Chapter 20 life is gambling 第20章生命是场赌博 Three words jumped from the air like three hard stones, smashes the ground ruthlessly, then ball, even finally disrupts, is not willing to have the slight distortion, the powerful obstinate being hard word stated. 三句话就像三颗坚硬的石头从空气中蹦了出来,狠狠地砸到地面,然后弹起,即便最终碎裂,也不肯有丝毫的变形,强悍执拗的难以言述。 Huai Caoshi silent moment, self-confident arrogant hides under ordinary facial features her tenderly, will not care about the ferventness that Xu Le on hospital bed presents, but is listening to this hard three words, actually has some vigilant meaning, if the federal soldiers are this hard character, the war that immediately arrives at only feared that is really not easy to hit. 怀草诗沉默了片刻,自信傲娇掩藏在平凡面容下的她,根本不会在意病床上的许乐呈现出的慷慨激昂,只是听着这硬梆梆的三句话,却不禁生出些许警惕的意味,如果联邦的军人都是这样的坚硬人物,马上到来的战争只怕还真不好打。 „I complied to make you have dying of dignity.” She puts down the coffee cup in hand, looks at his thin unusual surface to put off the sound said: „Since you think that this cause of death does not have the dignity, and oneself decided another way, I have to acknowledge. A captive of whole body paralysis, if cannot provide the corresponding benefit for the empire, empire naturally impossible white support you.” “我答应过让你有尊严的死去。”她放下手中的咖啡杯,望着他那张消瘦异常的面容缓声道:“既然你认为这种死法没有尊严,并且自己决定了另外一种方式,我只好承认。一个全身瘫痪的俘虏,如果不能为帝国提供相应的利益,帝国自然不可能白养着你。” „I cannot say oneself anticipate arrival of that day, because no one does not fear death, but since approached on that day inevitably, therefore you said that these actually do not have too many significances.” “我不能说自己期待那一天的到来,因为没有人不怕死,但既然那天必然来临,所以你说这些其实没有太多的意义。” Far away from the hometown galaxy, the lonely person situated in the empire enemy territory deep place, the life and death Xu Le that is difficult to predict to be or doomed dead, in this final time, as if got back some past Bell Tower Street orphan reckless shadows, he is selecting the brow, quite endures the smile of pondering to look at Huai Caoshi with one type: „Just that gambling house looked like you to win.” 远离家乡星河,孤独一人处于帝国敌境深处,生死难卜或者说注定将死的许乐,在这最后的时光里,似乎找回了一些当年钟楼街孤儿佻脱的影子,他挑着眉头,用一种颇堪玩味的笑容望着怀草诗:“只不过那场赌局看来你赢了。” „Among your me the gambling house is not from the beginning fair.” Huai Caoshi replied, then put out a booklet, asked: „When this is captures you thing obtained by search from you, can explain?” “你我之间的赌局一开始就不是公平的。”怀草诗回答道,然后拿出一本小册子,问道:“这是俘虏你时从你身上搜到的东西,能解释一下吗？” Xu Le read a that obsolete booklet, train of thought very picturizing instantaneous return year ago that piece full is on the star of snow and ice. 许乐看了一眼那个陈旧的小册子,思绪很电影化地瞬间回到年前那片满是冰雪的星球上。 Is captured to the Tianjing star, he has not looked at sky of enemy supreme headquarters, has seen only the endless darkness and hospital ward snow white ceiling, the people of body week are the enemy, are the flavor of foreign land in the air flows, he incomparably fondly remembers passing all compared with life any time. 被俘至帝国天京星,他未曾看一眼敌方大本营的天空,只见过无尽的黑暗和病房雪白的天花板,身周的人都是敌人,空气里流淌的都是异乡的味道,他比人生任何一个时刻都无比怀念过往的一切。 Seven groups of subordinate brothers, the group of husk engineering dept, among snow and ice the machine armor group of silent vanguard, he even somewhat fondly remembers the monster iron seventh divisions who Du Shaoqing trains, path and path that nearby gulf 3320 high ground river valleys, 5460 glacier forests, among the wind and snow lose, in pit corpse that has the federal civilians innumerably, eye that an accompanying the armed forces diary and a federal little girl of empire military officer are unable to close dusky...... 