Cannot like this be again wrong. 不能再这样错下去。 Gu Jiajie said to oneself like this. 顾家杰这样对自己说。 Looks at gradually the lonely hospital corridor, that stool is also just cooled by Ma Houde has sat. His actually also person sits here. 看着渐渐冷清的医院走廊,刚刚被马厚德坐过的那张凳子也早已经冷却。他却还一个人坐在这里。 Good long some time. 好长一段时间。 When Gu Jiajie returned to He Xiaomei's hospital ward, he discovered that his paternal grandmother has gone off. 当顾家杰回到了何小妹的病房之中,他发现他的奶奶早就已经睡去。 Regarding this old person, he does not have too many memories...... to only have a fuzzy face probably. 对于这位老人,他没有太多的记忆……大概只有一张模糊的脸。 That was the memory of childhood. 那是儿时的记忆。 Gu Jiajie implored the tone, puts in paternal grandmother's hand the quilt. Is the sleeping soundly time appears so serene He Xiaomei...... what good dream because is having? 顾家杰吁了口气,把奶奶的手放入被子之中。酣睡时候显得如此安详的何小妹……是不是因为正在做着什么好的梦？ Gu Jiajie shakes the head, suddenly wants to reorganize his elder brother's thing- actually nothing, is only simple travel bag. 顾家杰摇了摇头,突然想要整理一下他哥哥的东西-其实没有什么东西,只是简单的行李袋子。 These days, he did not want, does not dare to examine carefully this to him, similarly is the memory fuzzy elder brother's thing. 只是这段时间,他一直不愿意,也不敢去细看这位对于他来说,同样是记忆模糊的哥哥的东西。 Perhaps is because, confessed all things tonight, reason that in the heart relaxes? 或许是因为,今夜坦白了所有的事情,心中松了一口气的原因吗？ Gu Jiajie not clear these...... these to him, have never experienced matter, does not know the matter how should deal with, does not know matter whether he can handle. 顾家杰不清楚这些……这些对于他来说,都是从未经历过的事情,也不知道应该怎么去应对的事情,更不知道是否他能够处理好的事情。 travel bag is suspending in the cabinet of hospital ward, actually also on some clothes and daily necessities and so on thing. 行李袋子就在病房的柜子里面摆着,其实也就一些衣服和日用品之类的东西。 „So many days have not washed.” “这么多天没有洗过了啊。” The flavor that smells here to be putting the clothes are transmitting, Gu Jiajie shakes the head, simply the travel bag child inside thing but actually. 嗅着这里放着的衣服传来的味道,顾家杰摇了摇头,索性把行李袋子里面的东西都倒了了出来。 From picking up clothes time, what he actually touched anything...... to pull out was one folds, square paper. 正自捡起其中一件衣服的时候,他却摸到了什么东西……掏出来的是一张叠好了的,四四方方的纸。 Letter paper. 信纸。 If, what if initially by carry away is I, can our destinies be different. 如果,如果当初被带走的是我,我们的命运会不会不同。 Without writing to whose name, the first line of but beginning, writes script then makes Gu Jiajie know that...... this is writes to his envelope. 没有写出致谁的名字,但开头的第一行,写着的文字便让顾家杰知道……这是写给他的信封。 „Elder Brother......” “哥……” Looks, looks, Gu Jiajie then sat weak. 看着看着,看着看着,顾家杰便无力地坐了下来。 ...... …… ...... …… In the recreational center the sound of loom is large, but actually cannot cover the sound that the person spoke. 游乐中心之中机子的声音颇大,但却没能掩盖得了人说话的声音。 Because of him and he and she and she, depend on such being close. 因为他和他和她和她,是靠得如此的接近。 „Jiajie!” “家杰！” The instance when sees, the Shen Meihuan reckless half step passed through Black Water, passed through stood Club's boss here. 当看见的瞬间,沈美缓不顾一切快步地走过了黑水,也走过了站在这里的俱乐部的老板。 