言可畏的道理。 Xu Xian just now discovered that returns home with riches and honors unexpectedly is a exhausting matter, sees scene that this flatters, initially fashion somewhat contented heart, but then only has the tiredness. Has to see the times of these people, how about to keep in the family/home and lovely wife is the partner. 许仙方才发现衣锦还乡竟是如此累人的一件事,见这阿谀逢迎的场面,初时尚有几分自得之心,但而后就唯有倦怠。有去见这些人的功夫,何如留在家中与娇妻为伴。 Bai Suzhen offers one cup of green tea, said warm: „Gentleman don't You, beautiful has written the receipt, turned down them, throws in a gift again, tomorrow will make the white luck send , will then not need the gentleman to go again troublesome, will not injure friendly.” 白素贞奉上一杯清茶,温言道:“官人莫忧,嫣儿都已写好了回帖,婉拒了他们,再附赠一份礼物,明日让白福送去,便不用官人再去麻烦,也不会伤了和气。” „World world, but also is not quite really easy!” “人间世界,还真是不太容易！” Xu Xian received tea with a smile, touches the white hands unknowingly, under lifts to view the lanterns the beautiful woman, graceful, floating, if immortal. Although is the couple, in the heart also quite lives the ripples unexpectedly. 许仙笑着接过茶盏,不经意间触及玉手,抬首观灯下美人,风姿绰约,飘然若仙。虽已是夫妻,心中竟也颇生涟漪。 „Greatly richly greatly expensive/noble, the mortal asked that wasn't so? Gentleman the say/way of world, but is problem-free.” The Bai Suzhen gentle voice replied, detected that the Xu Xian vision, mused tonight wanted, no matter what he deliberately created trouble, nodded the head slightly, just like swan bent/tune Xiang, lived to shame intent secretly. “大富大贵,凡人所求,不就是如此吗？官人的人间之道,可算是一帆风顺。”白素贞柔声答道,察觉到许仙的目光,暗想今夜又要任他胡闹,不禁微微颔首,宛如天鹅曲项,暗生羞意。 Perhaps is the candle illustrious surface, that light blushing even more seems rich, that pale red that as if on the lotus flower petal catches, should say that is the white lotus or the red lotus? 或许是烛光耀面,那一层淡淡的红晕越发显得浓郁,仿佛莲花瓣上染上的那一层淡红,该说是白莲还是红莲呢？ For a while Xu Xian also somewhat looks was crazy, forgot tea, forgot replying, recovers to support it to enter the bosom, actually remembered anything, stops the movement. 许仙一时也有些看的痴了,忘了饮茶,忘了答话,回过神来想要拥之入怀,却又想起了什么,停下动作。 In the Bai Suzhen heart is astonished, is not good deeply to ask, be irrelevant spoke some idle talk, but whose thoughts have not placed in these words. But actually and has no affectionate action besides these talks, she only felt tonight him probably „custom”. 白素贞心中微讶,却又不好深问,又不着边际的说了些闲言碎语,但谁的心思也不曾放在这些话上。但除了这些谈话外却并无什么亲昵的举动,她只觉得今夜的他好像“规矩”了很多。 In puzzled, hears him saying: „Wife, night.” 正在不解之时,听闻他道:“娘子,夜深了。” Came, Bai Suzhen only thinks that the heartbeat was suddenly quicker, on the face blushes, with extremely light sound „un”. 来了,白素贞只觉心跳忽然快了许多,脸上红晕更甚,用极轻的声音“嗯”了一声。 Blows out the candlelight, ascends the cot hand in hand. Altogether sits on the bed puts out a hand for each other to change clothes, when her white clothing completely leg, appears the slender waist white delicate arms, just like lotus root section. 吹熄烛火,携手登榻。共坐在床榻上伸出手来为彼此更衣,当她白衣尽腿,显出纤腰玉臂,宛如藕段。 Xu Xian cannot bear support into the bosom her finally, pours above the bed. 许仙终于忍不住将她拥入怀中,倒在床榻之上。 Bai Suzhen closes the double pupil, tightened the body, only thinks in the heart the shy difficult word, but faint actually anticipations, but crossed for a long time, he has other movements unconsciously, just now opens both eyes, sees him to stare at oneself. 白素贞闭上双眸,绷紧了身子,只觉心中万般羞怯难言,但隐隐的却有一丝期待,但过了许久,却不觉他有其他动作,方才睁开双目,见他只是凝视自己自己。 „What's wrong, gentleman?” “怎么了,官人？” Xu Xian is saying with a smile: „It‘s nothing!” 许仙微笑着道:“没什么啊！” Bai Suzhen mused that he found out anything to bully oneself trick, but also after a while, really such as he said that truly was nothing. 白素贞暗想他难道又想出了什么欺负自己的花招,但又过了一会儿,果然如他所言,确实是没什么。 The Bai Suzhen heart said: It‘s nothing is the issue, if in ordinary day, you already...... already......, but how these words can say, crossed for a long time, she cannot bear probe the say/way finally: „Are you...... and probably not quite usually same?” 白素贞心道:没什么才是问题,若在平日,你早就……早就……,但这些话怎么说得出口,过了许久,她终于忍不住试探着道:“你……和平常好像不太一样？” „You like ordinary me, is present I?” “那你是喜欢平常的我,还是现在的我呢？” „!?” How this asked the person to reply, if said that liked ordinary him, that said oneself liked that. But if said that likes present her, she can affirm him tonight, no, will be later will so treat itself. Today he says will not make you feel embarrassed, is that said? “啊！？”