A night has not slept. 一夜未眠。 What is not out of the Li He anticipation is, pay Xia has chosen the second road, the place that but chooses made Li He accidental/surprised, unexpectedly was Singapore. 不出李和意料的是,付霞选择了第二条路,不过选择去的地方令李和意外,居然是新加坡。 The reason that she gives is very simple, the Singapore homogeneous Chinese are many, look familiar, if goes to Europe and America, the tall and sturdy foreigner she looks to feel timid. 她给出的原因很简单,新加坡同种的华人多,看着熟悉,要是去欧美,人高马大的洋鬼子她看着犯怵。 He made Dong Hao accompany her to handle the visa, then he drove to return to Xianghe to process the company matters concerned her personally, this compensation must compensate, this drawing back must draw back, all deferred to the custom. 他让董浩陪着她去办理了签证,然后他亲自开车把她送回香河处理公司事宜,该赔的要赔偿,该退的要退,一切按照规矩来。 Two days, two people both had not said from beginning to end several words, a person is angry at heart, another person has resentful at heart. 两天来,从始至终两个人都没有说上几句话,一个人是心里有气,另一个人是心里有怨。 Looks that moe toot toot is eating pay Yao of cake, the heart of Li He was instantaneously soft. 看着萌嘟嘟的吃着蛋糕的付尧,李和的心瞬间就软了。 He is hugging pay Yao, touches the head, the supple sound said, „and other fathers had the time to visit you, is good? The study, is well upward daily, is a useful person diligently.” 他抱着付尧,摸摸脑袋,柔声道,“等爸爸有时间就会去看你,好不好？好好学习,天天向上,努力做一个有用的人。” „Sorry.” pay Xia looks at this, finally is willing the low head, her enterprise not to have at present, the status did not have, rapidness that comes, the rapidness that goes, she does not want to lose Li He again. “对不起。”付霞看着这一幕,终于肯低下脑袋,眼前她的事业没了,地位没了,来的快,去的快,她不想再失去李和。 Li He closes one's eyes, the thin sound said, „later works thinks much, you were the 30-year-old person, cannot again by the temper. Even if thinks of the child, must set an example.” 李和闭着眼睛,细声道,“以后做事多动脑子,你是30多岁的人了,不能再由着自己性子来。哪怕是为孩子着想,也要做个榜样。” Still again had not looked at her one eyes. 仍然没有再看她一眼。 „I walk the industry that the matter of that company” has established laboriously, pay Xia did not feel relieved, „I want to recommend Feng Lei, this child is really good, the previous time matter is I compels his, he does not have the means that do you or give him an opportunity?” “我走了那公司的事情”辛辛苦苦建立的产业,付霞还是不放心,“我想推荐冯磊,这孩子真不错,上次的事情是我逼他的,他也是没办法,你要不给他个机会？” Li He sneers saying that „you can compel him, other people can also compel him, this is not the excuse of making mistakes.” 李和冷笑道,“你能逼他,其他人也能逼他,这不是犯错的借口。” He taking the opportunity will not give anybody again the opportunity. 他不会再借机给任何人机会。 „The senior staff in factory are yes right, but they who my raises to pull out work are very earnest, the professional ability is very strong, I do not think that they were implicated me to think because of my matter” pay Xiatui asked next, wants to make anything. “厂子里的老员工都是我一手提拔出来的是没错,可是他们工作都很认真,业务能力很强,我不想他们因为我的事情而受牵连我想”付霞退而求其次,想多做点什么。 Although she did not acknowledge oneself have made a mistake, but the present result was came out, she was this, she does not want to make others bad luck again. 她虽然不承认自己错了,可是眼前的结果是已经出来了,她自己是这样了,她不想再让别人跟着倒霉。 