„You said that should I, hate, should hate you?” “你说,我,该不该恨,该不该恨你们？” A question, the tone is very light. 只是一句疑问,语气很轻。 But actually seems like the most violent hammer, Jia Sidao knocks down ruthlessly. 但却像是最猛烈的锤击,将贾似道狠狠地打倒在地。 Threatens Jia Sidao who came and once look angrily and fiercely, now is scared, just like dog in an extremely difficult situation in the rainy day is the same, sits on the ground. 气势汹汹而来、曾经横眉怒视的贾似道,如今失魂落魄,宛如在雨天中狼狈不堪的狗一样,一屁股坐在地上。 It is not able to refute, was once eloquent, now is at a loss for words. 无法反驳,曾经辩才无碍,如今张口结舌。 This does not only depend on the situation that capable in argument can change, this does not only depend on the difficult problem that the tooth point mouth advantage can solve, this problem is the non-solution, because it has the obvious answer. 这不是仅靠能言善辩就能改变的局势,这不是仅靠牙尖嘴利就能解决的难题,这道题是无解的,因为它早已经有了不言自明的答案。 Sun Lang is a victim, this is obvious. 孙朗是受害者,这是显而易见的。 He is the person in another world, even if the Tianyuan fights rivers of blood, does not have the tiny bit relations with him, he in another world, does not have any responsibility and duty. 他本来就是另一个世界的人,哪怕天元大战血流成河,都与他没有一丝一毫的关系,他在另一个世界,没有任何的责任与义务。 But he was caught this world persistently unreasonably, was forced to participate in the fight, the body and mind received enormous devastation and suffering, after establishing the enormous meritorious service and honor, waits for his is betrayal without hesitation, this matter, divulged the day, is unjust, is wrong. 但他被蛮不讲理地抓到了这个世界,被逼迫着参加战斗,身心受到了极大的摧残和折磨,建立了极大的功勋和荣誉之后,等待他的是毫不犹豫的背叛,这种事情,说破了天,都是不正义的,都是错误的。 Therefore he has the qualifications hatred, has the standpoint enmity, has the reason revenge. 所以他有资格憎恨,有立场怨怼,有理由复仇。 Even the spearhead not only aims at the emperor, not only aims at a day of imperial book repository, but also aimed at Rong Guofu...... but as Jia Sidao of Jia Residence member actually can only the mirthless smile, could not say any disputing words. 甚至矛头不仅仅指向皇帝,不仅仅指向天策府,还指向了荣国府……但身为贾府成员的贾似道却只能惨笑着,说不出任何辩驳的话来。 What debated is useless...... Jia Residence is also a victim, Rong Guofu also lost blood relative's grandson, all these must blame the emperor 11 these words being useless. 什么辩论都是无用的……贾府也是受害者,荣国府也失去了嫡亲的孙儿,这一切都要怪皇帝一一这些话是没有用的。 Sun Lang has said very much clearly, he does not care about Jia Residence to be innocent, he does not care about the logic of war, all these were uninterested with him, he is worry-free average person in another world, is who harms him to arrive at this world, is who directly caused his crossing over? 孙朗已经说得很清楚了,他不在乎贾府是否无辜,他不在乎战争的结果,这一切本来与他毫无关系,他本来是另外一个世界中的无忧无虑的普通人,是谁害得他来到这个世界,是谁直接导致了他的穿越？ Is, was very obvious. 是谁,很明显了。 Jia Sidao is speechless...... is so leaning front the hatred that the water of four seas is hard to scrub, argued that lost all significances, innocent or not, is unimportant. 贾似道无话可说……在如此倾四海之水都难以洗刷的仇恨面前,辩解失去了所有的意义,无辜与否,都已经不重要了。 The hatred and rationality are the things that contradict. 仇恨与理性本来就是相悖的事物。 The revenge is absurd, the vehement feeling product. 复仇是毫无道理可言的、情绪激烈的产物。 