七组的下属兄弟,果壳工程部的小组,冰雪间沉默前行的机甲群,他甚至有些怀念杜少卿训练出来的怪物铁七师,3320的高地河谷,5460的冰川森林,风雪间迷失的道路和道路旁边的深坑,坑中无数具联邦平民的尸体,一名帝国军官的随军日记及一位联邦小女孩儿灰蒙蒙无法闭上的眼睛…… „I think that you should read this booklet.” Xu Le replied: „This military officer named Arthur, because is not willing to carry out the order that the expeditionary force slaughters, but was executed by shooting by your people on one's own side, has saying that he will be my first not with the empire person who the wild animal will describe.” “我想你们应该已经看过这本小册子了。”许乐回答道:“这名叫做亚瑟的军官,因为不愿意执行远征军屠杀的命令,而被你们自己人枪决,不得不说,他是我第一个不会用野兽去形容的帝国人。” The Huai Caoshi eyes narrow the eyes, cold intent more, has not spoken gradually. 怀草诗双眼微眯,冷意渐弥,却没有说话。 Xu Le seems like cannot feel that pair of cold vision, knits the brows saying: „Previously you asked that my is unwilling, actually my is unwilling many.” 许乐像是根本感受不到那双寒冷的目光,自顾自皱眉说道:“先前你问我的不甘心,其实我的不甘心真的很多。” He looks straight ahead the eyes of Huai Caoshi tranquilly, said: „You are the butchers between universes, cannot eliminate you completely, is the greatest regret.” 他平静地直视怀草诗的双眼,说道:“你们是宇宙间的屠夫,不能把你们完全消灭,是莫大的遗憾。” After Huai Caoshi silent moment shakes the head, jeered said: „This thinks that led you to leave the hillside to read our textbook, you will have a relatively objective sober cognition to the history, has not thought that was still by the waste that the federation is brainwashing.” 怀草诗沉默片刻后摇了摇头,微嘲说道:“本以为带你去离阪看了我们的教科书,你会对历史有一个相对客观清醒的认知,没有想到依然是个被联邦洗了脑的废物。” „The princess in empire to a federal citizen said that brainwashes two words, don't you feel some nonsenses? Said you think in the Empire Expeditionary force the functions of these imperial family direction groups, but is used to direct the chorus?” Xu Le refutes to say unrestrained/no trace of politeness. “帝国的公主殿下对一位联邦公民说洗脑两个词,你不觉得有些荒唐可笑？还是说你认为帝国远征军里那些皇室督导团的作用,只是用来指挥大合唱？”许乐毫不客气地驳斥道。 „This is the war.” Huai Caoshi said indifferently: „In the universe history has never had the just war, when especially this war happened between the empire and federation, you have nothing with the moral chip that acts.” “这是战争。”怀草诗冷漠说道:“宇宙的历史中从来没有过正义的战争,尤其当这场战争发生在帝国与联邦之间时,你们更没有任何拿得出手的道德筹码。” „War was only the war, this point George Carlin has certainly said many.” Xu Le is staring at her eyes, said: „But the war, does not slaughter the civilians absolutely.” “战争当然只是战争,这一点乔治卡林说过很多遍。”许乐盯着她的双眼,说道:“但战争,绝对不是屠杀平民。” „Your federation army not moral model like you.” The Huai Caoshi lip angle is hanging the ridicule means is more abundant, „, if glances through the history that the empire resists aggression, can discover the innumerable illustrations, explained that your allies actually and wild animal also does not have much difference.” “你们联邦的军队并不都是像你这样的道德楷模。”怀草诗唇角挂着的嘲弄意味更盛,“如果翻阅一下帝国反抗侵略的历史,可以找出无数的例证,说明你的那些战友其实和野兽也没有太大区别。” Xu Le silent long time, returns at once to reply in the gentle language: „Wrong is wrong, who this and wrong person is, is which camp irrelevant.” 许乐沉默了很长时间,用平缓的语速回答道:“错的就是错的,这和错的人是谁,是哪个阵营无关。” „If you meet such matter in the army, how you will process?” Huai Caoshi visits him like looking at an idiot. “如果你在部队里遇见这样的事情,你会怎么处理？”怀草诗看着他就像看着一个白痴。 „I do not know.” Xu Le replied very much honestly: „Do not misunderstand me to act the morals to install to compel the suspect at this time, I always defer to the habits and customs life, assassinates Medellin and you battles in the Westwood frontline, I believe very much simply, these things should be done......, therefore I did.” “我不知道。”许乐很老实地回答道:“不过你不要误会我这时候在扮演道德装逼犯,我一向只是按照生活习惯生活,无论是刺杀麦德林还是在西林前线和你们作战,我只是很简单地认为,这些事情该做……所以我就做了。” „Prince Delin is in the empire history the most outstanding royal member, is my biological uncle.” Huai Caoshi said calmly. “德林亲王是帝国历史上最出色的皇族成员,也是我的亲叔叔。”怀草诗平静说道。 „Thanks.” Xu Le said very much earnestly, very simple two words, he was clear the empire seed real status that dies in own writing, kills in Medellin clearly personally, can have a cause of death of dignity, near the hospital bed this your highness must certainly make very great effort relatively. “谢谢。”许乐很认真地说道,很简单的两句话,他清楚了那位死在自己笔下的帝国种子真实身份,更明白亲手杀死麦德林的自己,能够拥有一个相对较尊严的死法,病床边这位殿下肯定要做出很大的努力。 Huai Caoshi places on the accompanying the armed forces diary of that empire military officer the table gently, then looks that the obsolete diary title page is silent for a very long time, does not know that is outlining in the past Westwood all in the brain. 怀草诗把那本帝国军官的随军日记轻轻放在桌上,然后看着陈旧的日记封面久久沉默不语,不知道是不是正在脑中勾画当年西林发生的一切。 „The temperature in hospital ward is good.” She wakes up from the ponder, looks to the beads of sweat on Xu Le forehead, said indifferently: „Do you feel very hot?” “病房里的温度不错。”她从思考中醒来,望向许乐额头上的汗珠,淡然说道:“你觉得很热吗？” The beads of sweat of soybean size are keeping welling up at this time from the Xu Le roots of the hair place, then drips following the eyebrow corner/horn, moistened the entire pillow instantaneously, the thin cheeks are exceptionally pale, closely is sipping the thin lips keep shivering, happy expression actually such nature in something has been done deliberately eye pupil. 黄豆般大小的汗珠此时正不停地从许乐发根处涌出来,然后顺着眉角淌下,瞬间打湿了整个枕头,消瘦的脸颊异常苍白,紧紧抿着的薄唇不停颤抖,偏生眼眸里的笑意却还是那样的自然。 „It is not hot.” The Xu Le sound is even more hoarse. “不热。”许乐的声音越发沙哑。 Huai Caoshi cannot bear be pressed the eyebrow to shake the head finally, said: „Why enduring?” 怀草诗终于忍不住蹙着眉摇了摇头,说道:“何必忍着？” Spoke these words, she turned around to leave the hospital ward. 说完这句话,她转身离开了病房。 While hospital ward gate closure, the Xu Le spirit is lax immediately, although the paralyzed whole body is unable to appear anything, the sweat that but among the thick black hair gushes out increases fiercely, the side that the brow wrinkles is tight, on the face also has no happy expression again, the lip twists the mouth sidewise painfully, reveals the full words tooth, the gum place non-stop infiltrating the bloody water, looks incomparably pitiful. 就在病房门关闭的同时,许乐的精神顿时松懈,虽说已经瘫痪的全身无法显现什么,但浓密黑发间涌出的汗水猛地增多,眉头皱的极紧,脸上再也没有什么笑意,嘴唇痛苦地咧开,露出满口白牙,牙龈处不停渗着血水,看上去无比凄惨。 Wakes up from being on the verge of death stupor, he has been withstanding the huge pain, the body is not being able to move, internal feeling actually instead becomes keener, the strength channel of cracking turned into the innumerable sharp fragments, shears to cut down unscrupulously everywhere, the nervous system is damaged serious he, something has been done deliberately can feel this type of knife to shear the meat sorrowfully clearly the pain. 自濒死昏迷中醒来,他一直在承受着巨大的痛楚,身体无法动弹,内部的感觉却反而变得更加敏锐,崩裂的力量通道变成了无数锋利的碎片,肆无忌惮地四处割伐,神经系统受损严重的他,偏生很悲哀地能清楚感受到这种小刀割肉的痛楚。 These break through the barrier finally the mysterious scalding hot strength, although no longer receives the suppression of Huai Caoshi that finger/refers of strength, is actually not able to be controlled again, scurries about in within the body, the incarnation becomes thousands of strip small boiling hot thin whips, is brushing each cell, slightest feeling. 还有那些终于冲破障碍的神奇灼热力量,虽然不再受怀草诗那一指之力的压制,却也再无法受到控制,在体内上上下下乱窜,化身成为千万条微小的滚烫细鞭,抽打着他每一颗细胞,最细微的感受。 Does not put to death by dismemberment, surpasses puts to death by dismemberment, Xu Le pain in the extreme, even if bites white tooth, is unable a brace longer time, if Huai Caoshi had not previously left, he may be unable to bear send out the moan of pain. 不是凌迟,胜似凌迟,许乐痛苦的无以复加,纵然将白牙咬碎,也无法撑更长的时间,如果先前怀草诗还不离开,他或许会忍不住发出痛苦的呻吟。 Must have dying of dignity, must first guarantee that oneself dignity, he insisted like this, therefore smiles is ridiculing the dialogue, but not agrees makes the muscle on cheeks be driven one to twitch by the endless pain. 要有尊严的死去,首先要保证自己的尊严,他这样坚持,所以微笑着嘲弄着对话,而不肯让脸颊上的肌肉被无尽痛楚带动一丝抽搐。 