Could not find. 找不到。 Where could not find. 什么地方也找不到。 Street near rented room, even if ran up to beside several streets, had gone to that park...... could not find. 在出租屋附近的街道,哪怕是跑到了几条街之外,曾经去过的那个公园……都找不到。 Zhuge the whole body sweat, the sweat had moistened the whole body, still cannot find. 诸葛已经满身大汗,汗水打湿了全身,依然没能够找到。 „Excuse me! You have seen this tall girl, she...... she is very attractive, is very lovable, the time of smiling is very sweet...... she to call Nai Naizi......” “请问！你有没有见过一个这高的女孩子,她……她真的很漂亮,很可爱,笑起来的时候很甜……她叫奈奈子……” Nearby passer-by asked that one after another, some people shook the head to say do not know, some people beckon with the hand simply get out of the way directly. 旁边的路人问完了一个接着一个,有人摇摇头说不知道,有人索性只是摆了摆手就直接走开。 Zhuge felt suddenly the vision is dizzy, the scant of breath, held the afforested tree of roadside, the both legs is pouring into the lead to be the same probably, heavy is unable to move. 诸葛突然感觉到目光昏眩,呼吸困难,扶着路边的绿化树,双腿像是灌入了铅一样,沉重的无法移动。 The first time, he is hating oneself physical strength like this unexpectedly only then these...... hate themselves not to exercise well. Has the big time obviously. 平生第一次,他这样痛恨着自己的体力居然只有这些……痛恨自己没有好好地锻炼过。明明有着大把的时间。 Is gasping for breath, he has a feeling, Nai Naizi in oneself side, where looks at itself silently. 喘着气,他有种感觉,奈奈子就在自己的身边,就在什么地方默默地看着自己。 She has the thought...... she is not only only the clay. 她有思想的啊……她不仅仅只是粘土。 Zhuge sat in Malaysia like this, lowered the head- has that day used exclusion, the fear to be approaching the vision that looks at Nai Naizi the time, whether has seemed like a blade to be the same, her sentiment, her thought also punctured ruthlessly? 诸葛就这样坐在了大马上,低着头-那天用着嫌弃,害怕靠近的目光看着奈奈子的时候,是否已经像是一把刀一样,早就把她的感情,她的思想也狠狠地刺破？ Zhuge felt oneself and these always ridicule themselves, these had shut out oneself person, seems also no different. 诸葛感觉自己和那些一直以来都奚落自己,那些曾经嫌弃过自己的人,似乎也没有什么不同。 People separate...... him also to use the same vision with the colored vision him and they, separated him and Nai Naizi. 人们用有色的眼光把他和他们分离开来……他也用着相同的目光,把他和奈奈子分离了开来。 Same. 一样的啊。 Same...... with these people, are the same. 一样的啊……自己和那些人,都是一样的啊。 Although what words oneself had not said that also has not expressed that however has not actually forgiven these people...... the nature, Nai Naizi does not have the means to forgive own? 自己虽然什么话也没有说,也不曾表达出来,然而却从来都没有原谅过那些人……自然,奈奈子也没有办法原谅自己的吧？ „My this whole life...... is really, was too disappointing.” “我这辈子……实在是,太差劲了。” Zhuge Jingjing sits, the person on street passed through to look, continued to pass through. He of whole face beard stubble seems like frail...... seems like the tramp in street to be common at this time specially. 诸葛静静地坐着,街上的人走过看了看,继续走过。满脸胡渣子的他此时看起来特别的脆弱……像是街头的流浪汉一般。 If unable to achieve to make Nai Naizi forgive itself...... how even if do seek again uses energy white/in vain? 如果无法做到让奈奈子原谅自己……就算自己再怎么寻找都只是白费劲吗？ He is shivering, reached in own pocket...... that to appear from Nai Naizi the hand starts, has hidden in black card. 他颤抖着,把手伸向了自己的口袋之中……那张从奈奈子出现开始,就一直都藏在了身边的黑色卡牌。 ...... …… Familiar loose wooden door, familiar bell sound, familiar shop boss, familiar filled the strange atmosphere repair style. 熟悉的松木门,熟悉的铃铛声,还有熟悉的店老板,还有熟悉的充满了诡异气氛的装修格调。 After all is the third arrival. 毕竟已经是第三次的到来。 boss sat here peacefully, seemed early morning to wait for his arrival was the same. Zhuge pushed the chair silently, this time does not need others' greeting, oneself then to sit. 