Didn't the Li He impatient say/way, „ need me to say 100? That is issue that I need to consider, does not need your Chairman pay to worry, your current primary mission is to take care of the child. 李和不耐烦的道,“不需要我说100遍吧？那是我需要考虑的问题,不需要你付董事长操心,你当前的主要任务是照顾孩子。 Also, since you must go to Singapore, Singapore has my many friends, you do not need to arrest and child, has the matter to make my phone call. ” 还有,既然你要去新加坡,新加坡有我不少朋友,你也不用拘着自己和孩子,有事情就打我电话。” „Thanks.” She can feel the concern of Li He, at heart one warm. “谢谢。”她还是能感受到李和的关怀,心里不禁一暖。 „Yeah, I also said sound to sorry, the previous time should not begin, I apologized to you.” Li He does not endure to scold her again. “哎,我也说声对不起,上次不该动手,我向你道歉。”李和也不忍再数落她。 „All right, you are the man, the man must have the appearance of man.” pay Xiaxiao, „I instead thought that this very has the manly flavor.” “没事,你是男人,男人就得有男人的样子。”付霞笑了,“我反而觉得这样挺有男人味。” „Little pulls the calf.” Li He could not bear smile, „after me, has the opportunity to go to Singapore to see your mother and child, well looked after itself, money, I have collected the account of Singapore star Exhibition Bank to you, after arriving at the airport, aids your person the card to you, the password was pay Yao's birthday number.” “少扯犊子。”李和忍不住笑了,“我以后有机会去新加坡会去看你们娘俩,都好好照顾自己,钱呢,我已经给你汇进新加坡星展银行的户头,到机场以后,接应你的人会把卡给你,密码是付尧的生日号码。” „Presses you still to remember.” pay Xia gratified. “难为你还记得。”付霞一阵欣慰。 „My son's I can unable to remember.” Li He rubs pay Yao's small head not to hate to put down, „little Yao, you said that clever son.” “我儿子的我能记不住嘛。”李和揉着付尧的小脑瓜子就是舍不得放下,“小尧,你说是不是啊,乖儿子。” Each child's birthday, he remembers clearly, this is stems from one to make father's instinct. 他每一个孩子的生日,他都记得清清楚楚,这是出自一个做父亲的本能。 „Elder Brother.” “哥。” „Un?” Li He curious raising the head. “嗯？”李和好奇的抬起头。 Pays the rosy cloud pursing the lips lip saying that „I want to put forward a request.” 付霞抿着嘴唇道,“我想提一个要求。” Li He hesitant, said, „said that so long as I can achieve.” 李和犹豫了一下,还是道,“说吧,只要我能做到。” „Can I come back to have a look frequently?” pay Xia asked cautiously. “我能不能经常回来看看？”付霞问的小心翼翼。 „Naturally energy, is not the exile, I let the goal that you exit, wants to change an environment to you, the open state of mind, does not make you continue to get down like this obstinately, like this has the advantage to the child grow, you want to come back, I can also block you to be inadequate, your parental brothers, come back to have a look normally.” Li He laughs in spite of trying not. “当然能,又不是流放,我让你出去的目的,是想给你换个环境,开阔一下心境,不是让你这样继续执拗下去,这样对孩子成长有好处,你想回来,我还能拦着你不成,你父母兄弟都在,回来看看正常。”李和失笑。 pay Xia got visa, after she embarked, a person has not informed, had not said including Li He, a walking tractor the suitcase, a hand was pulling pay Yao, walking that the tears danced. 付霞签证下来了,她出发之后,一个人都没有通知,连李和都没有说,一只手拖着行李箱,一只手牵着付尧,眼泪婆娑的走了。 She likes here, she deeply loves here, here has the human affairs that she is loath to part from each other. 她喜欢这里,她热爱这里,这里有她难舍难分的人事。 Really what did she make the mistake? 她真的做错什么了吗？ She for the child, for child's all, this incessantly is her son, is his son. 她为了孩子,为了孩子的一切,这不止是她的儿子,也是他的儿子。 