Why she does not care about this Club's boss in this place. What she cares is only, she finally found oneself son. 她不关心这个俱乐部的老板为什么会在这个地方。她关心的只是,她终于找到了自己的儿子。 She arrived at his front, is hugging him, is whipping his back gently- even rotten, still only has close relative's mother not to shut out the half a point. 她走到了他的面前,一把抱着了他,轻轻地拍打着他的背后-即使腐烂,也唯有至亲的母亲才不会嫌弃半分吧。 „My arrival, destroyed you... good deed?” “我的到来,是破坏了你…的好事了吗？” Black Water is standing guard, but is also asking. 黑水警戒着,但也问着。 Before she as if to struggle some...... some soon, she flees to the wilderness from this boss front, discarded thing. 她仿佛是为了争回一些……一些不久之前,她从这位老板的面前落荒而逃的时候,丢掉的东西。 „Destruction?” Luo Qiu shakes the head: „Will Miss Black Water, why have this idea?” “破坏？”洛邱摇了摇头:“黑水小姐,为什么会有这种想法？” Black Water sneers saying: „isn't that so? You have followed he, making him not be discovered ordinary, making him move freely, is not what because is scheming?” 黑水冷笑道:“难道不是吗？你一直跟着他,让他不被普通发现,让他自由活动,难道不是因为图谋着什么吗？” „This view also has no issue probably.” Luo Qiu nods: „Action has the sense of purpose, I acknowledged this.” “这种说法好像也没有什么问题。”洛邱点了点头:“行动具有目的性,我承认这点。” „You acknowledged well.” Black Water coldly snorted. “你承认就好。”黑水冷哼了一声。 Nearby, holds son's Shen Meihuan to let loose all of a sudden, then stared at this once to give her to live the man of reason- that day, the young man who she saw although brings the mask, but she actually remembered his voice. 边上,抱着自己儿子的沈美缓一下子放开,回头盯着这个曾经给予了她活下来理由的男人-那天,她看到的这个年轻的男子虽说是带着面具,但她却记下了他的声音。 In this case, she does not need to guess, can know: This seems peaceful, perhaps in a big way looked like merely young man compared with her son, was that Club's boss. 在这种情况下,她根本不需要猜测,就可以知道:这个显得安静的,恐怕只是比她儿子看来仅仅大了几岁的男子,就是那个俱乐部的老板。 „You...... you, want to make anything to my son! Hadn't our transactions ended?” “你……你,想对我儿子做什么！我们的交易不是已经结束了吗？” Shen Meihuan drew own son behind, is protecting him, while said solemnly: „You think anything, took away my good! However, cannot handle anything to Jiajie!” 沈美缓一把将自己的儿子拉到了身后,一边护着他,一边沉声道:“你想什么,就拿走我的好了！但是,不许对家杰做任何的事情！” „Dear Guest, I will not make anything to Gu Jiajie.” Luo Qiu shakes the head: „Because of him originally...... not here.” “尊敬的客人,我并不会对顾家杰做什么。”洛邱摇了摇头:“因为他本来……就不在这里。” „Nonsense, he obviously here!” Shen Meihuan then looks, this firmly to saying: „He here! He here! You saw!” “胡说,他明明就在这里！”沈美缓回头一看,这才坚定地到说道:“他就在这里！他就在这里！你看见了没有！” She hand that grasped the son, „here! I bring he has been arriving here!” 她一把抓起了儿子的手,“这里！我带着他来到过的这里！” Unexpectedly in this instantaneous, he actually patted the hand of Shen Meihuan all of a sudden. 不料就在这瞬间,他却一下子拍开了沈美缓的手。 Shen Meihuan one startled, moves the lip, looks at that racket unbendingly own arm at this time also in the midair, is flurried was saying: „Jiajie, you how, I am a mother, Jiajie...... I am a mother, don't you remember?” 沈美缓一惊,动了动嘴唇,看着那拍开了自己的手臂此时还僵直在半空之中,慌乱着说道:“家杰,你怎么了,我是妈妈啊,家杰……我是妈妈啊,你不记得了吗？” He does not seem to heard, but has turned around, grasped this hammer again, another one after next struck...... is striking baseless. 