Although Jenkin is very indeed delicious, but analogies „small bread” indeed is very strange him. 虽然詹金斯的确很可口,但将他比喻成“小面包”也的确很奇怪。 Hathaway does not know that actually oneself should think deeply about anything in this time, her never has also thought oneself person can be „god”. Even how the crazy person, will not conceive again like this. 海瑟薇不知道自己究竟在此时应该思索什么,她也从未想过自己身边的人会是“神”。即使再怎么疯狂的人,也不会这样设想。 Dizzy within, the whole world as if becomes no longer real. The vortex the Hathaway volume seat, making her unable to concentrate the matter that the spirit thinks deeply about to think deeply about: 天旋地转间,整个世界仿佛都变得不再真实。旋涡将海瑟薇卷席着,令她无法集中精神去思索应该思索的事情: „If he is a god, I actually hug with him......” “如果他是神,我却与他拥抱......” She felt that oneself is shivering. 她感觉到自己在颤抖。 „If he is a god, I actually work out the contract of marriage with him......” “如果他是神,我却与他订立婚姻的契约......” The panic that the innermost soul emerges, lets own spirit at the rebellion. 灵魂深处涌现出的恐慌,让自身的灵都在暴动。 „If he is a god, I actually on chuang with him......” “如果他是神,我却与他上chuang......” A entire world is the false feeling, making Hathaway start to suspect that all at this moment, whether to be actually real. The reality of recollection, all things that starts from the record, is false the panic that makes her be from the heart. But the temperature of Jenkin palm, as well as one side that cat real incomparable hostility look, she forces to sober in addition from the train of thought that looks up Jenkin: 一种全世界都是虚假的感觉,让海瑟薇开始怀疑此刻的一切,究竟是否是真实的。回忆的真实,从记事开始的所有事情,都虚假得让她发自内心的恐慌。但詹金斯手掌的温度,以及一旁那只猫真实无比的敌视眼神,又另她勉强从思绪中清醒过来,抬头看着詹金斯: „How can you show?” “你要如何证明？” Without the divinity situation in is very indeed difficult to show that oneself is a god, but if this point is not even able to show, then God of Lies was too laughable. 没有神性的情况下的确很难证明自己就是神,但如果连这一点都无法证明,那么谎言之神就太可笑了。 He nods: 他点了点头: „Gaze I, Hathaway.” “注视我,海瑟薇。” He said, Hathaway looks up to him. Jenkin loosened the hand that grabs Hathaway, his body natural depreciation backward, the soul continues with Hathaway looking at each other. 他说道,海瑟薇抬头望向他。詹金斯松开了抓着海瑟薇的手,他的身体自然的向后跌落,灵魂则继续与海瑟薇对视。 Hathaway saw, she saw compared with before several hours, after visual brass gate instantaneously more fearful exists( note). She closed the eye, did not think deeply about oneself to see anything, what front imagined diligently was one is nipped a bread by oneself . Moreover the bread was delicious. 海瑟薇看到了,她看到了比几个小时前,目视黄铜门后的瞬间更可怕的存在(注)。她闭上了眼睛,不去思索自己看到了什么,而是努力想象面前的是一块被自己咬了一口的面包,而且面包非常可口。 This type has some taboo kuai feelings laws, washed out trembling of innermost feelings. She opens the eye for a long time, seen no longer is It, but is Jenkin. Although existence was fearful, but some indeed familiar feelings, indeed were he, indeed was It. 这种带着些禁忌kuai感想法,冲散了内心的战栗。她许久才睁开眼睛,看到的不再是祂,而是詹金斯。刚才的存在虽然可怕,但的确有种熟悉的感觉,的确是他,的确是祂。 „Did you see? I am God of Lies, but is not the God of Lies vessel. Each God of Lies appears, is actually I appears. Yes, each time, you know that with...... naturally, new god God of Lies that does not know exists, does not make others think that using Lie I very powerful...... I can only be able to restore the God of Lies stance under special circumstances, not frequently is God of Lies.” “你看到了吗？我是谎言之神,而并非谎言之神的容器。每一次谎言之神出现,其实都是我出现。是的,每一次,你知道和不知道的......当然,新神谎言之神是真实存在的,并非是利用谎言让别人以为我很强大......我只能在特殊的情况下才能恢复谎言之神的姿态,并非时时刻刻都是谎言之神。” He was explaining own situation, then saw some cavities from the eye pupil of Hathaway. Jenkin is somewhat scared whether was this fact attacks Hathaway mental, has not actually thought that her lower ring lived in his neck to kiss him. 他解释着自己的情况,然后从海瑟薇的眼眸中看到了些许空洞。詹金斯有些恐慌是否是这个事实冲击到了海瑟薇的心智,却没想到她一下环住他的脖子吻住了他。 „Only by doing so, I can feel you to exist.” “只有这样,我才能感受到你是真实存在的。” When two people separate, Hathaway said in a soft voice. Her some are not at this moment normal, without continue kiss with him, still with another Jenkin absolutely terrified movement, skids on the face of Jenkin with the fingertip. 两人分开时,海瑟薇轻声说道。她此刻有些不正常,即使没有继续与他接吻,依然用另詹金斯毛骨悚然的动作,用指尖在詹金斯的脸上滑动。 „Amn't I real?” “我难道不真实吗？” His nervous low voice inquiry said. 他紧张兮兮的小声的询问道。 „How you must make me believe, what I must marry is gods?” “你要让我怎么相信,我要嫁给的是一位神明？” Two people faces suffer very nearly, Jenkin even can count the clear Hathaway eyelash quantity. He can look at Hathaway confused, panic-stricken and flurried, saw the opposite party as if with looking at the look of small bread looks at him, Jenkin puts the blame on this oneself is not really able to understand the heart of girls. 两人的脸挨得很近,詹金斯甚至能够数清楚海瑟薇的睫毛数量。他看得出来海瑟薇的迷茫、惊恐和慌乱,也看出了对方似乎用看小面包的眼神看着他,詹金斯将这归咎于自己真的无法读懂姑娘们的心。 „Am I the gods am very important? More importantly, I am a mortal time likes you, yes, I am a mortal time, likes you. When I stand looks at you in the world of mortals, you are my one's beloved, when jumps onto the upper air to visit you as gods, you are still my fiancee.” “我是不是神明很重要吗？重要的是,我还是凡人的时候就喜欢你,是的,我还是凡人的时候,就喜欢你。我站在凡间看着你时,你就是我的心上人,当跃上高空以神明的身份看着你,你依然是我的未婚妻。” She starts gasping for breath of big mouth, but quick lives in the own mood steadily. The heart told oneself again „front man is gods”, emerged scared again, making the goosebumps appear in the body surface, but pinnacle scared, when accepted all these, has experienced. Now thinks that is more things. 她又开始大口的喘气,但很快就平稳住自己的情绪。心底再次告诉自己“面前的男人是神明”,恐慌再次涌现,让鸡皮疙瘩出现在身体表面,但极致的恐慌在接受这一切的时候,已经体验过了。现在所想的,是更多事情。 The person in this world grows in the environment of theism since childhood . Moreover the theism of this world is correct. Regarding the respect and awe of gods, is as psychology mature and establishments of three views, is rooted in their hearts. So are few time also few exceptions besides Alexia, here most people, regarding the feeling of god, are not Jenkin are understandable. 这个世界的人从小在有神论的环境下成长,而且这个世界的有神论还是正确的。对于神明的尊敬和敬畏,是随着心理的成熟和三观的建立,根植在她们心中的。除了亚莉克希亚那样极少数一个时代也没几个的例外以外,这里大部分的人,对于神的感觉,都不是詹金斯可以理解的。 