In his memory, all are happy, always reminds him of him in the foreign language school classroom out of the window elegant scenery, raises in the winter that the myriad things die out against the wind, because actually sky similar or different, finally has taken the respective path. 在他的记忆中,一切都是甜蜜的,总是让他想起他在外国语学院教室窗外郁郁的风景,在万物寂灭的冬季里呼啦啦迎风拔高,却因为天空相似或者相异,最终走上了各自的道路。 …… …… Has that some people, his youth by the base and low and impoverished captivity, the brutal social reality vulture rubs the will of the people, forces all kinds of choices, finally will lose in the gloomy steel deep forest. 有那么一些人,他的青春被卑微与贫困囚禁,残酷的社会现实雕磨人心,逼迫出各式各样的抉择,最终将自己迷失在了灰暗的钢铁深林之中。 He will remember forever, once stood on tiptoes the tip of the toe to look up to the happy time. Even her a few words are not willing to let off. 他将永远记住,曾经踮起脚尖仰望幸福的时光。甚至连她的一句话都不肯放过。 So long as has met, no matter at that time were rash also good, clumsy also good, that person has existed in the memory. All stories run and revolve, such as the weeds grow continually. Was who has said that the youth, was together the beautiful sadness. 只要遇见过,不管当时是莽撞也好,笨拙也好,那个人就一直存在于记忆里。所有的故事奔跑、旋转,如野草般生生不息。是谁说过,青春,是一道明媚的忧伤。 But that period of purest time, whom have you remembered? 而那一段最纯真的时光,你记住了谁？ „Li Er He, you are I depend upon for a lifetime.” “李二和,你是我一辈子的依靠。” „Asked you do not leave me!” “求你不要离开我！” „Li Er He, your temperament is really inexpensive!” “李二和,你的脾气真贱！” „Li Laoer, you are very annoying!” “李老二,你忒烦人！” „Two children, your heart, I am clear.” “二孩,你的心,我清楚着。” „ Except for you, in this world did not care about my person again. „ “除了你,这世上再没有在乎我的人了。“ All, come clearly into view. 一切的一切,历历在目。 He remembers that he and her last few words, „is not the weakness. The weakness is sufficiently tedious, may also be able to make the person pity. You is a strong person, I do not pity you, Li Er He, crosses well.” 他还是记得他和她的最后一句话,“不是弱点。弱点足以使人生厌,可也能使人怜悯。你是个坚强的人,我不怜悯你,李二和,好好过。” He does not need to look at the entirety of her face, but looks at her eye only, the nose, or the mouth, he can guess correctly that she wants to say anything. 他不用看她脸的全部,而单看她的眼,鼻子,或是嘴,他就能猜到她想说什么。 His cruel-hearted say/way, „I had son daughter one one.” 他狠心道,“我已经有一儿一女。” Mentioned on no account he and she once also had son daughter one one. 决然不提他和她曾经也有一儿一女。 He had no way to control itself at this moment, he must punish her, even if the water in this moment eye socket could not hold, but he still needed a dignified face. 他此刻没法管束自己了,他要惩罚她,哪怕此刻眼眶里的水已经憋不住了,但是他依然需要一张体面的脸。 His mouth was mumbling, „I walked, you happily good.” 他嘴里嘟囔着,“我走了,你开心就好。” Was pursued by the dog like the beggar bites, impatient must escape. 像极了叫花子被狗追咬,迫不及待的要逃跑。 „You look, Er He, your like this, such temper, your true has not cared about me!” She shouted was a little loud. “你看吧,二和,你还是这样子,这样的性子,你真正的从来没有在乎过我！”她喊的有点大声。 The Li He back passes away, „you do not understand me.” 李和背过身,“你不了解我。” „I congratulate you, you are very happy.” She was clenches teeth saying that „, but you should not look for me again, why can you also look for me? Do not play the child temper again.” “那我恭喜你,你很幸福。”她是咬着牙说的,“可是你不该再来找我,你为什么还要来找我？不要再耍小孩子性子了。” Li He said with a smile miserably, „.” 李和惨笑道,“是的。” The misunderstanding misunderstood, he did not care. 误会就是误会好了,他不在乎。 „Sorry, I only hope you well.” This is the truth that Li He is from the heart, so long as she, is not glad without him well. “对不起,我只希望你好好的。”这是李和发自内心的真话,只要她好好的,没有他不乐意的。 He does not hope that she compromises for the general interest under the male power principle. 他不希望她在男权主义下委曲求全。 