老板安安静静地坐在了这里,仿佛是一早就为了等待他的到来一样。诸葛默默地拉开了椅子,这次无须别人的招呼,自己便坐了下来。 „Is guest, what having I can help you?” “客人,有什么是我可以帮到您的吗？” „I wanted to find Nai Naizi.” Zhuge deep breath one breath, looks at Luo Qiu earnestly, in front his vision, has the firmness that does not have twice, „from the beginning originally, I plan is not this.” “我想要找到奈奈子。”诸葛深呼吸一口气,认真地看着洛邱,他的目光之中,有着前面两次所没有的坚定,“本来,我一开始打算的不是这个。” Luo Qiu sits like this, „please say.” 洛邱就这样坐着,“请说。” Zhuge deep breath said angrily: „I planned from the beginning...... I am thinking is used to exchange, I am thinking makes Nai Naizi be able to forgive me. Good, so long as she can forgive me...... so long as she can forget that I to she has made the injury.” 诸葛深呼吸一口气道:“我一开始打算……我想着用什么来交换,我想着让奈奈子能够原谅我。怎么也好,只要她可以原谅我……只要她可以忘记我对她做过的伤害。” Luo Qiu said indifferently: „This aspect we truly can achieve.” 洛邱淡然道:“这方面我们确实可以做到。” Zhuge shakes the head saying: „But, I gave up this idea...... I detecting that I did not have that qualifications. I have harmed her, if also obtains her forgiving with this despicable method, then I...... I have what qualifications, can continue to see her, facing her. I do not have this qualifications.” 诸葛摇摇头道:“但是,我放弃了这种想法……我发觉我没有那种资格。我已经伤害了她,如果还用这种卑鄙的方法来得到她的原谅,那么我……那么我还有什么资格,能够继续见她,面对她。我没有这种资格。” „I am afraid from the beginning, I evade her, I leave from her line of sight timidly. I never have moment such hateful I.” Zhuge Kuxiao said: „In the end, my anything matter cannot complete...... in the end, I that accomplishing nothing Zhuge. However this time......, but this time......” “我一开始害怕,我逃避她,我从她的视线之中胆小地离开。我从来没有一刻这样讨厌过我自己。”诸葛苦笑道:“到头来,我还是什么事情都办不成……到头来,我还是那个一事无成的诸葛。但是这次……但是这次……” He layer on layer/heavily, loudly: „This time, I hope that with my own effort, lets Nai Naizi forgive me! Therefore, where I want to know her.” 他重重地,大声地:“这次,我希望用我自己的努力,来让奈奈子原谅我！所以,我只是想要知道她在什么地方。” Luo Qiu thought a while, asked slowly: „guest, allowed that I asked curiously, you planned how to obtain forgiving of Miss Nai Naizi?” 洛邱想了一会儿,才缓缓地问道:“客人,容许我好奇问一下,您打算怎么来获得奈奈子小姐的原谅呢？” Zhuge is startled, „I...... I do not know that...... I am thinking, how can find her.” 诸葛一怔,“我……我不知道……我只是想着,怎么能够找到她。” Luo Qiu nods: „If guest you seeks, so long as she has a mind to avoid you, perhaps you cannot look for a lifetime. Do you believe?” 洛邱点了点头:“如果是客人您自己寻找的话,只要她有心躲避着你,你恐怕一辈子也找不着。您相信吗？” Zhuge Wunai nods. 诸葛无奈地点了点头。 „Uses up you three days of lifespan, how?” “用掉你三天的寿命,如何？” Zhuge has almost not considered then to nod. 诸葛几乎没有考虑便点了点头。 „Such as you hope, Dear Guest.” “如您所愿,尊敬的客人。” Luo Qiu stood up at this time the body, arrived at Zhuge's side, put out a hand according to his shoulder- the present scene starts to pull out from Zhuge's line of sight spirally leaves. 洛邱此时站起了身来,走到了诸葛的身边,伸手按着了他的肩膀-眼前的景象开始螺旋般地从诸葛的视线之中抽离。 After his line of sight got back, discovered oneself impressively in that rented room downstairs that oneself rented. 当他视线恢复过来了之后,发现自己赫然就在自己所租住的那栋出租屋的楼下。 „This...... here......” Zhuge surprise looks at this familiar place: „Nai Naizi...... here?” “这……这里……”诸葛诧异地看着这个再熟悉不过的地方:“奈奈子……就在这里？” Luo Qiu is carrying the black cane on hand, toward above one finger/refers: „Correct, in your room.” 洛邱拎着手上的黑色手杖,朝着上方一指:“正确来说,就在你的房间之中。” „How possibly......” “怎么可能……” Luo Qiu said indifferently: „You leave, she comes back, after you come back, she then leaves ahead of time. She pinched you time that went out to return, ahead of time preparing.” 