*************************************************************************************************** *************************************************************************************************** The heart of god, is will be numb. 神的心,原来也是会麻木的。 The world of mortals all sorts, cannot flee the sentiments and principle two characters eventually, likes hating the rival in love, the seven emotions and six sensory pleasures, or is denies oneself to defend the gauge, even if kneels the devout follower in front of God, the innermost feelings have also striven, in permanent invariable humane frame, patho comedies of performance, but changed group by group the actor, the essence was unrelieved, looks for a long time, was naturally weary. 凡间种种,终究逃离不了情与理二字,爱恨情仇,七情六欲,抑或是克己守规,哪怕是跪在上帝面前的虔诚信徒,内心亦有所求,在恒久不变的人性框架之中,上演的一幕幕悲情喜剧,只不过是换了一批又一批演员,本质并无变化,看久了,自然也就厌倦了。 When I detected this point time, is too late, curiosity and interest from the beginning wear down slowly do not see, gradually is only left over the sense of responsibility, when the sense of responsibility cannot conceal the innermost feelings when is indifferently arid, I realize these. 等我察觉到这一点的时候,已经太迟,一开始的好奇和兴趣慢慢消磨不见,逐渐只剩下责任感,等到责任感也掩饰不住内心的冷漠枯燥时,我才意识到这些。 Realized, the wisdom of principle of thorough world originally the previous generation Queen of night, everyone praised, what loneliness the back is hiding and helplessness. 意识到,原来上一代月神,大家交口称赞的透彻世间之理的睿智,背后到底隐藏着什么样的寂寥和无奈。 Realized, when a person is broken to the world the principle of the world of mortals, lonely that type cannot withstand numbly. 意识到,当一个人穷极凡间之理的时候,那种麻木不堪的孤独。 Suddenly thinks, the former generation Queen of night of principle of understanding world, how also to fall from the sky in war of inside original sin? Although that fight is frigid, however, is the desire that world inflates chaotic is the result eventually, the former generation Queen of night is impossible unable to see this point, is more impossible in the situation that clearly knows, but must like a moth to the flame, to fall from the sky to come to an end. 忽然又想到,通达世间之理的上代月神,又怎么会陨落在原罪之战里头呢？那场战斗虽然惨烈,然而,终究是世间过于混乱膨胀的欲望所致,上代月神不可能看不出这一点,更不可能在明知道的情况下,还要飞蛾扑火,以陨落而告终。 Likes a moth to the flame......? 飞蛾扑火……难道说？ The gods, cannot commit suicide, the god who the choice mediates, even these fall into the Hell devils to be inferior. 神,是不能自杀的,选择自我了断的神,连那些堕入地狱的魔鬼都不如。 What I as if understood, immediately has the huge pacing back and forth fear, are oneself now, stepping into the path that the former generation Queen of night once passed through? 我似乎明白了什么,随即产生巨大的彷徨恐惧,自己现在,是不是正在踏入上代月神曾经走过的道路？ One day, I can also...... 难道说有一天,我也会…… Such idea gradually spread Swallow the innermost feelings, making me all day long fearful, I did not dread the death, what dreaded turns into a good-for-nothing, asked to refuse stubbornly, living to might as well die. 这样的想法逐渐蔓延吞噬着内心,让我终日惶惶,我并不畏惧死亡,畏惧的是变成一具行尸走肉,求死不得,生不如死。 Finally, I chose the former generation Queen of night a matter that likes handling. 最后,我选择了上代月神最喜欢做的一件事情。 Deep sleep. 沉睡。 Only then falls into to the long deep sleep, can put behind this anxiously frightened. A Xu day, when oneself in some wake one time, will find to solve the problem the answer, or...... can welcome the war of second original sin makes itself extricate. 