Always says now the social equality of the sexes, actually after the bride's side betrays, will have at this matter never to be equal. 总说现在社会男女平等,其实在女方背叛之后,发生了这种事上永远不会平等。 The physiological structure of man woman was different, under the habitat promoted the different education cultures, said simply, has various missions respectively, displayed well is a complete person, if has not displayed, the sex special characteristics will bring destructive marking to you. 男人女人的生理结构本就不同,生长环境下更是促进了不同的教育文化,简单说,各有各的使命,发挥得好了算是个完整的人,如果没有发挥好,性别特质会给你带来毁灭性的标识。 He very admires the westerner in this aspect actually, in the both sides sentiment, little has because of the example of loving becoming hates, but places hopes in well respective. The feeling inferior heart has multiple, hates in a big way. 他倒是在这一方面挺佩服西方人的,在双方感情上,很少有因爱成恨的例子,只是寄希望于各自安好。自卑心有多重,恨就有多大。 Because loves becomes hates the retaliation opposite party, that does not love the opposite party, but is a oneself selfish desire, but own payout has not obtained the corresponding repayment not to see that hopes the opposite party leaves itself to cross happily, from the beginning is falls in love in many together, cannot in be we are unable to forecast that together, why the fate completely has not been willing to let loose each other, the sentimental pain of actually refusing to compromise most is also annoying. 因爱成恨报复对方,那根本不是真爱对方,而是一己私欲,只是自己的付出没有得到相应的回报也不想看到希望对方离开自己过得幸福,一开始在一起多少是相爱的,没有能够一直在一起也是我们无法预测的,为什么缘分尽了还不肯放开彼此,其实僵持的感情最痛苦也最磨人。 Always said the time to be precious, actually the time of woman is more precious, in the 20 to 30 years old woman life the best time, these are the youth how much money cannot receive in exchange, treasures her to accompany in his time, in the future they will be uncertain, immediately are the best time. 总说时间宝贵,其实女人的时间更为宝贵,20岁到30岁女人一生中最好的时光,这些是多少钱也换不回的青春,珍惜她陪在他身边的时间,未来他们不可预测,当下才是最好的时光。 If said the hate, always from the beginning has the deceit the ingredient, but will hate only to make him unable to put down, will become narrower. He does not want to hate, does not want to recall, only hopes person who that once was good to him crosses happily, will ascend the sky to he not good person will have it to arrange, will not be worth him holding to read with the envious hatred. 若说怨恨,总是一开始存在欺骗的成分,但是恨只会让他自己更放不下,变得更狭隘。他不想恨,也不想回忆,只希望那个曾经对他好的人过得幸福,对他不好的人上天自会有它安排,根本不值得他去执念和嫉恨。 „I am very good, thank you for your concern.” From beginning to end, she smiles. “我很好,谢谢你的关心。”从始至终,她都是笑着的。 „Un.” He suddenly does not want to say that he does not want to tell his story, does not want to show off anything, he only wants to like her well, hopes her to be happy purely, although stands by her finally that person is not he... “嗯。”他突然就不想说下去了,他不想讲他的故事,不想炫耀什么,他只想好好的喜欢她,单纯的希望她幸福,虽然最后站在她旁边的那个人不是他… Hope her well. 愿她一直安好。 He to her previous life has a deficit, he did not make up. 他对她上辈子的亏欠,他弥补不了。 „You forever are like this.” She was angry, „one is not satisfactory, is this small temper, I cannot forever such favor you, you must learn to grow up slowly.” “你永远都是这样子。”她生气了,“一不满意,就是这种小性子,我不能永远这么宠着你,你要慢慢学会长大。” The words fall, the eye tears also came out. 话落下来,眼泪水也出来了。 „Sorry.” Li He does not endure to visit her. Is cruel-hearted said, „I walk, look after myself good.” “对不起。”李和不忍看她。狠下心道,“我走,照顾好自己。” He is three children's fathers. 他已经是仨个孩子的爸爸。 He does not want to turn back the life again the old wheel track. 他不想再走回人生的旧辙。 „You had your family.” She said that „you happily good.” “你已经有自己的家庭。”