After on this day, vermilion Qingning really fulfills the promise, often leads on the daughter the mansion to visit ancient Zhen. 这天之后,朱青宁果然践行诺言,时常带着女儿上府探望古蓁。 ancient Zhen is naturally delighted beyond measure. 古蓁自然喜不自胜。 Nie Xun attitude as usual, how whatever ancient Zhen flatters the goodwill, the meaning that he has not softened, makes outside vermilion azure Nynger puzzled. 聂洵的态度照旧,任凭古蓁如何讨好亲善,他都没有软化的意思,弄得朱青宁格外不解。 „How permitted this honestly is?” vermilion Qingning said with a sigh, „today, she told me the beforehand matter, really had the difficulties.” “诚允这是怎么了？”朱青宁叹息道,“今日,她跟我说了以前的事情,真是有苦衷的。” Nie Xun is reading in the institute, the facial expression results not to bring mighty waves, vermilion Qingning to approach tranquilly with a smile, shrinks one group of nests, in he bosom. 聂洵正在院中看着书,神情平静得不带一丝波澜,朱青宁笑着靠近,缩成一团窝在他怀中。 Was disturbed by the wife weak action, Nie Xunzhi can vacate one enclasps reluctantly her and bosom baby. 被妻子幼稚的举动打搅,聂洵只能无奈地空出一手将她和怀中的宝宝抱紧。 vermilion Qingning says slowly with the content that the moderate voice will listen to, end sighed with emotion one. 朱青宁用温和的嗓音将自己听来的内容徐徐道来,末了感慨一声。 „Permits honestly, the world is parents, she also really has the difficulties, you then not tenderhearted, even if little?” “诚允,天下无不是的父母,她又实在是有苦衷,你便不心软哪怕一点点？” After all is near the pillow the person, vermilion Qingning most knows about Nie Xun. 毕竟是枕边人,朱青宁对聂洵是最了解的。 The things she is not very clear, first day he also has the tendency of goodwill to ancient Zhen obviously, separated coldly for several days. 有一件事情她很不明白,明明第一天他对古蓁还有亲善的倾向,隔了几天就冷了下去。 „Five mothers, this world will of the people you have not imagined like that simply. Does the personality that you so pure white are easily swindled, how feel relieved for the husband under?” A Nie Xun link she, the chin by her shoulder, the sound brings several points of weariness, „according to your rephrasing in own words, she indeed had the difficulties in the past, but does not mean to be honest has not concealed. You later lead the child to have a look at her is also good, but do not give me and she again makes the contacts.” “五娘,这世间人心没你想象得那般简单。你如此纯白好骗的性情,为夫怎么放心得下？”聂洵一手环着她,下巴靠在她的肩头,声音带着几分疲倦,“按照你的转述,她当年的确有苦衷,但说实话不意味着没有隐瞒。你以后带着孩子看看她也好,只是别再给我和她搭线了。” Nie Xun because of the young experience, the personality and average man is different. 聂洵因为年幼的经历,性情与常人不同。 The foster father foster mother does not have the child her entire life, when he such as one's own, he also feels grateful to weep, but this does not mean that he forgot the memory of childhood. 养父养母一生无子,待他如亲生,他也感恩涕零,但这不意味着他就忘了童年的记忆。 That remembers, feared was he old will not fade. 那段记忆,怕是他老了也不会褪色。 In the past was dug from the soil, he went through to hand over, goes through many places to celebrate to trade the imperial edict from east. 当年被人从泥土中挖出来,他被几经转手,辗转从东庆贩卖到了中诏。 Some people buy him to pray for a son, mistress aggressive intense, frequently curses to trample to him hits, because saw that he then feels the shame, his existence reminds the opposite party she unable to give birth to the child frequently. In the winter was pressed to get buried into the water by that woman, he struggles is more ruthless, she then more uses the vigor. 