The spring rain lightly, quarrelled the person to be hard to sleep soundly. 春雨淅淅沥沥,吵得人难以安眠。 Mi Hua from then tosses and turns late at night, before skylight daybreak narrowed a while slightly. 芈婳从后半夜便辗转反侧,直至天光破晓前才稍微眯了一会儿。 She rests shallowly, the nightmare are also many, but the less than half double-hour awakens from the shallow dream. 她睡得浅,梦魇又多,不过小半个时辰又从浅梦中惊醒。 „Now when?” “现在何时了？” The maidservant who the inside room stands night watch said, „returns to the words of madame, just passed 7 to 9 a.m.” 里间守夜的丫鬟道,“回夫人的话,刚过辰时。” „Unexpectedly 7 to 9 a.m?” “居然才辰时吗？” Hears maidservant's name, Mi Hua lags behind to think that last night slept in Han Residence, should also be her family/home. 听到丫鬟的称呼,芈婳后知后觉想起来自己昨夜是宿在韩府,应该也算是她的家。 The maidservants asked that „can madame probably set out now?” 丫鬟问道,“夫人现在可要起身？” Mi Huadao, „.” 芈婳道,“嗯。” The taken care maidservant files, takes care of Mi Hua to wash the net surface to pull to send, craftsmanship exquisite helps her massage the alleviation headache. 服侍的丫鬟鱼贯而入,服侍芈婳洗漱净面挽发,还有手艺精巧的帮她按摩缓解头疼。 „Madame recently the sleep was not really calm and steady, but can ask your family place doctor of Chinese medicine to take a look?” “夫人近日睡眠不甚安稳,可要请了府上郎中来瞧瞧？” Mi Hua elbow the makeup stage, is arriving at forehead taking a nap a while, the relax relaxed exhausted spirit. 芈婳手肘支着妆台,抵着额头假寐一会儿,松缓疲惫的精神。 „Does not use, every year having the problem, crossing these was good on.” “不用了,每年都有的毛病,过了这几日就好。” Mi Hua holds an office in Capital now, whole time sleep in oneself mansion, few part times sleep in Han Residence. 芈婳现在在京任职,大部分时间宿在自己府邸,少部分时间宿在韩府。 Although lives little, but the courtyard should have the disposition that to have it all, the popularity is also exuberant, cannot see slightly the chilly color. 虽说住得少,但院落该有的配置还是一应俱全,人气也旺盛,看不出丝毫清冷之色。 The dexterous maidservant pulled the quite daily loosen quick chignon to her, so as to avoid as tired as scalp, the makeup allows to dress up also compared with the ordinary day vegetarian many. 手巧的丫鬟给她挽了比较日常松快的发髻,免得累到头皮,妆容打扮也比平日素得多。 She is looking in the mirror the phoenix pupil of person, slightly is surprised the different way obviously, „today so to be how plain?” 她瞧着镜中人的凤眸,略显诧异道,“今日怎么如此素净？” Without remembering incorrectly, this maidservant most is good at various Capital City popular woman of quality makeups accommodating, stopper elegant. 若是没记错,这丫鬟最擅长京城流行的各种贵妇妆容,一个塞一个雍容华贵。 Mi Hua will sometimes shut out the makeup to accommodate gorgeously, even if she obviously is not old, is looking also 30 over, but the makeup allowed is also thick. 芈婳有时候都会嫌弃妆容过于艳丽,哪怕她不显老,瞧着也才三十出头,但妆容也太浓了。 Today is actually unusual. 今日倒是稀奇了。 The maidservants said, „yesterday's master urged, said that these days madames liked being plainer.” 丫鬟道,“昨儿老爷叮嘱的,说这几日夫人喜欢素净些的。” Mi Hua stares, says with a smile, „but actually also had great reputation Han Wenbin worthily long ago carefully, the conduct indeed such as sends.” 芈婳一愣,笑道,“倒也不愧是早年有盛名的韩文彬,行事的确是心细如发。” Others successes have the truth, in life can look to obtain the clue bit by bit. 人家的成功不是没道理的,生活中的一点一滴就能瞧得出端倪。 Every year by these, Mi Hua mood became on very low, especially this day, because this is the first husband's death anniversary. 