The life fears. 人生而恐惧。 From the birth to grown, I have been biggest most initial emotion package by the life- regarding survival or not, whether can see the tomorrow's fear. 从诞生至成年,我一直都被生命最大最初始的情感包裹-对于生存与否,是否能看见明天的恐惧。 The strict sense, from the learned language, called in front of me that indifferent man and respect woman sincerely starts for the parents, emotion that this was hard to speak, has flooded my heart. 严格意义来讲,自学会语言,称呼我面前那位冷漠的男人和敬谨的女人为父母开始,这份难以言说的情感,就一直都充斥我心。 The young child of imperial family, mother is not a high-ranking family, such combination, is representing ‚suffering’. 皇室的幼子,母亲并非显贵家族,这样的组合本身,就代表着‘折磨’。 Before I was born, mother was prescribed medicine, had one ‚Elder Brother’ to be forced to have an abortion, but is unable born, this virulent palace plot made that pitiful woman physical condition have one misfortune after another, was hard to breed the descendant again. 我出生前,母亲就被下药,曾经也有过一个‘哥哥’被迫打胎而无法出生,这恶毒的宫廷阴谋令那位可怜的女人身体状况雪上加霜,更是难以再次孕育后代。 My birth is purely the accident/surprise, because had another imperial concubine to receive the father sovereign to love at that time, thus makes mother who I lose power be neglected, no one has thought has miscarried the physically weak female can also become pregnant unexpectedly again, and by the greatest determination, braving the risk of death to prematurely deliver me. 我的诞生纯属意外,因为那时有另外一位妃子更受父皇宠爱,从而让我失势的母亲被忽视,谁也没想到一位流产过的体弱女子居然还能再次受孕,并且以莫大决心,冒着死亡的风险将我早产而出。 She chooses the premature delivery , because other that time imperial concubines have begun to have suspicions, makes them discover after it plans the plot, might as well give birth to me directly, such at least can also obtain some asylums of my brutal father sovereign. 她选择早产,是因为那时其他妃子已经起疑,与其让她们发现后再谋划阴谋,不如直接生下我,那样至少还能得到我那无情父皇的些许庇护。 I thanked my mother, must thank compared with anyone, that was I am born in the cause of the world, loved me only, and spared nothing the person. 我感谢我的母亲,比谁都要感谢,那是我诞生于世的因缘,是唯一爱我且不惜一切代价的人。 As for others. 至于其他人。 I know the life of civilians like the weed, particularly is occupied by the resident outside motion metropolis, they must endure hungrily, poverty-stricken, the disaster, demonization disease, must accept the exploitation of faction and empire, their lives are full of the misery, even if I hear am moved. 我知晓平民的生命如杂草,尤其是居住在移动都市之外的居民,他们要忍受饥饿,穷苦,天灾,魔化病,要接受帮派和帝国的剥削,他们的生命充满苦难,我即便是听闻都不禁为之动容。 But is similar to me to face other imperial concubines, the suppression of Elder Brother, facing emperor's test, as well as minister looks at carefully such, I must withstand so the misery similarly, is brought the disaster person who tribulation. 但就如同我要面对其他妃子,哥哥的打压,面对皇帝的考验,以及大臣的端详那样,我也同样要承受这般苦难,由人带来的灾祸人劫。 The nature, I am luckier than them-, although cannot leave the imperial capital half step, but I can actually eat to compare in civilian better food, has a better education. 自然,我比他们幸运-虽然都不能离开帝都半步,但是我却能吃到相较于平民更好的食物,接受更好的教育。 But also therefore, I also compared with their pain: Because I know the life the value, instead started to dread the death, was inferior to them to be free and easy, ignorant fearless. 可也因此,我也比他们更加痛苦:因为我知晓生命的可贵,反而开始畏惧死亡,不如他们洒脱,无知无畏。 With the growth, I also gradually understand significance that I have. 随着成长,我也逐渐明白我存在的意义。 I must compete for the Asmoday Empire only throne with my these brothers and sisters, in this process, so long as can be under emperor's permission, we can spare nothing, can resort to any method. 