The breeze of July, under the burning hot sunlight, the front surface blows, is bringing an anxiety. 七月的微风,在炙热的阳光下,迎面吹来,也带着一丝的焦躁。 Lin Qingxue brings place to be exhausted, rides the train from Chengdu, hurried back to Jian'an City. 林清雪带着一丝地疲惫,从榕城坐火车,赶回了建安市。 Jian'an City train station, bustling, Lin Qingxue thought one as if is a traveler, soon must leave this city, this practised has worked in addition four years of beautiful Chicago. 建安市的火车站,熙熙攘攘,林清雪却觉得自己仿佛是一个过客,即将要离开这个城市,这个自己实习加上工作了四年之久的美丽芝城。 „Old King! Wait / Etc. I, this bag of things were too heavy, you do not help me raise......” “老王！等等我,这袋东西太重了,你也不帮我提提……” The train station inputting mouth, the aunt of a little hoary hair, in the hand has been raising two large package black bags, is yelling the front husband. 火车站入站口,一个已经有点花白头发的老大妈,手里提着两大包黑色的袋子,叫喊着自己前面的丈夫。 „My also where has the hand to carry thing Eh ? you to take a look at my this bags for you, you, must go home, what also buys these many things to make? A bit faster has not walked, the train walked.” Man who was called Old King, the body had already been piled up with by the bags, a little patiently did not urge one. “我还哪儿有手替你拎东西啊？你瞅瞅我这身上的大包小包,你也是的,都要回家了,还买这么多东西做什么？还不快点走,火车就走了。”被叫做老王的男人,身上早就已经被大包小包堆满了,有点不耐烦地催促了一句。 „Didn't my this look at kid to take summer vacation? We go home, therefore gave him to buy clothes and toy.” “我这不是看娃儿放暑假了么？咱回家去,所以给他多买了一点衣服和玩具。” „That...... A bit faster walks...... The kids became impatient......” man not to say anything at home, the round trip walked several steps, has shouldered a large package in woman hand strenuously, as the matter stands, his body, has shouldered 34 to wrap greatly. The powerful and brave muscle, was exposed to the sun swarthily, looks is the solid strong labor force. “那……快点走……娃儿在家都等急了……”男人没有多说什么,往回走了几步,又将妇人手中的一个大包吃力地扛了起来,这样一来,他一个人的身上,已经扛了34个大包裹了。孔武有力的肌肉,被晒得黝黑,一看就是结实的壮劳动力。 Lin Qingxue looks toward these two, hears their laughter, was discussing the family|home kids see these many pretty clothes and amusing toy time, how happy. 林清雪朝着这两人看去,怔怔地,又听到他们的笑声,讨论着自己家娃儿看到这么多漂亮的衣服和好玩的玩具时候,会多么地高兴。 Such scene. Lin Qingxue in the train station entrance, saw several. The present is in July sun prosperous time, moreover the school takes summer vacation, therefore has child's migrant workers, will choose at this time, goes home. 这样的情景。林清雪在火车站门口,已经见到了好几幕了。现在是七月份日头正旺的时候,而且也还是学校放暑假的时候,所以很多有孩子的外来务工人员,都会选择在这个时候,回家一趟。 This is a husband and wife, shares the joys and privations, for adversity, for a family, for the crystallization of family love. Climbs mountains and crosses rivers to undertake the difficult work. Purchases with money that the sweat and bloody water trade to oneself the life of child needs. 这就是夫妻,同甘苦,供患难,为了一个家庭,为了家庭爱情的结晶。跋山涉水去承担艰苦的工作。用汗水和血水换来的金钱去购买给自己孩子的生活所需。 This is life Ah ! 这就是生活啊！ Lin Qingxue that walked coming out from the train station. In the heart actually as if therefore ignited flame of hope to come. 从火车站走了出来的林清雪。心里面却似乎因此燃起了一丝希望的火焰来了。 „In world fine thing, has not attained without effort. To obtain the happiness, must strive. Even if does laborious work, perspires. Sacrificed. Finally can person, for love. The family and love that one protect made one to contribute. Sees their smiling faces, hears their laughter, that is worth.” “世界上美好的东西,从来就没有不劳而获的。想要获得幸福,就必须自己去争取的。即便是去做辛苦的工作,去流汗。去牺牲。最后能够为了自己所爱的人。自己所守护的家庭和爱情做了一丝贡献来。看到他们的笑脸,听到他们的笑声,那就是值得的。” These time goes in home of Chengdu. Lin Qingxue has thought that after own rumor was revealed by parents, they knew Surin is only own student, but is not own boyfriend time, in the heart of Lin Qingxue, that happy bubble such completely was disillusioned. 这一次回榕城的家里。林清雪想了很多,在自己的谎言被父母揭穿之后,他们知道了苏林只是自己的学生,而不是自己的男朋友的时候,林清雪的心里面,那一个美好的泡沫就这么完全破灭了开来。 Although and Surin boyfriend girlfriend relations disguise as, but to be perfunctory own father and mother. However Lin Qingxue already could not distinguish clearly anything is reality anything has fantasized, she rather wallows to fantasize that her rather such rumor never will be pierced, like this forever can have a Surin such boyfriend, although in the final analysis, disguises as. 虽然自己和苏林的男女朋友关系只是假扮的,不过是为了敷衍自己的爸妈的。但是林清雪早就已经分不清什么是现实什么是幻想了,她宁愿自己沉迷在幻想当中,她宁愿这么一个谎言永远不被戳穿,这样自己就永远可以有苏林这么一个男朋友在,虽然归根结底,还是假扮的。 „Qingxue, mother did not say anything, only spoke a few words to you, now you are young, if you liked Little Su, you went to strive diligently. Your age gaps are not the issues, currently also has phase difference young! Told you secretly, mother before your this age has not married your father, liked in the village me being smaller than the 5 or 6-year-old young man...... Yeah......” “清雪,妈也不说什么了,只对你说一句话,现在你还年轻,如果你真的喜欢小苏,那你就去努力争取。你们的年龄差距并不是问题,现在还有相差十几岁的呢！偷偷告诉你,妈在你这个年纪还没有嫁给你爸爸之前,也曾经喜欢过村子里一个比我小五六岁的后生……哎……” Is returning to the Jian'an City first night, Lin Qingxue and own mother rests in the same place, basically has not slept, said one in the evening. The heart of Lin Qingxue also gradually to think through, the words that their happiness, oneself did not strive , are really also hoping the space did fall the meat pie? 在回到建安市的前一天晚上,林清雪和自己的母亲睡在一起,基本上都没有睡觉,就这么说了一晚上。说得林清雪的心里面也渐渐想通了,自己的幸福,自己不去争取的话,难道还真的期盼着天上掉馅饼么？ „Surin this time college entrance exam result, was can definitely on clear Peking University study. That was the highest school of nation, Surin and Qin Yanran will cross their youth there four years......” “苏林这一次的高考成绩,是肯定能够上清北大学了。那是全国的最高学府,苏林和秦嫣然将会在那里渡过他们青春的四年……” On returning to oneself family's Taxi, Lin Qingxue looks at outside the glass the familiar street, in the heart while recalled own university life. That should be a person, particularly a woman, why most has memories time Ah ! beautifully, own university life, does not have what mighty waves. Since nobody has been able to knock on to strike own mind most deep place. 在回到自己家里的出租车上,林清雪一边看着车窗外面熟悉的街道,心里面一边又回想起了自己的大学生活。那应该是一个人,尤其是一个女人,最美丽最有回忆的时候啊！可是为什么,自己的大学生活,却并没有什么波澜。一直以来,都没有人能够叩击到自己心灵的最深处。 Has waited till this time, that person actually inopportune appearance. 偏偏,等到了这个时候,那个人却不合时宜的出现了。 Lin Qingxue profoundly realized now „feeling sorry not to have met sooner” these four characters was helpless, time forever is the love biggest enemy. The sentiment that no matter that type causes because of passing of time changes pale, because time axis is asymmetrical, not to time meets missing of opposite party. 