Where do I lie down? 我躺在哪里？ A all around how piece jet black...... 四周怎么一片漆黑…… I am indistinct, probably hears some people to speak, but listened to not the clear opposite party to say anything. 我隐约间,好像听到有人在说话,可是听不清晰对方在说些什么。 A little exhausted, ok, did not listen, I thought that I should soon disappear, but before disappearance, must think some own life. 有点疲惫,算了,不去听了,我觉得自己应该快要消失了,但在消失前,总要想一些自己的一生。 My this life...... also is actually very interesting. 我这一生……其实也挺有意思的。 I do not know who I am. 我一直都不知道我是谁。 Therefore, I naturally do not know me to call anything. 所以,我自然也不知晓我叫什么。 Perhaps, I do not have the name. 或许,我没有名字吧。 Quite strange, how to exist person who does not have the name, in my cognition, as if this World everyone, has own name. 好奇怪,怎么会存在没有名字的人呢,在我的认知里,似乎这个世界的每一个人,都有自己的名字。 But, I do not have. 可偏偏,我没有。 I cannot think, why like this, will be only a little fuzzy memory, as if...... long ago some in a day, I my name, gave others. 我也想不起来,为什么会这样,只是有一点模糊的记忆,似乎……在很久之前的某一天里,我将自己的名字,送给了别人。 Being willing. 心甘情愿。 Felt oneself are quite silly, how can be willing sees somebody off own name...... 感觉自己好傻啊,怎么会心甘情愿的将自己的名字送人呢…… Does not know that perhaps, has the reason. 不知道呀,或许有原因吧。 Oh, the train of thought somewhat seems to be chaotic, making me stroke...... is really these things, will always reverberate in my thinking, seems very important, but cannot think, cannot think, without means. 唉,思绪似乎有些混乱,让我捋一捋……实在是这些事情,总是会回荡在我的思索里,似乎很重要,但想不起来,就是想不起来,没有办法。 I can think, is my childhood. 我能想起来的,是我的童年。 My childhood, I defined it as the life at age 20, in this ordinary World, I and other children was the same, experienced the school, experienced playing, experienced time and time again as if very weak game. 我的童年,我将其定义为20岁以前的人生,在这个平凡的世界里,我与其他的孩童一样,经历了学堂,经历了玩耍,经历了一次又一次似乎很幼稚的游戏。 But all around people, as if always tell me, must learn/study well, must like this, probably such...... I be somewhat sick that from the beginning, until one day, me looks at the rain that the sky drops, why suddenly will be very curious will rain, the rain will be anything. 但四周的人们,似乎总是告诉我,要好好学习,要这样,要那样……我一开始是有些厌烦的,直至有一天,我看着天空落下的雨,突然很好奇为什么会下雨,雨又是什么。 This issue, my teacher gave me the answer, perhaps was from that date, I to this World, to all things, filled curiously, why I liked asking, liked obtaining the answer, such will make me very satisfied. 这个问题,我的老师给了我答案,或许就是从那一天起,我对这个世界,对所有的事情,都充满了好奇,我喜欢问为什么,喜欢获得答案,那样会让我很满足。 For this satisfaction, I start earnest studying, the earnest learn/study, as if desire is promoting me, making me gain all unknown things. 为了这个满足,我开始认真的读书,认真的学习,似乎有一种欲望在推动着我,让我去获取一切未知的事情。 Often acquired the new knowledge, why often untied one, I specially happy, specially joyful, I thought that I seemed to be more unusual. 每每获得了新的知识,每每解开了一个为什么,我都会特别的开心,特别的快乐,我觉得我似乎与众不同了许多。 Perhaps because of peace, therefore I am infatuated with unusual that this think, therefore I make an effort studies, grasps all knowledge that I can master. 或许是因为太平凡了,所以我更为迷恋这种自己认为的与众不同,于是我更加用力的去学习,去掌握我能掌握的一切知识。 Such life, continued the 20-year-old appearance, that time I, always want to display, before the friend, was before the Teacher, or in front of opposite sex. 这样的人生,持续到了20岁的样子,那个时候的我,总是想去表现一下,无论是在朋友面前,还是在师长面前,又或者异性面前。 I as if always want to reveal that my unusual, even in the heart deep place, I also always felt, oneself and others are different. 