Seeing Hathaway is gradually tranquil, Jenkin also said: 见海瑟薇逐渐平静,詹金斯又说道: „Actually such matter also has to happen, I heard, in very ancient age, Church will choose the young attractive or handsome mortal, offers sacrifices to give the god, as serving the servant of gods.” “其实这样的事情也不是没有发生过,我听说,在很古老的年代,教会会选择年轻漂亮或者英俊的凡人,献祭给神,作为侍奉神明的仆人。” „But that happened in few False God Church . Moreover, you really think that the god only meets after the wedding arrives at Material World originally, gets married with the mortal who these serve the god?” “但那只是发生在很少的伪神教会中,而且,你真以为神祇们会亲自来到物质世界,和那些侍奉神的凡人成婚吗？” Hathaway asked that still skidded on the face of Jenkin with the fingertip. 海瑟薇问道,依然用指尖在詹金斯的脸上滑动。 „Are you really a god?” “你真的是神？” Asking that again she takes great pains. 她不厌其烦的再次问道。 „Yes, at least in having the divinity situation, I really am a god.” “是的,至少在拥有神性的情况下,我真的是神。” Hathaway closed the eye again, the palm of both hands holds the face of Jenkin. She accepted, although is very difficult, but she really accepted. 海瑟薇再次闭上眼睛,双手的手掌捧住了詹金斯的脸。她接受了,虽然很困难,但她真的接受了。 The bread whether or not she wants, she has tasted sweetness after all personally. No matter holds the outcome is anything...... 不管是不是她想要的面包,她毕竟已经亲口品尝过其中的甘甜。不管捧着的究竟是什么...... Her hand makes an effort slightly, is feeling Jenkin the touch of detail and skin of face. 她的手微微用力,感受着詹金斯的脸部的细节和皮肤的触感。 So long as the bread in hand is still her, so long as got hold of this bread, squeezes out sweet can still take to her soul shivers moistening, then this by the bread of cat guarding, by her will never be let loose( note). 只要手中的面包依然是她的,只要握紧了这面包,其中挤出的甘甜依然能够带给她的灵魂颤抖般的滋润,那么这块被猫看守的面包,就永远不会被她放开(注)。 Her low voice groans, is holding Jenkin, bent down in his xiong mouth, Jenkin took advantage this opportunity explained low voice a present situation, mentioned the relations of oneself with previous God of Lies, mentioned the life that took the Lie follower and only Saviour, talked about the later plan, talked about at present that negotiations that did utmost to facilitate. 她小声的shen吟着,抱着詹金斯,伏在了他的xiong口,詹金斯则趁这个机会小声的解释了一下现状,说起了自己与前一任谎言之神的关系,说起了作为谎言信徒和唯一救世者的生活,谈到了以后的打算,也谈到了目前正在竭尽全力促成的那场谈判。 Hathaway peaceful is listening, without inquired whether again he is really god matter. Said that in Jenkin all things, asked in a soft voice: 海瑟薇安静的听着,没有再询问他是否真的是神这件事。只是在詹金斯说完了所有的事情,才轻声问道: „, Will the god, you leave us?” “那么,神,你会离开我们吗？” „Naturally not, when I must leave Material World time, you as my angel and holy spirit, along with me leave together. This was I long ago thinks that the good matter, will not have the issue.” “当然不会,等到我必须离开物质世界的时候,你们都将作为我的天使和圣灵,随我一同离开。这可是我很久以前就想好的事情,不会有问题的。” He very earnest nod, Hathaway makes an effort grasped him, as if next quarter he will give birth to the wing, bringing his cat to leave forever. 他很认真的点着头,海瑟薇更用力的抱住了他,仿佛下一刻他就会生出翅膀,带着他的猫永远离开。 „That, Jenkin, your cat? After is very long, your cat?” “那么,詹金斯,你的猫呢？在很久以后,你的猫呢？” She also asked that as if must put down the last puzzle to make oneself feel at ease. 