Sits on the seat of airplane, she always cannot think through, cannot think through that not to think that but she cannot stop to cry, she already diligently was controlling own sobbing sound, has gotten down, turned the window the head that the tears could not stop, did not make others see. 坐在飞机的座位上,她始终想不通,想不通那就不想了,可是她还是止不住想哭,她已经努力的在控制自己的呜咽声,泪水还是止不住的下来了,把脑袋扭到窗口,不让别人看见。 pay Yao wipes the tears to her, she one grasps him, muttered, „good son, the good son, was mother is unfair to you.” 付尧给她擦泪水,她一把的抱住他,喃喃道,“好儿子,好儿子,是妈妈对不起你。” Li He looks up the blue day, can probably see mother and child's airplane to result in. 李和抬起头望着蓝蓝的天,好像真能看见娘俩的飞机似得。 „Walked well, walked well.” “走了好,走了好。” He cannot think that pay Xia will walk without making a sound, greeting has not hit, perhaps her at heart also has the resentment. 他想不到付霞会一声不响的走,连个招呼都没有打,也许她的心里还有怨气吧。 Dong Hao dao, „house key she has given often/common static.” 董浩道,“房子钥匙她给了常静。” „Good, keeps a house, later wants to come back , is also a nest, is misses.” Li He lights a cigarette, long stretch/leisurely one breath. “挺好,留个宅子,以后真想回来了,也是个窝,也是个挂念。”李和点起一根烟,长舒一口气。 Dong Hao dao, „the morning court just judged, Li Shu bai acknowledged guilt, five years. little Gu is one year.” 董浩道,“上午法院刚刚宣判完毕,李舒白认罪了,五年。小顾是一年。” „Big Kui? Sends for looking, do not speak at a venture, cannot be too comfortable in, otherwise he thinks that cares for the aged in inside.” Li He remembers him is the tooth is itchy. “大奎呢？派人看着,不要乱说话,也不能在里面太舒服,不然他以为是在里面养老呢。”李和想起他还是牙痒痒。 „Is your meaning?” Dong Hao pa getting an idea mistake. “你的意思是？”董浩怕意会错误。 „You think that I do want to kill him?” Li He shakes the head, „, is not keeping him, making him experience all living things to be also good, said again is not one's turn us to begin, he after all was on the age, had the catching cold cold, treated and cured promptly, perhaps did not pass away. Can support for five years, is uncertain.” “你以为我想杀了他？”李和摇头,“不,留着他,让他体验一下众生也好,再说也根本轮不到咱们动手,他毕竟是上年龄了,有个伤风感冒,救治不及时,也许就是一命呜呼。能不能撑住五年,还不一定呢。” Dong Hao continues to ask, „that Li Family sound what to do? The river healthcare made the call to ask.” 董浩继续问,“那李家声怎么办？江保健已经来电话问了。” Li He says with a smile, „his father suffers hardship in inside, he is the son can come out to enjoy happiness? Moreover does my money of using enjoy happiness? Does not have the gate matter. Since the father and son share joys, has difficultly naturally to with working as.” 李和笑着道,“他老子在里面受罪,他做儿子的怎么可以出来享福？而且还是用的我的钱享福？没门的事情。父子俩既然有福同享,有难当然要同当。” Dong Hao dao, „I understands.” 董浩道,“我明白。” Li He said, „that manages.” 李和道,“那就去办吧。” Felt that all calm after the storm, is good. 感觉一切都雨过天晴,再好不过。 Dong Hao just the revolutions turned head, discovery behind is standing young people of tall person, he has turned head to say to Li He, „Feng Leilai.” 董浩刚转回头,就发现身后站着一个高个子的年轻人,他又回过头对李和道,“冯磊来了。” „You go busily.” Li He beckons with the hand to Dong Hao, then racket the bench in park, to Feng Leidao, „is gawking doing, does, your this beard stretches out, but also was fastidious hygienic?” “你去忙吧。”