我似乎总是想表露自己的与众不同,甚至在心底深处,我也总觉得,自己和别人是不一样的。 Although...... I do not have the outstanding appearance, without the riches and honor family, is only in all living things very ordinary existence, but this does not affect my at heart, is occupying a bird. 尽管……我没有出众的外貌,没有富贵的家庭,只是芸芸众生里很平凡的存在,可这不影响我的心里,居住着一只小鸟。 This bird, it soars in the sky, free and unfettered, is my sustenance , is to make me feel the own unusual wing. 这只小鸟,它飞翔在天空上,自由自在,是我的寄托,也是让我觉得自己与众不同的翅膀。 But in the final analysis, that time I, some two Extremes split up, the leap of thought that with the ordinariness of reality, making me like every so often silent. 可归根结底,那个时候的我,还是有些两极分化的,思想的飞跃,与现实的平凡,使得我很多时候都喜欢沉默。 Also at that time, I ran into a girl, is the schoolmate of my next door class, is first unrequited loving of my life. 也正是那个时候,我遇到了一个女孩子,是我隔壁班的同学,也是我人生的第一场暗恋。 Unrequited loving is happy, unrequited loving is also bitter and astringent. 暗恋是幸福的,暗恋也是苦涩的。 But I am willing. 但我心甘情愿。 Because, this makes me like displaying itself, always...... still remembered that time, as if displayed, was the instinct in my life, my even longing became a hero, longing became this World darling, longing can be a focus of public attention, thus also attracted her attention. 因为,这让我更喜欢去表现自己,无时无刻……还记得那段时间,似乎表现自我,是我生命里的本能,我甚至渴望自己成为一个英雄,渴望自己成为这个世界的宠儿,渴望自己能被万众瞩目,从而也吸引她的注意。 Therefore, each speech, I go all out very much, is very infatuated, until this unrequited loving, finished. 所以,每一次的演讲,我都很是卖力,也很痴迷,直至这场暗恋,结束了。 result in failure, the opposite party does not know finally, I am unrequited loving her. 无疾而终,对方最后也不知晓,我在暗恋她。 That day of graduation, I was very sad, once had the courage, but...... I lower the head finally silently, perhaps this was a spell, in the learn/study of later higher palace, I unrequited loved as before again. 毕业的那一天,我很难过,也曾鼓起勇气,但最终……我还是默默地低下了头,或许这是一个魔咒,之后的更高殿堂的学习里,我依旧还是再次暗恋。 During this, I also liked telling fortunes, each time I was unhappy, I will find a telling fortunes mister, sat in his front, spent a money. 在这个期间,我还喜欢上了算命,每一次我不开心,我就会找到一个算命的先生,坐在他的面前,拿出一点钱。 In this small skills, that cannot first give, then you can harvest the praise of innumerable, the praise of innumerable, the innumerable life and so on various spoken languages, this will make me specially happy, thus after finishing, gives the mister who own spending money told fortunes. 这里面有一个小技巧,那就是不能先给,然后你就可以收获无数的夸奖,无数的赞美,无数的命好之类的各种言语,这会让我特别的开心,从而在结束后,把自己的零花钱送给算命的先生。 Such life, continued for several years later, before being near graduation, I received in the life the first love letter, is very happy, but I do not like that female student. 这样的生活,持续了几年后,在临毕业前,我收到了人生里第一封情书,很开心,但我不喜欢那个女生。 Until after the graduation, I had my work, my impulsion of self-expression, as if achieved pinnacle at this time, therefore I work hard, performance diligently, wants to obtain the approval diligently. 直至毕业后,我有了自己的工作,我的自我表现的冲动,似乎在这个时候达到了极致,于是我努力的工作,努力的表现,努力想要获得认同。 That period of life, recalls now, is very interesting, because in my effort performance, I ran into a female student, we fell in love. 那一段生活,现在回忆起来,也挺有意思的,因为在我的努力表现中,我遇到了一个女生,我们相爱了。 The love, is one cup of bitter and astringent coffee. 爱情,是一杯苦涩的咖啡。 Although painstakingly, but is also sweet, but drinks...... as if unable to distinguish clearly finally painstakingly are many, is sweet many. 