他仿佛没有听见,只是转过了身去,再次抓起来了这个锤子,又一下下地敲打着……凭空地敲打着。 Insignificant movement. 无意义般的动作。 „Jiajie......” Shen Meihuan covered the mouth all of a sudden. “家杰……”沈美缓一下子捂住了嘴巴。 Sad. 难过。 Has not recognized oneself such matter compared with the son, comes to make a mother sorrowful. 没有比儿子不认自己这样的事情,来得能够让一个母亲悲痛。 Makes her nurse hatred to look angrily at Club's boss sorrowfully, „you...... you made anything to my son! He never has this! He does not have!! You made anything to him!!” 悲痛让她含恨怒视着俱乐部的老板,“你……你到底对我儿子做了什么！他从来没有这样！他没有！！你对他做了什么！！” „Explained like this somewhat troublesome.” Luo Qiu shakes the head, walks toward Shen Meihuan, „...... is regarded as the post-sale service. Closes one's eyes.” “就这样说明有些麻烦。”洛邱摇了摇头,朝着沈美缓走去,“……就当作是售后服务吧。闭起眼睛。” „You...... you want to make anything!” “你……你想要做什么！” But sees Luo Qiu to walk, Shen Meihuan is retroceding all of a sudden flurriedly. 但见洛邱走来,沈美缓一下子慌乱地后退着。 Another side, saw this Black Water moved suddenly! 另一边,见到了这一幕的黑水猛然间动了！ Sees only the Black Water form to flash, then kept off in the Shen Meihuan front- her lips became is all of a sudden jet black just like the ink. 只见黑水的身影一闪,便挡在了沈美缓的面前-她的双唇一下子变得宛如墨汁般漆黑。 Two sharp and tall and slender teeth, stretches out from the black lip, on about two sides cheeks, appeared some black azure tattoos. 两颗尖锐而细长的牙齿,也从黑色的唇中伸出,左右的两边脸颊上,也浮现出来了一些黑青色的刺青。 „Do not approach her!” “不要靠近她！” „I do not have hostility.” “我没有恶意。” Luo Qiu shakes the head. 洛邱摇了摇头。 „I said again one time, do not approach her.” “我再说一次,不要靠近她。” The Black Water sinking sound said. 黑水沉声说道。 „Now your does not come compared with Long Xiruo powerful. Therefore...... relaxes.” “现在你的不比龙夕若来得强大。所以……放松点。” Black Water a flower, she feels at present suddenly dizzy, and hears the Long Xiruo name suddenly, was makes her have a feeling of heart alarmed, trembling in fear. 黑水眼前一花,她猛然间感觉到了昏眩,并且骤然间听闻龙夕若的名字,更是让她有了一种心惊胆颤的感觉。 He and have Lady Long had the contact? 他和龙大人有过接触？ But when she recovers, Club's boss had crossed her...... the Luo Qiu's finger even already gently the place in the Shen Meihuan forehead. 可当她回过神来的时候,俱乐部的老板已经越过了她……洛邱的手指甚至已经轻轻地点在了沈美缓的额头之中。 This point, then made Shen Meihuan leave behind the tears, is out of sorts. 这一点,便让沈美缓留下了泪,失了神。 She knelt to sit on the ground all of a sudden, opened the eye, the big eye, the whole face was amazed and disorderly. 她一下子就跪坐在了地上,睁开了眼睛,大大的眼睛,满脸惊诧与凌乱。 „How can? Jiahui... he, is he...... Jiahui?” Knelt to sit in ground Shen Meihuan one lifted fiercely, „you...... you deceived me!” “怎么会？家辉…他,他是……家辉？”跪坐在地上的沈美缓猛地一下抬起了头来,“你……你骗了我！” Luo Qiu said in a soft voice: „guest, I have reminded you. I have asked you, even this not necessarily is the son who you know. You...... also want.” 洛邱轻声道:“客人,我已经提醒过你。我问过你,即使这不一定是您所认识的儿子。您……也愿意吗。” „You have not told me! This is not Jiajie!! You deceived me!!” “你没有告诉我！这并不是家杰！！你骗了我！！” „guest.” “客人。” The Luo Qiu's sound seemed to be heavy, is heavier much, what „you want, resurrecting your son, right? Then...... this, is not your son.” 