His anything words could not say, in such fact, in front of such Sun Lang, „sorry” was extremely really heavy, did not have the qualifications to say to him heavily. 他什么话都说不出来,在这样的事实,这样的孙朗面前,一句“对不起”实在太过沉重了,沉重到他没有资格说出口。 At the present, he feels very sad, a grateful sadness. 而今,他只是觉得很悲伤,一股刻骨铭心的悲伤。 He sits falls down, is raising head, looks to stand in his front person. 他坐倒在地上,仰着头,怔怔地看着站在他面前的人。 Even if passing and origin all says own today, the most painful memory will all show, the wound of scab will have torn again bloody, facing the dark past...... including oneself this bystander for such story will feel again broken-hearted and shock, is very difficult to imagine, regarding experiencing, is actually how deeply grieved suffering. 即使在今天将自己的过往和来历全都说出来,将自己最痛苦的记忆全都展现出来,将已经结痂的伤口再度血淋淋地撕裂开来,重新面对黑暗般的过去……连自己这个外人都会为这样的故事感到极度悲伤和震惊,很难想象,对于亲历者来说,究竟是多么惨痛的折磨。 But this person, his facial expression is still at present tranquil, has not seen any sad and resenting. 可眼前这个人,他的神情依然平静,没有见到任何悲伤与愤恨。 As if was saying that with, the story of another person he has nothing to do. 仿佛在说与他毫不相干的、另一个人的故事。 Has not gotten over an emotion , because has long been used, he all hatreds and sad inside and outside all immersion bodies, every inchs bone, each drop of blood, each few words. 不是已经释怀,是因为早已习惯,他将所有的仇恨和悲伤里里外外全都沉浸身体,每一寸骨,每一滴血,每一句话。 Jia Sidao closely jiao the jaw, is grasping the fist, the heart is pulling out fiercely is being painful. 贾似道紧紧地晈着牙关,握着拳头,心脏剧烈地抽痛着。 He once took as the lifetime friend the male cousin, felt oneself are the male cousin best partner and assistant, is the world's most understands his person. 他曾将堂兄引为毕生知己,觉得自己是堂兄最好的搭档与助手,是世界上最了解他的人。 He thinks that the two brothers coordinate incomparably tacitly, hopes that in having toward said that two people can enter the palace to be appointed prime minister simultaneously, the elder brother makes auxiliary, he makes auxiliary, the brothers concentric, deciding to change this way of the world. 他以为他们兄弟两人配合无比默契,希望在有朝一曰,两人能够同时入朝拜相,兄长做首辅,他就做次辅,兄弟同心,定能改变这个世道。 But he knows now, the elder brother is not an elder brother, but he, never has the understanding at present this person. 可现在他才知道,兄长不是兄长,而他,也从来没有了解眼前这个人。 Anger that before displayed, was the child is simply same, he resented that keeping silent of elder brother in, is accusing elder brother's feel alienated and evasion, but this anger was simply insignificant, in the face of truth that filled bloody, his sadness and was not worth mentioning angrily. 之前自己表现出来的愤怒,简直是小孩子一样,他愤恨于兄长的默不作声,指责着兄长的疏离和回避,但这种愤怒简直是微不足道的,在血腥弥漫的真相面前,他的悲伤和愤怒不值一提。 He thinks the two years ago scenes, the day in army, is he most joyful time, at that time went to war, although was very bitter, but everyone had the same dream, fought for the same reason, the surroundings were sufficiently robe Ze of trust, elder brother who the side can follow entire life, everyone was very good person, the elder brother like Sun, the sunlight shines in body of everyone brightly. 他不禁想到两年前的光景,在军中的日子,是他最快乐的时光,那时候打仗虽然很苦,但大家都怀着同一个梦想,为了同一个理由而战斗,周围都是足以信任的袍泽,身边就是可以一生追随的兄长,大家都是很好的人,兄长明亮如同太阳,阳光照耀在每一个人的身上。 