我要和我的那些兄弟姐妹争夺阿斯莫代帝国唯一的皇位,在这过程中,只要能得到皇帝的许可,我们可以不惜一切代价,也能动用任何手段。 Hides in the harmonious imperial palace, is hungry wolf of one crowd of thirsty food flesh, that is one hidden the dark jungle in empire leadership, but I am the bottom of this jungle food chain. 隐藏在和睦皇宫中的,是一群渴食血肉的饿狼,那是一个隐藏在帝国高层中的黑暗丛林,而我是这丛林食物链的底端。 I accepted this, because I am an imperial prince, this is I earns the mission, I have this world Supreme unsurpassed full power right of inheritance inborn, naturally must withstand the test. 我接受了这点,因为我是皇子,这是我应得使命,我天生就拥有这世间至高无上全力的继承权,自然要承受考验。 But sometimes, I can also think, my precious life birth, does compete for a throne for and one group of facial features fierce family members? 但有些时候,我也会想,我宝贵的生命诞生,就是为了和一群面容狰狞的亲人争夺一个皇位吗？ My mother braves the risk of difficult labor also to me be born in the world, at that time, that pitiful woman thinks that certainly isn't ‚I must make him the emperor in this empire’? 我的母亲冒着难产的风险也要将我诞生于世,那时,那个可怜女人想的,肯定不是什么‘我要让他成为这个帝国的皇帝’吧？ She thinks that merely is only, hopes that my premature infant, can go on living safely. 她想的,仅仅只是,希望我这个早产儿,能平安活下去而已。 Therefore, occasionally, indeed angrily and at a loss in roof staring starry sky, when gazing at everywhere stars, suspected that all these are whether meaningful. 所以,偶尔,的确会又愤怒又茫然地在屋顶凝视星空,在注视着漫天繁星时,怀疑这一切是否有意义。 Why, wants to declare that I don't want the throne is not good? 为什么,想要申明我不想要皇位都不行？ So bored and pitiful competition, really needs to cost my lifetime time, even is the life goes to and brothers and sisters suffers mutually? 如此无聊又可悲的争夺,真的需要耗费我一生的时间,甚至是生命去和兄弟姐妹们互相折磨吗？ Sometimes has thought dies- dies on death ends all troubles, then so as to avoid pain is boring. 有些时候想过死-死就一了百了,免得那么痛苦无聊。 May raise the head each time looks at the star the time, my in one's heart actually is full of the courage suddenly. 可每次抬头看星星的时候,我的心中却总是突然充满了勇气。 This world length and breadth is so boundless, the history and vestiges of many eras in the world. 这个世界那么广袤无边,诸多纪元的历史和遗迹就在天地之间。 So many mysteries, so many unknown, merely is the thinking on the in one's heart fiery adventure...... 那么多奥秘,那么多未知,仅仅是思索就心中火热的冒险…… How can I such dying easily? 我怎么能这么轻易的死去？ Grasps this only faith, I lived all favorable turns. Although I rather do not want that favorable turn. 秉持这唯一的信念,我活到了一切的转机。虽然我宁肯不要那转机。 The mother died, the pitiful woman, the great mother, trades to leave the opportunity in imperial palace with the own life for me, an opportunity that enables me to escape. 母亲死了,可怜的女人,伟大的母亲,用自己的生命为我换来离开皇宫的机会,一个让我可以逃出去的机会。 I am deeply grieved, but mother lets the note that I go on living well, and comfort of Akharonov makes me clearly become aware, my life is not I alone can decide, what its carrying/sustaining is my mother's life, I to the free hope, we to future hoping, the reason and going on living. 我悲痛欲绝,但是母亲让我好好活下去的字条,以及阿哈罗诺夫的安慰却让我明悟,我的生命并非是我一个人可以决定,它承载的是我母亲的性命,我对自由的渴望,我们对未来的期许,以及活下去的理由。 Mothers and all my significances, in my life. 母亲和我的一切的意义,都在我这条命上。 Therefore I escaped, with I best partner Akharonov same place. 所以我逃了出去,和我最好的伙伴阿哈罗诺夫一齐。 Has saying that the life in wilderness is very indeed dangerous, although we prepared completely safe, but met powerful source energy wild animal, was pursued half jungle by that blacksnake, is almost buried in the snake abdomen. 不得不说,荒野中的生活的确十分危险,虽然我们做好了万全准备,但还是遇到了过于强大的源能野兽,被那条黑蛇追了半个丛林,差点就葬身蛇腹。 Luckily at that time met Eroweich, without this best friend, likely we live radically is about three days. 