3 or 4-year-old he feels suffocated to feign death simply, the opposite party falls into him the water, scolded clamor several to walk. 有人买他是为了求子,女主人性情暴躁激烈,对他动辄大骂踹打,因为看到他便觉得羞辱,他的存在时时刻刻提醒对方她生不出孩子。寒冬腊月被那女人摁着头埋进水里,他挣扎越狠,她便越用劲儿。三四岁的他干脆憋着一口气装死,对方将他摔入水中,骂咧咧几句走了。 Naturally, this possibly is not the result, he reduces begged shortly, also specially is kidnapped and sold the peddler who begged to settle on, sold to under the family/home. 当然,这不可能是结局,他沦落成乞儿不久,又被专门拐卖乞儿的贩子看中,卖给了下家。 His anything people have met, some people settle on his face, buys up the male homosexuality place him, if not that place by fire burning down completely, Nie Xun cannot run away ; Some people have to humiliate the young boy to seek the physiological pleasant sensation purely the hobby, he breaks the hand to break the foot, the pinky of right hand is not flexible now. On him keeps the scar that the childhood experience is leaving behind, some were early good, some also remain stubbornly. 他什么人都遇见过,有人看中他的脸,将他买入男色场所,若非那地方被一场大火焚烧殆尽,聂洵也逃不出来;有人纯粹有折辱幼童寻求生理快感的嗜好,他断过手断过脚,右手的小拇指如今还不灵活。他身上留着童年经历留下的伤痕,有些早好了,有些至今还顽固留着。 Nie Xun is the life hard person, he is not willing dead, naturally cannot die. 聂洵是个命硬的人,他不肯死,自然死不了。 The life has the parents, he also has, his parents where? 人生而有父母,他也有,他的父母在哪里？ They are because the family has to trade him poorly, encounters the big change to make him be turned the serrated edge? 他们是因为家庭贫穷不得不将他贩卖,还是遭遇大变让他被人牙子拐走？ He wants to ravel. 他想弄明白。 This holds to read to support him to live. 这个执念支撑他活下来。 Probably, Nie Xun has not thought at that time, his parents come so high-rankingly, unattainable. 大概,聂洵那时候怎么也没想到,他的父母出身如此显贵,高不可攀。 If we had known, perhaps did not need is so bitter, kills to seek next life many. 倘若早知道,兴许不用那么苦了,一头撞死求个来生好些。 „Why?” vermilion Qingning turned to kiss in his cheeks, interrupted his recollection, now also a being ignorant of affair young girl acts like a spoiled brat to say likely, „permitted honestly, you must tell me the reason. You always not agrees explained, others will misunderstand you are the unfilial children.” “为什么呀？”朱青宁扭首在他脸颊亲了一下,打断他的回忆,如今还像个不谙世事的少女般撒娇道,“诚允,你好歹要告诉我理由啊。你总不肯解释,旁人会误会你是不孝之子。” Nie Xun smiles bitterly, he does not want to make the wife know these, he has not said. 聂洵苦笑,他就是不想让妻子知道这些,他才没说的。 „You paid attention to the sister-in-law that side situation then to know.” “你注意大嫂那边情况便知道了。” vermilion Qingning is puzzled, „what relations does this have with the sister-in-law?” 朱青宁不解,“这跟大嫂又有什么关系？” She really does not understand, this obviously is Nie Xun and between the heart knot ancient Zhen, how to pull the sister-in-law? 她是真的不懂,这明明是聂洵和古蓁之间的心结,怎么扯上大嫂了？ Nie Xunchui pupil, vermilion Qingning places in the child nearby resting basket, both hands hold his right hand, kisses the pinky. 聂洵垂眸,朱青宁将孩子放在一旁的睡篮里,双手捧着他的右手,亲了亲小拇指。 „You always this-” “你总这样-” Nie Xun felt that the hair must worry bare, he most does not have idea to wife move. 聂洵感觉头发都要愁秃了,他对妻子这招是最没辙的。 „You do not want like this, you to explain. The explanation, you also know that you do not talk clearly, sometimes I do not understand.” “你不想这样,那你就解释呗。