MIG :: Volume #4

#371: I am bad to be afraid


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14 years have not changed the group name was revised suddenly, pouring is not saying definitely building owner rights protection cooperation group name is very strange, but atmosphere of this name in that desperate deathly stillness with the group is somewhat incompatible. 十四年没有变过的群名突然被人修改了,倒也不是说死楼业主维权互助群这个名字很怪异,只是这名字跟群里那种绝望死寂的氛围有些格格不入。 In the middle of the phone screen of disruption seeped out the bloodstain, the names of deceased person, wrote down the bright red information. 碎裂的手机屏幕当中渗出了血迹,一个个死人的名字,写下了鲜红的信息。 The finger touches these strange writing, shouting of malicious ghost will resound in the mind directly. 手指触碰那些诡异的文字,恶鬼的嘶吼会直接在脑海中响起。 In the sound of ice-cold pain has some doubts, the soul that sank to night most deep place opened the eye suddenly, they discovered that in the middle of irrevocable despair, had the favorable turn. 冰冷痛苦的声音中带着些许疑惑,那一个个沉入了黑夜最深处的灵魂忽然睁开了眼睛,他们发现一成不变的绝望当中,出现了转机。 Both hands hold the cell phone, Han Fei somewhat feels helpless, he wants to have a look at the managers to make anything, has not thought that held directly such big trouble. 双手捧着手机,韩非有些不知所措,他只是想要看看管理员都能做什么,没想到直接捅了这么大的娄子。 Before that group name was extremely depressing, I thought that everyone should to proceed to look, moreover we will turn into this, is not our mistakes, the invisible hands were in control of our destiny in secret, perhaps cuts off that invisible hand, our hearts tie can open.” “以前那个群名太过压抑,我觉得大家应该要往前看,另外我们之所以会变成这样,并不是我们的错误,有一只无形的手在暗中主导了我们的命运,也许砍断那无形的手,我们的心结就可以打开。” Han Fei looks that soon overflows the bloodstain of screen and wants to stretch out the ugly faces of screen, he felt unusual is not wonderful, the cell phone in the deep layer world is a rare good thing, but the function of this cell phone actually cannot use casually, every touches one time could pay certain price. 韩非看着快要溢出屏幕的血迹和想要伸出屏幕的一张张鬼脸,他感觉非常的不妙,在深层世界里手机是个不可多得的好东西,但这个手机的功能却不是可以随便使用的,每一次触碰可能都要付出一定的代价。 That...... did this crowd chat can close?” “那个……这群聊能关闭吗?” When the boy just like a good-for-nothing, his mouth opens the speech, can see his within the body innumerable faces simultaneously in the opens the mouth: Cannot switch off, that cell phone is the glow deepest holds to read, the group in cell phone chatted is also between we and him the tie. Also a little I must tell you ahead of time, after moving into this desperate building, has the new inhabitant to join the group to chat one after another, they will not have scruples the glow.” 男学生宛如一具行尸走肉,他嘴巴张开说话时,能看到他体内无数张人脸同时在开口:“关不掉的,那手机是萤火最深的执念,手机中的群聊也是我们和他之间的纽带。还有一点我要提前告诉你,搬入这栋绝望之楼后,陆续有新的住户加入群聊,它们不会顾忌萤火。” The boy of Room 4094 has not thought that Han Fei comes up to revise the group name, his words have not said, the cell phone of Han Fei palm vibrated suddenly. 4094房间的男学生也没想到韩非上来就会修改群名,他话还未说完,韩非掌心的手机突然震动了起来。 „A day knows that hahahaha initiates the video to chat!” “一天就知道哈哈哈哈发起视频聊天!” Name Han Fei of this group friend has seen in the memory of glow, the opposite party wants to conduct the video call impatiently, should be wants to confirm something. 这个群友的名字韩非在萤火的记忆当中看到过,对方迫不及待的想要进行视频通话,应该是想要确认一些东西。 In the netherworld with the person video, Han Fei also has no experience for the first time, he reorganized a correct manners discipline slightly, after all in this place video, the correct manners discipline perhaps was the deceased remains. 第一次在阴间跟人视频,韩非也没什么经验,他稍微整理了一下仪容,毕竟在这地方视频,仪容说不定就是遗容了。 Presses down the connection key, Han Fei has not responded, his cell phone picture had been entrained in the middle of a video room. 按下接通键,韩非还未反应过来,他的手机画面已经被拽进了一个视频房间当中。 In the room has not turned on the light, in the gloomy living room is placing a chair alone, young people turn away from the lens to sit. 屋内没有开灯,阴暗的客厅里孤零零摆着一把椅子,一个年轻人背对镜头坐着。 