He treats the officers to be very generous, treats the enemy to be actually relentless, is cruel and benevolent, is evil and good, is callous and amiable, facing the enemy and friend, he has two types 他对待将士很宽厚,对待敌人却毫不留情,残忍与仁慈,邪恶与善良,冷酷与随和,面对敌人与朋友,他有两种 The different faces, such special characteristics, everyone likes very much, he is that you can bring to robe Ze and boss who everyone shows off, he is ever-victorious, is meritorious, has a bright future young, everyone believes, he can be the Empire future pillar of the state. 不同的面孔,这样的特质,所有人都很喜欢,他是那种你可以拿来向所有人炫耀的袍泽与上司,他百战百胜,战功赫赫,年轻而前途远大,大家都相信,他会是帝国未来的栋梁。 Everyone likes him very much. 所有人都很喜欢他。 Because not only he can go to war, in usually, him has the vitality of young people, can chat with everyone comes, in his brain has unable to say story that some can one's blood bubbles up to the brim, does not give out excited angry roaring voluntarily, some can also one's blood bubbles up to the brim, exudes meaningfully hehe laughter. 不仅仅因为他能打仗,在平时,他有着年轻人的朝气,与所有人都能聊得来,他脑子里有着说不完的故事,有些能让人热血沸腾,不自觉地发出激动的怒吼,有些也能让人热血沸腾,不由发出意味深长的嘿嘿的笑声。 Amiable, treats worthies and scholars with courtesy, this seems like the special characteristics that all high-rank must have, the person but who can complete are not many, because aristocrat, even if treats worthies and scholars with courtesy again, when facing status base and low rube, still the surface will cannot help but reveal to disdain with proudly, when clear(ly) the white surface is genial, in bone proud actually could not hide, because the polite attitude stemmed from the own training and status, rather than the identity of soul. 平易近人,礼贤下士,这似乎是所有的上位者所必须拥有的特质,但能做好的人不多,因为贵族就算再礼贤下士,面对身份卑微的泥腿子时,依然会不由自主地表露出不屑和傲然,明时白表面再和善,骨子里的骄傲却掩藏不了,因为礼貌的态度源于自己的修养与身份,而不是灵魂的认同感。 But he can achieve...... as if in his eyes, everyone is the same. 但他能做到……似乎在他眼中,所有人都是一样的。 Jia Sidao once believes, this is the special characteristics of great person, he thought that elder brother body really has such charm, he can treat everyone impartially, he understood that what is the equality and respect......, therefore many people gathered at his side. 贾似道曾经相信,这是伟大之人的特质,他觉得兄长身上确实有这样的魅力,他能够一视同仁地对待所有人,他懂得什么叫平等和尊重……所以很多人聚集在了他的身边。 He once took such elder brother as arrogantly. 他曾经以这样的兄长为傲。 But now, all crashed. 但如今,一切都崩塌了。 Smiles elder brother who the ni narrows, the elder brother who opens yellow compartment, plays tricks on the elder brother who everyone runs around in circles, with elder brother who the soldiers are cheerful and lively, such just like the solar ordinary person, such is smiling and taking to others all day all day the warm person, in fact is actually shouldering the painful passing and deep hatred. 笑咪眯的兄长,开黄腔的兄长,将大家戏弄得团团转的兄长,跟士卒们有说有笑的兄长,这样一个宛如太阳一般的人,这样一个整天都在笑、整天都在带给别人温暖的人,事实上却背负着痛苦的过往和深沉的恨意。 He while smiling, at heart also definitely in hesitant, should report hesitant 他在笑的同时,心里也肯定在犹豫吧,犹豫该不该报 The enmity, how should handle the own matter...... unable to see the sadness of family member hesitant forever, was regarded the pain of puppet, hugged Ze believe the joy that and respects, by joy that the soldiers support. 