The sweat such as the river drips from him, wet pillow, wet bedding, wet a night, when until the Tianjing star strange dawn came from the window exosmosis, pale weak he, discovered that original fought the entire night with that pain. 汗水如河从他身上淌下,湿了枕头,湿了被褥,湿了一夜,直至天京星陌生的晨光从窗外渗来时,脸色苍白虚弱至极的他,才发现原来自己又和那种痛苦战斗了整整一夜。 How many in this world can endure this painful person to have? 这个世界里能够忍受这种痛苦的人有几个？ Can endure the matter that the average person could not endure, naturally was not the average person, this type of people arrived, so long as did not die an untimely death during the climb profession accidentally/surprisingly, finally would an achievement important matter, because they had the extremely intense will and wish, supported them with extremely to endure to make the life-and-death resistance. 能够忍受一般人忍受不了的事情,自然不是一般人,这种人大抵只要不意外横死于爬升生涯之中,最后总会成就一番大事,因为他们有太过强烈的毅力和意愿,支撑着他们与不堪忍做殊死的抵抗。 Xu Le can endure , because he is unwilling. 许乐能忍,是因为他不甘。 Has not put on the general to overpower returns to the dim tasteless Eastwood mining area to look at a past cafe tavern library major convalescing center past long leg policewoman and that police officer named Bao Longtao ; 还没有穿着将军制服回到昏暗乏味的东林矿区去看一眼当年的咖啡馆酒馆图书馆各大疗养中心当年的长腿女警和那个叫鲍龙涛的警官; Also without looking at these men and women on s1 completes their stories, Tai Zhiyuan has not married, how does the white miss end? Does Zou Yu hold the small flowing fire to stand in that downstairs is waiting for the person returning home? 还没有看着s1上的那些男男女女完成他们的故事,邰之源还没有结婚,白姑娘怎么收场？邹郁抱着小流火会站在那幢楼下等着归人？ Has not stroked the Jian Shui'er black hair personally, did not have again with Shang Qiu warms the lonely right hand greatly, has not returned to a that beautiful girl's good intention, has not discovered the truth that the uncle died. 还没有亲手抚摸过简水儿的黑发,还没有再次用商秋的伟大温暖自己孤单的右手,还没有回一声那个秀丽女孩儿的好意,还没有找出大叔死亡的真相。 Has not opened turbocharging mxt to go to the idiot sons of Lin Banshan past roads and that group of congressmen conducts the crazy race car, has not concealed identity some crazy dance happy love. 还没有开着涡轮增压的mxt去林半山当年的公路上和那帮议员的蠢货儿子们进行疯狂的赛车,还没有隐姓埋名去某地疯狂的歌舞欢爱一把。 Before has not forced Bai Yulan his forehead, is fluttering that weary sending silk trims off, had not led Xiong Linquan to carry Dulin arms to help Da Wenxi snatch to go home 13 building younger sisters, did not have not to sing that 27 glasses of liquor with Shi Qinghai greasily. 还没有强迫白玉兰把他额头前飘着的那丝令人厌烦的发丝剪掉,还没有带着熊临泉扛着达林枪炮帮达文西把十三楼的妹妹抢回家,还没有还没有和施清海把那首二十七杯酒唱腻。 Has not told everyone with enough time, oneself are Xu Le, is Eastwood orphan Xu Le, is not squatting over the latrine pit soldier Xu Le. 还没有来得及告诉所有人,自己是许乐,是东林孤儿许乐,不是蹲坑兵许乐。 How to be resigned dead? 怎甘心去死？ The suicide is a fight, is brand-new gambling, that without anything can lose, he only then bets this last with oneself life. 自杀是一场战斗,也是一场全新的赌博,在没有任何东西可以输的情况下,他只有用自己的生命去赌这最后一把。 Turns head to look at the out of the window's first to wipe the willow tree white dawn difficultly, Xu Le rapidly and is breathing tiredly, on the pale face appeared wiped not normal blushing. 艰难扭头望着窗外第一抹柳树白晨光,许乐急促而疲乏地呼吸着,苍白的脸上出现了一抹不正常的红晕。 In the empire, this wipes the dawn to call the fish the abdomen to be white, the dead fish will look at to the fisherman or the tourist oneself ugly white Fufan. 在帝国,这抹晨光应该叫鱼腹白,只有死鱼才会将自己难看的白腹翻给渔夫或游客看。 He has not died. 他还没有死。 This is very good. 这很好。 He closed the eyes, is hard to imagine the will that to resist the pain by the average man, is gentle the breath, the thin body on hospital bed is being motionless, attitude that ten practiced since childhood, then starts to reappear in the mind in turn. 他闭上了双眼,以常人难以想像的毅力抵抗着痛苦,平缓着呼吸,病床上的瘦削身体一动不动,那十个自幼修练的姿式,则开始在脑海中依次重现。