只有陷入到漫长的沉睡当中,才能忘却这份不安恐惧。或许某一天,当自己在某一次醒过来时,会找到解决问题的答案,亦或者说……能够迎来让自己解脱的第二次原罪之战。 The bay crown, is the place of resting deep sleep I most like, here does not belong to lonely lonely higher Heaven, does not belong the pollution every world of flooding the desire, is between in the two, seems day and the center point of place, having the principle of balance can make itself relax. 月桂树冠,是我最喜欢的休憩沉睡之地,这里不属于冷清寂寥的高等天堂,也不属于充斥欲望的浑浊凡世,介乎于二者之中,仿佛是天和地的中点,有着能令自己放松下来的平衡之理。 Perhaps in this place, oneself numb heart, can accept the wash in that clear spring slowly, restores a vitality. 或许在这种地方,自己麻木的心脏,也能在那清泉之中慢慢接受洗涤,重新恢复一丝生机吧。 Then, is then long, long, deep sleep one after another. 然后,便是漫长的,漫长的,一次接着一次的沉睡。 Until —— changes all, the sound of trembling soul, resounds from the tree under. 直到——改变一切的,震颤灵魂的声音,自树底下响起。 Reads the favor changes in temperature and joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness numb innermost feelings, was unable again to beautiful and clown, good with the bad these simple things, produces fluctuates slightly, only then above transcendence, can shake the thing of soul, can cause mighty waves , there is nothing to do the beautiful ugly quality. 阅遍人情冷暖和喜怒哀乐的麻木内心,已经无法再对美与丑,好与坏这些简单的事物,产生丝毫波动,只有超越其上,能够直撼灵魂之物,才能引起一丝波澜,无关美丑好坏。 Naturally, if not by oneself, but by the standard commentary of the world of mortals, if in the long time of own deep sleep, the taste of the world of mortals has not had the earth-shaking change, this sound is really...... is really very subtle, is quite subtle. 当然,如果不是以自己,而是以凡间的标准评论,如果在自己沉睡的这漫长时间里,凡间的品味没有发生翻天覆地改变的话,这声音实在是……实在是很微妙,相当微妙。 Calmly stares is appearing under the laurel, youngster who the shaking hand zither | Jean is singing, I want to say. 静静凝视着出现在月桂树下,拉着手琴唱着歌的少年,我心里这么想道。 How does he come here? Should not be possible to have this matter to be right. 他是怎么进来这里的？应该不可能发生这种事情才对。 This issue is very important, but, there is a possibility to be immaterial, at least, I thought of other quickly. 这个问题或许很重要,但是,也有可能无关紧要,至少,我很快就想到了其他。 So long as do not come, the youngster was impossible to discover itself, after he left, could not find to return to here road probably again, to oneself, this was just dying an insignificant small interlude, to the youngster, may be regarded is an also really also false fond dream. 只要自己不现身的话,少年根本不可能发现得了自己,等他离开以后,大概再也找不到回这里的路了,对自己而言,这只不过是在长眠中的一个微不足道小插曲,对少年而言,或许会被当成是一场亦真亦假的美梦吧。 Like the two stranger, met the life innumerable a lot of 1/10000 probabilities, each other brushed past, that is all. 就像两个陌生人,遇到了人生无数次的千百万分之一的概率,彼此擦肩而过,仅此而已。 However, if do oneself come? What will have? 但是,如果自己现身呢？会发生什么呢？ Reads the world innumerable innermost feelings, produced confused as well as...... the curiosity unexpectedly, why, why can like this? Is because protagonist of this story is oneself? 阅遍人间无数的内心,竟然产生了迷茫以及……久违的好奇,为什么呢,为什么会这样？是因为这个故事的主角是自己吗？ Perhaps, this perhaps is the turning point of continuously waiting. 或许,这说不定就是自己一直等待的契机。 Calmly gazes at the youngster singing, sang tired, went to sleep, static waited for him to wake. 静静注视着少年把歌唱完,唱累了,入睡了,又静静的等候他醒过来。 Then, having one point unable to suppress moves restlessly and longs for strangely...... 