******************************************************************************************************** ******************************************************************************************************** Small black coal within the body, negative sentiment not only has not weakened, instead the first examination time was stronger. 小黑炭的体内,负面感情不但没有减弱,反而比第一次检测的时候更强了。 Takes this opportunity, to need in small black coal within the body to stay previous three to four months to absorb the enough strength painful worm, ahead of time many time appeared, and will carry the strength of level world stance. 以此为契机,本来还需要在小黑炭体内呆上三到四个月才能吸收足够力量的痛苦蠕虫,提前了许多时间出现,并且将是携带世界之力等级的姿态。 As for small black coal...... before the strength of level world enemy, within the body that two seal magic array whether can also play the role, can let the broken body of painful worm in unable to destroy her physical state, this can only...... completely the human affairs. 至于小黑炭……在世界之力等级的敌人面前,体内那两个封印魔法阵是否还能起到作用,可以让痛苦蠕虫在无法破坏她的身体情况下破体而出,这只能……尽尽人事了。 Was saying Cain of this saying, sighed shaking the head, the vision is falling to other direction, did not seem to be cruel enough to see appearance that again my sorry figure could not withstand. 说着这话的凯恩,叹息着摇头,目光落到别的方向,似乎不忍心再看到我狼狈不堪的样子。 This is two people gives me the answer...... the final outcome of second examination. 这就是两个人给我答案……第二次检测的最终结果。 In that suddenly, the atmosphere of mage association solidifies, which hypocrisy including paces back and forth outside, alliance mage and elf mage that shocking look once for a while pokes head, crosses the porch to be spiritless all day, just like morgue general silent gloomy and cold. 在那一刹那间,法师公会的气氛凝固起来,包括哪一张张假意在外徘徊,时不时探头进来的联盟法师和精灵法师的震惊神色,整天过廊死气沉沉,宛如停尸房一般寂静阴冷。 Later...... 之后…… The later matter I do not remember greatly, is only the dim feeling, oneself carried the small black coal in laboratory, went out of the mage association. 之后的事情我已经不大记得,只是朦胧的感觉到,自己将实验室里的小黑炭背了起来,走出法师公会。 And, neutralizes some fuzzy dialogues of Cain absent-minded. 以及,恍惚中和凯恩的一些模糊对话。 „Wu, this time enemy is the strength of rank world, although just broke through, perhaps was unable completely to grasp strength, but perhaps your one person......” “吴,这次的敌人是世界之力级别,虽说只是刚刚突破,或许还未能完全掌握力量,但恐怕你一个人……” „Relax, I knew, I alone can solve, I alone solve well.” “放心吧,我知道了,我一个人能解决,我一个人解决就好。” Seemed like replied Cain like this, the then scenery dim piece, the brain chaotic piece, with the instinct, responded to the care of Cain merely mechanically. 似乎是这样回答了凯恩,当时的景色朦胧一片,大脑混乱一片,仅仅是凭着本能,机械的回应了凯恩的关心。 „Relax, I knew, will not put to trouble to everyone, I can bring the small black coal...... to go to the very far place.” “放心吧,我知道了,不会给大家添麻烦的,我会带着小黑炭……去很远很远的地方。” Also, that in the dimness, gaze after the face that are departing silently, has alliance mage, has elf mage...... 还有,那一张张在朦胧之中,默默目送着自己离去的脸庞,有联盟法师的,有精灵法师的…… As if, Geli Europe also came, stands in the mage association entrance dull, the body brings the iron fishy smell that was just slipping off, two are also grasping weapon that the hammers and -and-a-half take shape, the lip shivers, as if in loud is saying anything, but in the mind is only left over a buzz sound, eye like looking at one already slurred obsolete silent film, a character has not perceived. 