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#409: Detains the failure

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No matter I also Liu Jie can hear, said to her one pile of apologies, ordinary I, androcentrism, rarely stands in girl's angle ponder issue, had some contradictory misunderstandings. 我也不管柳洁能不能听到,给她说了一堆道歉的话,平常的我,过于大男子主义,很少站在女孩子的角度思考问题,以至于产生了一些矛盾误解。 While her, when „sleeping soundly”, I instead can speak freely, like this thought aloud a meeting, I touch the pocket, put out the Liu Jie cell phone, this was before leaves the police station, Chief summer gave me personally. 趁着她在“熟睡”的时候,我反而能够畅所欲言,这样自言自语了一会,我摸了摸口袋,拿出了柳洁的手机,这是之前离开警察局,那夏局长亲手交给我的。 Although Teacher Liu is not willing to help me convey Liu Yuhan, but I have the Liu Jie cell phone, through her WeChat, can relate on, so long as Liu Yuhan hiding, the deletion news, should not be discovered by Teacher Liu conveniently. 虽然刘老师不愿意帮我转达刘雨涵,但我有柳洁的手机,通过她的微信,还是能联系上的,况且只要刘雨涵隐蔽一点,随手删除消息,应该也不会被刘老师发现。 I quite worried, she will not respond me intentionally, such is very awkward, the present is around 11 : 00 pm, does not know that Liu Yuhan rested, I, with the Liu Jie WeChat, sent a Zhang Mengmeng's expression chart brazenly in the past. 我就是比较担心,她会故意不搭理我,那样就很尴尬,现在是晚上11点多,也不知道刘雨涵睡了没有,我厚着脸皮,用柳洁的微信,发了一张萌萌的表情图过去。 After a while, Liu Yuhan replied a voice, „Little Jie, you awoke!?” Her that delighted tone, is happy for Liu Jie obviously. 过了一会,刘雨涵就回复了一条语音,“小洁,你醒了啊！？”她那喜出望外的语气,显然是替柳洁感到高兴。 In this stamp my pain spot, quite a while has not returned to her news, Liu Yuhan asks on own initiative. 这一下戳中我的痛点,半天都没回她消息,刘雨涵主动发问了。 „?? People!” “？？人呢！” „, I am Zhuang Feng.” To be honest, the bonus is my face is thick-skinned, scolding that after was relentless by her, was embarrassed was saying, I was her young rascal, sentimental thing, was very strange, before, I am enjoying by pleased that the beautiful woman stucked, but when tasted the taste of losing, could not help want to recall, knows obviously, this was a humility , the characterless behavior, I want to attempt to keep hold of her. “呃,我是庄风。”说实话,饶是我脸皮厚,在被她毫不留情的数落后,都不好意思在说,我是她的小无赖了,感情这东西,真的很奇怪,以前,我享受着被美女黏住的快意,但当尝到了失去的滋味,又情不自禁想要挽回,明明知道,这是一种低贱,又没骨气的行为,我还是想尝试挽留她。 „, Is you were using her cell phone, what matter has?” Liu Yuhan not salty is not pale asks me. “哦,原来是你在用她的手机啊,有什么事吗？”刘雨涵不咸不淡问我。 „I want to tell you, before I was taken away by the police, is a misunderstanding, they came to the hospital to clarify a moment ago, finally you are not also , the words that you do not believe that can call the western city district police station to ask tomorrow, do not misunderstand me.” I quickly returned to one. “我只是想跟你说一下,之前我被警察带走,是一场误会,他们刚才来医院澄清了,结果你又不在,你不信的话,明天可以打电话到西城区警察局问问,你可别误会我咯。”我急忙回了一条。 „Un, I first guessed correctly, was misunderstood, although your sentiment is not very single-minded, but did not have the dregs male to that situation.” The response of Liu Yuhan, lets my speechless. “嗯,我先就猜到了,是被误会的,虽然你感情不够专一,但还没渣男到那个地步。”刘雨涵的回应,让我一阵无语。 „Right, you did not teach even, can still keep cloud city to work, at least many friends, many took care.” This is I am obviously looking for the topic, before she no longer is the smelly young married woman, after regaining that was arrogant, like changing a person, making me feel a strangeness and no use of faint trace, naturally, I have not sought the reason from Liu Yuhan, but blames itself, is not very outstanding, like her said that I in sentimental, am a loser, if can coordinate to be good their relations, is insufficient the present situation. “对了,就算你不教书,也可以留在云城工作啊,至少多个朋友,多个照应嘛。”这明显是我在找话题,她不再是以前的臭婆娘,当重拾了那份高傲后,就像变了一个人,让我感到一丝丝的陌生和无助,当然,我并没有从刘雨涵身上找原因,而是责怪自己,不够优秀,就像她说的,我在感情方面,是个失败者,如果能协调好她们的关系,也不至于到现在的地步。 To put it bluntly, I have been concealing, is very unfair to Liu Yuhan, after all in the range of school, Liu Jie is my name brand girlfriend, before made a matter, particularly that time, with the dispute of sports teacher, even the principals alarmed, but I and Liu Yuhan relations, surface, as an insensitive male compatriot, I do not care about the censure, capital that even one type is worth showing off, but Liu Yuhan is different, she has lived under the vision that others despise, what even if on the mouth did not say, the heart is very uncomfortable. 说白了,我一直在隐瞒,对刘雨涵特别不公平,毕竟在学校的范围内,柳洁才是我的正牌女友,之前闹了点事,尤其是那次,跟体育老师的纠葛,连校长都惊动了,而我和刘雨涵的关系,才算是浮出水面,作为一个厚脸皮的男同胞,我不在乎非议,甚至有一种值得炫耀的资本,但刘雨涵却不一样,她一直生活在别人鄙夷的目光下,哪怕嘴上不说什么,心底都十分难受。 Perhaps, leaves in three, to her is an extrication, Liu Yuhan has the highly educated girl, in three treatment, although is good, but is not richly, she is willing to treat in three , because can often communicate with me, occasionally enjoys crazy in office. 或许,离开三中,对她是一种解脱,刘雨涵是个有着高学历的女孩,三中的待遇虽然不错,但算不上丰厚,她之所以愿意待在三中,是因为可以跟我经常来往,偶尔享受一下办公室里的疯狂。 As Teacher Liu meddles, she has to face up to oneself situation, even if has a heart movement to me, even if still I have the graciousness in her, cannot change Liu Yuhan to retrieve the hope of self-respect. 随着刘老师插手,她不得不正视自己的处境,即使对我有所心动,也即便我有恩于她,都改变不了刘雨涵想要重新找回自尊心的渴望。 „Does not use, I am not willing to leave leeway to read to you again think, needs some time, comes calmly to precipitate oneself, hopes that do not try to look for me, sometimes, from producing beautiful, was too near, instead will lose some to have the thing that if predestined friends, we will also meet, treats your woman well, they love you very much.” Liu Yuhan a few words, like throwing cold water, instantaneously, I felt like drink Sprit the same as pass the heart to be cool. “不用了,我不愿再给你留有念想,也需要一段时间,来静静地沉淀自己,希望你也别试图找我,有时候,距离产生美,太近了,反而会失去一些本该有的东西,如果有缘的话,我们还会相见的,好好对待你身边的女人吧,她们都很爱你。”刘雨涵一段话,如同泼凉水一样,瞬间,我感觉像是喝了雪碧一样透心凉。 „Slightly contains, I really do not give up you, remaining to be good, guaranteed cannot again like before.” This saying, I send with the voice, this is first, to her so submissive. “小涵涵,我真的舍不得你,留下来好不好,保证不会再像以前那样。”这话,我是用语音发的,这是头一回,对她如此的低声下气。 „I had said before, you more do not have the principle to keep hold of me, more showed that you changed, will only make me feel, you are a man who does not have the strength of spirit, no matter were short of anyone, the Earth metropolis/can rotation revolution, you need is not I, but is the sense of achievement that a female friend brings, after this loses self-satisfied, confusedness that you reveal, is you not mature performance, all has been said that you put best into it.” Then, Liu Yuhan unexpectedly blacklisted I, accurate, was the blacklisted the Liu Jie WeChat good friend, made that my chicken was very awkward. “我之前说过,你越是没原则挽留我,越证明你变了,也只会让我觉得,你是一个没有骨气的男人,不管少了谁,地球都会自转公转,你需要的不是我,而是一种红颜知己所带来的成就感,当这份洋洋自得失去后,你流露出的迷茫,也是你不成熟的表现,言尽于此,你好自为之吧。”说完,刘雨涵居然拉黑了我,准确来说,是拉黑了柳洁的微信好友,弄得我贼鸡儿尴尬。 It seems like that Liu Yuhan iron core must leave, how even if I detain again, cannot play the role, considers as finished, since she wants to go back to the past arrogance, is itself, I do not need to stop. 看来,刘雨涵是铁了心要离开,就算我再怎么挽留,都起不到作用,算了算了,既然她想重拾往日的高傲,做回自己,我也没必要阻拦。 Actually cannot all depend on Liu Yuhan, I remembered very clearly, at that time the medicine outbreak of her within the body, looks that I and Liu Jie were intimate, can not help stroke on the body, then I have not moistened her immediately, instead made Liu Yuhan persist in the haughty manner, the plea from language I, pleased of that heart, simply was the indescribable wonder, from then on, Liu Yuhan, although had a small hatred to me, is actually not able to extricate oneself fell in love with me. 其实也不能全赖刘雨涵,我记得很清楚,当时她体内的药物发作,看着我和柳洁亲热,情不自禁在身上抚摸着,然后我也没有马上滋润她,反而让刘雨涵放下架子,从语言上的恳求我,那种心底的快意,简直是无法形容的美妙,从那以后,刘雨涵虽然对我有了点小恨意,却又无法自拔的爱上了我。 Afterward my tip payout, she watched, was therefore moved, she put down the stance, is willing to continue to conduct happy of fish water with me, not only on the bed, the balcony, various bold experience, has attempted, she discovered that she could not leave me, raised, making me accompany her, her self-respect, completely crushed. 后来我点滴的付出,她看在眼里,也因此被感动了,她放下了姿态,愿意继续跟我进行鱼水之欢,不仅在床上,还有阳台,各种大胆的体验,都尝试过,她发现自己离不开我了,才提出来,让我多陪陪她,她的那份自尊心,也彻底粉碎了。 Perhaps, was I was tenacious, the sentiment was a very complex thing, was different from other, strove diligently is a matter, but more often, should allow nature to take its course, both sides will not be awkward. 或许,是我过于固执了,感情是一种很复杂的东西,不同于别的,努力争取是一回事,但更多时候,应该顺其自然,这样双方才不会太尴尬。 However, one after another was wounded by stabbing by Liu Yuhan, I am uncomfortable, felt own special failure, even if asked her like this brazen-faced and shameless, no result, asked for trouble simply. 不过,接二连三被刘雨涵戳伤,我心里不是个滋味,觉得自己特别的失败,哪怕这样死皮赖脸求她,都没有一点结果,简直是自讨苦吃。 Soon, willow Zhanpeng came back, gave back to me to bring delicious, I ate casually, this has been defending Liu Jie, I also especially was uncomfortable, he saw my grieved, making me first go back. 不多时,柳展鹏就回来了,还给我带了好吃的,我随便吃点,这样一直守着柳洁,我心里也格外难受,他看出了我的酸楚,让我先回去。 Just, I am prepare to have a look at the sister-in-law, after all, since Liu Jie has an accident, she has felt alarmed and anxious, I came out from the police station a moment ago, receive one group of her message, asking her should not be worried, but the sister-in-law has not seen me, definitely was not at heart steadfast. 刚好,我是准备去看看嫂子,毕竟,从柳洁出事,她就一直担惊受怕,刚才我从警察局出来,收到一堆她的消息,叫她不要担心,不过嫂子没见到我,心里肯定不踏实。
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