每年到了这几日,芈婳的心情就变得很低落,特别是这一日,因为这是第一任丈夫的忌日。 Dresses and applies makeup, is looking in the mirror at most 27-28 females, Mi Hua was happier. 梳妆好,瞧着镜中顶多27-28的女子,芈婳的心情好了一些。 „Madame, Saburo hears the madame, pays respects especially.” “夫人,三郎君听说夫人在,特地来请安。” Mi Huadao, „makes him come.” 芈婳道,“让他来吧。” Came to the institute main hall, that is long one group weak youngster to wait for her childish and as if immature. 来了正院正厅,那个长得一团孩子气、似乎稚嫩可欺的少年正在等着她。 „Son pays respects to mother.” “儿子给母亲请安。” Mi Huadao, „gets up, today academy rest?” 芈婳道,“起来吧,今日书院休息？” The Han pond sets out to take a seat in Mi Hua right hand one side seat, the earnest say/way, „today's academy attended class as before.” 韩池起身在芈婳右手一侧的席位上落座,认真道,“今日书院依旧上课。” Mi Hua twists the eyebrow say/way, „attended class?” 芈婳拧眉道,“上课？” Does this child skip classes? 这孩子逃课？ Should not be, Han pond this child is quite clever, is almost clever not own opinion. 应该不是,韩池这个孩子相当乖巧,几乎乖得没自己的主见。 Does a little darling possibly make skips classes this „treason and heresy” the matter? 一个乖宝宝怎么可能做出逃课这样“大逆不道”的事情？ Did not fear that was carried the rattan to beat savagely by his father. 不怕被他老子拎着藤条暴打啊。 Han pond say/way, „father days before invited half lesson for the son, said that accompanies mother.” 韩池道,“父亲前几日替儿子请了半日课,说是陪母亲的。” Mi Hua: „......” 芈婳:“……” Good, she must acknowledge, can arrive at the present from the tumultuous times, the person of making steady progress, indeed has the place that is worth praising. 好吧,她得承认,能从乱世走到现在,步步高升的人,的确有值得称道的地方。 „So, pond Er accompanies mother to go to a on Buddhist temple in Beijing suburbs today.” “如此,池儿今日陪母亲去一趟京郊的上佛寺。” On the Buddhist temple is the temple in Hejian county, but your majesty allocated funds to cultivate/repair one in the Beijing suburbs afterward. Hears in the temple the senior monk and your majesty has the graciousness of direction, although your majesty does not believe in Buddhism, develops also several to contain to Buddhism, in the attitude is partial to Taoism, but this has not affected on the incense and candle of Buddhist temple. Mi Hua still the temple contributed the money for incense and lanterns in this, held several super Buddhist rituals, surpasses for the perishing person prays. 上佛寺本是河间郡的一所寺庙,不过后来陛下拨款在京郊修了一所。听闻寺中老和尚与陛下有指点之恩,尽管陛下不信佛,对佛教发展也几番遏制,态度上更加偏向道家,但这并未影响上佛寺的香火。芈婳还在这所寺庙捐了香油钱,办了几场水陆法会,替亡人超度祈福。 Now the prosperous times are peaceful, the place that but always has the scruples, walked outside was still careful. 如今盛世太平,但总有顾忌不到的地方,在外行走仍需小心。 The Han pond belt/bring foot the guard, went to the Beijing suburbs from the inner city the Buddhist temple, has not bumped into actually troublesome. 韩池带足了护卫,一路从内城去了京郊上佛寺,倒是没碰上麻烦。 (:)) (:)) No, he has the trouble. 不,他有麻烦。 The Han pond as Han yu only also in the body side is raising the child, truly belongs „being isolated and cutting off from help”, without the brothers and sisters shares the firepower for him. The guardian thinks that anything must teach to test, he can only brace oneself. The road of entire two double-hour, Mi Hua has not stopped the inquiry. 韩池作为韩彧唯一还在身侧养着的孩子,属于真正的“孤立无援”,没有兄弟姐妹替他分担火力。家长想到什么要教考,他只能硬着头皮上。整整两个时辰的路,芈婳就没停过询问。 