仇,犹豫应该怎么处理自己的事情……永远都见不到家人的悲伤,被当成傀儡的痛苦,被抱泽们相信和尊敬的快乐,被士卒们拥戴的喜悦。 Perhaps such contradictory and awkwardness, suffered he very long very long time. 这样的矛盾和为难,恐怕折磨了他很长很长的时间。 But his actually anything does not know, stands side the elder brother satisfiedly, regarded the own male cousin him, thinks understands him very much, actually anything does not know. 而他却什么都不知道,心安理得地站在兄长身边,将他当成了自己的堂兄,自以为很了解他,却什么都不知道。 Moreover, this is also not most important. 而且,这还不是最重要的。 The beforehand words still reverberate in the ear. 之前的话还在耳边回荡。 His hatred, his killing intent, crazy of that thorough marrow, that murderous aura talking during sleep that reveals completely. 他的恨意,他的杀意,那深入骨髓的疯狂,那杀气毕露的呓语。 This is very normal. 这是很正常的。 Has experienced the person of that matter, hoped and happiness is destroyed twice people continuously, making anything was normal, even crazy enough to must destroy all, was normal. 经历过那种事情的人,希望与幸福被连续打碎了两次的人,做出什么事情都是正常的,即使疯狂到要毁灭一切,都是正常的。 Jia Sidao closes one's eyes painfully, the tears are actually full fall, in any event cannot stop. 贾似道痛苦地闭着眼睛,眼泪却充盈滑落,无论如何都止不住。 The narration of Sun Lang is very light, but his conceivable Sun Lang then mood. 孙朗的叙述很平淡,但他可以想象孙朗当时的心情。 Struggles from the bloody battle of big barren hill, ended the war, actually lost all, because does not have the place to go, because cannot go home. 从大荒山的血战中挣扎出来,结束了战争,却失去了所有,因为没有地方可去,因为回不了家。 Six years of all are only the illusions, this war starts by the pain, to finish desperately, wants to be destroyed, the home to return to was eliminated, is only left over a person who is filled with wildly with rage with the hatred sends out crazy shouting, except for the hatred and revenge, his anything did not have. 六年的一切只是幻象,这场战争以痛苦开始,以绝望结束,希望被打碎,归宿被剥夺,只剩下一个满心狂怒与憎恨的人发出疯狂的嘶吼,除了憎恨和复仇,他什么都没有了。 Therefore he can only take revenge, therefore he can only hate, he goes crazy enumerates the chief criminal, the hatred is continuing and enlarging, is not only an emperor, is not only a day of plan 所以他只能复仇,所以他只能憎恨,他发疯地列举着罪魁祸首,仇恨在延续和放大,不仅仅是皇帝,不仅仅是天策 The mansion, the hatred is swallowing the mind, crazy and evil intention is spreading unceasingly, therefore Jia Residence is also guilty, even the whole world guilty...... experienced the person of that matter, thinks that anything is normal, making anything is normal. 府,仇恨吞噬着心灵,疯狂和恶意在不断蔓延,所以贾府也有罪,甚至整个世界都有罪……经历了那种事情的人,想什么都是正常的,做什么都是正常的。 However, two years passed by. 但是,两年过去了。 Empire has not ignited the beacon-fire, Rong Guofu is also lasting tranquilly, no one has died. 帝国没有燃起烽火,荣国府也平静地存续着,谁都没有死。 11 his anything have not done. 一一他什么都没有做。 Jia Sidao jiao tight jaw, tears turbulent to become river. 贾似道晈紧牙关,眼泪汹涌成河。 11 his anything have not done. 一一他什么都没有做。 More than two years of time, a person, can the hatred of burnout world seethe in his within the body alone, was suppressed by his places, actually what kind of strength can constrain such hatred, actually what mind can control such anger, he is unable to understand forever forever. 