幸亏那时遇到了伊洛维兹,如果没有这位最好的朋友,很可能我们根本活不过三天。 But with them in the day of outdoor life, is a I most relaxed satisfied period of time. 而和他们在野外生活的日子,是我最轻松惬意的一段时光。 We go forward, adventure, does not have any fetter, but enjoys in the pleasure that in this stretch of the world travels. 我们前进,冒险,没有任何束缚,只是享受在这片天地中游历的乐趣。 Three people push in the horse stable the arm are pushing the arm, the thigh by the thigh ; Because was deceived by not good peddler, ate the half a month mildewy bread and fishy smell smoked meat, that is the interesting recollection. 无论是三个人挤在马厩中胳膊挤着胳膊,大腿挨着大腿;还是因为被无良贩子骗了,吃了半个月发霉的面包和腥臊熏肉,那都是有趣的回忆。 We progressed to run quickly in Marx and Engels prairie, bridge over had just experienced the radiation hill of disaster, we once with the legendary source energy wild animal of western jungle, a huge double headed alligator fight, and brought back to the empire his head, triumphal returned to return. 我们策马在席马恩大草原上奔驰,跨过刚刚经历过天灾的辐射丘陵,我们曾与西部丛林的传奇源能野兽,一只庞大的双头鳄鱼战斗,并且将其头颅带回了帝国,凯旋回归。 At that time, I even no longer frightened. 那时,我甚至不再恐惧。 Even if in the heavy industry machine soldier puppet facing vestige fortress, facing having the antiquity era constructions of all sorts of different functions installed the body, even in hand, only then a long sword, actually must face the enemy almost in the inexhaustible beam artillery attack, I did not have the least bit to dread. 即便是面对遗迹堡垒中的重工机兵傀儡,面对有着种种异能的上古纪元构装体,即便是手中只有一把长剑,却要面对敌人几近于无穷无尽的射线炮攻击,我也没有半点畏惧。 Yes, I indeed may die, but that is my oneself decision, I know the risk, I chose the adventure. 是,我的确有可能死,但那是我自己决定的,我知晓风险,我选择了冒险。 If I died like this, that is my destiny, this oneself controls the feeling of oneself life, be only this dangerous time can induce. 倘若我这样死了,那就是我的命运,这种自己掌控自己生命的感觉,只有这种危险的时刻才能感应到。 I think that this is I in the future the lifetime miniature, I will become the in this world best adventurer with my two partners, explores Aion Continent each corner- I have even built a foothold, manor of my careful design. 我本以为这就是我未来一生的缩影,我将和我的两位伙伴成为这个世界上最好的冒险者,探索埃安大陆的每一个角落-我甚至已经建立了一个据点,我精心设计的庄园。 Akharonov buried several barrels of wines there, he said that and other in the future our academic honor achievements, this liquor takes us to become the testimony of legendary adventurer. 阿哈罗诺夫在那里埋了几桶葡萄酒,他说等未来咱们功名成就,这酒就作为我们成为传奇冒险者的见证。 But I said that only then wine line? Therefore put altar/jar liquor, is the rich taste. 而我笑着说只有葡萄酒怎么行？于是就又放了一坛蒸馏酒,也算是丰富口感。 Such life, if can continue, even if dies is still joyful. 这样的生活,倘若能持续下去,即便是死也是快乐的。 Until that day. 直到那一天。 Guarding the imperial palace of emperor comes, ‚invitation’ I go back, return to that imperial palace hunting ground that is full of the virulent line of sight. 皇帝的禁卫前来,‘邀请’我回去,回到那个充满着恶毒视线的皇宫猎场。 His reason is I already enough powerful, has the qualifications and these stupid brothers and sisters to me powerful competes. 他的理由是我已经足够强大,强大到我已有资格和那些愚蠢的兄弟姐妹竞争。 The fear flows in my marrow again. 恐惧再一次于我骨髓中流动。 I awaken suddenly, my life does not belong to my oneself. 我忽然醒悟,我的生命并不属于我自己。 The freedom, the desire, vainly hoped , the adventure, the distant place...... in the face of the survival, all that I long for does not have the significance, my future was not decided by me. 无论是自由,愿望,梦想,冒险,远方……在生存面前,我所渴望的一切都毫无意义,我的未来并不由我决定。 In ‚father sovereign’ under the order, I fall into the shackles again, was fettered, was imprisoned by others. 在‘父皇’的命令下,我再一次陷入牢笼,被束缚,被其他人禁锢。 