Since the founding of the nation, this country once was in very long time turbulence, from the politics to the livelihood of the people, from the thought to the culture, was affected entirely. 建国以来,这个国家曾经处在很长一段时间的动荡中,从政治到民生,从思想到文化,统统遭受波及。 The turbulence to the consequence that this society causes, is not the short pain, but is the labor pain. 动荡对这个社会所带来的后果,不是短痛,而是阵痛。 From fights for state power immediately, to dismounting to govern the world, crossed the river while feeling the stones, experienced very long very long years. 从马上打天下,到下马治天下,摸着石头过河,经历了很漫长很漫长的岁月。 Once happy „after idea” encountered the reality ambushed ruthlessly, the old thought is shattered, in the future cannot see the hope, the countless people's one type at the condition that got at a loss. 曾经美好的“理念”遭到现实狠狠狙击后,旧思想被破灭,未来看不到希望,无数人处在一种茫然度日的状态。 Thus multiplied many idle, lives on dishonorably person who gets by. 从而滋生了很多无所事事,苟活度日的人。 Has the hand to have the foot, is actually not willing to strike out on one's own, the under foot is stepping on the bright main road, actually likes the shortcut, does not know the sense of honor, does not know the principle of righteousness, some people were compelled, some people wallow in degeneration. 有手有脚,却不愿意自谋生路,脚下踩着煌煌大道,却喜欢走捷径,不知廉耻,不知大义,有些人是被生活所迫,有些人是自甘堕落。 This kind of person, is called the bludger. 这类人,被叫做混混。 From 70s to 80s, is rubbing the spring breeze of reform and opening, this kind of community gradually grows strong. 从七十年代到八十年代,蹭着改革开放的春风,这类群体逐渐发展壮大。 The economy of gradually returning to warmer weather, and suppression control effort was tired, gives nourished their soils, took the north as. 逐渐回暖的经济,以及打压管制力度疲乏,给了滋养他们的土壤,其中以北方为最。 The Pei Nanman father was born in 60s, enlivens in seven 80s, shoots dead in 90s ambitious and ruthless. 裴南曼的父亲就是出生在六十年代,活跃于七八十年代,枪毙于九十年代的枭雄。 Pei Nanman from the birth to the record since, the life in the town outside some north small town, has lived in the white wall black tile house, lives with elder sister, an old nanny. 裴南曼从出生到记事起,一直生活在北方某个小城外的镇子,住在白墙黑瓦的宅子里,和姐姐一起生活,还有一个年迈的保姆。 Third that year, her first time saw the father. 三岁那年,她第一次见到父亲。 Ten -year-old elder sister is holding her hand, waits for the father in the central scroll. 十岁的姐姐拉着她的手,在中堂等候父亲。 Father type of thing, at that time three -year-old Pei Nanman at heart, does not have any concept and frame of reference. 父亲这种东西,在当时三岁的裴南曼心里,没有任何概念和参照物。 When that man arrived here, holds up Pei Nanman high time, she frightens cries, the faces of two pairs of calf dead tread men. 所以当那个男人来到这里,高高举起裴南曼的时候,她吓的哭出来,两双小腿死蹬男人的脸。 „big bro, all right.” A trusted aide hands over the handkerchief. “大哥,没事吧。”一个心腹递上来手帕。 The man who was pedalled the nosebleed is not only not angry, instead hā hā laughs, „my unmarried young woman, the thief is powerful. hā hā hā.” 被蹬出鼻血的男人非但不生气,反而哈哈大笑,“我这闺女,贼有力。哈哈哈。” From that day, Pei Nanman started to be urged practicing martial arts, because the father thought that she was the good clothing material of practicing martial arts. 自那天起,裴南曼开始被督促着练武,因为父亲觉得她是练武的好料子。 The computer must work from the baby......, practicing martial arts to work from the baby. 计算机要从娃娃抓起......呸,练武要从娃娃抓起。 Also was after that day, Pei Nanman knows what the father was „thing”, elder sister said that was this man named father, with being called mother's woman, formed a partnership to live them. 也是那天之后,裴南曼知道父亲是什么样的“东西”,姐姐说是这个叫父亲的男人,和叫做母亲的女人,合伙把他们生下来的。 As for how fresh, Pei Nanman does not know, has not gone to think the issue in this aspect, otherwise her elder sister may say, holds hands to live. 至于怎么生的,裴南曼不知道,也没去想这方面的问题,否则她姐姐可能会说,牵个手生出来的。 After all elder sister is impossible to know that year she was only ten years old. 毕竟姐姐也不可能知道,那年她才十岁。 