然后,带着一分无法抑制的陌生躁动和渴望…… „Who are you?” “你是谁？” Each other memory, in the instance that these words resound, links up perfectly, then overlapped, without the slightest error, the dreamland that in the journey made, in this moment, in the mind, playbacking, the demeanor had all. 彼此的记忆,在这一句话响起的瞬间,就此完美衔接,然后重叠到了一起,没有分毫误差,旅途之中所做的梦境,在这一刻,在脑海之中,尽数回放,声色具真。 ...... …… „Who are you?” Youngster one startled, raised the head, that startled great wild goose casts aside, then as if saw on the laurel the bright moon raises, the partly visible three pure white wings, interweave piece of life with the green leaf and lunar halo sea. “你是谁？”少年一惊,抬头,那惊鸿一撇,便仿佛在月桂树上看到了皎月升起,若隐若现的三对洁白翅膀,和绿叶交织成一片生命和月晕的海洋。 Even if sees so astonishing one, youngster innermost feelings still not empty, has the wind of pig suddenly advancing vigorously. 纵使看到如此惊人的一幕,少年内心依然不虚,颇有猪突猛进之风。 „Here, is my place of resting.” On the tree continues to broadcast the limpid delightful sound, the youngster discovered at this time, originally this sound is so of pleasant to hear, pleasant to hear made him produce paid homage to impulse. “这里,是我的休憩之地。”树上继续传来清澈悦耳的声音,少年这时候才发现,原来这道声音是如此好听,好听的让他产生了膜拜冲动。 However, cannot lose, the mind that but here found with great difficulty sends the institute! 但是,不能输,这里可是自己好不容易才找到的心灵寄所！ The youngster look like one by others went into the domain...... the small tiger, the anxiety and indignation of innermost feelings, making him disregard in the eye to see temporarily, in the ear heard, immediately jumps, angrily is shouting to the crown loudly. 少年就像是一头被别人闯入了地盘的……小老虎,内心的紧张和气愤,让他暂时无视了眼中所见,耳中所闻,立刻一蹦而起,气鼓鼓的对着树冠大声喊道。 „Nonsense, I came a moment ago time had not seen on obviously the tree has the person, first found here person is I, first occupies here person is also I, is I first comes, is I first comes obviously!” “胡说,我刚才来的时候明明没有看到树上有人,先找到这里的人是我,先占据这里的人也是我,是我先来的,明明都是我先来的！” „Song that the tune that you drew a moment ago, sang, very specially.” “你刚才拉的曲,唱的歌,很特别。” „Well, real? Do you really think?” The sentiment of youngster seems the weather of June, suddenly turns about, because previous moment also own domain was wrested away, but is very indignant, the next moment, becomes the pleasant surprise immediately. “咦,真的吗？你真的这么想吗？”少年的感情仿佛是六月的天气,说变就变,前一刻还因为自己的地盘被霸占,而无比气愤,下一刻,立刻就变为惊喜。 „Un, particularly, I did not deceive people very much.” “嗯,很特别,我不骗人。” „Good, finally found, has not thought that will find here, this certainly is the direction of god, certainly is!” Listened to the meaning of no counterfeiting from the sound, the youngster cheered immediately, even happy but extremely the tears, the embarrassed drying corner of the eye, he revealed the naivete did intentionally the mature stance. “太好了,终于找到了,没想到会在这里找到,这一定是神的指引,一定是！”从声音里听出了毫无作假的意思,少年顿时欢呼,甚至喜极而涕,难为情的擦干眼角,他露出稚气的故作成熟姿态。 „Uh-huh, looked, in you understood only appreciates in my song share, I permit you in my domain.” “嗯哼,看在你是唯一懂得欣赏我的歌的份上,我就允许你在我的地盘吧。” „Right?” “是吗？” „Naturally, I always kept promises, on the other hand, your sound was so of pleasant to hear, why sounded that desolate?” Sits under the tree, the youngster starts ripe originally complained. “当然了,我从来说一不二,话说回来,你的声音那么好听,为什么听起来那么冷淡呢？”一屁股坐回树底下,少年开始自来熟的抱怨道。 „My sound...... of pleasant to hear?” “我的声音……好听？” „Un.” “嗯。” „Should I express gratitude?” “我应该道谢吗？” „Exempted, but you must know, my few boasts people.” “免了免了,但是你要知道,我很少夸人的。” Is experienced regarding doing intentionally of youngster, the Spiritual God Sir above crown, why does not know, stiff has not known that many years corners of the mouth, pulled unexpectedly slightly. 对于少年的故作老成,树冠之上的神灵大人,不知为何,已经僵硬了不知道多少年的嘴角,竟然微微扯动了一下。 The moonlight is, is the vision institute , the person like youngster, she has seen many innumerably, his character, his action, he had said each few words, are expected, is that permanent invariable humane frame, is the identical story. 月光所在,即是目光所及,像少年这样的人,她已经数不清见过多少,他的性格,他的举动,他说过的每一句话,都在预料之中,还是那个恒久不变的人性框架,还是雷同的故事。 Just, one of the inside protagonist, turned into itself. 只不过,里面的主角之一,变成了自己罢了。 However, why, will have this palpitation? 但是,为什么,会有这份悸动？ To continue, wants to try and present youngster chats, the innermost feelings of Spiritual God Sir, had like this intense hope. 想继续下去,想试着和眼前的少年聊下去,神灵大人的内心,产生了这样的强烈渴望。 One such as she just became moon/month of Spiritual God in the past, spies on the world of mortals myriad things mood for the first time. 一如当年她刚刚成为月之神灵,第一次窥探凡间万物时的心情。 „cough cough, do you really have the song that likes me singing?” The youngster saw the person long time on tree not to open the mouth, cannot bear first made noise, his for fear that this was a dream, because of infancy to maturity, no one has liked his hand zither | Jean and song. “咳咳,你真的有那么喜欢我唱的歌？”少年见树上的人久不开口,忍不住先出声了,他生怕这是一场梦,因为从小到大,没有人喜欢过他的手琴和歌。 „Likes? Perhaps should, be able to move my thing is not many.” “喜欢吗？或许应该是吧,能够打动我内心的东西并不多。” „You spoke also really like beating around the bush, ok, I sang several to make you experience again, all homemade, I was talent.” “你说话还真喜欢拐弯抹角,算了,那我就再唱几首让你见识一下,全都是自创的,我可是天才。” Impatient wish to just friend demonstration own beloved thing of understanding, the youngster word, started playing music and singing of that trembling soul. 迫不及待的想要向刚认识的友人展示自己的心爱之物,少年言罢,又开始了那震颤灵魂的奏乐和歌唱。 Slowly in the cool breeze, the Spiritual God Sir one wisp sends the silk to pull up after the ear, the vision is blurred. 徐徐清风中,神灵大人将一缕发丝撩向耳后,目光迷离。 No mistake, indeed is very powerful sound, can actually by the numb heart, with be trembled together the beat. 没有错,的确是非常有震撼力的声音,竟然能够让自己麻木的心脏,跟着一起震颤跳动。 After several days, the youngster returns again 【His domain】, Wear a look of grief and indignation. 数日过后,少年再次回到【他的地盘】,面带悲愤。 „That group of bastards, I are determined to forgive their unreasonable with great difficulty, sang not to make me sing to catch up me, therefore I disliked this type of not artistic air the declining small village.” “那群混蛋,我可是好不容易下定决心宽恕他们的无理,却连唱都不让我唱就把我赶出来了,所以我才讨厌这种没有一点艺术气息的破落小村庄。” With encouragement of Spiritual God Sir, the youngster regains the dream, had the courage to return to the village, the result to be needless saying that can also guess. 在神灵大人的鼓励下,少年重拾梦想,鼓起勇气回到村庄,结果不用说也能猜出来。 „You said why this is, why that group of fellows not the artistic sense like you? Even if a wee bit also good.” “你说,这到底是为什么,为什么那群家伙就没有像你这样的艺术感官呢？哪怕一丁点也好。” „Perhaps is because, your song does not suit them.” The Spiritual God Sir above crown, the sound is still chilly, with the gentlest language that she can think, is recounting such a fact. “或许是因为,你的歌并不适合他们。”树冠之上的神灵大人,声音依然清冷,用她能想到的最温柔语言,述说着这样一个事实。 Then, in supplemented at heart, in fact, should not suit everyone. 然后,在心里又补充了一句,事实上,应该是不适合所有人。 „Nonsense, is they do not suit my song to be right obviously.” The youngster pēng pēng whipping lawn, investigates the correct path stubbornly. “胡说,明明是他们不适合我的歌才对。”少年砰砰的拍打草地,倔强纠正道。 „Since they do not like, why can sing to them listens?” “既然他们不喜欢,为什么一定要唱给他们听呢？” „I, small time, recited Poet roaming to pass by the village, took to everyone many happiness, starting from that time, I had the dream, this whole life only dream, must become one to recite Poet roaming.” “我啊,小的时候,有一个吟游诗人路过村子,带给了大家很多很多的欢乐,从那时候开始,我就有了梦想,这辈子唯一的梦想,要成为一名吟游诗人。” The youngster sit in that position that he often sits, is cleaning the bosom musical instrument gently, the sound also follows becomes gentle, no longer does intentionally the mature experienced tone, but is full of his age proper lively and yearned. 少年坐在他常坐的那个位置,轻柔擦拭着怀里的乐器,声音也跟着变得柔和,不再是故作成熟老成的语气,而是充满他这个年纪应有的活泼和向往。 „Since is the only dream, cannot be takes to everyone so to be joyfully simple merely, I want to make ——”, the youngster stands up straightly, the vision is firm, high-spirited. “既然是唯一的梦想,就不能仅仅是带给大家快乐那么简单,我想要做一个——”说到激动处,少年笔直站起,目光坚定,意气风发。 „Must with own singing sound, save the world!” “要用自己的歌声,拯救世界！” As if must transmit to brave words of the world, traded long time silence, was only left over slightly cool intermittent light breeze to curl. 仿佛要传达给全世界的豪言壮语,换来了良久的沉默,只剩下微凉的一阵阵轻风卷过。 „To smile smiles, snort/hum, has no need to suppress, I know am very laughable, but person , if no a two great dream, what has to distinguish with the salt fish?” Hears on the tree does not have any sound, the youngster acts difficult immediately, sits on the ground, two hold the chest, the cheek helps blow up high. “想笑就笑吧,哼,用不着憋着,我知道很可笑,但人若是没有一两个伟大梦想,和咸鱼有什么区别？”听到树上没有任何动静,少年立刻闹起了别扭,一屁股坐在地上,两手抱胸,腮帮高高鼓起。 „Was too difficult.” In the crown, that makes the youngster unable to bear the simple and beautiful voice that wants to hear repeatedly, so said. “太难了。”树冠之中,那让少年忍不住一再想要听到的清丽声线,这般说道。 „You to other responses.” “你到是给点其他反应啊。” Opposite party serious answering, making the youngster immediately discouraged, felt that own weak showing off power, hidden spiritless in stubbornness, as well as is concealing the timid firmness, becomes in the opposite party does not have to hide at present. 对方一本正经的作答,让少年顿时泄气,感觉自己的幼稚逞强,隐藏在倔强里的懦弱,以及掩饰着胆小的坚定,在对方眼前都变得无所遁形。 Was attacked time and time again, time and time again came to here to find the comfort, the youngster and Spiritual God Sir's relations even more wound ripe, in the face of look that the opposite party was crystal clear, did not need any camouflage. 一次一次受到打击,又一次一次的来这里找到安慰,少年和神灵大人的关系越发熟络,在对方洞若观火的眼神面前,再也不需要任何伪装。 But Spiritual God Sir, realized the change present situation turning point gradually. 而神灵大人,也渐渐意识到了改变现状的契机。 Does not have him, but is always maintaining observer status, switches over in story protagonist, originally the sentiment is so wonderful, originally the onlooking and personal feeling, are completely different two world. 无他,只不过是将自己一直以来保持着的旁观者身份,切换到故事主角中罢了,原来感情是如此美妙,原来旁观和切身的感受,是完全不同的两个世界。 Answer it's that simple, every so often, so long as proceeds to take gently one step, can bridge over desperately, sees the hope, but the eyes of person, because always all kinds of holds to read with confusedly, but deeply was being hoodwinked, including this Spiritual God. 