...... …… „Really is a fool.” “真是个笨蛋。” Looks cries to lose one's voice mutely Gileb , the senior pharmacist sighed one lightly, that experienced hardship to the full, completely understood on the faint face of human affairs, showed the rich expression. 看着哭哑失声的吉列布,老药师轻叹一声,那饱经风霜,看透了世事的淡漠脸上,也露出了丰富的表情。 If Sanchi, can say one with Gileb at that time, perhaps Gileb will not misunderstand on for more than ten years, is really a stupid fellow. 如果当时桑吉,能够和吉列布说一声,恐怕吉列布就不会足足误解上十多年了,真是个愚蠢的家伙呀。 My time from the beginning, almost thinks immediately, but the vision looks at the scroll of this diary draft manuscript, in the heart actually surged a marvelous fusion feeling, as if Sanchi oneself all moods, injects to this on, then by the self-perception general. 我一开始的时候,几乎是立刻这么想到,但是目光看着这份似日记似手稿的卷轴,心中却涌起了一种奇妙的融合感,就仿佛桑吉将自己的所有心情,注入到这上面,然后被自己感受到一般。 Then, gradually understands. 然后,逐渐理解起来。 This rigid self-respect, this clumsy love. 这一份执着的自尊,这一份笨拙的爱。 Perhaps, so long as Sanchi early own goal, announces to the public, everyone will understand, all taunts can be invisible, Gileb can also understand father's sentiments. 或许,只要桑吉早早的将自己的目的,公布于众,大家都会理解,一切的嘲讽都会消失于无形,吉列布也能体会到父亲的心情。 However, Sanchi cannot, he not want to share this pressure on the wife, is unable once to receive Gileb to visit him with the vision of trust, even if gently an inquiry: 但是,桑吉不能,他不想将这份压力分担给妻子,也无法曾受吉列布用信任的目光看着他,哪怕只是轻轻一句询问: „Father, hasn't mother's medicine completed?” “爸爸,妈妈的药还没有做好吗？” „Will father, mother die?” “爸爸,妈妈会死吗？” Therefore, he chose the clumsiest way, all pressures, alone by oneself selects, even if were taunted also well, even if were misunderstood also well by Gileb, even if imagines that the West Asia sad expression is also good. 为此,他选择了最笨拙的方式,将一切的压力,独自一个人挑起来,哪怕被人嘲讽也好,哪怕被吉列布误解也好,哪怕是想象到西亚伤心的表情也好。 This kinship dispute, inside most painful is not of being ill in bed, Gileb who also does not hate the father, but silently Sanchi who all shoulder, perhaps, had seen this point, therefore in her heart has never had hate, even if in just before the end previous moment. 这一场亲情的纠葛,里面最痛苦的不是卧病在床的希亚,也不是痛恨父亲的吉列布,而是默默的将一切背负起来的桑吉,或许,希亚早已经看出了这一点,所以她心里面从来没有过恨,哪怕是在临终前一刻。 „Actually is this what? Actually is this what?! Hatred more than ten years, I for what?” “这究竟算什么？这究竟算什么？！十多年来的憎恨,我到底是为了什么？” The tears covered entirely on Gileb's face, the five fingers tight grabbing face, he almost shouts oneself hoarse like this cries to roar loudly. 泪水布满了吉列布的脸上,五指紧紧的抓着面庞,他几近声嘶力竭的这样大声哭吼着。 Also hates father that stupid concern, hates the laughable tenacity, even if, if can after the father dies immediately turns on the scroll, does not have the hatred and dispirited more than ten years. 既恨父亲那愚笨的关怀,也恨自己可笑的固执,哪怕,如果能在父亲死后立刻打开卷轴,也不会有着十多年来的仇恨和颓废。 „Why...... why like this, I actually should...... what to do be what to do good, God, asking you to tell me, actually I should be what to do good.” “为什么……为什么会这样,我究竟该怎么办……怎么办才好,上帝啊,求求你告诉我吧,我究竟该怎么办才好。” Because to father's bitter experience, with his hatred, but chose tenaciously far away from pharmacist class that oneself like, rather becomes a status base and low local bully, is living the life of leaving uncultivated, all these, are the hatred that in Gileb heart that cannot resolve support. 