At first Han pond can also give answers readily, more worries toward behind, the young immature face also hangs all over embarrassed blushing. 起初韩池还能对答如流,越往后面越是着急,年轻稚嫩的脸庞也挂满窘迫的红晕。 Too disgraced() 太丢人了() Mi Hua said with a smile, „you also young, this degree is proud.” 芈婳笑道,“你还年幼,这种程度已经值得骄傲了。” Han pond made excuses, „mother comforted the son, the son knows.” 韩池支支吾吾道,“母亲宽慰儿子,儿子知晓。” He discovers entire family several people, seemingly on his study dregs. 他发现全家几口人,貌似就他一个学渣。 Closely related brother Han sleek/moist, is the multitudious brother and multitudious elder sister, in the result of gold/metal scale academy how when did not say the grade, in the class dozens people are first three. The Han pond is different, he latter 50 wanders in the grade year to year, except for a face, which without inherits the father. 不论是嫡兄韩润,还是庶兄和庶姐,待在金鳞书院的成绩不说年级如何,在班级几十号人都是前三的。韩池不一样,他常年在年级后五十徘徊,除了一张脸,没有哪儿遗传到父亲。 Father as well as present mother not to mention. 父亲以及现在的母亲就更不用说了。 Trading to make other self-respect to be intense, it is estimated that must move to the disposition anxiously sluggishly, Han pond actually as before. 换做其他自尊心强烈的,估计早就急得移了心性,韩池却依旧慢吞吞。 Other Han yu guardians same do not force him, his work has or been busy at to without unnecessary mental effort is severe to the son. 韩彧也不似其他家长一样逼迫他,亦或者说他的工作已经忙到没有多余心力对儿子严苛。 The son does not become the playboy, is to this family biggest contribution. 儿子不成为纨绔,便是对这个家庭最大的贡献。 Mi Huadao, „much is also longer is the advantage.” 芈婳道,“长得好也是优势。” Han pond: „???” 韩池:“？？？” Mi Huadao, „your knowledge are more, depends on this face with your family background, working as a famous litterateur is also enough.” 芈婳道,“你的学识再多一些,靠着这张脸与你的家世,当个名士也是够的。” Han pond: „......” 韩池:“……” He could not branch out mother saying to award or black unexpectedly. 他竟然分不出母亲这话是褒奖还是黑了。 Today is not the big holiday, but on some Buddhist temple as before many tourists and pilgrims, outside the temple the carriages and horses are also many. 今日不是什么大节日,但上佛寺依旧有不少游人和香客,寺外车马也多。 The Han pond finds the parking the place to have a familiar carriage, footsteps. 韩池瞧见停车的地方有一辆熟悉的马车,脚步一顿。 Mi Hua following looking, discovered that horse tire the clan emblem somewhat looks familiar. 芈婳循着望去,发现那辆马车带着的族徽有些眼熟。 Isn't this Han Yu ex-wife remarries that clan emblem? 这不是韩彧前妻改嫁那一家的族徽？ „Mother?” “母亲？” Mi Hua was also clear that Han Yu and ex-wife's gratitude and grudges, the brow is light, but looks at Han pond pitiful rabbit sample, tenderhearted several points. 芈婳也清楚韩彧与前妻的恩恩怨怨,眉头轻蹙,但瞧韩池可怜巴巴的兔子样,心软了几分。 „Walks, must delay the double-hour not.” “走吧,莫要耽误了时辰。” Really feared that anything comes anything, just entered the Buddhist temple main hall, the ex-wife who the front surface finds Han Yu is getting a strange daughter. 真是怕什么来什么,刚进入佛寺正殿,迎面瞧见韩彧的前妻正领着一个陌生的小娘子。 Four people look at each other in blank dismay. 四人面面相觑。 Mi Hua line of sight has not moved, walked directly. 芈婳视线都没移动,径直走了过去。 The Han pond braces oneself to Tao salutes. 韩池硬着头皮给陶氏行了礼。 The Tao complexion is receiving stiffly, but the double pupil is staring at Mi Hua face stubbornly, in the hand gripped tightened the kerchief. 陶氏面色僵硬地受着,只是双眸死死盯着芈婳的脸,手中攥紧了帕子。 