似乎,格力欧也来了,呆呆地站在法师公会门口,身上带着刚刚褪下的铁腥味,两手还握着锤子和一段半成型的武器,嘴唇颤动,似乎在大声对着自己说些什么,但是脑海中只剩下一片翁鸣声,眼睛就像看着一部早已经模糊不清的老旧无声电影,一个字也没听进去。 Now recalls that time were really disrespectful, faced these to help own alliance mage selflessly, elf mage, Cain, Geli Europe, actually had not said including grateful words, at least also wanted generation of small black coals, was right to these humanity thanks Cai. 现在回想起来,那时候的自己真是太失礼了,面对着这些无私帮助自己的联盟法师,精灵法师,凯恩,格力欧,竟然连一声感激的话都没有说,至少也要代小黑炭,向这些人道一声谢才对。 Waits for the slightly sober time, the front door of mage association, that face of sigh, even is the Pandemonium Fortress scenery, has vanished in the line of sight entirely, what in the eye maps is piece of withered and yellow prairie. 等稍微清醒的时候,法师公会的大门,那一张张叹息的面孔,甚至是群魔堡垒的景色,都已经统统在视线消失,眼中映入的是一片枯黄的大草原。 Two legs still mechanical forging ahead, not, because sudden sobers to stop, broke away from own control completely, like the both legs of old man, Wei Chanchan takes each step, walks step by step to the unknown grassland deep place. 两条腿依然机械的向前迈进,并未因为突然的清醒而停下来,完全脱离了自己的控制,就像老者的双腿,魏颤颤的迈出每一步,向未知的草原深处一步步走进去。 Carries on the back to transmit the warm post feeling, the familiar weight that the lithe body transmits, even without then looked, can know immediately is the small black coal, just that fuzzy memory, did not fictionalize. 背上传来温暖的贴感,轻盈的身体传来的熟悉重量,即使不用回头看,也能立刻知道是小黑炭,刚刚那段模糊的记忆,并非是恍惚中虚构出来。 The ear broadcasts rustle the footsteps sound, the vision slightly one, is clean, when one such as just with she met such, timid is pulling a cape corner/horn, resembled to fear that by following close on that I dropped out , is almost stepping with my same footsteps, the cheek already in thin that cried crash-bang, was really, was really both useless fool maidservant who and timid and liked crying, crying this was also too exaggerating, and other small black coals will wake up, see mother to suspend like this face, will make what idea. 耳边传来沙沙的脚步声音,目光微微一偏,是洁露卡,一如刚刚和她相遇时那样,胆怯的牵着自己斗篷一角,似怕被我抛下的紧跟在后,几乎迈着和我一样的脚步,脸蛋已经哭的稀里哗啦,真是的,真是个既没用又胆小又爱哭的笨蛋侍女呢,哭成这样也太夸张了吧,等会小黑炭醒来,看到母亲摆着这样一张脸,会作何想法。 Cannot...... unable to make the small black coal sad the fool, today is her birthday, in any event should smile to be right, I in am shouting at heart like this. 不能……不能让小黑炭伤心啊笨蛋,今天可是她的生日,无论如何应该笑出来才对,我在心里这样呼喊着。 Attracted the nose, falls the front the vision, that vast remnant yellow grassland deep place, in cloudy the dark cloud with the top of the head gathers in the straight line of sky, seems like, as if forever does not have the end, gradually, will suspect whether oneself treads the footsteps forward. 吸了吸鼻子,将目光落到前方,那一望无际的残黄色草原深处,和头顶上阴沉沉的乌云汇聚在天空的一条直线上,看上去,似乎永远都没有尽头,久而久之,甚至会怀疑自己是否向前踏出过脚步。 Three dot, lead the way in boundless dry color grassland, seems like, brings light moved probably, loses the sad picture scroll during late autumn? 三个小点,在茫茫的枯色草原中前行,看起来,是否像是一幅带着淡淡的伤感,迷失于深秋之中的忧伤画卷？ Perhaps said, described with the sea can appropriately? Every time treads the previous step, the body on a submersion point, the withstood hydraulic pressure from pushes in all directions, the body is even more uncomfortable, was unable to breathe, but the footsteps are actually not able to stop, clear(ly) knows that the front is a deep place, will be more uncomfortable, until death end point, has to tread the footsteps. 