解释嘛,你也知道你不说清楚,我有时候也不懂的。” Nie Xun is helpless, can only propose several in her ear. 聂洵无奈,只能在她耳边提了几句。 The smile on vermilion Qingning face is all of a sudden stiff. 朱青宁脸上的笑容一下子就僵硬下来。 „This-” “这-” Nie Xundao, „five mothers, if can...... really want to lead you to go back to have a look at the parents, told them, truly the son got married.” 聂洵道,“五娘,若是可以……真想带你回去看看父母,告诉他们,洵儿成家了。” vermilion Qingning good long time to have gotten back one's composure, said, „my these days action...... did make you feel embarrassed?” 朱青宁好半晌才回过神,说道,“我这些日子的举动……岂不是让你为难了？” Nie Xun whispered, „wanted is you, was not awkward.” 聂洵低语道,“只要是你,不为难。” Close to the end of the year, Jiang Pengji makes few people first return to the pill state, Meng Heng is also. 临近年关,姜芃姬让一部分人先回丸州,孟恒也是其中一员。 After he arrives, sees the wife and child impatiently, the smile in surface is more like a child. 他抵达之后迫不及待去见妻子和孩子,面上的笑容更像是个孩子。 The wife wipes away sweat to him, is angry saying that „you journeys, didn't fear dirty the child? Got down to wash, washes kissed again.” 妻子给他擦汗,嗔道,“你一路风尘,不怕脏了孩子？下去洗洗,洗了再亲。” Meng can only be compliant permanently, bathes comfortably, changes the brand-new clothes. 孟恒只能遵命,舒舒服服沐浴一番,换上崭新的衣裳。 He asked in the family/home the situation, wife also 11. 他问了家里情况,妻子也一一道来。 „Permits that side to have the attendance honestly?” Meng asked permanently. “诚允那边可有照顾？”孟恒问道。 Although the two brothers have not acknowledged as relatives, but Meng Heng also has the guilt to Nie Xun, after all plans, now should make up for one. 虽说兄弟二人没有认亲,但孟恒对聂洵也有愧疚,毕竟算计一场,如今该弥补一番的。 The wife starts to speak but hesitates, Meng Heng asked her, „how? Permits that side some people to feel embarrassed honestly?” 妻子欲言又止,孟恒问她,“怎么了？诚允那边有人为难？” „Pours does not have, is only-” “倒也没有,只是-” „Is only? What?” “只是？只是什么？” Meng permanent is eating the cakes and pastries pad belly, while the concern sees the wife. 孟恒一边吃着糕点垫肚子,一边关切看着妻子。 The wife around the kerchief, „a while ago, on mother -in-law the mansion saw the Second Brother and sister-in-law puzzled, making was not very happy.” 妻子纠结地绕着帕子,“前阵子,婆婆上府去看二弟和弟妹了,闹得不是很开心。” Meng is not permanently accidental. 孟恒毫不意外。 „This conforms to the disposition that permits honestly actually.” “这倒是符合诚允的脾性。” If comes up on the acknowledging as relatives family photo, Meng Heng instead thought that Nie Xun was seized the shed. 如果一上来就认亲合家欢,孟恒反而觉得聂洵被人夺舍了。 The wife also said situation of that day. 妻子又将那一日的情形说了一遍。 She and vermilion Qingning is not only in the boudoir the close friend is brother's wives, some topics do not abstain. 她和朱青宁既是闺中密友又是妯娌,有些话题不忌讳的。 The brother's wives two opinions are actually unified, they worked as mother's person, always thought that Nie Xuntai was indifferent. 妯娌两个意见倒是统一,她们都是当了母亲的人,总觉得聂洵太冷漠了。 Meng listened permanently , „so many years, she was old disposition.” 孟恒听了,啧了一声,“这么多年,她还是老脾性。” The wife says with emotion, „brother-in-law long ago indeed was very bitter, but the world all was did the parents, how so have a heart of stone?” 妻子感慨道,“小叔子早年的确是很苦,但天下无不是的父母,怎么就如此铁石心肠？” Meng said permanently, „mother continues so to get down, the feelings of honestly permitting will be only harder are colder.” 