李和冲董浩摆摆手,然后拍拍公园里的长椅,对冯磊道,“愣着干嘛,来做,你这胡子拉碴的,还讲究不讲究卫生了？” Feng Lei stands nearby Li He simple-hearted, anxious results in small girl is twisting the finger, good half saying that „sorry, Li elder brother, I disappointed you.” 冯磊木讷的站在李和跟前,紧张的跟个小姑娘似得绞着手指,好半会才道,“对不起,李哥,我辜负你了。” „Does anything disappoint, said that these are too false, you can be said as I look to grow up, I understand your this temper.” Li He thinks little, Feng Lei essence, will not be only in the morals and loyal, he has chosen loyally. “什么辜负不辜负的,说这些太假,你可以说是我看着长大的,我了解你这性子。”李和并不以为意,冯磊的本质不会,只是在道德与忠诚之间,他选择了忠诚。 pay Xia has to promote the graciousness of recognition to him, he chooses to be loyal to pay Xia. 付霞对他有提拔赏识之恩,他选择忠于付霞。 „You hit me to scold me.” The appearance that Feng Lei must cry, „like this I will feel better.” “你打我骂我都可以。”冯磊一副要哭的样子,“这样子我心里会好受点。” Li He said, „so should not be wordy, otherwise annoys me to be tired of. You know that I, if blames you, you will not stand here, you handle jointly with Old Man Li same are an inmate, can keep company in together, is?” 李和道,“别这么啰嗦,不然真惹我烦。你知道的,我要是真怪你,你就不会站在这里,你会同李老头一样是狱友,在里面还能一块做个伴,是不是？” „Yes.” Feng Lei head was lower. “是。”冯磊的脑袋更低了。 The Li He helpless say/way, „your like this, directly leaves again.” 李和无奈的道,“你再这样子,就直接走人。” „Elder Brother, do not catch up with me to walk to be good, I knew really mistakenly, I repented certainly.” Feng Leidai the weeping voice, Li He was staring one, he almost works as the front of park these many people to kneel down, „you give me again an opportunity, I will certainly try hard to repay your.” “哥,你不要赶我走好不好,我真的知道错了,我一定悔改。”冯磊带着哭腔,要不是李和瞪了一眼,他差点当着公园这么多人的面前跪下,“你再给我一次机会吧,我一定会努力报答你的。” Li He shakes the head, „ Feng Lei, I remembers you come my this time, you are half big kid, that will like very you, you is a good child, do not improperly belittle oneself. 李和摇头,“冯磊,我记得你来我这的时候,你还是个半大孩子,那会挺喜欢你,真的,你是个不错的孩子,千万不要妄自菲薄。 Company, there is a custom of company, if I continue to keep you, others do think? 公司呢,也有公司的规矩,我要是继续留你,别人会怎么想？ Does not have the custom, didn't have law of the land? 是不是就没规矩,没王法了？ After is , can everybody study you? 是不是以后大家都可以学你了? You also understand actually, I make you come back, can you be what kind of? 你心里其实也明白,我让你回来,你又能怎么样？ You the rebel in everybody eyes, locates with whom now will be unhappy, perhaps is also a scapegoat, you can do happy? 你现在还是大家眼中的叛徒,跟谁处都不会开心,说不定还受气,你能做的开心吗？ Therefore, no matter from your angle, is my here, you had no way to work together as colleagues with me again. 所以,不管是从你的角度,还是我这边来说,你都没法再和我共事了。 You is a smart person, in these year of hands little has not made money, is promising. Your individual farming, will not compare in my difference, I favor you. ” 你是聪明人,这些年手里也没有少挣钱,是个有前途的。你自己单干吧,不会比在我这里差,我看好你。” „Thanks.” Feng Lei is not that type does not know profoundly, Li He did this has maintained him very much, otherwise he definitely is treating in the police station now, his old lady will certainly cry blindly, wife son also meeting nobody took care. “谢谢。”冯磊并不是那种不晓得天高地厚的,李和这样做已经是很维护他了,要不然他现在肯定是在局子里待着,他老娘一定会哭瞎眼,老婆儿子也会无人照应。 