Her cold snort/hum, has not paid attention to Han pond, is wanting to lead that strange daughter to go round. 她冷哼一声,没有理会韩池,正欲带着那名陌生小娘子绕开。 Mi Hua put out a hand quickly, blocked her way. 芈婳倏地伸出手,拦住了她的去路。 „Do you do really?” “你作甚？” Tao gets angry the double pupil to torch. 陶氏怒得双眸要喷火。 Circumstances changes with the time, present she regards as important other, rather than once died is rigidly adhering to the thing. 时过境迁,现在的她更加看重别的,而不是曾经死死抱着的东西。 Loses power and influence and position that Han Yu brought, did not have the asylum and halo of Tao family, she is only an emaciated helpless woman. 失去了韩彧所带来的权势和地位,没了陶氏家族的庇护和光环,她只是个孱弱无助的女人。 Now, Mi Hua jumps all that snatched her once not to want. 现在,还有个芈婳跳出来抢了她曾经不要的一切。 Mi Huashua must open in the hand that heavy and shining hollows out the gold/metal fan, the fan falls is the precious good beautiful jade. 芈婳刷得打开手中那柄沉甸甸又金灿灿的镂空金扇子,扇坠儿更是名贵的上好美玉。 She is pinching the fan ajar elegant surface. 她捏着扇子半掩俏面。 „pond Er salutes to you.” “池儿给你行了礼。” Tao sneers saying that „what's the big deal? He is the flesh and blood that in my abdomen crawls, saluting should, I could not be managed by you.” 陶氏冷笑道,“那又如何？他是我腹中爬出来的骨血,行礼应该的,我受不受你也管不着。” She is Han Yu first wife, Mi Hua is three marriage second wives, how- does she also want to stop to salute inadequately to oneself? 她才是韩彧原配,芈婳不过是三婚继室,怎么-她也想停下来给自己行礼不成？ Unexpectedly, Mi Hua smiles saying that „I am the royal government two, the common people see the officer, cannot do obeisance?” 谁料,芈婳笑眯眯道,“我乃朝廷正二品,庶民见官,不得拜吗？” Tao: „???” 陶氏:“？？？” Somewhat was just low-spirited suffering Han pond: „!!!” 刚刚有些黯然委屈的韩池:“！！！” Mi Huadao, „pond Er does obeisance you should be, you do obeisance me also should be. The madame is gentle, knows the book to reach the principle, how can not know this truth? On you one not informed the life, two no glory to seal/confer, three- maternal home was determined guilt revolting thief who by your majesty confiscated family's property to exterminate the clan if pneumatic cell disregarded you, I will not recognize the madame. Since recognized the madame identity, then, should have the custom that then to set up.” 芈婳道,“池儿拜你是应该的,你拜我也是应该的。夫人出身名门,知书达理,岂会不知这个道理？你身上一无诰命,二无荣封,三则-娘家还是被陛下定罪抄家灭族的叛贼-池儿若无视了你,我也不会认得出夫人。既然认出了夫人身份,那么,该有的规矩便要立一立。” Tao complexion one white, as if brushed lime, the daughter was also frightened the leg softly, advanced the big ritual. 陶氏脸色一白,仿佛刷了一层白灰,身后的小娘子也被吓得软了腿,先行了大礼。 Deadlock a while, the Tao heart unwilling sentiment does not hope, shames extremely salutes to Mi Hua. 僵持一会儿,陶氏心不甘情不愿,又极为羞辱地对芈婳行了礼。 „Gets up. This officer rests to wash today, does not suspend the officer prestige, if were known the ginseng/partake by the official charged with remonstrating with the emperor to your majesty there, is not quite of pleasant to hear.” “起来吧。本官今日休沐,摆不得官威,若是被言官知晓参到陛下那儿,不太好听。” After Tao is nipping molar, is red the eye socket, pinched that daughter's wrist/skill body to pull. 陶氏咬着后槽牙,红着眼眶,掐着那个小娘子的手腕皮肉将人扯走了。 Continues to remain, was insulted? 继续留下来,受人欺辱吗？ The Han pond looks dumbfoundedly. 韩池看得目瞪口呆。 Mi Huadao, „she is your birth mother, should not so treat,- I can not a wee bit grievance.” 