That time I almost in collapse, after guarding the imperial palace left silent for one day and one night not to speak, in one's heart anything has not thought that only then almost in absolute helplessness and vacant. 那时的我几近于崩溃,在禁卫离开后沉默了一天一夜也没有说话,心中什么也没有想,只有几近于绝对的无奈和茫然。 „Goes back with it, I rather die here.” “与其回去,我宁肯死在这里。” „Do not worry, we will accompany your, Mikhail, even if your brothers and sisters savage like the tiger, I can also block for you!” “别担心,我们会陪你的,米哈尔,哪怕是你的那些兄弟姐妹凶残如虎,我也能为你挡住！” But Eroweich comes to comfort me, this pure hunter, is self-designated is the Knight countryside boy is striking one's chest to blow own horn: „If somewhat is indeed possibly difficult on you and Akharonov that but if adds on me, you do refer to erratically can be the emperor?” 而伊洛维兹前来安慰我,这个单纯的猎人,自命为骑士的乡下小子拍着胸脯自吹自擂:“假如就你和阿哈罗诺夫那的确可能有些困难,但倘若加上我,你指不定就能当皇帝呢？” „Yeah.” But Akharonov is also calmer than me, he said with a smile: „At least compared with we escaped initially, you and Eroweich were quick the Divine Will step, enough protected oneself completely, if advance, that among many grown imperial prince sovereign females, was the quite strong influence.” “可不是嘛。”而阿哈罗诺夫也远比我镇定,他笑道:“至少比起当初咱们逃出来时强多了,你和伊洛维兹都快神意阶了,完全足够自保,倘若都进阶,那么在众多成年皇子皇女间,也算是相当强的势力了。” „...... Don't you fear death?” “……你们难道不怕死吗？” I asked Eroweich at that time, the tone filled puzzled: „The old man who that dies quickly wants me to go back, you can stay behind greatly, excessively free day Ah!” 我那时问伊洛维兹,语气充满了困惑:“那快死的老头子只是要我回去而已,你们大可以留下,过自由自在的日子啊！” „Accompanies me to go back, but almost of ten dies not fresh!” “陪我回去,可是几近于十死无生！” „Hi.” “嗨。” They said: „Do we best brothers, how possibly drop out you?” 他们说道:“咱们可是最好的兄弟,怎么可能抛下你？” If I am they, I will drop out. 我如果是他们,我会抛下的。 Akharonov, or Eroweich, I do not want, for they die. 无论是阿哈罗诺夫,亦或是伊洛维兹,我都不愿意为了他们死。 Yes, my completely I will help them full power, lets them happier, I am willing to give up my own benefit, letting Eroweich can become stronger, can make Akharonov enjoy his tranquil life, looks like now such, I can contain their all, all shortcomings, small problem, some greedy and temperament. 是的,我会尽我全力去帮助他们,去让他们更加幸福,我愿意放弃我自己的利益,让伊洛维兹可以变得更强,可以让阿哈罗诺夫享受他平静的生活,就像是现在那样,我能包容他们的一切,所有的缺点,小毛病,一些贪婪和脾气。 I am very good to speak, does not want to make them return to the imperial palace with me, because I know that this was really dangerous, even if were I wants to live, does not want to make the friend accompany me to bring death. 我很好说话,也不想让他们跟我回皇宫,因为我知道这实在是太危险了,哪怕是我想活着,也不想让朋友陪我送死。 But if meets the similar condition, I will not be running risks to stay behind. 但倘若遇到同样的状况,我不会冒着风险留下。 This is I can only the rigid thing, if I died, what significance all of this world are again happy have? 这是我唯一能执着的东西,我如果死了,这世间的一切再怎么美好又有什么意义？ These have not explored secret world, history that no one knows, if I died, how these things do exist? 那些没有探索过的秘境,无人知晓的历史,倘若我死了,那些东西存在又怎么样？ I could not see. 我又看不到了。 I am a despicable person, but I will therefore not be shamed, the shame thought what oneself does is the mistake, but also does that therefore meets the mood that the sensation arrives. 我是个卑劣的人,但我不会因此而感到耻辱,耻辱是觉得自己做的是错的,但还这么做,所以才会感知到的情绪。 But I want to live, even if despicable, what wrong but does this have? 而我只是想要活着,纵然卑劣,但这又有什么错？ Returns to the imperial palace, I participated in that battle again. 回到皇宫,我再一次参与了那场争斗。 