因为对父亲的遭遇,和对他本身的仇恨,而固执的选择了远离自己所喜欢的药师职业,宁可成为一名身份卑微的地头蛇,过着荒废的生活,这一切,都是吉列布心中那份化解不开的仇恨所支撑起来的。 Now, hates one time to find time, Gileb had lost the direction completely. 如今,仇恨一遭抽空,吉列布已经完全迷失了方向。 The entire tent, only has a muttering sound of Gileb person, I and senior pharmacists have not spoken, this is Gileb's own choice, was the same like the past Sanchi's choice. 整个帐篷,只剩下吉列布一个人的喃喃自语声,我和老药师都没有说话,这是吉列布自己的选择,就如同当年桑吉的选择一样。 Inherited Sanchi bloodline Gileb, has quite tenaciously, it can be said that dies the idea of boring tip of cows horn, anybody is unable to help him make the decision, can redeem, or degenerates his, only then he himself. 继承了桑吉血统的吉列布,有着相当固执,可以说是死钻牛角尖的想法,任何人也无法帮他做出决定,能够救赎,或者堕落他的,只有他自己。 Some little time , the sobbing sound in tent stops finally, eye empty raising the head looks at for a long time Gileb dull, the pupil of proliferation concentrates suddenly, as if made anything to decide. 好一会儿后,帐篷里的哽咽声终于停止,眼睛空洞的抬头呆望许久的吉列布,扩散的瞳孔突然一凝,似乎做出了什么决定。 „Thump ——” “咚——” He kneels down toward the senior pharmacist again, „bumps” kowtowing, the forehead and solid muddy land collision, make the resounding sound, several knock, Gileb's forehead has bled, but Gileb ignores, is still knocking unceasingly, after knocking nine, raised the head, vision firm looks at the senior pharmacist, slow and said five characters powerfully. 他再次朝老药师跪下,“碰碰”的磕起头来,额头和结实的泥地碰撞,发出响亮的声音,几个头磕下去,吉列布的额头已经流出了血,但吉列布置若罔闻,依然不断磕着,足足磕了九个之后,才抬起头,目光坚定的看着老药师,缓而有力的说出了五个字。 „I want to be the pharmacist.” “我想当药师。” „Right?” The senior pharmacist sharp vision, is looking at each other with Gileb. “是吗？”老药师锐利的目光,和吉列布对视着。 „Then Gileb, told me, why do you want to be the pharmacist? To inherit father's class? Also or to complete mother's last wish, because in your name has row of arrange/cloth two characters?” “那么吉列布,告诉我,你为什么想当药师？是为了继承父亲的职业？又或者说是为了完成母亲的遗愿,因为你的名字里有着列布这两个字？” This old man, compelled others to request itself to be the attitude of master obviously a moment ago, now others voluntarily request, adopts the magnanimous attitude to put on airs in that proud tender is not such method. 这老头,明明刚才还一副逼着人家拜自己为师的态度,现在人家主动要求了,又摆出高姿态在那装模作样,傲娇也不是这样个玩法吧。 Stands in the one side, I look that „I accept the disciple is very strict, thinks, when my student first answers” the senior pharmacist of appearance, spits the mortise at heart secretly. 站在一旁,我看着一副“我收徒可是很严格的,想当我学生就先答题”模样的老药师,心里暗暗吐槽道。 „No, not, not because of father, not for mother, because I want to become a pharmacist.” “不,不是的,既不是因为父亲,也不是为了母亲,而是因为我想成为一名药师。” Under my gaze, Gileb not slightly hesitant, the answer of the heart said loudly. 在我的注视下,吉列布没有丝毫犹豫,将发自内心的答案大声说了出来。 „Good, good, this was right.” “好,好,这就对了。” It looks like, this look, was just the same as Sanchi simply in the past, Sanchi, did, you see? 多么像啊,这眼神,简直就和桑吉当年一模一样,桑吉,希亚,你们看到了吗？ Senior pharmacist just serious expression, suddenly slow, feels own beard, under my dumbfounded look, shows the light gentle smile. 老药师刚刚严肃的表情,突然缓了下来,摸着自己的胡子,在我目瞪口呆的眼神下,露出淡淡的慈祥微笑。 