洛邱淡然道:“你离开的时候,她就回来,你回来之后,她便提前离开。她捏准了你出去归来的时间,提前准备着。” Zhuge Shuangjian shakes, „she...... her......” 诸葛双肩一抖,“她……她一个……” Luo Qiu said suddenly: „Should not be bored, after all this Miss Nai Naizi the recent work wanted more than before.” 洛邱忽然道:“应该也不会无聊的,毕竟这位奈奈子小姐最近的工作比之前要多一些。” Looks to reveal Zhuge of puzzled look, Luo Qiu said: „Every day cleans up the room, but fears is discovered, therefore after sweep trace, restored the original appearance. You have watched every day the movie, video anything also looks, then deletion record...... and so on.” 看着露出不解神色的诸葛,洛邱自顾自地说道:“每天都把房间收拾一遍,但又怕被发现,所以收拾干净之后,就又恢复成了原来的模样。会把你每天看过的电影啊,视频啊什么的也看一遍,然后又删除记录……之类。” That certain...... certainly compared with the past lonely? 那一定……一定比以往更加的孤独的吧？ How Zhuge Wufa imagined...... her to spend these time. 诸葛无法想象……她是怎么度过那些时间。 „Originally...... always did so many for me.” Zhuge looks at Luo Qiu: „I...... I also want to handle a matter for her...... I, can I also go shopping from your here?” “原来……一直以来都为我做了这么多。”诸葛怔怔地看着洛邱:“我……我也想要为她做一件事情……我,我还可以从你这里买东西吗？” „Naturally! You are our Dear Guest.” Zhuge took a deep breath: „I want a place.” “当然！您一直都是我们尊敬的客人。”诸葛深深地吸了口气:“我想要去一个地方。” ...... …… ...... …… Television station. 电视台。 Diamond 120 seconds of column program group live broadcast scene. As city, no, is the nearby province most fiery program, it just like has the terrifying viewing ratio. 钻石一百二十秒栏目节目组直播现场。作为市内,不,是附近省区都最火爆的节目,它俨然有着恐怖的收视率。 In such stage, even if ten. eight seconds the seconds leave office, had the capital of enough boast! 在这样的舞台上,就算十秒八秒就下台,都有足够吹嘘的资本了！ „Mr. Chen Jiaming prepares, after one minute, arrives at you to mount the stage!” “陈家明先生准备,一分钟之后到你上台！” Chen Jiaming took a deep breath, after one minute, he will be on this big stage...... to become famous overnight! When the time comes, food company sale king who goes to his mother! 陈家明深深地吸了口气,一分钟之后,他就会登上这个大舞台……一举成名！到时候,去他娘的食品公司销售王吧！ The labor must become the favorite, makes money!! 劳资要成为红人,赚大钱！！ Beat casually several, moves the tight nerve, Chen Jiaming starts to adjust own breath. But in the little while, he seems like at present one flower. 随便地跳动了几下,活动一下紧绷的神经,陈家明开始调整着自己的呼吸。可就是在会儿,他好像是眼前一花般。 Wiped the eye, saw a huge form from walk with the changing room in actually. Chen Jiaming stares, said: „Zhuge? You here? This is the backstage......, but you are give me keep it up? hahaha! Thanks!” 擦了擦眼睛,倒是看见了一道庞大的身影从跟更衣室之中走了出来。陈家明一愣,愣道:“诸葛？你怎么在这里？这是后台……嗯,不过你是来给我加油的吧？哈哈哈！谢啦！” Unexpectedly Zhuge this little while actually rushed to Chen Jiaming's front suddenly, brandished the fist without delay, hit ruthlessly on Chen Jiaming's belly! 不料诸葛这会儿却猛然地冲到了陈家明的面前,二话不说就抡起了拳头,狠狠地打在了陈家明的肚子上！ „This fist, you delete me to play!” “这一拳,是还你删我游戏的！” „You!” “你！” Zhuge is twitching ruthlessly oneself knee, once again, withstood/top above the abdominal cavity of opposite party......, although was a fatty, but the effort on leg really cannot underestimate, Chen Jiaming held oneself belly to squat all of a sudden, put out the suffering, painful stupor almost! 诸葛又狠狠地抽动着自己的膝盖,又一次,顶在了对方的腹腔之上……虽然是个胖子,但是腿上的力度真的是不能够小看,陈家明一下子就捧着自己的肚子蹲了下来,吐出了苦水,痛的几乎昏迷过去！ „This...... have no reason, I am want to hit you!!” “这一下……没有理由,我就是想要打你！！” „You......” “你……” „Your anything you! I also look at you is not feeling well very early in the morning!” Zhuge took a deep breath, the whole person jumped suddenly, pressed toward Chen Jiaming ruthlessly. “你什么你！