或许说,用大海形容会不会更合适一点？每踏前一步,身体就下沉一分,承受的水压从四面八方挤过来,身体越发难受,早已经无法呼吸,但是脚步却无法停止,明知道前方是更深处,会更加难受,直到死亡的终点,还是不得不踏出脚步。 Because complies with Cain, at least cannot put to trouble to Pandemonium Fortress. 因为答应过来凯恩,至少不能给群魔堡垒添麻烦。 This has been walking forward, was similar to is the small black coal step by step belt/bring to the abyss of death, every time trod the previous step, that sorrowful powerless feeling remembered with eternal gratitude. 这样一直向前走着,就如同是自己将小黑炭一步一步带向死亡的深渊,每踏前一步,那份悲哀的无力感就刻骨铭心一份。 This certainly is heavens to oneself that arrogant penalty. 这一定是老天对自己那份自大的惩罚。 „Father......” “爸爸……” Still resembles common the talking during sleep sound in the dream transmits from the back, trembles at heart, the small black coal has awaked. 犹似在梦中一般的呓声从背后传来,心里一颤,小黑炭已经醒了。 The sky has shone, day and night takes turn, should come will come. 天已经亮了,日夜交替,该来的还是会来。 „Where is here......?” “这里……是哪里？” Also rested last night obviously on the bed, very early in the morning wakes up actually discovers is carried, the surroundings are one side boundless grassland, even if suspected that also places in the dream is not not possible. 明明昨晚还睡在床上,一早醒来却发现被背着,周围是一旁茫茫的草原,就算怀疑还身处梦中也不是不可能吧。 „Is suburb prairie.” “是郊外大草原哦。” I try hard to control the tranquility of sound, and supplements the gentle smile. 我努力控制着声音的平静,并附带温柔的笑容。 „Still remembers? Today...... today is the birthday of small black coal.” “还记得吗？今天……今天是小黑炭的生日哦。” Hateful, makes every effort to succeed, makes every effort to succeed this damn body, cannot sob at least in front of the small black coal, at least should let the small black coal happy celebrated this birthday. 可恶,争气点,争气点啊这副该死的身体,至少在小黑炭面前不能哽咽出来,至少应该让小黑炭开开心心的度过这个生日。 Clenches teeth, I squeeze a smile actually. 咬了咬牙,我硬是挤出一点笑容。 „Therefore...... to...... is unfair to...... the small black coal...... the father...... the father......” “所以说……对……对不起……小黑炭……爸爸……爸爸……” It is not good, is not completely good, is not only the leg, the brain does not run errands completely, wants to cry, wants to cry loudly in this spacious place, oneself do not know oneself are saying anything. 不行了,已经完全不行了,不但是腿,大脑也完全不听使唤了,想哭,很想在这个空旷的地方大声哭出来,连自己都不知道自己在说些什么了。 Must buoy up, buoys up!! 要振作,振作！！ „Father and mother, arbitrarily decided that must bring the small black coal to see the place of Sun.” “爸爸和妈妈呀,擅自决定了,要带小黑炭去看得见太阳的地方哦。” Made an effort to pull out sniffing, the sound was to calm down finally. 使劲抽了抽鼻子,声音总算是冷静下来。 „~~” “哦~~” A response, has the small black coal light hope gently. 轻轻一声回应,却带着小黑炭淡淡的期盼。 In Pandemonium Fortress, one year also sees Sun rarely several times, even if came out is still dim, lived in Pandemonium Fortress inside person, from the book for a lifetime actually perhaps also can only imagine morning sun and setting sun is what color. 在群魔堡垒,一年也难得见到几次太阳,就算出来了也是朦朦胧胧的,生活在群魔堡垒里面的人,或许一辈子也只能从书里想象朝阳和夕阳究竟是什么样的色彩。 Good, the small black coal can like this birthday present is really good, if she felt that loses, I do not know own also whether strength and courage continue to take the footsteps. 太好了,小黑炭能喜欢这份生日礼物真的是太好了,如果她感到失落的话,那我不知道自己还有否力气和勇气继续迈出脚步。 „The words that yes, hurries along now perhaps, can in the evening, see the setting sun.” Is looking at the sky dense cloud layer, I said. “是啊,现在赶路的话,或许还能在傍晚的时候,看到夕阳。”