她又问道,仿佛要放下最后一块拼图来使自己心安。 Jenkin then looks to Chocolate, the kitty lies on the sofa, is very depressed with one type, almost will write the expression on face sadly looks at him. He separates with Hathaway immediately, holds the comfort Chocolate: 詹金斯这才看向巧克力,猫咪趴在沙发上,用一种很沮丧,几乎将难过写在脸上的表情看着他。他立刻和海瑟薇分开,将巧克力抱起来安慰: „Naturally leaves along with us together, the animal can also become the holy spirit. So long as I defeated Difference Engine, saved this world, all will work according to my arrangement.” “当然是随我们一起离开,动物也是可以成为圣灵的。只要我战胜了差分机,拯救了这个世界,一切都会按照我的安排进行下去。” Is thinking Chocolate grew the white feather wing the situation in the space flying, Hathaway cannot bear smile. But thinks that a short time ago in cocktail party, to the related Chocolate matter that Alexia inquires, some do not know whether should tell Jenkin. 想着巧克力长出白色羽毛翅膀在天上飞的情形,海瑟薇忍不住笑了一下。但又想到前不久在酒会中,向亚莉克希亚打探到的有关巧克力的事情,有些不知道是否应该告诉詹金斯。 Although Alexia makes her keep secret temporarily, now Jenkin does not know that is good to him. But Jenkin thorough honest own secret, she is not willing to have other concealment to him again. 虽然亚莉克希亚让她暂时保密,现在詹金斯不知道才是对他好。但詹金斯已经彻底坦诚了自己的秘密,她也不愿意对他再有其他的隐瞒。 „Jenkin......” “詹金斯......” The words to the mouth, actually saw on the Jenkin face to have the gentle smile to look at that cat. In the heart understands immediately, knows the truth, the kitty appears in truth, to him will be a how big attack. 话到了嘴边,却看到詹金斯脸上带着柔和的笑容看着那只猫。心中立刻明白,知道真相,猫咪出现在身边的真相,将对他是一个多么大的打击。 Right that Alexia said that Jenkin actually has serious mental issue, especially after today knows his secret, after that fearful secret, understands, will have been since so long shoulders all these Jenkin to have how tremendous pressure alone. 亚莉克希亚说的对,詹金斯其实有很严重的心理问题,特别是今天知晓了他的秘密后,那个可怕的秘密后,更是明白,这么久以来独自背负这一切的詹金斯将会有多么大的心理压力。 „What's wrong?” “怎么了？” Jenkin raised the head to ask. 詹金斯抬头问道。 Hathaway swallows back the words that is going saying that this is not a good opportunity. 海瑟薇把将要说出口的话重新咽了回去,这不是个好机会。 „I some am still not unacceptable, I know you said probably real, but this is very difficult to accept. Really difficult.” “我依然有些无法接受,我知道你说的大概都是真的,但这真的很难接受。真的很难。” „You will have the time to accept slowly, I believe that certain meeting , do not tell Blayney.” “你会有时间慢慢接受的,我相信一定会的,还有,不要告诉布莱妮。” „I know certainly.” “我当然知道。” Hathaway nods, then imagined Blayney, if knows that Jenkin is gods: 海瑟薇点点头,然后想象了一下布莱妮如果知道詹金斯是神明: „You are really a maddening man.” “你真是一个让人发狂的男人。” „This description...... is very strange.” “这种形容......很奇怪。” „I also feel that now is very strange. My future husband is gods, moreover must save the world...... saying that besides me, but also who knows this point?” “我现在也感觉很奇怪。我未来的丈夫是神明,而且要拯救世界......说起来,除了我以外,还有谁知道这一点？” After the thought returns to normal, ladies always so quick catches the key point. 思维恢复正常以后,女士们总是如此快的抓到重点。 „If, knows this matter explicitly......” “如果说,明确知晓这件事......” He was pondering consequence that the own reply probably causes: 他在思考自己的回答可能带来的后果: „Only then Alexia explicit awareness.” “只有亚莉克希亚明确的知道。” „This is not strange, the calmness and intelligence that woman displays, indeed may let her first discovery fact.” “这并不奇怪,那位女士表现出的冷静和智慧,的确有可能让她第一个发现事实。” Hathaway has not expressed the unusual mood, therefore Jenkin also added: 海瑟薇没有表现出异常的情绪,于是詹金斯又补充道: „ Actually is not...... she who she discovers is actually walking on the becoming god path, is not I saves the world like this, but really by oneself, understands the world, the complementary world, creates the brand-new rule, sublimates the oneself achievement gods. “其实也不是她发现的......她其实正走在成神的道路上,并不是我这样拯救世界,而是真的靠自己,去理解世界,补全世界,创造全新的规则,升华自己成就神明。 A short time ago you still remembered at the matter of dim light of night manor? Is you and friend surrounded that time, didn't I appear as God of Lies at that time? 前不久在夜色庄园发生的事情你还记得吗？就是你们和朋友被困住的那一次,我当时不是作为谎言之神出现了吗？ At that time I made Alexia my saint to base on, by the strength of her body use god, actually anything making her feel the god. Experienced the becoming god process shortly, made her know me is God of Lies. 当时我让亚莉克希亚成为我的圣者凭依,借由她的身躯使用神的力量,让她感受了究竟什么是神。算是短暂的体验了成神的过程,也让她知晓了我是谎言之神。 Alexia unusual has the talent, I think, with my help, she can sooner or later truly by the body of achievement gods mortal. ” 亚莉克希亚非常的有天赋,我想,在我的帮助下,她迟早能够真正以凡人之躯成就神明。” „?” “？” Hathaway looks up him, reveals that doubts and startled again, but quick returns to normal: 海瑟薇抬起头看着他,再次露出那种疑惑和惊慌,但很快就恢复正常: „Good, please speak the truth to me. Is Jenkin, in our family/home besides me,...... others really a normal person?” “好吧,请对我说实话。詹金斯,我们家里除了我以外,......其他人真的都是正常人吗？” PS1: The soul shape that she sees naturally is Zhan Jin, but had not questioned that the soul and mortal body are different, is because the soul position standard is far higher than Hathaway, Hathaway sees is actually not the Zhan Jin original condition, but the similar mortal visual god sees „indescribable thing”. Because of the God of Lies characteristics, as well as she to Jenkin familiar( and never has contacted the soul of Jenkin rightful owner), therefore discovered the soul is not the Jenkin semblance, but regarded the natural matter this. PS1:她看到的灵魂形态当然是詹金,但没有质疑灵魂和肉身不一样,则是因为灵魂位格远高于海瑟薇,海瑟薇看到的其实并不是詹金的原貌,而类似凡人目视神看到的“不可名状之物”。又因为谎言之神的特性,以及她对詹金斯的熟悉(并且从未接触过詹金斯原主的灵魂),因此发现了灵魂不是詹金斯的外表,但将这当成了理所当然的事情。 Later, no longer mentioned Jenkin ladies to discover that his soul and physical body were different, did not raise the objection, tacitly approved everyone to think should so. 以后,不再提及詹金斯身边的女士们发现他灵魂与肉体不一样,却不提出异议,默认大家都认为就应该如此。 PS2: Referred to the love, after author Monarch finished, read, felt that possibly had the different meanings, but here really said the love. PS2:指爱情,作者君写完以后读了一遍,也感觉可能有歧义,但这里真的只是说爱情。 PS3: «Last time Confessing» these three chapters, is the mental effort of writing is really thin and pale, in the past wrote section end the big plot so is not tired, hopes that you satisfied. PS3:《最后一次的坦白》这三章,真的是写的心力憔悴,过去写章末的大情节都没有这么累,希望你们满意。