洛邱的声音仿佛重了一些,重得难以察觉,“您所要的是,复活您的儿子,对吗？那么……这位,难道不是您的儿子吗。” Looks cannot say half a word words Shen Meihuan all of a sudden, Luo Qiu shakes the head, said indifferently: „Because only, because is Liu Jiahui, rather than Gu Jiajie, therefore you...... don't want?” 看着一下子说不出半句话的沈美缓,洛邱摇了摇头,淡然道:“只因为,因为是刘家辉,而不是顾家杰,所以您……不愿意了吗？” „I......” “我……” Wasn't Jiahui............ my son? 家辉……就不是……我的儿子了吗？ If that day, she knows that this is Liu Jiahui rather than Gu Jiajie...... she can want? 如果那天,她知道这是刘家辉而不是顾家杰……她会愿意吗？ Ironically, she is unable to give itself the accurate answer. 讽刺的是,她无法给到自己准确的答案。 Some how many years? 有多少年了？ When that 2003 summer, whole body ice-cold, feels desperate left that small town time, her love does not have the means to divide to become two halves again. 当那个2003年的夏天,浑身冰冷,感受到了绝望般地离开了那个小镇的时候,她的爱就再也没有办法分割成为两半。 Her love...... she, only then oneself all loves, leaves remaining, only son. 她的爱……她只有把自己所有的爱,都留给剩下的,唯一的儿子。 How she lamented again, is unable to change did not have the carry away two children's things...... she to achieve initially only, invests the complete sentiment into remaining in merely. 她再怎么悔恨,也无法改变当初没有带走两个孩子的事情……她唯一能够做到的,仅仅只是把全部的感情都投入到剩下的这一个之中。 Centered on him, unknowingly passed these years. 以他为中心,不知不觉过了这些年。 Unknowingly, she also only had a son. 不知不觉,她也就只剩下了一个儿子。 Even if separates after the ex-husband, reorganizes a family again, still nothing but for this child...... for him, she is willing to pay own all. 即使是和前夫分开之后,再次重组一个家庭,也无非是为了这个孩子……为他,她愿意付出自己的所有。 But for...... for another him? 而为了……为了另外一个他呢？ She is hesitating. 她不禁迟疑着。 Wants? 愿意吗？ ...... …… When Shen Meihuan raised the head, looks that clumsily, the rotten body, among her feelings felt a strangeness suddenly, felt the fear. 当沈美缓抬起头来的时候,看着那笨拙地,腐烂的身体,她忽然感间就感受到了一种陌生,感觉到了害怕。 I...... I have hugged him. 我……我抱过他。 She put out a hand subconsciously to support. 她伸手下意识地撑离了一下。 Is far away from him, far away from this or, but also is the rotten body. 远离着他,远离这具或者的,但也是腐烂的身体。 But he actually lowers the head suddenly, stopped the hand that wields the hammer, walks toward her, stretched out this hammer, as if invited. 而他却忽然低下了头来,停下了挥动锤子的手,朝着她走来,伸出了这个锤子,仿佛是邀请。 „Don't......” “别……” Very lightly very light sound, the sound that but also said from her mouth...... perhaps was only the fear, perhaps was is only unable to clear off confusedly, perhaps was only the instinct. 很轻很轻的声音,但却也是从她口中说出来的声音……或许只是害怕,或许只是错乱无法理清,或许只是本能。 When this character vibrates after the air formed the sound, she was actually regretting the character that said. 当这个字在空气之中震动形成了声音之后,她却后悔着自己说出来的这个字。 But she is unable to recycle it, because had said the exit|to speak...... because, he has heard. 可她无法把它回收,因为已经说了出口……因为,他已经听见。 Finally, he who never opens the mouth, made own sound for the first time. 终于,从不开口的他,第一次发出了自己的声音。 Ha-! 呜啊-！ Sends out from that rotten throat, calls out in grief together, not clear sound. 从那腐烂的喉咙之中发出的,一道悲鸣的,不清楚的声音。 Miserable roar. 凄凉的吼声。 All ugly can be used to describe his appearance at this moment. 