He can feel explicitly, the Li He polite surface is a heart of feel alienated, these he understands. Could not go back, before has no way to return again, this matter has cast the shadow in both sides. 他能明确感受到,李和客气的表面是一颗疏离的心,这些他都懂。回不去了,再也没法回到以前了,这件事已经在双方心里留下了阴影。 If before is, that friendship, he must the coming out individual farming, Li He definitely be able to say with him, later has any difficulty, although said, lends a hand as far as possible, but now, a warm heart does not have, all was the polite speech. 如果是以前那种交情,他要出来单干,李和肯定会和他说,以后有什么困难尽管说,尽量帮衬,但是现在,一句暖心的话都没有,全是场面话了。 „Was good, later does well own is, you are so familiar with the leather profession, certainly can over, leave a butcher also to eat the belt/bring live hog? I favor you.” Li He smiles, the manner is very firm, Feng Lei he will not use again. “行了,以后好好干自己的就是,你对皮革行业这么熟悉,一定能出头,离了张屠户还能吃带毛猪？我看好你。”李和笑笑,态度很坚决,冯磊他是不会再用了。 „Elder Brother, sorry.” Feng Lei toward Li He deep bowing, is then wiping tears, three steps turn head, placing hopes in Li He can shout again him. “哥,对不起。”冯磊朝着李和深深的鞠了一躬,然后抹着眼泪,三步一回头,寄希望于李和能再把他喊回去。 But this is doomed, if disappointed, Li He with a smile to/clashes him to wave goodbye. 可是这注定要是失望,李和只是笑着冲他挥手告别。 Is often static has been kept in the dark, son went home to say suddenly wants the individual farming, has not done Li He here, gave to have a scare her. 常静一直被蒙在鼓里,儿子突然回家说要单干,不在李和这里做了,把她给吓了一跳。 „Your rosy cloud aunt walked walked, others had made money, naturally was capable of exiting natural, which do you then with, want to throw up one's job? This is not good, goes back, your individual farming is how good, you are not this brick.” “你霞姨走了就是走了,人家挣到钱了,当然有能力出去潇洒,你这才哪跟哪,就要撂挑子？这可不行,回去,你自己单干怎么行,你不是这块料。” „Mother, I have not thrown up one's job, is Li elder brother supports my coming out individual farming, he said that I have grown up, must coming out experience wind and rain, you say, I cannot depend upon others for a lifetime, this is embarrassed.” Feng Lei smiles very much reluctantly, material that „I do business, I am clear. You look.” “妈,我没撂挑子,是李哥支持我出来单干的,他说我长大了,总要出来见识一番风雨,你说,我总不能一辈子依靠别人吧,这多不好意思。”冯磊笑得很勉强,“我是不是做生意的料,我自己清楚。你瞧好吧。” „Yes, cannot rely on others.” often/common static sighed, no longer managed. “是啊,总不能依赖人家。”常静叹口气,不再管。 She did not feel relieved, directly went to Li Family. 她还是不放心,径直的去了李家。 Early winter Sun, warm, Li He sits in the entrance, straightens up Li Lan to grasp the back to him. 初冬的太阳,暖洋洋的,李和坐在门口,拾掇李览给他抓背。 Li Lanchou the black salt in oneself nail, whole face is not glad, but has to submit to his father's despotic power. 李览瞅瞅自己指甲里的黑灰,满脸的不乐意,但是又不得不屈从于他老子的淫威。 Is often static to say with a smile, „slightly looked at is really sensible, this season fleeing stature was very quick, has not paid attention.” 常静过来笑着道,“小览真是懂事了,这一季窜个子挺快,都没有注意。” „Yes.” Li He puts the clothes, to Li Landao, „is having a look at the younger sister to do, do not damage.” “是啊。”李和把衣服放下来,对着李览道,“去看看妹妹在干嘛,别又祸害。” Looks form that the son runs, he feels is very gratified, this baby grew, as skipping a grade to live is in the class is shortest, but in this year fierce one long, is not shortest that after all has small girl to set the base, the growth of boy wants the breakfast compared with small girl. 