林清雪现在才深刻地体会到了“相见恨晚”这四个字的无奈了,时间永远是爱情最大的敌人。不管是那种因为时间的流逝而导致的感情变淡,还是因为时间轴的不对称,没有在对的时间遇上对方的错过。 A little downcast, Lin Qingxue thought the own most beautiful beautiful springtime passed in vain. But present, why can also pursue that own happiness? 有一点神伤,林清雪觉得自己最美的韶华已经白白流逝过去了。而现在的自己,又能凭什么去追求那一份属于自己的幸福呢？ Got out, she wears the white skirt, is Surin gives her, is very beautiful, is stepping on the high-heeled shoes, slim and graceful, walks, in this had lived in more than three years of community. 下了车,她身着白裙,是苏林送给她的那一身,很美,踩着高跟鞋,亭亭玉立,走在这已经生活过三年多的小区里面。 „Teacher Lin, several days has not seen you....... Teacher Lin wears the skirt, is really a beauty, if in the future who married Teacher Lin, that is good fortune for a lifetime!” “林老师,好几天都没有见到你了。啧啧……林老师穿起裙子来,真是一个大美人,将来谁要是娶了林老师,那可是一辈子的福气！” Has not arrived at downstairs oneself family|home, the Lin Qingxue front surface has bumped into an old neighbor. Listens to commending of opposite party, Lin Qingxue slightly to smile. 还没有走到自己家楼下,林清雪迎面就碰上了一位老街坊。听着对方的褒扬,林清雪只是微微笑了笑。 Is Ah ! in the eyes of other people, is an enterprise is stable, is good-looking high school female teacher. If one present are on intimate terms, that condition did not say that is best, is ranking among the best. The mother already looked for many sons of the influential for oneself in relational circle, but an interest does not have. Saw that own was year by year older, graduation for these years, many schoolmate one after another marriage giving birth, but did not have the sound. 是呀！自己在其他人的眼里,是一个事业稳定,又长得漂亮的高中女老师。自己如果现在去相亲,那条件不说是最好的,也是数一数二的了。母亲早就替自己在关系圈里面物色了不少公子哥,但是自己却一点兴趣都没有。眼看着自己的年龄一年比一年更大了,毕业这几年来,好些同学都陆续结婚生子了,可自己却一直都没有动静。 Once thinks one are that type in 1-2 years on the arrangement of obedient mother, casual being on intimate terms found a person to marry, then lived on for a lifetime the life of helping the husband godchild. However, the appearance of that person. Completely has actually disrupted the tranquil life. 曾经以为自己是那种再过一两年就服从母亲的安排,随便相亲找个人嫁了,然后过上一辈子相夫教子的生活。但是,那个人的出现。却完全打乱了自己平静的生活。 Surin! 苏林！ This once did not have the mighty waves in own life inside more than two years small guy, in time why in this must distinguish finally, did long jab own innermost feelings, move oneself that for more than 20 years, had not let moral nature most deep place that the person moved? 这个曾经在自己生命里面两年多都不起波澜的小男生,为什么偏偏在这最后都要分别的时间里,直击自己的内心,触碰到了自己那二十多年来,一直不曾让人触碰的心底最深处呢？ Returned to itself to rent in three years of house, Lin Qingxue looks in the room tips. 回到了自己租了三年的房子里面,林清雪看着屋子里面的点点滴滴。 Living room! 客厅！ Bedroom! 卧室！ Bathroom! 浴室！ Sofa! 沙发！ ...... …… The memory is tumbling, Lin Qingxue is tidying up the room, while cannot bear is recalling. Is similar, Surin in one side is looking cheerfully one are the same. 记忆在翻滚着,林清雪一边收拾着屋子,一边忍不住地在回想着。就仿佛,苏林正在一旁乐呵呵地看着自己一样。 The frosted glass gate of bathroom, Lin Qingxue visits it. On face crimson. That night. One in the other aspect of this glass door, are listening to the tender guidance of Surin, has made such matter unexpectedly. 