Will this strange old man also smile? It is not good, inquired, actually this was the senior pharmacist many for ten years the first smile. 这性格古怪的老头也会笑？不行,得去打听一下,这究竟是老药师多少十年来的第一个微笑。 „Very good, from now, you must with these people, with your beforehand leaving uncultivated life, cut off forever, now tidies up to me, I will make a tent in the nearby to you, early tomorrow morning, before Sun has not risen moves, did one second cannot be late, know?” “很好,从此以后,你要和那些人,和你以前的荒废生活,永远断绝开来,现在就给我收拾好一切,我会在附近给你弄个帐篷,明天一大早,在太阳没有升起来之前搬过来,一秒也不许迟到,知道了吗？” The senior pharmacist entered into the spirit quickly, exhibits a tone of strict teacher toward Gileb, order that does not allow to question. 老药师很快就进入了角色,朝吉列布摆出一副严师的口吻,不容质疑的命令到。 „Yes, Teacher.” “是的,老师。” Not slightly hesitant, Gileb replied loudly. 没有丝毫犹豫,吉列布大声答道。 „Wait, my medicine field?” “等等,我的药田呢？” Looks that the recently established two teachers and students sang a duet, I could not bear the digression say finally, although the story was very touching, but my family's lovable younger sister Lehne is also waiting for oneself herbal medicine, this was also the fact. 看着新成立的两师生一唱一和,我终于忍不住插话道,虽然故事很感人,但是我家可爱的莱娜妹妹还等着自己的草药,这也是事实呀。 „You how also here?” “你怎么还在这里？” Senior pharmacist disgruntled visits me, on a wrinkled dirty look wrote all over by the guest two character. 老药师不悦的看着我,一张皱巴巴的臭脸上面写满了逐客两个字。 „......” “……” Therefore I dislike this speech not to understand the persuasive old man. 所以我才讨厌这种说话一点也不懂得婉转的老头。 „Gileb has promised me, on time supplies my these two types of herbal medicines.” “吉列布已经答应过我,按时供应我这两种草药。” My look bad looks at this to the teachers and students, if dares to find the excuse to trick I, I may, no matter he is the camp most outstanding pharmacist, or inherited talent pharmacist bloodline the son of talent pharmacist, makes their firm foundation put on entirely, closes works as the big or small medicine child for a lifetime in the small black room. 我神色不善的看着这对师生,要是敢找借口忽悠我的话,我可不管他是不是营地最出色的药师,又或者是继承了天才药师血统的天才药师的儿子,统统让他们牢底坐穿,关在小黑屋里当一辈子的大小药童。 „This, teacher......” “这个,老师……” Gileb can also remember finally, how I said that is also adventurer, the words consequence of violation is very serious, looked at senior pharmacist one eyes with awkward expression. 吉列布总算还能想起,我怎么说也是个冒险者,违约的话后果是很严重的,不由用为难的表情看了老药师一眼。 „Although the father has studied the formula, but these two medicine fields after all are his painstaking care, I want to continue to plant to get down.” “虽然父亲已经将配方研究出来了,但这两块药田毕竟是他的心血,我想继续种下去。” „Also...... good.” “也……好吧。” The senior pharmacist does not want to make Gileb waste the too much time in two medicine Tanoue, was deliberately considering how can persuade Gileb energy to be used to study completely, after all he now is also big, should make the best use of the time to be right. 老药师本来不想让吉列布在两块药田上浪费太多时间,正在寻思着怎么样才能劝服吉列布将全部精力用来学习,毕竟他现在也不小了,应该抓紧时间才对。 In the past his father Sanchi, in Gileb this age, the following senior pharmacist had picked the medicine six years together, then started to pick the medicine alone, while learned/studied the Pharmacology, was seven years, enough 13 years, had such result, pharmacist class, even if were the talent pharmacists, required the time to endure. 