看着儿子奔跑的身影,他感觉很欣慰,这娃娃是长高了,本来作为跳级生是班里最矮的,但是这一年猛一长个,已经不是最矮的那个了,毕竟有小姑娘们垫底呢,男孩子的发育是比小姑娘们要早点。 „Er He, what matter Feng was Lei makes the mistake?” often/common static asked was very embarrassed. “二和,冯磊是不是做错什么事了？”常静问的很不好意思。 Li He says with a smile, „does not have, this child is good, you do not use oversensitively. My meaning was pay Xia walked, he stayed there to be also lonely, the father-in-law and wife's younger brother anything, he could not count on, might as well came back.” 李和笑着道,“没有,这孩子挺好,你不用多心。我的意思是付霞走了,他一个人留在那里也孤单,老丈人、小舅子什么的,他也指望不上,还不如回来。” „Yeah, I such asked.” often/common Jingdao, „, even if your here, later did not have any fault, you must direct, should scold scolds, does not use politely.” “哎,我就是这么一问。”常静道,“哪怕不在你这里了,以后有什么错处,你还得指点着,该骂就骂,一点都不用客气。” „Certain.” Li He has dealt with one, „you feel relieved.” “一定。”李和应付了一句,“你放心吧。” often/common Jingdao, „I have a look, heard that your family old woman came back.” 常静道,“我去看看,听说你家老太太回来了。” The old woman is holding Li Yi at this moment, under Dahuaishu and a neighbor sputtering. 老太太此刻正抱着李怡,在大槐树底下和一众邻居口沫横飞。 Ms. what greater part night work a dream, said that her man held the dream to say to her in family/home room water leakage, suddenly thoughts numerous, an evening has not had a good sleep to think, next day wanted flustered returning to one's old home. 何老太太半夜做了一个梦,说她男人托梦给她说家里屋子漏水了,一时间心思重重,一晚上都没睡好觉,第二天就要急吼吼的回老家。 What fragrant sister and brother said her to blindly believe, but cannot twist the old woman, finally does not have the means that what Longpei she was returning to a native place, finally is snowing before Northeast came back. 何芳姐弟俩都说她迷信,但是还是拧不过老太太,最后没办法,何龙陪着她回了一趟老家,终于在东北落雪之前回来了。 „ You do not know, he to I hold the dream the time, I also in that blurry, the house in our city is the building, some above also families, how possible water leakage? “你们不知道啊,他给我托梦的时候,我还在那迷糊呢,咱们城里的房子是筒子楼,上面还有人家呢,怎么可能漏水？ Must say that is the countryside house, our township Xialaowu already not, only then works with a shack, can that calculate the room? 要说是乡下房子吧,咱们乡下老屋早就不在的,只有干活用的一个窝棚,那能算屋子吗？ However I must go back, otherwise is not steadfast. 不过我还得回去,不然不踏实。 Goes home to look, the building except for dust, a water drop does not have. 回家一看,筒子楼除了灰尘,一滴水都没。 I am still thinking that old man can't talk nonsense? 我还在想呢,老头子不能瞎说吧？ My son also laughs at me, said that I blindly believed. 我儿子还笑话我呢,就说我迷信。 My family relative reminded me saying that you went to your family grave to look. ” Old woman said that has not forgotten while to Li Yi to peel Tang, „ this may be right on the reminder, I one look, yeah! My family grave by others rice place, this family is mean-spirited, to moisten a place, truncated the field with the shovel to my family old man grave mound, the water filled, you looked that my this was quite noisy with others! Exasperating! 我家一个亲戚提醒我说,你去你家坟地看了嘛。”老太太一边说还不忘一边给李怡剥糖,“这可就提醒对了,我一去看,可不是嘛！我家坟地是挨着人家稻地的,这家子小气吧啦的,为了多沾点地,用铁锹把田都削到我家老头子坟头了,水灌进去了,你们看吧,我这就跟人家好吵！气死人！ How he occupies to me, how to return to me! ” 他怎么给我占过来的,就怎么给我回过去！”