Conspiring in palace is always vapid, as sits in changing that stupid old man on sovereign place is getting more and more weak, the struggle between successors is also getting more and more obvious, even to will send people to assassinate directly mutually, the situation of positive/direct storm. 宫廷内的密谋总是毫无趣味,随着坐在换皇座上的那个愚蠢老头越来越虚弱,继承人之间的斗争也越来越明显,甚至到了会直接互相派人暗杀,正面强袭的地步。 Was lucky Eroweich, if were not he blocked the minimum over 17 waves killers, perhaps how I and Akharonov did not have means such smooth going on living again resourcefully. 多亏了伊洛维兹,如果不是他挡住了起码十七波以上的杀手,我和阿哈罗诺夫再怎么机敏恐怕也没办法这么顺畅的活下去。 However to final time , will not have what killer. 不过到了最后时刻,也不在会有什么杀手了。 Fellow ministers and aristocrats elected to stand on the spot, even the major group armies have started to concentrate. 各位大臣和实地贵族都选好了边站,甚至各大集团军都已经开始投注。 The following struggle, no longer is the small scale in palace, but is the true war. 接下来的斗争,就不再是宫廷内的小打小闹,而是真正的战争。 Therefore, before this vast empire civil war will soon start, Asmoday 12 th inexplicably dies a violent death at resting palace matter, no one pays attention. 所以,在这场浩大的帝国内战即将开始之前,阿斯莫代十二世莫名暴毙于寝宫这件事,没有任何一人关注。 He damn, this death was a signal, the omen of emperor heir civil war. 他早就该死,这死亡不过是一个信号,皇帝子嗣内战的前兆。 But kills his person is I. 而杀死他的人正是我。 „I cannot allow permits you dead in other person of hands, even if your life span and disease.” “我不能容许你死在其他人手中,哪怕是你的寿命和疾病。” Sneaks the resting palace, sits says in me of dying old person sides of the bed, this tone indifferent command oneself is strange. 潜入寝宫,坐在垂死老人床沿的我如是说,这语气冷漠的令自己都陌生。 Meanwhile, blocks the hand of old person neck to make an effort, even crumb bone: „‚Father sovereign’......, is you calls me, if you did not call me to come back, perhaps I still planted the grape in the west side, occasionally explored the vestige, long-drawn-out drank to lead a life of comfort.” 与此同时,扼住老人脖子的手更加用力,甚至捏碎了骨头:“‘父皇’……哈,是你把我叫回来的,如果你不叫我回来,我或许还在西边种葡萄,偶尔探索一下遗迹,悠哉的喝酒享乐。” „This is your own choice, your death is you have only self to blame, although regrets.” “这是你自己的选择,你的死是你咎由自取,尽管后悔吧。” „Regret......, you can also, be killed by your child like this.” “后悔……哈,你也会,被你的孩子这样杀死。” Although the old men are unable to speak, however his soul is subpoenaing, passed on a message with a smile: „This is our family's destinies, really fondly remembers, 135 years ago that autumn, did I also block my father's throat like this...... perhaps am one glass of poisoned liquor? I forgot.” 老头子虽然无法说话,但是他的灵魂却在传讯,笑着传讯:“这就是我们家族的命运,真怀念啊,一百三十五年前的那个秋天,我也是这样扼住了我父亲的喉咙……或许是一杯毒酒？我忘记了。” „Only imperial prince who Mikhail, dares to murder the father, you are really most suitable to work as of emperor, your brothers and sisters do not coordinate you to fight......, therefore, you, when knows, such result, is Fate of emperor.” “米哈尔,唯一敢弑父的皇子,你果然是最适合当皇帝的那个,你的那些兄弟姐妹都不配和你争锋……所以,你当知晓,这样的结局,就是皇帝的宿命。” He said with certainty, brings almost in the Fate feeling of destiny. 他言之凿凿,带着几近于命运的宿命感。 But I only find it ridiculous. 但我却只觉得可笑。 Fate? Child? In the future? 宿命？孩子？未来？ No. 不。 Cannot. 不会了。 I will not have what child, has what wife. 我才不会有什么孩子,有什么妻子。 I will not make them arrive in world, endures patiently suffering of misery. 我不会让他们来到世间,忍耐苦难的折磨。 It looks like if I can elect, I will not arrive at in this world absolutely. 就像是如果我能选,我绝对不会来到这个世界上。 How pitiful...... the child is born in the world does not depend on oneself, but lies in parents, they are unable to reject, is unable to choose, arrival of being forced floods sorrowful and helpless world in this, will therefore sob. 