她道,“你开心就好。” „You?” He could not hold in finally asks. Others world are lively mixing, why can his world turn hardly bumps hardly? But he is the average person, the average person can only be soft, not having the real strength to support his heart to be hard, finding the way to place him. “你呢？”他终于还是憋不住问了。人家的世界都是热热闹闹的混,他的世界为啥非硬拐硬碰不可呢?可是他是普通人,普通人只能软,没有真力量支撑他心硬,想办法安置他自己。 She says with a smile, „looks.” 她笑着道,“看着吧。” „Was the time looks to take care of your person.” Spoke these words, his did not return walks. “是时候找个照顾你的人了。”说完这句话,他头也不回地走了。 He feared that she sees her to cry. 他怕她看见她哭。 Just left several steps, Ding Shiping vehicle came. Said that goes back first, but does not dare to walk after all had learning from another's mistakes. 刚出几步,丁世平的车子已经过来。说是先回去,可是还是不敢走的毕竟已经有了前车之鉴。 Ding Shiping gets out to give him to open vehicle door, looks Li He that has tears streaming down the face, saw a that girl. 丁世平下车给他拉开车门,看着泪流满面的李和,又看了一眼那个女孩子。 After Li He boards, has turned head, sees she more and more far form, finally wails. Died also died, the province ate actually real. 李和上车后,回过头,看着她越来越远的身影,终于嚎啕大哭。死了也就死了,省吃倒是真的。 He and her world linked a friendship not to have, he already did not know himself, he cannot maintain one to have the order family, only then walked blindly proceeds along no particular course is more comfortable. 他和她的世界连一点友谊都没了,他既不认识自己,他不能维持一个有次序的家庭,只有瞎走乱撞还舒服一些。 Ding Shiping a few words had not said that but pounds the back to him. 丁世平一句话也没说,只是一个劲的给他捶背。 Li He is sobbing the say/way, „will trouble you to help me deliver a check tomorrow to her.” 李和呜咽着道,“麻烦你明天帮我送一张支票给她。” „Knew.” Ding Shiping is not willing to disobey the Li He thoughts. He has guessed probably also correctly anything, he has not seen Li He like this. “晓得了。”丁世平一点也不愿意违着李和的心思。他大概也猜到了什么,他从来没见过李和这样子。 But cries also to turn over to cry, after going home, Li He drank, he always cannot fall asleep, just lay down, the brain must emit a shadow. 可是哭完也归哭完,回到家之后,李和又喝开了,他总是睡不着,刚躺下,脑子就要冒出一个影子。 That shadow is always harassing him, it would be better if enduring. 那个影子总是骚扰着他,莫如忍着吧。 He freely is a richest family, what ostentation but there is? 他尽管是首富,可是有什么排场呢？ He knows where his ostentations come: On the television, in the network, the people of these media said that crosses several words with the winner, the media start formally blows several, appears oneself has the manner. 他知道他那些排场是打哪儿来的:电视上,网络上,那些媒体人的人说的,和大赢家过上几句话,媒体就开始正儿八经的吹几句,显得自己有派头。 He ponders over such a matter, in the world cannot have the wealth poorly. 他就琢磨这么回事,世界上不应当有穷有富。 But if the poor person is climbing the rich person, crawls toward the high place, is also worse than anything. 可是穷人要是攀着富人,往高处爬,比什么也坏。 Li He drank has spat, spits has drunk. 李和喝了又吐,吐了又喝。 Ding Shiping cooked one bowl of gruel to him, said following his back, „sleeps.” 丁世平给他熬了一碗粥,顺着他的背道,“睡觉吧。” „ Makes us knock the hope bell “让我们敲希望的钟呀 Many prays in heart 多少祈祷在心中 Let everybody unable to see the failure 让大家看不到失败 Called successfully forever in 叫成功永远在 Let Earth forget the rotation 让地球忘记了转动呀 The four seasons have been short of the summer and fall winter 四季少了夏秋冬 Let the universe unable to turn off the skylight 让宇宙关不了天窗 Called Sun west not to flush 叫太阳不西冲 Let replace ” Li He delightedly sorrowfully just snort/hum several, did not go again. 让欢喜代替了哀愁呀”李和刚哼出几句,再也接不下去了。 Ding Shiping does not have the means that must with the security same place, thinking the means to draw the bedroom him, „listens my, sleeps well.” 丁世平没办法,只得和安保一起,想办法把他拖进了卧室,“听我的,睡一觉就好。” Unknowingly, received the infection, feels sad, grieved. 不知不觉,受了感染,跟着心酸,心痛。 ps: Sir, each chapter from bottom of one's heart is trying hard, do not grip the heart of old hat. ps:大爷们,每一章都是发自肺腑的在努力,不要扎老帽的心。