虽然苦,但也甜,只是喝到最后……似乎也分不清到底苦多一点,还是甜多一点。 My first love, ended. 我的初恋,结束了。 Also was at that time, I learned the smoke in this World, was attracted by this World liquor, after that the smoke and liquor, become a part that I lived. 也是那个时候,我学会了这个世界里的烟,也被这个世界的酒所吸引,从那之后,烟与酒,成为了我生活的一部分。 I as before also in performance diligently, am only that impulsive of heart, as if with one of the years year after year, started to be paler, at this time, why did not know, my opposite sex that changed were many. 我依旧还在努力的表现,只是心底的那股冲动,似乎随着岁月的一年年,开始变的淡了很多,也正是这个时候,不知为什么,我身边的异性多了起来。 The second time love, the third time love, the fourth time love, cups of bitter and astringent coffee, as if including in one, making my again and again drink, until one day, me ran into a woman, the high stature, smiles the crescent moon eye, making me feel very comfortable. 第二次的恋爱,第三次的恋爱,第四次的恋爱,一杯杯的苦涩咖啡,似乎连在了一起,让我一次次喝下,直至有一天,我遇到了一个女人,高高的个子,笑起来月牙般的眼睛,让我觉得很舒服。 I think, perhaps this is in my life, last cup of coffee that drink. 我想,或许这就是我这一生里,喝下的最后一杯咖啡了。 We fall in love, we marry. 我们相爱,我们结婚。 That time I, thought that can see oneself old later appearance, relaxed very much, was very comfortable, very happy...... 那个时候的我,觉得一眼就可以看到自己老了之后的样子,很放松,很舒适,很美好…… Until years later some day, the mirror broke, the marriage at this time, came to the end. 直至若干年后的某一天,镜子破碎了,婚姻在这个时候,走到了尽头。 Whom cannot distinguish clearly to wrong, cannot distinguish clearly who complained about anyone. 分不清谁对错,分不清谁怨谁。 The pain, struggles, clenches teeth, the transformation...... becomes my time main theme, that bird at heart, is also higher, touched Sun that this time flew, obtained the sunlight. 痛苦,挣扎,咬牙,蜕变……成为了我那段时间的主旋律,心里的那只小鸟,也在这个时候飞的更高,碰触了太阳,获得了阳光。 Possibly Fate likes cracking a joke, in the later life, my World presented many opposite sexes, some of them select high, some are composed, some are gentle, some overbearing...... are very beautiful, is very outstanding, they arrive in groups, departure in groups, at the same time again and again, makes me somewhat confused. 可能命运就喜欢和人开玩笑,之后的生命里,我的世界出现了很多的异性,她们有的高挑,有的婉约,有的温柔,有的霸道……都很美丽,都很优秀,她们成群的到来,又成群的离去,周而复始的同时,也让我有些迷茫。 Because...... I take up finally, is cups of bitter coffee, such as smoke, such as liquor. 因为最终……我从中拿起的,都是一杯杯苦咖啡,如烟,如酒。 The smoke, injures the lung. 烟,伤肺。 The liquor, injures the liver. 酒,伤肝。 Opposite sex...... sad. 异性……伤心。 But I like the smoke, likes the liquor, has the expectation to the love...... 但我还是喜欢烟,还是喜欢酒,还是对爱情有憧憬…… Until, when I was 40 years old, I suddenly discovered actually compares in the opposite sex, I like chatting with the friends, is saying the past, the direction in the future. 直至,到了我40岁的时候,我忽然发现其实相比于异性,我更喜欢和朋友们聊天,说着过去,指点未来。 Often drinks, likes drawing the friend, boasted together, laughs together loudly, ridicules together, together like youngster. 每每喝酒,都喜欢拉着朋友,一起吹嘘,一起放声大笑,一起揶揄,一起如少年。 Perhaps, is this change, making the friend of mine more and more, I am listening to their story, they are also listening to my story, we spoke freely, our narrate. 或许,正是这种改变,使得我的朋友越来越多,我听着他们的故事,他们也听着我的故事,我们畅谈,我们倾述。 May have some protection, perhaps also has more reserved secretly, but this are not related, happy is most important. 或许会有一些防备,或许也有保留一些秘密,但这没有关系,开心才是最重要的。 