Haha lives in Room 4174, he contracts a sickness, regardless of being sad, is painful, will always smile, smiling that unceasing smiling, cannot stop. Because of this sickness, he has been bullied, in the middle of campus tyrant ice, he collapsed afterward. Fell down like the mad dog bullied his person, crazy, is crying with a smile, grabbed the compass, aimed at the eyes of tyrant ice the most incisive that part.” The boy knows haha the matter of experience. “哈哈住在4174房间,他患有一种病,无论悲伤,还是痛苦,总是会笑,不断的笑,停不下来的笑。因为这个病,他一直被欺负,在后来一次校园霸凌当中,他崩溃了。像条疯狗一样扑倒了欺负他的人,疯狂的笑着、哭着,抓着圆规,把最尖锐的那部分对准了霸凌者的眼睛。”男学生知道哈哈经历的事情。 He has not pricked the eyes of tyrant ice the compass, but he laughed wildly the appearance that burst into tears actually to be photographed by the surrounding person. Not is only these tyrant ice, his friend and teacher also thought that haha the spirit has the issue, afterward the school authorities in communicated after haha the family member, making him temporarily leave school at home.” “他没有把圆规刺入霸凌者的眼睛,但是他狂笑流泪的样子却被周围的人拍摄了下来。不仅是那些霸凌者,就连他的朋友和老师也觉得哈哈精神有问题,后来校方在和哈哈家人沟通后,让他休学在家。” Heard starting from that time, haha rarely walked out of the door again, his sickness was also getting more and more serious, in the building the neighbor often heard in the night contains the painful laughter completely.” “听说从那个时候开始,哈哈就很少再走出家门,他的病也越来越严重,楼内邻居经常在深夜听到满含痛苦的笑声。” For does not disturb the neighbor, haha installed the thick soundproofing board to own room, his laughter cannot transmit again, he himself was also sealed up thoroughly in that room.” “为了不打扰到邻居,哈哈给自己的房间装上了厚厚的隔音板,他的笑声不能再传递出去,他自己也被彻底封闭在了那个房间里。” In the boy is Han Fei told haha past tense, in the video that sits the young people on chair lonely turns head slowly, he only revealed half face, on the face has the smile of distortion. 在男学生为韩非讲述哈哈过去时,视频里那个孤独坐在椅子上的年轻人缓缓扭头,他只露出了半张脸,脸上带着扭曲的笑容。 That smile lets his whole face blood vessel bulge, is ordinary just like the curse, engraves on his face. 那笑容让他满脸血管凸起,宛如诅咒一般,刻印在他的脸上。 However what is opposite with the smile is his look, in the pupil is grey, deep, the grey of no vitality. 不过和笑容相反的是他的眼神,瞳孔中是一片灰色,深沉的、毫无生机的灰色。 Simple looking at each other, only passed zero point several seconds probably, has appeared by the face that the smile twists in front of Han Fei. 一个简单的对视,好像只过了零点几秒钟,一张被笑容扭曲的脸已经出现在韩非面前。 Trades to be any average person to come, will be frightened to go crazy by that terrifying smile, but haha today met Han Fei. 换做任何一个普通人过来,都会被那张恐怖的笑脸吓到发疯,但哈哈今天遇到了韩非 I am not the glow, but I with the glow am the same person, he built a warm haven in the reality for you, but I want to construct a true family/home for in the middle of dead building you.” Han Fei has thought oneself is a specialized actor, he some minute/share of not clear is even performing now, was really used to these, that calm calm air/Qi field as if has penetrated the marrow. “我不是萤火,但我和萤火是一样的人,他在现实里为你们打造了一个温暖的避风港,而我则想为死楼当中的你们建造一个真正的家。”韩非一直认为自己是一个专业的演员,他现在甚至有些分不清楚自己到底是在表演,还是真的习惯了这些,那份淡定从容的气场仿佛已经深入骨髓。 He thinks oneself will be scared, may see truly after the smile that haha the pain twists, the fear in his heart had been scattered by another thing. 他本来以为自己会感到害怕,可真正看到了哈哈痛苦扭曲的笑容后,他心中的恐惧已经被另外一种东西驱散。 Forever is the gray head picture has shone, when do you also prepare to stay in your room?” Clear haha after the bitter experience, Han Fei wants to help the opposite party, he does that is not totally to rely on the strength of opposite party, he is the sincerity wants to change in the cooperation group the life of these patients. “永远是灰色的头像都已经亮起,你还准备在自己的房间里呆到什么时候?”清楚哈哈的遭遇后,韩非更加想要帮助对方,他这么做并不是完全为了借助对方的力量,他是真心想要改变互助群内那些患者的生活。 Looks at that pupil, Han Fei is supporting by the arm the glow side: He protected your past, I help you see the future. Tonight is the most essential night, is an only opportunity, I do not need you entirely to believe words that I spoke, I want you to myself an opportunity of change, opportunity that can also choose to glow one.” 