elder sister also told him, in the family/home two elder brother, died because of the revenged kill of faction nature originally, mother after giving birth to Pei Nanman, the massive hemorrhage died. 姐姐还告诉他,家里原本有两个哥哥,因为帮派性质的仇杀而夭折,母亲在生下裴南曼后,大出血死了。 „Manman, to the father several years of time, the father will take you to return to the provincial capital again.” The men touch her head, left. “曼曼,再给爸几年时间,爸会接你回省城。”男人摸了摸她的脑袋,离开了。 After that time, the man will see two women every other , the person of belt/bring are not covertly many, is the trusted aides, midnight, midnight walks. 此后,每隔一段时间,男人就会来看望两个女人,偷偷摸摸,带的人不多,都是心腹,半夜来,半夜走。 Will give the Pei Nanman belt/bring between-meal snack and toy each time. 每次都会给裴南曼带零食、玩具。 Pei Nanman also from starting the resistance, to the anticipation, several time wants to see the father every day. 裴南曼也从开始的抗拒,到期待,每天数着时间想见到爸爸。 Once, the father has not come, she waits till the daybreak in the central scroll from the midnight, rests in the elder sister's bosom. 有一次,父亲没有来,她在中堂从半夜等到黎明,睡在姐姐的怀里。 next day, a boy knocked the gate of big house, that boy called Cao Bing. 第二天,一个男孩敲开了大宅子的门,那个男孩叫曹兵。 „I, I am your father's disciple.” Cao Bing is carrying the gift of bags, stands in the inner courtyard entrance. “我,我是你父亲的门生。”曹兵拎着大包小包的礼物,站在内院门口。 The line of sight of boy follows in the little girl form that under the flowered tree runs, is out of sorts slightly. 男孩的视线跟着在花树下奔跑的小女孩身影,略微失神。 „I have to interrupt,” Qin Ze said: „Is Cao Bing lolicon? A point savors does not have, loli is lovable, but how to compare to result in onee-san, zé zé, non-verbal communication.” “我不得不插嘴,”秦泽说:“曹兵是萝莉控？一点品味都没有,萝莉是可爱,但怎么比得了御姐,啧啧,色授魂与。” Then, he was kicked a foot by Pei Nanman ruthlessly. 说完,他被裴南曼狠狠踢了一脚。 ...... ...... „Who you are.” Small Pei Nanman turns around, is forking the waist. “你是谁。”小小的裴南曼转身,叉着腰。 „I am your father's disciple, did not have the parents since childhood.” Cao Bing said: „Pei Master makes me come, because I am young, is not conspicuous.” “我是你爸的门生,从小就没了父母。”曹兵说:“裴爷让我过来,因为我年纪小,不显眼。” „My father?” “我爸呢？” „He is seriously injured, cannot come.” “他受了重伤,来不了。” The people flutter in Jianghu, where can not be stabbed. 人在江湖飘,哪能不挨刀。 This should be the routine matter, the Jianghu person thought that this is the routine matter, but their family members do not think like this. 这应该是常事,江湖人觉得这是常事,可他们的家人不这样认为。 That year, 12 elder sister, disliked. 那年,十二姐姐,对此反感极了。 „Before killed elder brother, later sooner or later must kill us.” After Cao Bing walks, elder sister in the room, said to Pei Nanman like this. “以前害死了哥哥,以后迟早要害死我们。”曹兵走后,姐姐在屋里,这样对裴南曼说。 „I practice the military, later protects the father.” The reply of Pei Nanman comes as a surprise to elder sister's. “那我就练好武,以后保护爸爸。”裴南曼的回答出乎姐姐的预料。 elder sister air/Qi according to hits butt on the bed her, told her, so long as the girl in the future will marry the wealthy family, helped support the family enough, the killed matter, cannot bump. 姐姐气的把她按在床上打屁股,告诉她,女孩子将来只要嫁给好人家,相夫教子就够了,打打杀杀的事情,不能碰。 Murmuring that Pei Nanman is not convinced, said that the she and town boy in fights, has not lost. 裴南曼不服气的囔囔,说她和镇子里的男孩打架,从来没输过。 Horse-riding Stance starting from three years old, two years passes, the father comes each time, will teach her half a loaf of Kung-fu, hits the same age boy, has more than enough to spare. 从三岁开始扎马步,两年过去,每次父亲来,都会教她一招半式,打同龄的男孩子,绰绰有余。 Sixth that year, Pei Nanman and elder sister were met to go to the provincial capital by the father, on that day, people in small town had not seen Santana comes, stops outside the small town. 六岁那年,裴南曼和姐姐被父亲接去省城,那天,一辆辆小镇子里的人从没见过的桑塔纳开来,停在小镇外。 In father's words, he unified all influences of provincial capital finally, becomes big ambitious and ruthless that dominates a province. 用父亲的话说,他终于统一了省城的所有势力,成为称霸一省的大枭雄。 