At that time, I knew everyone, is a book, everyone, had the story, everyone...... from the bone, was actually lonely. 那个时候,我知晓了每个人,都是一本书,每个人,都有故事,每个人……其实从骨子里,都孤独。 But knows are more, as if I am not lonelier. 而知道的越多,似乎我自己就越是没那么孤独了。 In the friend of mine there are both men and women, has always has few, all sorts of people what existence, but this are not related, the sincere smile, breaks all strengths. 我的朋友里有男有女,有老有少,三教九流什么样的都存在,但这没关系,真诚的笑容,是打破一切的力量。 gradually, more and more friends, like with my narrate. 渐渐地,越来越多的朋友,喜欢和我倾述。 gradually, my smile also even more bright. 渐渐地,我的笑容也越发的明朗。 gradually, I as if found one type to let the joyful way. 渐渐地,我似乎找到了一种让自己愉悦的方式。 narrate, in that time in my life, surpass seeking knowledge, surpass the performance, surpass the love, became I most important part. 倾述,在我生命中的那段时间里,超越了求知,超越了表现,超越了情爱,成为了我最重要的一部分。 This is a share, perhaps was the extrusion of innermost feelings the certain extent, water overflowing was the same, was not only I needs, many people...... needed. 这是一种分享,或许是内心的挤压到了一定程度,水满自溢一样,不仅仅是我需要,很多人……都需要。 In this share and narrate, I passed through year by year, for quite some time, I no longer like narrate, I start to pursue comfortably, this type included the spirit comfortably, included the material. 在这分享与倾述里,我走过了一年又一年,不知从什么时候开始,我不再喜欢倾述,我开始追求舒适,这种舒适包括了精神,也包括了物质。 I think, is my hair starts one after another blanch time. 我想,是我头发开始陆续发白的时候吧。 I no longer limit to make anything, no longer limits to thinks anything, all make me feel that comfortable matter, I will think, will complete, I start to like looking at the blue sky, starts to like looking at the white clouds, starts to like watching the sunrise, but I do not like the sunset. 我不再局限于去做什么,不再局限于去想什么,一切让我觉得舒适的事情,我都会去思索,都会去完成,我开始喜欢看蓝天,开始喜欢看白云,开始喜欢看日出,但我不喜欢日落。 However nighttime Starry Sky, I also like. 不过黑夜里的星空,我也是喜欢的。 Likes sitting on the rocking chair, slightly thinks one cup, optional brings a book, looks, while is enjoying the air, is enjoying the time, is enjoying all. 喜欢坐在摇椅上,小酌一杯,随意的拿来一本书,一边看,一边享受着空气,享受着时光,享受着一切。 I no longer stay up late, I started getting up early. 我不再熬夜,我开始了早起。 I no longer am infatuated the myriad things why, because were many I to have the answer. 我不再痴迷万物的为什么,因为很多我都有了答案。 I no longer want to display, because looks extremely thorough. 我不再去想要表现,因为看的太过透彻。 I also no longer go to unceasingly narrate, because, will be in that case weary. 我也不再去不断地倾述,因为那样的话,会让人厌烦。 I no longer think deeply about the opposite sex, because visits them, I smile, in the eye may have some recollections, is only the form in recollection, possibly oneself were not also clear. 我更是不再去思索异性,因为看着她们,我只是笑一笑,目中或许会有一些回忆,只是回忆里的身影,可能自己也都不大清晰了。 I pursue only, was lived by oneself comfortably, is at heart calmer and steadier, all in as if this World, in my eyes changes is happier. 我唯一追求的,就是让自己活得舒适一些,心里安稳一些,似乎这世界里的一切,都在我的眼中变的更美好。 Such life, continued very for a long time...... until one day, I feel my face, touched many folds, I look at my both hands, saw many wrinkles and mottling. 这样的生活,持续了很久……直至有一天,我摸着自己的脸,摸到了很多的褶皱,我看着自己的双手,看到了很多的皱纹与斑块。 My eye also had some dimly, all around all also appeared fuzzily, but is looking at me in mirror, is very diligently body, in revealed smile, brings as before happily. 我的眼睛也有了一些昏暗,四周的一切也出现了模糊,但望着镜子中的我,还是很努力的直着身躯,露出的笑容里,依旧还是带着美好。 ...... Beside the mirror, I know, I was afraid. 只是……在镜子之外,我知道,我害怕了。 I change is very timid, I change is very discrete. 我变的很胆小,我变的很谨慎。 I know that I am afraid anything, because night awakens from time to time, I as if can see the death the aura transformed form, is looking at me in out of the window silently. 我知道我害怕什么,因为时而夜里惊醒后,我似乎能看到死亡的气息所化的身影,在窗外默默望着我。 As if, they are summoning me, is waiting for me. 似乎,他们在召唤我,在等着我。 I do not want to follow they to walk. 我不想跟着他们走。 Even in them, some were my once old friend. 即便是他们中,有一些是我曾经的老朋友。 I do not want to see them, I am afraid very much. 我不想看见他们,我很害怕。 I do not want dead, I want to live, has been living...... this seeking livehood impulsion, making me breathe sometimes does not feel smoothly. 我不想死亡,我想活着,一直活着……这种求生的冲动,使得我有些时候呼吸都觉得不顺畅。 This time I, will pay attention to these also in the old friend, urges them to take care, cares their healths, because...... I do not want to see them to go far away. 这个时候的我,会去关注那些还在的老朋友,去叮嘱他们要注意身体,去关心他们的健康,因为……我不想看见他们远去。 This will make me not gasp for breath, was afraid the arrival of death. 这会让我更加喘不过气,更加害怕死亡的到来。 The people, why must have the death. 人,为什么要有死亡呢。 I am often thinking that this issue, is also thinking deeply about me to be afraid anything, was really afraid the death...... 我时常在想这个问题,也在思索我到底害怕什么,是真的害怕死亡么…… The answer is the affirmation. 答案是肯定的。 But behind this affirmative answer, I also has another answer. 但在这肯定的答案背后,我还有另一个答案。 I am afraid lonely. 我害怕孤独。 I walked, I will be lonely. 我走了,我会孤独。 They walked, I will also be lonely. 他们走了,我也会孤独。 This fear to death, to the lonely fear, changed to a strength, resembling to flood my whole body, supports me to exist, is only...... my body seems to be tattered and torn, after this strength emerges, at my naked eye obvious speed, following these sore holes, dissipates. 这种对死亡的害怕,对孤独的害怕,化作了一股力量,似要充斥我的全身,来支撑我存在下去,只是……我的身体似乎千疮百孔,这股力量涌现后,又以我肉眼可见的速度,顺着那些疮孔,消散开来。 I want to detain them, but I could not achieve. 我想将它们留住,但我做不到了。 As if, the strength that I get out of bed, did not have, I felt death aura to fill the air me, my longing, all my, seem vanishing. 似乎,我连起床的力气,都没有了,我感受到了死亡的气息已经将我弥漫,我的渴望,我的一切,似乎都在消失。 At that moment, I understood a truth suddenly. 那一刻,我忽然明白了一个道理。 Fear, does not have any use. 害怕,没有任何用处。 On that day, I remember, I as if also had the strength, therefore I sat diligently, oneself will dress was very neat, moved toward the courtyard, moved toward my rocking chair, finally I sat on the rocking chair, looks at the setting sun of distant place. 那一天,我记得,我似乎又有了力气,于是我努力的坐了起来,将自己穿戴的很整齐,走向院子,走向我的摇椅,最终我坐在摇椅上,看着远处的夕阳。 The autumn wind blows, is passing ice-cold, causes branch also slight swaying in courtyard. 秋风吹来,透着冰冷,使得院子里的树枝也都轻微的摇晃。 On that branch, in this season, was only left over a yellowing leaf, is hitting the volume, was insisting has not fallen. 那树枝上,在这个季节里,只剩下了一片泛黄的树叶,打着卷,坚持着没有落下。 I am looking at the setting sun, is looking on the branch the only leaf, suddenly thought that all these are very happy, gradually...... I showed the smile. 我望着夕阳,望着树枝上唯一的叶子,忽然觉得这一切很美好,渐渐的……我露出了笑容。 ...... I saw in this smile the setting sun falls, I saw the dusk passes that flickers, on branch only leaf, fell. 在这笑容中……我看到了夕阳落下,我看到了黄昏流逝的那一瞬,树枝上唯一的叶子,落了下来。 Floating flutters...... one such as my rocking chair to swing swings. 飘啊飘……一如我的摇椅摇啊摇。 