我也一早就看你不爽啊！”诸葛深深地吸了口气,突然间整个人跳了起来,狠狠地朝着陈家明压了下去。 Such hitting hard, making nearby Boss Luo look that also felt the pain...... he shakes the head, the cane bumped bumping on Chen Jiaming's body, made his lethargic sleep the past calculate directly. 这样的重击,让旁边的洛老板看着也感觉到好痛……他摇了摇头,手杖在陈家明的身上碰了碰,直接让他昏睡了过去算。 „Chen Jiaming! Chen Jiaming! Did you prepare?” “陈家明！陈家明！你准备好了没有？” „...... Prepared!” Zhuge looked at Luo Qiu one, sees him not to reflect, then complied with one hastily. “准……准备好了！”诸葛看了洛邱一眼,见他没有反映,便连忙地应了一声。 Without changing what clothes, he opened the door like this, passed through from the vision of program assistant, arrives at the backstage of stage to prepare to locate, after hearing the host on that stage said that then got in the stage. 没有换上什么衣服,他就这样地打开了门,从节目助理的目光之下走过,走到了舞台的后台准备处,当听到了那台上的主持人介绍完毕之后,便走上了台上。 The host stares, but could not speak all of a sudden, but also drew back unexpectedly step by step backward...... was falling back on the edge in stage. 主持人一愣,可一下子却说不出话来,还居然一步一步地向后退着……退到了舞台的边缘。 „...... Isn't this Zhuge?” “……这不是诸葛？” „Is Zhuge? Chen Jiaming?” “是诸葛啊？陈家明呢？” „WTF...... what situation?” “卧槽……什么情况？” Under the magnesium lamp, Zhuge arrived at the center of stage step by step, from assistant there knot the wheat, he had looked at an audience in video recording awning...... enough more than 500 people, syndicate, 78 video cameras. 镁光灯下,诸葛一步一步地走到了舞台的中央,从助手那里结过了麦,他看了一眼录影棚的观众……足足五百多人,还有评审团,还有七八台的摄录机。 He has not made an appearance in the front of so many people, has not stood under the lines of sight of so many people- but he actually knows, not, only then these, in front of television innumerable audience. 他从来没有在这么多人的面前露过面,也从来没有站在这么多人的视线之下-但他却知道,并不只有这些,还有电视面前无数的观众。 He does not dare to imagine, how oneself walk here...... the fear and anxiety, making him take the palm of wheat to soak, he has to both hands take, when for fear that it will fall. 他不敢想象,自己到底是怎么走上来这里的……害怕和紧张,让他拿着麦的手掌早就湿透,他不得不双手拿着,唯恐它什么时候会掉下来。 Zhuge detected even if oneself hold the sound to speak, exceptionally is still difficult...... his subconsciously to lower the head, does not dare to look at that to write the line of sight of audience, the line of sight of syndicate. 诸葛发觉自己就算是开声说话,也异常的艰难起来……他下意识地低着头,不敢去看那写观众的视线,评审团的视线。 Nai Naizi...... in look at me. 奈奈子……在看着我。 Is thinking she is so dull in that small house, is handling silently, restores the original condition the thing silently the appearance, a Zhuge in the heart pain, then lifted. 想着她一个人就那么呆在那小房子之中,默默地打理着,又默默地把东西恢复原状的模样,诸葛心中一痛,便抬起了头来。 „I...... I am called Zhuge, the full name is Zhuge Cong.” “我……我叫做诸葛,全名是诸葛聪。” I am called Zhuge, I am not pig Ge. 我叫做诸葛,我不是猪葛。 „I...... I since childhood am a specially timid person, is not intelligent, but also specially fat. I take a test do not pass an examination, my jogging even/including 200 meters cannot run, graduates before the university, I even cannot make a girlfriend.” “我……我从小就是一个特别胆小的人,也不聪明,还特别的胖。我考试不及格,我跑步连两百米也跑不完,直到大学毕业之前,我甚至连一个女朋友也交不到。” But......, but currently I have one, has cared about my person. 但……但现在我有一个,一直都在乎我的人。 „After the graduation, I make most useless doing odd jobs in food company, I think that my whole life probably is this......” “毕业之后,我只是在一家食品公司之中做最没用的打杂,我以为我这辈子大概都是这样……” „I want diligently, but I am afraid the failure. Although I seem like am all right to be the same, but cares about others' vision always.” “我想要努力,但是我害怕失败。