一切的丑陋都能够用来形容他此刻的模样。 The hammer fell all of a sudden on the ground. 锤子一下子掉在了地上。 The first time , because he will not take up, but this time...... is he himself throws down. 第一次,是因为他不会拿起,而这次……是他自己丢下的。 He grabs oneself face painfully, is rocking here own body. 他痛苦地抓着自己的脸,就在这里晃动着自己的身体。 But is painful, made him go crazy probably, knelt on the ground, is hitting the floor with the head one by one. 而痛苦,也让他像是发疯了般,跪在了地上,一下一下地用脑袋撞击着地板。 One by one. 一下一下。 He wants his own head probably together with his body, his all, shiver...... shiver in the front of this woman. 他好像是想要把他自己的脑袋连同他身体,他的一切,都敲碎……敲碎在这个女人的面前。 How can like this? 怎么会这样？ Why can like this? 为什么会这样？ The black on Black Water lip has removed, the tattoo on face has also removed, her subconsciously put out a hand to delimit own face, touched one moist...... that was her tears. 黑水唇上的黑色已经褪去,脸上的刺青也已经褪去,她下意识地伸手划过了自己的脸,摸到了一丝的湿润……那是她的泪水。 When does not know, declines the tears that from her eye. 不知道什么时候,从她的眼中落下来的泪水。 That is from her heart, during this in endless is sorrowful soul the echo of but actually sound sobs. 那是发自她心底的,这个正在无尽悲痛之中哭泣的魂的声音的倒回响。 She heard, just like Luo Qiu said that she heard! 她听见了,正如洛邱所说的一样,她听见了！ „I heard...... to hear.” “我听见了……听见了。” She muttered: „He is crying...... his soul, is crying.” 她喃喃自语:“他在哭……他的魂魄,在哭。” She looks at Luo Qiu, cannot bear shock of in the heart: „He...... really had the thought. How can like this? He was born the new soul...... impossible...... not to......” 她看着洛邱,忍不住心中的震撼:“他……真的有了思想。怎么会这样？他诞生了新的魂魄……不可能……不对……” Black Water looks to turn around to look at front this crazy good corpse fiercely, „he, he from memories of these days and in her mother creation, was born together the new soul...... is because was attached to! This...... this is you thing that wants to see!” 黑水猛地看转身看着面前这具疯狂的行尸,“他,他从这段时间和她母亲共同创造的回忆之中,诞生了新的魂魄……是因为眷恋！这……这就是你想要看到的东西！” „Pitifully.” “可惜了。” Luo Qiu actually shakes the head, brings a disappointment: „It will die.” 洛邱却摇了摇头,带着一丝失望:“它将会死去。” Black Water retroceded all of a sudden one step, some do not dare to look at the vision of this young man. Although she has not felt from the body of opposite party angrily, discontented wait/etc mood, but she does not dare to look at this man. 黑水一下子后退了一步,有些不敢看着这个年轻男子的目光。尽管她没有从对方的身上感受到愤怒,不满等等的情绪,但她还是不敢去看这个男人。 His truly anything has not done, perhaps but calmly is waiting for the moment of this new student/life soul birth...... he to plan that appreciates the soul new student/life instance alone. 他确实什么也没有做,只是在静静地等待着这个新生的灵魂诞生的一刻……或许他只是打算独自地欣赏灵魂新生的瞬间。 „If...... if I have not brought her, whether...... can meet again he already three immortal souls and seven mortal forms that disappears? Resurrecting in the true sense?” “如果……如果我没有把她带来,是否……能重聚他已经散失的三魂七魄？真正意义上的复活？” He is waiting for here......, but she actually brought Shen Meihuan. 他只是在这里等待着……而她却把沈美缓带来了。 This instantaneous, Black Water felt perhaps oneself made the any mistake.( To be continued.) 这瞬间,黑水觉得自己恐怕做错了什么。(未完待续。)