多么可悲啊……孩子诞生于世并非取决于自己,而在于父母,他们无法拒绝,无法选择,被迫的降临在这充斥悲哀和无奈的世间,所以才会哭泣吧。 The heir of imperial family, is ordinary families' children, in this aspect, is the same. 无论是皇家的子嗣,还是普通人家的儿女,在这方面,都是一样的。 I was clear compared with anyone, myriad things all living things in Aion world, each are enduring patiently inherent suffering, in the fixed village, I once by the husband also had the parents to kill with that Akharonov and Eroweich ran into one after another countrywoman who ate the meat, was, in the motion metropolis, these lived are also being the firewood, the only significance was arrested Demonized Person and civilians who burnt down. 我比谁都清楚,埃安世界的万物众生,每一个都在忍耐着与生俱来的折磨,无论是固定村庄中,我曾经和阿哈罗诺夫和伊洛维兹遇到的那个被丈夫还有父母接连想要杀了吃肉的村妇,还是,移动都市里,那些活着也不过是薪柴,唯一的意义就是被抓捕烧掉的魔化者和平民。 demonization disease and disaster, look like the world simply to the curse of life. 魔化病和天灾,简直就像是世界对生命的诅咒。 They are the same, is not they of aristocrat, so long as lives is also being difficult, pain, even regrets the own birth. 他们都是一样的,并非是贵族的他们,只要活着就又艰难,又痛苦,甚至后悔自己的诞生。 But the aristocrat is not difficult, but they did not have when the time comes. 而贵族也不是不艰难,只是他们还没到时候。 I will become their nightmares. 我会成为他们的噩梦。 Finally, I became the emperor. 最终,我成了皇帝。 These bored brothers and sisters, the one by one small and weak pitifulness, they never saw to pass away the misery, did not understand the essence of what this world, as soon as they were born when , for the emperor struggled diligently, absolutely did not have the own desire and thought. 那些无聊的兄弟姐妹,一个个都弱小的可悲,他们从未见过世间的苦难,也不理解什么这个世界的本质,他们一出生就在为了当皇帝而奋斗努力,根本就没有自己的愿望和思想。 They are living, to be this emperor? Dog deng, even was inferior that the countryside farmer wants to go to the city the experience market desire! 他们活着,就为了当这种皇帝？狗屎,甚至不如乡下农民想要去城里见识市面的愿望！ Defeats them, kills them, is so senseless, Eroweich and Akharonov were happy for me, I actually want the yawn bored. 战胜他们,杀死他们,都是如此无趣,伊洛维兹和阿哈罗诺夫为我高兴,我却无聊地想要打哈欠。 When emperor nonsense matter makes one want to spit simply, the major aristocrats, relations among the major group armies are complicated, I who just ascended the throne said that anything does not turn out as said that but in entire Asmoday Empire is the aristocrat runs amuck, the faction stands in great numbers, even if the imperial capital is also the people of all kinds of pilferage runs amuck, the patrol soldier does not even have the means to arrest them, because they mostly have the relations. 当皇帝这种狗屁事情简直让人想吐,各大贵族,各大集团军之间的联系千丝万缕,刚刚登基的我说什么都不算话,而整个阿斯莫代帝国境内更是贵族横行,帮派林立,哪怕是帝都也是各式各样小偷小摸的人横行,巡逻士兵甚至没办法抓捕他们,因为他们大多都有着关系。 God knows such country has the significance that what has, the difficult non- achievement is to let these aristocrats live same doesn't have the brain with the maggot? 天知道这样的国家有什么存在的意义,难不成就是让那些贵族活的和条蛆一样无脑吗？ Good that might as well destroy earlier. 不如早点毁灭的好。 I want to give up the throne more than once, throws this fool same throne and royal crown of after the brain, lets in these heads the mildewy aristocrat and my brother sisters does not know where illegitimate child leaves behind to struggle a happiness. 我不止一次想要放弃皇位,把这个傻逼一样的王座和冠冕扔在脑后,让那些脑袋里面发霉的贵族和我兄弟姐妹不知道遗留在哪儿的私生子去争个痛快。 I rather go to mountain inside and bear live, goes hunting to fish, does not want to stay in this decayed pit. 我宁肯去山里面和熊过日子,一齐打猎捕鱼,也不想呆在这个腐臭的坑里。 However the friends of mine always persuade me. 但是我的朋友们却总是劝说我。 „You, since does not like, that makes them change Ah!” “你既然不喜欢,那就让他们改啊！” They are quite helpless, seems unable to understand this choice: „You but now emperor! Wish makes the farmers eat to the full, making the robbers and bandits vanish, making the crime reduce...... you always to achieve!” 他们颇为无奈,似乎根本无法理解这种选择:“你现在可是皇帝！想要让农民都吃饱,让盗匪绝迹,让犯罪降低……你总是可以做到的！” „Moreover, we will help your!” “而且,我们会帮你的！” „Yes, regardless of what difficulty, we can with you in the same place!” “是啊,无论什么困难,我们都会和你在一起！” I am very affected. 我很感动。 That time I, was very affected, was affected. 那时的我,真的很感动,非常感动。 Always some people when you most were sick this world, brings for you to the confidence of this world, Eroweich and Akharonov indeed makes me understand, if I will want to drop out the throne to explore world mystery in the future, that must at least this empire entire seems like a country, the decent point is good. 总是有人在你最厌烦这个世界的时候,为你带来对这个世界的信心,伊洛维兹和阿哈罗诺夫的确令我明白过来,如果未来我想要抛下皇位去探索世间奥秘,那起码也要把这个帝国整的像是个国家,像模像样一点才行。 In this case, at least such, sold to the profiteer that our bad bread and mildew smoke meat probably in the past little. 这样的话,至少像是当年那样,卖给我们坏面包和霉熏肉的奸商会少一点。 Therefore I decided that is a qualified emperor. 所以我决定去当一个合格的皇帝。 Makes the heavy law, reforms the agriculture, the rebellion of still place aristocrat, exterminates the robbers and bandits, with these belts rebel army combat of my brother sisters given name rebellion. 制定重法,改革农业,平定地方贵族的叛乱,剿灭盗匪,和那些带着我兄弟姐妹名号叛乱的叛军作战。 I did utmost, rack brains, routed in the one by one empire aristocrat mountain top, becomes hierarch who Asmoday Empire kept promises truly, my agricultural reform made the meter/rice that this world's largest Order civilization everyone can eat not to starve to death, my heavy law killed 1 million people, scared 10 million potential criminals, saved 100 million victims in the future. 我竭尽全力,绞尽脑汁,击溃了一个个帝国境内的贵族山头,成为了阿斯莫代帝国真正说一不二的掌权者,我的农业改革令这个世界最大的秩序文明所有人都能吃上不会饿死的米,我的重法杀了一百万人,吓坏了一千万个潜在的犯罪者,在未来救下了一亿位受害者。 Is less than 20 years, I made the population of entire empire turn one time. 仅仅是二十年不到,我就令整个帝国的人口翻了一倍。 Enlightened emperors, clear(ly), Empire Zhongxing, prosperous time. 圣君,明君,帝国中兴,鼎盛时代。 They described me with such glossary, described that this time, they extolled, cheer. 他们都用这样的词汇来形容我,形容这个时代,他们赞颂,欢呼。 But such feeling, as if also good. 而这样的感觉,似乎还不错。 I immerse in this type pleasantly, actually in one's heart also prepares how to make the empire again the sense of achievement that...... the commendation brings well, at least can make the day not so bored. 我沉浸在这种喜乐中,心中还再筹划究竟如何才能让帝国变得更好……称赞带来的成就感,至少能让日子不那么无聊。 Until that day, I knew brutal of destiny again. 直到那一天,我再一次知晓了命运的无情。 A year of summer, I obtained a news. 一年夏天,我得到了一个消息。 That is the specialized data from imperial stargazing stage, they detected several hundred years of celestial phenomenon data, ultimately reached a conclusive conclusion without doubt in such several years recently. 那是来自皇家观星台的专业数据,他们侦测了数百年的天象数据,最终在最近这么几年得到了一个确凿无疑的结论。 Above the vault of heaven, that is shining our radiance, will soon extinguish. 天穹之上,那正在照耀我们的光辉,即将熄灭。 Sacred Sun will extinguish. 圣日将熄。 At that time, the farmland or the village, are the city or the imperial palace, by lonesome ice cold cover, will be changed to the nihility forever the frost fragment. 彼时,无论是农田还是村庄,是城市还是皇宫,都会被永寂的冰寒覆盖,化作虚无的冰霜碎片。 I, Eroweich, Akharonov, is on all influences as for Aion Continent is unavoidable, our rules, the reform, after racking one's brains, brand-new regulation and following reform procedure, is not studious. 