浴室的磨砂玻璃门,林清雪看着它。脸上不禁绯红了起来。那一夜。自己就是在这玻璃门的另一面,听着苏林的悉心指导,竟然自己做出了那样的事情来。 Harms shy! 害羞了！ The body was a little unusual. 身体却有一点异样了起来。 Looks to the direction of bedroom, Lin Qingxue has remembered that several night that and Surin passed together. 望向卧室的方向,林清雪想起了和苏林一起度过的那几个夜晚。 „Teacher Lin...... Can I hug you?” “林老师……我可以抱着你么？” Surin that has the sound that badly is smiling. Also words are still as ringing. Lin Qingxue rushes to the bedroom hurriedly. She rather believes. This time Surin is sitting in bed superior oneself, then a face badly smiles is staring at own chest, the lewd narrows the eye badly to say one: „Teacher Lin. Several days do not see, your chest has grown up much oh!” 苏林那带着坏笑的声音。还言犹在耳。林清雪急忙奔进卧室里面。她宁愿相信。此时的苏林正坐在床上等着自己,然后一脸坏笑地盯着自己的胸脯,色迷迷的眯着眼睛坏笑说一声:“林老师。几天不见,你的胸脯可是又长大了不少噢！” Surin this young-looking embryo, each attending class time, stares at own chest to look fiercely. That pair of salty pig claw, is rubbing own chest time, always does not hate to put. However, was rubbed is pinching the time by Surin, as if is very comfortable. 苏林这个小色胚,每一次上课的时候,都是盯着自己的胸脯猛看。那一双咸猪爪,揉着自己的胸脯的时候,就从来舍不得放下来。不过,被苏林揉捏着的时候,似乎还挺舒服的。 But now, looks at empty bed, looks at the empty bedroom, looks at the empty house, Lin Qingxue thought that own heart also empty. 可是现在,看着空荡荡的床,看着空荡荡的卧室,看着空荡荡的房子,林清雪觉得,自己的心也跟着空荡荡了起来。 Too many remembering! 太多的记忆了！ Obviously and Surin real contact time particularly is not long, but Lin Qingxue has now thought that in own brain, how is Surin in the together memory? 明明和苏林真实的接触时间并不是特别长,但是林清雪现在想了起来,自己的脑子里面,怎么都是和苏林在一起的记忆呢？ Puts on a serious face to put out the class teacher teacher doing faction, oneself always like waiting to grasp frequently late Surin in the school entrance specially. But Surin this young-looking embryo, small eyes of glaring, is thinking all day long how to eat own tofu. 板着脸拿出班主任老师的做派,自己总是喜欢在校门口专门等着抓经常迟到的苏林。而苏林这个小色胚,一双贼溜溜的小眼睛,成天就想着怎么吃自己的豆腐。 One all day, Lin Qingxue unceasingly is tidying up in room, loads into an own each article thing the paper box, bit by bit received own memory completely, collection in mind deep place. 一整天,林清雪就在屋子里面不断地收拾着,将自己的一件件东西装进纸箱里面,也将自己的一点一点记忆全部收了回来,珍藏在脑海深处。 Yes! 是的！ She must leave Jian'an City! 她要离开建安市了！ Lin Qingxue must leave her to live more than three years of city. 林清雪要离开这个她生活了三年多的城市。 Walked out of the door, Lin Qingxue has arrived at Jian'an one. This have taught three years of high school, this leave behind the innumerable memories teaching halls. 走出家门,林清雪又走到了建安一中去。这个自己执教了三年的高中,这个自己留下无数回忆的教学堂。 „What? Teacher Lin, do you want to resign? So to be how sudden?” “什么？林老师,你要辞职？怎么这么突然？” Guidance place director Li Jianhua surprised reads the resignation letter that Lin Qingxue hands over, urged, „Teacher Lin, must know in your class just left two college entrance exam foremost person in the field Ah ! in the school to rise the title in the consideration to you now and has raised in salary, how suddenly, to resign Eh ?” 教导处主任李建华一脸惊讶地看着林清雪递上来的辞职信,劝道,“林老师,要知道你的班级里面刚刚出了两个高考状元啊！现在学校里面已经在考虑给你升职称和加薪了,怎么突然之间,就想要辞职了啊？” „Director Li, I have decided that must resign to test the graduate student. Continues to study and pursue advanced studies.” “李主任,我是决定了,要辞职去考研究生了。