这叫人如何回答,若是说喜欢平常的他,那岂不是说自己喜欢那个。但若是说喜欢现在的她,她敢肯定他今夜,不,是以后都会如此待自己。今天他所说的不会让你为难,难道是说的这个吗？ Xu Xian saw her worry, although the somewhat small deviation, thinks that she is runs about to deal with itself affectionate excessively. 许仙看出了她的烦恼,虽然有些小小的偏差,以为她是疲于应付自己过分的亲昵。 Actually what she worries when is affectionate that unusual with him, not normal, rather than affectionate it. After all even if he is with good intention again, is impossible to be fully correct the complete thoughts of another person, can do is pressing own understanding, eliminates her worry as far as possible. To him, if does to endure patiently slightly then can stretch the brow that she frowns, that was really good. 其实她所担忧的是在和他亲昵时那个异样的自己,不正常的自己,而非亲昵本身。毕竟他就算再善解人意,也不可能猜透另一个人的全部心思,所能够做的只是按着自己的理解,尽可能的消除她的烦恼。对他来说,如果只是稍做忍耐便能将她颦起的眉头舒展,那真是再好不过了。 Bai Suzhen realized that his intention, forgets for the time being shyly, some with emotions hugs him in the bosom, „I like!” 白素贞体会到他这份心意,暂且忘了羞涩,有些动情的将他搂在怀里,“我都喜欢！” The cheeks of Xu Xian were buried in tall and straight jade peak, in the oronasals ample fragrance, soft and was full of the elastic sense of touch to understand the taste of red light district shortly. 许仙的脸颊被埋在挺拔的玉峰之间,口鼻间盈满了馨香,柔软而又充满弹性的触觉让人顷刻间明白了温柔乡的滋味。 Probably her strength uses was too big, the skeleton as if in kā bā makes noise. 只是,她的力气好像又用的太大了,骨骼似乎在咔吧作响。 Was not dying, this was the heaven or the hell! 唔,快死了,这是天堂还是地狱！ Bai Suzhen loosens the arm hastily, covers the tastes: „, Sorry!” 白素贞连忙松开手臂,掩口道:“啊,对不起！” Xu Xian actually also bends down in her chest, Bai Suzhen is blushing, has not shoved open him. 许仙却还伏在她的胸口,白素贞红着脸,并没有推开他。 Xu Xian deep inspiration, longing departure red light district. Really, wants, at this time said that is „wife I wants”? This whole life made her say that in any case „gentleman I want” am probably impossible, decided as the dream that it was unattainable simply. 许仙深深的吸一口气,恋恋不舍的离开温柔乡。果然,还是想要啊,这时候说是“娘子我要”吗？反正这辈子让她说“官人我要”大概是不可能了,干脆把它定为遥不可及的梦想好了。 Has the man of such dream, should say that is the chest has the lofty aspiration to be without lofty aspiration? 有着这样梦想的男人,到底该说是胸有大志还是胸无大志呢？ Bai Suzhen said suddenly: „Does gentleman, what you like my?” 白素贞忽然道:“官人,你又喜欢我什么呢？” „Can say?” “一定要说吗？” „Must say!” “一定要说！” „That tonight not to need to rest.” “那今晚岂不是不用睡了。” „Little loquacious!” “少贫嘴！” The depth that Xu Xian puts on airs inspires, „I like you being gentle, am with good intention, the virtuous virtue, extends Houren, holy lofty, intelligent wise......” one breath said, as if must world all praises , the crown in her head, actually proceeds from heart-to-heart talk. 许仙装模作样的深吸一口气,“我喜欢你温柔善良,善解人意,贤良淑德,宽厚仁和,圣洁高雅,聪慧明智……”一口气不停的说下去,仿佛要将人间的一切赞誉之词,冠于她的头上,却都是发自肺腑之言。 Until Bai Suzhen covers her mouth, these words stop suddenly, „some of my where you said is so good?” Wants the straight complexion diligently, finally is happy intent is difficult to cover, which wife also there are not to like listening to husband such words! 直到白素贞捂住她的嘴巴,这些话语才戛然而止,“我哪有你说的那么好？”努力想要端正脸色,结果却是喜意难掩,又有哪个妻子不爱听丈夫这样的话语呢！ Xu Xian shakes off the fetter, „definitely has, you in me are perfect!” 许仙挣脱束缚,“绝对有,你在我心里可是完美的！” Bai Suzhen say/way silently: „I will be your good wife.” During the smiles seems to have extinguished that small worry. 白素贞默默的道:“我会做你的好妻子的。”微笑之间似乎已将那小小的烦恼消弭。 Night the person is static, she is resting the head on his arm, opens the double pupil unknowingly, is looking at his cheeks, after a while the side closes one's eyes to go off. 夜深人已静,她枕着他的手臂,不经意间睁开双眸,望着他的脸颊,过了一会儿方又闭眼睡去。 A thought in the half-asleep partly awakes reverberates in the heart, „he needs, is such I.” 一个念头在半睡半醒间在心头回荡,“他需要的,是这样的我。” Therefore, will not have what difference again, will not have white snake again, will not have the envy again, monopoly, the complaint, some are only Bai Suzhen in that his mind, perfect wife. 于是,不会再有什么异样,不会再有白蛇,不会再有妒忌,独占,怨言,有的只是那个他心目中的白素贞,完美的妻子。 . 只是。 Won't really have again? 真的不会再有吗？