The silent endless night, the lantern under palace upturned eave is sending out the pale yellow glimmer. 寂静长夜,宫殿飞檐下的灯笼散发着昏黄的微光。 Lasting Happiness Palace lonely as always, seems the ten years ago appearances, actually already the people are no longer the same. 长乐宫一如既往的冷冷清清,似乎还是十年前的模样,却又早已物是人非。 The palace maids have rested, only has the side hall in Empress Dowager resting palace also to shine the lights. 宫女们已经歇息,唯有太后寝宫的偏殿还亮着灯火。 The porch pillar is producing an inverted image the ray of candlelight, the red valance curtain by dragging that gently the night wind sways, the person's shadow stands before the black and white interaction wall together, leaves behind the inverted image of come all alone on the giant peony. 廊柱倒映着烛火的光芒,红色帷帘被夜风吹拂的轻轻摇曳,一道人影站在黑白相间的墙壁前,在巨大的牡丹花上留下形单影只的倒影。 Comes back after Taiji Palace, Empress Dowager then stood here, looks at front this picture. 从太极宫回来后,太后便站在了这里,愣愣的看着面前这副画。 „Real man should live , then lives, when dies , then dies......” “大丈夫该生则生,当死则死……” „National humiliation before, my Xu Family soldier what Xi dies......” “国耻在前,我许家儿郎何惜一死……” „...... Only...... did not have the means......, only then Empress Dowager can save me......” “……只是……没办法了……只有太后能救我……” „...... Empress Dowager , if not want, I do not demand, Empress Dowager wants, I must by the remaining years of life report......” “……太后若不愿意,我不强求,太后愿意,我必以余生报之……” All sorts of spoken language reverberations in the mind, some she said that some Xu Buling said that are attacking the mind, lets confess steady her in a minute peaceful. 种种言语回荡在脑海,有她说的,有许不令说的,句句都冲击着心神,让自认稳重的她片刻都安宁不下来。 Rescues Xu Buling...... 救许不令…… If, she has nothing hesitant will comply. 若只是如此,她没有任何犹豫都会答应。 Xu Family was this land under heaven opens the peace, the later generation descendants had the foul disease, she as the Xiao Family daughter of first wife, if did not rescue, how to do right by the instruction that received since childhood...... 许家为这天下开了太平,后辈子孙身染恶疾,她作为萧家的嫡女,如果不救,怎对得起自幼受到的教诲…… Xu Buling for the country over, takes a life as the price today, brings back should be the Great Yue thing, she as Great Yue Empress Dowager, if stands by, how to do right by body this robe...... 许不令今日为国出头,以一条命为代价,拿回本该就属于大玥的东西,她作为大玥的太后,如果袖手旁观,怎对得起身上这身凤袍…… Moreover she does not think that Xu Buling dies...... 而且她不想许不令死…… Hongluan also cancould do without Xu Buling this only dependence...... 红鸾也不能没了许不令这唯一的依靠…… Rescues, must be saved, reason that nothing does not rescue. 救,必须得救,没有任何不救的缘由。 Method that may rescue...... 可救的方法…… Empress Dowager shakes the head difficultly, in the eye appeared deep intertwining. 太后艰难摇头,眼中显出了深深的纠结。 How possibly...... 怎么可能…… Possibly how to have this method...... 怎么可能有这种方法…… How she possibly complies with the law of this impervious detoxification...... 她怎么可能答应这种不可理喻的解毒之法…… She was the daughter who Xiao Family married, birth rich and powerful aristocratic family, the ancestor generation is appointed prime minister frankly, as the descendants, individual moral courage and reputation/honorary was bigger than the life, deep palace ten years of not being disloyal half a point, how could but for this reason went bad the fame and integrity...... 她是萧家嫁出去的女儿,出生门阀世家,祖上世代拜相光明磊落,作为子孙,个人气节和名誉本就大于性命,深宫十年都不曾失节半分,又岂能为此而坏了名节…… She is Great Yue Empress Dowager, mother of the country, the Emperor father's wife, the example in world female, enters the palace ten years to fulfill after the responsibility now conscientiously, if rescued Xu Buling in this law, she also has what face to live in world, the Song Clan face and Xiao Family face, then entire defeat and her hand...... 