答案就是那么简单,很多时候,只要轻轻往前迈出一步,就能跨过绝望,看到希望,但人的双眼,总是因为各种各样的执念和迷茫,而被深深蒙蔽着,包括她这个神灵在内。 However, although the answer is simple, achieves truly is not simple, in this world , can how many such youngster, be willing to become protagonist of story by oneself? 但是,答案虽然简单,真正做到却又不简单,这个世界上,又有多少这样的少年,能让自己愿意成为故事的主角呢？ Visual is deciding to depart, youngster who the flight clearance vainly hopes , the Spiritual God Sir innermost feelings such as are regret however want to say. 目视着决定离去,放飞梦想的少年,神灵大人内心如是憾然想道。 Perhaps, only then this, perhaps , because do not want to look for second again. 或许,就只有这一个,或许,是因为自己不想再找第二个。 The fate and sentiment, are the so marvelous things, making the eye view innumerable, Spiritual God Sir who actually experiences for the first time, just like the shy young girl, had the helpless vacant feeling. 缘分和感情,就是如此奇妙的东西,让眼观无数,却第一次经历的神灵大人,犹如青涩少女,产生了不知所措的茫然感觉。 Then, promised the agreement, the Spiritual God Sir smiled is stretching out the tail to refer to toward the youngster, makes such decision. 那么,就许下约定吧,神灵大人微笑着朝少年伸出了尾指,做出这样的决定。 „Regardless of succeeds is defeated, regardless of joyful desperate, regardless had anything, when you remember me, please come back again, even if one time also good, I here, have waited.” “无论成功还是失败,无论快乐还是绝望,无论发生了什么,当你想起我的时候,请再回来吧,哪怕一次也好,我会在这里,一直等候。” „What, but is this agreement?” The youngster expression is stunned, probably was agreed tonight to have the dinner by treating a matter seriously to be the same. “什么呀,只不过是这种约定吗？”少年表情愕然,好像被郑重其事的约定了今晚一定要吃晚饭一样。 „Isn't this natural matter? Naturally without the issue, will certainly come back, I promise you, naturally, I affirmed at that time has become the continent first song god, wait and see, what, saves the world? That must have a look at this world to have the crisis to be good, although wants to realize this dream, but really do not have the crisis, is quite peacefully good.” “这不是理所当然的事情吗？当然没问题,一定会回来的,我答应你,当然,那时候我肯定已经成为大陆第一歌神了,等着瞧吧,什么,拯救世界？那也得看看这个世界到底会不会发生危机才行呀,虽然很想实现这个梦想,但果然还是不要发生危机,和和平平比较好。” „......” And the Spiritual God Sir cancels the finger to promise the youngster of promise, in an instant thinks, although is a simple agreement, but against propriety not to reciprocate, oneself as if should also return a talent not to owe. “还有……”和神灵大人勾着手指许下诺言的少年,转眼一想,虽然是一个再简单不过的约定,但来而不往非礼也,自己似乎也应该同样回报一个才不亏。 „That, promised an agreement with me, this tied.” Lowers the head, does not dare to gaze at that to be able by oneself deeply to be enchanted by and be attached, produces is not willing the departure thought holy face, after the youngster to ponder diligently, blurted out. “那么,也和我许下一个约定吧,这样就打平了。”低着头,不敢注视那张能让自己深深迷醉和眷恋,产生不愿离去念头的圣洁面庞,少年冥思苦想后,脱口而出。 „If...... one day, I meant if, I did not have the means to save the world, the world suffered the crisis, can you replace me to realize this dream? Naturally, this was too difficult, realizes the dream more difficult than me, therefore you wanted diligently one after next to be slightly good, un, right, was this, so long as the meaning meaning, proved that this agreement, showed that I had existed, showed that we are crossing together, enough......” “假如说……有一天,我是说假如,我没办法去拯救世界了,世界又遭遇到了危机,你能代替我实现这个梦想吗？当然,这太难了,比我实现梦想还要困难,所以你只要稍微努力一下下就好了,嗯,没错,就是这样,只要意思意思,证明有过这个约定,证明我曾经存在过,证明我们在一起过,就已经足够了……” ... 。。。