望着天空黑压压的云层,我说道。 „Actually is the setting sun...... what appearance?” “夕阳……究竟是什么样子呢？” The small black coal is leaning the face, pastes the head on my shoulder, careful is narrowing the eye, imagines diligently. 小黑炭侧着脸,将脑袋也贴在我肩上,细细的眯着眼睛,努力想象起来。 „Has father seen the setting sun?” “爸爸见过夕阳吗？” „Un, has seen, big...... red......” “嗯,见过,大大的……红红的……” „Right? The father is really fierce......” “是吗？爸爸真厉害……” Not are many big nutrition, is actually full of the dialogue of home atmosphere, in moderate is conducting, small black coal that supple sound, even can make in the heart short putting behind fall the grief. 并无多大营养,却充满家庭气氛的对话,在缓和的进行着,小黑炭那柔柔的声音,甚至能让心中短暂的忘却掉伤痛。 „Father......” “爸爸……” The sound pastes to the ear, the small black coal discovered anything probably, the small palm extended from behind, is stroking on my cheeks gently. 声音向耳朵这边贴过来,小黑炭像是发现了什么,小小的手心从后面伸了上来,在我的脸颊上轻轻抚摸着。 „Mother is crying...... the father...... also to cry......” “妈妈在哭……爸爸……也在哭……” The small black coal filled timid asking, yes, have no reason not to discover that clean that cries the tabby cat face, perhaps these talked a moment ago daily, is the small black coal is making us happy diligently. 小黑炭充满了胆怯的问道,是吧,没理由没发现吧,洁露卡那哭得花猫似地的脸,恐怕刚才那些日常对话,也是小黑炭在努力的让我们开心起来。 However...... why, but said that I am also crying? The eyes of my pair of man, like clean, will not burst into tears to keep, icy cold feeling on cheeks, because the morning cool breeze is causing trouble. 但是……但是为什么说我也在哭呢？我这双男子汉的眼睛,才不会像洁露卡那样,流泪个不停,脸颊上的冰凉感觉,只是因为早上的凉风在作祟罢了。 Yes, I am a household head, if even I also cry together, was not announcing that...... really the means didn't have? 是的,我可是一家之主,如果连我也一起哭的话,不是在宣布……真的一点儿办法都没有了吗？ „In the morning the dew are many, moistened the face.” I lowered the head slightly, closed tightly the root. “早晨露水多,打湿了脸。”我微微低头,咬紧了牙根。 „Incorrect......” “不对的……” The clever small black coal, is actually not always willing to yield at this time, although the sound is gentle, but can actually feel one share stubbornly in inside. 一向乖巧的小黑炭,这时候却不肯让步,声音虽细柔,但却能感觉到一股子倔强在里面。 „warm warm, wet, is the tears......” “温温的,湿湿的,是泪水……” „......” “……” „Why do parents...... want to cry? Why...... must for the small black coal such...... cries?” “爸爸妈妈……为什么要哭呢？为什么……要为小黑炭这样的……而哭呢？” The small hand on cheeks, is cleaning the tears for me unceasingly, the small black coal pastes on the cheeks, whispered , we as if from this in words that has the light self-pity from, saw the maturity of that thorough soul, even produced that pair was narrowing thin the eye, actually has released to know all anxious feelings. 脸颊上的小手,不断在为我擦拭着泪水,小黑炭贴上脸颊,细语喃喃道,恍惚间,我们似乎都从这股带着淡淡自怜自艾的话语中,看到了那股透彻灵魂的成熟,甚至产生了那双细眯着的眼睛,其实早已经释知了一切的揪心感。 The small black coal...... feared that eventually or detected perhaps anything, oneself should look early, but immerses in that illusory happiness constantly, is not willing to go deeply to think. 小黑炭……怕是终究还是察觉到了什么吧,或许自己早应该看出来了,只是一味沉浸在那种虚幻的幸福之中,不愿意去深想罢了。 „Father and mother......” deeply shouted inspire, saying every single word or phrase. “爸爸和妈妈啊……”深深呼吸了一口气,一字一句的说道。 „Felt, can become the father and mother of small black coal, was really good, happy cried.” “是觉得,能够成为小黑炭的爸爸和妈妈,实在是太好了,高兴的哭出来了。” Even if detects this illusory, but the small black coal, please must believe that I and clean, were the sincerity is loving you. 