继续学习和深造的。” The Lin Qingxue manner is very firm, she has thought that after resigning, diligently reviews the study, strives in the graduate student who in the middle of the second half of the year graduate student admittance Exam was admitted to the clear Peking University study. 林清雪的态度很坚决,她已经想好了,辞职以后,就努力复习学习,争取在下半年的研究生入学考试当中考入清北大学的研究生。 „Teacher Lin must continue to pursue advanced studies to study, this is the good deed. But, Teacher Lin, do you have to consider? Now you have worked for three years, the teaching senority also had three years. And, our Jian'an one also placed very high hope on you, such resigns to review Exam, is opportunity cost a little big Eh ?” “林老师要继续深造学习,这是好事。可是,林老师,你有没有考虑过？现在你已经都工作了三年,教龄也有了三年。并且,我们建安一中对你也是寄予了很大的希望的,就这么辞职去复习考试,是不是机会成本有点大啊？” Li Jianhua wants to leave behind Lin Qingxue, now did not say that Lin Qingxue regarding a Jian'an one name effect, is such attractive female teacher stays in the school, every day will attend class also comfortable many Ah ! 李建华还是想要留下林清雪,现在就不说林清雪对于建安一中的一种品牌效应,就是这么一个漂亮的女老师留在学校里面,每天来上课也会舒服很多的呀！ However, no matter how Li Jianhua urged, even has informed the Lin Qingxue school board of directors ahead of time to her praise condition, Lin Qingxue remained unmoved, had set firm resolve to resign to prepare graduate student Exam. 不过,不管李建华怎么劝,甚至已经提前告知林清雪校董事会对她的嘉奖条件了,林清雪还是不为所动,已经下定了决心要辞职去准备研究生考试了。 „Director Li, detaining thank you. However I have related now, I helped me look for the work of school instructor in the teachers of the capital normal university, I prepared the capital to go, did the work of instructor, while reviewed the graduate student Exam content.” “李主任,谢谢你的挽留。不过我现在已经联系好了,我在京城师范大学的导师帮我找了校辅导员的工作,我准备到京城去,一边做辅导员的工作,一边复习研究生考试的内容。” This was Lin Qingxue for these days pondered that the plan under final institute, for this reason, she also specially will have contacted from now on with the teacher of beforehand normal university, helping her look for such a work of newborn instructor in the school. Then, she can the work-study program, but can also in fine the learning environment with the aid of the normal university review Exam. 这就是林清雪这几天思考过后最后所下的打算,为此,她还特意联系了以前师范大学的导师,帮助她在学校里面找了这么一个新生辅导员的工作。如此一来,她就可以半工半读,还能够借助师范大学里面优良的学习环境复习考试。 „Teacher Lin, to this year's graduate student admittance Exam, only then less than a half year of time, you start to get ready now, fears is...... Without enough time?” Director Li Jianhua has not given up making the final effort. “林老师,离今年的研究生入学考试只有半年不到的时间了,你现在才开始准备,怕是……来不及了吧？”教导主任李建华还是没有放弃地做最后的努力。 „Director Li, being ambitious matter unexpectedly becomes. I believe that for dream in my heart, I will try hard to realize.” “李主任,有志者事竟成。我相信,为了我心中的梦想,我会努力去实现的。” Excessively many explanations, after getting through transfer processing, Lin Qingxue is taking own file, walked from the office. 没有过多的解释,在办完离职手续之后,林清雪拿着自己的档案,就从办公室走了出去。 Outside sunlight, is very bright. 外面的阳光,很灿烂。 Outside world, is very splendid.( To be continued 外面的世界,很精彩。(未完待续 ps: First! Today before down! ps:第一更！今天五更吧！