我,伊洛维兹,阿哈罗诺夫,乃至于埃安大陆上所有的势力都不能避免,我们的统治,改革,殚思极虑后才制定的全新律法以及后续的改革步骤,都是无用功。 The world is going to destroy, irreversible, at least I cannot think that what method can reverse. 世界将要毁灭,不可逆转,至少我想不到有什么方法能逆转。 Although from judgment day also several hundred years, what can several hundred years make? Let alone does not take 100 years, Sacred Sun to cannot let the situation that the person survives feebly. 虽然距离世界末日还有数百年,可数百年能做什么？更何况不需要一百年,圣日就会衰弱到不能让人生存的地步。 In that flash, I as if returned to the childhood once again, endless frightened and floods my heart anxiously. 在那一瞬间,我仿佛又一次回到了童年,无尽的恐惧和焦虑充斥我心。 Even becomes the emperor...... my life, the destiny, cannot as before as one pleases. 即便成为了皇帝……我的生命,还有命运,依旧不能由己。 That stupid old man died, but this world was still suffering me, is suffering the myriad things. 那个愚蠢的老头死了,可是这个世界仍在折磨我,折磨着万物。 I do not want to explore, does not want to go to what distant place, I gave up the desire and dream, to be a qualified emperor, stays in this bored position previous for a long time, but how to make this state happier. 我已经不想探险,不想去什么远方了,我放弃了愿望和梦想,为了当一个合格皇帝,呆在这个无聊的位置上这么长时间,只是为了如何让这个国度变得更加美好。 I earnestly seek, merely is free, can not need the anxiety on the right of breath, thing that a point can be gripped...... 我渴求的,仅仅是一点自由,可以无需忧虑就呼吸的权利,一点可以被握住的东西…… I do not want to fear. 我只是不想恐惧。 I did not understand why this desire is unable to be realized. 我不理解,为什么就连这种愿望都无法实现。 I hate this world. 我憎恨这个世界。 ...... …… Su Zhou and Sun Sovereign distant looking at each other, two people vision interlock, have delimited the long distance, concentrates in mutual body. 苏昼和太阳皇遥遥对视,两人的目光交错,划过漫长的距离,投注在相互的身上。 He was shocked suddenly, because the Su Zhou vision had the striking contrast. 他一时间愣住了,因为苏昼的视觉产生了强烈的反差。 Sun Sovereign source energy and realistic angle of view, are as bright as the pinnacle, wants the dazzling ray compared with Sun, even in the south boundary, can still see in the halo that the horizon place shines clearly, looks like huge ring such simply, equal title deed penetrating four directions. 太阳皇的源能和现实视角,是明亮到极致,比太阳还要耀眼的光芒,即便是在南境,也能清晰看见正在地平线处亮起的光晕,简直就像是一个巨大的圆环那样,平等地照彻四方。 Sun Sovereign this title indeed not false, the energy that if Burning Spirit Blazing Torch brings is also so powerful, perhaps then it really can same shine the Aion world with a small Sun, the safeguard empire overwhelming majority population go on living. 太阳皇这个称号的确没有虚假,倘若燃灵炽炬带来的能量也是这般强大的话,那么它恐怕真能和一个小太阳一样照耀埃安世界,保障帝国绝大部分人口活下去。 However, in the Evil Devouring Demon Lord angle of view, the position that Sun Sovereign is, his existence, is actually a darkness. 但是,在噬恶魔主的视角中,太阳皇所在的位置,他的存在,却是一片漆黑。 The thorough black, does not have the slight ray, not slightly malicious, looks like black hole such in universe, anything does not exist, does not have the aura, does not have the significance, pure nihility. 彻彻底底的黑,没有丝毫光芒,也没有丝毫恶意,就像是宇宙中的黑洞那样,什么也不存在,既没有气息,也没有意义,纯粹的虚无。 No, there is. 不,还是有的。 Su Zhou can induce to...... in the core place of nihility, one type condensed the extreme, most undifferentiated hatred. 苏昼能感应到……在虚无的核心处,有一种凝聚到了极点,最为无差别的憎恨。 To him, to the world, to land and sky, to existing myriad things, is as for hates to own. 对他,对世界,对大地和天空,对存在的万物,乃至于对自己的憎恨。 This hates impervious, is unable to understand, actually Su Zhou is very difficult to imagine a person to how be able to accumulate such evil intention, is as for letting his soul could not reveal that the least bit is bright. 这仇恨不可理喻,无法理解,苏昼很难想象一个人究竟要怎样才能累积出这样的恶意,乃至于让他的灵魂显露不出半点光明。