哪怕是察觉到了这份虚幻,但是小黑炭,请一定要相信,我和洁露卡,是真心的爱着你。 Now says these, can be too late? 现在说这些,会不会已经太迟了？ „I...... am also very happy...... most like the father and mother, good to want...... to live with the parents......” “我……也很开心……最喜欢爸爸和妈妈,好想和爸爸妈妈一起……一直一直生活下去……” The sound of small black coal is delicate and serene, in that brings yearning and recall to life, as if has known and accepted own destiny to be the same. 小黑炭的声音柔弱而安详,那里面,带着一股对生命的向往和留恋,就仿佛已经知道了和接受了自己的命运一般。 „Small black coal...... sorry...... sorry......” “小黑炭……对不起……对不起……” I choked finally, and could not say any character again, any syllable sent out from the throat, the flood will fall in torrents shortly, became chokes with sobs. 我最终还是哽咽起来,并且再也说不出任何一个字,任何一个音节从喉咙里发出,都会在顷刻间洪水倾泻,变得泣不成声。 Following all the way, we have not spoken a few words again, the small black coal is only peaceful lying is conducting the back, places the small hand on cheeks, is cleaning above gently, even did not dry, is repeatedly, is repeating that gentle wipe movement. 接下来的一路上,我们再也没有说一句话,小黑炭只是安安静静的趴在背上,放在脸颊上的小手,一刻也不停的在上面温柔擦拭着,即使一直也擦不干,还是一遍又一遍的,重复着那温柔的擦拭动作。 Like this continued noon...... 这样持续到了中午…… „Small...... small black coal, you how?!!” “小……小黑炭,你怎么了？！！” Suddenly, transmits the clean reveal cassette the anxious sound of hoarse weeping voice, I one startled, wants to hug the small black coal front, had a look what happened. 突然,身后传来洁露卡带着沙哑哭腔的焦急声,我心里一惊,就想将小黑炭搂到前头,看看发生了什么事。 Has not thought that two slender emaciated, is hugging own neck, places the small hand on cheeks, actually grabs by the unexpected strength does not put, is resisting my movement. 没想到那两只纤细瘦弱,搂着自己的脖子,放在脸颊上的小手,却以出乎意料的力气抓着不放,抗拒着我的动作。 „...... It‘s nothing...... has not a little caught cold probably......” “没……没什么……大概有点着凉……” With the painful sound of small black coal, has a fever the patient same rapid, but the burning hot aura, hits on the neck. 伴随着小黑炭的痛苦声音,是高烧不退的病人一样的急促而炙热气息,打在脖子上。 „It is not good well...... father's body...... warm......, even if not want to separate......” “不行哦……爸爸的身体……好暖和……就算是一刻也不想分开……” Closely hugs not to put, the small black coal cannot bear the painful burning hot respite sound, muttered, can obviously feel conducts the back the body temperature of transmitting to rise at the astonishing speed, until hot like carrying together heat charcoal, the thickness moderate thick blouse will be moistened shortly. 紧紧搂着自己不放,小黑炭忍不住痛苦的炙热喘息声,喃喃道,可以明显感觉到背上传来的体温正在以惊人速度上升,直至烫的就像背着一块烧红的火炭,厚度适中的粗布衫在顷刻间就被打湿。 Does not need to look back I can also guess correctly, small black coal that the body exceptionally feels hot suddenly, now forehead and face, even whole body, massive is infiltrating the sweat. 不用回过头看我也能猜到,身体突然异常发烫起来的小黑炭,现在额头和脸庞,甚至全身,都在大量的渗着汗水。 „Cannot look that...... cannot make the father see...... the small black coal...... the present ugly appearance......” “不能看……不能让爸爸看到……小黑炭……现在的难看样子……” The sound of small black coal the ear broadcasts, weak looks like high fever stupor the warning language of patient. 耳边传来的小黑炭的声音,虚弱的就像是高烧昏迷的病人的咛语。 „If...... if by the father were seen...... the father on...... is unable to go forward again......, therefore...... asked...... the father...... the small black coal...... to think that...... wants to look with the father...... and mother............ looked in a big way...... the red setting sun...... forever...... forever......” “要是……要是被爸爸看到的话……爸爸就……就无法再前进了……所以……拜托了……爸爸……小黑炭……想……想看和爸爸……和妈妈……一起……一起看大大的……红红的夕阳……永远……永远……” The off and on weak sound, as if completely understood completely I am same, like this said, will let want the small black coal to put down, me who will display the healing technique treatment forcefully, gawked dull. 断断续续的虚弱声音,就仿佛完全看透了我的性格一样,这样说完,让本来想强行将小黑炭放下,施展治疗术治疗的我,呆愣了起来。 At this moment, I and clean understood finally, understands the meaning of small black coal, she has known the unusual condition that own body has, the day, actually means anything. 这一刻,我和洁露卡终于明白了,明白了小黑炭的意思,她已经知道自己身体出现的异状,还有这一天,究竟意味着什么了。 How is clear, we do not know, now does not need to know. 到底是怎么明白的,我们不知道,现在也没有必要知道。 Gawked dull the moment...... 呆愣了片刻…… „Grasped, clean.” I am leaning the vision, said to behind clean. “抓紧了,洁露卡。”我侧着目光,对身后的洁露卡说道。 She has not recovered, actually subconscious grasped me. 她还没回过神来,却下意识的把我抓紧了。 That rubs, in the next flash, I have jumped high, at the maximum speed leapt. 蹭的一声,在下一瞬间,我已经高高跳起,以最快的速度跃了出去。 „Small black coal, hang there, reached an agreement, must look at Sun together.” “小黑炭,坚持住,说好了,要一起看太阳哦。” „Un......” “嗯……” The back transmits the small black coal to be weak, is actually the clear incomparable response sound. 背后传来小黑炭虚弱,却是清晰无比的回应声。 Exposed status? Is unimportant. 暴露身份？根本已经不重要了。 You looked, the small black coal this doesn't have from the start surprisedly? 你看,小黑炭不是压根本没惊讶过吗？ Until now, I awaken completely. 直到现在,我才完全醒悟过来。 Originally, the small black coal has long known all, has long known that I and clean are the fake goods. 原来,小黑炭早已经知道一切,早就已经知道我和洁露卡是冒牌货。 Actually we should know that early, said anything must to the small black coal creation happy family, probably make the small black coal happy, must save the small black coal...... 其实我们早该知道的,说什么要给小黑炭创造幸福的家庭,要让小黑炭幸福,要拯救小黑炭…… This is just the view of self-deception, immerses in the happiness truly cannot extricate oneself, actually only then I and clean two, must be saved, the redeemed small black coal, contained our deceit in turn, tolerated our willful, silently with her maturity and gentleness, making us pass happy days. 这都只不过是自欺欺人的说法罢了,真正沉浸在幸福之中不可自拔的,其实只有我和洁露卡两个,原本要被拯救,被救赎的小黑炭,反过来包容了我们的欺骗,容忍了我们的任性,默默的用她的成熟和温柔,让我们度过了一段幸福的日子。 Was redeemed, is actually I and clean is right. 被救赎的,其实是我和洁露卡才对。 Why agrees acknowledges to the present? Obviously very early in the morning the issue that should discover from the manner of small black coal. 为什么到现在才肯承认呢？明明一早就应该从小黑炭的举止之中发现的问题。 My such bastard, was really frail, was too willful...... 我这样的混蛋,真的是太脆弱了,太任性了…… „Bastard ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~!!” “混蛋啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~！！” ******************************************************************************************************** ******************************************************************************************************** Sat now, about ten hours of 4000 characters from 8 : 00 pm...... today really asks for leave to sleep, worked anything died entirely, I wanted the small black coal good( in trapped/sleepy unconscious). 从晚上 8 点坐到现在,将近十个小时的四千字……今天果然还是请假睡觉好了,工作什么的统统去死吧,我只要小黑炭就好了(困的神志不清中)。