Until, flutters I at present, covered my eyes, covered all light, caused this piece of World in my eyes, ended. 直至,飘到了我的眼前,盖住了我的双眼,遮盖了所有的光,使这片世界在我的眼中,落幕了。 But my consciousness, does not seem to dissipate. 但我的意识,似乎没有消散。 My all around darkness, where I do not know me, perhaps also on the rocking chair...... 我的四周一片漆黑,我不知我在什么地方,或许还在摇椅上…… Also because of my consciousness also, therefore...... had recollection of my to own life. 也正是因我的意识还在,所以……才有了我这一段对自己人生的回忆。 I think, perhaps my life, to others, is not splendidly, but to me, this is my only. 我想,我的人生,或许对别人来说,算不上精彩,但对我而言,这是我的唯一。 Also at this time, I as if heard the summon, heard the sound...... 也正是在这个时候,我似乎又听到了呼唤,听到了声音…… As if, some people are shouting me, making me wake up...... 似乎,有人在喊我,让我醒来…… But I cannot hear clearly, can only identify with my feeling, but that sound, is somewhat familiar, I as if in the time, have heard. 可我听不清,只能凭着我的感受去辨认,而那个声音,有些熟悉,我仿佛在曾经的时光里,听到过。 „He is saying anything......” “他在说什么……” „Loud, I cannot hear.” I turn toward the jet black, opens the mouth diligently, perhaps is my effort, has an effect, gradually, when my consciousness will soon blur, the sound became clear. “大声一点,我听不见。”我向着漆黑,努力的开口,或许是我的努力,起了作用,渐渐地,在我的意识即将模糊时,声音变得清晰了一些。 „Looks at...... you to be able forever and ever, free and unfettered.” “望……你能永生永世,自由自在。” My train of thought vibrates fiercely! 我的思绪猛地震动！ „Looks at...... you to be able forever and ever, Unfettered is merry.” “望……你能永生永世,逍遥快活。” My consciousness raises the monstrous waves!! 我的意识掀起巨浪！！ „Looks at...... you to be able forever and ever, does not forget the first thought.” “望……你能永生永世,不忘初心。” My mind spreads rumbled!!! 我的心灵传出轰鸣！！！ „Looks at...... you to be able forever and ever, happy.” “望……你能永生永世,幸福美好。” My Divine Soul shakes Star Ring(s)!!!! 我的神魂撼动星环！！！！ „Finally, Wang Baole this name, I give back to you.” The familiar sound, the biography hears instantaneous...... that body of float in Starry Sky, its eyes...... opens fiercely!!! “最后,王宝乐这个名字,我还给你。”熟悉的声音,传入耳中的瞬间……漂浮在星空中的那具身躯,其双眼……猛地睁开！！！ „I called...... Wang Baole!” “我叫……王宝乐！” Finally 终篇 Deep Earth Star Ring. 厚土星环。 In Starry Sky void, Wang Baole standing silently in the awakens place, in the eye brings thick complex, looks at the distant place, for a long time for a long time...... he lifts the hand, touched the forehead. 星空虚无里,王宝乐默默的站在苏醒的地方,目中带着浓浓的复杂,怔怔的看着远处,许久许久……他抬起手,摸了摸眉心。 After long time, Wang Baole sighed one lightly, resembled has long known general, the right hand put down toward the distant place grasps, pearl, liquor bottle-gourd, appeared in his front. 半晌后,王宝乐轻叹一声,似早就知道一般,右手放下向着远处一抓,一枚珠子,一个酒葫,出现在了他的面前。 Is looking at pearl, Wang Baole silent was very long, the left hand lifts, grips it gently. 望着珠子,王宝乐沉默了很久,左手抬起,将其轻轻握住。 The pearl size, is three cuns (2.5 cm) of palm, is his entirety, is his world. 珠子的大小,正是掌心的三寸,是他的全部,也是他的人间。 Finally his right hand takes up the wine pot, places the mouth, drank one big ruthlessly...... bitter and astringent shaking the head, trend distant place sea of stars silently. 最终他右手拿起酒壶,放在嘴边,狠狠喝下了一大口……苦涩的摇了摇头,默默的走向远处星海。 His back, lonely, dreary, more walks, is farther. 他的背影,孤独,萧瑟,越走,越远。 „This lonely road,...... continues......” “这条孤独的路,还是……继续走下去吧……” Is one extinguishes finally illusory 终是一场虚幻灭 Who is the gracious gift whose is Tribulation...... 谁是恩赐谁是劫…… The book ends 全书完