望着那眼眸,韩非将萤火搀扶到身边:“他守护了你们的过去,我来帮你们看到未来。今夜是最关键的一个夜晚,也是唯一的一个机会,我不需要你完全相信我说的话,我只是希望你能给自己一个改变的机会,也给萤火一个可以选择的机会。” Once such helped your glow, he completed oneself commitment, is in the group the last leaving person. He protected you to arrive finally, exhausted, whole body was the wound, you are really willing to look that he did perish the night?” “曾经那样帮助你们的萤火,他完成了自己的承诺,是群里最后一个离开的人。他守护你们到了最后,精疲力尽、浑身是伤,你们真的愿意看着他就此沉沦进黑夜当中?” Han Fei gave haha some time of ponder, then he touches the cell phone page: „The consciousness of my soul and glow fuses mutually, our custom was retained by the glow, whenever cannot shoulder, cannot support, looks that in the cell phone to the words that oneself leave behind. My soul leaves own words is lives the best actor is I, the glow is other few words that oneself stay behind.” 韩非给了哈哈一些思考的时间,接着他触碰手机页面:“我的一道魂和萤火的意识相互融合,我们的一个习惯被萤火保留了下来,每当扛不住、撑不下去的时候,会看一看手机里给自己留下的话语。我那道魂留给自己的话语是生活最好的演员就是我自己,萤火给自己留下的则是另外一句话。” Han Fei is also attaining the cell phone, after landing the glow account number, sees, the glow has an obvious signature- I cannot forget them, their hearts have not been able to warm itself, I must important hold them tightly, if even I also dispersed the hand, they will be really iced to wrap coldly, sinks the night of being too deep to see the bottom.” 韩非也是在拿到手机,登陆了萤火账号后才看见的,萤火有一条只有自己可见的签名-“我不能忘记他们,他们的心已经无法温暖自己,我必须要紧紧抓住他们,如果连我也撒开了手,那他们将真的被冰寒包裹住,沉入深不见底的黑夜。” Reads those words that the glow leaves behind, Han Fei simply does not have deliberately to perform, but pure is reading, others have been able to feel the strength in the words containing. 念出萤火留下的那句话,韩非根本没有刻意去表演,只是单纯的念着,旁人就已经能够感受到话语中蕴含的力量。 Glow has thought the death innumerable, to him died is not difficult, goes on living rarely. This type felt that I believe you also understand, endures suffering in mind, in innumerable negativity resistances with brain, then proud brave going on living.” “萤火无数次想过死亡,对他来说死亡并不难,难得是活下去。这种感觉我相信你们也明白,忍受心灵上的折磨,与大脑中无数的负面情绪对抗,然后骄傲勇敢的活下去。” Glow warmed you, was you supported him, but your supervisee use, will actually shoulder everyone faith him to call back from the dead now the dead building.” “萤火温暖了你们,也是你们支撑了他,可现在你们却被管理者利用,将背负着所有人信念的他招魂到了死楼当中。” „Do you know? At this time made him die, was not an extrication, destroyed he until now all efforts on the contrary.” “你们知道吗?这时候让他去死,并不是一种解脱,反倒是摧毁了他一直以来所有的努力。” If you are really willing to help him, that makes him leave, returns to the place that he should go, then has your hope to go on living, at that time he for you will show that the hope really exists!” “如果你们真的愿意帮助他,那就放手让他离开,回到他该去的地方,然后带着你们所有人的期盼活下去,那个时候他会为你们证明希望真的存在!” Haha when saw that the glow head picture shines, transmitted the video invitation directly, in entire process he has almost not opened the mouth, sits in room him alone becomes a listener. 哈哈在看到萤火头像亮起的时候,直接发送了视频邀请,整个过程中他几乎没有开口,孤零零坐在房间里的他成为了一个倾听者。 He had forgotten oneself is to do at first, the brain is Han Fei these words. 他已经忘记了自己最初是想要干什么,满脑子都是韩非的那些话语。 In the dead building, never has portrait Han Fei this. 在死楼内,从来没有人像韩非这样。 On face of distortion unconscious and shows the smile, but this smiles with differently usually slightly some. 扭曲的脸上不自觉的又露出笑容,只是这笑跟平时稍微有一些不同。 Slowly, the smile became laughing wildly of out-of-control, the blood flows out following that man eyes. 慢慢的,微笑变为了失控的狂笑,血液顺着那男人眼睛流出。 In the laughter of that insanity, Han Fei heard several characters vaguely: Glow will not vanish in the nighttime.” 在那疯魔的笑声中,韩非依稀听到了几个字:“萤火不会消失在黑夜里。” The video call terminates, Han Fei also became to the tonight's plan has the confidence. He looks to glow, wants to support by the arm on the sofa the glow, finally the expression of very unexpected discovery glow actually did not have delay that. 