我虽然看起来像是没事一样,但是无时无刻都在意别人的目光。” „I do not have the unnecessary activity, returns home from work, after going home, my anything could not do, I played the game, I looked at the animation...... in others opinion, I was only one evade the realistic person.” “我没有多余的活动,下班回家,回到家之后我什么也做不了,我玩游戏,我看动漫……在别人看来,我只是一个逃避现实的人。” „I truly was one deny my person...... I to think unceasingly, why, was others is always shutting out me. However recently I detected suddenly, not others are shutting out me......, but is I am shutting out me.” “我确实是一个否定自己的人……我曾经不断地想过,为什么一直以来,都是别人在嫌弃我。但是最近我忽然发觉,并不是别人在嫌弃我……而是我自己在嫌弃我自己。” „I bumped into one...... beautifully is very very lovable, even understood me, supported me, looked down upon me, will accompany me to watch these ridiculously childish animated cartoons together, in the girl who my side look at me played the game.” “我碰到了一个……一个很美很可爱,甚至了解我,支持我,看不起我,会陪我一起看着那些幼稚可笑动画片,会在我身边看着我玩游戏的女孩子。” „But I am shutting out her unexpectedly...... I unexpectedly, unexpectedly harmed her......” “但我居然在嫌弃她……我居然,居然伤害了她……” „I really am the most disappointing person......” Zhuge say here, showed a self-ridiculing smile: „Even in a moment ago, me knocked down my colleague directly, replaced him, walked here.” “我真的是最差劲的人……”诸葛说道这里,露出了一丝自嘲的笑容:“甚至就在刚才,我直接把我的同事打晕了过去,代替了他,走上来了这里。” Director group one hear under that stage, is immediately flurried. 那台下的导演组一听,马上就慌乱起来。 The director actually pounds on the table suddenly, „flusters anything! WTF! Continues the live broadcast! This is the reception!!! Continues!!” 导演却猛然地一拍桌子,“慌什么！卧槽！继续直播！这才是收视！！！继续继续！！” „...... Recalls, she has been doing many things for me silently, but I, as if anything have not done for her.” “……回想过来,她一直都在默默地为我做了许多的东西,而我,似乎什么也没有为她做过。” „Therefore, please give me song time.” Zhuge lowers the head silently: „Makes me...... want to express, my apology of wanting saying, my idea, all my...... expressed...... me only to care about you.” “所以,请给我一首歌的时间。”诸葛默默地低着头:“让我把想要说的……想要表达的,我的歉意,我的想法,我的一切……都表达出来……我只在乎你。” „Without meeting you.” “如果没有遇见你。” „Where am I?” “我将会是在哪里？” „How does day pass?” “日子过得怎么样？” „Life whether must treasure.” “人生是否要珍惜。” Nai Naizi, sorry. Now...... 奈奈子,对不起。现在…… „Perhaps knows one person” “也许认识某一人” „Is passing the ordinary day.” “过着平凡的日子。” Now, please have a look at me...... look at me, I here. 现在,请你看看我……看着我,我就在这里。 „No matter what the time class/flow do not go hastily” “任时光勿匆流去” „I only care about you” “我只在乎你” „Is willing to infect your aura” “心甘情愿感染你的气息” I will not be afraid anything again. 我不会再害怕什么。 „Therefore I...... asked you...... not to let and not let, I left you!” “所以我……求求你……别让、别让,我离开你！” ...... …… ...... …… „Zhuge......” “诸葛……” Weeping voice. 哭腔。 She sits in front of the television, the program that turns around suddenly made her stare from the beginning, but saw the instance that say/way clumsy form started to present, has not then left the line of sight again. 她坐在电视机前,突然间转过来的节目一开始让她愣了一下,可是看到那道笨拙的身影开始出现的瞬间,便再也没有离开过视线。 Covered own mouth...... to find it not enough with the hand, then both hands covered oneself mouth together. 用手捂住了自己的嘴巴……觉得不够,然后双手一同地捂住了自己的嘴巴。 „Zhuge...... good to see you.” “诸葛……好想见你。” ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥ ¥¥¥¥¥¥¥ ps: Owes ( 1 / 16)( to be continued.) ps:欠更)(未完待续。)