她是大玥的太后,一国之母,当今天子的嫡母,世间女子的榜样,入宫十年都兢兢业业履行着为后的职责,若是以此法救了许不令,她还有何脸面活与世间,宋氏的脸面、萧家的脸面,便全败与她一人之手…… Cannot rescue...... 不能救…… Cannot rescue absolutely...... 绝对不能救…… How...... doesn't rescue can feel at ease? ……可不救怎能安心？ The Xu Buling itself/Ben was harmed by the bad man, now offers loyally for the country, critically-ill, if watches critically, her doing right by face, does do right by conscience / chest? 许不令本就是被歹人所害,如今为国献忠,生命垂危之下,若是冷眼旁观,她对得起脸面,难道也对得起良心？ Does not rescue good, does not rescue is not good, she is only a woman, how making her elect? 救不行,不救也不行,她只是个女人,让她怎么选？ Empress Dowager closely grips both hands, the tears is flowing copiously, the breathing rapidly, wants hysteric, is actually maintaining the past bearing as before. 太后紧紧攥着双手,泪水夺眶而出,呼吸急促,想要歇斯底里,却依旧保持着往日的气度。 The night wind rustle, the deep palace is chilly. 夜风簌簌,深宫清冷。 Time points pasts, in main hall, only then together breath, with that giant peony picture. 时间一点点过去,厅堂内只有一道呼吸,和那副巨大的牡丹画。 Empress Dowager stands before the picture like this, Sun raises to fall, the palace lantern lights goes out. The palace maids summoned in out of the door innumerable, Qiao'e came to persuade to go out several times, has not moved. 太后就这样站在画前,太阳升起落下,宫灯点燃熄灭。宫女无数次在门外呼唤,巧娥数次进来劝说又出去,都没有动一下。 Also has not known how long, the Empress Dowager split vision found that villain on table, grasps half candied fruits in young person hand...... 也不知过了多久,太后的余光瞧见了桌案上的那个小人,还有握在小人手中的半串糖葫芦…… The villains have the bright smile, is lifting the candied fruit, looks somewhat laughable, makes this whole life be hard to dismiss from mind. 小人带着明朗的笑容,举着糖葫芦,看起来有些可笑,却让她这辈子都难以忘怀。 That the picture that the candied fruit hands over, can still hardly be removed in the mind. Loves time of many book cities 那个把糖葫芦递过来的画面,至今还在脑海中挥之不去。爱倍多书城 The Empress Dowager look is gradually peaceful, somewhat is gradually absent-minded. 太后的眼神逐渐安宁下来,渐渐又有些恍惚。 Looks back to look, the deep palace ten years, on half double-hour without that alley are worth ruminating unexpectedly...... 回首望去,深宫十年,竟然没有那小街上的半个时辰值得回味…… In the future remaining years of life, perhaps also this...... 往后余生,恐怕也就这样了…… Read and here, on the face of Empress Dowager appeared suddenly for several points decidedly. 念及此处,太后的脸上忽然显出了几分决然。 Stays with it in the deep palace passes away no one to know while still alive, perhaps should this/should going on living to go on living...... 与其呆在深宫活活老死无人得知,或许该让该活下去的人活下去…… Xu Buling is King Su Heir Apparent, can not hesitate dead for the country, but not damn at this time...... 许不令是肃王世子,为国能不惜一死,但不该死在这个时候…… land under heaven has not put down, the three-country disputes possibly sweep across the common people momentarily, needs Xu Lie, shakes the three-country monarchies and various group of aristocracy. If Xu Buling died, who is this person...... 天下未平,三国纷争随时可能席卷万民,需要一个许烈,震住三国君主、各路王侯。许不令若是死了,谁来做这个人…… Xu Buling has the talent of direct access to the highest authorities, to know the honor or disgrace of common people, to have the Western Liang 12 states to take advantage, who changes into others to have this qualifications...... 许不令有通天之才华、知百姓之荣辱、有西凉十二州为依仗,换成其他人谁有这个资格…… Compared with land under heaven, her life calculates what? 而与天下相比,她一条命算的了什么？ When the real men die , then dies, although she is women, actually is also the Xiao Family daughter, originally this/should women is will willing to be left behind by men...... 大丈夫当死则死,她虽是一介女流,却也是萧家的女儿,本就该巾帼不让须眉…… Xu Buling can not hesitate the life for the honor or disgrace of country, she chivalrous people what Xi a life for country...... 许不令能为国之荣辱不惜性命,她为国之义士又何惜一条命…… Is unfair to Song Clan, is unfair to Xiao Family. 