芈婳道,“她是你生母,本不该如此对待,不过嘛-我这人也是受不得丁点儿委屈的。” She the old fox was many in the government has seen, which isn't thoughts nine curves 18 curved? 她在官场见过的老狐狸多了,哪个不是心思九曲十八弯的？ Tao heart that son thoughts, won't she be able to see through? 陶氏心底那点儿心思,她会看不穿？ However is did not figure out that the pitiful woman, really thinks „and reputation can press her head to first wife”? 不过是个拎不清又可悲的女人,真以为“和离原配”名头能压过她一头？ don't said the practical action, even if thinks at heart is not good! 莫说实际行动,哪怕是心里想想都不行！ If in those days, Mi Hua not so, but is different today. 若是往日,芈婳不会如此,但今日不一样。 Today is the late husband death anniversary, she does not want to make him see itself to receive the suffering place. 今天是亡夫忌日,她也不想让他看到自己受一点儿委屈的地方。 The Han pond lowers the head does not speak. 韩池低头不语。 Mi Hua burns incense, copied the Buddhist literature to burn down in the side palace, a double-hour in a flash on the past. 芈婳上了香,又在侧殿抄了佛经烧掉,一个时辰一晃就过去了。 Before leaving the temple, Mi Hua asked male religious novice that the main hall cleans. 离开寺院之前,芈婳问了正殿打扫的沙弥。 Only knows that Tao daughter is she gives to remarry favors the concubine who the husband arranges firmly. In order to boss around husband's heart, to sit quietly the position of senior branch, she earnestly hopes the concubine who own careful choice can be with the child as soon as possible. Today burns incense also to pray for a son. 这才知道陶氏身边的小娘子是她给再嫁丈夫安排的固宠小妾。为了笼络丈夫的心,也为了稳坐大房的位置,她迫切希望自己精心挑选的小妾能尽快怀孩子。今日上香也是为了求子。 Mi Huache pulled the corners of the mouth, cannot bear spit the mortise, „hope peace and good health can also understand, what approach the running temple did pray for a son is?” 芈婳扯了扯嘴角,忍不住吐槽道,“祈求安康还能理解,跑寺院求子又是个什么做法？” The Han pond is puzzled, „why?” 韩池不解,“为何？” Mi Huadao, „Buddhist spoke four elements are merely illusions, asked the monk monk to pray for a son, didn't find it ridiculous?” 芈婳道,“出家人讲四大皆空,找和尚比丘求子,不觉得可笑？” Han pond: „......” 韩池:“……” The Buddha listened to this saying to cry. 佛祖听了这话会哭的。 Mi Hua is very busy, but Han Yu is also better, in January/one month can have three days to rest washes. 芈婳是很忙,但也比韩彧好一些,一月能有三天休沐。 Read in Han yu face, Mi Hua was all right the schoolwork that also catches Han pond, cared about him in the life of academy. 念在韩彧的面子上,芈婳没事儿也会抓一抓韩池的功课,关心一下他在书院的生活。 Han pond initial contact Mi Hua such female, to her is intimate with quickly surpasses birth mother Tao. 韩池还是初次接触芈婳这样的女性,对她的亲近很快就超过生母陶氏。 The Han pond was returned to Han Residence by the steward, said to the woman who Mi Huanie shoulder pounds the back, „Saburo is actually good, natural disposition pure and good-hearted.” 韩池被管家送回韩府,给芈婳捏肩捶背的妇人道,“三郎君倒是不错,生性纯良。” Mi Huadao does, „what you want to say?” 芈婳道,“你想说什么？” The women said with a smile, „might as well adopted, your name , the master will also comply.” 妇人笑道,“不妨过继过来,记到您的名下,想必老爷也会答应。” Mi Huawan that gold/metal fan, is saying with a smile, „, if does that Tao feared that must be mad spits blood.” 芈婳玩着那柄金扇子,笑道,“若是这么做,那位陶氏怕是要气吐血。” The woman warm Judo, „person has the life respectively, this was her life.” 妇人温柔道,“人各有命,这便是她的命了。” Can lie down the aspect of winning to make present this forcefully, is the skill. 能硬生生将躺赢的局面作成如今这样,也是本事。 Bragged intelligently, has not actually seen clearly a fact for a lifetime- 自诩聪明,却一辈子都没看清一个事实- Her destiny is pinching in others hand from beginning to end. 