Pei Nanman was being held by the father, surrounded by No. dozens flunky, six -year-old she is innocent, asks the father: „elder sister said that the work of father is very dangerous, why does the father also want to continue?” 裴南曼被父亲抱着,在几十号马仔的簇拥下,六岁的她天真烂漫,问父亲:“姐姐说爸爸的工作很危险,为什么爸爸还要继续？” The father is pointing at luxury car, „Manman, you looked, these things are older and younger brothers spell with the life. You do not want, others rush to want.” 父亲指着一辆辆豪车,“曼曼,你看,这些东西都是兄弟用命拼回来的。你不要,别人抢着要。” Pei Nanman grabs father's clothes: „Manman does not want.” 裴南曼抓着父亲的衣服:“曼曼不要。” „Did not have the escape route,” father said: „Others, not only will rob your thing, but must rob your life. Under the father hand has one group of uncle uncles to raise, their what/anything will not do, has not studied, will not write the name. Except for taking this road, their what/anything cannot.” “没有退路了,”父亲说:“别人不但会抢走你的东西,还要抢走你的命。爸爸手底下有一群叔叔伯伯要养,他们什么都不会做,没读过书,甚至连名字都不会写。除了走这条路,他们什么都不会。” „This impractical world, everyone is struggling, struggles the unwarranted reputation, struggles the empty advantage, the won person are so few, lost person so many, the father arrives at today, is not easy.” “这虚浮人世,人人都在争,争虚名,争虚利,赢的人那么少,输的人那么多,爸走到今天,不容易。” That time Pei Nanman has not understood this time. 那时候的裴南曼还不懂这个时代。 From then on, Pei Nanman on hey the life of thousand gold (daughter). The difference accompanies, country imported goods that 80s, many rich people have no way to contact, in her eyes is the daily thing. 打那以后,裴南曼就过上了嘿道千金的生活。出入都有随从,八十年代,很多富人都没法接触到的国外货,在她眼里已经是日常用品。 Pei Nanman as long as the 15 year, is the beautiful woman who the people praised. 裴南曼长到十五岁,已经是众人交口称赞的美人。 That year, had young people to visit the father, the father was very happy, held the evening banquet to entertain him. 那年,有个年轻人拜访父亲,父亲很高兴,举办晚宴招待他。 At the evening banquet, elder sister and that young people flirt with the eyes. 晚宴上,姐姐和那个年轻人眉来眼去。 Later, Pei Nanman often saw that elder sister hides in the boudoir writes a letter. 以后,裴南曼就时常见到姐姐躲在闺房里写信。 Had the day, Pei Nanman stole the elder sister's letter/believes, the full courtyard ran, elder sister pursued in behind. 有天,裴南曼偷了姐姐的信,满院子跑,姐姐在后面追。 „Although at this moment leaves your several thousand li (0.5 km), but in the heart actually is to your missing. I wish one could to change to an eagle immediately, flies side you not to stop. You are my eye, is my heart moon. Without you, do I have what happiness? The fragrance, misses you, exceeds all......” “此刻虽然离你数千里,但心中却全是对你的思念。我恨不得马上化作一只雄鹰,一刻不停地飞到你身旁。你是我的眼睛,是我心底的月亮。没有你,我又有何幸福可言？芳芳,挂念你,胜过一切......” Pei Nanman runs, the fire has the barbell laughter. 裴南曼边跑,边发出杠铃般的笑声。 „Elder sister, I do not promise you to marry Li Family, your brain is intelligent, later must inherit the Pei Family family property.” “姐,我可不答应你嫁去李家啊,你脑子聪明,以后要继承裴家的家业的。” „Killed matter, I am not dry.” “打打杀杀的事,我可不干。” „Cuts the matter of person I to do, you are responsible for offering advice, the father also said that moreover the uncle take you.” “砍人的事我来做,你负责出主意,爸也是这么说的,而且叔伯们都服你。” Comparing the Pei Nanman motion nerve is developed, elder sister wins were intelligent in the head, tested university. 相比起裴南曼运动神经发达,姐姐在脑瓜子聪明,考了大学。 That rube time everywhere, in the large character does not know in several factions, had/left university student, is female constellation governing scholars and literary people Monarch generally is simply dazzling. 那个泥腿子遍地的时代,在大字不识几个的帮派里,出了个大学生,简直就是女文曲星君一般耀眼。 Afterward, that Li Family young people came. 后来,那个李家的年轻人又来了。 He and Pei Master loudly quarrelled at home. 他和裴爷在家里大吵一架。 „My father's meaning, was makes you draw back directly, currently wash one's hands in a gold basin, you have the opportunity to move out. Late, he could not guarantee you.” “我爸的意思,是让你直接退了,现在金盆洗手,你还有机会全身而退。