视频通话终止,韩非对今晚的计划也变得更有信心了。他看向身边的萤火,本想把萤火搀扶到沙发上,结果很意外的发现萤火的表情竟然没有那么呆滞了。 He is staring at the phone screen, as if saw after a moment ago haha, his frail will was touched, some memories that the innermost feelings hide were awakened. 他盯着手机屏幕,似乎刚才看到哈哈之后,他脆弱的意志被触动,内心隐藏的一些记忆被唤醒。 As if so long as exchanges with more group friends, the weak glow can return to normal. 似乎只要和更多的群友交流,虚弱的萤火就能恢复正常。 After discovering this point, Han Fei starts on own initiative in these familiar ID video exchanges with the group, he comforted and encouraged these crowds like the glow initially in secret, found them, told their idea. 发现了这一点后,韩非开始主动跟群里那些熟悉的ID视频交流,他就像当初萤火私下里安慰、鼓励那些群员一样,一个一个找到他们,告诉他们的想法。 When actor long illness to become Yi who has the Grandmaster Level performing skill, after having studied various psychological divisions/disciplines, in his words will contain a strength, Han Fei soon obtained the approvals of some owners, the status of his manager is accepted by everyone now truly. 当一个拥有大师级演技的演员久病成医,研究过各类心理学科后,他的话语中会蕴含一种力量,韩非很快得到了一些业主的认可,他这个管理员的身份现在才算是真正被大家接受。 After most hiving off has chatted, Han Fei is wanting to reorganize everyone's information, the cell phone suddenly starts to vibrate. 和大部分群员聊过之后,韩非正想要整理一下大家的信息,手机忽然又开始震动。 Initiated the video to chat on the 4204 th!” “4204号发起了视频聊天!” Glow has helped group friend, the group chatted the name is before death net ID, in some buildings the original inhabitant, the group name can be a door plate.” The boy does not think that Han Fei was killed directly, opens the mouth to remind one: You best want to be clear that puts through again.” “萤火帮助过的群友,群聊名字都是生前的网名,只有少部分楼内原本的住户,群名才会是一个门牌号。”男学生不想韩非直接被弄死,开口提醒了一句:“你最好想清楚再接通。” They, since the choice joins this group to chat, explained that they also want to change.” After thinking moment, Han Fei chose the connection, the reason is very simple, the room that the group friends live in mostly only includes a number 4, besides haha and boy, other person of strengths is not too powerful. “他们既然选择加入这个群聊,说明他们本身也想要改变。”思索片刻后,韩非还是选择了接通,原因很简单,群友们居住的房间大多都只含有一个数字“四”,除了哈哈和男学生之外,其他人实力并不算太强大。 Room 4204, does this person live on 20?” According to Han Fei at the experience in No. 1 building, 20 building above rooms is quite generally terrorist. “4204房间,这个人住在20层?”根据韩非在一号楼的经验,二十楼以上的房间普遍比较恐怖。 After hesitant moment, Han Fei put through the video, but has not waited for him to see clearly the opposite party long anything appearance, the blood overspread the lens, he heard an incomparably familiar sound: Calls back from the dead? I remember that I am not your family member, but you actually do not dare to hurt my slightest, but also obeys my words, even kills people and processes the corpse be willing to do. It seems like good that I guess, should be my soul sneaked in your close body. Cannot think that obviously you are a ghost, now actually fearful and apprehensive resembles individual.” 犹豫片刻后,韩非接通了视频,可还没等他看清楚对方长什么样子,血液就铺满了镜头,紧接着他听见了一个无比熟悉的声音:“招魂?我记得自己不是你的亲人,但是你却不敢伤害我分毫,还听从我的话,连杀人和处理尸体都愿意去做。看来我猜的不错,应该是我的魂钻进了你至亲的身体里。想不到啊,明明你是鬼,现在却心惊胆战的像个人。” In that sound is passing crazy and an unscrupulous destruction desire, Han Fei is hearing that sound, showed the inconceivable expression. 那个声音中透着疯狂和一种肆无忌惮的毁灭欲望,韩非听着那声音,露出了不可思议的表情。 He is very definite, in the video the sound that spreads from Room 4204 is own sound. 他很确定,视频里从4204房间传出的声音就是自己的声音。 Is my soul is speaking?” “是我的魂在说话?” Han Fei lost the three spirits three mortal forms, formed three consciousness, represents the childhood, seems to be symbolizing good and hope, another distance that blood red memory is recent, possibly is symbolizing evil and slyness of Han Fei. 韩非丢失了三魂三魄,形成了三道意识,一个代表童年,一个似乎象征着善和希望,另外一个距离那片血红的记忆最近,可能象征着韩非的邪恶和狡猾。
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