她的命运至始至终都在别人手中捏着。 It is not others must pinch, but is she delivers to others hand the destiny on own initiative. 不是旁人要捏着,而是她主动将命运送到别人手上。 All honor or disgrace are on the family, husband and son. 一切荣辱系在家族、丈夫、儿子身上。 The family was extinguished, the husband left, the son became estranged. 家族被灭了,丈夫离了,儿子疏远了。 Lost all still not to awaken , to continue to step on another same pit tenaciously. 失去一切仍旧不醒悟,继续固执地踩进另一个同样的坑。 She does not understand now, later does not understand why oneself so cross his entire life. 她现在不会明白,以后也不会明白自己一生为何过得如此。 Mi Huaqiao the picture and preface on gold/metal fan covering of fan, the faint say/way, „is only hoping, world such female can be less.” 芈婳瞧着金扇扇面上的画和题词,淡漠道,“只盼着,世间这样的女子能少一些。” The women said, „had the madame to work as the example, what worried that these females weren't excited?” 妇人道,“有夫人当了榜样,何愁那些女子不心动？” Mi Hua ridicules, „you do not understand, the person who the person of sitting idle and enjoying the fruits, always begins are much more.” 芈婳讥笑,“你不懂,坐享其成的人,总是比自己动手的人多得多。” Some examples how? 有榜样又如何？ Now emperor or female. 当今天子还是女子呢。 „So long as got married to give birth is still the escape route of women's, such as Tao female of so, was still emerged one after another incessantly.” Mi Hua jokes, „they will only say that ‚this is good luck woman’ and ‚was a pity is three marriage, has the high office and high pay also less than them to enjoy again’, then turns head then to teach that under the knee the daughter must try hard to marry a better man, taught again the son tries hard to study to practice martial art, must reside under the woman not. No one is a fool, naturally knows that marries one to live in the top man to be possible becoming the woman who lives in top is much easier.” “只要嫁人生子仍是女子的退路,如陶氏这般的女子,仍旧是层出不穷的。”芈婳讥笑道,“她们只会说‘这是个好命的女人’、‘可惜是个三婚的,再有高官厚禄也不及她们享受’,然后扭头便教导膝下女儿要努力嫁给更好的男人,再教导儿子努力读书习武,莫要居于妇人之下。谁也不是傻子,当然知道嫁给一个身居高位的男人可比成为身居高位的女人容易得多。” The women are puzzled. 妇人不解。 Many years later, Han Yu inquired that critically ill aged she must escort a coffin with the late husband buries. 多年后,韩彧询问病危老迈的她要不要扶灵与先夫共葬。 Mi Hua smiles, „works as a neighbor to be then good with your bad old man, why to disturb the dead?” 芈婳笑笑,“与你这糟老头当个邻居便好,何必打扰亡者？” Han yu sits by the bed, asked her, „felt relaxed?” 韩彧坐在床榻旁,问她,“释然了？” „17 -year-old not being able to look on the bright side of thing matter, 71 years old should also take easy. In the past and is the present state of mind, how could same?” “十七岁想不开的事情,七十一岁也该想开了。当年与现在的心境,岂能一样？” Her few Toshiro lived for nearly 50 years in her. 她的少年郎在她心里多活了近五十年。 Did not have to hold to read, thought on the contrary he who the past passionate sentiment and could not let loose was the old friend who left has not turned over to for a long time. 没了当年的炽热感情和放不开的执念,反倒觉得他是个离开许久未归的故人。 Said one „hello/you good”, said one „treasuring”. 道一句“你好”,说一句“珍重”。 Her line of sight blows off, is looking at the morning sun of out of the window. 她视线放空,望着窗外的曦光。 Indistinct, the ear bank hears one , if there is chuckle that resembles not to have. 隐隐约约,耳畔听到一声若有似无的轻笑。 Mi Huaxiao. 芈婳笑了。 Old friends, after all. 故人,终归。