晚了,他也保不了你。” „Draws back? How to draw back? I drew back, means of livelihood? No. several hundred older and younger brothers what to do?” “退？怎么退？我退了,还有活路吗？几百号兄弟怎么办？” „This crackdown effort, compared with fearfulness that you imagine, is not slightly punishes the small abstention, do you want to eat the shelled peanut?” “这次打击力度,比你想象的更可怕,不是小惩小戒,你想吃花生米吗？” „That transforms, always has means of livelihood, that crowd of older and younger brothers with my so many years, I cannot say that falls back to draw back.” “那就转型啊,总有条活路的吧,那群兄弟跟了我这么多年,我不能说退就退。” „Black changes the ash, same is unclean, useless, this time you were paid attention to by the key point, so long as you do not draw back, the trouble will not break. My father must move immediately upward, at this time was impossible to give you any asylum, you know that has many eyes to stare.” “黑的变灰,一样不干净,没用的,这次你被重点关注,只要你不退,麻烦就不会断。我爸马上要往上挪一挪了,这时候不可能给你任何庇护,你知道有多少双眼睛盯着吗。” This talk, parts on bad terms. 这场谈话,不欢而散。 Shortly, on the north say/way sound dāng dāng Pei Master was grasped to eat the bullet, ambitious and ruthless of this north 20 remaining years of life, finished his life vertically and horizontally/able to move unhindered. 没多久,北方道上响当当的裴爷被抓去吃枪子,这个纵横北方二十余年的枭雄,结束了他的一生。 In the grass color the deep late spring, the Li Family young people came gradually, he is brings elder sister to walk, he must also carry off the Pei Nanman final hope. 在草色渐深的晚春,李家年轻人又来了,他是来带姐姐走的,他要把裴南曼最后的希望也带走。 On that day, Pei Nanman pursued the main house gate, drove to pursue several li (0.5 km), blocked two people. 那天,裴南曼追出家门,开车追了好几里,把两人拦下来。 „Elder sister, you cannot walk!” Pei Nanman blocks before the car(riage), the facial expression is stubborn. “姐,你不能走！”裴南曼拦在车前,神情倔强。 „Manman, making the elder sister walk, south I must go with him, stays here, is not life that I want.” elder sister walks from the car(riage). “曼曼,让姐走吧,我要跟他去南方,留在这里,并不是我想要的生活。”姐姐从车里走下来。 „Father is for half a month, outside person one by one is not law-abiding, is thinking starting own party, snatched our more than half industries, your light a few words, drop out, no matter?” “爸才是半个月,外面的人一个个不安分,想着自立门户,抢了我们过半的产业,你轻飘飘的一句话,就抛下不管？” „Father had walked, his thing, dissipates together, that is not the thing that we should undertake.” “爸已经走了,他的东西,就随之一起消散吧,那不是我们应该承担的东西。” Pei Nanman closely is entraining the elder sister's sleeves, has tears streaming down the face: „But I am unwilling, is unwilling.” 裴南曼紧紧拽着姐姐的衣袖,泪流满面:“可我不甘心,不甘心啊。” Finally elder sister walked. 最后姐姐还是走了。 ............ ............ Out of the window heavy rain gradually slow, lightly. 窗外大雨渐缓,淅淅沥沥。 Pei Nanman is carrying the teacup, immerses in the recollection. 裴南曼端着茶杯,沉浸在回忆当中。 From 80s to the present, dozens years of time, long as if passed the life, reviews again, the people are no longer the same. 从八十年代到现在,几十年的时间,漫长的仿佛度过了一生,再回眸,物是人非。 Qin Ze coughs, „those images and scenes, my sudden inspiration erupts, wants to sing.” 秦泽咳嗽一声,“此情此景,我突然灵感爆发,想唱首歌。” Pei Nanman was really attracted to pay attention. 裴南曼果然被吸引注意。 „Is published, this mountain is whether highest ..... roar. Having the high place is higher than...... roar the mountain.” “问世间,是否此山最高.....吼哈。或者,另有高处比山高......吼哈。” Pei Nanman: „........” 裴南曼:“........” Qin Ze hopes to say: „What kind of?” 秦泽希冀道:“怎么样？” „Un un, was of pleasant to hear.” “嗯嗯,好听极了。” „I write the song talent, the nation recognized.” “我写歌的才华,全国都公认了。” „Un un, is quite fierce.” “嗯嗯,好厉害。” What nonsense song, you comfort me, inserts a blade toward me? 什么狗屁歌,你这是安慰我,还是往我心里插一刀？ Must tell me, mountain mountain tall, my father dies isn't resentful? 是要告诉我,一山更有一山高,我爸死的不怨？ Ok, looks in a share of his good intention, does not haggle over. 算了,看在他一片好心的份上,不计较了。 …… …… …… …… …… ……