孟恒却道,“母亲继续这般下去,诚允的心肠只会更硬更冷。” The wife compelled ignorant. 妻子懵逼了。 „Mother-in-law treats him such well-” “婆婆待他这么好-” „Good also to divide the situation. The mother in the pill state the time, did not say that on a while the messenger the mansion, she can ask you and child?” “好也分情况。母亲在丸州也有一阵子时间了,不说差人上府,她可有问过你和孩子？” The wife gawked, said, „this and this do not have actually.” 妻子愣了,道,“这、这倒是没有。” Not only no, she has to lead on the child the mansion to pay respects one time, the maidservant said that the opposite party went to sleep. 不仅没有,她有一次带着孩子上府请安,侍女说对方已经睡下了。 Afterward with on the sister-in-law vermilion Qingning mansion, first saw mother -in-law together, to was really only then attractive, cannot look at the age. 后来和弟妹朱青宁一起上府,头一回见了婆婆,对方可真漂亮,瞧不出年岁呢。 Meng sighed permanently, „I told mother, permitted also to live honestly this matter, how long.” 孟恒叹道,“我告诉母亲,诚允还活着这事儿,那才多久啊。” The wife does not understand as before, Meng Heng does not have the thoughts to explain, after all was in front of wife to say mother was not good, this also unseemly. 妻子依旧不懂,孟恒也没有心思解释,毕竟当着妻子的面说母亲不好,这也不像样。 ancient is Zhen a good mother? 古蓁是个好母亲么？ To willow Xi, probably was in the world best mother, this good , was not only the mouth good, the action did not fall. 对柳羲而言,大概是天底下最好的母亲了,这个好不仅是嘴上好,行动也不落下。 To their brothers, stays on the mouth forever, her good also said that listens to others. 对他们兄弟而言,永远停留在嘴上,她的好也只是说给旁人听。 Before the Meng permanent correspondence to ancient Zhen, she does not know that the youngest son is also living, she on outwardly, only then a Meng Heng son. 在孟恒书信给古蓁之前,她不知道小儿子还活着,她明面上只有孟恒一个儿子。 But she to eldest son what attitude? 可她对长子什么态度？ He passes the day that the collateral branch son is even inferior to Meng Residence, frequently guards against the father concubine room to frame. 他在孟府过着连旁支庶子都不如的日子,时时刻刻提防父亲妾室陷害。 In order to help oneself, is willing to become the proton to live to go to the capital, the expenses that Meng Residence gives basically do not have, he pawned the things of several year of times to maintain the livelihood reluctantly. He studies in the private study, the bunch repairs lowly, does not study while sells the calligraphy and painting to earn the pocket money in secret. 为了自救,甘愿成为质子长居上京,孟府给的开销基本没有,他还是典当了几件周岁时候的物件才勉强维持生活。他在私学读书,束脩不低,一边读书一边私底下卖字画赚取零用。 Once he gives mother to write a letter hopefully, hopes that the opposite party pities him, looks after 12. 有一次他满怀希望给母亲写信,希望对方怜悯他,照拂一二。 ancient Zhen looked , making one take 120 silver money to him, did not have few words except for the silver money. 古蓁照拂了,让人给他捎了百两银钱,除了银钱没有只言片语。 That time Meng Heng has the sense of shame, holds silver money that mother is giving, on face burning. 那时候的孟恒已经有了廉耻心,捧着母亲给的银钱,脸上火辣辣的。 Book child say/way, „can it be that madame thinks my dear does go begging to her?” 书童道,“夫人莫不是以为郎君向她乞讨？” 11 or 12-year-old Meng Heng thought that own self-respect and face countenance were struck a smashing by mother. 十一二岁的孟恒却觉得自己的自尊心和颜面都被母亲击了个粉碎。 This money goes begging. 这钱是乞讨来的。 He „going begging” looking after of birth mother loves, finally asks to bring in money. 他“乞讨”生母的照拂疼爱,结果讨来了钱。 