对不起宋氏,对不起萧家。 At least her Xiao Xiang'er to land under heaven person! 至少她萧湘儿对的起天下人！ The Empress Dowager body shivers slightly, nearly sharp was depressed snort/hum one, before arriving at the table quickly, took the writing brush, on pure white fine writing paper, wrote down an all various professions handwriting. 太后身体微微颤抖,近乎尖锐的闷闷哼了一声,快步走到了桌案前,拿起毛笔,在洁白的宣纸上,写下了一行行字迹。 „ Deep palace ten years, I principle palace chambers and austere etiquette, childless, responsibility of Ren Ke the completely wife, has not had idles at any moment, does right by Song Clan. “深宫十年,本宫理宫闱、肃礼法,膝下无子,任恪尽内人之责,未曾有一时一刻懈怠,对得起宋氏。 Ancestor instruction: land under heaven principle of righteousness before, formality honor or disgrace and life and death reputation/honorary, but all abandoned. 祖宗教诲:天下大义在前,礼节荣辱、生死名誉,无不可弃者。 Xu Buling is the principle of righteousness does not hesitate a life, I saves him, right the ancestor teaches. 许不令为大义不惜一命,本宫救他,对的起祖宗教诲。 Xu Buling does not hesitate a life, my Xiao Xiang'er what pities this body, only dead. 许不令不惜一命,我萧湘儿又何惜此身,唯一死尔。 The ancestor has mystical powers in the day, if thinks improper, next life for the pig dog beast of burden, my one person will undertake! ” 祖宗在天有灵,若觉不妥,来世为猪狗牛马,我一人承担！” Sand rustle 沙沙沙 Writing with vigor. 奋笔疾书。 After Empress Dowager finished, takes up to cut paper gold/metal blade, lacerated finger, wrote down own name on fine writing paper with the blood. 太后写完之后,拿起裁纸金刀,割破了手指,在宣纸上用鲜血写下了自己的名字。 Later returns to the bedroom palace, from the dazzling marvelous things, took out one bottle of toxicants and wine pots. 之后回到寝殿之内,从琳琅满目的奇巧物件之间,取出了一瓶毒药和酒壶。 The toxicant was just in the deep palace remained a widow, when prepares, brings a flower fragrance that lonely and suffered desperately soon goes crazy, drank then to be able in the dream to extricate safely, but resisted finally came not to drink. 毒药是刚刚在深宫守寡之时,被寂寞和绝望折磨的快要发疯时准备的,带着点点花香,喝下便能在梦中安然解脱,不过最终抗了过来没喝。 Pours into the wine pot the toxicant, exhibited the incense table in the Lasting Happiness Palace main hall, lit three to burn a joss stick. 将毒药倒入酒壶,又在长乐宫的正殿之中摆开了香案,点燃了三炷香。 A Empress Dowager fiery red phoenix robe, kneels on the rush cushion, this letter written in blood ignition that sacrifices to ancestors the Xiao Family generations, admitted in the brazier. 太后一袭火红凤凰袍,跪在蒲团上,将这封告祭萧家列祖列宗的血书点燃,放进了火盆之中。 „ Assigns by me, changes him to assign/life! “以我命,换他命！ The fault of being disloyal, by life commutation! 失节之过,以命代偿！ The heaven thick earth, solid reflects! 皇天厚土,实所共鉴！ The light words spread, the Empress Dowager puzzled double pupil is gradually peaceful. 平淡话语传出,太后纠结的双眸逐渐安宁。 fine writing paper is reduced to ashes in the flame, the light smoke curls the ascension. 宣纸在火焰中化为灰烬,青烟袅袅升腾。 Empress Dowager raises the beautiful cheeks, looks that the light light smoke hikes up, rises to the vault, across upturned eave grey tile, until nine days above. 太后扬起绝美脸颊,看着淡淡的青烟飘起,上升至穹顶,穿过飞檐青瓦,直至九天之上。 Then puts down like the heart heavy load finally, Empress Dowager is weak, the side sat on the ground relaxes gently, showed a smile. 便如同心头的千斤重担终于放下,太后瘫软下来,侧坐在地上轻轻松了口气,露出了一丝笑容。 Double pupil dull is looking at the above, that is dignified solemn and respectful does not have the half a point popularity main hall vault, the light smoke to dissipate in the world. 双眸呆呆的望着上方,那是威严肃穆却没有半分人气的大殿穹顶,青烟已经消散在天地间。 Perhaps this, dying also calculates a little significance...... 或许这样,死的也算有点意义吧…… Total feeling better all alone locks in the deep palace, looks unable to see the end the aloneness, until that day of passing away...... 总好过孤身一人锁在深宫,看着望不见尽头的孤寂,直到老死的那一天……