当年他的父亲桑吉,在吉列布这个年纪,已经跟着老药师一起采药六年,然后一边开始独自采药,一边学习药理学,又是七年,足足十三个年头,才有那样的成绩,药师这项职业,哪怕是天才药师,也是需要时间打熬出来的。 However, without this adventurer, when Gileb also refers to being uncertain can start a new life, oneself are laborious, hopes that this old bones, can be somebody's turn sees own student, becomes pharmacist who can assume sole responsibility for an important task time. 不过也罢,如果没有这个冒险者,吉列布还指不定什么时候才能迷途知返呢,自己就辛苦一点吧,希望这把老骨头,能够挨到看到自己的学生,成为一名能独当一面的药师的时候。 The senior pharmacist heaved a deep sigh, he had lived many years, as an outstanding pharmacist, he to own physical condition, has compared with anybody must know clearly, Gileb was his second, is the last student, he must in oneself lifetime, teach oneself all knowledge to Gileb is good. 老药师长叹一声,他已经活了不少年头了,作为一名出色的药师,他对自己的身体状况,有着比任何人都要清楚的认识,吉列布是他的第二个,也将是最后一个学生,他必须在自己的有生之年,将自己的所有学识都传授给吉列布才行。 Then, according to the senior pharmacist's instruction, Gileb must pack family's thing, and before processing him , some conclusions of environment lives, but before then, this intelligent young fellow, first satisfied my desire, leading me to go to the medicine field, cautious 80 that Qursh anything, 100 Karsh anything, collected, handed over in my hand personally. 然后,按照老药师的吩咐,吉列布要去收拾家里的东西,并处理完他以前所生活的环境的一些收尾,不过在这之前,这位聪明的小伙子,还是先满足了我的愿望,带我去了药田,小心翼翼的将八十株那个库什么什么的,一百株卡什么什么的,采集下来,亲自交到我手上。 But expense of this transaction, made him have many ample on hand, although the senior pharmacist has the splendid medical skill, but his strange temperament, with various creating obstacles rewards, making many people not be willing to go to his there, but had the big sickness, strange reward that the patient who must go to his there, proposed, was not necessarily able to give senior pharmacist to bring the generous income. 而这笔交易的费用,也让他手头有了不少的宽裕,虽然老药师有着出色的医术,但是他古怪的脾气,和各种刁难的报酬,让许多人都不愿意去他那里,而得了大病,非去他那里不可的病人,提出的古怪报酬,也未必能给老药师自身带来多丰厚的收入。 Therefore, the simple point, the senior pharmacist lives is not the issue, but absolutely so will not be wealthy with other second-class pharmacists, perhaps this condition, will make Gileb firmer maintains two medicine fields, un un. 所以,简单点来说,老药师生活不是问题,但也绝对不会和其他一二流药师那样富裕,或许这种状况,会让吉列布更加坚定的将两块药田维持下去吧,嗯嗯。 180 herbal medicines, quickly were delivered to Hags there by me, then by her through the special channel, ships back First World these herbal medicines. 一百八十株草药,很快被我送到哈加丝那里,然后由她通过特殊渠道,将这些草药运回第一世界。 „The Hags elder, later asked you.” “哈加丝长老,以后就拜托您了。” I toward this beautiful grows up old nods gently, polite saying, I not possible long to anticipate here, therefore later with Gileb each month transaction, hands over by Hags processes. 我朝这位美丽的长大老轻轻颔首,客气的说道,我不可能长期待在这里,所以以后和吉列布每个月的交易,都交由哈加丝去处理。 „Right, this is the transaction cost, should enough use for a long time.” “对了,这是交易费用,应该足够用上许久了。” I took out have prepared the good brown small cloth sack, inside thought of more than ten to split the gem, if converted gold coin, that...... 我取出早就准备好的棕色小布袋,里面装着十几颗裂开宝石,如果换算成金币的话,那…… Un......