两年多的时间,独自一个人,能够燃尽世界的仇恨在他体内翻腾着,然后被他一次次地压制下去,究竟怎样的力量才能压抑那样的仇恨,究竟什么样的心灵才能控制这样的怒火,他永远永远都无法明白。 He only knows, he has not understood elder brother own, has not understood this person. 他只知道,他从来没有了解自己的兄长,从来没有了解这个人。 The heart pulls out the pain fiercely, is suddenly excited, under the state of mind of major rises, the real air/Qi lost the control, in a severe pain, Jia Sidao put out a blood, face upwards to fall down. 心脏剧烈地抽痛,情绪急剧激动,在大起大落的心境下,真气失去了控制,在一阵剧痛中,贾似道哇的一声吐出了一口鲜血,仰天倒在地上。 Sun Lang shakes the head slightly, he arrives at side Jia Sidao, puts out a hand according to his chest front, the vigorous inner strength inflow , helping him stabilize the disorder real air/Qi. 孙朗微微摇头,他来到贾似道身边,伸手按在他胸前,浑厚的内力流入,助他稳定着紊乱的真气。 Jia Sidao eyes burst into tears, put out a hand reluctantly, held the arm of Sun Lang. Sun Lang said lightly: „You hurry along at the same night, needs to rest.” Jia Sidao's voice becomes very weak, even spoke somewhat is strenuous, he said: „You...... your news, is my father gives me......” 贾似道双眼流泪,勉强伸手,抓住了孙朗的手臂。孙朗淡淡道:“你是连夜赶路来的吧,需要休息了。”贾似道的声音变得很微弱,甚至说话都有些吃力,他说道:“你……你的消息,是我父亲交给我的……” Sun Lang was startled, the nod said: „I knew, you first rest.” Jia Sidao hears word, revealed extremely complex, sad smile, then faint in the past. 孙朗怔了一下,点头道:“我知道了,你先睡吧。”贾似道闻言,露出了极其复杂的、悲伤的笑容,然后昏厥了过去。 Sun Lang silent moment, sighed, hugged Jia Sidao, kicked aside the gate, saw Wei Zhongxian Station near the gate, expression tranquility as always. Sun Lang stares saying: „......, You listen secretly unexpectedly.” 孙朗沉默了片刻,叹了口气,将贾似道抱了起来,一脚踢开门,就看到魏忠贤站在门边,表情一如既往的平静。孙朗瞪眼道:“……哇,你居然偷听的。” Wei Zhongxian bows saying: „Before the master did not evade the old servant, this time also thinks as usual, but has not thought that unexpectedly is such matter, may listen to listen, has no alternative, does the master want to eliminate a potential informant?” 魏忠贤躬身道:“以前主人也不避讳老奴的,这次还以为会像往常一样,只是没想到居然是这样的事情,可听都听了,没奈何,主人要灭口吗？” Sun Lang snort/hum: „Where also has the vacant room?” 孙朗哼了一声:“哪里还有空房？” Wei Zhongxian guides immediately: „Master invited.” 魏忠贤立刻带路:“主人这边请。” The master and servant two people lead Jia Sidao to start off, no one has raised the matter that eliminates a potential informant again. 主仆两人带着贾似道上路,谁都没再提灭口的事情。 Walked one, Wei Zhongxian said suddenly: „Master.” 走了一阵,魏忠贤突然道:“主人。” Sun Lang should say: „Un?” 孙朗应道:“嗯？” „Later who dares saying that the master is not the good person, the old servant eldest child slap in the face pulls out him.” “以后谁敢说主人不是好人,老奴老大耳刮子抽死他。” „Damn, but also is not one's turn your old court eunuch to send the good person card to me.” “去你妈的,还轮不到你这老太监给我发好人卡。” „Master also said that the cynical remark...... that resembles to say news where the young master obtains?” “主人又说怪话……那似道少爷是从哪里得到的消息？” Sun Lang hears word, stopped the footsteps, his brow slightly wrinkle: „I somewhat do not act bashful certainly, matter is a little possibly troublesome, what because gives him the news is his father, Jia Xu.” 孙朗闻言,停下了脚步,他眉头微皱:“我有些拿捏不准,事情可能有点麻烦,因为给他消息的是他爹,贾诩。”