Meng permanent 23 get married, that is the Meng elder is unable to continue watching, the gracious gift matched a collateral branch daughter of first wife who to him generally goes down in the world the hereditary scholar class. 孟恒二十三成婚,那还是孟氏长老看不下去,恩赐一般给他配了一个落魄士族的旁支嫡女。 Can mother have to inquire about a word half language regarding this? 母亲对此可有过问一言半语？ Before deep dies, but can also use a pretext is the Meng potential is big, she for the son is good, therefore does not dare to inquire. 孟湛死之前,还能推说是孟氏势大,她为了儿子好所以不敢过问。 Now Meng deep body cool several rounds, she still had the attitude of disregarding to the eldest son, waits to the eldest daughter-in-law and eldest grandson indifferently. 如今孟湛尸体都凉了几轮了,她对长子仍旧采取无视的态度,对长媳和长孙也冷漠以待。 So mother, she actually child „pulls out lung to two that more than 20 years have not met from the heart”, big show/unfolds loving mother mood. 如此母亲,她却对二十多年未曾谋面的二子“掏心掏肺”,大展慈母情怀。 Nie Xun is not stupid, ancient Zhenyue is thinks that „making up” two, the eldest son regard, if air, he will be only more cold-hearted. 聂洵又不蠢,古蓁越是想“弥补”二子,将长子视若空气,他只会更加冷心。 The eldest son and she has mother and child sentiment, in addition so thin cold. 长子和她有母子情,尚且如此薄凉。 Then unseen in more than 20 years two, how many jin (0.5 kg) there are how many two, what qualifications has to obtain her being partial? 那么20多年未见的二子,有几斤几两,有什么资格得到她的偏爱？ She is the sincerity wants to recall the child, makes up for the defect the maternal love, to obtain one „forgiving”, does subside the innermost feelings the guilt? 她是真心想挽回孩子,弥补缺失的母爱,还是为了得到一句“原谅”,平息内心的愧疚？ This, Meng Heng thought that Nie Xun sees very clearly. 这点,孟恒觉得聂洵看得很清楚。 The wife does not know that Meng Heng idea, sighed with emotion one. 妻子不知孟恒的想法,感慨了一句。 „Mother-in-law was not easy long ago, before hearing, often is ill in bed, can't the brother-in-law then forgive?” “婆婆早年也不容易,听闻以前时常卧病在床,小叔便不能体谅体谅么？” The Gu closely related concubine's child female, arriving is not easy now. 古氏嫡支庶女,走到如今不容易。 „She is not willing to take medicine to treat an illness, can others also force her to be inadequate?” Isn't the Meng permanent say/way, „easy? Perhaps has.” “她不肯服药治病,旁人还能强迫她不成？”孟恒道,“不容易？兴许有吧。” The wife looks the discontented color. 妻子面露不满之色。 How own husband spoke this saying. 自家丈夫怎么说这话呢。 „Mother although long ago for the Gu multitudious female, but her one compares the closely related mother's married sister on the treatment. Otherwise, in the past the not possible splendid attire ten li (0.5 km) to marry into Meng. I had asked some old people, closely related mother's married sister to mother really good, the people of dowry are her trusted aide, each has the skill......” Meng Hengdao, after „this, remarries to willow She, Liu Residence takes her as to revere up and down. Now, your majesty made the position of would-be queen mother to her. Our these become the son, if is really is good for her, maintains the present appearance is best.” “母亲早年虽为古氏庶女,但她的一应待遇都是比照嫡姨母的。不然的话,当年也不可能盛装十里嫁入孟氏了。我去问过一些老人,嫡姨母对母亲是真的好,陪嫁的人都是她的心腹,各个都有本事……”孟恒道,“这之后,改嫁给柳佘,柳府上下以她为尊。如今,主公又给她挣了个准太后的位置。我们这些当儿子的,若真是为了她好,维持如今的样子是最好的。” Manner, he does not dare to complain, similarly cannot be intimate with. 为人子,他不敢怨,同样也亲近不起来。