( counts on the fingers) 嗯……(扳着指头) Un ............( closes eyes ponder) 嗯…………(闭目冥思) Un ........................( braves blue vein) 嗯……………………(头冒青筋) ...... And that's the end, cough cough, this is at least can maintain in any case in any case over 20 years volume of trade, potion that makes, enough fostered my Lehne is a big prediction master has. 反正……反正很多就是了,咳咳,这可是至少能够维持二十年以上的交易额,所制造出来的药剂,足够将我的小莱娜养成为一个大预言师有余了。 „Every long old woman was polite, but Lehne future big elder, this is the matter that the alliance should handle, how can make you go to the expense?” “凡长老太客气了,莱娜可是未来的大长老,这是联盟应该做的事情,怎么能让你破费呢？” Hags does not have the result bag, smiling flatly refuses to say. 哈加丝并没有结果袋子,笑眯眯的一口拒绝说道。 „It is for this reason that.” “正是因为如此。” I almost am half force, the bag stopper to Hags, does not accommodate saying that rejects. 我几乎是半强迫的,一把将袋子塞到哈加丝手里,不容拒绝的说道。 „It is for this reason that therefore I do not hope, because Lehne may become the big elder in the future, therefore the alliance will help her pay, do you understand my meaning? Hags elder.” “正是因为如此,所以我才不希望因为莱娜未来可能成为大长老,所以联盟才会帮她支付,你明白我的意思吗？哈加丝长老。” If so, that was equal to a utility in disguised form in inside, perhaps was I am oversensitive, but, I do not think that Lehne had a wee bit pressures. 如果是这样的话,那就是等于一种变相的功利在里面了,或许是我多心,但是,我不想莱娜有一丁点的压力。 „Has you such careful Elder Brother, Lehne is very certainly happy, in the future, if your two brother and sister works as one together, I believe, the alliance will be certainly brighter.” “有你这样细心的哥哥,莱娜一定很幸福吧,未来,如果是你们两兄妹一起同心协力的话,我相信,联盟一定会更加光明。” This time, Hags has not rejected, refreshed after receiving the bag, heartfelt happy like this sighed one. 这一次,哈加丝没有拒绝,爽快的收好袋子以后,由衷高兴的这样感叹了一句。 Although was praised, the Hags words have not made me present any happy meaning, always felt the task on own shoulder was getting more and more heavy, but also gets into the water Lehne together, if possible, I to take Valise they, oneself treasure daughter, Lehne together, is living the life of hidden world. 虽然被表扬了,不过哈加丝的话却没有让我出现任何高兴的意思,总感觉自己肩膀上的担子越来越重了,还将莱娜一起拖了下水,如果可以的话,我到是想带上维拉丝她们,还有自己的宝贝女儿,还有莱娜一起,过着隐世的生活呢。 Naturally, these words cannot say in front of Hags absolutely, otherwise by her serious individuality, perhaps even if in spite of being very busy, will find the time to teach a course the brainwashing to me. 当然,这番话是绝对不能在哈加丝面前说出来的,否则以她那严肃的个性,说不定哪怕是在百忙之中,也会挤出时间给我开课洗脑。 „Right, this also had the potion formula, helped me send back troublesome together to Fara has a look.” “对了,这还有份药剂配方,麻烦也帮我一起送回去给法拉看看。” I remember the potion formula that suddenly must come from Gileb there, originally looked, in his father paid in so many shares, I also open the low price embarrassed, but was actually rejected by Gileb very much refreshedly, personally, free copied to me that formula. 我突然想起从吉列布那里要来的药剂配方,本来看在他父亲为之付出了那么多的份上,我也不好意思开低价格,不过却被吉列布很爽快的拒绝了,亲自,免费的将那份药方给我抄了一份。 According to his view, this is the research of his father , there is nothing to do with oneself, this is a dignity as pharmacist, this formula, considers Sanchi to contribute to the alliance. 