Believes itself? 相信自己吗？ Lu An is lost in thought that this is one the issue that is difficult to choose, almost can determine that answer, 90% will make him regret to know. 陆安陷入沉思,这是一个很难抉择的问题,几乎可以确定,那个答案,百分之九十会让他后悔知道。 Otherwise will not refuse to record. 不然不会拒绝记起来。 But before knowing this answer, he is unable to guess correctly that is actually is anything, why initial historical, oneself will make such a choice. 而在得知这个答案之前,他无法猜到究竟是是什么,为什么最初的历史上,自己会做这么一个选择。 Rare muddled? 难得糊涂？ „Should you......” Lu An not look with a suspicious look to Xia Hui. “该不会你……”陆安用怀疑的目光看向夏茴。 „Closes my trifling thing!” Xia Hui called out. “关我屁事！”夏茴叫道。 „I, I......” “那我,我……” Lu An flexure scratched the head, once decided that made Xia Hui explain, did not have the leeway of regret. 陆安挠了挠头,一旦决定让夏茴说明白,就没得后悔的余地了。 As the saying goes kills the cat curiously. 俗话说好奇害死猫。 Looks meaning that Xia Hui passes, curious will not kill him, but, he becomes will not be what we definitely know is that joyful like the present, will compare curiously, will obviously know the answer depressed must. 看夏茴透出来的意思,好奇不会害死他,但是可以肯定的是,他会变得不像现在那么快乐,而且相比起好奇,明显得知答案的郁闷还要更强一点。 Xia Hui snort/hum the song was entering the room, opens the refrigerator to touch one box of yogurt to the kitchen by, pū inserts with the straw, then stands there squeak squeak the sorption. 夏茴哼着歌进了房,到厨房旁打开冰箱摸出来一盒酸奶,用吸管噗地一插,然后站在那里吱吱吸着。 „Do you want to drink?” “你要喝吗？” „Wants.” “要。” The Lu An whole person falls in the sofa, walks, outside was blown by the wind, the tipsy feeling a little above, received the yogurt that Xia Hui throws, they are away from living room each one squeak squeak squeak. 陆安整个人陷进沙发里,一路走回来,外面被风一吹,酒意有点上头,接过夏茴扔过来的酸奶,俩人隔着客厅各自吱吱吱。 „I can guess that you do believe?” Lu An asked. “我能猜出来你信不信？”陆安问。 „I urged you do that not do.” “我劝你不要那样做。” Xia Hui as if enjoys the Lu An puzzled appearance very much, in rips open the yogurt cover after the fresh-faced tip of tongue licked several next, it discards to take a step, stretched out both hands to push pushing Lu An toward the , also sat to the sofa on. 夏茴似乎很享受陆安纠结的模样,在把酸奶盖子撕开用粉嫩的舌尖舔了几下后,就把它扔掉迈步过来,伸出双手把陆安往边上推了推,一屁股也坐到沙发上。 Takes off the shoes to sit cross-legged to sit, she leans excessively, is supporting the chin with the hand, looks at Lu An, the corners of the mouth belt/bring smiles. 脱掉鞋子盘腿而坐,她侧过头,用手撑着下巴,就看着陆安,嘴角带笑。 Lu An even more lacks self-confidence at heart, even Apocalyptic World he must experience one to look Xia Hui, but regarding actually does not want to recall at first. 陆安心里愈发没底,连末世他都要去经历一遍把夏茴找回来,而对于最初却不想记起。 „Actually I have little curious......” “其实我只是有一点点好奇……” „I like looking at your curious appearance.” Xia Hui blinks, on the fair and clear cheek the smile is deeper: „The curiosity is then getting more and more heavy, touches own ears and cheeks, finally cannot bear ask me, then after recording extremely annoying appearance.” “我就喜欢看你好奇的样子。”夏茴眨眨眼睛,白净的脸蛋上笑容愈深:“然后好奇心越来越重,抓耳挠腮,最后忍不住问我,然后在记起来之后万分懊恼的模样。” „...... Are you very bad you to know?” “……你很恶劣你知道吗？” Lu An closes the eye painfully, with handling gently according to nose side. 陆安痛苦地闭上眼睛,用手轻按着鼻侧。 Why he does not remember that the initial gambling made, does not remember why Xia Hui must choose the destruction, he has the answer faintly. 为什么他不记得当初的赌约,不记得夏茴为什么要选择毁灭,他已经隐隐有了答案。 This is also a point that he wonders, the god wants, came back to be good directly, why must make a bet with him, moves unnecessarily. 这也是他非常纳闷的一点,神想要回来,直接回来就行了,为什么还要和他打个赌,多此一举。 Now looked, at that time she really wanted to destroy all. 现在看,那时她是真的想要毁灭一切。 „It seems like you do not believe yourself.” “看来你不相信你自己。” „Believes, but curious is heavier.” “相信,但是好奇更重。” The mortals are the mortals, is seduction in very opposeless heart, will otherwise not have Adam, because curious stealing food forbidden fruit expelled matter. 凡人之所以是凡人,就是很难抵抗心中的诱惑,不然也不会有亚当因为好奇偷吃禁果被赶走的事了。 „Finally you bring the place that I go , the end of time, is the initial history?” Lu An thinks that they jump out of the time, when River of Time paces back and forth, finally that fuzzy memory. “最后你带我去的地方,时间的尽头,就是最初的历史？”陆安想起来他们跳出时间,在时间长河徘徊的时候,最后那模糊的记忆。 Xia Hui pouts, had not denied. 夏茴努努嘴,没有否认。 „Can I ask you, then do you make me forget again temporarily?” Lu An said suddenly. “我可不可以问了你,然后你再让我暂时忘记？”陆安忽然道。 Xia Hui reveals wipes strange smiling, „after then forgets, you start to intertwine, intertwine quite a while then to ask me again, forgot again?” 夏茴露出一抹诡异的笑,“然后忘记之后,你又开始纠结,纠结半天接着再问我,再忘记？” Silent for a long time, Lu An visits out of the window weather, looks at time, turns the head saying: 沉默许久,陆安望望窗外天色,又看一眼时间,转头道: „I thought that I require sage time to make the decision.”? “我觉得我需要一个贤者时间才能做决定。”？ The Xia Hui smile stagnated, stares the big eye fiercely, when without responding was copied the both legs to hug horizontally by Lu An. 夏茴笑容凝滞了,猛地瞪大眼睛,还没反应过来时就被陆安抄过双腿横抱起来。 „Lets loose! You let loose me!” “放开！你放开我！” Xia Hui is kicking legs the calf, is useless, was held the bedroom by Lu An. 夏茴踢腾着小腿,却没什么用,被陆安抱进卧室。 „, Wait! I drink a cup of water!” “等,等等！我喝杯水！” ...... …… Night. 夜深。 Xia Hui had been spoiled the appearance looks at the ceiling, the forehead also brings the faint trace sweat stain, several wisps of hair stick disorderly in the face side, the arm hang softly in the sides of the bed. 夏茴一副被糟蹋过的模样望着天花板,额头还带着丝丝汗渍,几缕头发凌乱地黏在脸侧,手臂软软地垂在床沿。 ! 啪！ She patted Lu An to conduct the back a palm of the hand ruthlessly, made the clear sound. 她狠狠拍了陆安背上一巴掌,发出清脆的声响。 Lu An only lifted the eyelid, now the thought blows off, truly very sage. 陆安只抬了抬眼皮,现在思维放空,确实很贤者。 „After knowing all, will make me not joyful?” “知道一切后,会让我变得不快乐？” „You think why It will be crazy?” “你以为祂为什么会疯狂？” Xia Hui raised the hand referred to out of the window reluctantly, Lu An gawked, responded that she referred to the god. 夏茴勉强抬手指了指窗外,陆安愣了一下,反应过来她指的是神。 Related to truth that It died? 涉及到祂死亡的真相？ „Eternal life, endless lonely......” “永恒的生命,无尽的孤独……” Lu An recalled that and talk of Professor Xu, all lives are obtaining eternal that moment, this result has almost been doomed. 陆安回想起来和徐教授的谈话,所有生命在获得永恒的那一刻,这个结局几乎就已经注定了。 „That is only your mortal's speculation, guesses the eternal god as mortal, is a little laughable.” Xia Hui shakes the head, „goes on living, is the instinct of all lives.” “那只是你凡人的猜测罢了,以凡人的身份去揣测永恒的神,有点可笑。”夏茴摇了摇头,“活下去,是所有生命的本能。” Lu An is startled, this exceeded his imagination. 陆安吃了一惊,这超出了他的想象。 „Why therefore...... is?” “所以……是为什么？” „Lets the reason that It goes crazy, only then, you determined that can ask?” “让祂发疯的理由只有一个,你确定要问吗？” Xia Hui sits cross-legged to sit on the bed, looks at Lu An saying: „Known are more, will be more painful. The stand the lowest person, eyeful is happy, they are very joyful ; But stood the high person to see the happy following darkness, they will be very painful.” 夏茴盘腿坐在床上,看着陆安道:“知道的越多,就会越痛苦。站得最低的人,满眼都是美好,他们很快乐;而站得高的人看到了美好后面的黑暗,他们会很痛苦。” „Therefore I choose to forget, returns to first from second?” “所以我选择忘记,从第二层回到第一层？” „No, you on third, the choice return to first.” Xia Hui poked his belly, here has no abdominal muscles, later must find the way to make him fitness to make abdominal muscles to come out to be fun. “不,你在第三层,选择回到第一层。”夏茴戳了戳他的肚子,这里没什么腹肌,以后得想办法让他健身弄点腹肌出来才好玩。 „Stands in third, only has two -and-a-half people, you are that half, I.” “站在第三层的,只有两个半人,你是那半个,还有我。” „Who another is?” Lu An surprise. “另一个是谁？”陆安诧异。 „My father, he guessed correctly.” “我父亲,他猜到了。” Xia Hui said, after „still definitely the guess of Lu An, you had looked through the truth, love the life the reason.” 夏茴说道,肯定了陆安的猜测,“你们都有看破了真相后依然热爱生活的理由。” „Actually you and my father are equally intelligent, but he chooses the calm and steady life, you choose to make stupid Saturday, you told me instantly are true eternal.” “其实你和我父亲一样聪明,只是他选择安稳一生,你选择做个愚蠢的星期六,你告诉我刹那才是真正的永恒。” Lu An looks at out of the window not to speak, lets the eternal crazy truth sufficiently...... 陆安望着窗外没说话,足以让永恒疯狂的真相…… Removes all guesses, only then an answer, Professor Xu guessed. 排除一切猜测,只有一个答案,徐教授猜出来了。 He thinks carefully, remembers at first importantly? 他仔细思索,记不记得最初重要吗？ Perhaps is important, at least in this short life, he will often remember, at that time had anything, those words that the decision that he makes, as well as Professor Xu asked initially. 也许是重要的,起码在这短暂的人生里,他会时常想起,那时发生了什么,他所做的决定,以及徐教授当初问的那句话。 But has no help in the life. 但于生活并没有什么帮助。 „Wife.” “媳妇。” „Un?” “嗯？” „I decided that now is good, was a stupid mortal enough.” “我决定了,现在挺好的,做个愚蠢的凡人就够了。” „I thought that you only thought all kinds matter enough.” “我觉得你是只想色色的事就够了。” Lu An kissed on her belly, has rolled over to draw the cover the quilt in two people. 陆安在她肚子上亲了一下,翻过身把被子拉过来罩在两人身上。 Truly. 确实。 Eats meal, drinks water, rests the wife. 吃饭,喝水,睡老婆。 Also has anything is not dissatisfied. 还有什么不满足的。 Goes to damn the history and truth. 去他妈的历史和真相。 Xia Hui trampled his foot, the whole body worn out and aching, is looking at Lu An, air/Qi very much. 夏茴踹了他一脚,全身酸软,望着陆安,就很气。 Not joyful time looks from her joyfully, this person of good dog. 不快乐的时候就从她身上找快乐,这人好狗啊。 Lu An lies on the bed, is tilting the head, looked at out of the window one. 陆安躺在床上,歪着头,又看了窗外一眼。 In that nighttime sky pitch-dark, no luminous. 那夜空里黑漆漆的,没有一丝光亮。 ...... …… 60-year-old Professor Xu stood the balcony in study room, the tea on hand does not have the steam. 60多岁的徐教授站在书房的阳台,手上的茶早已经没了热气。 The body is the coat that the wife helps him have, in 2342 Nova, under the constant temperature not will be actually cold, but this was her many years be used. 身上是妻子帮他披的外套,在2342年的新星,恒温下其实并不怎么冷,只是这是她许多年的习惯了。 At his angle of view, the young daughter and son-in-law have seen them during the daytime, as well as brought an answer. 以他的视角来看,年轻的女儿和女婿白天才来看望过他们,以及带来了一个答案。 He raised the head to stare at the profound nighttime sky, used for 20 years, he understands that actually finally that hidden the truth behind deep space means anything. 他抬头凝望着深邃的夜空,用了二十年时间,他才终于明白那隐藏在深空背后的真相究竟意味着什么。 „Hasn't slept?” The wife has the yawn to shove open the unlatched door, helping him reorganize the books on table, one is Professor Xu printed, on the seal does not have any design, she had also once looked. “还不睡觉？”妻子打着哈欠推开虚掩的房门,帮他整理桌上的书籍,有一本是徐教授自己打印出来的,封皮上没有任何图案,她也曾看过。 In the page falls two already very tattered paper, she cautiously and puts, 20 years, these two papers are obsolete. 书页中滑落出两张已非常破烂的纸,她小心翼翼地又放回去,二十年了,这两张纸已经非常老旧。 „Little intent.” “小意。” „Un?” “嗯？” She goes forward, actually sees Professor Xu to turn round to visit her, lifted the hand to help her reorganize a face side sent broken. 她上前过去,却见徐教授回身看着她,抬手帮她整理了一下脸侧的碎发。 That hair is graying presently. 那头发已现斑白。 „Remembers the young time?” Professor Xu asked suddenly. “记得年轻的时候吗？”徐教授忽然问。 She was startled being startled, does not know how to mention this suddenly. 她怔了怔,不知道怎么忽然说起这个。 „I remember.” Professor Xu smiles, „, moreover remembers very clearly, runs to look at the feeling of your time each time.” “我记得。”徐教授神秘一笑,“而且记得很清楚,每次跑去看你时候的感觉。” Bang bang! 砰砰！ Bang bang! 砰砰！ When that is he was once young, sincere and warm emotion. 那是他曾经年少时,真挚而热烈的情感。