按照他的说法,这是他父亲的研究,与自己无关,这是身为一名药师的尊严,这份药方,就当是桑吉捐献给联盟。 Moreover, Gileb does this also has the selfishness, he hopes that the alliance can use this formula, recalls a roll-call sound for the father who he died slightly. 而且,吉列布这样做也不是没有私心,他希望联盟能用这张药方,稍微为他死去的父亲挽回一点名声。 However to be honest, this formula is Sanchi matches for his wife person after all, the pointedness is quite strong, therefore the big popular possibility, I do not want to buy, because Sanguy had said sickness is somewhat similar to Lehne's sickness, moreover similarly used these two types of rare herbal medicines, perhaps, this formula will give these still to study Lehne's some pharmacists inspirations of permanent control antidote with hardship. 不过老实说,这份药方毕竟是桑吉为他的妻子一个人配的,针对性比较强,所以并没有多大的普及可能性,我之所以想买下来,只是因为桑吉说过希亚的病和莱娜的病有些相似,而且同样用到了这两种稀有的草药,或许,这份药方会给那些还在苦苦研究莱娜的根治解药的药师们一些灵感。 Finally this, that formulas and 180 herbal medicine same places, were returned to First World to go. 结果就这样,那份配方和一百八十株草药一起,被送回了第一世界去。 The matter of never expected that herbal medicine was solved like this, even also threw in one possibly to the Lehne helpful herbal medicine formula, regarding always by tragedy aura is covering me, but also was really was too far luck, oneself present should not overdraw the moral behavior. 没想到草药的事情就这样解决了,甚至还附赠了一份可能对莱娜有帮助的草药配方,对于无时无刻不被悲剧光环笼罩着的我来说,还真是有点幸运过头了,自己现在该不会是正在透支人品吧。 Has the dessert startled like this is thinking, I watched the weather, although is early morning met with Gileb, however in the tent of senior pharmacist, Gileb's passing story, actually abrasioned the 3~4 hour, then picks the herbal medicine, with the Hags consultation transaction, unknowingly, solar start quietly sinks toward the west side. 有点心惊的这样想着,我看了看天色,虽然是一大早就和吉列布见面,但是在老药师的帐篷里面,吉列布的过往故事,却足足磨掉了三四个小时的时间,接着采草药,和哈加丝协商交易,不知不觉,太阳又悄悄的开始往西边沉去。 Just like yesterday, without eating the belly of lunch started cluck, in a hurry solved the problem after the restaurant, returns to the tent, I then started to think am being placed in oneself front choice. 和昨天一样,没有吃午饭的肚子又开始咕咕叫了起来,匆匆在餐馆里解决了问题以后,回到帐篷,我便开始思索着摆在自己面前的选择。 To oneself to the quest deadline that oneself set, enough one month, the unexpected progress, making me to one month that this empties unplanned, was the time this/should plans well. 离自己给自己定下的任务期限,足足还有一个月的时间,出乎意料的进展,让我对这空出来的一个月时间毫无计划,是时候该好好策划一下了。 Goes back immediately, enjoys Valise their red light district, sets the example in front of Akara, uses this month of well experience, making her feel that oneself is the good youth who diligently studies to advance boldly, but relaxes vigilantly, to obtain and beloved little wife youngest daughter in the future is together to play the noisy time? 是立刻回去,享受维拉丝她们的温柔乡,还是在阿卡拉面前做做样子,利用这一个月时间好好历练一下,让她觉得自己是一个勤学奋进的好青年,而放松警惕,以在将来获得更多和心爱的小妻子小女儿们相处玩闹的时间呢？ The present benefit and long-term benefit, to as me of mortal, but also is really the difficult choice. 眼前的利益和长远的利益,对身为凡人的我来说,还真是艰难的选择呀。 * * Had a headache very fierce, although the time sufficiently collects 5000 characters , can only give up, tomorrow will look to make up 7000, oh...... 头疼的十分厉害,虽然还有时间凑足五千字,也只能放弃,明天看能不能补足七千吧,唉……